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00:24I think I've made the choice of where my shelter will be.
00:28I'm going to start making a kayak.
00:30The kayak is going to solve my fishing needs, allow me to find water and do my recce, so
00:35this kayak is actually pivotal to my survival out here.
00:40I have not seen a single thing alive.
00:44Just quiet and nothing.
00:47What if I just can't catch anything?
00:49I wonder when I'm going to crack.
00:53This is a super tough environment.
00:56I want to go clean.
01:00The COVID's irritating in your heart and that's causing it to raise.
01:04I need to medically take you out in the field.
01:07Who wants to sit out there cold, wet and miserable the longest, oh congratulations, you win, you
01:12know?
01:13Ah, yes!
01:14I'm officially tapping out.
01:15I don't know what's going to happen.
01:17Something better fucking change.
01:22Holy fuck.
01:23What is this place?
01:25What have I gotten myself into?
01:28We have to document this whole experience while trying to survive at the same time.
01:35Check it out.
01:38Like 60k wins.
01:40Mother nature is kicking my ass.
01:46This experience is just as much a mind game as it is a survival game.
01:52Ha ha!
01:53We got dinner!
01:56Ah, you fucker!
02:00Suddenly going downhill very, very fast.
02:05A $250,000 prize would change my life.
02:09I like you Tasmania!
02:12I like you Tasmania!
02:50Good morning.
02:53I had another night similar to my first night.
02:57It rained.
02:59Uncomfortable.
03:02That was about it.
03:07You told her to get up.
03:10I really haven't eaten anything since I got here.
03:14The tough part is going to be the starvation.
03:17A few floaty bits in here.
03:22As soon as I found out I was in this competition, I've dropped everything and been preparing full
03:27time.
03:29And I have gone nuts and I've put on as much weight as I could.
03:32I've got 19 kilos in two months.
03:34It feels like I've got back fat.
03:37I think this is about almost 30 days of free time almost.
03:45Like I've got a 30 day buffer.
03:47Like if I ate nothing in 30 days time, I'd probably end up looking like I was two months
03:52ago when I didn't have any excess weight.
03:56So I'm glad it's there.
03:58It actually wobbles.
04:00First time I've ever seen my stomach wobble like that.
04:06The biggest threat for me here is starvation.
04:08And that could lead to my elimination because I get too thin.
04:12This may take me to a level of starvation that I've never experienced before.
04:26I need to gather food to feed my body.
04:32I'm going to make a set line on a pole for fishing.
04:38And I want to keep the bendy tip on this to help me know if I've got a fish on.
04:46This is a pretty shabby rod.
04:47It's not really a rod though.
04:48It's a set line.
04:49So it doesn't matter that it's shabby.
04:53It matters that it just does the job.
04:58Right.
04:59Now I'm all ready to go to go find a big chunky piece of bait.
05:06There's a tree over there I noticed even last night had some borer holes in it.
05:10And I'm hoping that they're kind of similar to witchetty grubs.
05:13So I'm going to have a dig around in there.
05:30Oh, jackpot!
05:33Yes!
05:35That is a good sign.
05:37Because what I'm looking at now is going to be my bread and butter bait from now on.
05:41And I've got a bloody tree full of it.
05:44Yes!
05:46Check this out.
05:49It's almost a waste he is it for bait.
05:51Oh yeah, look at how long he is.
05:55Awesome.
05:56I mean, you just couldn't get a better bait than that.
06:04Alright, let's go stick him on a hook.
06:07Sorry mate, this is going to hurt.
06:09I'll go him through the head first so he puts him out of his misery.
06:16Yum yum.
06:17Alright, let's get this in the water.
06:24We have to be able to see our fishing lines at all times to see if we've accidentally caught a
06:30platypus or something like that.
06:31So I can see this with the branch on the end there.
06:36Whatever I catch, it's going to alert me to it because I'll be able to see that whole thing going.
06:40So if I apply that same technique, I can have a line there, there, there.
06:47Basically this whole 180 degree sphere and I can easily see if I caught a fish.
06:55That feels good.
06:56I might as well just do some more now.
06:59Just to increase the likelihood I'll know where the bait is.
07:07When you've been deprived of food and water, personal safety becomes a higher priority.
07:16My biggest fear is getting taken out by something small and missing out on the opportunity to really go the
07:22distance.
07:24And it is a possibility.
07:25So I'm going to have to be really careful that I don't do anything stupid.
07:48Yeah.
07:53That's a sign to stop doing that movement whatever that was.
08:09This fatigue I'm feeling now is actually quite similar to starvation fatigue.
08:28I have a rest and then a kayak time.
08:52It's a raven.
08:55Wah, wah, wah.
09:08So I'm just going for a little wander.
09:11It's weird, I didn't feel hungry for the first two days.
09:14But today I am feeling it a little bit.
09:19Maybe it's just my body slowing down.
09:22I love botany and I love plants and I've learnt a lot about bush foods, traditional foods.
09:31I'll be able to hopefully procure a good source of food even if the hunting isn't going well.
09:36The wood fungus here is so cool.
09:39It's huge.
09:41It's bigger than my head.
09:43Look.
09:44That's my hand.
09:47But this environment is so different to what I'm used to.
09:52It's just, um, it's thrown me a little bit for six.
09:56It's so beautiful.
10:00The only couple of foods plants that I've seen so far are just like, you know, that lady grass.
10:06You can eat the very bottom bit.
10:08Woo!
10:09Check this out.
10:10So this is what I was looking for, this nice white, beautiful white here.
10:15That's what I'm looking for.
10:17Mmm.
10:17A little bit acidic.
10:20But I'm pretty sure that's good to eat.
10:22What I'm thinking is I could easily eat the first, say, inch.
10:28But I might, I might go two inches and go the fibrous sort of bit just to get some roughage
10:34through my tummy.
10:35I think that might be good for me.
10:38Cool.
10:39There might be some animals on your outfit, Juno, that your mum might see.
10:44I've got a wombat.
10:45I have a PhD in ecology where I focused on animals that live in hollows in trees.
10:52As a wildlife biologist, I travel around Australia looking for new species of plants and animals.
10:59I'm a really experienced solo hiker and I love getting outdoors on my own.
11:04I've hiked most of Australia's iconic hiking trails and many off-track ones as well.
11:11I live in Canberra with my partner Elsie.
11:14What are you looking at, eh?
11:16Elsie gave birth to Juno six months ago and Juno's just the happiest little baby ever.
11:22And by the time you come back, she might be crawling.
11:26Leaving Elsie and Juno is going to be incredibly hard, but I would love for my daughter to be proud
11:30of me when she grows up and watches this.
11:33There's not many points in your life where you are offered an opportunity to go sit in the woods, you
11:39know, test your skills.
11:41It's the ultimate test.
11:56I think it's pretty important for me to try and, you know, get into fishing and get some protein happening
12:02if I want to stay out here long term.
12:04Found this really cool sort of a whippy stick that I thought could make a great little bush pole.
12:09So I'm just going to trim it up, whack a bit of line on there, chuck a hook on and,
12:14you know, yeah.
12:15See how we go.
12:19Bait.
12:20I've been collecting bait and putting it in my shoe.
12:23Big guy.
12:24I think they call them night crawlers.
12:26I might actually use him in pieces.
12:35I mean, I feel like the meanest person sticking that hook through a worm.
12:41Part of me wants to catch something, the other part doesn't want to.
12:45But this is what I'm here for.
12:47To push myself.
12:51Don't fall in the water.
12:53I have no idea how hard it is to catch fish here.
12:58So just see how I go.
13:11I don't feel right about this spot.
13:19It all feels a little bit harder maybe without the calories coming in.
13:25Not getting my 2,000 calories I need per day.
13:34Like I know that the calories are the issue, but I'm just trying to live with the land.
13:38I'm not using it for my personal gain.
13:41As an ecologist, someone who's worked hard to protect the environment,
13:46I'm not really in a rush to just start destroying it.
13:53We'll see.
13:54We'll see how I go with the hunger, I guess.
14:15We'll see how I go with the hunger.
14:21Had some dreams about eating last night.
14:25I was eating some scallops and chicken wings and, oh, heaps of bread.
14:33I've got to get some food.
14:44All right.
14:46It's time to go for a little bit of a hunt.
14:49Here, possum possums.
14:52Oh, he's got another sentry.
14:56And I'm going to be on the lookout for possums that are asleep in some logs or up a tree.
15:01Oh!
15:07Yeah, nice big possum stew.
15:11I reckon that's what I'll do with one.
15:14This is nuts.
15:17It's just a matter of finding.
15:20Nice log.
15:33There's a beautiful log there, but it all just seems so wet.
15:36If I was a possum, I'd be like, stuff that.
15:39I'm not sleeping in there.
15:42Oh, here we go.
15:45Okay.
15:46Okay.
15:46What have we got here?
15:49Oh, you know what?
15:51Is that possum, sir?
15:55It's just to the right of that.
15:59No way.
16:02Let's go and have a look around the corner here.
16:06Seemed it was about there.
16:09Even if that is a possum, he's way too far up here for me to get.
16:20So, try and find one that's a bit more accessible.
16:36If we don't get meat some day soon, we're probably not going to do too well out here.
16:59What is that?
17:01What is that?
17:07I wish you could feel what it's really like to be here.
17:10It's like, I mean, this magical, mysterious children's book.
17:18Getting, like, mad disassociation feelings, which normally is a bit ordinary.
17:24But at the moment, like, this is amazing.
17:31This is the best part about life, being here right now, looking at this on this exact day.
17:37This is, this is what it's all about.
17:45Wouldn't mind a coffee though.
17:50I'm doing this for myself, ultimately.
17:52I want to really improve my mental health and my emotional connection with nature.
17:59It's been many years since I got out of the army and, you know, I've got some severe anxiety and
18:05some PTSD.
18:09I've changed my, um, animal.
18:12I'm targeting.
18:13We're now moving on to crayfish.
18:15Freshies.
18:22Yeah, it took me a long time to find out what the actual cause was with the PTSD.
18:28Eight and a half months in the Middle East of just always on the adrenaline high.
18:34And just coming back from that and going into the civilian world.
18:39Still haven't really, you know, found my place, I guess.
18:49A bit harder to find than the southern rock lobsters.
18:57Going home empty handed.
19:00Again.
19:02Yeah, it's going to be a real issue if I can't get any, um, any meat, lobsters, fish.
19:10Basically just means stay out here long enough until the body shuts down.
19:19That's really it.
19:21There's no other fuck to it.
19:42My job is hunting.
19:43My job is tracking.
19:44My job is stalking.
19:45It's what I do.
19:46I'm a hunter.
19:47Like when I sound the baddest motherfucker in this competition.
19:50It's because I am.
19:54Not even a bird.
19:57Not even a bird.
20:00Come on.
20:01Give me something.
20:03Just give me something to be like, hey.
20:06Hey buddy, how you going?
20:17You're great with a rifle.
20:20You're great with a rifle.
20:22You're great with a bow.
20:24Like I'm so used to using them that when it comes to being without them, it's very hard as well.
20:43Day three.
20:45No food.
20:48I'm starting to feel it.
20:50But I really am starting to feel it.
20:54I need something to put in my system.
20:57Something.
20:57Anything.
21:04Anything.
21:09I need 10,000 calories of food just to sustain what I'm doing right now.
21:15And I'm not going to get that.
21:18Doing what I've been doing.
21:23You've got the mushrooms too.
21:26You eat one of them.
21:28You wake up in four days time.
21:29It's a good way to make time go by.
21:32But you've also been a bad way when you wake up.
21:41You know what?
21:41I'm a great shooter.
21:42It doesn't matter how good you can shoot.
21:44You've got nothing to shoot at.
21:45You can't fucking shoot.
22:05I don't know what to do anymore.
22:12Tasmania up so far.
22:15You're beating me.
22:16You're winning.
22:20Absolutely wrecking me.
22:39I chucked my little lion in with just a worm that I found last night.
22:45And I've got a...
22:48I've got an eel, I think.
22:51Holy shit.
22:52Yes.
22:55Yeah baby.
22:58It is, it's an eel.
23:01I'm going to dong it.
23:08Yeah, I've got to dong it.
23:10Sorry mate.
23:26Oh fuck.
23:51Now what do I do?
24:01Alright I just filleted my little eel. My main strategy might just be whenever I get food
24:11is just to eat it so yeah I might get the fire going and boil this guy up and have
24:18like a
24:21eel stew. This feels I'm not really going to enjoy this meal like it's calories but I don't really
24:39like fish or eels. I like sushi but I'm not prepared to eat anything raw here. Okay I'm
24:49going to eat the eel. I don't actually want to eat the eel but this is what we're doing we're
24:55eating
24:55eel. I don't want to eat the eel. Okay it's alright. I'm going to eat the eel. It's going to
25:07be delicious.
25:14Mmm it's oily. Wow it's so oily.
25:25Oh it's okay. It might never matter. Woo. Yeeha. Live in the dream.
25:45Golly. It's so oily. Clearly I'm not starving enough.
26:17I want to be getting my nutrients straight away. I don't want to eat the eel. I want to be
26:21getting my nutrients
26:21I don't want to be waiting for my body to start breaking down.
26:27I've already found a few little grubs so why not?
26:37At this stage I don't have to eat much. Might even try these on a hook as well.
26:42Fishing. I can keep going on pretty much nothing and that can be a little bit of an advantage.
26:55Sour. Look like a bloody hoxen or something on my tongue.
27:08That was silly.
27:15Foraging for bush tucker is what I know and what I enjoy doing.
27:20Found a bit of coffee berry.
27:24Still has its fruits on. A couple there.
27:32Dose them in some water for 24 hours and then they should be nice and soft.
27:37Ready to eat.
27:39It's a little win.
27:41Yay.
27:46As an Aboriginal man, this experience will deepen my connection to country.
27:52I'm from Dharawal country here in the Illawarra.
27:55I'm a wildlife and environmental officer.
27:57My passion working on country is what brought me to my career.
28:04For my job I need to have an extensive knowledge of flora and fauna, both native and invasive.
28:12Foraging for bush tucker and being able to read country is going to be an advantage to me.
28:19I want to get it.
28:20You like it?
28:24Our house is being renovated for a couple of rooms for the children.
28:29And we are currently living in a caravan.
28:38I'm doing this for my own self journey, but also to financially benefit my family.
28:45They are sacrificing time without their father.
28:50They are sacrificing living in a caravan.
28:53They are tearing up.
28:55This experience is going to be so hard.
28:58I love you.
29:00I love you.
29:01I love you so much.
29:01I'll miss you.
29:11Oh dear.
29:16That is my first hole in my tarp.
29:22No!
29:25Pretty shitty shelter if it starts picking up 35k wind.
29:31To be successful in this, I need to keep warm and dry.
29:36So I need to get started on my permanent shelter.
29:45It's pissing down.
29:50Who would have thought I'd bring my axe on alone to hold up my shelter and keep the water out.
30:03Oh dear.
30:26Oh dear.
30:29No food.
30:33I feel like I've let myself down a bit.
30:38It's not good to sit down and think.
30:39Not good for me.
30:40It's very easy for the mind to go, oh you can just go home and eat.
30:45But you think like that and you lose all the motivation of all the other thoughts.
30:52That's the reason I'm here.
30:56Can't sit still in the same spot for too long.
31:11Time to make a fishing net.
31:14So when you tie them up the top, you want to keep even spacing along here.
31:20And we're going to go all the way along.
31:26Every day I deal with my PTSD and anxiety.
31:29Some hours are better.
31:30Some days are better.
31:31And some are pretty dark.
31:33Yeah, I always thought, you know, post-traumatic stress, especially military related, was, you know, you kind of don't really
31:42have any right to have it unless things got really, really nasty.
31:46Because, you know, there's always someone next to you going, oh, you know, you didn't see much, not compared to
31:54what I saw or what I did.
31:56And that's not the right way to talk to people.
32:00And it's not the right way to think.
32:04You can get PTSD off the most smallest amount of things.
32:10So, yeah, pretty much after Iraq, I got off the plane in Darwin, went to the pub, got pissed.
32:19Really pissed.
32:20I guess that was just what seemed normal.
32:24Like, what else do you do?
32:26I just turned to the alcohol and just partied.
32:30Partied hard.
32:32Yeah, that's the worst thing you can do if you're sort of struggling a little bit mentally.
32:37It's just, yeah, start hitting the piss.
32:45You know, I got to the point where I was drinking maybe 90, about 90 beers a week.
32:55And that's with having some days off.
32:59What a dickhead, eh?
33:01That's not who I want to be, who I am.
33:04And then everything just came crashing down a few months later.
33:08Had a bit of a breakdown.
33:17It's just the booze.
33:19The booze bringing out the demons.
33:29Feels good to talk about it, even though I'm talking to this net.
33:36It's actually the most anxious I've been
33:39since I've been here on the land
33:42is when I'm talking about it.
33:44About this.
33:52The old chest.
33:54Chest gets tight.
34:02Might be enough of that sort of talk for now.
34:05I want to go too far down the hole.
34:18Let's go fishing.
34:19I'm bored of this.
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34:58There's my hinge.
35:01Ha ha!
35:02Ha ha ha ha!
35:03Ha ha ha ha!
35:04Ha ha ha ha!
35:07Still alive?
35:09That's good.
35:14This place is an absolute bastard of a place to fish.
35:19Like, it's almost impossible to not have a snag and fish from the bank.
35:32The kayak is the only way to solve it.
35:35If I troll through the middle of the riverbed, that is clear of snags.
35:41That would definitely be a place where the fish would want to hang out.
35:55I hope that this 20 kilo fat layer will last until I get back to my normal weight.
36:00And I hope by then I'll have my ducks in a row whilst I have this energy and fat.
36:07That's pretty much my goal.
36:21I like this little tree, but I need a vice so I can have things held for me while I
36:28saw them.
36:29Or I'm trying to strip some bark off the things that go in the bottom of my kayak.
36:36And this little tree is going to be my vice, hopefully.
36:41My greatest skill is improvisation.
36:42I can visualise engineering challenges in my head and test them
36:49and then come up with a fairly good working model of something for the first time.
36:57I also need to make myself some tools.
37:06Beauty.
37:11Eventually I'll get to a point out here where I've kind of made everything including the kitchen sink.
37:17And one little task is much easier because I've created all the tools to go and do the next task.
37:23But it's just this bedding in thing, getting all your systems set up.
37:34All right, now I've got a mallet to hit the back of the axe to make the vice.
37:42And then I can wedge in whatever I need to cut into here and it'll hold it like a vice.
37:49So I can polish the beams that will go in my kayak.
37:58It might seem like a lot of effort for that one job, but I'm going to do a lot of
38:01these poles.
38:03And so many things about what I'm going to do is going to be more efficient if I'm doing it
38:08at a good height and safer.
38:11And I'm less likely to cut myself.
38:15Yep, that vice is bloody good.
38:19There's several benefits to debarking it like this.
38:23One is that there's less sharp edges that can puncture the kayak.
38:27And two, the bark adds weight.
38:31And the lighter the kayak is the better because I'll be pulling it in and out of the water.
38:41So I'm just going to keep pushing through this tonight, see if I can skin all the poles off.
38:46Figure out some of the design for the kayak.
38:52The quicker I get this bloody thing together, the quicker I can get out fishing and exploring.
39:02You know what I got here?
39:19Yeah.
39:19Yeah, yeah.
39:22Wow.
39:25Wow.
39:28Come on.
39:30Old Rex Hunt, he'd be proud.
39:35Yabby-yabby-doo, that's all, folks.
39:37Is that him? I think he did something like that.
39:43What if I just can't catch anything?
39:45And then I just wait until I starve.
39:49I don't know how I'll go mentally with pure starvation.
40:01It looks like something's moving on there.
40:05Come on, come on, come on, come on, come on.
40:08Come on.
40:15No way!
40:20No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
40:22Let's go.
40:23Yeah!
40:25Yeah, I got a fish!
40:27Yeah!
40:29You beauty!
40:31Ha, ha, ha!
40:33Jessalinko!
40:36Oh, I'm so happy!
40:38Whoa!
40:40Ha, ha, ha, ha!
40:43We got dinner!
40:44Yeah!
40:45I got a bloody fish!
40:47It's me first trout too!
40:49Okay.
40:51We're gonna put him to sleep.
40:54That's it.
40:57Oh, we're having fish soup for dinner!
41:00Yeah!
41:04Ha, ha, ha!
41:05I was getting pretty disheartened before, I'll be honest.
41:09Right, oh, let's get out of this rain.
41:17Ha, ha, ha!
41:18I can catch food!
41:20I can survive!
41:22Don't even eat a possum.
41:24You guys are safe now!
41:27Ha, ha, ha!
41:32It's good to be alive, isn't it?
41:33It's good to be alive.
41:34It's good to be alive.
41:38Ah, yeah!
41:56Look at the ground.
41:58Even the ground looks cool.
42:01Like, everything's really pretty.
42:04Just not to live and survive in.
42:08Oh!
42:12Ha!
42:13It is very, very hard to walk through that terrain.
42:16It's all mud and slosh and slippery and mosses and...
42:20Look, look, I'm just stepping.
42:22Just step.
42:25I'm not even putting weight on it.
42:28Just...
42:29Oh!
42:29Oh!
42:32Fuck!
42:38Don't lose your shit, mate.
42:42Oh!
42:57There's just nothing but fucking mud.
43:01All I need is one game trail.
43:02Just one.
43:03Just hear something move and take off.
43:06I'll be very happy.
43:09Even if it's an animal not on my species list, I'll be happy just to know that something lives in
43:14this.
43:22Oh, fuck.
43:23I can't even fucking walk here.
43:26Fuck me, dude.
43:28It's like I'm ice skating here.
43:32I'm fucking trying, I'll tell you that much.
43:35I'm trying to lose my fucking shit.
43:37Fuck!
43:38Fuck!
43:45This is really getting on my nerves.
43:56Just keep pushing, Peter.
43:57Just keep pushing.
44:08Ugh!
44:12Ugh!
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44:45GRYSES
44:47GRYSES
44:47TOOL
44:47GRYSES
44:54GRYSES
44:55GRYSES
45:06TOOL
45:10that fucking hurt
45:18that was my knee
45:21in that rock
45:22that was my back
45:25on that branch
45:27and my axe
45:29smacked me in the back of the fucking head
45:33oh
45:44fuck
45:47that hurt my knee
45:49alright
45:54everything just keeps fucking me here
45:57am I not supposed to fucking be here or something
45:59like fucking tell me
46:05fuck
46:05fuck
46:07I've got shit
46:09it's fucking wet everywhere
46:13fucking hungry
46:18oh my gosh
46:27my first night I set up the tarp wrong
46:31and it was raining a lot
46:32and all the water ended up coming into the tarp
46:34and absolutely soaked all my clothes
46:37so I don't have any more dry clothes
46:40I can't start a fire
46:42because everything's really wet
46:45after I went for that walk today
46:48there wasn't much sign of anything here
46:51I've walked every single inch of where
46:54the area that's been allocated to me
46:56and I didn't see anything
46:57and that's not saying that they're not here
46:58I just didn't see them
47:04I don't know what to do
47:13I will make that call
47:21this is something that I can't do
47:24and I thought I could
47:25and I thought I could
47:25but I can't
47:26there's nothing else for me here
47:30hello
47:32I'm officially tapping out
47:33come and grab me
47:37I've done three days of walking
47:38I haven't seen a single thing
47:39they'll just come pick me up
47:41they'll take me home
47:52they're on their way
47:53so we'll see what happens
48:08here they come
48:12my saviours
48:22hey what's happened
48:24I had a fall earlier on today
48:27and I thought I was going to be okay
48:28but it's just gotten a lot worse
48:30my knee's just blown out
48:32so it's not
48:33there's not much else I can do really
48:35I pushed hard
48:36trying to find something
48:38to hunt
48:39to eat
48:40I haven't eaten in three and a bit days
48:41so
48:45yeah
48:46and I just
48:47it'll be stupid for me to push further
48:51okay so can you just point to where it's saw
48:54there
48:54just there is it
48:55yep
48:56okay
48:58stomping through that mud
48:59you just get so frustrated
49:00you just want to just
49:02chomp through it
49:03and just keep stomping away
49:04just to get out of it
49:05and that one wrong step
49:06is what got me
49:09accidents happen
49:10they're called accidents for a reason
49:20I thought I was going to last
49:21to the very end
49:23there was no doubt in my mind
49:25I'm just spewing
49:26because I had so much more
49:27to show the world
49:28what I wanted to do
49:28and what I could do
49:33it's a once in a lifetime opportunity
49:35that just
49:36didn't work out in my favour
49:42you deal with the cards you're dealt
49:43and
49:44if you've got a good hand
49:45you play
49:46if you don't
49:47you fold
49:53this is me folding
50:05I'm really enclosed here
50:08it takes this long
50:09to go one metre
50:10it's not a good sign
50:11I'm exhausted
50:13what is that
50:14where is it
50:15wow
50:19the shack
50:19is complete
50:20hello
50:21I don't know if it's waterproof yet
50:23but we'll find out
50:24hello little fella
50:26I'm going to switch to
50:27making that trap
50:28full time today
50:29it looks pretty good
50:31but I didn't test it
50:32you know
50:32I don't know whether
50:33that'll be hopeful or not
50:35I'm losing my fucking shit
50:37aye
50:37I really am
50:38you live another day
50:40my friend
50:40I'm over it
50:42I'm fucking over it
50:56if you or someone you know
50:59need support
51:00contact Lifeline
51:0213 11 14
51:04text 0477
51:0613 11 14
51:08lifeline.org.au
51:11beyondblue
51:121300 224 636
51:15beyondblue.org.au
51:18openarms
51:19veterans and families counselling
51:211800 011 046
51:24openarms.gov.au
51:27in прог has the
51:27it's really
51:27up to you
51:27onto vous
51:27it'sivo
51:27help
51:27even