written by Nabil Shaban performed by Tina Leslie - 1990 edited by Nabil Shaban - 2010
"If I decide" by Nabil Shaban
If I decide to commit suicide How shall I do it? ......With blade or with bleach? Where shall I do it? .....In the glade or on beach? Why shall I do it? .......Am I alien or a leech? I’m closed up. No access. Me they can’t reach. If I decide to commit suicide When shall I do it? .....Before or after the laughter? Time blows up. “Oh!” Max says. Me they can’t teach. If I decide to commit suicide Will I change my mind before or after I die?
3rd April 1984
One of many poems in "Dreams My Father Sold Me" : anthology of poems and graphic art by Nabil Shaban
