00:00I got a panic attack. Saya tiba-tiba rasa macam saya tak boleh nafas macam tu.
00:03Sempatlah kan tengok macam my best friend dapat pergi nikahkan oleh ayah dia.
00:09Tapi it's something yang Aisyah tak dapat nak. I will never be able to.
00:14Pelakon Aisyah Emira mengakui masih dalam fasa bersedih selepas kehilangan bapa tercinta Allahyarham Datuk Zakaria Abdul Rahman pada Mei lalu.
00:24Malah, Aisyah turut berkongsi pengalaman mengalami serangan panik ketika menghadiri majlis pernikahan rakan baiknya apabila teringatkan arwah bapa.
00:34Bagaimanapun, Aisyah berkata dia cuba menenangkan diri dan menerima hakikat kehilangan insan tersayang itu meskipun ada ketikanya emosi masih tidak
00:45menentu.
00:46Ialah, siapa je yang tak rindu bapa tercinta.
00:49Lebih-lebih lagi apabila insan yang selama ini membesarkan kita sudah pergi buat selama-lamanya.
00:56This personal matters lah kot. Kadang-kadang Aisyah pun rasa besar lah jugalah. Kadang-kadang macam meluahkan banyak saya kat
01:02social media kan.
01:03And I try not to. I really-really try not to. Tapi kadang-kadang mungkin kita tahan kot.
01:10Dia macam situasi dia macam. I mean, as a human being, I can only handle so much lah. Kadang-kadang
01:17semua ada limit kita meskipun. Kita boleh tahu.
01:20Aisyah dah boleh bercakap lah. Maksudlah, last time kita interview tu Aisyah tak boleh nak bercerita lebih pasal arwah bapa
01:26-bapa tu.
01:27So, this time, macam mana dah lebih okey ke macam tu?
01:30I think, alhamdulillah Aisyah macam lebih okey. Tapi, dah lebih okey sekarang.
01:39Kadang-kadang benda tu masih still hits. Tapi, kadang-kadang I'm more stable lah to talk about it. Tapi, kadang
01:46-kadang dia memang comes and goes juga.
01:48Macam hari tu Aisyah ada attend. Last time Aisyah punya wedding. So, memang tak ada apa-apa pun lah kan.
01:54Memang ingatkan nak pergi. Just nak have fun.
01:57Tapi, it was the first nikah ceremony yang Aisyah attended. After pemergian arwah. And I seemingly got a panic attack.
02:05So, tiba-tiba rasa macam tak boleh nafas macam tu. So, kat majlis tu. So, I had to leave the
02:11day one sekejap semua.
02:13Sebab, sempak lah kan. Tengok macam, my best friend dapat dinikahkan oleh ayah dia. Tapi, it's something yang Aisyah tak
02:21dapat nak.
02:22I will never be able to experience. So, tak tahu lah. Dia macam kadang-kadang dia grief ni dia pelik
02:29kan. Kadang-kadang kita okey. Kadang-kadang kita tak okey.
02:31So, I'm still trying lah. Just going with the flow.
02:36How do you have some meetings with Sofia?
02:38Hmm, tak.
02:40Tapi, do you have some people?
02:42I'm grateful I still have a lot of people near me. My family, my friends.
02:49Tapi, sometimes I meet the space alone juga. I don't know. It's a very weird situation.
02:57Dia macam, I pun tak tahu kenal-kenal apa yang nak.
03:00Okay.
03:01It's the first time you connect.
03:02It's the first time you connect.
03:04I rasa sebelumnya pernah je. Tapi, I rasa tak sekuat yang masa tu pun.
03:08So, masa tu pun Aisyah, dia tak tahu lah. Dia macam tiba datang. And I really couldn't control it.
03:15Dia memang just couldn't breathe. I don't know where. So, she clean up.
03:20Ya, like lama lah kat luar tu pun. And I felt bad lah jugak kan. Sebab, it's my best friend's
03:26wedding day.
03:27And I tak nak lah macam dia rush that attention to me pula.
03:30Tapi, Alhamdulillah macam okey je.
03:33Macam balik.
03:34Macam balik.
03:34You kembali.
03:36Bang, panik.
03:37Masuk balik ke Dewan tu macam mana?
03:38I think, like, I actually just told myself so many times that memang tu someone else's day.
03:46Memang Aisyah tak nak buat that day about me or anything pun.
03:49Tapi, tiba-tiba dia macam, tak tahu lah. Dia macam so uncontrollable kan.
03:54So, Aisyah calmed myself down sekejap.
03:56Some of her friends were there.
03:58Mereka macam tolong I, comfort I, and stuff.
04:01And then, like, bila Aisyah rasa Aisyah dah okey, Aisyah masih boleh lewat.
04:08Terima kasih kerana menonton!
