00:04I was okay at the beginning, but when I became a bambing, I went to school and I became a
00:10bambing.
00:11I was kind of bambing.
00:14Did you try?
00:15Did you try?
00:16Did you try?
00:16Did you try?
00:16I did.
00:17Yes, I did.
00:19I was a class.
00:20Because you can just drop five absents.
00:24You can drop the class.
00:25You didn't record it.
00:26I don't count the absents because it's an absents.
00:30It's a drop class.
00:32It's a failure due to absence.
00:34I don't want to repeat the subject because it's the schedule.
00:40I'm like,
00:41I'm like,
00:41I'm like,
00:41I'm like,
00:42I'm like,
00:43what's your feeling?
00:45What's your feeling?
00:47I'm like,
00:48I'm like,
00:50I'm like,
00:52I'm like,
00:53I'm like,
00:54I'm like,
00:54I'm like,
00:55you're like,
00:56I'm like,
00:56I'm like,
00:57I'm like,
00:58I'm like,
01:00I just need to frame it.
01:08Because there's a dedication and there,
01:10as an artist,
01:11and as an architect.
01:12As an architect also.
01:14So,
01:15in my head,
01:16I'm like,
01:18I don't have showbies in my family.
01:20I don't know if I will have a career after.
01:22And it's incantable.
01:23So it doesn't make sense
01:24that I will shift or quit my school.
01:27So I promised to my parents
01:29that they didn't pay my contract
01:31to the GMA.
01:32Because they wanted to
01:34finish the school first.
01:35So I did.
01:36I promised it.
01:37And then,
01:38there was a journey of 10 years.
01:40It was a back and forth of
01:42ah, I want to do this.
01:43I don't know.
01:44Why do I do this?
01:45That's how my brain is.
01:46Until,
01:47that's the pivotal moment
01:49nung na-hate ako.
01:51Nung na-hate ako dun sa
01:53yung thesis hate ko.
01:54Can you tell us more about that?
01:56Yun nga yung whole
01:57ginaya-ginawang pang content
01:58ni Sasa Girl yun eh.
02:00Kaya nga,
02:00nag-ano pa sa
02:02Saving Cherry and everything.
02:03Kinonfront ko siya dun.
02:04Alam mo ba yun?
02:05Like,
02:06didiretso ko siya.
02:07Isa sa mga inuma namin
02:08after
02:08at pranka rin siya.
02:10Taping.
02:11Oo, pranka didiretso din yun eh.
02:12Sabi ko,
02:13alam mo dati nainis ako sa'yo.
02:14Ginanong ko siya na
02:16na
02:18ginaman mo nung content.
02:19Nga,
02:19yung gano'ng thesis ko.
02:21Nako,
02:21kasi yung hate sa akin dun,
02:23parang sabi nung groupmate ko sa school,
02:25pabigat daw ako sa group work.
02:27Tapos pumotok
02:28kasi akala ng public,
02:30it was a thesis.
02:31To be clear,
02:32anong topic ng thesis?
02:33It was a landscaping class.
02:36Hindi siya thesis,
02:36individual ang thesis namin.
02:38Oh,
02:39hindi siya group.
02:39Hindi group ang thesis namin.
02:40So bakit mayroong group
02:41na sinasabing pabigat sa group?
02:43Yung post mismo,
02:45parang nag-fire up,
02:47akala ng mga tao,
02:48thesis yung group work
02:49na tinutukoy nung nag-ano.
02:51Baka mali lang yung intindi nila.
02:53Baka hindi thesis yun.
02:55This is.
02:56Baka this is yun.
02:58Come on guys.
02:59Baka this is.
03:00This is yun.
03:01Hindi thesis.
03:02Lumaki yun.
03:02But going back,
03:04dahil parang,
03:05okay,
03:06malakas impact nun sa akin.
03:07Kasi akala ko,
03:09parang,
03:09noong time na yun,
03:10kumikita na ako.
03:12Tapos,
03:13yun,
03:13sa school,
03:14di ka naman kumikita doon.
03:16Ikaw pa gumagastos doon,
03:17di ba?
03:18So sa utak ko,
03:19bakit ko pa ito ginagawa?
03:21Yung oras ko,
03:22dito sa set,
03:23na-appreciate ako
03:24na gusto nila yung
03:26binibigay ko,
03:27parang yung value ko,
03:28yung ano ko sa sarili ko,
03:30tingin ko sa sarili ko,
03:31mas,
03:32basically,
03:32in general,
03:33mas na-appreciate ka.
03:34So ba't ko pa ito ginagawa?
03:35Away kami talaga ng magulang ko,
03:37malala nun,
03:38ilang buwan,
03:39na sabi ko,
03:40ayoko na,
03:40ayoko na,
03:40ayoko na.
03:41Until,
03:42nakuha ko yung gusto ko,
03:43I got a break.
03:44Nila,
03:44yung tigas ng ulo ko,
03:46di ba?
03:46Pinaglaban ko,
03:47when I got that break,
03:48Gano ka tagal yun?
03:50Parang two sims din.
03:51One whole,
03:52three sims kami.
03:53So two sims.
03:55Sabi ko,
03:56doon,
03:56doon sa break na yun,
03:57doon ako na-hit.
03:58Parang,
03:59minat ko,
04:00oh,
04:00minat ko yung,
04:01yung ilang taon ng tuition,
04:03tapos parang lagpas din ng million
04:05kung imamat mo.
04:06Tapos nahiya ako sa magulang ko,
04:08na parang,
04:09dahil nga,
04:10nagtatrabaho na ako,
04:11alam ko na yung hirap
04:12ng pagkita ng pera.
04:15Tapos,
04:15pagkatapos nilang bayaran
04:17yung ilang taon ng tuition,
04:18wala akong degree
04:19na mababalik.
04:20Oo.
04:21Parang nahiya din ako sa parents ko,
04:22na,
04:23ako din,
04:24naisip ko sa future
04:24pag nagkaanak ako,
04:26like,
04:27baka sumbata na ako ng anak,
04:29kung bakit ikaw?
04:29Wala kang degree.
04:30Okay lang din,
04:31di ba?
04:31May ganun.
04:31May ganun yung security.
04:33So,
04:34dun ko na-realize
04:35na gusto ko ding taposin
04:36for myself,
04:37not just for my parents.
04:39Nung,
04:40after ng break na yun,
04:42honestly,
04:42bago yung break na yun,
04:44medyo nahihirapan na akong pumasa.
04:46Kasi pinipilit ko na lang
04:47sarili ko eh.
04:48Yun yung feeling.
04:49Akala ko ginagawa ko na lang
04:50para sa magulang ko eh.
04:52As in,
04:52tamad ako gumawa,
04:54ganun na lang yung feeling.
04:55Wala akong motivation.
04:57Parang,
04:57pilit.
04:59Pero when I got that break
05:00and I realized that,
05:01pagbalik ko,
05:02okay yung grades ko.
05:03As in,
05:03di ako nahihirapan.
05:05Kasi,
05:05alam ko sa sarili ko,
05:06I'm doing,
05:07gusto ko na yung ginagawa ko.
05:08I think yun naman yung importante,
05:10na parang,
05:11you know why,
05:12you're why.
05:13Alam mo kung bakit mo ginagawa
05:15yung isang bagay.
05:17And,
05:17I think the hate
05:18needed to happen to me
05:21para ma-realize ko yun.
05:22Kasi kung hindi siya nag-hate,
05:24kung hindi pumotok yun,
05:26feeling ko di ko matatapos.
05:27Hin-hate ka din ba
05:28ng mga classmates mo?
05:29Alam mo,
05:30may magandang kwento yan,
05:31ati Cha.
05:31Sige nga.
05:32Akala ko,
05:33oo.
05:33Akala ko talaga,
05:34oo.
05:34Kasi,
05:35ano ka,
05:35kasi ka,
05:36ina,
05:36oo.
05:37Parang,
05:38online lahat yun eh,
05:39during the pandemic yun.
05:40Oo.
05:41Ayoko mag-on ng camera.
05:43Nag-on ng trauma ka, no?
05:44Oo,
05:44na-affect talaga ako.
05:46As in,
05:47papasok ng mga Zoom,
05:49ano no,
05:50klase,
05:50hindi,
05:51naga-anxiety ako.
05:52Audio lang.
05:53Wala ka bang friends na classmates?
05:55Noong time na yun,
05:55gumraduate na yung mga
05:56real batchmates ko.
05:58Ah,
05:58iba na kasi.
05:59Tulit na,
06:00wala na yung close.
06:00Tapos,
06:01ang hirap mag-make ng friends
06:02online lahat.
06:04Diba?
06:04So,
06:05noong,
06:06naka-hangout ako,
06:07same circle of friends lang.
06:09First time kong ma-meet
06:10yung girl na yun.
06:11Parang girlfriend siya
06:12ng isang kabarkada.
06:14Tapos,
06:15that night,
06:16kinuwento niya sa akin,
06:17lower batch ko siya sa R-key.
06:19Tapos,
06:19first time ko siya ma-meet
06:20dun lang sa inuman na yun,
06:22chill lang.
06:22Tapos,
06:23kinuwento niya sa akin na,
06:24alam mo ba,
06:25may pinasa ka dati sa school,
06:27sa class namin,
06:28sa prof.
06:29naalala ko yung inkantadya yun.
06:31Yung,
06:32mayroon pa ako ni Kuya Pancho
06:33noon eh.
06:33Naalala ko yun na,
06:34isang plate na ganun,
06:36dinudrawing ko yun sa set.
06:37Tapos,
06:38late na ako ng isang linggo.
06:40Late na ako ng isang linggo
06:41dun sa plate ko na yun.
06:43So,
06:44dahil late na nga ako,
06:45pumunta ako sa ibang class niya,
06:47which is yung class nung,
06:49nung girlfriend,
06:50ni friend.
06:51Tapos,
06:52katok ako sa class,
06:53pasok ako sa kanya.
06:54Because,
06:54sir,
06:55ito na po yung plate.
06:56Ganyan.
06:56Tapos,
06:57yung prof,
06:58syempre late ako,
06:58medyo masungit.
06:59Ganyan.
06:59Okay po,
07:00thank you po for accepting it.
07:02Gumano na lang ako.
07:03Tapos,
07:03umalis na ako.
07:05Paglabas ko daw,
07:06sabi,
07:07kinuwento sa akin nung student,
07:09na,
07:10paglabas ko daw,
07:10sabi nung prof,
07:11kilala niyo yun,
07:12si Mikey Quintos yun,
07:13nag-artista yun.
07:15Sabi niya,
07:15tiglan niyo yung gawa niya.
07:16Pinakita niyo sa buong class.
07:18Tapos,
07:18sabi niya,
07:19kahit gano ka late siya,
07:21laging quality yung work niya.
07:23Tapos,
07:24na,
07:26yung validation,
07:27kasi nung time na yun,
07:29nung pumapasok ako ulit ng school,
07:31ni eye contact sa mga studyante.
07:33Nakatingin ako sa floor.
07:35Nakatingin ako sa tiles sa hagdan,
07:36pag umaakit ako,
07:37pag bumababa,
07:38umuwi.
07:39Kasi feeling ko,
07:40lahat sila,
07:40ginadjudge ako.
07:42Dahil dun sa hate.
07:43Pinangunahan mo yan,
07:45lahat-lahat.
07:45Tapos,
07:46nung kinuwento niya yun,
07:47parang nagising ako na,
07:49uy,
07:49meron palang mga people
07:50rooting for me also.
07:52Oo naman.
07:53Like,
07:53meron palang mga,
07:54ah,
07:55gusto din na,
07:55mag-succeed ako.
07:56Totoo.
07:57Akala ko lahat sila parang,
07:59pabigat ka dito,
08:00umalis ka na sa corridors.
08:01Akala ko ganun lahat
08:02ang hindi iisip.
08:03Tapos,
08:04ako na lang yung nagpipilit
08:05ng sarili ko dun.
08:06Ah,
08:06yun pala.
