00:01Oh, hello.
00:02Hi, Maria.
00:03We don't know if you want to take part in making a documentary,
00:07but regardless, you wanted money for today.
00:09Yes!
00:10I don't know if that's how it works, but maybe we have no ethics here.
00:14What?
00:15When I first moved out to Los Angeles, I wanted to be rich and famous.
00:21But then I found out about clerical work.
00:26The first time I saw her, I didn't get what she was doing.
00:28What do they all say when you start a new job?
00:30We do things a little differently around here.
00:33What am I watching?
00:35So hold on to your hands, it's going to be a wild ride.
00:39But it never is.
00:41Sometimes it feels like you're talking to a lobster whose shell has been removed,
00:45and it's just feeling every single molecule in the room.
00:48Mom told me recently,
00:49Hey, when you don't wear makeup, you'll look mentally ill.
00:54Now I'm sure to wear thick green eyeshadow and a line of lipstick around my lips.
01:02Baby, look pretty now, mommy.
01:07When I was around nine or ten, I remember just feeling like there is something desperately wrong with me.
01:13I was a bit of a dark kid growing up.
01:15Occasionally, I'd stage my own death for fun.
01:19My mom would say,
01:20Sometimes I just couldn't find you in the house.
01:23And I just thought, we're just going to have to drag the lake.
01:26I'd always known I had depression and there was bipolar in my family.
01:31But at a certain point, I started feeling extremely depressed.
01:34Marie was on this very, very risky adventure of becoming a comedian.
01:39It did give me some relief being on stage.
01:41There's a lot of memes out there for health that are sort of like,
01:45Hey, tell someone about it.
01:49Hey, you'll get help.
01:51It feels emotionally honest.
01:53Think of all the people for whom her experience is real.
01:55It's all funny and heartbreaking at the same time.
01:57She's my favorite comedian.
02:00I am not a good time.
02:02I am an assignment from a therapist.
02:04I am something comics go to see to go, huh.
02:08Maria is just a true net positive in this world.
02:14Old MacDonald had a pterodactyl.
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