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00:05my fiance saved me from drowning but he was left with a disability on our wedding night
00:11he made me have sex with his brother the Sinclair family needs an heir and you look like his late
00:16fiance you could ease his grief this is what you owe him that was when I learned that the
00:20day I fell into the ocean his brother's fiance had fallen in two they couldn't save her
00:28one lost a beloved future sister-in-law the other lost the love of his life so when I opened
00:35my
00:35eyes again when Nathaniel came to rescue me I swam as hard as I could in the opposite direction found
00:40the girl who was sinking pushed her toward Nathaniel then I crawled onto the beach shaking
00:45controllably not far away Nathaniel had reached the shore before me he'd already handed the
00:50drowning girl Rosa over to the paramedics he looked up our eyes met he took a towel from his
00:54bodyguard and draped it over my shoulders don't catch a cold thanks I pulled away from Nathaniel's
00:59hand and stood up on my own people from the yacht were making their way over my head felt foggy
01:04but
01:04I remembered this moment clearly today Sinclands had organized a yacht trip inviting several elite
01:09families they did business with no one expected the accident the hull scraped against rocks I happened
01:13to be standing on the deck and stumbled overboard from the impact having lived a second life I finally
01:17understand that the brothers loved Rosa not me this time I didn't have to marry him anymore I was just
01:21about to tell Mr Sinclair to call off the arrangement a figure stepped in front of me dad I pulled
01:25her
01:26out of the ocean felt nothing not a thing if I can watch her almost drown and not care whether
01:28she
01:29lives or dies I shouldn't be marrying her tell the Ashford call off the engagement Nathaniel's voice
01:32carried on the breeze and it sent a chill down my spine he'd been reborn too just like me he
01:39didn't
01:39want to be married again Mr Sinclair frowned and scolded Nathaniel your marriage was only for family gain
01:45feelings can be cultivated Nathaniel before Nathaniel could respond I spoke to Mr Sinclair
01:50Mr Sinclair you can't cultivate it feelings that were never there and forcing two people together
01:54who don't want each other won't end well for either family since Nathaniel has made it clear he feels
01:58nothing for me I won't force it I hope you'll respect our decision Nathaniel froze turned his head
02:04toward me perhaps he was shocked or maybe he was looking through me seeing someone else probably
02:09because what I said sounded like something Rosa once said but who would have guessed Nathaniel wanted
02:13his brother's fiance in our past life his brother loved Rosa Nathaniel didn't want to tear the family
02:19apart so he settled for me instead I lowered my eyes avoiding his gaze Mr Sinclair sighed you two used
02:26to go
02:26horseback riding and play golf together inseparable I thought the arrangement would make you both happy
02:30didn't realize neither of you wanted it fine I'll talk to the Ashfords the engagement is off thank you
02:35Mr Sinclair I got up to leave I was about to get into the car heading back to the hotel
02:39when someone
02:39called out Miss Ashford I turned around Rosa had recovered Miss Ashford don't you remember me
02:44the children's home in Savannah we've met before
02:50five years ago I went with my grandmother to volunteer at a children's home I happened to hear
02:54a girl crying a staff member told me it was the girl the Bennetts had recently claimed as their
02:58illegitimate daughter she'd been falsely accused of stealing and sent back to the home as punishment
03:02she was the Bennett's seventh illegitimate child salar thin still wearing a flimsy dress in the
03:07dead of winter head down timid afraid of everything I felt sorry for her I started visiting regularly
03:11bringing her clothes and food the children's home was near our family's horse ranch I took her riding
03:16to lift her spirits taught her to read taught her to shoot then my grandmother got sick we had to
03:21rush
03:21back to Boston to see a doctor I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye to Rosa I never
03:26imagined
03:26she'd turn out to be Nathaniel's future sister-in-law Rosa Bennett she changed so much no wonder I didn't
03:33recognize her you told me that in life you have to fight for what you want so I fought for
03:38the
03:38truth fought for the treatment I deserved in the Bennett family when I came back to Boston I tried to
03:43find you but I never got the chance when I heard you'd be on this trip I came along I've
03:47been trying
03:47so hard to get closer to you miss Asheville it hit me then the colors Rosa wore were the colors
03:54I liked
03:55her accessories her makeup they were styles I always used no wonder Nathaniel said I looked like her in
04:00our past life she's imitating me suddenly someone blocked my view Nathaniel had his back to me shielding
04:06Rosa as if he was afraid I'd bully her miss Bennett had a scare from the fall she needs rest
04:10I'll take
04:11you back Rosa blinked confused Miss Asheville fell in too you're her fiance shouldn't you be taking care
04:16of her why are you sending off a stranger instead at this point Rosa hadn't been engaged to Nathaniel's
04:22brother yet I couldn't see Nathaniel's expression Nathaniel and I already called off the engagement
04:28he's not my fiance anymore with that I got into the car
04:36as the door closed Nathaniel's figure flashed past tall straight-backed standing like a statue
04:42not like the man from my past life the one I'd put in a wheelchair I exhaled this time around
04:48I wasn't
04:48the one who ruined everything the truth is I always knew Nathaniel never wanted to marry me the day the
04:57engagement was announced he'd been out riding he actually rode his horse straight into the courtyard
05:02of our family estate one hand gripping the reins he looked down at me so you're Elena Ashfield I'm
05:07never marrying some pampered princess I had a temper back then I grabbed the riding foot right out of
05:11his hand and yanked him off the horse swung myself up into the saddle even circled him once just to
05:15rub it
05:15in and I Elena Ashfield wouldn't waste my time on a spoiled brat who can't even keep hold of his
05:19own horse Nathaniel didn't get angry instead he stared at me blankly for a long time he couldn't
05:24help asking what else can you do golf skydiving shooting too many to list as the Ashford family's
05:30eldest daughter I'd been groomed from childhood academics extracurriculars everything I had to
05:35be the best after that day he kept asking me to hang out he'd often just look at me and
05:39smile
05:40without saying a word I asked him what he was looking at I'm looking at my future wife my heart
05:46sped up against my will for the first time my hands shook while holding a shotgun smooth talker only for
05:52my wife Nathaniel came over to help me load the shells then glanced at my hand most people shoot
06:01right-handed you're just like a friend of mine she likes to shoot left-handed too I thought she was
06:06the
06:06only one with so many people in the world there are bound to be somewhere similar I didn't think
06:11much of what Nathaniel said I spent every day with him we even planned a trip around the world after
06:16the wedding and then the accident happened the Nathaniel who once loved horseback riding and
06:22competitive shooting would never get on a horse again everyone mocked him called him a cripple my
06:27parents wanted to cancel the engagement but I stubbornly married him anyway I'm the one who ruined him
06:32I couldn't abandon him the accident changed Nathaniel into a different person no more smiles dark hollow
06:38eyes on our wedding night he sat in his wheelchair and spoke flatly I'm disabled I can't do that but
06:44the Sinclair family needs an heir go to my brother you look like his late fiancee you could ease his
06:51grief you owe him this the day I fell into the ocean Rosa had fallen too the friend Nathaniel always
06:57talked about his brother Julian's fiancee thunder cracked outside the window my mind went blank I'd
07:04ruined three people's lives that night I walked to Julian's bedroom in my wedding dress numb and hollow
07:12when Julian heard what Nathaniel had said he sighed my brother's always been reckless don't take it to
07:17heart I'll sleep in the guest room you rest here before leaving Julian poured me a glass of wine steam
07:23curled upward dampening my eyelashes I opened my mouth but my throat was so dry no sound came out
07:28I'm sorry felt too small too useless the guilt ate at me I knew Nathaniel resented me so I threw
07:33myself
07:34into taking care of him every morning at dawn I'd get up and cook something nutritious bring it to him
07:38while it was still warm the doctor said your body is proper nourishment I learned some new recipes from
07:42the nutritionist they're really good do you want to try don't bother with lunch I'm not hungry
07:45he was talking to the housekeeper he didn't hear me didn't see me I walked over carefully
07:51when did you get here just now no responses after that he sipped his water in silence I was invisible
07:58then a commotion came from outside it was faint I couldn't quite hear it Nathaniel set down his cup
08:03and spoke to the housekeeper again if they want to set off fireworks let them don't worry about
08:06disturbing me so it wasn't that he couldn't hear me he just didn't want to bitterness flooded my chest
08:10but what right did it I have to feel hurt sometimes Nathaniel would look at me with an expression I
08:17couldn't read like he was remembering or mourning Rosa liked wearing vintage dresses with pearls too
08:23too bad she never got to see the custom dress my brother ordered for her or the pearl necklace I
08:28won
08:28for her at auction Rosa liked putting cinnamon and honey in her coffee too she said it was like dessert
08:33in
08:33a cup Elena stop copying her to get my attention you'll never compare
08:42but I'd been doing those things long before I ever met Nathaniel now it was called imitation I choked
08:48back tears and gave up everything I loved why did I have to be the villain then one night Nathaniel
08:54was drunk he bet my lip and murmured tenderly Rosa that's when it all clicked why Nathaniel was so
09:00angry at me for copying Rosa he wanted his brother's fiance if I hadn't looked like her he never would
09:05have
09:05agreed to marry me in the first place the night air was cold it seeped into my bones I became
09:10the
09:10second Nathaniel quiet hollow dark the one time I was happy was my first birthday after the wedding
09:18my parents came to celebrate the table was full of my favorite foods my mom even made pasta by hand
09:27I smiled for the first time in ages Nathaniel happened to wheel past tomorrow is Rosa's death
09:35anniversary how can you still have the nerve to laugh like a bucket of ice water it drowned the
09:40last spark like of joy I had left the pasta didn't taste good anymore I thought to myself if God
09:47exists
09:47could I please go back and do it over save Rosa I don't want to be the villain anymore I
09:53didn't expect
09:54it but when I opened my eyes again my wish had actually come true Nathaniel and I had both started
09:59over in our past life he'd held back because she was his brother's fiance now Rosa hadn't been promised
10:05to Julia yet Nathaniel had his chance so let him and Julia compete in this life we go our separate
10:11ways whatever happens happens I got back to the hotel someone was waiting in the hallway holding
10:17a cup of coffee with cinnamon and honey Miss Ashford this is from Mr. Nathaniel he said this is your
10:22favorite since it's cold and you're prone to catching a cold he hopes you'll rest early and stop
10:26wandering around was Nathaniel warning me not to cause trouble for Rosa when had I ever had a
10:31problem with her I shook my head with a tired smile throw it out I don't like it I didn't
10:35go
10:35looking for Nathaniel like I had in our past life he didn't come looking for me either every day he
10:40went to the floor where Rosa was staying I heard he personally cooked dinner for her yesterday this
10:44morning he'd sent over a huge bouquet of flowers in four years across two lifetimes I was just now
10:49learning that Nathaniel could cook good he could finally chase the person he wanted the next day
10:54Mr. Sinclair organized a shooting event everyone headed to the outdoor range Rosa arrived early
10:59when she saw me her eyes lit up like she was presenting a prize Miss Ashfield I cleaned it for
11:04you she handed me a shotgun she frowned looking uneasy lately Nathaniel keeps coming to see me
11:12I have no idea what he wants I try to send him away but he won't leave
11:19Rosa was sensitive she overthought everything I understood she was worried I'd misunderstood Nathaniel
11:26and I were in an arranged marriage there was no affection between us now that the relationship
11:30is over I'm actually relieved if you like him go ahead and accept his attention
11:38I'm just glad you don't hate me Miss Ashford we haven't shot together in so long you go first
11:42okay I just chambered around I heard a scoff Nathaniel walked up beside me you got a second
11:50chance and you're still copying people everyone else shoots right-handed only Rosa likes to use her
11:55left and you just have to do it too all to get my attention he didn't bother lowering his voice
12:00for
12:00that second part Rosa heard it her brows nodded copying me Miss Ashfield is the one who taught
12:06me to shoot she's basically my teacher Rosa looked at me eyes full of admiration Nathaniel froze like
12:12he wanted to ask something someone interrupted the restaurant has lunch ready mr. Sinclair wants
12:18everyone to come over Julian walked toward us unlike Nathaniel's brass energy his brother was calm and
12:26reserved I remembered now when we first arrived at the island Julian had gotten sick and had been
12:32bedridden he couldn't even go on the yacht trip the first time he came out in our past life was
12:36when
12:37he received the news of Rosa's death watch them cover her with a white sheet now Julian was well
12:42enough to be outside but his fiancee was being pursued by his own brother I looked at Julian with something
12:48close with pity Miss Ashford let's go after lunch we'll come back and shoot some more before she
12:52finished we were separated Nathaniel squeezed between us and held out the jacket he'd brought
12:57to Rosa temperatures dropping put this on no thanks I'm not cold keep warm though Rosa took the jacket
13:03and tried to drape it over my shoulders I instinctively stepped back I didn't want to touch anything of
13:07Nathaniel's but I lost my foot stumbled someone caught me from behind arms firm and steady Julian's hand
13:12rested on my shoulder careful there's a step behind you thanks I steadied myself and pulled away from
13:18Julian the jacket ended up back in Nathaniel's hands his face was dark he was not happy Julian
13:24didn't seem great either his eyes were lowered only Rosa was oblivious chatting away to me she had no
13:33idea two men were losing their minds over her I let Rosa ramble in my ear as we walked into
13:38the hotel
13:39restaurant she sat beside me Nathaniel and Julian sat across from us alongside other heirs and socialites
13:46this island trip wasn't just for fun Mr. Sinclair was also playing matchmaker after all the Sinclairs
13:52were the top family in Boston one word from him and any match could be sealed so before long a
13:58young
13:58couple who'd hit it off came over hoping Mr. Sinclair would speak to both their families about an
14:03engagement Nathaniel walked over too dad actually I've liked Rosa for a long time could you talk to
14:11Mr. Bennett ask him to let me marry her it's all I want I wasn't surprised with a second chance
14:16there
14:17was no way he'd let himself live with regret again while Rosa sat there stunned Julian walked over dad
14:22please I want to marry Elena Ashford my eyes went wide Nathaniel whipped around and blusted out no you
14:28can't marry her Mr. Sinclair looked at Nathaniel confused why can't your brother marry Elena
14:37she's rough not exactly ladylike Julian is the future head of the family he's handsome his wife
14:43should match him I'm asking dad not you Nathaniel's throat clenched he couldn't find another angle of
14:49attack my head was starting to throbe was Julian doing this to get back at Nathaniel did he think
14:53Nathaniel and I still had something so he'd use me as leverage Julian seemed like the type who didn't
14:58compete but he held grudges in our past life Nathaniel got angry at me for dressing like
15:02Rosa and knocked all the breakfast I'd made onto the floor Julian happened to walk in his sleeve
15:06got stained it was a new shirt his first time wearing it Julian said nothing but for seven
15:10straight days Nathaniel didn't have a single clean shirt every one of them somehow got coffee spilled
15:14on it by Julian I didn't want to get dragged into their mess again so I walked over I'm still
15:18young
15:19I'm not ready to get married Mr. Sinclair set down his glass one of you wants to marry this one
15:27the other wants to marry that one you think I'm playing house with you the entire room went silent
15:33after all the Sinclairs could bankrupt any of their families with a single phone call the tension didn't
15:39ease until Mrs. Sinclair walked in but the marriage arrangement was still finalized Rosa would marry
15:45Nathaniel I would marry Julia the sister-in-law from our past life became the young brother's wife the
15:52younger brother's wife became the sister-in-law what kind of a mess was this my headache got worse
15:57I stepped outside for air Julian followed Nathaniel is impulsive he doesn't think about consequences
16:04I didn't want you going back to Boston and being the butt of everyone's jokes
16:08that's why I brought up the arrangement to my father a brother should fix what his brother breaks
16:14but I'd rather be laughed at than marry into the Sinclair family again
16:17I rubbed my temples Nathaniel came outside too he glanced at me scoffed
16:23you're quite adept at juggling two men but stop copying Rosa stop trying to get my attention
16:29I was about to snap back when Julian spoke first show some respect to Elena Nathaniel choked
16:36his face twisted if being reborn wasn't so insane he would have told them everything about their past lives
16:42right then and there you're really going to marry her you know dad once he makes a decision when
16:48he's angry nobody changes his mind just focus on marrying Rosa and stay out of my business
16:56Mr. Sinclair was staying on the island a while longer everyone else drove back to Boston
17:01at a rest stop along the way Rosa came to find me Miss Ashford I've been thinking about it for
17:06days
17:07I need to talk to you about this engagement with Nathaniel
17:10he was your fiance before now he's mine I
17:15Rosa looked miserable but I understood what she was feeling
17:18I don't mind I told you at the shooting range how I felt
17:23but do you like Julian in our past life they were a couple if this life kept them apart again
17:28I'd feel guilty I barely know Julian I can't call that like so was it one-sided on Julian's part
17:34I was still guessing when I saw familiar face Julian carrying a box of pastries I heard you
17:41like chocolate mousse cake I sent someone to pick some up something to hold you over I just ate I'm
17:48not hungry actually I hadn't eaten at all over the past two days heading back to Boston Julian would
17:54occasionally find an excuse to bring me things I didn't want more contact with the Sinclairs every
17:59time I politely declined and kept my distance Julian was used to it by now he pulled his hand
18:04back I didn't dwell on it turned around and walked away
18:08that night a sudden downpour hit everyone who'd been outside scrambled back to their cars
18:13I was about to make a run for it when a flash of blue gray caught my eye Julian holding
18:19an umbrella
18:19over me his shirt half soaked raindrops still clinging to his eyelashes
18:25no rush I brought you an umbrella the rain was too heavy for first time I didn't refuse him
18:31I thanked him quietly and walked with him toward the RV once I climbed inside I looked down and
18:36realized Julian was completely soaked through he was taller than me he tilted the umbrella so far
18:40over to cover me that he'd taken the full force of the rain while I stood there dazed Julian's
18:45bodyguard ran over and produced a travel cup he'd been keeping dry under his jacket he popped the lid
18:49the smell of cinnamon and honey hit me a coffee made exactly the way I liked it I had someone
18:55grab this for you ahead of time drink it while it's hot so you don't catch a cold I froze
18:59I liked
19:00my coffee with cinnamon and honey Julian shouldn't have known that yet he only learned about it in our
19:04past life after I married into the Sinclair family Julian had been reborn too then why did he still want
19:10to marry me my thoughts tangled into knots Julian didn't leave he stood at the RV door like he was
19:17waiting for me I shifted to the side I can't finish all this come up and have some tooth wait
19:22until
19:22the rain lets up before heading back sorry to intrude he climbed into the RV right then Nathaniel
19:28walked past with an umbrella his eyes darkened but he said nothing he kept walking I faintly heard
19:35someone ask where are you going in this rain there's a bird over there with a hurt wing Rosa feels
19:40bad
19:40for it I'm going to move it somewhere dry I didn't catch the rest Julian closed the door shut out
19:47Nathaniel's voice rain was getting in closing the door helps after that night on the RV Julian started
19:53showing up more he gave me an expensive diamond necklace and he would also lower himself to make
19:58funny faces to cheer me up I couldn't figure out his angle I didn't dare accept any of it but
20:02Nathaniel
20:03seemed determined to one-odd him whatever Julian gave me Nathaniel gave Rosa the same thing Rosa wasn't
20:11thrilled about it Rosa came to my home one day to chat and suddenly let out a heavy sigh Miss
20:19Ashford
20:19do you think like everyone else that Nathaniel is really into me because I don't see it there's not
20:24a shred of real feeling in his eyes I think he doesn't actually like me at all every time he
20:29gives
20:30me something he looks competitive that's it there's always this distance between us maybe he's just
20:37bad at expressing himself because in our past life Nathaniel's heart was full of Rosa he'd mirror her
20:43name in his sleep awake seven out of ten sentences were about her Rosa rested her chin on her hand
20:50sulking even if he does like me he likes the version of me that's confident and bright the Rosa you
20:58created not the real me scared insecure overthinking everything the first time I complained to him
21:05about the long drive back to Boston that the road was bumpy and I was tired he frowned said that
21:09wasn't
21:09like me in his head I should always be carefree always smiling just like you Miss Ashford but the real
21:17me is exactly what he doesn't want my hand paused mid pour I'd never considered whether Nathaniel loved the
21:23real Rosa or the version of me he saw reflected in her I heard you and Nathaniel spent six months
21:28together always hanging out around Boston you never liked him not even for a second no the moment I said
21:39it there was a bang something hit the ground outside I opened the door Nathaniel stood there
21:44stone-faced picking up a fruit platter he dropped slipped out of my hand I'll go get another one
21:53he walked away I don't even like fruit but he thinks I do so he keeps sending baskets of it
21:59every
21:59other day I didn't like fruit either some looked beautiful but tasted sour left a bitter aftertaste a
22:05lot like my marriage to Nathaniel in our past life thinking about it all I tasted was bitterness not
22:10worth remembering back in Boston Rosa and I went our separate ways I told my parents about the broken
22:16engagement with Nathaniel you two were fine before you left you'd already planned a trip around the
22:23world after the wedding what changed she has her own mind let's not push Julian's not bad either
22:30Harvard grad future head of the Sinclair family clean personal life I've dealt with him before steady
22:36reliable miles better than his brother Nathaniel but I refused to make the same mistake marrying another
22:43man whose heart belonged to someone else except Mr. Sinclair's word was law going against it would
22:49hurt my family's business out of options I had someone leak news that I was sick stall the wedding
22:57I counted the days when one illness ran its course I'd invent another stayed home I heard Nathaniel's
23:03side was already getting wedding suits tailored meanwhile Julian and I hadn't even seen each other
23:07since we got back I was living comfortably in my bubble a full two weeks passed mama came in with
23:13breakfast and couldn't help sign why are you faking sick if Julian finds out he'll think you look
23:22down on him when you marry in life will be harder for you it won't be clear quiet voice interrupted
23:29mom
23:29I looked up Julian stood there apologetal I heard Elena's allergic reaction was severe I had someone fly
23:36in specialized medication from overseas I was in a rush to deliver it so I came in without ringing the
23:40bell mom made polite small talk and left giving us space I sat up straight guilty getting caught faking sick
23:53who
23:54wouldn't be embarrassed but Julian didn't mention what he just overheard he set down the medication I've used this
24:00before for allergies works well no side effects then he went quiet I didn't know what to say either
24:11until he looked up and met my eyes like he'd made some kind of decision Elena we've both started over
24:17why won't you give me a chance just try I'm no worse than Nathaniel he came right out and said
24:22it reborn I took a deep breath
24:26you're in love with Rosa I don't want a husband who's dreaming about someone else while lying next to me
24:32Julian went still for a second who said I'm in love with Rosa the person I love has always been
24:37you
24:38the timing was just never right I couldn't say it I stared at him Julian told me everything years ago
24:44he'd gone to the children's home in Savannah for a charity event he saw me walking past and fell for
24:48me
24:48on the spot he was planning to visit my family and propose an engagement as soon as the event ended
24:52but when he called Mr. Sinclair he learned I was Nathaniel's newly arranged fiance he had to let it go
24:57but he kept putting off marriage which drew questions then Nathaniel started asking if he had anyone he liked
25:03Julian fumbled he couldn't say my name he happened to spot Rosa pointed at her just to get Nathaniel off
25:09his back
25:11but Nathaniel took it upon himself to go to the Bennett family behind Julian's back and arrange the engagement
25:16bro it's great that you've got someone you like you're too shy to go yourself so let me handle it
25:22think of it as me trying something new Julian was furious but he couldn't exactly say he was in love
25:28with his brother's fiancee before he could figure out how to undo the engagement he never asked for
25:33the accident happened Nathaniel crippled Rosa drowned
25:40if I just told you how I felt that day at the children's home maybe none of it would have
25:45happened in our past life you were my brother's wife I had to keep my distance otherwise people
25:52would have talked about you behind your back now I understood why Julian never blamed me for costing
25:56him his fiancee why he looked after me why he remembered I liked cranberries in my ginger tea
26:01I thought he was just kind and attentive I didn't know it was because the person he loved was someone
26:07else entirely then I remembered that new shirt of Julian's from our past life it was near Christmas
26:13I'd given him one as a gift he and Nathaniel each got one Nathaniel's went straight to the bottom of
26:18a
26:18drawer Julian kept his for nearly a month before he finally wore it he wasn't holding a grudge about
26:25the shirt getting ruined he was angry because the gift I gave him was ruined
26:39while I sat there frozen someone burst into the room Elena I found you the allergy medication take
26:46this and you'll be fine whatever the reaction is Nathaniel stopped dead his eyes locked onto Julian
26:51sitting beside me what are you doing at her house Elena is my fiancee why wouldn't I be here
26:59the real question is what you're doing barging into her home Nathaniel faltered I I came to drop
27:06off medicine fiancee or not you don't just show up at a woman's house unannounced you're not married yet
27:12if someone gets the wrong idea how's that gonna look for her funny how you didn't think about that
27:17when you were trashing her reputation on the island Nathaniel had nothing he wanted to argue
27:22but there was no argument to make he slammed the box of medicine down and left Julian left too
27:27before he walked out he said to me Elena I already lost you once everything I'm doing now is just
27:33so
27:33I don't lose you again my head was spinning I couldn't name what I felt about Julian after thinking
27:38it over I decided to send the medication back to Nathaniel I didn't want to owe him anything
27:44I'd barely stepped outside the house Nathaniel appeared from behind a tree he hadn't left
27:50he turned his face away his voice was low and tight you can't marry my brother you can marry someone
27:57else
27:57but I can't just because I was married to you once I'm bound to you for every lifetime
28:03the color drained from his face after a long pause he forced out a sentence my brother loves Rosa
28:09wasn't that obvious enough in our past life he wasted away after she died but Julian wasted away
28:15because Nathaniel made it impossible to eat or sleep in our past life Nathaniel's leg would ache every
28:20night he'd moan and groan for hours during the day he'd throw fits and smash things
28:28let alone Nathaniel even in my past life I was skin and bones besides the person Julian loved had always
28:35been me for the first time I looked at Nathaniel like I was looking at an idiot
28:41I called security to escort him out I wanted to keep stalling the wedding but Mr. Singler asked why a
28:48date
28:49hadn't been set yet I couldn't keep it up I announced my recovery for a brief moment I wavered
28:54maybe giving Julian a chance wouldn't be the worst thing but the day Julian and I went to pick a
29:00wedding date
29:01something went wrong the date they picked for me and Rosa isn't good I need a new one he pulled
29:06the
29:06consultant away then he nitpicked every suggestion I don't like the date sounds unlucky that one's no
29:11good either pick again Julian told me to go home he'd wait for Nathaniel to finish I agreed the next
29:17day I heard Nathaniel had been there until dark and still hadn't picked a date Julian ended up going
29:22to someone else to finalize hours I figured Nathaniel was just trying to annoy me but when it came time
29:27to
29:27order the aisle runner for the ceremony he showed up again bought out every supplier I switched to
29:35another store Nathaniel bought that one out too as if anticipating my question he spoke first I want
29:41the aisle runner that goes all the way from Rosa's house to the venue is that a problem you'd go
29:45this
29:45far just to stop me from getting married impressive commitment Nathaniel clenched his fists then he
29:51scoffed don't flatter yourself I want to give Rosa the best I want her walking down that aisle like
29:58a queen when Julian heard about it he said nothing the next day he made a call and had materials
30:06shipped
30:06in from another state as the wedding got closer Nathaniel appeared in front of me more and more
30:12he'd snatched the jewelry I'd already picked poach my makeup artist with a higher offer Julian handled it
30:17every time but Nathaniel kept coming back and it was getting unbearable I finally snapped you've got
30:24your own wedding to plan why do you keep sabotaging mine what do you actually want Nathaniel pressed his
30:30lips together said nothing just as I was about to storm off he asked what if I told you I
30:36can't accept
30:37you marrying my brother I tried to forget you and start over but I can't when I'm with Rosa all
30:40I see is
30:41you at first Nathaniel had been thrilled Rosa wasn't engaged yet he had his shot but the more
30:47time he spent with her the more she felt like a second Elena Ashford Rosa liked wearing purple
30:52vintage dresses Elena liked purple vintage dresses Rosa was a great shot Elena was a great shot
31:02Rosa dotted a beauty mark below her eye Elena did the same the difference was Rosa complained
31:08she voiced her frustrations Elena never did even when Nathaniel ignored her in their past life mocked
31:14her she never once said she was hurt every time Nathaniel noticed these things something felt off
31:20like Rosa had torn through a veil and was standing before him as her true self but it wasn't what
31:25he
31:25wanted Nathan gripped his head I can't tell you and Rosa apart anymore you're not sisters but you're so
31:33alike Elena I think I might like you more I'm about to marry your brother how do you have the
31:39nerve to
31:39say this then I caught a figure in my peripheral vision Rosa standing not far away she'd heard
31:44everything Nathaniel said you don't have to feel torn anymore Nathaniel I already went to your father
31:49and asked him to call off our engagement Nathanley stopped breathing I invited Rosa over put an ice
31:53on her knee to get that engagement dissolved she'd knelt in Mr. Sinclair's office for a long time
31:58her knee was swollen does it still hurt a little pain now is better than a lifetime of it I
32:03don't
32:03want to marry Nathaniel and spend every day guessing what he's thinking getting more and more miserable
32:07you taught me that Miss Ashford fight for what you want this is the result I want actually I can
32:13tell
32:13the person Nathaniel likes is you when he's with me he's always bringing you up you're the only one
32:18who gets a real reaction out of him happy angry sad all of it I didn't know what to say
32:23but Rosa hugged
32:24me I like you too Miss Ashford you're from a great family you're beautiful you ride you shoot you've
32:30got perfect grades you wipe my tears and taught me things I'd never understood who could resist liking
32:35you so I hope you'll be happy from now on I hope you never look back Nathaniel doesn't deserve you
32:39I went still then I lifted my arms and hugged her back Rosa I hope you soar I hope you'll
32:45always be
32:45yourself then came my wedding to Julian Nathaniel as Julian's brother had to attend tradition required
32:50him to address me formally now he had to call me sis he stood in front of me for a
32:55long time
32:56refused to open his mouth the guests kept urging him sis I nodded when I turned to go toast the
33:03guests Elena someone called out behind me I didn't stop walked away without looking back that night
33:09Julian and I were in his private townhouse I'll sleep in the guest room get some rest he said the
33:15same thing he'd said in our past life Julian grabbed his pillow and blanket and left I exhaled
33:22I'd married him because our families needed it but getting past the wall inside me would take time
33:27I took off my dress and was about to lie down when I noticed something carved into the nightstand
33:35roses my favorite flower
33:39meanwhile at the reception venue Nathaniel had to stay behind to see off the ghasts on Julian's behalf
33:44when it was Rosa's turn he went quiet but Rosa spoke for there's something I never told you if
33:50I don't say it now it wouldn't be fair to Elena she'd be carrying blame that was never hers Nathaniel
33:55you liked watching me shoot confidently on horseback you liked that I held my head high when things were
33:59unfair you liked the beauty mark below my eye that's all because I was copying her I admired her I
34:04wanted
34:04to be even a fraction of what she was it's not that she looked like me I looked like her
34:07Nathaniel's
34:08ears were ringing he couldn't hear whatever Rosa said after that the reason he'd fallen for Rosa in the
34:12first place was seeing her on that horse raising a shotgun with her left hand he thought she was
34:16different he admired her brightness but she just told him she'd been imitating Elena Ashwind which
34:20meant from the very start the person he fell for was Elena it was just that Rosa carrying Elena's
34:25shadow appeared first Nathaniel felt a phantom ache in his legs the kind from his past life out of
34:30habit he squeezed his thigh hard trying to ease the pain he kept pressing until his hand drifted to
34:36his chest oh it was his heart that hurt I'd been married before but this time everything felt
34:44different I didn't have to wake at dawn to cook didn't have to walk on eggshells every morning
34:49when I woke up my favorite foods were already on the table whatever Julian did he asked my opinion
34:55first even pouring me a glass of water he'd ask if the temperature was right every time I turned around
35:00there he was watching me with those quiet smiling eyes when he caught me looking back Julian blinked I
35:05wasn't made of stone over time my walls came down I heard it's getting cold this week maybe you
35:10should move back in sleep here with me two people warmer Julian stared at me for a long time then
35:15suddenly pulled me into a tight hug okay whatever my wife said maybe Julian was blocking Nathaniel
35:20behind the scenes in the months after the wedding we lived in the same gated community but I never once
35:26ran into Nathaniel I heard he'd gotten sick after my wedding nobody knew why but one day Julian came
35:33home with a faint bruise on his face I asked he said he tripped that same day Nathaniel left the
35:42Sinclair
35:43house said he was going on a trip around the world alone completing the promise from a past life I
35:51didn't see him off didn't even send a polite message through someone this life we'd each chosen our own road
35:55no reason to look back from here on out may our paths never cross again
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