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From three lines in a high school play to a face on a screen that never dies, this is your life as an actor at every level.
Every episode takes a lot of research and writing. Drop your next video idea in the comments. I read them all.
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VIDEO TOPICS/TIMESTAMPS:
0:00 The Dreamer
2:43 The Student
5:41 The Struggling Actor
8:16 The Day Player
10:49 The Working Actor
13:31 The Series Regular
16:17 The Lead
19:05 The Movie Star
21:43 The Legend
24:43 The Ghost
Every episode takes a lot of research and writing. Drop your next video idea in the comments. I read them all.
Subscribe so you don't miss the next one! 🔔
VIDEO TOPICS/TIMESTAMPS:
0:00 The Dreamer
2:43 The Student
5:41 The Struggling Actor
8:16 The Day Player
10:49 The Working Actor
13:31 The Series Regular
16:17 The Lead
19:05 The Movie Star
21:43 The Legend
24:43 The Ghost
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00:00Level 1. The Dreamer.
00:02You are 17 years old.
00:04You live in a small town.
00:06Nobody famous ever came from here.
00:08Your father works behind the counter at a hardware store.
00:11Your mother teaches third grade.
00:13There is one stoplight on Main Street.
00:16There is one movie theater.
00:18It shows films two weeks late.
00:20Your weekends are gas stations and football games and empty roads.
00:25You have never met an actor in your life.
00:28You audition for the school play almost by accident.
00:31A girl you like signed up first.
00:33You follow her into the auditorium.
00:35You did not plan to try out.
00:37You did not think you could act.
00:39You read a few lines for the drama teacher.
00:42She tilts her head and watches you closely.
00:44You get a small part anyway.
00:46Three lines.
00:47A messenger who delivers bad news in the second act.
00:52Rehearsals quickly become the best hours of your week.
00:54You start arriving early just to sit in the empty seats.
00:58You love the smell of dust and old curtains.
01:01On opening night, you stand in the wings.
01:04You are sweating through your costume.
01:06Your heart slams against your ribs.
01:09The stage manager whispers your cue.
01:11You walk out into the hot lights.
01:14The world goes completely silent.
01:16You say your three small lines.
01:19The audience laughs exactly where they should.
01:22Something detonates quietly inside your chest.
01:26It feels like being seen for the first time.
01:29It feels like the only thing you have ever done right.
01:32You float backstage afterward.
01:34You cannot stop smiling.
01:37You stay up the entire night.
01:39You replay the sound of that laughter again and again.
01:43You can still hear it when you close your eyes.
01:46The next morning, the feeling has not faded.
01:49Your father tells you acting is a hobby, not a job.
01:53Your mother tells you to always have a backup plan.
01:56You nod at the dinner table.
01:58You agree with them out loud.
02:00But underneath your ribs, a decision has locked into place.
02:05You are going to do this with your life.
02:08You do not tell anyone yet.
02:10You keep it secret like a flame in your hands.
02:13You watch movies differently now.
02:16You study the actors' faces.
02:18You notice every small choice they make.
02:21You start reading plays from the library.
02:23You whisper monologues alone in your room at night.
02:27You do not know where this will lead.
02:29You do not know what it will take from you.
02:32You only know the feeling of those lights.
02:35You only know you cannot live without it.
02:39You have no idea what you have just set in motion.
02:43Level 2.
02:44The student.
02:45You apply to drama conservatories in secret.
02:48You record an audition tape in your bedroom at midnight.
02:51You mail it off and try to forget about it.
02:54Months later, one of them says yes.
02:56You get a scholarship that covers half the cost.
02:59You take out loans for the rest.
03:02Your parents drive you to the city in a borrowed van.
03:04It is packed with everything you own.
03:07They hug you on a sidewalk that smells like rain and exhaust.
03:10Your mother cries.
03:12You wait until their van turns the corner.
03:15Then you let yourself cry, too.
03:18The program is brutal in ways the brochure never mentioned.
03:21You train 12 hours a day.
03:24Voice class begins at 8 in the morning.
03:26They teach you how to breathe all over again.
03:29In movement class, you crawl on the floor.
03:31You pretend to be a wounded animal for an hour.
03:34In scene study, a professor takes your work apart.
03:38He does it in front of the entire class.
03:40You thought you were talented.
03:43You learn that talent is the cheapest thing in the room.
03:46Every person here was the best actor in their hometown.
03:50Every one was the lead in their school play.
03:52Now you are all beginners again.
03:54You are equal and terrified.
03:58You learn to project your voice to the back row.
04:00You learn to summon real tears on a single word.
04:04You learn to reach into memories you spent years burying.
04:08One teacher says a sentence that never leaves you.
04:11Acting is not pretending, he says.
04:14Acting is telling the truth under imaginary circumstances.
04:19You do not fully understand it yet.
04:21You will spend the next 30 years learning what it means.
04:26You barely sleep.
04:27You live on cheap noodles and coffee.
04:29You perform scenes until your voice gives out.
04:33You sleep four hours a night and drag yourself back into the studio each morning.
04:38You call home on Sundays and tell your parents it is going well, leaving out the parts that hurt.
04:44In your second year, you meet a girl named Sarah.
04:47She is an actor too.
04:49She is sharper and braver than you are.
04:52She is better than you and you both know it.
04:55You run lines together late into the night.
04:57You fall in love in a rehearsal room at one in the morning.
05:01The work and the love become the same thing.
05:05Graduation arrives faster than you expect.
05:08You walk across a stage with a degree.
05:10You also carry a mountain of debt.
05:13You have a head full of impossible dreams.
05:16You have no money.
05:17You have no connections.
05:19You have only the work and Sarah.
05:22Your parents cannot afford to come to the ceremony.
05:25You call them from a payphone instead.
05:27They tell you they are proud and afraid.
05:31You move to the city where actors go to disappear or where they go to become legends.
05:37You do not yet know which one you will be.
05:41Level 3.
05:42The struggling actor.
05:44You and Sarah cram into a railroad apartment.
05:46You share it with two other broke roommates.
05:49The walls are thin as paper.
05:51The radiator bangs all night like someone is trapped inside it.
05:54You sleep on a mattress on the floor.
05:56The window above it never fully closes.
05:59You take a job waiting tables.
06:01The restaurant sits near the theater district.
06:03You serve overpriced pasta to tourists.
06:06They never once look at your face.
06:08You keep your shifts flexible for auditions.
06:11The auditions are exercises in pure humiliation.
06:14You wake at 5 in the morning.
06:16You stand in a hallway with 40 other men.
06:19They all look exactly like you.
06:21Same height.
06:23Same jaw.
06:24Same haircut.
06:25Same desperate,
06:26hungry eyes.
06:27You walk into a cold room.
06:29You perform for 90 seconds.
06:31A tired casting director says thank you.
06:34She does not look up from her phone.
06:36You leave.
06:37You never hear anything back.
06:39You do this hundreds of times.
06:42Two full years pass this way.
06:44You book nothing.
06:46You watch good friends quit and move home.
06:48You watch others book a commercial and vanish into money.
06:52Sarah books an off-Broadway play before you book anything.
06:55You tell her you are proud.
06:57You mean it.
06:58You also feel something uglier you never say.
07:02You learn to take rejection the way other people take the weather.
07:05It rains on you constantly and you simply keep walking through it.
07:09You paper one wall of the apartment with callback notices that all led nowhere.
07:14You memorize long monologues on the subway while strangers pretend not to watch.
07:19You audition with a fever once and book nothing.
07:22But you still do not quit.
07:24You audition for soap operas.
07:26You audition for toothpaste.
07:28You audition to play a dead body.
07:30You get the dead body.
07:32You lie still on a metal table for nine hours.
07:35Hot lights bake down on you the whole time.
07:38You do not have a single line.
07:40Somehow, it is the best workday of your year.
07:44You and Sarah marry at the courthouse.
07:47Neither of you can afford anything more.
07:49Your parents drive in for it.
07:51Her parents drive in too.
07:53You all eat cheap pizza on paper plates.
07:55You laugh until your face is hurt.
07:58You go home to the mattress on the floor.
08:00You whisper to Sarah in the dark.
08:02You promise her this will work someday.
08:04She believes you, or pretends to.
08:07Either way, you keep going.
08:10You are broke.
08:11You are exhausted.
08:13You are more alive than you have ever been.
08:16Level four, the day player.
08:18The wall finally cracks.
08:20Just a little.
08:21A casting director remembers your face.
08:24It was the dead body on that table.
08:26She calls you in for a part with real words.
08:28One line on a primetime network drama.
08:31You play a delivery man.
08:33You hand a package to the show's star.
08:35You have six words to say.
08:38You rehearse them a thousand times in the mirror.
08:40On set, you stand near a real television star.
08:43It is the first time in your life.
08:45He is unexpectedly kind to you.
08:47He tells you that everyone started where you are.
08:50Even him.
08:51You say your line.
08:52The director calls out,
08:54Print.
08:55You were paid more for that one day.
08:57It beats two full weeks of waiting tables.
09:00A few more small parts trickle in.
09:02A bartender on a sitcom.
09:04A nervous cop on a procedural.
09:06A grieving brother with two real scenes.
09:09You finally qualify to join the actors union.
09:11That little card changes something inside you.
09:14It means you are a professional now.
09:16It is official.
09:18Even when the work is rare.
09:20Then Sarah tells you she is pregnant.
09:22Joy and pure terror flood you at once.
09:25You book a national car insurance commercial.
09:27It covers the hospital bill.
09:29The commercial runs everywhere for a full year.
09:32The residual checks keep arriving like small miracles.
09:35They pay for diapers and formula and rent.
09:38You name your daughter Emma.
09:40You hold her in the delivery room.
09:42You cry harder than you ever have.
09:44You count her tiny fingers.
09:46You promise her everything you cannot yet provide.
09:49You are 30 years old now.
09:51You have a wife and a newborn daughter.
09:53You have a career built one line at a time.
09:58You go back to waiting tables the next week.
10:00Nothing has changed and everything has changed.
10:03You audition during your lunch breaks.
10:05You read bedtime stories at night in funny voices.
10:08Emma laughs at every one of them.
10:10You realize you are performing for an audience of one.
10:13It is the best audience you have ever had.
10:16You learn to live on uncertainty.
10:18You learn to celebrate the smallest wins.
10:21Sarah keeps a calendar of your bookings on the fridge.
10:24Some months it is nearly empty.
10:26You stare at the empty squares.
10:28You refuse to give up.
10:30You keep a small photo of Sarah and Emma tucked inside your wallet.
10:33You touch it quietly before every single audition you walk into.
10:37It reminds you exactly why you are still trying.
10:40And most days, that is enough.
10:43You have never been this frightened.
10:45You have never been this certain.
10:49Level 5.
10:50The working actor.
10:52The single lines grow into scenes.
10:54The scenes grow into small story arcs.
10:57You become a working actor.
10:59That is the industry's quiet term for it.
11:01Not a star.
11:03Not a household name.
11:04But reliably, genuinely employed.
11:07You land a recurring role on a crime drama.
11:10You play a nervous informant.
11:12You feed the lead detective information across six episodes.
11:16Strangers start recognizing your face.
11:18They never know your actual name.
11:20They point and say, hey, you're that guy.
11:23You are that guy.
11:26You learn the strange rhythm of a television set.
11:28You hit your mark without ever looking down.
11:31You come alive the instant the camera rolls.
11:33You go empty again between takes.
11:36You learn that most of this job is waiting.
11:39Long hours alone in a trailer.
11:41Whole days in a holding room with cold coffee.
11:44You read paperback novels to pass the time.
11:46You call Sarah every single night.
11:49You miss Emma's first steps.
11:52You are shooting on location three states away.
11:54That one lodges in you and never leaves.
11:57Sarah slows her own career to raise Emma.
12:00She insists she does not mind.
12:02You let yourself believe her.
12:04The money is steadier now, but it is never truly safe.
12:08A show gets canceled overnight.
12:10You are suddenly unemployed again.
12:13You go three full months without a booking.
12:15You start eyeing the restaurant job again.
12:18Then a guest spot arrives and saves the mortgage.
12:21Then a tiny role in an indie film keeps the lights on.
12:24You are always one bad year from going backward.
12:28You take Emma to the set one day.
12:30She watches you become someone else entirely.
12:33She does not fully understand it.
12:35She just knows her dad is on television.
12:37She tells her whole class about it.
12:40You feel ten feet tall.
12:42You start getting fan mail addressed to your character instead of to you.
12:46You answer some of the letters by hand, late at night when the house is asleep.
12:50You never tell your agent or your manager about it.
12:53It feels too important and too private to ever turn into business.
12:59You are 34 years old.
13:01You own a modest house now.
13:03The mortgage frightens you every month.
13:05Emma is four and follows you around the house.
13:08She wears your big shoes and pretends to be you.
13:11You watch other actors your age give up.
13:14They take normal jobs and seem relieved.
13:17You wonder sometimes if you should too.
13:20You never quite can.
13:21You love it too much to stop.
13:24You have a family that depends entirely on you.
13:28So you keep showing up.
13:30Level 6.
13:31The Series Regular
13:32Your real break comes from a role.
13:35You almost talked yourself out of auditioning for it.
13:38A new prestige drama needs a supporting character.
13:42A weary, decent father carrying a buried secret.
13:45You understand that man down to his bones.
13:48You walk into the audition room.
13:50You do not perform at all.
13:53You simply tell the truth under imaginary circumstances.
13:56It is exactly what your old teacher promised.
13:59The room goes completely silent.
14:02You book it.
14:03You are a series regular now.
14:05Your name appears in the opening credits.
14:07You shoot 10 months a year.
14:09The schedule is relentless and exhausting.
14:12The show becomes a genuine hit.
14:15People talk about it everywhere.
14:17Strangers stop you in airports.
14:19They quote your own lines back to you.
14:21They tell you, with wet eyes, about their fathers.
14:25Your character reminds them of their own dad.
14:27You realize your work reaches people you will never meet.
14:31You make real money for the first time.
14:34You pay off the house completely.
14:36You open a college fund for Emma.
14:38Sarah finally returns to the stage she loves.
14:41She does theater that makes her happy.
14:44But the schedule begins to eat you alive.
14:46You are gone for months at a time.
14:49You miss birthdays.
14:50You miss recitals.
14:52You miss ordinary Tuesday dinners.
14:54You start to feel the cost in your body.
14:57You sleep poorly on location.
14:59You drink too much coffee and too much wine.
15:02You promise to take better care of yourself.
15:05You never quite do.
15:07The next script always arrives first.
15:10Emma is 12 now.
15:11She has your same restless searching eyes.
15:15She tells you shyly that she wants to act.
15:18Two enormous feelings collide inside you.
15:21Fierce pride and a cold knowing dread.
15:25You understand exactly what this life demands.
15:28You do not know how to warn her.
15:31You are not sure you have the right.
15:33You are 38 years old.
15:35You have everything the 17-year-old dreamed of.
15:38You have the credits and the money and the fame.
15:42You are quietly stunned by how tired you are.
15:46You fly home and watch Emma sleep.
15:48You watch old home videos on a plane somewhere over the country.
15:52Emma is 6 in them, laughing and calling out for a father who is filming far away.
15:57You cannot remember whether you came home that particular day.
16:02You promise yourself again that you will be more present from now on.
16:06You break that promise within a month.
16:08Because the work always calls first.
16:11You wonder what you have traded for all of this.
16:14You do not have an answer yet.
16:19A respected film director watches your show.
16:22He sees it on a long flight.
16:24He offers you the lead in an independent movie.
16:27Not the sidekick.
16:28Not the supporting father.
16:30The lead.
16:31The entire story rests on your shoulders.
16:34You are as terrified as you were on that metal table.
16:37You shoot for 40 straight days.
16:40The city is freezing and gray.
16:42You appear in nearly every scene.
16:44The pressure is unlike anything you have carried.
16:48When a film fails, the lead gets blamed first.
16:51This film does not fail.
16:53It premieres at a major festival.
16:55The audience stands and applauds for a long time.
16:59Critics write your name in their reviews.
17:01They call you a breakthrough.
17:03You are 22 years into your career.
17:05You laugh quietly at that word.
17:08You broke through a thousand walls to get here.
17:11Bigger scripts begin arriving at your door.
17:13You are offered leads in real studio films.
17:17You carry a thriller that makes serious money.
17:20Your salary multiplies overnight.
17:23You assemble a team around you.
17:24An agent.
17:25A manager.
17:26A publicist.
17:28People who never returned your calls now compete for you.
17:31You move your family into a beautiful home.
17:34It has too many rooms.
17:36Sarah is proud of you.
17:38She is also a little quietly sad.
17:41The man she married was lean and hungry and present.
17:44The man she lives with now is famous and busy.
17:48He is gone more than he is home.
17:51You attend premieres in a tuxedo now.
17:54Cameras flash in your face on red carpets.
17:56You smile for all of them.
17:59Inside, you miss the quiet rehearsal rooms.
18:02You miss being nobody with nothing to lose.
18:05You wonder if that man is gone for good.
18:08Emma is 15 now.
18:10She acts in school plays you cannot always attend.
18:13You watch a recording of one on your phone.
18:16You watch it alone in a hotel room far away.
18:19She is good.
18:21She is better than you were at her age.
18:23That frightens you and thrills you at once.
18:26You call Sarah late that night.
18:29You tell her you miss them.
18:31She tells you to come home.
18:32You promise you will.
18:34Soon.
18:35You fly home for three rushed days that month and barely see anyone.
18:41Emma hardly looks up from her phone the entire time you were there.
18:44You realize, with a slow and quiet horror, that she stopped waiting for you.
18:50That truth wounds you more deeply than any bad review ever could.
18:55You are 43 years old.
18:57You finally hold the thing you chased your whole life.
19:01You are beginning to count what it cost you.
19:05Level 8.
19:06The movie star.
19:07It happens with a single role.
19:09You almost passed on it.
19:11A massive franchise.
19:13A character audiences across the world adore.
19:16The film earns over a billion dollars.
19:18Your face appears everywhere on Earth.
19:21You are on buses and billboards.
19:23They are in countries you have never visited.
19:25You are a movie star now.
19:27The word means something different than actor.
19:30An actor does the work and serves the story.
19:33A star is a product the public believes it owns.
19:37You can no longer walk down a street.
19:39You wear hats and sunglasses.
19:41Crowds still find you and swarm.
19:43Photographers camp outside your gate for days.
19:46Strangers approach you certain they know you.
19:49Tabloids invent affairs you never had.
19:51They invent feuds that never happened.
19:54Sarah reads vicious lies at the grocery checkout.
19:57You are paid 20 million dollars a film.
19:59But you lose something money cannot buy back.
20:02Your privacy.
20:04Your anonymity.
20:05The ability to ride a train unnoticed.
20:08You used to study strangers on those trains.
20:11That was the very thing that made you an actor.
20:13Now no one is a stranger.
20:15And everyone is.
20:17You begin playing a version of yourself in every film.
20:20The audience wants you.
20:22The star.
20:23They do not want a character they cannot recognize.
20:26Directors stop challenging you.
20:28Nobody dares tell a star that he is wrong.
20:31You feel your craft growing soft and lazy.
20:34You miss the days when work was hard.
20:36You buy things you do not need.
20:38A bigger house.
20:39A faster car.
20:41None of it fills the hole.
20:43You realize fame is not the same as happiness.
20:45You learn that lesson far too late.
20:48Emma is 18 now.
20:50She is leaving for drama school.
20:52She goes against your quiet, worried warnings.
20:55You beg her to choose an easier life.
20:58She refuses.
20:59The way you once refused your father.
21:02You see yourself in her completely.
21:04It terrifies you.
21:06Sarah holds your hand on the worst nights.
21:09She reminds you who you used to be.
21:11You hold on to that.
21:13It is the only real thing left.
21:16You are 48 years old.
21:18You are one of the most famous men alive.
21:21Somehow, you feel lonelier than you did on that mattress.
21:25You stand alone in your enormous kitchen late at night, surrounded by everything.
21:30You cannot quite remember why you ever wanted any of it.
21:33You miss the young man on the mattress who owned nothing at all.
21:38He at least knew exactly what he was chasing.
21:41And why.
21:43Level 9.
21:44The Legend
21:45The white heat of fame eventually cools.
21:48All fame finally does.
21:50A new generation of younger stars rises behind you.
21:54The billboards belong to smoother faces now.
21:57But something far better replaces the fame.
22:00Real respect.
22:01You start taking genuine risks again.
22:05You play a broken, dying old man.
22:07The film is small and quiet.
22:10No studio expects it to matter.
22:12You strip away every layer of the movie star.
22:15You find the actor underneath.
22:17He is the same hungry young man from the conservatory.
22:20He is still alive in there, after all.
22:23You tell the truth under imaginary circumstances once more.
22:27The performance wins you an Academy Award.
22:30You stand on the enormous stage.
22:32You hold a heavy gold statue in your hand.
22:36You think of your three lines in a high school play.
22:38You think of nine hours on a cold metal table.
22:42You think of the mattress on the floor.
22:44You thank Sarah from the stage.
22:47She sits in the front row.
22:48She is gray-haired now, and still beautiful.
22:52You are a legend now.
22:54They begin handing you Lifetime Achievement Awards.
22:57Young actors study your early films.
22:59They watch them in conservatories like the one that broke you.
23:03Emma is a working actor herself now.
23:05She fights her own brutal auditions.
23:08She refuses every offer of your help.
23:10You respect her deeply for it.
23:13You begin to direct your own films.
23:15You produce stories you believe in.
23:17You mentor a hungry kid from a small town.
23:20He reminds you of yourself at 17.
23:23You write letters to young actors who ask for advice.
23:26You tell them the truth.
23:28You tell them it will break their hearts.
23:31You tell them to do it anyway.
23:32You tell them the work is worth everything.
23:36You finally believe those words completely.
23:39Your body moves slower now.
23:41It aches in the cold mornings.
23:44Memorizing long speeches takes real work now.
23:46You turn down roles that would have thrilled you at 30.
23:50You and Sarah travel together now.
23:52You see the world you never had time to see.
23:55You hold her hand on quiet beaches.
23:58You feel, at last, almost at peace.
24:02Emma calls to tell you she booked a lead.
24:04You cry into the phone like a child.
24:07You are prouder than any award ever made you.
24:10You tell her so.
24:12You are 62 years old.
24:14You have finally outlived the desperate hunger.
24:17What remains is the pure love of the work itself.
24:22You teach a master class once a year to a room full of nervous students.
24:26They hang on every word you say as though it were scripture.
24:29You tell them about the nine hours you spent as a corpse on a table.
24:33They laugh, certain that it must be a joke you are telling.
24:37It is not a joke.
24:38And it was once the best day of your entire year.
24:43Level 10.
24:44The Ghost
24:45You stop acting at 70.
24:48There is no ceremony.
24:49There is no farewell tour.
24:51You simply stop saying yes to the scripts.
24:53The offers slow, then thin, then stop entirely.
24:57And you let them go without grief.
25:00You and Sarah move to a quiet house beside the water.
25:03You wake early.
25:04You read in the mornings.
25:06You walk the shoreline in the long afternoons.
25:09Emma is genuinely famous now, on her own terms and in her own name.
25:14She calls you every Sunday without fail.
25:16Your grandchildren cannot believe you were ever a movie star.
25:20To them, you are simply an old man who tells very long stories.
25:24You love being that man more than you ever loved being the other one.
25:28You attend a film tribute one last time.
25:31You watch your young face flicker across a giant screen.
25:35The man up there is a complete stranger to you.
25:38He is 25 and starving and immortal.
25:41You are old and full and quietly finished.
25:45Then Sarah passes away first, in the spring, with your hand wrapped around hers.
25:51The grief arrives like an ocean that has no far shore.
25:54You did not know a man could miss someone this deeply.
25:58You keep going, because going on is the only thing left to do.
26:03You watch her old films and your old films together in the dark.
26:07You leave Emma a letter to open after you are gone.
26:10In it, you tell her you are sorry for the years you missed.
26:13You tell her you are proud beyond words.
26:16You sign it with your real name, not your stage name.
26:20A few years later, you die quietly in your sleep.
26:24You are just an old actor in a still house by the water.
26:27But you do not really vanish.
26:30You cannot.
26:31Your films keep playing long after the room goes dark.
26:34Somewhere, at two in the morning, a movie of yours flickers onto a screen.
26:39A teenager in some small town watches you deliver a single line.
26:44Something detonates quietly inside her chest that she cannot name.
26:47She lies awake the whole night, replaying it.
26:51She cannot explain what she felt.
26:53She only knows she has to chase it.
26:57In a hidden place beneath her ribs, a decision locks into place.
27:01She is going to do this with her life.
27:04She has no idea what it will cost her.
27:07She has no idea what she just set in motion.
27:11The cycle continues.
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