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00:00They mock me for chasing him for eight years, but none of them know he came to me first
00:06I'm a pureblood noble werewolf
00:09Yet I stayed in the shadows his secret lover for eight long years
00:14I used my clan's power to raise him into the supreme alpha with my own hands, but he never chose
00:22to mark me
00:26He finally promised to claim me in public
00:30Tonight at the king's mating ball. I thought my long bitter weight had finally born fruit
00:36And right now the moment his fated mate Vivian
00:41Appeared his wolf ignored me completely then he pulled her into his arms before the whole court
00:47The lichen King blessed their bond on the spot
00:52Congratulations
00:53Cheers to love and forever
00:56Everyone cheered loudly
00:58Only I stood frozen in place as if all my years had been torn away from me
01:04He kissed her passionately right before all the noble courtiers
01:12Lady Alara
01:15How did a wolf like you end up without a partner tonight?
01:19Haven't found your fated one yet?
01:23I already have a mate
01:27Oh, who's the lucky bastard and how did you keep him hidden this long?
01:34Steady
01:36Reliable
01:38Treats me. Well, how did you meet? You've never breathed a word about him
01:42Every eye in the hall was on me
01:44A dry cough from across the room
01:47It was Caleb
01:48Leave it alone princess
01:50If a lot of doesn't want to talk don't push her
01:54Cordelia laughed it off
01:55My mistake
01:56Mr. Alpha Caleb
01:58But the moment he spoke the focus shifted to them
02:01Their real question is for Alpha Caleb
02:05Caleb made his name young
02:06Never took mate
02:09Now we know
02:10He was waiting for his fated one, Vivian
02:14Caleb didn't answer
02:16Didn't deny it either
02:18Don't tell me the Alpha's shy
02:21Laughter rolled through the hall
02:24Caleb looked down at her
02:26His eyes softened
02:27Give us the truth, Alpha
02:29Have you been in love with Vivian this whole time?
02:32Please, don't tease
02:34Eight years
02:36Eight years of him keeping me hidden
02:43Gang politics is complicated
02:45My enemies will use you against me
02:49Baby, you gotta wait
02:51For eight years he never once made our relationship public
02:54And underneath all of it, the thing he never said out loud
02:58What if his fated one comes back?
03:00I pretended to ignore it
03:02Long enough to get used to pretending we were strangers in public
03:06It wasn't until tonight that I understood
03:09The timing was never going to be right
03:11It was always going to be her
03:15Say something, Alpha
03:26What's the hurry?
03:28What's the hurry?
03:28We want a drink at the mating ceremony
03:31Enough
03:32Stop tormenting them
03:34Caleb leaned in and lifted his glass to Vivian's lips
03:37His eyes never left her face
03:40I looked down at my own glass
03:42Caleb had never shown me that kind of care
03:46Lady Elota
03:48I hear your family's been entertaining offers
03:51Anyone catch your eye?
03:53I felt Caleb stare
03:55Don't say anything stupid
03:57I didn't look at him
03:58The mating date is set
04:00Soon
04:03So the rumors are true
04:05I'm not a pup anymore
04:07My parents set the date
04:09I agreed
04:10Who is he?
04:11When's the ceremony?
04:13Everyone was looking at me
04:15Except Caleb
04:16Don't rush her
04:17You're making her shy
04:19Though if the date's already set
04:21You must have known him a long time
04:23Must be love
04:27We met two weeks ago
04:29He's steady
04:31He treats me well
04:32So I said yes
04:33The hall detonated
04:35Even the queen's eyebrows were not
04:38Across the room
04:39Caleb sat both upright
04:41The shock on his face was too big to hide
04:45I'd asked him for his birth memory
04:47Told him I wanted the Paxier to read our bond
04:52I wanted proof
04:54Something to hold on to
04:56I'd told him I wanted an answer
04:58Relief crossed his face
05:00Then something darker
05:02Even now
05:03With his faded mate at his side
05:06He still thought I was going to be his shadow
05:11Congratulations, Alara
05:12When's the ceremony?
05:15We'd like to send gifts
05:16Three days from now
05:18A small gathering at my family's estate
05:21Though honestly, I thought
05:23Thought what?
05:25I thought Alara was waiting for someone
05:28The way she used to trail after Caleb
05:31We all thought she'd die unmated
05:34Before she took anyone else
05:36The room went still
05:39Caleb, Alara's getting mated
05:41You two go back
05:42Don't you have anything to say?
05:44Caleb didn't even raise his eyes
05:48That was a long time ago
05:51Four words
05:52A sharp pain shot through my chest
05:56I laughed before I could stop myself
05:59My eyes were wet
06:00They didn't know it was never me chasing him
06:03He came for me first
06:05I never want another wolf as long as he lived
06:09Once my position is secure
06:11I will name you as my Luna
06:15Chosen bond or not
06:17He said it wouldn't matter
06:20But we were never public
06:21So everyone just assumed I was pathetic
06:25Enough!
06:27Let the past rest
06:29To Alara
06:31May she find a good mate
06:34To Alpha Caleb and Vivian
06:37May the moon bless their bond
06:40Glasses rang against each other
06:46Caleb pulled Vivian against his side
06:48His scent wrapped around her
06:51Claiming her in front of every wolf in the hall
06:55Vivian
06:56It's late
06:58I'm taking you home
07:00I stood alone
07:02A rainy night
07:03Eight years ago
07:05Rogues came for him
07:07I stepped in front of the silver blade without thinking
07:11The blood wouldn't stop
07:13His eyes went red
07:14He told me he'd make me the happiest woman alive
07:17My hand went to my left shoulder
07:21The scar didn't hurt anymore
07:23Just like his promises
07:26Dawn had barely broken
07:29I heard the footsteps I knew by heart outside my door
07:36I know the masquerade upset you
07:38But you can't throw around lies about taking a mate
07:41I didn't lie
07:43It was just a show
07:46Don't gamble your whole life because you're angry
07:48Drop the mating story, it'll stick to both of us
07:54I don't say things I don't mean
07:56The date is set
07:58I know you're hurt
08:02Give me two more years
08:04Let me settle things
08:07I'll name you my Luna
08:09Fated or not
08:12I almost laughed
08:14He'd said the same thing two years ago
08:17In his head, I had endless two-year blocks to burn
08:21Now he had a fated mate
08:22And he still thought I'd wait in the shadows
08:25Caleb
08:28I've run out of time
08:29He stared at me
08:31There's something I've been meaning to tell you
08:34The truth is
08:36Alpha
08:37Lady Vivian is unwell
08:39She's asking for you
08:40He turned and walked out
08:41I'll check on her
08:43We'll finish this when I get back
08:46He couldn't even pretend to choose me for one more minute
08:50His wolf wouldn't let him
08:52That was what being faded meant
08:55Two hours later
08:56Caleb walked through the hall with Vivian on his arm
09:01Caleb, I'm so sorry to impose
09:05Don't worry about it
09:06Stay as long as you need
09:08He pushed open the door to my chambers
09:11The room had been stripped bare
09:13Every trace of me gone
09:19Quieter than I expected
09:20A little empty
09:22There used to be whiskey on his desk
09:26A silver charm I'd forged for him
09:29Now there was nothing
09:31Caleb stood in the middle of the empty chamber
09:34Something inside him went hollow
09:37Vivian held it up between two fingers
09:39Alpha, this pendant is beautiful
09:42Who was it for?
09:44Caleb didn't speak
09:46I love it
09:48Let me wear it at the mating ceremony
09:51Caleb snapped back
09:53Took the pendant from her hand
09:56If you want something, I'll have the best silversmiths make you whatever you want
10:00Any design
10:02Vivian's smile froze
10:05Who is she?
10:06It's Allura
10:08Isn't it?
10:09Caleb said nothing
10:10He turned away from her
10:13Do you know why my family left the royal territory?
10:18Because I saw the way you looked at her
10:21I knew if I stayed I'd have to watch you choose her over whatever I was
10:25She stared at him
10:28She wiped her eyes
10:30So I ran
10:32I Alphas came courting every season
10:35I turned down every one of them
10:38But I've always only wanted you
10:40Then the masquerade
10:42Then the masquerade
10:43Your wolf found me through the mask
10:45The king sealed it in front of the court
10:48I finally had my answer
10:50You were mine
10:52The moon said so
10:53I thought I could finally have you
10:56The one you care about is me
11:01Not her
11:06Isn't that right?
11:09Isn't that right?
11:10She's at her family's estate
11:12She's at her family's estate
11:13Waiting for the ceremony
11:14We agreed on it
11:17Waiting?
11:18She stood in that hall and told everyone
11:22She's mating a stranger she met two weeks ago
11:26Every wolf in the room heard it
11:28Caleb still thought I was going to marry him
11:31He thought I was angry that he still hadn't named me his Luna
11:36Wake up Caleb
11:38She doesn't
11:39Vivian
11:41What's between me and Alara has nothing to do with you
11:47If you have other ideas
11:49You can't stay here
11:50Vivian froze
11:54I... I...
11:59I'll have rooms arranged
12:01Tell the housekeeper if you need anything
12:03Vivian stood there a long moment
12:05Then pulled her mouth into a thin smile
12:08I overstepped
12:10I'm sorry
12:12Don't worry
12:13Don't worry
12:13The moment my mother arrives
12:16I'll be gone
12:25After that, Caleb stopped sleeping
12:28Caleb thought back on everything
12:30His parents had me
12:32From nothing to Alpha
12:34I was the one who got him there
12:37I am pure blood
12:38Noble
12:40I made him what he is
12:41What Vivian had to offer was just the pull in his chest
12:47Faith couldn't carve his way out at the foot
12:50I could
12:52Every time he was cornered
12:54It was my kin who closed in behind him
12:56Of course he fell for me
12:59Because I gave him everything I had
13:07But it still wasn't enough
13:09He had to prove something that he wasn't less
13:13So he kept stalling
13:15Kept making excuses
13:17Until his wolf bowed to Vivian on the masquerade floor
13:22And he let it
13:24He hadn't brought me honey cakes in years
13:28Hadn't asked if my scar ached in the cold
13:31He sent letters to the Blackthorn estate
13:35Everyone came back unopened
13:37Then he heard the maids whispering outside the manor walls
13:41Come on, the Blackthorn girl is mating today
13:44Let's go catch some of the luck
13:46Okay
13:48I
13:49Caleb froze
13:50He shifted into his womb
13:52And ran for my estate
13:55He tore through the great hall
13:57And saw me
13:58A bride in white silk
14:03Moonstone at my throat
14:13Alara
14:15Stop
14:15My feet paused
14:17I turned
14:18Caleb's eyes locked onto mine
14:21The hall fell into whispers
14:25The one you're supposed to mate is me
14:28His eyes were red
14:30He walked toward me one step
14:32You've been my chosen mate for eight years
14:37How can you bond with someone else?
14:40A servant tried to block him
14:42Caleb shoved him aside without looking
14:46Alpha
14:48This is my daughter's mating day
14:50My father stepped in front of me
14:53Show some respect
14:54Respect
14:57Caleb laughed
14:57Ugly and raw
14:59I protected her for eight years
15:02I waited eight years
15:05Lord Blackthorn
15:07This mating mating can
15:09Every eye in the hall landed on me
15:11My chest didn't move
15:14Then Vivian's voice from the doorway
15:16She came in on a maid's arm
15:19Steps quick
15:20Quarry painted on just right
15:27Caleb
15:28Why are you doing this?
15:31She turned to me
15:32Voice soft
15:33Every word a blade
15:35Lady Alara
15:37Don't do this to yourself
15:41Caleb's heart is yours
15:43Why throw yourself away?
15:46I pushed my father's hand aside
15:50Walked up to Caleb
15:53You still think I'm throwing a tantrum
15:57My hand went to my left shoulder
15:59Eight years ago
16:02Roads in the rain
16:04I took the silver blade for you
16:10You held me after
16:11Said you'd name me your Luna
16:15Fated or not
16:16Something cracked across his face
16:19I tried to speak
16:21I cut him off
16:24But I waited eight years
16:28I got used to being strangers in public
16:31Got used to being a shadow Luna with no name
16:35And you
16:37You let your wolf bow to Vivian in front of the entire court
16:41Took the king's blessing
16:43Hold her against your side
16:45Where every wolf of kingdom could see
16:48Did you think about me?
16:51Even once?
16:54I didn't
16:57Alara
16:58I never meant to throw you away
17:01The mating gifts are ready
17:03I was going to name you my Luna at the full moon
17:07All of it ready
17:08He ripped the silver chain from around his neck
17:11Look
17:12This was part of it
17:14My soul is yours
17:16The moon can see it
17:17Please
17:18One more chance
17:20I'll name you my Luna tonight
17:23Right now
17:24I snapped my hand back
17:26This late promise
17:27It meant nothing
17:29The scar doesn't hurt anymore
17:32Just like what I felt for you
17:35Eight years burned it out
17:38I don't want your late promise
17:40I don't want your rushed gift
17:44Valerius suddenly appeared
17:46Standing in front of me
17:48Alpha
17:48This is my bonding with Alara
17:52She's mine now
17:54He stood next to me
17:56We matched the way the whispers had said we would
17:59She's been my chosen mate for eight years
18:01You don't get a say
18:04I say
18:07If you cared about her
18:08Why hide her for eight years
18:11At the masquerade you let your wolf bow to Vivian
18:16You took the king's blessing
18:17Did you think once about what that did to her?
18:23She took silver for you
18:25Waited eight years
18:26And you looked straight through her
18:29Now she's found better
18:31And you come here screaming
18:34What makes you think you get to ask her to turn around?
18:42I didn't
18:44Alara
18:44I never meant to throw you away
18:48The mating gifts are ready
18:50I was going to name you my Luna at the full moon
18:54All of it ready
18:56He ripped the silver chain from around his neck
18:59Look, this was part of it
19:01My soul is yours
19:03The moon can see it
19:05Please, one more chance
19:08I'll name you my Luna tonight
19:10Right now
19:11I snapped my hand back
19:13This late promise
19:15It meant nothing
19:16The scar doesn't hurt anymore
19:19Just like what I felt for you
19:22Eight years burned it out
19:25I don't want your late promise
19:28I don't want your rushed gift
19:32Valerius suddenly appeared
19:34Standing in front of me
19:35Alpha, this is my bonding with Alara
19:40She's mine now
19:41He stood next to me
19:43We matched the way the whispers had said we would
19:46She's been my chosen mate for eight years
19:48You don't get a say
19:51A say?
19:54If you cared about her
19:56Why hide her for eight years?
19:59At the masquerade you let your wolf bow to Vivian
20:03You took the king's blessing
20:04Did you think once about what that did to her?
20:10She took silver for you
20:12Waited eight years
20:14And you looked straight through her
20:16Now she's found better
20:19And you come here screaming
20:22What makes you think you get to ask her to turn around?
20:28And you come here screaming
20:31What makes you think you get to ask her to turn around?
20:37Caleb lost what was left of his control
20:40Shoved Valerius
20:47Elora
20:47Come with me
20:49I'm the one who can give you a future
20:52Valerius caught his wrist first
20:54Twisted
20:56Enough
20:58These eight years were a show
21:00Mine alone
21:03You hid me
21:04I let you
21:05You told me to wait
21:07I waited
21:09The show's over
21:10Nothing left between us
21:15I took Valerius' arm
21:17I took Valerius' arm
21:17He guided me toward the moon altar
21:22I could feel Caleb's eyes on me
21:25Burning
21:26Broken
21:27For the first time
21:29He tasted what regret actually felt like
21:33Vivian rushed up
21:35Caleb
21:36Don't be like this
21:37Alara doesn't deserve you
21:39You still have me
21:40Caleb shoved her off
21:45His eyes didn't leave my back
21:48I lost her
21:51Vivian stood there
21:54Valerius marked me under the moon altar
21:56At the same hour
21:58Caleb was walking back to his manor on foot
22:02He pushed open the door
22:04And stopped
22:07Everything I'd ever done for him was still there
22:17He pushed open the door and stopped
22:23Everything I'd ever done for him was still there
22:28A cuff on his nightstand
22:30I'd been working on it for weeks
22:32The matching one was already on his wrist
22:35The leather coat I'd had tailored for him for the Alpha Council last winter
22:40Still hanging where I'd left it
22:42Every corner of the room was me
22:44But I was nowhere in it
22:46Vivian had followed him back to the manor
22:49She stood in the middle of his chambers
22:51Couldn't hold her tongue
22:53Caleb
22:54You're an Alpha
22:57Alara was never your equal
23:01A noble that high
23:03You were never going to matter to her house
23:06And she humiliated you in front of every pack in the city
23:11I'm your fated mate
23:13The moon chose us
23:15It was always supposed to be me
23:17Caleb took her hand
23:19Held it a breath
23:20Let it go
23:21Vivian
23:22I never wanted the moon's choice
23:25I wanted the wolf who took a silver blade for me
23:28Who waited eight years
23:31The one I threw away with my own hands
23:34Vivian went white
23:36She stumbled out of his chambers
23:39After she was gone
23:40Caleb lost whatever was holding him up
23:44He dropped onto the edge of the bed
23:48The moon
23:48Picked up the cuff
23:49Every small thing he'd looked through for eight years
23:53Came back at once
23:58The year he came home from a border campaign burning with silver fever
24:03I stayed at his side three nights without sleeping
24:06Kept his wolf stable while the poison worked out
24:09His mother's old pack lands came up for dispute
24:13My family's name is what kept them in his hands
24:16He never knew that
24:17I never told him
24:18The alpha council turned on him twice
24:21Both times
24:22My kin closed ranks behind him before the vote
24:25Both times
24:26He thought he'd won it alone
24:28And him
24:29My birthday came around every year
24:32I hoped he'd come to the feast
24:34Sit at my side for one night
24:37Openly
24:38Every year
24:39Council business
24:40Border patrols
24:42A silver pendant sent by runner
24:44And nothing else
24:46Each memory was a blade going in
24:49Caleb dropped his face into his hands
24:52His shoulders shook
24:53He hated his own selfishness
24:56Hated the strong
24:57Hated the eight years he'd spent looking through me
25:00All of it
25:01He'd earned
25:03Life after the bonding was quiet
25:06In a way I'd forgotten quiet could be
25:09Valerius was good to me
25:10In the small things most alphas never think about
25:13He knew my scar ached when the weather turned
25:16He kept a salve within reach before I ever asked
25:20He knew I liked honey cakes
25:22So he learned to make them himself
25:24He spoke my name at council sessions
25:26In front of every alpha in the kingdom
25:29Let me stand at his side without hiding what I was to him
25:32Three years passed like that
25:35Caleb didn't let go
25:36First he came to the Blackthorn Estates
25:39Stood at the gates
25:40Waited for a glimpse of me
25:42My father had given the guards orders
25:45He never got past the law
25:46Then eyes bloodshot
25:48A runner came in one morning
25:50Said Caleb had stood outside the gates the whole night
25:53Half of it in the rain
25:54Still wouldn't leave
25:56I answered with a nod
25:57Went back to my book
25:59I thought he'd give up
26:00Instead he got worse
26:04Afternoon Valerius and I were in the library
26:06When I heard Caleb's voice through the walls
26:10Alera
26:11I know you're in there
26:13Come out
26:14Come out just once
26:16One look
26:17Valerius's hand paused over the page
26:19He looked at me
26:20I shook my head
26:22Let him do what he wants
26:24Nothing about us has to move for him
26:26But Caleb was an alpha
26:28No one had the nerve to truly stop him
26:31He forced his way in
26:32Locked onto me the second he saw me
26:34Like I was the last rope left
26:37Alera
26:38I know I was wrong
26:40I know now
26:42He pulled open his collar right over
26:43Some nights I can't even shift
26:45The bond with her is gone
26:47Severed
26:49There's no going back
26:51Alera
26:53Take me back
26:55Please
26:55Take me back
26:56Valerius stood up
26:58Put me behind him
27:00Alpha
27:02Alera is my Luna
27:03You don't erase that in three
27:22Alpha
27:23Alera
27:23Look at me
27:25Please
27:28I'll do it right this time
27:29Name you in front of every pack
27:31Tonight
27:33Tomorrow
27:34Whenever you say
27:35If he'd said this eight years ago
27:37I would have wept
27:38Caleb
27:39I'm Valerius' Luna
27:41That's not changing
27:42Not this life
27:44Not the next
27:46I turned
27:46Took Valerius' arm
27:48Walked out of the Lightroom
27:50Left Caleb's shouting behind me
27:53Later I heard the rest from Valerius
27:55Do you know anything about Caleb?
27:56Caleb had done the rejection ritual under the full moon
27:59In front of his own pack
28:01The bond with Vivian was cut green
28:04Then he went to the king
28:06Asked him to take back the blessing
28:08Kindly take back the world lesson
28:09To let him name me his Luna publicly
28:12The Lycan king was furious
28:14The faded pair the crown had blessed
28:16Thrown back in the moon's face
28:19The queen called it a disgrace
28:21The king refused him
28:22Stripped him instead
28:24Half his path was taken
28:25Look absorbed by older bloodlines
28:27He'd been waiting for an excuse
28:29His alpha rank was lowered two notches in front of the council
28:32The alphas who used to bow when he walked in
28:34Stopped acknowledging him in the halls
28:36His own beta started looking past him
28:38The alpha who'd been the greatest rising name in the kingdom became a joke
28:42In the end
28:43The king sent him to the northern wastes
28:45Rogue territory
28:46The kind of posting younger sons
28:48Were sent to die at
28:53Sometimes Valerius would bring me word of him
28:55He drank
28:56He looked more wolf than man
28:58Saturday on the keep walls at night
29:00And howled at the moon
29:01Whispered my name when he thought no one could hear
29:03Eight years ago
29:04He'd let go of my hand himself
29:06Now he was paying for it
29:07Valerius loved me the way people in storybooks loved each other
29:11In details
29:12Not declarations
29:13In the third year
29:15The king and queen held a court banquet
29:17Valerius brought me with him
29:19A familiar figure crossed my sight through the crowd
29:23Caleb
29:24Thinner than before
29:25Cheeks sunk
29:26Eyes bloodshot
29:27All the sharp edges worn down to dust
29:29He was back in the capital to report to the crown
29:31That was the only way he would have been in that hall
29:35His eyes found me across the room
29:39Guilt
29:40Longing
29:40Something that wasn't quite given up
29:42Valerius felt the shift in me
29:44Slid his arm around my waist
29:46Put himself between us without making it look like he did
29:50Caleb stopped mid-step
29:52Saw Valerius' hand on me
29:54Saw our fingers threaded together
29:56He didn't come closer
29:58Halfway through the banquet
29:59Valerius and I rose to make a round of toasts
30:01Our path took us past Caleb
30:03As we passed
30:04His body gave a small shake
30:06His lips moved
30:07Nothing came out
30:12Sometimes Valerius would bring me word of him
30:14He drank
30:15He looked more wolf than man
30:17Saturday on the keep walls at night
30:19And howled at the moon
30:20Whispered my name when he thought no one could hear
30:22Eight years ago
30:23He'd let go of my hand himself
30:25Now he was paying for it
30:26Valerius loved me the way people in storybooks loved each other
30:30In details
30:31Not declarations
30:32In the third year
30:34The king and queen held a court banquet
30:37Valerius brought me with him
30:38A familiar figure crossed my sight through the crowd
30:41Caleb
30:43Thinner than before
30:44Cheeks sunk
30:45Eyes bloodshot
30:46All the sharp edges worn down to dust
30:48He was back in the capital to report to the crown
30:51That was the only way he would have been in that hall
30:54His eyes found me across the room
30:58Guilt
30:59Longing
31:00Something that wasn't quite given up
31:01Valerius felt the shift in me
31:03Slid his arm around my waist
31:05Put himself between us without making it look like he did
31:09Caleb stopped mid-step
31:11Saw Valerius' hand on me
31:13Bizarre fingers threaded together
31:14He didn't come closer
31:17Halfway through the banquet
31:18Valerius and I rose to make a round of toasts
31:21Our path took us past Caleb
31:22As we passed
31:24His body gave a small shake
31:25His lips moved
31:27Nothing came out
31:28He was so wet
31:29A follow-up
31:29A follow-up
31:30Bounce
31:30A follow-up
31:31To be continued
31:31That he found me
31:31The new phobia
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