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00:06To anyone who does not like my body, I don't care.
00:11My name is Nikki.
00:12I do little fun TikTok videos.
00:14I'm going to strunt my stuff.
00:17But I get a lot of backlash because of me being fat.
00:23I love you.
00:24I love you.
00:24I love you more.
00:25I want to give my son the world, and I can't give him the world for my life.
00:30He doesn't deserve the fat mom.
00:32I'm sorry.
00:34I got to lose weight now.
00:37I'm disappointed because I don't think you have any real idea how unhealthy you are.
00:43You're going to rob your child of his mother.
00:45Yes, sir.
00:49There you go.
00:51This whole journey is about to, like, legit start.
00:55There's a baddie inside.
00:56We won't come out.
00:57Bend the standing leg, and then take the other leg up.
01:01Raise that left leg up.
01:03Oh, so awkward.
01:04You all right?
01:05I was thinking how skinny they were and how pretty they were.
01:08And then, like, I can't do this anymore.
01:13I've cheated a lot.
01:15I'm feeling kind of ashamed, disappointed.
01:19It's going to be okay, baby.
01:20I'm going to give up.
01:22I just, like, I'm done.
01:38Hey, babe.
01:40Yes, sweetie?
01:41I was kind of thinking, um, pa-pow.
01:44Wow.
01:46I was thinking bold.
01:48Edgy.
01:48Sassy.
01:49Yeah.
01:50I don't care anymore.
01:52I was thinking something with, uh, a little more clothing.
01:55What was what I got on?
01:57I mean, there's nothing what you got on in the bedroom, but...
02:01My name is Nikki.
02:02I'm 30 years old.
02:04I live in Carnesville, Georgia, with my husband, Derek, and my son, Ryan.
02:11Are you going to be able to dance in that one?
02:13Um, probably not.
02:15I do little fun TikTok videos.
02:18You can be plus size and beautiful.
02:20About body positivity.
02:22No makeup.
02:24Ba-bam.
02:26Ba-bam.
02:27All right, babe, you ready?
02:29I'm ready.
02:31Ooh.
02:32What do you think?
02:33I like it.
02:34I feel sexy.
02:36I feel fierce.
02:38The last time that I posted a video, I got a lot of backlash.
02:43There's a lot of people out in this world who just do not like confident plus size people.
02:48They were saying I was disgusting.
02:51Like, it hurt my feelings.
02:53I even had direct messages.
02:55Not just comments on the video.
02:57Ready to make a video?
02:59Let's go.
03:01All that stuff bothered me, but I let it go for a while.
03:10Look at you go.
03:12There we go.
03:14To anyone who does not like my body, I don't care.
03:20I'm going to strunt my stuff.
03:27All right, I'm nervous.
03:30Yeah, I think Nikki posts all her videos to come off as strong, but deep down, I don't think she's
03:38truly happy.
03:39Don't be it.
03:41Uh, sorry, hold on.
03:51So, what's making you upset and sad?
03:53I'm scared.
03:54Yeah.
03:56That's understandable.
03:58Tell them why you're scared.
04:03There's a lot of mean people.
04:05Yeah.
04:07Yeah.
04:13I hate being the size.
04:20Growing up, I've always been a larger frame.
04:23We never really learned to eat healthy.
04:27Then, as a teenager, I don't know exactly how much I weighed, but I felt beautiful.
04:33I'm still thick, but I was able to function.
04:36And I played softball until I was about 17.
04:41I mean, I was a little plus size, but I was really good at it.
04:44Like, really good.
04:46Until that day.
04:47The day.
04:49So, I was running from first to second base, and I tore my hamstring and pulled tendons.
04:56It was probably due to my weight.
05:02I never played again.
05:04That was my last, um, last time I stepped on the field.
05:13I'm sorry.
05:16I started feeling really sad, and so I gained a significant amount of weight in a small time.
05:25And then one day, I was like, boom, I have to help buy a whole new wardrobe, and I can't
05:29shop at those stores anymore.
05:30I actually got to shop at this store.
05:32And I'm like, wow, this sucks.
05:37Hey, babe.
05:37Yes, sweetie.
05:38Can you come help me?
05:39Being my size is definitely starting to affect the day in and day outs of life.
05:48Derek does do a lot.
05:50He puts my shoes on.
05:51He helps me put my bra on.
05:52Like, I can't really reach behind and clasp it.
05:56There you go.
05:58Thanks.
05:58I don't know if you need anything else.
06:02Doing all these things, especially after coming home from a long day at work, it's just exhausting.
06:09And sometimes it puts a little bit of a stress on our relationship.
06:13But we get through it.
06:15I love her.
06:15She loves me.
06:17Hey, babe.
06:18Yo.
06:19Can you come help me for a second, please?
06:22There's things that men shouldn't have to do.
06:25For instance, during the time of the month.
06:29What's up, lady?
06:34I can't pull the tampon right now.
06:37I need you to help me.
06:43All right.
06:47It's very degrading, and I just don't want to talk about it anymore.
06:55I've tried a lot of diets, fasting, intermediate fasting.
07:01I've tried eating, like, once a day, and that didn't work.
07:05I've tried everything.
07:08You want to throw it to you, or you want to throw it to me?
07:10All right.
07:11You got to under throw it, okay?
07:13Are you ready?
07:14I'm a mama to a five-year-old little boy.
07:17His name is Brian.
07:19All right.
07:19You ready?
07:21Yeah!
07:23You did it!
07:24He's adopted.
07:25We've tried with having our own.
07:27But the extra weight can really affect your fertility.
07:31Go get the ball, silly.
07:33Mommy's not running.
07:36Brian is my sweetest little boy, but I have extreme high blood pressure.
07:44Joint pain.
07:45And I can't walk without my back hurting.
07:47Mommy's going to sit down, because Mommy's getting tired, okay?
07:50Yeah.
07:50Okay.
07:54Brian's going to start baseball real soon.
07:56He got his little baseball gloves and his little helmet and everything.
08:00I was like, oh.
08:02I want to coach my son's team one day.
08:05And I physically can't do that because of my weight.
08:09Show Mommy your wink.
08:10Wink at me.
08:11I love you.
08:12I love you more.
08:13I will.
08:16You did so good.
08:18I want to experience those things with him and not just sit on the bleachers.
08:23I mean, the dugout is only, like, so big.
08:26And, you know, I take up a lot of space.
08:36Babe?
08:38When it's bath time, I start the water for Brian's bath.
08:45But the bathroom floor in our house, it needs to be replaced.
08:49Every time I get on it, it's like, oh, I'm going to fall right through because it's so weak.
08:54I can't give him a bath.
08:55You're going to have to give him a bath.
08:55I'm not going to risk falling on the floor because of the floor.
08:59I can't do this anymore.
09:01Because of my weight, I thought the floor was going to collapse out from under my feet.
09:06Being a mom and not being able to give your child a bath, it sucks.
09:12Enough's enough.
09:17Babe, you ready for dinner?
09:19We got us some Mexican for dinner.
09:25I don't go anywhere anymore.
09:27I can't go to certain restaurants.
09:29I'm scared that they're not going to fit because I don't know if the booths move or if the booths
09:33are bolted down to the ground.
09:34You can call off Waffle House because I ain't getting in there.
09:38Even though they have really good food.
09:42I've been thinking a lot about how much I actually know that I can't do that I want to do.
09:50Yeah.
09:52I was kind of thinking, you know, looking more into that doctor in Atlanta.
10:00Okay.
10:02Yeah, I might actually reach out and see about the surgery.
10:07Okay.
10:08Okay.
10:10I love you.
10:11I love you.
10:20Here I am packing.
10:22Do you have to see Dr. Proctor?
10:25I'm a little bit excited.
10:27This whole journey is about to, like, legit start, you know?
10:31Like, I'm going to go see the cute doctor, you know?
10:34Dr. Proctor.
10:36Can I say he's cute?
10:46I love you.
10:46Nervous yet?
10:48Yeah.
10:49I'm really nervous, actually.
10:51Yeah, I got a lot of questions I want to ask him.
10:53I love stuff.
10:54I hope he's nice.
10:57you're not the first person
10:58he's probably done so
11:00you're in good hands
11:01I hope so
11:05I am so ready for biometric surgery
11:08I'm like I want it tomorrow
11:10let's do it
11:16Ryan doesn't deserve the fat mom
11:18you know he deserves a mom that can
11:20run with him and
11:22be unstoppable
11:25I want Brian to be like you know what
11:27my mom has got it together
11:30get closer
11:33hey guys
11:35I'm Dr. Charlie Proctor
11:36nice to meet you
11:38very nice to meet you
11:40so what can I do for you how can I help you today
11:44go and get some
11:45weight loss surgery hopefully
11:48um yeah
11:49so why now
11:50um well I have a son
11:52and I've realized that
11:55for instance this Christmas
11:56I want to sit on the floor with him
11:58and open presents
11:59and I can't
12:01so
12:02next year
12:03I want to be able to do that
12:04and be able to go do things with him of course
12:06uh ride rides
12:07go to the beach
12:10football game
12:11anything
12:13it's important
12:14um I have three boys also
12:16I'll tell you that this is a time
12:18in their lives that you're not going to get back
12:20it's going to go like a flash
12:22and the more time you can buy with them at this age
12:26uh every moment is precious
12:28and you don't want to watch it
12:30and you don't want to watch it goodbye
12:30no I don't
12:32yeah
12:34Nikki's losing out
12:35she's losing every single day
12:37the things that she wants to do with that child
12:39and it's simply because of her weight
12:41if we can't do something about this right now
12:43she's going to lose those years
12:45and she's going to lose years from her life
12:48it's time to hop on the scale and see where we are
12:53alrighty
12:55I don't know how much weight I've gained
12:58so
12:59I am terrified
13:01that's the only word I can think of
13:04terrified
13:06whenever you're ready
13:20oh you got it
13:21there
13:22raise that left leg up
13:23pull it forward to the pole
13:24alright
13:25I feel awkward
13:26you alright
13:27I was thinking how skinny they were
13:29and how pretty they were
13:30and then like
13:31I just
13:32I'm done
13:34every time I've tried to lose weight
13:37it's been a total bust
13:38I'll grab me some chicken nuggets
13:40I've cheated a lot
13:41I'm going to give up
13:42so I'm pretty to beat it
13:50it's time to hop on the scale and see where we are
13:55alrighty
13:56I don't know exactly how much I weigh
13:57but
13:58if I stay this big for even a couple more years
14:01I'm going to start getting diabetes
14:03high blood pressure
14:06sleep apnea
14:07I'm 30
14:08and I have a 5 year old son
14:09so I don't want to have those
14:11and him still be little
14:11and me can't do anything
14:14but all I can see is the numbers
14:16just
14:16climbing higher and higher
14:21470
14:26is that what you expected
14:29not really
14:30that's alright
14:39I see
14:42what we're going to work towards
14:44is doing bariatric surgery
14:46but first
14:47I'm going to give you a goal
14:48of coming back in a month
14:49I want to see you down 40 pounds
14:54really?
14:55yeah
14:5540?
14:56yeah
14:57this is serious
14:59because you've got a son at home
15:01who thinks you're the greatest person
15:02in the entire world
15:04and he's going to want you to be there
15:05for a long long time
15:07he's the best
15:10so we've got to get to work
15:13we have a team that we're going to involve with this
15:15that are going to tell you the kind of things
15:18that you need to do
15:19the dietary lifestyle changes
15:20and show you how to do that
15:22you've got to go clean the refrigerator out
15:24the whole thing
15:25you know you joke
15:26but it wouldn't be a bad idea
15:28no
15:29I've learned I have to lose 40 pounds
15:31in a month
15:34that's going to be really hard
15:35but I think I got it
15:37well listen guys
15:38it was wonderful to meet you
15:40thank you
15:40see you soon
15:41bye now
15:42bye
15:42bye
15:4440 pounds
15:45in one month
15:47I'll help you
15:49okay
16:02all right guys
16:03are you ready
16:03are you ready for this
16:05I'm going to show you
16:06what's in my fridge
16:08I have some yummy yogurts
16:10in here that
16:10I mean I don't really know
16:12if I'm going to survive on yogurt
16:13but I'm definitely going to give it
16:15my best shot
16:15and when I got a sweet tooth
16:17I go for my
16:20unsweetened applesauce
16:21it's pretty good
16:23when Dr. Potter told me
16:25I had to lose 40 pounds in a month
16:27my brain was like
16:31that's going to be really hard
16:33we'll see
16:38doing a little afternoon walk
16:44say hi
16:48there you go
16:49you can do it
16:54I don't like exercising
16:57at all
16:58but
16:59Derek's here with me
17:01he's always supported me
17:02in anything
17:02so I think this is just going to be
17:04something else that he can support me in
17:05and
17:07obviously he could lose some weight as well
17:08so
17:09this is right for him too
17:11oh god
17:15this is harder than it looks
17:18I'm done
17:28so I've been on my diet
17:30for about a week
17:31eating a whole lot of healthy food options
17:34I went walking once or twice
17:36but I haven't really been exercising
17:40I don't like your typical gym
17:42I like fun and exciting things
17:44I'm playful
17:45I'm flirty
17:46and try to be that sexy person
17:48for my husband
17:50so right now
17:51I'm about to try
17:52a really fun pole dancing class
17:54I love to be able to try new things
17:56right then and there
17:57it's spice
17:59hi
17:59I'm Nikki nice to meet you
18:01oh nice to meet you
18:02I'm here for the session
18:02yes we've been expecting you
18:05okay
18:05so are you ready to go
18:06yes
18:07just follow me to the back here
18:10we do get women of her size in our classes
18:13absolutely
18:14okay
18:14there's usually concerns about
18:16am I going to be the largest person in class
18:19is everyone going to be looking at me
18:20so we just try to reassure
18:23all women
18:24that it's not weight that makes you sexy
18:26it's inside that makes you sexy
18:28okay so Nikki
18:29so tell us
18:30why did you want to try pole dancing
18:32well I've always wanted to
18:35okay
18:35um
18:36but honestly
18:37I heard it was a really good workout
18:39awesome
18:39being on the pole
18:41is the same thing as a gym
18:42except your equipment is upright
18:46holy cow
18:47these instructors
18:48they're really skinny
18:49and really pretty
18:51next to them
18:52I don't feel sexy
18:55I mean
18:55I think I'm pretty
18:56but I think I'm pretty from here up
18:59oh
19:00yeah
19:01oh so much
19:02maybe like here
19:02all right
19:04so come to
19:05behind your pole
19:06oh
19:07you can have both hands on the pole
19:08okay
19:09feel nice and secure
19:11all right
19:12so we're thrusting forward
19:13to the side
19:15back
19:16and side
19:18nice little hip roll
19:20you got it
19:21yes
19:21bend the standing leg
19:23and then take the other leg up
19:24pull
19:25you got it
19:25there
19:26raise that left leg up
19:28bring it up
19:29yes
19:30how about right
19:31so take those hands down
19:32the side of your face
19:34down your shoulders
19:35melt it all the way down
19:36yes
19:38okay
19:38and roll those wrists
19:40the opposite way
19:41yes
19:41you got it
19:42yes
19:43yes
19:43now you're going to roll
19:45those shoulders
19:46bring them forward
19:46up to your ears
19:48back
19:48and down
19:49nice big shoulder rolls
19:53I don't
19:54I don't feel the sexiness yet
19:56it's coming
19:56that's okay
19:57it's coming
19:57no
19:57this is the warm up version
19:59of the sexiness
19:59yeah okay
20:01you're going to bring your chest
20:02forward to the pole
20:03and then drop that chest back
20:05oh this is awkward for me
20:07so awkward
20:08it's okay
20:11I look huge guys
20:15you look great
20:16oh you're going to make me cry
20:19I feel awkward
20:20okay
20:21okay
20:22so bring it back to neutral
20:23and we're going to go the other way
20:25because we got to do both sides
20:26right
20:28you all right
20:30it's okay
20:31you're okay
20:33I know it's hard initially
20:39what part are you feeling awkward about
20:43looking at myself now
20:46and then like looking at you guys
20:48because y'all are so pretty
20:50but you're very pretty
20:51so prettiness comes from
20:53within
20:54it really doesn't come
20:55based on
20:57a size
20:58we always think of sexiness
21:00as an aura
21:01an aura
21:02always comes from within
21:03there are women of all sizes
21:05who have no confidence
21:06whatsoever
21:07and so just try to be like
21:08you know
21:09I just don't care
21:09if this is me
21:10this is who I am
21:11this is where I'm at today
21:12and I love where I'm at today
21:14and where I'm going
21:18like I know I'm pretty
21:19but like I want to feel pretty
21:22like all the time
21:24with no ifs ands buts about it
21:26you know I have 40 pounds to lose
21:29and my goal seems like
21:31a super impossible task
21:34I have a long way to go
21:40how has your month been?
21:41I realized that I am an emotional eater
21:44so there was a lot of cheat days
21:47I'm really nervous
21:50I'm just in shock
21:52this is going to put you in an early grave
22:03I went and got food
22:04I got us two chicken sandwiches
22:06and some fries
22:07oh okay
22:08yeah
22:10so I have
22:12my weigh-in coming up
22:14and
22:15it's not
22:16it's not going to be great
22:18I feel like every time
22:19I drive past
22:20a fast food restaurant
22:21I'm like
22:21let's stop
22:22who's going to
22:22numb my feeling
22:24I don't know
22:28I've cheated a lot
22:31my failed pole dancing class
22:34definitely pushed me over the edge
22:37I felt defeated
22:38and I went through the drive-thru
22:40and I got my favorite meal
22:45I'll get me some chicken nuggets
22:52right now
22:52I'm feeling kind of
22:54bad
22:55and ashamed
22:55disappointed
22:59I'm going to give up
23:00because I've already failed
23:03so I have
23:04an approval appointment
23:06coming up
23:07and
23:07if I'm disappointed in myself
23:09if I step on that scale
23:11and it's
23:11not exactly what
23:13we want to see
23:14you know
23:14everyone else is going to be disappointed
23:15even the doctor
23:22yeah
23:23I'm feeling pretty defeated
23:35the doctor is ready for you
23:37thank you
23:39I'm super nervous
23:40for my approval appointment
23:41for surgery
23:44I'm crossing fingers
23:45crossing toes
23:46praying
23:47that
23:48even the
23:49little amount
23:50that I did
23:51was enough
23:52we'll see
23:56Nikki how are you?
23:57Hi good how are you?
23:58Good it's good to see you again
23:59you here by yourself today?
24:01yes
24:02by myself
24:02okay
24:03so it's been
24:04a month
24:05mhm
24:06wow
24:07how's your month been?
24:08I
24:09realized that I
24:10am an emotional eater
24:12in this month
24:15so
24:15there was a lot
24:16of cheat days
24:17I feel like you're
24:18trying to tell me
24:19you're
24:19you're not gonna
24:20make weight
24:22I'm really nervous
24:24this was my shot
24:26I met you
24:27a month ago
24:28you were
24:29470 pounds
24:30yes
24:31I told you
24:32I wanted you
24:32to lose 40 pounds
24:33in a month
24:35let's see where we are
24:36gosh
24:39all right
24:39whenever you're ready
24:56493 pounds
25:00you actually gained
25:0223 pounds
25:02in the last month
25:10seeing 493 on the scale
25:12I am kind of in shock
25:15I wasn't prepared
25:16to see
25:1623 pound
25:18weight gain difference
25:21can I have a tissue
25:23yeah
25:24thank you
25:25sure
25:26put it right there
25:29I don't know if I'm disappointed
25:31or just in shock
25:33I give patients
25:34these weight loss goals
25:35so they can prove
25:36to themselves
25:37that they can
25:38meet a goal
25:38that they can
25:39have a bit of a success
25:41I don't know when
25:42I've ever seen a patient
25:43come in
25:43after a weight loss challenge
25:46having instead
25:47gained 23 pounds
25:49I don't really
25:49don't even know
25:50how to react to that
25:52I know you're disappointed
25:53I'm disappointed in myself
25:55you're gonna rob
25:56your child of his mother
25:58no I'm not
25:59yeah the way you're going
26:00you are
26:01because I'm gonna
26:02I'm gonna do it
26:02if you give me a chance
26:04okay
26:04this is where it gets real
26:06this is where you decide
26:07if you want to live
26:09this is where you decide
26:10who you want your son
26:11to grow up with
26:13I think you really need
26:15some psychological support
26:16on this
26:18things are always
26:18going to come up in life
26:19we've got to figure out
26:20a different way
26:20to deal with it
26:21because this
26:22this is just going
26:23to put you in an early grave
26:26I don't want to die
26:29now I want to see you die
26:35I'll give you another month
26:36to lose 40 pounds
26:38same goal
26:38one extra month
26:42yes sir
26:43alright
26:49so moving forward
26:51there will be no more
26:52bad foods in the house
26:53bye bye cupcakes
26:55bye bye donut
26:56are you gonna miss
26:57the chocolate chips
26:58yeah
26:59kind of flip it out
27:00a little bit
27:00just a little bit
27:02bye cheesecake
27:03bye
27:06everything
27:19what are you doing
27:20I'm throwing away
27:21all this junk food
27:22why
27:24how am I going to
27:24lose any weight
27:27if I'm eating donuts
27:29when I didn't make
27:30my first weight goal
27:31it was devastating
27:32to everybody
27:33and myself
27:34daughter Potter
27:35was disappointed in me
27:36after talking with
27:38daughter Potter's
27:39psychiatrist
27:39it definitely feels
27:40like a wake up call
27:41I know that
27:42now I have to
27:43put my big girl
27:44panties on
27:44and start over
27:45and do it again
27:46you see this
27:48all this
27:48say bye
27:49say bye bro
27:50say bye to the
27:51chips
27:52mama's getting rid of
27:53all the
27:54chips and cookies
27:57bye bye
27:59bye bye
28:00for now one
28:00there's no more
28:00bad food in this
28:01house
28:01all right
28:02we all gonna go
28:02burn
28:04burn baby
28:05burn
28:05bye bye cupcakes
28:06bye bye donut
28:09say bye bye donut
28:10bye bye donut
28:12bye bye chocolate chips
28:13are you gonna miss
28:14the chocolate chips
28:15yep
28:15are you gonna miss
28:16the ramen noodle
28:17yeah
28:18but you know it's good
28:19because mommy needs
28:19to lose weight right
28:20so mommy can get
28:21approved for surgery
28:23when I get surgery
28:25I'm gonna become
28:26that badass
28:27softball mom
28:28so he can see it
28:29bye bye
28:29say bye bye
28:30bye bye
28:31all right
28:32Brian's gonna be like
28:33mommy I'm so proud of you
28:34that's gonna be
28:35the best day ever
28:37bye cheesecake
28:38bye
28:41everything
28:44I can do this
28:45and I will
28:47so I didn't make
28:48my first weight goal
28:49my second approval
28:51appointment with Dr. Proctor
28:52it was in two weeks
28:53so I'm kind of
28:54kind of flipping out
28:55a little bit
28:56just a little bit
28:58but you know
28:59I'm gonna give it
29:00my best shot
29:01I wanna slay it
29:07good evening
29:09welcome
29:10to baby's kitchen
29:11or I should say
29:13Nikki's kitchen
29:14oh yeah
29:18gonna eat
29:19so healthy
29:20hey
29:20feeling excited
29:22because I've
29:22really been doing
29:23what I'm supposed
29:24to be doing
29:25diet
29:25I've been drinking
29:26water
29:27I've been
29:28walking
29:30I've been
29:31working out
29:34and when I feel
29:36overwhelmed
29:37or mad sad
29:38or any kind
29:39of major
29:40emotion
29:41I'll just
29:42write in my new
29:43cute journals
29:43that my therapist
29:44gave me
29:46and see if it can
29:47help calm me down
29:48instead of food
29:58hi Dr. Proctor
29:59hey Karen
30:00you have that
30:02Zoom appointment
30:02with Nikki Etheridge
30:03to approve her
30:04for surgery
30:04thank you
30:05thank you
30:06appreciate it
30:09alright
30:11Nikki
30:12hi
30:13hey can you
30:14can you hear me
30:14how are you
30:15I'm wonderful
30:16how have things
30:17been going
30:17since we last
30:18met
30:19great
30:20good
30:20walking
30:21and drinking
30:22water
30:23and eating
30:24everything I'm
30:25supposed to
30:25where do you
30:26think you are
30:26you think you've
30:27lost weight
30:27I mean I definitely
30:29think I've lost
30:29weight but
30:31we're gonna find
30:32out
30:32yeah
30:33you got a
30:34scale there
30:34yeah hold on
30:35let's see what
30:36we can do
30:37Dr. Proctor
30:38originally gave me
30:39a goal to lose
30:4040 pounds
30:40in a month
30:41so I didn't
30:42make my first
30:43weight goal
30:43he's like you know
30:44I'm gonna give you
30:44another chance
30:45you got a second
30:46chance
30:47I have been
30:48checking at home
30:48but it kind
30:49of fluctuates
30:51so I really
30:52don't know
30:52how much I weigh
30:54I'm nervous
30:57alright are you
30:57ready
30:58I'm ready
30:58let's see
31:00hold on guys
31:04I see it
31:05I can see it
31:06you're at
31:07460 pounds
31:09that's a huge
31:10turnaround
31:11460 pounds
31:12that's fantastic
31:13you've put
31:14a lot of effort
31:15in this
31:16but you didn't
31:17completely meet
31:18the goal
31:18that I gave you
31:21but you made
31:22some amazing
31:22changes in your
31:23life and
31:24there's gonna be
31:25some collateral
31:25good come from
31:26this
31:27you are gonna
31:28make incredible
31:29changes in your
31:29son's life
31:30so let's take
31:31this momentum
31:31and let's move
31:32forward with your
31:33surgery
31:34yeah
31:35okay
31:36congratulations
31:37Nikki
31:37oh my gosh
31:39I was not
31:40expecting him
31:40to say that
31:41it's shocking
31:44I'm very thankful
31:45and if this ain't
31:46motivation
31:47I don't know
31:47what is
31:48you put the work
31:49in
31:49you've shown the
31:50effort
31:50I'm excited for you
31:52even though she
31:53didn't hit that
31:5440 pound weight loss
31:55goal she was close
31:56and I'm more
31:57impressed with the
31:57mental turnaround
31:58that she's made
31:59that's what tells me
32:00she's ready to move
32:01forward with surgery
32:01I'll float her
32:02those last 7 pounds
32:03and she'll have to
32:04make it up for me
32:05on the other end
32:06congratulations
32:07I'm excited for you
32:08this is gonna be
32:09a huge new thing
32:10for your life
32:11yes
32:12let's get going
32:13on it okay
32:13thank you
32:15bye now
32:25I think I packed
32:26enough stuff
32:27probably
32:29you always do
32:31I overpack
32:41it's the morning
32:41of my weight loss
32:42surgery
32:42and I'm feeling
32:44all different
32:45kind of emotions
32:47happy, sad
32:49scared
32:51it's all in one
32:54I'm starting to
32:55freak out
32:56inside
33:01just think
33:02you're gonna
33:03come out
33:03you're gonna
33:04be a totally
33:04different woman
33:05healthier for
33:06your son
33:08for us
33:09and for yourself
33:10what if my body
33:12doesn't handle it
33:13well
33:13it will
33:14I'm really scared
33:16of like the whole
33:16thing
33:17gonna be okay
33:18baby
33:20I am terrified
33:22I'm scared
33:23I'm gonna die
33:23on the table
33:24or I'm scared
33:25I'm gonna go home
33:25and like two days
33:26later
33:27have a blood clot
33:29I want to live
33:30and be around
33:31for my son
33:33I'm sorry
33:41just make sure
33:42Brian knows
33:43how much
33:43mama loves him
33:44I will
34:08weight loss surgery
34:09means freedom
34:10everything
34:11walking down
34:12the street
34:12happily
34:13and not having
34:13to carry
34:15all the extra
34:16weight around
34:17being able
34:18to sit on the
34:18floor and play
34:18with my kid
34:20it means
34:21being a great
34:21mom
34:23anesthesia
34:24are you happy
34:26I need one
34:27of the
34:27eight millimeter
34:28show cars
34:30all right
34:31I think we're
34:31ready to
34:31knock the robot
34:34yeah she's
34:34in surgery
34:35right now
34:35and I'm
34:36nervous
34:36and scared
34:37and just
34:38ready for
34:39her to be
34:39out
34:39and everything
34:41be okay
34:42will you
34:42retract that
34:43momentum
34:43for me
34:45she deserves
34:46this after all
34:47the hard work
34:47she put in
34:48it's gonna
34:48change everything
34:49about our lives
34:51all right
34:52let's close up
34:52great work today
34:53so we just
34:54finished Nikki's
34:55surgery and
34:55everything went
34:56really great
34:57she didn't throw
34:57us any curveballs
34:58everything went
34:59really great
34:59so now I'm gonna
35:00go out and
35:01talk to her
35:01husband
35:03so we're all
35:04done
35:04she did really
35:05really well
35:05all taken care
35:07of
35:29so about a
35:30year ago
35:31I was on
35:31social media
35:32and I got a
35:32lot of hate
35:34negative comments
35:35about how I
35:36should go eat
35:37another burger
35:39how I should
35:40be ashamed
35:40even posting
35:42but who cares
35:44pretty much
35:44F the haters
35:47my motivation
35:48for losing weight
35:49it was really
35:50for myself
35:50and for my son
35:53what shirt
35:54you think
35:54blue or the
35:55black one
35:55the black one
35:57all right
35:59everything's
36:00definitely changed
36:01before I couldn't
36:02sit on the floor
36:03or get myself
36:04up for that matter
36:05couldn't even
36:06change my own
36:06tampon
36:07I couldn't go
36:08to certain
36:09restaurants
36:09because I don't
36:10know if the
36:11booths move
36:13you ready to
36:14take mommy out
36:14on her big day
36:15yeah
36:16all right
36:16let's go
36:18before we
36:19couldn't go to
36:19the movie theaters
36:20unless they had
36:21the bigger chairs
36:22for the movies
36:23or the arms
36:24let up
36:25now we don't
36:26have to worry
36:26about booths
36:27when we go
36:27out to dinner
36:30since losing
36:30the way
36:30I discover
36:31things that I
36:32can do
36:32every day
36:33I can touch
36:34my toes
36:34or I can
36:35clip my own
36:36toenails
36:36I'm trying to
36:37walk on the
36:38line
36:39her confidence
36:40is coming
36:40back
36:41her old
36:42self that I
36:43married
36:43the old
36:43Nikki is
36:44coming back
36:45it's my life
36:47I'm gonna
36:48only
36:49doing what
36:50I was
36:51when I
36:52wonder
36:52it's my life
36:54methods
36:54party of
36:55three
36:55awesome
36:56follow me
37:01when I
37:01was at my
37:02heaviest
37:02I was at
37:04493
37:05and I've
37:06lost over
37:07250 pounds
37:08I want to
37:09get to about
37:10180
37:11and I think
37:12that I can
37:14moving forward
37:15I want to
37:16go back to
37:16school and
37:17get my GD
37:17and I want
37:18to go work
37:18at an ER
37:19as a phlebotomist
37:20and then I
37:20want to be
37:21the best mom
37:21I can be
37:23tell a little
37:24man how much
37:24you've lost
37:25like 250
37:26pounds
37:27what
37:29that's a lot
37:30ain't it
37:30mommy's changed
37:31a lot
37:31since surgery
37:32hasn't she
37:33you like big
37:34mommy or
37:34little mommy
37:35little mommy
37:35why
37:36they can do
37:37a lot more
37:38things with us
37:40like what
37:40play baseball
37:45a year ago
37:46we would go
37:47to the baseball
37:48field and
37:49I'd have to
37:50sit in the car
37:50because I
37:51just physically
37:52couldn't do it
37:53and now
37:54after losing
37:55all the weight
37:55I'm able to
37:56get on the field
37:56with Derek
37:57and Brian
37:58what
38:00first try
38:05it was
38:06really
38:07heartwarming
38:08to see her
38:08running around
38:09the bases
38:09because we
38:11have a pickup
38:11game every
38:12Friday
38:12and she
38:13hasn't come
38:14to our game
38:14at all
38:15this is the
38:15first time
38:15she's come
38:16and for her
38:17to be able
38:17to run
38:17the bases
38:18not just
38:18walk
38:19but run
38:19the bases
38:20it's just
38:21awesome
38:21good job
38:23way to go
38:24so proud
38:25of you
38:26that was
38:27amazing
38:29she's happy
38:30which makes
38:31me happy
38:31Brian's happy
38:32I mean
38:33I couldn't
38:33ask for more
38:34as a dad
38:36hello son y'all
38:38family hug
38:39family hug
38:39it was just
38:41fun to be
38:41there
38:41in the moment
38:42playing with
38:43Brian
38:44on the field
38:45instead of
38:45sitting in the car
38:46and that makes
38:47me feel good
38:48and on top
38:49of that
38:50I got
38:51a very big
38:52surprise for
38:53Brian
38:53close your eyes
38:55alright open
38:56them
38:57alright Brian
38:58can you read
38:58this
38:59it says
39:00best big bro
39:02do you know
39:02what that means
39:03you're gonna be
39:03a big brother
39:04are you serious
39:05yeah mommy's serious
39:06it's a baby
39:07in her belly
39:07I know they tell
39:09you after surgery
39:10you're not supposed
39:10to get pregnant
39:11until the doctor
39:12releases you
39:13or for 12 months
39:14we weren't really
39:15preventing it
39:16but I never thought
39:17that it would
39:17happen to me
39:19but here we are
39:20I mean I kind of
39:21still don't
39:22believe it
39:24you're excited
39:29I'll let you help
39:30we'll give you
39:31some options
39:31how about that
39:32we tried for
39:34so many years
39:35but the magic key
39:36was her losing
39:37the weight
39:37and now we got
39:39a baby on the way
39:40you gonna change
39:41the cybers
39:42yeah dad
39:42you have to do
39:43the changing neckers
39:44I hope it's a girl
39:47I'm a little sister
39:50can I kiss
39:52I worked really hard
39:53to lose this weight
39:54and I just want
39:55people to know
39:56that if I can do it
39:58you can do it
39:59cause I was a
40:00big self doubter
40:01and I just kept
40:02pushing I knew
40:02that I saw something
40:03bigger for myself
40:05I'm excited about
40:06moving forward
40:07and I'm really excited
40:08for the new little one
40:09mom and mama
40:10what if he had
40:11two babies
40:12we never know
40:17don't wish that
40:17upon me
40:30next time on
40:31Dangerously Obese
40:32see I'm in here
40:35oh my goodness
40:35did the wheel just pop
40:36I'm Keith
40:37everybody calls me KC
40:39I don't think we both
40:40can pull our thigh
40:41up in this car
40:42I'm just saying
40:42I got one nigga
40:44I'm LaShawn
40:45we've been married
40:46for 11 years
40:47we like to go
40:48experience different
40:49types of food
40:50we don't want to
40:51think about
40:51every little calorie
40:53I kind of went overboard
40:55with three out of your face
40:56you gonna really eat
40:57all that
40:58whatever
41:02I know this is kind
41:03of difficult
41:04helping me hand
41:04to foot like this
41:05it's alright
41:06it stopped our marriage
41:08at a certain point
41:09this has been really hard
41:10and I don't know
41:13what else to do
41:14I don't have to tell you
41:15you're kind of a ticking
41:16time bomb
41:16Keith may not live
41:18another five or six years
41:20if he doesn't do
41:20something about his weight
41:21very very quickly
41:22I'm hitting my two miles
41:24why are you starting
41:25with five pounds
41:26I'm doing the best I can
41:27biggest fear is
41:28my weight is beyond repair
41:30I don't want to be
41:31hooked up to no hoes
41:33you know what I'm saying
41:34on dialysis
41:35I don't want that
41:36to be something to deal with
41:38I don't want to die
41:45I don't want to know
41:45you just can't
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