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00:00I know exactly how tonight ends. I've already died in it once. Cole Whitfield,
00:05starting QB, Yale football recruit, my childhood friend. I've always liked him.
00:09Ivy's birthday. Warehouse on Delancey. No one's checking. Midnight. Everyone's going!
00:18Cole, the SAT is tomorrow morning. That place serves real alcohol. My dad works the ER. He's
00:25treated kids from this school this year. More than once. Are you seriously doing this right
00:33now? Mara, it's my birthday. I've invited you. Can you just not? She's just mad Cole is doing
00:49something nice for Ivy. That night I called every single person. I was at the testing center
00:54at 7.30 a.m. I made sure they all showed up. They aced the SAT. Then the results came
00:59in.
01:00And with them, the news. Ivy went to the warehouse alone. Someone dumped Everlight into the punch bowl.
01:08Ivy had three cups. Someone assaulted her. Cole decided it was my fault. Everyone agreed. If you
01:16hadn't stopped us, someone would have been there to protect her. They pushed me down the third floor
01:21stairwells. I died on the spot. Cole watched. When the police asked, the whole class said the same
01:26thing. I threatened them. And when they stopped me, I tried to run and fell. Every call I made that
01:31night became evidence against me. Someone found our address online. Someone poured gasoline at our
01:36front door and lit it. My parents were inside. Cole lived next door. He stood on the balcony watching
01:43the fire. Only after my parents stopped screaming, did he call 911. I found all of this out after I
01:51was
01:51already dead. I also found out the truth about Ivy. Every single piece of it was planned by her.
02:02Cole's voice reached me before I was fully awake.
02:07Is Mara actually coming? She's gonna kill the whole vibe. She rewrote two of my papers last month.
02:13She's useful. So what is she? Your tutor or your errand girl?
02:19Neither. She's just... She's always around. She likes being useful. It's basically her whole personality.
02:31That's all I ever was to him. Same 15 people. Same cheer. Same room. I'm back.
02:37Last time I lost everything. My parents. My home. This time I won't make the same mistake again.
02:44Mara, you're coming too, right? I did invite you. Have fun, Ivy.
02:49You're not going to lecture us?
02:51Nope. Last time you ran home and called everyone's parents. Not this time.
02:54He grabbed my wrist. Hard. His other hand went into my bag and pulled out driver's license.
03:02No photo ID. No entry at the testing center.
03:08You know the rules. Stay quiet tonight. Don't ruin Ivy's birthday. And you get this back tomorrow
03:14morning. Simple. Cole is the QB. Nobody moves when Cole does something.
03:24Don't make this a thing, Mara. It's one night.
03:28Cole, that is the only thing I need to get into the testing center tomorrow.
03:32Give it back. Come with us and you'll have it back in the morning. Stop being difficult.
03:49Cole walked me to the old gym at the end of the hallway. No cameras back there.
04:00Relax. It's just one night. I'll come back for you after.
04:03Cole, I have a test tomorrow.
04:05Tonight is about Ivy. Not you. It was never about you.
04:09Something hard hit the floor outside the door. He stomped on my phone.
04:13Cole!
04:17His footsteps faded. Nothing left. Just the dark and the sound of my own breathing.
04:23I have a backup phone in my jacket pocket. I could call 911 right now. Officers would be here
04:28in five minutes. Cole's Yale recruitment would be gone tonight. But that's not what I want.
04:34I want Ivy's plan to run. I need her to believe she won.
04:38The only way this ends for good is everyone can see how deep the hole goes.
04:43I open the screen recorder. Hit record. Started talking.
04:47My name is Mara Scott. Today is Friday, October 14th.
04:53Cole Whitfield, starting QB at Harlington Academy and Yale football recruit,
04:59just locked me in the old gymtasium. He took my driver's license so I cannot enter the SAT testing
05:05center tomorrow. Last time I had nothing. Just my word against 15 people who had already agreed
05:12on their story. This time, everything is on record before a single lie gets told.
05:17Forty minutes later, my dad found me.
05:20Who did this?
05:24Dad, do not go to the school. Do not call anyone.
05:27Mara!
05:27Do not talk to any other parents about tonight, no matter what you hear tomorrow.
05:31Promise me first.
05:33He looked at my hands. He looked at my face. He made the promise.
05:39We walked to the car. He did not ask anything else until the doors were closed.
05:47Tell me.
05:49I want to submit my McGill application tonight. Test optional early action.
05:55I don't need an SAT score. I want to leave.
05:59You've been putting that application off for three months. You said you wanted to stay because-
06:03I was wrong about what I was staying for.
06:10He did not push. He started the car.
06:17The last time I sat in a car in the dark waiting for something to be over was last fall.
06:23Three seasons of opponent breakdowns for Cole. One notebook a week. He never once asked who wrote them.
06:32I saw the car before he did.
06:35It came in from the far entrance. Too fast. No headlights.
06:39It was aimed at him. No time to think. I moved.
06:45The car didn't stop. It just drove away. I got up. My ankle was on fire.
06:50Cole was on the ground and not moving and I called 911 and I stayed with him until I could
06:55hear the sirens.
07:01I wrote. Good luck. I put it back.
07:05I stepped away before the paramedics reached him.
07:23I found out later that Cole woke up and the first face he saw was hers.
07:29I found out later what she let him believe.
07:33I wrapped my ankle myself. The cut was deep enough to scar.
07:37But the next day was Cole's game and I didn't want him to know.
07:41Cole didn't know I wasn't there until after the game. He won. He texted me one line.
07:46You missed it.
07:55You missed the game.
07:58I know. How's your head?
08:00Fine. Why weren't you there?
08:02Something came up.
08:03You knew how important this game was.
08:05He didn't notice my leg was hurt.
08:08That was the last home game of the season.
08:12He won. He got his Yale letter three months later.
08:16The notebook from that week is still in his bag.
08:19He carries it to every game.
08:21He has never once opened it in front of me.
08:23He does not know that the handwriting on the last page is mine.
08:27He thinks Ivy saved him.
08:31I never corrected it. I knew he wouldn't believe me.
08:38I opened the group chat on my backup phone. Party photos.
08:43Everyone packed into the warehouse. A big punch bowl in the center.
08:47The crowd was still cheering.
08:49Two people in the back were already on the floor.
08:51Someone posted another video from the party.
08:56Hey, where's your little girlfriend, Mara?
08:59She's not my girlfriend.
09:03Really? Can I ask her out then?
09:07I think she's kind of crazy.
09:08Why would you go for her?
09:12Prove it.
09:14It's just background.
09:29Cole burned my test ID.
09:31He knew how much that exam was meant to me.
09:35It just didn't matter to him.
09:39I opened my laptop.
09:42McGill portal.
09:43Early action.
09:45Test optional box.
09:47Uploaded everything.
09:48Hit submit.
09:50Last time I gave this up for Cole,
09:53I believed him.
09:55I stayed.
09:58I lost everything.
10:10Alcohol poisoning.
10:11A group of students.
10:13I have to go in.
10:19Stay at the hospital all day.
10:21If anyone asks you, we're there all night.
10:22Do not come to the school.
10:24Do not let your name get into whatever story starts today.
10:28What story?
10:29The kind where they need someone to blame.
10:31Stay out of it. Promise me.
10:40I promise.
10:42He left.
10:43I sat in the quiet kitchen.
10:46Mom was humming in the other room.
10:48The coffee maker was running.
10:51Birds outside.
10:53Everything's still here.
10:55They are not taking this from me again.
11:05Where is everyone?
11:07Testing starts in 30 minutes.
11:10Twelve students with alcohol poisoning last night.
11:13Police said someone spiked the punch bowl with Everclear.
11:16Three are in the ICU.
11:22Most of my top students are in the hospital right now.
11:31Mara.
11:32Good.
11:33You're here.
11:33Where's your ID?
11:35Cole Whitfield took my driver's license from my bag last night.
11:37He walked me to the back of the old gym and locked me in so I couldn't stop them from
11:40going to the party.
11:43I have it on video.
11:46My phone buzzed.
11:47Ivy had just gone live.
11:49We just wanted to celebrate.
11:51Mara told us the party was safe.
11:53She said she had been there before.
11:55She wanted us to go.
11:57She had a problem with Cole.
11:59She knew her dad worked at that hospital.
12:01I think she wanted something to go wrong.
12:04My son is in the ICU.
12:06You did this?
12:07No, I have the video.
12:09Everything from last night is on record.
12:11Cole just confirmed it on camera.
12:14You told them to go.
12:15I looked at the live stream.
12:17Cole's mouth was moving.
12:18He still would not look at the camera.
12:20The QB who throws touchdowns in front of 2,000 people every Friday night could not look at a camera
12:25right now.
12:26Everything from last night is uploaded and time stamped.
12:29Before any of you agreed on your story.
12:32You want to keep going?
12:33Go ahead.
12:33Ivy saw my phone on the stream.
12:35Her face changed.
12:36Just for a second.
12:37Cole finally looked at the camera.
12:39He was not angry.
12:40He was not confident.
12:42He was scared.
12:43There's one more thing I need to say.
12:44This is really hard for me.
12:46Tamara's father is the attending physician at Mercy General right now.
12:49He is treating our classmates.
12:51I am not saying he did anything wrong on purpose.
12:53I am just saying if that was my child in that hospital, I would want to know.
13:00Get her father out of that hospital right now.
13:02He is not touching my kids.
13:03She set the whole thing up so her dad could finish the job.
13:09Every second of this is being recorded.
13:11You are all on camera right now.
13:14Let go of me.
13:16Get your hands off my daughter right now.
13:19You want to talk about last night?
13:20My daughter tried to stop your kids from going to that party.
13:23Your kids walked her to the back of the old gym.
13:26Locked her in and took her ID so she could not even get into the SAT.
13:30I have the audio.
13:31You want to hear it right now?
13:33I opened my phone and went live.
13:36Title, the truth about last night.
13:3840 seconds in, 10,000 viewers.
13:40Ivy is still live right now.
13:42I'm going to play something she doesn't want you to hear.
13:45Tonight is about Ivy, not you.
13:47It was never about you.
13:48Now for the other thing.
13:50Mara, stop!
13:51Whatever you think you have-
13:52I've been in your private account, Ivy.
13:54The one you think no one knows about.
13:56Three weeks ago you told your friend you couldn't take the SAT because your grades are fake.
14:00Every score you ever posted came from someone else taking the test for you.
14:04That's insane.
14:05You can't prove any of-
14:08Screenshots are in the chat right now.
14:10Her own words.
14:11Her own account.
14:12Time stanks matching three weeks ago exactly.
14:14The comments went sideways.
14:16Ivy looked at Cole.
14:16He was staring at his phone reading the screenshots.
14:19His face was falling apart in real time.
14:20You knew.
14:22You knew the whole time and you-
14:23Cole, listen to me.
14:24My ARR recruitment is under review because of last night.
14:28Because of you.
14:34He stood up.
14:35Knocked his chair over.
14:37He looked at the camera for one second.
14:3940,000 people watching.
14:41Then he reached over and hit end stream on Ivy's phone.
14:44Her stream cut out.
14:46Mine kept running.
14:50Mara, I owe you an apology.
14:53Yeah, you do.
14:59You okay?
15:01I didn't get to take my SAT.
15:03I know.
15:04It's okay.
15:04I submitted my Miguel application test washable at 2am.
15:08I don't need the score.
15:09When did you do that?
15:10Right after Ivy sent me the photo of my burned ID.
15:13That's my girl.
15:14But she is not done.
15:1620 minutes later, she texted me.
15:18This isn't over, Mara.
15:19The next morning, Cole showed up at my door.
15:23I'll go open the door.
15:29I need to talk to Mara.
15:30You need to leave.
15:32Please.
15:33Five minutes.
15:37Mom.
15:38It's okay.
15:40Mom looked at me.
15:41I shook my head slightly.
15:42She stepped back.
15:43I walked to the door.
15:44Cole looked at me.
15:45Something crossed his face that I had not seen before.
15:48Not confidence.
15:49Not his usual ease.
15:50Shame.
15:51Yale called.
15:52They're putting my recruitment on hold pending an investigation.
15:55I know.
15:56I didn't know she faked everything.
15:58The grades, the scores, all of it.
16:00I know you didn't.
16:02Then why didn't you warn me?
16:04You knew.
16:05You had everything.
16:08Cole, you locked me in a gym.
16:11You stomped on my phone.
16:13You stood in front of 15 people and took my driver's license out of my bag.
16:18And you want to know why I didn't warn you?
16:24I need your help.
16:26If Yale pulls my offer, I lose everything.
16:28You want me to save your Yale spot?
16:30You're the only one who can.
16:32No.
16:33I am not calling Yale.
16:35I am not writing a letter.
16:36I am not doing one single thing to fix what Ivy broke.
16:39That is not my job.
16:40It was never my job.
16:42But you have the evidence.
16:44One call fixes this.
16:46Last time something like this happened, I spent an entire night trying to save everyone and
16:51I'm not doing that again.
16:53Last time?
16:53What does that mean?
16:57Go home, Cole.
16:58I'm sorry about the gym.
16:59About all of it.
17:00I know that doesn't fix anything.
17:03You're right.
17:04It doesn't.
17:06That afternoon, I went to the library.
17:09Third floor.
17:10I had work to do.
17:23Cole came to your house this morning.
17:24What did you say to him?
17:25Why don't you ask him?
17:27Is he not talking to you anymore?
17:34He's not gonna suddenly realize he has feelings for you, Mara.
17:37You're just a tool he finds useful.
17:38A piece of paper.
17:39A notebook.
17:41He can throw you away just like that.
17:43Don't get too comfortable.
17:44Ivy will make sure you understand what happens next.
17:47You and your dad.
17:52I knew they were right.
17:53He had used me so long that being used had started to look like being close.
17:57I used to call it love.
17:59This time I won't.
18:00I have work to do.
18:09He sat there for an hour.
18:12I never showed up.
18:13Then he left.
18:14I don't know what he was waiting for.
18:17But it has nothing to do with me anymore.
18:21Two hours later, Ivy posted a statement.
18:24She called it a mental health crisis.
18:27She made a point of naming my dad.
18:30She called him the physician whose daughter orchestrated the entire incident.
18:34She attached a screenshot.
18:36A text from my dad to a parent saying he was aware of the situation and would handle it.
18:40The text was fake.
18:41My phone blew up.
18:42Unknown numbers.
18:43My dad's hospital page was flooded with one-star reviews.
18:47Someone filed a complaint with the state medical board.
18:49I called my dad.
18:51I see it.
18:52Don't respond to anything.
18:54Don't post anything.
18:55I'll handle it.
18:56Mara.
18:57Dad, do you trust me?
19:00Yes.
19:01Then let me work.
19:07I made one mistake.
19:08That Forge screenshot had no metadata.
19:11She had edited it out.
19:13But the original file still existed in the cloud backup of her account.
19:18The one she didn't know I could access.
19:20I had it in 20 minutes.
19:21The original file had a creation times tape.
19:2411 47 PM.
19:27My dad had been asleep for two hours by then.
19:30His phone was charging in the bedroom.
19:32His location tag showed he was home.
19:34I sent everything to three places.
19:36The school board, the state medical board, and a reporter at the local news station who had been covering the
19:40SAT story since yesterday morning.
19:44Is this Mara Scott?
19:46I'm a producer at Channel 7.
19:47We'd like to give you the chance to respond to Ivy Munro's statement.
19:49No need to respond.
19:50Check your inbox.
19:51I just sent you something better.
19:52I hung up.
19:5540 minutes later, Channel 7 posted a new segment.
19:59Forged evidence.
20:00New questions in the Harrington-Sate T scandal.
20:06The medical board complaint against my dad was suspended pending review.
20:09Dad called.
20:11What did you do?
20:14Exactly what I said I would.
20:17Mara, you can't keep-
20:18Dad, she tried to take your license your entire career.
20:23I am not going to sit and watch that happen.
20:27Come home for dinner.
20:29Mom made lasagna.
20:31That was his version of thank you.
20:37You're Mara Scott.
20:40Yeah.
20:42I'm Nate Kowalski.
20:44Hockey.
20:45I know who you are.
20:47Then you know I'm not one of Cole's guys.
20:49What do you want, Nate?
20:51I want to show you something.
20:53He showed me a screenshot from one of Ivy's private accounts, not the one I had accessed.
20:58Six months of messages between Ivy and a man I didn't recognize.
21:02My friend Marcus was supposed to get a full athletic scholarship to Boston College.
21:05Hockey.
21:06Full ride.
21:07He didn't get it because someone sent the scholarship committee an anonymous tip saying he failed a drug test.
21:11He never failed a drug test.
21:13The tip was fake.
21:17And you think Ivy did it?
21:19I know she did it.
21:21The anonymous email came from a school IP address and Marcus turned Ivy down when she asked him out sophomore
21:27year.
21:29You've been building a file.
21:32Four months.
21:33But I don't have what you have.
21:36You got into her accounts.
21:37I can't do that.
21:42Why are you coming to me now?
21:46Because you're the first person I've seen who isn't scared of her.
21:49That evening, Nate took me to meet Marcus.
21:52You're the one who went after Ivy.
21:55Yeah.
21:56She didn't just kill my BC scholarship.
21:58She told the committee I was dealing, dealing.
22:00I have never touched anything in my life.
22:03College coaches stopped returning my calls.
22:05My whole future just stopped.
22:06Because she was mad I didn't ask her to homecoming.
22:08I know.
22:09I'm gonna get it back for you.
22:11How?
22:11Same way I handled everything else.
22:13I let her dig the hole.
22:14Then I show everyone how deep it is.
22:16What do you need from me?
22:17I registered for the November national test date.
22:20My scores came back in December, 1580.
22:22The highest in Harrington's recorded history.
22:24The school posted it on the announcement board.
22:26My name.
22:27My score.
22:28Right where Cole's football stats used to hang.
22:30You were holding back.
22:31The whole time.
22:33Three days later, Ivy came back.
22:39You think you won?
22:42This isn't over.
22:44Ivy.
22:45You forged evidence and filed a fake complaint against my dad's medical license.
22:50That is a felony.
22:52You should thank me for sending it to the school board instead of the DA.
22:56I found the email account she used for Marcus's fake tip.
22:59It's linked to three other accounts.
23:01She did this to other people.
23:02At least two more that I can find.
23:04Send me everything.
23:07Ivy didn't just go after Marcus.
23:09She has been doing this for years.
23:11There are other people out there who lost things they never should have lost.
23:14The first was Jordan Ellis, junior, track and field.
23:17She applied for the State Athletatorship Scholarship.
23:19Full tuition anywhere in the state.
23:20She didn't get it.
23:22The rejection letter said credible concerns about her character had been raised during the vetting process.
23:33I found the original tip in Ivy's archive.
23:36Same pattern.
23:37School IP address.
23:38Fake account.
23:40Sent the night before the scholarship committee met.
23:43I cried for a month after that rejection.
23:46My parents thought I wasn't good enough.
23:48I thought I wasn't good enough.
23:49You were always good enough.
23:51Someone made sure you didn't get the chance to prove it.
23:54Not anymore.
23:55The second was a kid named Dev Patel.
23:58Graduated last year.
23:59Full ride to Carnegie Mellon.
24:01Rescinded three weeks before move-in.
24:04Academic misconduct.
24:06Anonymous source.
24:07He spent the year working at a warehouse and reapplying everywhere.
24:10I sent him the file with one line.
24:13This is who did it.
24:14I thought you should know.
24:19I spent a year thinking I must have done something wrong and just didn't remember it.
24:26I don't even have words.
24:32I heard about Jordan and Dev.
24:34Nate told me.
24:35Okay.
24:36How many people did she do this to?
24:38At least four that we found.
24:39Probably more.
24:41I dated her for eight months.
24:45I know.
24:46I gave her access.
24:47My coaches.
24:48My contacts.
24:50People who trusted me.
24:51She used all of it.
24:53And I had no idea.
24:56I'm sorry, Mara.
24:57Not just about the gym.
24:58About everything.
24:59Every time I could have paid attention and didn't.
25:02I know.
25:03Cole is starting to understand how much Ivy used him.
25:07Nate had practice until 9pm on Thursdays.
25:11I started doing homework in the bleachers while he ran drills.
25:15The rink was quiet and no one bothered me.
25:17You're still here.
25:27Can I ask you something?
25:29Sure.
25:31Why didn't you put everything out on day one?
25:33You had the recording.
25:35You had Ivy's messages.
25:36You could have ended this in 48 hours.
25:39Because I wanted her to dig the hole herself.
25:40If I dump everything at once, it looks like an attack.
25:43People defend whoever is being attacked.
25:44But if I wait, if I let her keep moving and keep lying,
25:48eventually she's too deep to climb out and everyone can see it.
25:52That's cold.
25:54That's math.
25:56Three years at this school.
25:58Never seen anyone do what you're doing.
26:01Obsessively document everything?
26:04Not be afraid of her.
26:08Come on, I'll teach you to skate.
26:20Right now?
26:21The rink is empty until 10.
26:24I fell three times.
26:27The third time, he caught me before I went down.
26:30His hands were on my arms.
26:33Neither of us moved.
26:35You okay?
26:36I'm fine.
26:37He didn't let go right away.
26:39I didn't step back.
26:42When this is all over, where are you going?
26:45Miguel?
26:46Montreal?
26:49I might know someone at schools in that area.
26:52Is that right?
26:54Hypothetically.
26:56Ivy just filed a second complaint with the school board,
26:59claiming I had illegally accessed her accounts.
27:02She is filing legal complaints now.
27:04She's scared.
27:05She's swinging at everything.
27:07That means she is almost out of moves.
27:10Almost.
27:11But almost is not done.
27:14Miss Scott accessed my client's private accounts without authorization.
27:17Any evidence obtained from those accounts should be excluded from these proceedings.
27:25Mrs. Scott, your response?
27:28Ivy's accounts had no protection.
27:29She used the same password for all of them.
27:31Her dog's name and her birthday.
27:33That's publicly available information she posted herself.
27:37That's not hacking.
27:38That's guessing.
27:39That characterization oversimplified.
27:41I also want to note that Ivy is raising unauthorized access concerns.
27:45At the same time, she forged a text from my father, filed a fake complaint with the state
27:51medical board, and sent fake anonymous tips that destroyed the futures of at least four students
27:56at this school.
27:57If we're talking about what to exclude, start there.
28:00I open the folder.
28:01Every document, time-stamped.
28:03The fake tip to Marcus's scholarship committee at Boston College.
28:06The email account trace.
28:07The forged screenshot of my dad's text.
28:09The matamata showing it was created at 11.47 p.m. while my father was asleep.
28:13Jordan's tip, devs, and the full pattern.
28:16Ivy Turney kept objecting.
28:18The superintendent kept overruling.
28:20I want to make a statement.
28:21Ms. Monroe, your attorney-
28:23I know. I want to speak for myself.
28:26She looked at me.
28:27For the first time since all of this started, there was no performance in her eyes.
28:30I did it.
28:32The tips, the emails, all of it.
28:35Because I was terrified.
28:37My entire identity at this school was built on something fake.
28:41And I knew it was going to fall apart.
28:43So I kept pushing people out of the way.
28:46So no one would be standing there when it did.
28:48Mrs. Scott, anything to add?
28:51I thought about Jordan crying for a month.
28:53Dev working in a warehouse.
28:55Marcus's face in the rink parking lot.
28:58I want Marcus Williams as his Boston College Scholarship fully reinstated.
29:02I want Jordan Ellis's Leadership Scholarship reconsidered and the false tip removed from her file.
29:06I want Dev Patel's Carnegie Mellon rescission investigated and corrected.
29:11That's what I want.
29:14Ivy can deal with whatever comes next on her own.
29:19Ivy stared at me.
29:21She expected something else.
29:23A demand for punishment.
29:24A final blow.
29:25I didn't want that.
29:27I just wanted the people she hurt to get what they deserved.
29:30The panel voted to recommend expulsion pending a 30-day review.
29:34Marcus's Scholarship Committee at Boston College got a formal letter from the district the next day.
29:39Jordan's file was corrected.
29:44Cole texted me that night.
29:46Yael reinstated his recruitment offer.
29:49I know you didn't do this.
29:50That's not why I'm texting.
29:52Just thought you should know.
29:55They reinstated it.
29:57Full ride.
29:58Same terms.
29:59They said they'd hold my spot for January enrollment.
30:01That's great.
30:03Mara, thank you.
30:06Two words.
30:07He hung up.
30:10Nate texted 30 seconds later.
30:13He's been up since 5.
30:15Didn't want to call too early.
30:17He's been sitting there holding his phone for two hours.
30:21Last time I spent an entire night trying to save 15 people who didn't want to be saved.
30:27This time I did one specific thing for three specific people and it worked.
30:31I feel great.
30:36You fixed it.
30:40The committee fixed it.
30:42I just gave them what they needed.
30:44Don't do that.
30:45Don't minimize it.
30:46Okay.
30:47You're welcome.
30:48You could have just handled your own stuff and walked away.
30:50You didn't.
30:51So don't tell me it was nothing.
30:52And for what it's worth, half the school is on your side now.
30:55The half that matters.
31:01I know you could have pushed for criminal charges.
31:03You didn't.
31:05Why?
31:06Because I didn't need to.
31:07You already lost everything that mattered to you.
31:10I don't need to see you in handcuffs to feel okay.
31:13I just needed the people you hurt to get what was theirs.
31:20Ivy went quiet after that.
31:22The expulsion was finalized two days before winter break.
31:25She didn't come back.
31:27On the last day before break, Nate knocked on the library door.
31:30Ice rink.
31:31Tonight, Marcus wants to celebrate your coming.
31:43You actually came.
31:45You said Marcus wanted to celebrate.
31:47Marcus is fine.
31:48I wanted to see if you'd show up somewhere.
31:50That wasn't a library or a hearing room.
31:52Stop flirting and teach her to stop falling.
31:55Around 11pm, Marcus and Jordan went to find more food.
31:58Dev was on the phone.
32:00Just Nate and me at the far end of the ice.
32:04You're overthinking it.
32:08I'm always overthinking it.
32:10Yeah.
32:10I noticed.
32:12Stop thinking about falling.
32:14Think about where you want to go.
32:27You were already moving toward me.
32:32I saw you were going to fall.
32:34How?
32:35I've been watching you for a while, Mara.
32:37He didn't let go.
32:38I didn't step back.
32:40I know you're leaving in August.
32:41I know you have everything figured out.
32:44I'm not asking to be part of your plan.
32:49Then what do you want?
32:51Just this.
32:52Right now.
32:53Whatever this is.
32:55Okay.
32:56He kissed me.
32:57Simple and certain.
32:59Marcus wounded somewhere behind us.
33:01Jordan threw a napkin.
33:02Dev said something in another language and everyone laughed.
33:05I didn't even care.
33:08Winter break was two weeks.
33:10At Nate and I spent most of it together.
33:12Cole sent me a text.
33:13I didn't respond.
33:14I didn't need to.
33:15And then Miguel sent me my early action decision.
33:18Accepted.
33:18For the first time in a long time, the future felt like mine.
33:23The students who had been at the party took the next national test date.
33:26Most of them passed.
33:27Cole's Yale recruitment held.
33:29He signed his letter of intense in February in the gym in front of the whole school.
33:32His jersey number was painted back on the wall.
33:36Hey.
33:36Congratulations, Cole.
33:38I mean it.
33:39You could have buried me.
33:39You didn't.
33:40I know.
33:41I'm gonna spend a long time thinking about that gym.
33:44Good.
33:45I found something when I was clearing out my locker.
33:47I had not seen that notebook since last fall.
33:50I thought it was still in his equipment bag.
33:52He had taken it out.
33:53He was holding it with both hands.
33:55I always thought coach put these together for me.
33:57He always said the breakdowns came from the staff.
34:02I never questioned it.
34:04Three seasons of notebooks and I never once asked who actually wrote them.
34:08I went back and compared this one to the others.
34:10The handwriting is the same across all of them and it isn't coaches.
34:15This page is different from the rest of the notebook.
34:18The letters are uneven.
34:19The spacing is off.
34:21I kept trying to figure out why.
34:22Then I looked at the date on the cover.
34:24It's from the week of the parking lot.
34:26You were hurt when you wrote this, weren't you?
34:31It healed.
34:33Show me.
34:34Cole!
34:36Please.
34:49You pushed me out of the way.
34:51You called 911.
34:52You stayed until the ambulance came.
34:55You went home and wrapped your own ankle.
34:57You wrote my game notes.
34:59And then you came to school the next day.
35:02And I told you that you should have been at the game.
35:06And then I spent a year telling everyone you were just background.
35:11I understood his regret.
35:12I used to imagine this moment would feel like something enormous.
35:16Relief.
35:17Release.
35:18Do you hate me?
35:19I thought about it.
35:26I did.
35:28For a long time.
35:29In another life.
35:30Longer than you'd believe.
35:31What does that mean?
35:32It means I don't anymore.
35:33But we're done here.
35:36I should have known.
35:37I should have known a long time ago.
35:42Take care of yourself, Mara.
35:43I thought about the girl who wrote that last line with blood in her sock and meant every word of
35:48it.
35:48I thought about the version of me who would have waited years for this moment.
35:52Who would have needed it.
35:53I didn't need it.
35:54Go to Yale, Cole.
35:56Be someone different than you were here.
35:58That's the whole point of leaving.
36:05I looked down at the notebook.
36:07He gave it back to me.
36:09That was the last real conversation we had.
36:12The last few months of senior year were the quietest of my life.
36:16I got something in the mail today.
36:18McGill Ice Hockey.
36:19Walk on invitation.
36:21They saw my stats from this season.
36:23Nate.
36:23I know.
36:24It's your school.
36:24I'm not assuming anything.
36:25I just wanted you to know.
36:27Are you going to accept?
36:31I already did.
36:32He put his arm around me and I leaned into him.
36:34We sat there in the quiet.
36:36The sun was out.
36:37I felt good.
36:40I thought about the girl who did the right thing in a parking lot and died for it.
36:44Feeling completely calm for the first time.
36:48I did not save anyone who didn't deserve to be saved.
36:52I did not protect people who used that protection as a weapon.
36:56I let the ones who were going to fall walk right into it.
36:59I kept my hands clean.
37:01I used those clean hands to give back what was stolen.
37:04That felt right.
37:05That was enough.
37:07That was enough.
37:07There was one thing left.
37:09Tomorrow morning I was flying to Montreal.
37:11Tonight Nate said he'd drive me to the airport.
37:13But he had something else to say.
37:15I could feel it.
37:17My parents drove me to the airport.
37:19Mom cried.
37:21Dad didn't.
37:23But he held on a little longer than usual.
37:25And before he let go, he pressed a folded piece of paper into my hand.
37:30I opened it on the plane, his handwriting, at Mara.
37:35I don't know what you knew or how you knew it.
37:38I don't know what this year cost you.
37:41But you kept us safe.
37:42I see you.
37:43I love you, Dad.
37:46Nate was on a different flight.
37:47His parents were driving him up two days later.
37:49He texted me while I was waiting at the gate.
37:51Found a rink four blocks from campus.
37:53Open skate on Sunday mornings.
37:55Thought you should know.
37:59I'm still going to fall.
38:02I know.
38:04I'll be there.
38:12I thought about the version of myself.
38:15Who sat alone in a dark gym and thought that was the worst thing that would ever happen to her.
38:23She wasn't wrong.
38:24It was the worst thing.
38:26It happened.
38:28She came back from it and did something with it.
38:31That was worth doing.
38:36I know exactly how to Nens.
38:39This time, it's all in my hands.
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