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00:00:06So I think my goal as a drag queen is to be known as an artist and not just a
00:00:16female
00:00:16impersonator and really change people's minds about what it means to be a man who dresses
00:00:24up like a woman. I mean like not many 23 year old boys make such a good 40 year old
00:00:32woman.
00:00:56The first time I ever did drag I just used my mom's foundation and then put a bunch of
00:01:05green eye shadow on my eyes and black eyeliner and did my eyebrows black and then put some
00:01:12lipstick on and I wore this really really cheap fake looking plasticky blonde wig and
00:01:21my mom's bustier which was about three sizes too big for me so I had to safety pin it just
00:01:29so that it would stay up on my body and I went to a Halloween party as Hedwig and my
00:01:42mom didn't
00:01:43know about it because my mom had always told me that she was completely fine with me being
00:01:48gay but she thought that being a drag queen would be just pushing it and I think she
00:01:53knew that I always kind of had that brewing inside of me that I wanted to be able to dress
00:02:03up like a woman every once in a while.
00:02:08Well the very first sign was when I found my lingerie in his bedroom that was a pretty big hint.
00:02:15He went through a stage where he'd wear my headbands and my sister's headbands around
00:02:19his waist with long t-shirts and he did that for quite a while.
00:02:24He didn't play with cars and trucks and GI Joes he played with dolls and wore capes and not capes
00:02:31because of superhero capes but capes more like look I'm wearing a dress cape.
00:02:36I just wanted him to feel comfortable with who he was.
00:02:39I never wanted anyone to make him feel like he wasn't allowed to be who he wanted to be.
00:02:45The very first sign she could have had was the fact that I learned every word to the movie
00:02:51Death Becomes Her.
00:02:53Something about their heightened femininity in that and their desire to be young and beautiful forever
00:02:59I think it appeals to people with the drag bone inside of them.
00:03:04Broken down.
00:03:05Flaccid.
00:03:06Boozy.
00:03:07Undertake.
00:03:07Flaccid.
00:03:09Flaccid.
00:03:10Flaccid.
00:03:10I love to talk like Meryl Streep whenever I get a chance.
00:03:14As soon as he watched one movie he would know all the lines and be the people almost their character
00:03:21and he loved Death Becomes Her.
00:03:23I don't know how many times I rented that movie for him and it went on for years.
00:03:26I'm a girl.
00:03:29My ass.
00:03:32Ernest.
00:03:33I can see my ass.
00:03:37I just and another thing I didn't know I wasn't supposed to say is at seven years old
00:03:42my mother really had no business showing me that movie.
00:03:46Get it pull.
00:03:47Go.
00:03:48Get your time.
00:03:51Get your time.
00:03:53Growing up Jerick was always interested in being the female characters.
00:03:57He'd often tell me oh it's because they have better powers or I like their costume better
00:04:02and I always knew it was just him expressing himself.
00:04:06Even playing like Ninja Turtles the little figurines he would want to be the little side
00:04:12character not even one of the main characters as long as he could play the girl.
00:04:17Other things as a kid was like Jessica Rabbit who framed Roger Rabbit and Catwoman was another
00:04:24one.
00:04:26There are a lot of really hyper feminine villains in American culture.
00:04:34I wasn't really raised by a lot of men.
00:04:38I was raised kind of like by a tribe of women.
00:04:41I grew up in a generation where a lot of us were being raised by single moms.
00:04:47It's depicted in television like strong female mother characters.
00:04:54That's just something that's always resonated with me.
00:05:00I think drag is an art form the same way like Comedia Del Arte clowns are an art form.
00:05:10You create a character and kind of have to think with both brains.
00:05:15You have to step into this consciousness of a fictional person and make on the spot decisions
00:05:23and actions and behave this way.
00:05:29You know the way of this person you invented basically.
00:05:34It's not just a form of self-expression but it's a forum for kind of discussing topics
00:05:43and bringing certain things to the foreground that you want people to start talking about.
00:05:50I can call out all kinds of bullshit as jinx that I would never even really talk about
00:05:55as myself.
00:05:58I think the first time Jarek ever went out in full drag was at SMERC which is the Sexual Minority
00:06:04Youth Resource Center.
00:06:06There were a lot of days where we were all just kind of hanging out like around in the
00:06:11main area where there were some couches and a stage and like a CD player and stuff.
00:06:16He put on a CD and he was just like dancing around the rec center like trying to get people
00:06:21to dance with him but nobody would.
00:06:23I was sitting on the couch and he just like asked me if I wanted to like dance around with
00:06:29him and I said no but he decided I was going to so he just like grabbed my arms and
00:06:33pulled
00:06:33me up off the couch and made me dance with him.
00:06:37I guess after that we were friends.
00:06:39Yeah.
00:06:40That's how I met Jarek.
00:06:47SMERC would host monthly drag nights and I think it was the second Friday of every month
00:06:51and then we would have open mic night the last Friday of every month and this has been
00:06:54a long standing tradition.
00:06:56We had a giant costume closet behind the stage that they would spend hours in.
00:07:02I mean Jinx would be in there for hours.
00:07:04The doors would open at 4 and all the queens would go running to the costume closet and
00:07:08then you wouldn't see them until the show started at 8.
00:07:10And I think Jinx was probably 15 or 16 when he did his first performance at SMERC.
00:07:16SMERC is the shit.
00:07:35When I started doing drag at age 15 I was keeping it a secret from my mom.
00:07:41But my grandma knew.
00:07:42I stored all my all my drag stuff at my grandma's house and I would stay with her on the
00:07:49weekends.
00:07:51Originally I learned everything about dressing up like a woman and acting like a woman and
00:07:58what like a polite lady would do from my grandma.
00:08:02And then I felt like it was just as much fun to do the exact opposite of what she told
00:08:08me
00:08:08to do as it was to do exactly what she told me to do.
00:08:12I kept it all secret from mom by hiding it all here.
00:08:15Yeah.
00:08:16And she would just think I was spending the weekend at Nana's.
00:08:19And Nana knew I was going to the nightclub and drag and everything because.
00:08:22So did I.
00:08:23Yeah.
00:08:23No I know you did too.
00:08:25But like Nana I would if she was home I would always go have my last looks with her
00:08:31like have her give me a.
00:08:33Look over your makeup.
00:08:35Yeah.
00:08:35Over the makeup and the hair.
00:08:39I don't remember this one time I was like well I think this hair looks good because
00:08:42I'm doing a country number tonight and this hair is kind of country.
00:08:46And she said something like no no no no Jared country singers have their hair very neat
00:08:51and nice and quaffed and that that does not look very good.
00:08:57And she let me borrow her big gaudy rings and stuff.
00:09:00Yeah she did have gaudy rings that's for sure.
00:09:03Yes.
00:09:03And and I always see I always see everybody out on the front porch.
00:09:09Drinking iced tea because of Nana's iced tea moments.
00:09:18When I was 10 years old it was early September and I was extremely excited for Jerick's coming.
00:09:25I knew he was going to be a little boy and he was already mine.
00:09:29And I had decided that I was part of the pregnancy and on the day he was born I started
00:09:36having cramps in my stomach.
00:09:37And screaming out my baby's coming my baby's coming and everybody thought I was crazy.
00:09:43And then the phone rang and I was called downstairs because my sister was there ready to go to the
00:09:48hospital.
00:09:51Sorry.
00:09:52I always wanted to be a mom always from the time I was little and at one time I was
00:09:58told that I might not be able to have children.
00:10:00So I thought about becoming a nun which makes everybody laugh but I was pretty serious about it at the
00:10:07time.
00:10:08And so when I got pregnant with Jerick I was like so excited and just so I couldn't wait to
00:10:15see him.
00:10:16And they put him in my arms and I'm looking at him and I'm like oh little baby and so
00:10:21excited and he looked up at me and he looked so disappointed like oh god you're my mom really I'm
00:10:27stuck with you again.
00:10:28And I think I've always had that feeling that he's always been so much brighter than me or so much
00:10:34more advanced he's just like an old soul.
00:10:38I was 17 and his mother was I think 22, 23.
00:10:43It wasn't planned.
00:10:46I was actually in a group home.
00:10:51His mom was in pregnancy for I don't know how many hours so long she started in the early afternoon
00:10:59and then we were in the early morning when he actually came.
00:11:04But the doctors looked at my mom and I standing to the side and said this may be a choice
00:11:11between the mother and the baby who do you want us to save.
00:11:15And my mom said the mother and I said the baby because I had already committed to him being mine
00:11:23so I wasn't going to let him go.
00:11:24It's good, isn't it grand, isn't it great, isn't it swell, thank you, isn't it fun, isn't it nowadays.
00:11:39There's cocaine on this.
00:11:41You can like the life you're living.
00:11:44And you see there's a little boy in my throat.
00:11:46You can live the life you like.
00:11:49You can, if one, marry, hurry, but mess around with Ike.
00:11:57Oh wait, you can't see that on camera.
00:11:59I poked his dick.
00:12:00And that's good, isn't it grand, isn't it great, isn't it swell, isn't it.
00:12:08Jarek and I met our first week at Cornish College of the Arts and became fast friends.
00:12:16He seemed pretty shy and reserved and quiet at first and so I went up to him and we started
00:12:25talking and then I realized what a weirdo, crazy person he was and we became super fast friends.
00:12:35I first met Jarek when he was a freshman at Cornish.
00:12:39I remember him because he was kind of a shy gay boy with dyed hair and he stood out.
00:12:48He had been performing drag for a while at that point, which is unusual at that age.
00:12:56Jarek started taking the fundamentals of what we were learning at Cornish and applying it to his drag and creating
00:13:05new characters
00:13:06and these fully rounded female presences.
00:13:12I don't think I introduced him to anyone yet because he was like 18 years old and I wanted to
00:13:17keep my job.
00:13:18So I wasn't going to be like farming him out to bars and burlesque shows, but I could recognize his
00:13:26talent.
00:13:27Seeing how he's taken his acting training towards Jinx and made her this wild creature you see before you has
00:13:37been incredible to watch.
00:13:39She's not a Christian, oh no!
00:13:41She's not a Christian, oh no!
00:13:43She's not a Christian, oh no!
00:13:44She's burning up, starting to stop!
00:13:47Yeah!
00:13:48Yeah!
00:13:49Yeah!
00:13:50Yeah!
00:14:00I was able to find Sylvia Ostefermore, who does a monthly theme show bacon strip.
00:14:08And this is where I developed, I think, the most of my Jinx persona and kind of honed in on
00:14:14the different things that really excite me with drag.
00:14:18Well, I have planned this whole number where I was going to come out with a roller skate, right?
00:14:22And I was going to be like,
00:14:23I love to love you baby, baby, baby, so sweet.
00:14:29But I thought roller skate very well, so it's going to be something like this, you know?
00:14:33And it really challenged me to think of material that is relevant to me and stuff within my wheelhouse,
00:14:39but accessible to a wide audience.
00:14:56I spent a year doing every one of her shows.
00:14:59I didn't miss one for 12 months straight.
00:15:02I don't want to show off no more.
00:15:10I don't want to sing tunes no more.
00:15:14This really is the best costume to wear for the day, you understand?
00:15:24That was some of the most creative time for me because I was able to think what does Jinx do
00:15:29with Studio 54 thing?
00:15:32And how does Jinx tackle the question of like doing a John Waters tribute night?
00:15:37And it has such a cult following that it kind of built up my notoriety in Seattle.
00:15:44Bacon Strip is built as a show that is not like all the other regular drag shows.
00:15:50The rule is they cannot do normal things that you would see at another drag show.
00:16:18And it wasn't completely polished, but that was the fun part about it.
00:16:22And I was kind of amazed because she had said that she had gone back home to Portland and tried
00:16:25it for a while
00:16:26and they just didn't really embrace her as well.
00:16:28And I said, well, I'm ready to embrace you as long as you want to stay.
00:16:33And I figured I'd probably give her about a year until she took off.
00:16:58And so she won the first Miss Bacon Strip title and she wore the crown with pride.
00:17:05I think she actually even ate the, um, because we make a big bouquet of roses out of bacon.
00:17:12And I think she got in a drunken mood and might have even eaten one.
00:17:16Um, which we don't recommend because they're not completely cooked through.
00:17:19But, uh, I believe she did. I think she ate one.
00:17:25We kind of ushered her into the drag scene with our crazy show
00:17:28and then she went mainstream with the regular show on the weekends
00:17:31so she could actually make money. So, it was great.
00:17:46From the moment I started drag, I was in drag every weekend from, like, age 16 to 19.
00:17:57Julia's LaFoe, the number one celebrity impersonation show in the Northwest.
00:18:03They approached me to be their host of their show.
00:18:06And that is when my drag kicked up a notch, you know.
00:18:11I went from just being the kooky, obscure cabaret queen to trying to be a bit more of a showgirl.
00:18:18Jarek is ridiculously talented.
00:18:21And myself and a couple other entertainers got the director of our show to pay attention.
00:18:30And, unbeknownst to me, he offered her my job.
00:18:35This is working in Seattle.
00:18:41And I gave her my blessing. I told her, I said, you know,
00:18:43I know you didn't come in here doing this on purpose.
00:18:45You didn't come in here to take anything from me.
00:18:49So, I'm not, I'm not angry. I can't be angry.
00:18:51But let me give you some advice so that you can go into this situation educated and with ammunition.
00:18:58Because remember, you have what they want.
00:19:02I spent a year working with showgirls and glamour queens and seeing what goes into being glamorous, you know.
00:19:09And I started to kind of understand it better.
00:19:11Because before, all I liked to do was wear a simple black cocktail dress, tease my hair into a bun,
00:19:17a little black eyeliner and call it good.
00:19:19This is how you stay thin in Seattle. You don't take cabs.
00:19:23You just walk everywhere in stilettos.
00:19:26It's my calisthenics for the day.
00:19:31Me and my friend used to do, like, street performance for tips.
00:19:36You know, like we would go to farmer's markets and perform for shekels on the street as, um, wind-up
00:19:44doll mimes.
00:19:45And we met Nick that night.
00:19:48Somehow Nick and I just started, like, talking and we became friends.
00:19:51And we found out we had identical senses of humor.
00:19:57He started visiting me down in Portland on my summer breaks and stuff.
00:20:01He came up with this idea for us to film, like, a day in the life of the Monsoon family.
00:20:06And that became our little web series.
00:20:09This is how you're making your money?
00:20:12Hey, bag!
00:20:17I don't have time to punish you right now.
00:20:20So just give me a fix.
00:20:23How much do you charge?
00:20:24Well, we have sacks of gonge for $20, bags of blow for $40, and for $10, you get to pick
00:20:30one item out of the mystery bag.
00:20:32Will it be a crock crock?
00:20:33Will it be a poisonous scorpion?
00:20:35The answer is yours to discover.
00:20:36Oh, shut up!
00:20:38Ow!
00:20:38I got pricked with something!
00:20:40That'll be $10.
00:20:41All right, buster.
00:20:43That's enough funny business.
00:20:44Come on, we're going home.
00:20:45But, Mama, I'm finally being self-sufficient and industrious.
00:20:48Why can't you just let me be me?
00:20:51It's about a mother and son who live together and try to become rich every episode,
00:20:56but they're socially inept and they're both intoxicated all the time.
00:21:05And that's all there is to the show.
00:21:07It's, like, kind of stupid, actually.
00:21:11It's this really, like, rich, full-on, like, multi-dimensional tapestry of interpersonal relationship
00:21:22boiled down to the fact that I'm a drag queen, he's a gay boy, and we somehow work together as
00:21:28mother and son.
00:21:31If you could, like, say, two gay men about the same age, if you could, like, find a relationship between
00:21:42those two people,
00:21:43we've had every form of relationship that two gay men at about the same age could have.
00:21:50We've been best friends, we've been lovers, we've been, like, collaborators, we've been artistic.
00:21:58Like, we've feuded, we've fought, we've loved, we've fucked, we've done everything.
00:22:04And because of that, there's nothing, there's nothing, like, on, there's nothing off-limits between Nick and I.
00:22:14Of all the relationships he and I have had in our history together, co-comedian seems like the most apropos
00:22:25between one another.
00:22:29I've learned from Jarek that there's always going to be a million people who think that what you're doing isn't
00:22:36the right thing to do
00:22:37or is silly or isn't gonna go anywhere, but if you work hard enough, you can get there, and I
00:22:44think that's what Jarek showed to me.
00:22:47I don't think I really understood what my drag persona was and who I wanted it to be until I
00:22:54came to Seattle.
00:22:55There was something going on in Seattle that wasn't going on in Portland, where drag queens were being incorporated into
00:23:01other areas of performance that wasn't just drag.
00:23:12NARC Magazine started when I moved to Seattle out of an appreciation for all of the characters here.
00:23:18People that were doing a lot of crazy, fierce, amazing things that nobody was really looking at or documenting.
00:23:23Spiraled into doing a lot of parties, events, concerts, drag, everything.
00:23:37What I really like about Seattle's specific aesthetic is the fact that we put the performance above everything else.
00:23:45Like, we kind of will overlook, like, kind of a, you know, a weird-looking drag queen.
00:23:53We won't really focus in on how they're unfashionable or how their aesthetic is gaudy or tacky or anything like
00:24:00that.
00:24:01People look past, you know, just the visual of the drag and look into what they're actually doing.
00:24:19Attention all glamazons. Casting for RuPaul's Drag Race is on. I'm looking for America's next drag superstar.
00:24:29Hello RuPaul. Welcome to sunny Seattle, Washington. My name is Jarek Hoffer and I'm also known as Jinx Monsoon,
00:24:41Seattle's hardest working single mother. I started doing drag when I was 15 years old at an all-ages gay
00:24:47nightclub.
00:24:48So this is the extremely glamorous life of a drag queen.
00:24:59Hello. My name is Jinx Monsoon and welcome to my underwear.
00:25:06I was one of the hottest vaudeville singers in the 1920s. It's true.
00:25:12I'm just a broad white baby.
00:25:17You look absolutely terrific, honestly. He's got sort of a light blue on.
00:25:22Mother wanted me to come out in a kimono, so we had quite a vibe.
00:25:26I don't think that I'm the competitive type. I like to compete with people, not against them.
00:25:32And when it comes to working with other drag queens, I always try to treat other queens like my sister
00:25:39until they give me a reason not to. You know, RuPaul, you've been around the block a few hundred times,
00:25:48I'm sure.
00:25:53Are you stalking me?
00:25:55I knew he was going to be famous, or I just knew something about him.
00:26:01And I thought it was going to be football. So I gave him a really cool football name.
00:26:05Jarek Roman Lamar Hoffer. And I thought it'd be really cool. J.R. Lamar.
00:26:09Sounded like so football. But as he started growing, I knew that wasn't going to happen.
00:26:19I don't think I was ready to come out until I saw the movie Hedwig and the Angry Inch.
00:26:24And it's lucky that I saw it right before my mom outed me, because I wasn't ready to be out
00:26:30before I saw that movie.
00:26:33The material Hedwig and the Angry Inch has always been really personal to me.
00:26:38It was my senior thesis performance at Cornish. And so when Balagan approached me about it, I said yes immediately.
00:26:47I didn't know, though, that I would be doing it while I was secretly waiting for the announcement to be
00:26:55made that I was on RuPaul's Drag Race.
00:26:58Oh, now I do feel like Meryl Streep. Now I am like Meryl Streep. Look at this. Wrinkled, wrinkled little
00:27:05star. Hope they never see the scars.
00:27:11And then right before Hedwig opened, the announcement was made that I was going to be on season five of
00:27:16Drag Race.
00:27:16And I was the first Seattle queen, first Northwest queen ever to go on.
00:27:20And it was really interesting performing like, for me, the ultimate show in my, in my repertoire.
00:27:30Like while I was also being exposed nationally on Drag Race.
00:27:37He must have been 15 or 16 years old and she called me and she told me that Jarek had
00:27:46come out to her.
00:27:49What are we going to do?
00:27:52And I just thought for a second, well, are you going to stop loving him?
00:27:57And she was like, no.
00:27:59And I was like, well, you're not going to do anything because he's the same person he was.
00:28:06Nothing's changed.
00:28:10So, there's just a realization now that he's come out and he's telling you who he is.
00:28:16Which is still the same person he was before he told you.
00:28:25When I talk to my dad, I feel like we just talk about the, the default type guy stuff.
00:28:32You know, we talk about cars and work and it never gets very deep.
00:28:38My relationship with Jarek is very much the same.
00:28:42We don't talk much and I don't see him often.
00:28:46And when we do, the last time I saw him, I think the conversation is very, I don't know, it's
00:28:56awkward.
00:28:56It's, it's strained, it's, it's not, it's not organic.
00:29:08I wasn't there a whole lot, so I probably wasn't the best father.
00:29:22Jarek and Jeremy were my father growing up, basically, because I, my father wasn't really around my entire childhood.
00:29:30And so, Jarek was definitely always taking care of me when my mom wasn't.
00:29:34And there were times when it was mostly Jarek and our Nana and our Aunt Mimi definitely played a big
00:29:40part in my parental field.
00:29:42But Jarek was always around as a father figure and big brother.
00:29:46When I was a little gay boy, I always felt like I wasn't as cute as my friends.
00:29:52But when I started doing drag, I felt like I don't have to be as cute as my friends, because
00:29:57I'm gorgeous as a woman.
00:30:11I just feel like people should be able to express themselves in their day-to-day life free of fear.
00:30:23What's better than one gold purse? Two gold purse. Gucci. Gucci.
00:30:35I went down to the river to watch the fish swim by.
00:30:43But when I got to the river, it's a lonesome thing I want to do today.
00:31:12I definitely feel like I have a second family here in Seattle.
00:31:16And, like, I have a very strong relationship with my blood family in Portland.
00:31:20But I feel like my chosen family in Seattle is, like, you know, comparably as strong.
00:31:26And we're very tight-knit and close to one another.
00:31:31And it consists, you know, primarily of some of my best friends from college and some of my best friends
00:31:39from childhood.
00:31:40And then, you know, fellow performers.
00:31:48It feels cliche to say, like, we're all very eccentric, zany people, you know, but, um, I don't know.
00:31:54I think you could make a sitcom about us.
00:31:56I think you could make a sitcom about us.
00:32:06Jinx, are you gonna add that hair into that hair?
00:32:09Yeah.
00:32:10My grandma got me this wig when I was, like, 17.
00:32:13So your grandma was buying you wigs, girl?
00:32:15My mom wasn't really into it.
00:32:17Uh-huh.
00:32:18But my grandma and I would be getting me in drag, and then I'd go out to the club.
00:32:22She'd let me be who I wanted to be, you know?
00:32:24When Jarek was on RuPaul, my friends and I, every week, we would get together at my house and watch
00:32:30it, um, on TV.
00:32:32We'd have, like, potluck dinners.
00:32:34And, um, from the beginning, they would show this one clip of Jarek saying,
00:32:38I feel so guilty and crying.
00:32:40And we were all like, God, what is that about?
00:32:42What, you know?
00:32:43Um, and, but it was kind of neat.
00:32:46When we see that, we knew he was going further because that episode hadn't aired yet.
00:32:50So it was like, oh, my gosh, they keep showing that clip so we know he's getting further in the
00:32:54show
00:32:54because it didn't come up.
00:32:55And we all, then my friends would ask me, what is he so guilty about?
00:32:59I'm like, I don't know.
00:32:59And I would try to call him and ask him, you know, what is that all about?
00:33:03What were you feeling so bad about?
00:33:05And then when that episode happened, um, it was horrible
00:33:09because I was sitting there with my friends and it got all quiet.
00:33:12And everybody was staring at me like, oh, my gosh.
00:33:15My mom became an alcoholic when I was about 12, right after my youngest brother was born.
00:33:21I'm the oldest.
00:33:21And when she would be out every night doing her thing, I was the one being the parent.
00:33:27As soon as I became independent from my mother, my, my life improved tenfold.
00:33:33But I continually regret and like second guess the fact that I left my youngest brother
00:33:40with a, with a woman who wasn't ready to be a mom.
00:33:44It just kind of took me by surprise.
00:33:47And it made me feel bad because I never knew that he felt that way.
00:33:51And I worry about him all the time because if I had it my way, he would have come with
00:33:56me.
00:33:57And sometimes when I'm like doing like this, I feel so selfish.
00:34:01Don't, jeez.
00:34:02To have left my youngest brother.
00:34:04Don't, not at all.
00:34:05It feels like right now, like I've abandoned him.
00:34:08You haven't.
00:34:08Your parents are the people who are supposed to protect you.
00:34:11And sometimes they're the people putting you in most jeopardy.
00:34:14I thought I was doing a good job.
00:34:16And I know there was difficult times, but I had no idea that I had affected him so deeply.
00:34:21The second that it aired, my mom and I were on the phone with each other.
00:34:26I guess I was being so selfish at the time, not even realizing what I was doing or how it
00:34:32was affecting him.
00:34:32I thought when I was drinking, we were all laughing and dancing and having fun.
00:34:37So in my perspective, we were all enjoying it.
00:34:41And it's sad to find out that it was, it was hurtful for him.
00:34:45We had a really good conversation that night.
00:34:47And she, she kind of just said that she understood that it's just a part of my story with my
00:34:54life.
00:34:56And that sharing it was just a, you know, it was just a given.
00:35:01And she didn't hold any ill will towards me about it.
00:35:05And that was all I really needed to hear.
00:35:09When it did air, it kind of brought things forward where I had to accept how I had made him
00:35:15feel.
00:35:15I've just been so nervous about this episode airing because I don't want it to seem like I hate my
00:35:21mom.
00:35:22My mom was, I mean, like my mom has been a wonderful friend to me for the last couple of
00:35:27years.
00:35:27We went through a rough patch, but I really love her.
00:35:30And there's ways, there's ways to get over trauma and live your life no matter what, ladies and gentlemen.
00:35:43You know, I did it all by myself for so many years.
00:35:46With very little, with very little outside help, very little coaching, very little, you know, I did everything myself.
00:35:54And let's face it, you can't be good at everything.
00:35:57You know, you can be really, really intelligent and really talented and stuff, but you're never going to be good
00:36:04at every single aspect of something.
00:36:07And I said, maybe it's time to start asking for a little bit of help with certain things.
00:36:13I have someone who helps me with wigs and someone who helps me with styling and costumes, and I feel
00:36:22a little bit more equipped to do, to meet the demands of being a nationally known drag queen.
00:36:29I mean, the most valuable player in Monsoon Enterprises right now is Kenneth Lee, my best friend and assistant.
00:36:44He's the only person right now who I think knows what goes into becoming Jinx Monsoon almost as well as
00:36:52I do.
00:36:54Now that I have these giant nails, it's really hard to put my lashes on myself.
00:37:03So Kenny is now hands-on assisting me.
00:37:08Kenny pretty much immediately told me he wanted to travel with me and be my assistant.
00:37:14My first instinct was I said no and that we shouldn't do that because I was worried it was going
00:37:20to affect our friendship.
00:37:24We call each other platonic soul mates, like we're kind of the yin and yang to each other, but we're
00:37:31not in a romantic relationship.
00:37:33We're just best friends.
00:37:34Well, now we kind of say we're more like brothers.
00:37:38I was worried it was going to make a lot of tension arise between us, and it has.
00:37:46So we have times where we get really sick of each other because we pretty much are together every day.
00:37:54And so it kind of makes us tense at times, and sometimes we bicker needlessly.
00:38:01That's the pros and cons to like having someone who you feel like is family to you work with you
00:38:09on something like this.
00:38:10It's like you accept that you're going to get tense with each other, but when things are working well, they
00:38:15work so amazingly.
00:38:16And it's so wonderful to have your best friend and have someone familiar with you when you're like traveling for
00:38:22seven months on end.
00:38:23You know, like if I didn't have him, I probably would.
00:38:28I don't know. I always say like I'd either go crazy or drink more.
00:38:51I don't think much is going to be different if I lose.
00:38:54I think the only difference between winning and losing for me right now is the title.
00:38:59We have to get up and get on a plane to LA.
00:39:02I get to play the drag queen, and Nick gets to play the girl in the audience who watches.
00:39:08He's going with us to the reunion filming, and he's going to sit in the audience next to my mom
00:39:15and my youngest brother.
00:39:19Good luck with that.
00:39:22He'll be drunk.
00:39:23My mom's like, oh, Nick is the kind of guy I would have gone for when I was your age,
00:39:29Jericho.
00:39:29Oh, he's so cute. He's so charming.
00:39:33He's such a little rebel.
00:39:34Your mom's really okay, guys.
00:39:35You know, she's just into little assholes.
00:39:48I think of RuPaul's Drag Race like it changed every aspect of my life, like every single aspect of my
00:39:57life.
00:39:57My boy life, my drag life. If I lose, I've already won so much that the only thing I'd be
00:40:05losing is the title.
00:40:06But I wouldn't be losing myself.
00:40:08So they're going to film the winner, but what they do to keep it a secret for even longer is
00:40:17they take, they film all three of the top three winning.
00:40:21And then in the finale episode with the reunion, they air just the winner.
00:40:31So they film all three, but they only air one and the one that gets aired is the winner.
00:40:37So even the three of us don't know who wins until America knows who wins.
00:40:43I don't even know who's in the top three.
00:40:54Okay, the cab's outside.
00:40:57I think I auditioned saying, oh, I just want to go into it for the experience and who cares what
00:41:05happens.
00:41:06But now that I've gotten this close to it, I realize just how exceptionally much I want this.
00:41:18I think I've opened the right doors through just getting as far as I got to do what I want
00:41:27to do for the rest of my life.
00:41:35Okay, so we just have three ground rules.
00:41:38One, which you've already all abided to, which is putting your cell phones in the bucket so that we don't
00:41:44want any spoiler alerts.
00:41:45If you heard what happened on the East Coast, has anyone heard what happened on the East Coast?
00:41:52Perfect.
00:41:53Okay, so we want to keep it.
00:41:55We want to keep it as a surprise for all of us.
00:41:58Number two is if you aren't caught up on the season, don't ask any questions.
00:42:10Number three is there will be absolutely zero talking during the show.
00:42:18And we can have as much conversation as we want during commercial.
00:42:22We can gasp.
00:42:23We can laugh.
00:42:24We can go, you know, you can do a really quick like, oh, no, she better don't.
00:42:28But like, that is it.
00:42:30Keep it to that.
00:42:31If Jinx wins, we're all going to do a champagne toast.
00:42:36Of course.
00:42:37Provided with the champagne everyone else brought.
00:42:38If Jinx loses, we're all going to choose one piece of garbage from the garbage can and eat it.
00:42:46So, hope you're all on board.
00:42:48I didn't put that in the Facebook invite, but that's what you signed up for.
00:42:53Absolutely no talking.
00:42:56Wow.
00:42:59So, Jinxie, how are you feeling at this very moment?
00:43:03I feel like a more fully realized drag queen.
00:43:05I feel like a more fully realized human being.
00:43:09Well, Jinxie, you have continued to surprise and delight your fans.
00:43:12Best of all, I think you've even surprised yourself.
00:43:17The time has come to crown our queen.
00:43:23America's next drag superstar is...
00:43:33Jinx Monsoon.
00:43:58That moment, I'm getting goosebumps now.
00:44:01When they announced, I just, I started crying and we were screaming through the neighborhood.
00:44:06You know, it was just, it was an amazing moment because I know how much it meant to them.
00:44:10Now, open your little mouth.
00:44:26With both of my parents, it was kind of like the best way to rebel was to be a good
00:44:31kid.
00:44:32Like, they were expecting me to follow in their footsteps and start drinking and smoke your weed and go to
00:44:38parties
00:44:39and doing all that kind of shit really early.
00:44:42Because that's what they did.
00:44:43But for me, I wasn't interested in anything like that because I wanted to rebel against my parents.
00:44:50And I did that by being a straight-A student and doing after-school theater!
00:44:54But when I was 22 was the first time that I smoked.
00:44:58And it was with Kenny.
00:45:01For a high-strung, like very self-conscious, very anal retentive and OCD Virgo like me,
00:45:11the first time that I smoked, it was like this huge exhale where everything that I'm constantly carrying around on
00:45:22my shoulders just kind of wasn't there anymore.
00:45:26Like, it kind of opened up like the ability to make fun of myself in a way I never had
00:45:31dreamt of before.
00:45:35And now I make a lot of fun of myself all the time.
00:45:39I'll tell you this much, I wouldn't have known I was so good at doing little Edie impressions had I
00:45:43not started smoking.
00:46:02In true Jinx monsoon fashion, they put the crown on my head and then I walked into something.
00:46:08Just slammed it into the speaker.
00:46:10And then immediately after that they took the crown away from me and told me they'd ship it to me.
00:46:16So, this is my first time seeing it since New York.
00:46:20He's always used humor in a way to calm people down or to mask how he's feeling and to turn
00:46:28things around to where he's not feeling so uptight
00:46:31and uses humor to, I think, sometimes hide some of the pain he might feel inside.
00:46:38But he's always had, you know, this funny quirky side. He's always been just so imaginative.
00:46:49I want to say the Seattle drag scene is less superficial than other drag scenes I've seen.
00:46:55But in saying that, that sounds a little pretentious.
00:46:59But even that is kind of like part of the Seattle drag scene.
00:47:04It's like, it's just the right amount of pretentious, you know.
00:47:09I feel like people feel really free to do what they want to do with their specific style.
00:47:15And you see that in the diversity of drag that you have in Seattle.
00:47:19So, we have all my favorites performing in the show tonight, starting with the hostess of the evening, my sister,
00:47:25Binda LeGrand.
00:47:26Hello.
00:47:27This is the Shanghai Pearl, my first exposure to burlesque.
00:47:33Of course, we have my preferred dressmaker and one of my favorite performers and co-cast members in the Daily
00:47:41Rue Presents shows that we do, Jamie Von Stratton.
00:47:44And then over here, we have Shirdana, Lou, and Kitten LeRue.
00:47:49And back there, there's the Luminous Pariah.
00:47:51Here we have Fuchsia Fox, who's not only a talented burlesque performer, but also a gorgeous belly dancer.
00:47:58Sydney Devereaux, who gave me and Richard our first spot in Seattle on the burlesque stage at the Pink Door.
00:48:06So we go way back.
00:48:08Of course, Richard Andreessen, my music partner, a.k.a. Dr. Von Dandy, a.k.a. Major Scales.
00:48:14This is Gabriela Sanchez-Somano.
00:48:18And then, of course, we have Kitty Kitty Bang Bang delivering Jessica Rabbit, one of my childhood fantasy characters.
00:48:26And then Jackson Brown's dicking around back there.
00:48:29He normally does Cher and Kesha in our show because those two people are so much alike.
00:48:35I think she's ready now. Ladies and gentlemen, you can stand up when I'm done with this.
00:48:40I want to say I knew he was going to win. I mean, he's my son. Who else is going
00:48:47to win?
00:48:56I'm so sorry. I'm not going to wear this thing because it's actually terribly unfundable.
00:49:02I wanted to show you guys. Look, it's a crown.
00:49:09Well, that's right. That's right. I'm sad and blue because I can't do the boogaloo.
00:49:14I'm lost. I'm lost. Can't do my thing. That's why I sing.
00:49:18Gimme, gimme that damn.
00:49:19What good's a metronome without a bell for ringing?
00:49:23How fast can anybody ever tell she's swinging?
00:49:27How can you tell a rhythm written on a bar?
00:49:31How can you ever hope to know just where you are?
00:49:34Gimme that.
00:49:35Gimme that.
00:49:35Gimme that.
00:49:36Gimme that.
00:49:37Gimme that.
00:49:39Gimme that.
00:49:40Gimme that.
00:49:40Gimme that.
00:49:41Gimme that.
00:49:41Gimme that.
00:49:42Gimme that.
00:49:42Gimme that.
00:50:00Richard and I met because basically we were two of the only three gay guys in our class,
00:50:04and we both had really interesting hats that we wore every day.
00:50:09And so we kind of hit on each other with our hats, like, I noticed you wearing your duck
00:50:13hunter hat while I'm wearing my, you know, Nepalese Sherpa hat, like, maybe we should get together
00:50:19and our hats should get a drink sometime, you know, it was kind of like that, it was
00:50:23really dorky.
00:50:24And then the first time we hung out just one-on-one, we knew right away we didn't have any
00:50:28sexual
00:50:29or romantic chemistry.
00:50:36At the end of our sophomore year, we decided to move in together, and once we lived together,
00:50:41we started really seeing all the things we had in common, and that's how we developed
00:50:47the vaudevillians, because only the two of us thought it was funny for a long time.
00:50:52We just found a way to make our sense of humor accessible to normal people.
00:50:58Are you ready, John Kster?
00:51:00I'd say so, let's hit it.
00:51:08I never thought that I'd get to tour the world and work on a show that I wrote myself
00:51:14and that I conceived in college and have been working on since then, you know, so it's very
00:51:19exciting that, like, it now has a life of its own and there's potential for it to grow.
00:51:25Oh!
00:51:26Oh, come on!
00:51:27Oh, come on!
00:51:28Oh, you come on!
00:51:29Oh, you come on!
00:51:38Come on!
00:51:39Come on, let me please my heart down, baby!
00:51:43You know you've got it, and it makes you feel good!
00:52:04So this is Battle of the Seasons Vancouver.
00:52:07I really like doing these shows because I really really like performing with the other
00:52:11drag race girls.
00:52:18It's nice because it's like you've got a support team and you've got all these people who know
00:52:24what you've been through and know the experience and know what life is like now after you go
00:52:29on reality TV.
00:52:33Especially with people like Willem and Pandora and Manila and Carmen, these girls that I used
00:52:40to watch on TV and used to be so starstruck by and now I just got thrown into their world
00:52:50and they were so accepting.
00:52:51Like you really do feel like these girls are your sisters because they understand what you're
00:52:55going through on the road and they know the pressures of it all and stuff.
00:52:59So it was like surreal to go from watching these people on TV and being like, oh these
00:53:05are the coolest people ever to being their friend and then their colleague like that.
00:53:10and that's the interesting part of it.
00:53:14It's fun but it's surreal sometimes when you realize people you used to watch on TV are
00:53:19now your co-stars, you know.
00:53:32It's broken?
00:53:33I guess so.
00:53:36I know.
00:53:37Can I see?
00:53:38What stress is it?
00:53:40I'm not trying to yell.
00:53:41You're cutting me off.
00:53:51You know, I had never considered putting myself in that competitive zone before because I had
00:53:59interest in you know being the best that I can be but I didn't have interest in competing.
00:54:03And it was when I did Drag Race, I kind of like, I realized that I don't have to change
00:54:08to be the best.
00:54:09I just have to be the best at myself.
00:54:11And Michelle, harsh as she may have been at times, I still think back on the things she
00:54:17said to me because from the beginning all she was wanting was to see me do it a hundred percent.
00:54:22You know?
00:54:23It's not about change your look, change your look.
00:54:25I don't want that.
00:54:26I don't want you to change your look.
00:54:27I want the queen to be the best version of themselves that they can be.
00:54:31And I can see when you're not.
00:54:32I can see when you're stopping yourself.
00:54:35That's what I was saying.
00:54:53We're in Des Moines, Washington for the High Line Community College Sixth Annual Drag Show
00:55:01for the Unity Through Diversity Week.
00:55:06Welcome to my community college tables.
00:55:25I don't know what I'm going to do, but like 90% of my material is gratuitous dick jokes.
00:55:30What am I going to do with all these children here?
00:55:34What's a PG-13?
00:55:36What's a PG...
00:55:38Oh my god, that kid's at four.
00:55:41What's a G-rated way to say blowjob?
00:55:44Should I just go...
00:55:48When you're giving a man a...
00:55:49I can't whistle well enough to do that.
00:55:53When you're giving a man a...
00:55:58No.
00:56:01When two people like each other a lot,
00:56:04occasionally they give each other kisses on their daddy rod.
00:56:18There's literally babies screaming.
00:56:25I'm going to have to tell Disney jokes.
00:56:28I am so privileged to be emceeing the sixth annual High Line Drag Show.
00:56:35And I'm going to start the evening out with a little number full of crass humor that doesn't offend children.
00:56:43Mama, just kill the man.
00:56:48Would have gone against his hand.
00:56:51Pulled my trigger down, he said.
00:56:54Mama, life had just begun.
00:57:00My dog is going to throw me all away.
00:57:07I don't really think any kids while I was growing up really reacted to it in a negative way.
00:57:14I mean, there were definitely some people who weren't accepting of it.
00:57:18And there's still people who weren't accepting of gay people and all that.
00:57:22But for the most part, nobody ever really cared.
00:57:26They just thought he was my older brother and that was it.
00:57:32It was always kind of crazy, but in like a good kind of, I don't know, it was always crazy
00:57:40at our house.
00:57:40Like it was never normal, I think.
00:57:44All three of us were really close.
00:57:46And then when Jerick, you know, kind of moved to college and started doing his own thing
00:57:51and started expanding his options more and like what he was going to do with his life,
00:57:58it was like kind of shitty because I was like so close with him, you know.
00:58:05And so like it was kind of like me losing like a best friend or like he's my brother, but
00:58:10like he's like my best friend.
00:58:11So, but I don't want it to get so big and crazy that he completely forgets about Jerick.
00:58:19And it's just jinx, you know, because that's not good.
00:58:23And yeah, you know, sometimes, sometimes when you put on a full face of makeup and a wig and everything,
00:58:32it's funny because like I'm looking in the mirror and I just don't see Jerick anymore, you know.
00:58:38Like I know who I am and I know I'm just playing a character right now.
00:58:43But sometimes even I look in the mirror and I'm like, who the hell is that woman looking back at
00:58:47me?
00:58:48When you do your makeup right, even you can't recognize yourself sometimes.
00:58:53Like I don't even see that goofy little redheaded boy right now.
00:58:57I just see jinx one soon. But it's fun. I don't know. It's fun.
00:59:14He woke up in the middle of night crying and saying, why didn't God make me a girl?
00:59:20And so I kind of had an idea when he was, I think he was about three years old.
00:59:25And so we had a long talk about that.
00:59:27And I said, well, if you feel like you should be a female, you know, they do perform operations nowadays.
00:59:34And, you know, we can look into that for you.
00:59:37But that means losing your penis, you know, if you have the surgery.
00:59:43And he's like, nobody's taking my penis away from me.
00:59:46So then we never talked about it again.
00:59:48He had pretty much decided he wanted to keep his penis, but he liked dressing up.
01:00:08I'm a girl. Put the face in your...
01:00:13That was so brilliant.
01:00:17He hates off.
01:00:19This feels good.
01:00:20Let this go in the doors.
01:00:21That will deal with fire.
01:00:33Let's go in the doors.
01:00:36We can choose?
01:00:39We will walk apart.
01:00:40And he's reaching out.
01:00:41Not the них are fucking them for the men.
01:00:52People don't ever tell you when a drag queen needs to go pee, it's going to take 20 minutes
01:00:58because we have to like, oh my god, we have to essentially take it all off, just pee for
01:01:0620 seconds and then put it all back on.
01:01:09Oh my goodness.
01:01:13That's the thing, is when a drag queen has to pee, she's not getting, if she has to pee,
01:01:20you move out of the way, mama.
01:01:23Oh my goodness.
01:01:25Oh my god.
01:01:27Here's what I normally do, just keep everything in place, I take one, two, three, off, fourth
01:01:36pair, keeps the big hips in place, and then I can, no, don't capture this, Alex, thank you.
01:01:45Oh, fifth pair, keeps the hip pads in place, but doesn't unleash everything.
01:01:59You're taking the stream, I will not let you air the stream, Alex Berry.
01:02:07The point is, every time a drag queen gets the pee, in the middle of night, a fairy gets
01:02:18its wings, you're such a bastard.
01:02:31Okay, I think that's it.
01:02:33I would pee like a normal person would, but I had to hide it from the rest of the world,
01:02:39because it would spoil their idea of the whole goddess illusion.
01:02:52I don't want to spoil that idea.
01:02:56I want people to believe in miracles.
01:02:58I want people to believe in fairy godmothers and drag queens and wishes and witches and all
01:03:06that suck, but I'm just a man, I'm just a man dressed as a woman.
01:03:11Then you have to readjust all the undergarments, because if you've got back rolls, people will
01:03:19read you for it, you'll show up in some photo blog the next day.
01:03:26Back rolls, back rolls, yes, Miss Hunty, she had back rolls.
01:03:33Oh, America's Next Drag Superstar, had back rolls, no, not on tonight, Miss Alyssa, not on tonight.
01:03:52I got this, I got this, look at me, I don't got it, I don't got it.
01:03:58No, it's okay, you just need to bunch it up like this, I'll show you.
01:04:01I can do it on my own, it just drives me, it just drives me to that crazy place.
01:04:07I know I could exist without Kenny, I just don't want to.
01:04:10Drag is a family thing, it's like a, it's a group effort, it takes a village.
01:04:19More than one time, let's just say many, many times, men have come up alongside me, driving
01:04:26alongside me while I'm walking home, and they slow the car down, and they roll down the window
01:04:32and they like, look through the window, and they're like, hey, how are you getting home?
01:04:39You want a ride?
01:04:40I'm like, no, I'm just, because the thing is, you don't want to let them know right away
01:04:45that you're a man, because what if they get angry?
01:04:48What if they think you're like a female prostitute or something, and then they hear your man voice,
01:04:52and they get angry, so you don't want to be like, no, I'm going home.
01:04:55You don't want to fuck with them, because if they get angry, they're the one in the
01:04:59car, and you're the one walking home alone, you know?
01:05:01So I always do it in my femi voice, like, because then if they're a tranny chaser, then
01:05:06they're getting what they expect, and if they're not a tranny chaser, then at least I'm like
01:05:10under the radar, so I just go, no, I'm just walking home.
01:05:15I'm okay, I don't need a ride.
01:05:17I don't need a ride, I'm just a block that way, and you don't, it doesn't matter how far
01:05:21away you are from home, you always say you're just a block that way.
01:05:25And they're like, I'll give you a ride, you want to come in here, you want to, okay, how
01:05:32much?
01:05:33They say how much, and they look at you like this, and all I want to say then and there
01:05:38is, I have a dick.
01:05:41When he did come out, I guess I didn't have the typical macho father freak out, where that's
01:05:50not going to fly in my house kind of reaction.
01:05:54You know, I felt like I was already prepared for it, and as a result, it just kind of was
01:06:01like water off a duck's back.
01:06:04You know, it just kind of rolled right off and didn't have a strong effect on me.
01:06:11And as a, I think that was positive for him.
01:06:18Whether, whether he thinks that or not, I don't know, but maybe that was something that
01:06:26he used to know that it was okay.
01:06:30And I'm sure he already knew it was okay, because, you know, you have to be okay with
01:06:39yourself first before you can tell other people where you are in your life.
01:06:46And I've always been of the opinion that, at the end of the day, the only opinion, the
01:06:54only person's opinion that matters is your own.
01:06:58It doesn't matter what other people think.
01:07:02As long as you're comfortable with who you are, everybody else can just...
01:07:09Did you get that?
01:07:22I'm America's next drag superstar.
01:07:25For about 60 more seconds.
01:07:28Yeah.
01:07:28I feel like I'm supposed to have a ton of feelings right now, and I kind of feel numb.
01:07:33I feel like everyone wants me to be like, oh, I'm not the queen anymore, but I don't
01:07:40feel that way.
01:07:41I just feel excited.
01:07:44Like, I mean, it's all a fantasy, you know?
01:07:48I feel like I have this responsibility to always be, like, staying true to the message
01:07:53that I put forth at the beginning of all of this, you know?
01:08:12You know, to make the world a better place than you found it, and, like, to not let the
01:08:17little things get to you and, you know, just remaining positive and trying to always be
01:08:23the kind of person that you want the world to perceive you to be, and don't get caught
01:08:28up in, like, negative trauma that has nothing to do with you, you know?
01:08:33I just always want to make sure I practice what I preach.
01:08:36What's life been like since you snatched that crown?
01:08:39Well, mother darling, I got to do my original show, The Vaudevillians, all across the world
01:08:46this year.
01:08:48So, JT, do you have any words of advice for America's next drag superstar?
01:08:53Well, I highly suggest you revel in every single second of it, mind your P's and Q's,
01:09:00and when the bitches come for you, let that bull be water off a mother duck's back.
01:09:12Well, JT, your reign may be ending tonight, but it will always be forever monsoon season.
01:09:19Thank you very much.
01:09:29JT, your reign may be ending tonight, but the final decision is mine to make.
01:09:43Adore Delano, Bianca Del Rio, Courtney Act,
01:09:54The winner of RuPaul's Drag Race, America's next drag superstar, is Bianca Del Rio!
01:10:31This is something I wanted my whole life, and yet nothing...
01:10:39Nothing feels exactly the way I've always dreamt about it to be.
01:10:44You know, like, nothing ever happens the way it does in the movies.
01:10:51Like, a huge, huge door has opened for me, and you think, that thing you've been working
01:10:58for your whole life finally just happened, and now, and now everything is just going to
01:11:06be completely different.
01:11:13I think what I thought fame was before doing all of this, I think I thought it was going
01:11:20to be like a band-aid, if that makes sense, like, I think I convinced myself, like, if I do
01:11:30this,
01:11:30or I accomplish this goal, or I make it here, or I make it this far, then it's going to
01:11:37fix
01:11:37all the problems that I have going on, but now I think what it really is in this business
01:11:45is the chance to keep taking your work further.
01:11:49It's not a band-aid, it's just an invitation to work harder.
01:12:01You know, say, I love you.
01:12:03Oh.
01:12:05Want to say it for daddy?
01:12:07Say, I love you.
01:12:08Okay.
01:12:09My dad wasn't around much when we were kids.
01:12:12I mean, he was an active part in our life, but not too much, and I always sort of longed
01:12:18for that, like, perfect family setting.
01:12:21There you go, yeah.
01:12:23Now just work on that bike.
01:12:25Am I going to take it away from you?
01:12:30So I don't have any furs for you to try, and why does she never wear her wig when I
01:12:34visit?
01:12:35She looks really good in mink.
01:12:38We were very disparate and disjointed as kids.
01:12:43I feel like ever since we've started to get to know each other as adults, everything's been
01:12:48completely different.
01:12:50If you want some more burger, give daddy a kiss.
01:12:55Fine.
01:13:02Why do you have to have that look on your face?
01:13:04I think it took us some time apart for us to realize how different we are, but how similar
01:13:13and how many struggles we've shared together.
01:13:16Exactly.
01:13:17See, this is how you know you have a cool family, is when your little brother starts getting
01:13:23you drag gifts.
01:13:25Well, because I don't even think we ever, we had, what, you can't touch anything.
01:13:29Wait, no, I know, but you have like, oh, I thought it was a beard hair.
01:13:33I'm not going to say that I wasn't petrified when I found out he was having a baby.
01:13:39But now...
01:13:40I was really nervous.
01:13:41Well, what do you happen to be nervous about?
01:13:44I was nervous because, you know, you're young and there's still so much I know you want to do.
01:13:50And I didn't want you to miss out on the things that you want to do at this age.
01:13:55You know what I wanted to do?
01:13:57What?
01:13:58I wanted to have a baby.
01:13:59You wanted to have a baby when you had a baby?
01:14:01I honestly did.
01:14:03I, you know, with me, it was, we never had that whole family.
01:14:07We never had the mom and dad and the family trips and all that stuff.
01:14:12And so I feel like I sort of jumped into it because that's the role I always wanted to play.
01:14:17We had to grow up with so much, you know, kind of cutting corners and struggles and like, you know,
01:14:24figuring everything out.
01:14:25And I just didn't want to raise a baby in the same kind of struggles we were raised in.
01:14:30And that's what I was worried about for you because, you know, you're still young and figuring things out for
01:14:35yourself.
01:14:36But then I watch you with your baby and I just see a full grown adult all of a sudden.
01:14:41But the best thing for me is that you're letting me be a part of it and that I get
01:14:46to pour so much attention into my little baby niece.
01:14:49I can't help but take money from my Auntie James.
01:14:55People always warn you when you come into money that your family is going to come ask him for it
01:15:00all the time.
01:15:01And Jeremy really never ever asks it.
01:15:03Until Chloe was born, he never really asked for any kind of help and stuff.
01:15:07And I really told him right away that I want to do everything to make sure that, you know, he
01:15:14has what he needs to take care of Chloe.
01:15:17I love you, Jared.
01:15:18I love you, too.
01:15:22You've got all this, you've got all this powder on your face now.
01:15:26Ah, I feel like a superstar.
01:15:29You know, I am very proud of him.
01:15:36He, he did something.
01:15:39He got himself out of where he was.
01:15:42And he decided early that he didn't want to have that sort of life that he was living with his
01:15:53mother because I wasn't, you know, there.
01:15:57And he pulled himself out of that situation.
01:16:01Oh, God, do we get that?
01:16:03You know who gave me this dress?
01:16:05Sharon Needles on New Year's Eve.
01:16:09It's sabotage, though, because the sequins stick to themselves.
01:16:15I thought it was the sweetest thing in the world.
01:16:17I wore it for five minutes and I was like, that bitch.
01:16:20She put me in a booby trap dress.
01:16:22But I love it.
01:16:23It's so gorgeous.
01:16:36She put me in a booby trap dress.
01:17:09I'm really glad that Jinx is something that Jared can turn to when everything's getting crazy and, like, that's just
01:17:16who he is.
01:17:21I love Jinx and I'm a big fan of the whole Jinx one soon persona and everything.
01:17:26But I kind of just, like, I'm sick of it because I want my brother to come home, you know?
01:17:36I've learned a lot from Jarek.
01:17:38I mean, Jarek is an inspiration to me.
01:17:41Seeing where he's come from, being there with him, and now seeing where he is today just shows that you
01:17:48can do anything you set your mind out to.
01:18:09I've learned so much from Jarek.
01:18:11It feels like he's always been teaching me.
01:18:15I'm just so proud of him.
01:18:18It's kind of weird because my family had kind of become very disparate and we were all kind of very
01:18:25separate and, you know, drifting apart in the last year or so.
01:18:33And now my family's kind of, like, reforming and doing really well.
01:18:38Like, my mom and I, our relationship is better than it's been in a long time.
01:18:43And Jacob is going to school proud every day of his family.
01:18:48And, you know, I've given him something to brag about a little bit at school, and that's kind of cute.
01:18:54So, um, so there have been really unexpected positive repercussions that have nothing to do with drag and have nothing,
01:19:04like, who would have thought going on a reality competition-based TV show for drag queens that my family would
01:19:12have this, like, second chance to all be together again.
01:19:16I think that's pretty, that's pretty special.
01:19:20I'm so tired.
01:19:21All I can see is X's, O's, and my own damn name.
01:19:25I'm so tired.
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