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00:00In society, I felt the superior feeling that I would like to see better than all girls.
00:07One day, I had a panic attack on the medicine.
00:10I had a panic attack. Panic attack, not a type of dystonia.
00:14I had a panic attack, which was my spinal cord.
00:17It was bent away.
00:19I think that when I was in rehab center,
00:22I had to understand these things at that time.
00:25I had to leave for a month,
00:27and then I had to talk to my house.
00:28I thought, yes, I had to leave.
00:29But I had to go outside.
00:35This whole story started when I had completed my 12th.
00:38I had never had any addiction from my school.
00:41I had no smoking in my school.
00:42I was a local girl.
00:44She had a joint.
00:44The first time I tried it, it felt good.
00:47I felt like the stress,
00:51whatever my feelings are,
00:53or the people who listen to me,
00:54the life of my friends,
00:56and I had to live with them.
00:57I was constantly doing it.
00:59I started drinking it in a few days.
01:01I started drinking it in a few days.
01:03It became habitual.
01:04It was my friend of mine.
01:06He introduced me beer, alcohol, insects, etc.
01:10Then I drank it.
01:11So, when I was a little after three months,
01:14I had to continue to join me.
01:17I was enjoying it.
01:18I was in a college in Dhiradun.
01:20I had to take that admission.
01:22So, when I took that admission,
01:23I didn't get all these things.
01:25I felt very interesting.
01:28I felt cool in society.
01:30I felt a superior feeling.
01:32I felt better than all girls.
01:35In the cool time,
01:35I looked at people who didn't do things.
01:39I helped them.
01:40But when I went to college,
01:41I started drinking it.
01:43I started drinking it.
01:44I started drinking it.
01:45I started drinking it.
01:45I started drinking it.
01:47But when I went to college,
01:48I stayed in the city.
01:51There was a very famous drug here.
01:53I started drinking it.
01:53In the beginning,
01:54I drank it.
01:55I didn't feel good for drinking it.
01:57But my friends,
01:58who started drinking it,
02:00they continued drinking it.
02:02So, my circle was made with them.
02:04So, when I went to school,
02:05they called me and called me.
02:07So, I started drinking it with them.
02:10I started drinking it.
02:11So, after 2-3 days,
02:11I didn't go to college.
02:13I didn't drink it.
02:14I didn't drink it.
02:15I didn't drink it.
02:15So, I felt weird.
02:16I didn't understand what happened to me.
02:18So, I asked my friend.
02:19I didn't get weird.
02:20I didn't get weird.
02:21I didn't get weird.
02:21I didn't feel good.
02:23So, I said to myself,
02:24that it's happening.
02:25I was drinking it.
02:27I was drinking it.
02:27I was drinking it.
02:28And now, you're drinking it.
02:29So, I feel like you're drinking it.
02:31So, I feel like you're drinking it.
02:31So, you're coming to me.
02:32Then, I went to college.
02:35I started drinking it again.
02:37So, I didn't understand this thing.
02:39I didn't get into addiction.
02:41I didn't get into it.
02:42I didn't get into it.
02:42I didn't get into it.
02:42For 3 years of my life,
02:44I continued drinking it.
02:46In 2014, I started drinking it.
02:48And in 2018,
02:49and in 2018,
02:51I didn't get into it.
02:52I was addicted to it.
02:53I always had a thought and mentality.
02:56I would leave it.
02:58I would control it.
02:59This is my control.
03:00I would leave it.
03:01I would leave it.
03:03But I didn't get into it.
03:04I would leave it.
03:10I would leave it.
03:11It's the time of drinking it.
03:12You're working out with a drink.
03:16So, when you're drinking it,
03:17I would get a sort of relief.
03:19Then I am going to relax.
03:21Sometimes I'm feeling calm.
03:22Then I'm feeling numb.
03:23What is that?
03:24I need a drink because I'm ashamed.
03:26and then you have to do that again, then you have to do it again and again.
03:31Then you have to do it again and then you have to do it again and then you have to
03:35do it again.
03:37When you were relying on it and you had to get relief, you could leave it again.
03:44Okay.
03:45You can be far away from yourself.
03:48When there was a compulsion and when there was a dependency,
03:53then you needed to get detox into rehab.
03:58When I had a break for one or two days or I didn't get a smack,
04:01I was very frustrated.
04:04I confessed to my sister and told her that if I had a drug that is a smack and joint,
04:11I wanted to drink them.
04:12My sister supported me a lot.
04:14She said, no matter what happens.
04:17You started to tell me everything.
04:19She told me a psychiatrist, psychologist and counseling.
04:24I went to many doctors.
04:26I took a detox in hospitals.
04:28I took a detox in 15-10 days.
04:29I took a detox after that.
04:33I would leave it for a month.
04:34Then I would leave it at home.
04:36Yes, I would leave it.
04:37But I would go outside.
04:38I had to eat these medicines.
04:40They continued to eat some medicines.
04:43I would have eaten some medicines.
04:44He had patients.
04:44For ignoring the opioids, cancer, ED-NOCC and all other medicines.
04:47I would have eaten some medicines until they are sent.
04:50Then I could not miss this deal.
04:51In the end of 2019, my family took me to a doctor in our city and took me to counseling
05:00and I also had my medicines.
05:03One day, I had a panic attack, a panic attack, not a type of dystonia,
05:11I had a big attack, which was my spinal cord bent and it was continuously bent.
05:17It took me 2-3 hours, so that day I had a lot of pain.
05:28On January 27, 2020, the first time I was in rehab.
05:33At that time, I went to my rehab center from 27 January, until August 16.
05:38I got a detox there for 40 days and my body was right.
05:45My mentality was that I put me here and put me in rehab center.
05:50It was my negative mentality.
05:52Then, just like when I got up to 6 or 6 months, I got my rehab center.
05:56After 3 months, I got a little positive thinking.
05:59It depends on the rehab program.
06:01It depends on the 12 steps.
06:02There are 12 steps.
06:03In the first step, we are powerless in front of addiction.
06:08So, first of all, we have to accept this thing.
06:12That we are powerless in front of addiction.
06:14So, they just told me that my first treatment was my first treatment.
06:18They told me that you can't keep drinking.
06:21If you have a drink of wine or whiskey, you will be relaxed.
06:27But my mentality wasn't the same.
06:30I had to make my mental set up.
06:31I was making myself out and I drank some alcohol.
06:35I drank some alcohol.
06:35I drank some alcohol, I drank all the sugar.
06:37I drank some alcohol.
06:40I drank some alcohol.
06:40Now, I'm going to be a social drinker.
06:41Because the government also legalized alcohol.
06:44It was easily available.
06:45I could get to some parties or parties.
06:47I could get to some parties.
06:49I also drank some alcohol.
06:52I was involved in that.
06:53I thought I would try this.
06:57Will you turn around with something else?
07:00It happens when someone is drinking the alcohol.
07:02Dis autonomy and deixar it with us?
07:02Yes, it happens.
07:03Most of my family tells me that.
07:06We eat a drink of coffee for some other children.
07:08Yes, that happens.
07:10Then that will be a drink of coffee for the party.
07:13When we taste a drink of coffee.
07:14There will be lots of food here.
07:14It will be a mix of.
07:15It will be a mix of two people.
07:17So we should understand the family that wants to eat.
07:18Yes, the family wants to take the smacks from Daru and then take the smacks from Daru.
07:24But they don't know how to deal with Daru and then the smacks from Daru.
07:28So that's why they have to deal with it?
07:30Yes, then they have to deal with it.
07:31After a month, I got a trigger for a beer.
07:36I bought a beer and bought a beer.
07:38Then, for 3-4 days, I continued to be a beer.
07:40In the treatment program, the choice of drugs is what happens.
07:45If we come to the addiction, we will get back to the choice of drugs.
07:49That's what happened to me.
07:502-4 days, I continued to be a beer.
07:52Then, I got my choice of drugs again.
07:54Because my mind was hitting it.
07:56I was already doing it.
07:58I thought, what will happen today?
08:00I didn't drink so many days.
08:02Then, I got a beer again.
08:03Where I got a beer again, I got a beer again.
08:074-5 months later, I got a beer again.
08:09I was accidentally smacked.
08:10Then, I got a beer again.
08:14Then, I got a beer again.
08:15I got a beer again.
08:15Then, I got a beer again in April.
08:16Then, I sent a beer again in April, I got a beer again.
08:19Then, I bought a beer again in April.
08:20Then, I thought that this will be continuously with me.
08:22Besides, my social life was also the other work.
08:27I worked for digital marketing, online promotions.
08:31So, I worked for all my work.
08:33So, I came to the memory of a beer again,
08:36and I got a feeling that I was going to have a beer again.
08:39and they gave me a rehab center for the next time.
08:42So in that treatment, I made this mentality.
08:44I was surprised that I was going to go, I'm going to go,
08:46and they gave me a rehab center for the next time.
08:48So that treatment also failed me.
08:50In that time, I went to UAE.
08:51I was there.
08:52I was there for 8-9 months.
08:54So I was talking to my parents.
08:56I was talking to them that I was talking to them
08:58that I wasn't doing anything wrong or that I was wrong.
09:01But inside, I didn't accept that thing.
09:03Sometimes I didn't accept that thing.
09:05It's bad for my health.
09:07It's not good for anyone.
09:08It's bad for me.
09:09It's bad for me.
09:10In the end, there was a lot in my first time.
09:14I went back to that condition.
09:16Then, I came back to India again.
09:18At that time, I had a lot of money.
09:21I had a lot of money.
09:22I had a lot of money.
09:24I had a lot of money.
09:24Then, I had a lot of money.
09:27They gave me a rehab center for the next time.
09:29There are mental disorders.
09:31There are psychiatric diseases.
09:32There are also psychiatric diseases.
09:35They are not curable at every time.
09:38They are preventive.
09:39They are preventive.
09:39You have to go back to the hospital.
09:41You have to go back to the hospital.
09:42If you think of a person, you are okay.
09:43Just as you think of it, you will relapse.
09:45Okay.
09:46What are the main major causes of relapse?
09:48What are the main major causes?
09:48The third time, when I came to rehab center, I tried to accept this thing.
09:52I tried to accept this thing.
09:53Why do I have such a barbarian?
09:54There is a reason.
09:55So, I prepared myself in my mental health.
09:58I prepared myself in that treatment.
09:59I prepared myself in that treatment.
10:00I prepared myself in that treatment.
10:00Now, I will go out.
10:01Then, I will not be able to breathe.
10:02I will not be able to breathe.
10:04So, I tried to keep myself very well.
10:07I came out.
10:08I came out for 6 months in that treatment.
10:10Then, I came out.
10:11I had a recovery in my home.
10:11In about 1 year, I would have no doubt about it.
10:16I would have never met with friends.
10:17Because in our rehab center, we had to be able to leave them.
10:22And we were able to leave them in our own.
10:24So, I tried to stay away from those things.
10:26I tried to stay away from those things.
10:28I tried to stay away from those things.
10:29I tried to stay away from those things.
10:30I was able to say that I could not say that.
10:31But, I had already been in my mental thoughts.
10:34Some of the things I had already been set up.
10:36Some of the things I had to get up.
10:37It was very big for my family.
10:40You have to do so much, you have to do so much, you have to do so much.
10:45Now do not do that.
10:46Yes, you have to change the family too.
10:49So I had to start mentally relapse in my mind.
10:52I didn't have any awareness about that.
10:55The addiction is the first time I had to relax mentally.
10:59I had already been mentally relapsed, but I didn't have to do it physically.
11:04I didn't have to see it practically.
11:05I didn't have to do that.
11:07I had a thought in my mind 3-4 months before.
11:09If they will force me more, they will listen to me, or they will be angry,
11:13I will cry.
11:15I got up in my house, I went and got a smack.
11:21As a society, if we want to help someone,
11:24which is probably an addiction.
11:26In a society, you should know about it.
11:29This addiction is a mental illness and it can also be possible.
11:34There are many reasons for you being bullied in school.
11:40There are many reasons that you are doing in school.
11:42There are many reasons for you to show the superior.
11:44Yes, I am the only one.
11:47You have to see, I am drinking cigarettes,
11:49because they are bullied.
11:52They will not do any address of their bullying.
11:54What do you want to say about the rest of the youth?
11:57The ones who are probably being a part of the group
12:00or the people who think that these things are going to happen.
12:04I would like to say about this thing
12:07that more and more, you stay away from such things
12:10or you have such friends or such circles.
12:15Because addiction never comes from my mother.
12:20When people see people in society
12:22or even the web series and movies are going on.
12:26Our society has become cool.
12:28If you don't do this,
12:29joint drink,
12:31people have become cool.
12:35I just want to say that no one is cool.
12:38You will become full.
12:42Don't leave your friends
12:43who are doing this.
12:45You are saying that you do this.
12:48You make aest from being close to being a part of your mental setup
12:53that if someone is just saying something,
12:56do that.
12:57Normally,
12:58someone is saying that we're not in the environment.
12:58If someone is talking about produce,
12:59or programmer,
13:02then they're saying that we're doing nothing.
13:03If someone is talking about produce,
13:04So we're saying that we have to lift the same time
13:04that someone is talking about their lives,
13:06and if we're talking about making a mistake,
13:08and they're talking about produce,
13:10then we're doing nothing.
13:10To inform their lives,
13:11so that our entire society has said that
13:12it's a wrong thing.
13:13So, you have to be mentally strong, you have to save people from those people who are already
13:18gone.
13:19You have to make a goal or set up, work on that, life is very good, it will be very
13:23good.
13:42Okay, so I hope you liked this video and I wanted to keep my part in the end of this
13:46video
13:47because I wanted to have a bad experience in the video and I wanted to soak in the whole
13:52content and then I will talk about this video.
13:55So basically, this video is the second part, I have already uploaded it, if you haven't
13:59seen it, then you can go and see it and I want to say it again, that I have to
14:04take
14:04a lot of time to make this video and the intention of the first recording of the video, it has
14:11been a lot of time to make this video, so for this video, we have been living in Nashamukti
14:15Kendra for 6 days and we have captured a lot of stories from there, which is one story
14:22that I will post earlier.
14:23And I have also some stories that I will post earlier.
14:25And I have also some stories that I will post earlier.
14:28And I want to say that the growth of the channel is very slow and I want to do this
14:34full time.
14:35And I want to leave my job and do this for this.
14:38So, this is the request that if you like this work, if you feel that this work can make a
14:43impact,
14:44you can make an impact.
14:45So, you can make a subscribe, like, comment, whatever way you can help, that will be very
14:51helpful.
14:52And I want to say that I want to make a more content that I want to make a more
14:57content.
14:57I want to make a more content that I want to make a more impact on people's lives and
15:01that I want to make a positive impact on society.
15:03Meaning that I know I have a lot of ideal.
15:06But the intention is that I want to keep it good.
15:10I also want to say this which is much more support.
15:17But I think that there is a little more support to that.
15:20so that we can grow this channel so that we can grow quickly and so that I can get these
15:24topics quickly.
15:25I don't want to do this because I do another job and then I do this too.
15:29So, there are a lot of problems in doing this.
15:32I just want to increase the speed of this thing.
15:35That's the thing I said in the last video.
15:38I want to make my team.
15:39But I want to grow my team to make this channel.
15:44And I'm trying to give my 100% effort.
15:46But obviously, I hope you liked this video.
15:53So, I hope you will increase this topic.
15:58Thank you so much.
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