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Singking In Summer - LGBTQ - Full AI Drama - Video Dailymotion
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00:00:06you're dead you hear me dead his room was right next to mine
00:00:18my mother my own mom was feeding the enemy blueberry pancakes this was a hostage situation
00:00:26and i was the hostage like nine times in four minutes because he's ruining my life you know
00:00:33what this sounds like right what obsession oh this is happening this is absolutely happening
00:00:39no spin again what's the matter mark scared of your breath yeah
00:00:48relax it was spin the bobble it doesn't mean anything
00:00:54that's all it was stupid drunk meaningless game but why but i still feel it there are three
00:01:04things you need to know about my life one my mom makes the best grilled cheese on the eastern
00:01:07seaboard two i will die on the hill that empire strike back film who is a six-foot golden
00:01:13retreat backer and has made it his personal my summer you're cornered little man surrender or
00:01:17face annihilation you literally used the word annihilation wrong last week on your english
00:01:22final summer started words don't count anymore you're dead i win
00:01:33best of seven it's already best of seven
00:01:38i'm up four to one boys if i find one more dart in the pasta pot you're both grounded until
00:01:45college
00:01:46that was theo i did it clean up both of you and theo your friends arriving in an hour
00:01:55what friend oh yeah didn't i mention beckett staying next door for the summer
00:02:00his mom rented the colohan place you didn't mention that
00:02:07you definitely absolutely did not mention that
00:02:11must have slipped my mind beckett hale my brother's best friend the most arrogant and
00:02:17sufferable human being i have ever misfortune of breathing near and he was gonna live next door
00:02:32well well well little marsh miss me about as much as i'd miss food poisoning your brother's still
00:02:38adorable when he's angry call me cute one more time and i'll key in your car okay great start
00:02:44everyone really feeling the love relax i'm sure we'll be best friends by august i'd rather chew glass
00:02:50careful i'm right next door now nowhere to hide
00:02:58el come swim i'm reading what is this sylvia plane light summer reading give it back come get it
00:03:14you're dead you hear me dead you needed to cool off
00:03:19i was going to survive this summer and i was going to make becklin hall's life a living hell
00:03:33his room was right next to mine
00:03:50morning roomie we're not roommates neighbors then
00:03:54thin walls by the way you talk in your sleep
00:04:01oh beckett you're up early pancakes mrs marsh you're a saint i'd love some call me katherine
00:04:09sweetheart your family this summer he's a stray my family keeps feeding elliot it's fine he's
00:04:17adorable when he's grumpy
00:04:23my mother my own mom was feeding the enemy blueberry pancakes this was a hostage situation
00:04:31and i was the hostage
00:04:36he's everywhere the kitchen the yard the bathroom i went to brush my teeth and his stupid toothbrush
00:04:43was just sitting there next to mine touching mine
00:04:48what a tragedy i'm serious slona it's an invasion you've mentioned him like nine times in four
00:04:56minutes because he's ruining my life you know what this sounds like right
00:05:02what
00:05:04nothing forget it no what does it sound like
00:05:13obsession
00:05:18i'm not that's insane i hate him
00:05:22yeah you've made that super clear all i'm saying is most people who hate someone
00:05:29they just ignore them they don't track their toothbrush placement
00:05:33i need new friends
00:05:39i thought this was our pool day
00:05:41it is beckett's part of our now deal with it little brother
00:05:49did beckett just yep
00:05:58nice form six out of ten nobody asked for your opinion weak splash
00:06:04i can fix that if you want i'd rather drown
00:06:16guys mateo just texted he's throwing a massive party this weekend
00:06:20see you lived
00:06:21everyone's invited
00:06:22let's go
00:06:23i told myself the weird feeling in my chest was chlorine burn
00:06:27that's all it was
00:06:28chlorine
00:06:34here's my true-proof plan for surviving mateo's party
00:06:37step one avoid beckett hale
00:06:39step two drink until step one doesn't matter
00:06:43you sure you're good
00:06:45you've been weird all week
00:06:46i'm great i'm fantastic
00:06:48give me that
00:06:51that's not water
00:06:53that's the point
00:06:57so much for step one
00:06:58all right all right spin the bottle
00:07:00classic rules no chicken out
00:07:04you look like you're about to pass out
00:07:10working on it
00:07:29oh this is happening this is absolutely happening
00:07:32no spin again
00:07:34what's the matter marsh scared
00:07:36of your breath
00:07:37yeah
00:07:39relax
00:07:40it's just a game
00:07:47okay okay guys that's you can stop now
00:07:57it was a game
00:07:58it was nothing
00:07:59elliot
00:08:00hey
00:08:01you good
00:08:02don't
00:08:04don't what
00:08:04don't stand there like
00:08:05like that was nothing
00:08:07it was spin the bauble
00:08:08it doesn't mean anything
00:08:16what the hell
00:08:24it was a game
00:08:26that's all it was
00:08:27stupid
00:08:28drunk
00:08:29meaningless game
00:08:31so why
00:08:33could i still feel it
00:08:43i didn't sleep
00:08:44not really
00:08:45every time i closed my eyes
00:08:47i felt it
00:08:48his mouth
00:08:49the pressure
00:08:50the way the room disappeared
00:08:51then the crack of my fist
00:08:53against his jaw
00:08:54both felt violent
00:08:56both felt necessary
00:09:00my plan was simple
00:09:02stay in this room
00:09:04september
00:09:05maybe october
00:09:06maybe forever
00:09:09elliot honey
00:09:10breakfast
00:09:11beckett made french toast
00:09:13i'm sick
00:09:16you were fine yesterday
00:09:20it hit fast
00:09:22probably terminal
00:09:25elliot james marsh
00:09:27you have five minutes
00:09:41dude these are incredible
00:09:42you should open a restaurant
00:09:44maybe i will
00:09:45call it punched in the face
00:09:47cafe
00:09:47great origin story
00:09:52there he is
00:09:53sit down
00:09:54eat something
00:10:03you're not having
00:10:04beckett's french toast
00:10:05it's life changing
00:10:07i'm good with cereal
00:10:09yeah cereal's a safe choice
00:10:11low risk
00:10:19beckett
00:10:20do you just lurk in hallways
00:10:22relax
00:10:23i wanted to talk
00:10:26we have nothing to talk about
00:10:30it was a game elliot
00:10:32spin the bottle
00:10:33people kiss
00:10:35the world keeps turning
00:10:37great
00:10:38world's turning
00:10:39move
00:10:43you hit me pretty hard
00:10:44for something that meant nothing
00:10:46it meant nothing
00:10:48then why can't you even look at me
00:10:55i'm looking
00:10:56i'm looking see
00:10:57nothing
00:10:59you kissed back
00:11:02you're insane
00:11:12i told myself it was research
00:11:14but nobody types that at two in the morning unless something already cracked open
00:11:25the worst part
00:11:25it wasn't a kiss
00:11:27it was knowing he couldn't sleep either
00:11:30and some broken part of me was glad
00:11:38step one
00:11:39step one
00:11:39be so aggressively normal that the universe forgets saturday ever happened
00:11:42step two
00:11:43never think about his mouth again
00:11:44step three
00:11:45there is no step three
00:11:47steps one and two are already impossible
00:11:49hey brianna
00:11:50you do something different with your hair
00:11:51looks amazing
00:11:53got a trim
00:11:54like two weeks ago
00:11:56well it's really working for you
00:12:03is he flirting
00:12:06badly
00:12:07no i mean
00:12:08since when does elliot marsh flirt in the hallway at eight in the morning
00:12:14something happened at that party
00:12:16obviously something happened at that party
00:12:18he punched beckett hale in the face
00:12:20no
00:12:21something else
00:12:25so theo tries to flip the kayak back over
00:12:27right and he just
00:12:28full scorpion into the lake
00:12:30face first
00:12:36you're in a mood today
00:12:38what mood
00:12:39i'm great
00:12:40i'm fantastic
00:12:42exactly
00:12:43that's what's weird
00:12:46you going to griffin's thing this weekend
00:12:49maybe
00:12:50you asking me to go
00:12:52maybe i am
00:12:55what the hell
00:13:03you're a terrible actor elliot
00:13:05back off
00:13:06you keep running from it
00:13:08but i was there
00:13:09you kissed me back
00:13:11oh
00:13:12one more thing
00:13:13that party
00:13:14someone had their phone out
00:13:16i've seen the video
00:13:16you're lying
00:13:18he could have punched me back that night
00:13:20and it would have hurt less than this
00:13:22because a bruise fades
00:13:23but a video
00:13:24a video lives forever
00:13:29yesterday
00:13:29he cornered me in the hallway
00:13:31and said somebody caught that kiss on video
00:13:34you look wrecked
00:13:35like you didn't sleep at all
00:13:36back off
00:13:38i deleted the video
00:13:39it's not going anywhere
00:13:40if that clip gets out
00:13:41we're both screwed
00:13:43i need to ask you something
00:13:45don't do this
00:13:46my ap lit essays do friday
00:13:49and i've got nothing
00:13:50you're good with words
00:13:51help me out
00:13:52just this once
00:13:55you're blackmailing me over an essay
00:13:56i'm not blackmailing you
00:13:58i just
00:13:59i really
00:14:00don't know how to get close to you
00:14:02i just wanted an excuse to talk to you a little longer
00:14:05you're sick
00:14:06with you
00:14:07i've been messed up for a long time
00:14:12he deleted it days ago
00:14:13he had no leverage
00:14:15nothing
00:14:16and i still wrote the essay
00:14:18so is he that good
00:14:19or did i lose this a long time ago
00:14:22he said he wanted my attention
00:14:23the stupid part is
00:14:25he's had it since the day
00:14:26he moved in next door
00:14:38iced americana
00:14:39i don't want to serve you
00:14:40i came to apologize
00:14:42i shouldn't have used the video to scare you
00:14:44i shouldn't have pushed you into stuff you didn't want to do
00:14:46i just
00:14:47i was scared you'd push me away again
00:14:49scared you'd stop talking to me for good
00:14:50you always find the dumbest way to ruin everything
00:14:55i know
00:14:56i'll do better
00:15:01i heard people at school saying you've been doing beckitt's homework
00:15:04he asked and i just didn't say no
00:15:07did he threaten you
00:15:08you don't have to just take that
00:15:11no
00:15:12i agreed to it
00:15:19i'm not writing another thing for you
00:15:21and i'm not letting you drag me around anymore
00:15:23i get it
00:15:24i'm not pushing you
00:15:25i'll wait
00:15:27i'm not worth waiting for
00:15:29yeah you are
00:15:32whatever this was between us
00:15:34it wasn't over
00:15:34but at least the ugliest hardest part of it was finally behind us
00:15:41it had been four days since the parking lot
00:15:43four days since beckett hale said i'm sorry like he meant it and drove away
00:15:46four days of me waiting for the other shoe to drop
00:15:49peace offering
00:15:49oat milk latte
00:15:50two sugars
00:15:51how do you know my order
00:15:52you literally make it for yourself every shift
00:15:54i have eyes
00:15:56this doesn't make us friends
00:15:58didn't say it did
00:16:01but we're not enemies anymore either
00:16:08all right who's in for mario kant
00:16:10losers buy pizza
00:16:11you always pick rainbow road and then act betrayed by it
00:16:13that's slander
00:16:17beck grab a controller man
00:16:21wait are you two actually being civil
00:16:23should i document this
00:16:25don't make it weird declin
00:16:26for once we agree
00:16:46the thing about ceasefires is they're supposed to be temporary
00:16:49a pause before you go back to the world
00:16:51no absolutely not
00:16:52but lying there in the dark smiling like an idiot at a text from beckett hale
00:16:56i had this terrible sinking feeling that the war was already over and i'd lost
00:17:04two nights
00:17:05no parents
00:17:07a lake
00:17:08this is literally the reset button we all need
00:17:11or a guaranteed disaster with mosquitos
00:17:14you're coming
00:17:16non-negotiable
00:17:21yo sloan
00:17:23camping trip
00:17:24beck and i already signed up
00:17:25perfect
00:17:26the whole crew
00:17:27the whole crew
00:17:28including the guy i've been texting until 1am about his parents divorce
00:17:31the guy i was absolutely categorically not thinking about
00:17:38tent assignments are alphabetical by last name
00:17:41finch and hall
00:17:42marsh and oh also hall we have two marshes
00:17:45theo you're with drake
00:17:47elliott you're with beckett
00:17:48you're kidding
00:17:49the alphabet doesn't kid mr marsh
00:17:52relax i don't snore
00:17:54that is the least of my concerns
00:18:16all right campfire confessions
00:18:19one truth you've never told anyone
00:18:21i'll start
00:18:21i cheated on my driving test
00:18:23parallel parked like garbage
00:18:25smiled at the instructor
00:18:26he passed me anyways
00:18:28i
00:18:28i cried when i was watching a dog food commercial
00:18:31i totally failed my first calculus test
00:18:34and even cooked up a fake grade online
00:18:36beck
00:18:37your turn
00:18:40after my parents split
00:18:42my dad packed his car on a tuesday
00:18:45didn't say goodbye
00:18:46i sat on on the porch for six hours waiting for him to come back
00:18:51he never did
00:18:58that was the moment i stopped pretending to tent and i felt what i heard
00:19:12every smart instinct i had said stay in the tent go to sleep don't follow him into the dark
00:19:27there's a moment right before you do something stupid where your brain sends up a flare a warning and you
00:19:34walk toward it anyway
00:19:36you're allowed elliot
00:19:38could hear you from a mile away
00:19:40yeah well you disappeared from the tent at midnight figured you were either sleepwalking or being murdered either way seemed
00:19:45worth checking
00:19:46couldn't sleep
00:19:47couldn't sleep
00:19:48get in line
00:19:50what i said back there
00:19:51at the fire
00:19:52about feeling like nobody's first choice
00:19:55you don't have to explain
00:19:56i know i don't have to
00:19:57i wanna
00:19:58my dad left on a tuesday
00:20:00didn't even pick a dramatic day not a holiday not a birthday just a regular nothing tuesday
00:20:05packed a bag kissed my sister's forehead and drove to portland
00:20:08i was at practice
00:20:09he didn't wait
00:20:10that's not about you beckett
00:20:12that's about him
00:20:14everyone says that
00:20:15doesn't make the house less empty
00:20:20my mom hums when she cooks
00:20:21this old fleetwood mech song
00:20:22landslave
00:20:23every single time
00:20:24drives theo insane
00:20:25but sometimes i stand in the hallway just to listen because
00:20:27i don't know
00:20:27it means everything's okay
00:20:28the world's still turning
00:20:29why are you telling me this
00:20:30because you told me about the tuesday
00:20:31felt like i owed you something honest
00:20:33you know what's funny
00:20:34i spent the whole first week trying to make you hate me
00:20:37mission accomplished
00:20:38no
00:20:39i spent the whole first week terrified you'd figure out i was paying attention to you
00:20:43picking fights was easier
00:20:45paying attention how
00:20:50in every way that mattered
00:20:51i don't hate you elliot
00:20:53i never did
00:20:55then what is this
00:20:57i don't know
00:20:59but i'm tired of pretending it's nothing
00:21:01his hand was warm
00:21:02and i thought
00:21:03this is the thing
00:21:04this is what i've been running for
00:21:06not him
00:21:06not the kiss
00:21:07just this
00:21:08the terrifying simple fact that someone's hand could feel like the only place yours was ever supposed to be
00:21:13elliot
00:21:13you out here
00:21:14dorothy's doing a head count
00:21:16yeah
00:21:17coming
00:21:22i walked away
00:21:24but i swear i left something on that rock
00:21:27something i wasn't getting back
00:21:32he hasn't texted
00:21:33not since we got back
00:21:35not a word
00:21:35which is fine
00:21:36totally fine
00:21:37because nothing happened
00:21:38we talked
00:21:39he touched my hand
00:21:40that's
00:21:41that's just what people do by legs at midnight
00:21:42normal
00:21:43completely normal
00:21:59look at him
00:22:00not a care in the world
00:22:01meanwhile i'm over here dissecting a handhold like it's a supreme court case
00:22:06you're glowing
00:22:07i'm sweating
00:22:08it's called humidity
00:22:09no it's called something happened at that campsite and you're going to tell me what
00:22:12nothing happened
00:22:13we roasted marshmallows
00:22:13rowan cried about a dog commercial again
00:22:15standard trip
00:22:15you're doing that thing where your voice goes up half an octave because you're lying
00:22:18my voice doesn't
00:22:19so i'm thinking movie night friday
00:22:21the yates den
00:22:22declin said he'd order pizza
00:22:24i'm in
00:22:25elliot
00:22:30elliot
00:22:31what
00:22:32yeah
00:22:33friday
00:22:33sure
00:22:34you've been weird since the trip
00:22:35i haven't been
00:22:36you have
00:22:37and it's fine if you don't want to talk about it
00:22:39but i'm asking you as your best friend
00:22:41are you okay
00:22:43i'm okay
00:22:45i promise
00:22:59i'm so screwed
00:23:18i'm so screwed
00:23:28welcome to paradise people
00:23:30no parents
00:23:31no rules
00:23:32no
00:23:32actually there are rules
00:23:34don't break anything mom loves
00:23:35theo invited everyone to birchwood cottage for the weekend
00:23:39and by everyone
00:23:41i mean the one person who's been living rent free in my head since the lake
00:23:56this place is gorgeous
00:23:57dibs on the room with the view
00:23:59they all have views
00:24:00it's a lake house
00:24:03then dibs on the best view
00:24:07all right
00:24:08rooms
00:24:11slona and rowan upstairs left
00:24:14spencer you're on the couch because you lost the bet
00:24:17elliot
00:24:18you're in the back bedroom
00:24:20beckett
00:24:21i'll take me whatever's left
00:24:22back bedroom's got twin beds you two can share
00:24:24cool
00:24:25fine
00:24:26but whatever
00:24:29not fine
00:24:30not whatever
00:24:31not even remotely in the same zip code as fine
00:24:55you've been avoiding me all day
00:25:00i've been ten feet from you for six hours that's the opposite of me
00:25:03you know what i mean
00:25:06i don't know how to act around you anymore that's the problem
00:25:10then stop acting
00:25:27you following me
00:25:30you left the bonfire without saying anything
00:25:33theo thinks you're sulking
00:25:34i'm not sulking
00:25:35i'm
00:25:36processing
00:25:38processing what
00:25:39this
00:25:39you
00:25:41the fact that i can't stop thinking about that night at the lake
00:25:44and it's driving me insane because
00:25:45i don't know what it means
00:25:46and i don't know what you want
00:25:48and i
00:25:49can i
00:26:05what are we doing
00:26:09something real
00:26:12i'd spent my whole life building walls
00:26:16and this boy just walked right through them like they were made of smoke
00:26:25here's the thing about kissing someone in a forest at midnight
00:26:27you can't unknow what their mouth feels like
00:26:30trust me
00:26:31i've tried
00:26:33so i did what any rational person would do
00:26:35i researched
00:26:37okay so maybe not that rational
00:26:53you've been staring at that muffin for five minutes
00:26:55i'm thinking
00:26:59dangerous hobby
00:27:00we need to be more careful
00:27:01sloan already thinks something's up
00:27:04sloan thinks everything's up
00:27:06she once accused the lunch lady of running a black market for hall passes
00:27:09i'm serious
00:27:12i know you are
00:27:16bathroom
00:27:17two minutes
00:27:31this is insane
00:27:33yeah
00:27:35that's kind of insane
00:27:44so anyway
00:27:46rowan's convinced the new calc teacher is secretly a
00:27:49what is she doing
00:27:51elliot
00:27:51hey
00:27:53earth
00:27:53to elliot
00:27:56since when do you care who beckett talks to
00:27:59i don't
00:28:00your knuckles are white babe
00:28:05i've got homework
00:28:16hey
00:28:17you disappeared today
00:28:20looked like you were busy
00:28:23kendall
00:28:24that's what this is about
00:28:26this isn't about anything
00:28:28goodnight
00:28:28she means nothing
00:28:29you know that
00:28:30do i
00:28:31because from where i was sitting
00:28:32she had her hands all over you
00:28:34and you didn't seem to mind
00:28:37you're jealous
00:28:39i'm not
00:28:40you are
00:28:41and it's kind of incredible
00:28:44because it means this is real for you too
00:28:47of course it's real
00:28:48that's the whole problem
00:28:50beck
00:28:50you forgot your charger
00:28:53oh hey ell
00:28:53you good
00:28:55great
00:28:57night
00:29:00everyone i cared about
00:29:02was either pulling me closer
00:29:03or pushing me away
00:29:05and i couldn't tell which was worse
00:29:11you're my best friend
00:29:12you're one of the most important people in my life
00:29:14and i'm sorry
00:29:15i'm so sorry
00:29:16but i can't
00:29:17i don't feel that way about you
00:29:18yeah
00:29:20i knew that
00:29:23that doesn't mean
00:29:24i just needed to say it out loud
00:29:26so it would stop eating me alive
00:29:30is there someone else
00:29:34okay
00:29:35he deserved the truth
00:29:37all of it
00:29:38and i gave him silence
00:29:40which was its own kind of answer
00:29:45hey
00:29:47you okay
00:29:50rowan was just here
00:29:53and
00:29:54i
00:29:56she told me he was in love with me
00:29:58what did you say
00:30:00what do you think i said
00:30:02i told him i don't feel the same way
00:30:05did you tell him about us
00:30:08no
00:30:09do you want to
00:30:11i don't know what i want
00:30:13i just broke my best friend's heart
00:30:14and i can't even explain why
00:30:16you didn't break anything
00:30:17he was brave enough to tell you the truth
00:30:19that's not your fault
00:30:20he asked if there was someone else
00:30:22and i just stood there
00:30:24elliot
00:30:25he knew
00:30:26he looked at me
00:30:27and he knew
00:30:30come to the window
00:30:37whatever happens
00:30:38i'm right here
00:30:39two boys in separate rooms
00:30:41reaching for each other
00:30:43through glass
00:30:43that's what it felt like
00:30:45being close enough to touch
00:30:46and a whole world in the way
00:30:51it's been five days since rowan told me he loved me
00:30:54five days since i sat there like a statue and let him walk out
00:30:58we haven't spoken
00:30:59not a text
00:31:01not a glance
00:31:02it's like someone cut a limb off and i'm just supposed to keep walking
00:31:08rowan switched lab partners did you know that
00:31:11no
00:31:12he requested brodie sims
00:31:15brodie sims elliot the kid who eats glue
00:31:17he doesn't eat
00:31:19that was one time
00:31:22what happened between you two
00:31:27nothing
00:31:28we just need space
00:31:31space is what you give someone who borrows your hoodie too long
00:31:34this is a crater
00:31:39you okay
00:31:40and then there's that
00:31:47there's nothing
00:31:48sure
00:31:49and i'm the queen of england
00:32:03everyone wants a piece of me and i've got nothing left
00:32:06to give
00:32:07rowan wants an answer i can't give him
00:32:09beckett wants me to be braver than i am
00:32:11and i'm just sitting here trying to remember how to breathe
00:32:20you've been ghosting me
00:32:21i've been dealing with things
00:32:22i know
00:32:24rowan
00:32:24i'm not stupid
00:32:25then you know why i need to
00:32:27what
00:32:27pull back
00:32:28pretend the last two weeks didn't happen
00:32:30i'm not pretending anything
00:32:31i just can't do this right now
00:32:33my best friend is in love with me
00:32:34and i'm sneaking around with his
00:32:36with you
00:32:37and it feels like i'm betraying everyone
00:32:39you're not betraying anyone
00:32:40by being honest about what you want
00:32:42that's easy for you to say
00:32:43you're not the one who watched him cry
00:32:48i'm not your dirty secret elliot
00:32:50and i'm not ready
00:32:51can you understand that
00:32:52i'm not ready
00:32:55okay
00:32:56i hear you
00:32:57but i'm not gonna wait forever
00:33:04mom
00:33:05sit down i'll get the plates
00:33:07i'm fine sweetheart
00:33:09just a tickle
00:33:11katherine
00:33:12the hendersons want us for dinner saturday
00:33:15that sounds lovely
00:33:19mom
00:33:20you okay
00:33:22never better
00:33:24that night i couldn't sleep
00:33:26not because of becky
00:33:28not because of rowan
00:33:30because my mother folded a napkin
00:33:32like she was hiding a grenade
00:33:33and i was too afraid to ask what was on
00:33:43mom
00:34:08Your mother and I need to talk to you both.
00:34:11I've been having some tests done.
00:34:14I didn't want to worry you until we knew for sure.
00:34:18It's cancer.
00:34:20Stage 2 breast cancer.
00:34:22The doctors are optimistic about treatment,
00:34:24but I start chemotherapy next week.
00:34:28How long have you known?
00:34:29A few weeks.
00:34:31We wanted to have a plan before.
00:34:32A few weeks?
00:34:33Theo, look at me.
00:34:35I'm going to fight this.
00:34:37I need you boys to know that.
00:34:43What's the treatment plan?
00:34:46Six rounds of chemo.
00:34:47Then we reassess.
00:34:49What are the odds?
00:34:50Elliot!
00:34:51What are the odds, Dad?
00:34:53Good.
00:34:54They're good, sweetheart.
00:34:58Okay, okay, good.
00:35:00I need a minute.
00:35:05You think you know what fear is.
00:35:07You think it's the dark,
00:35:09or heights,
00:35:10or someone finding out your secret.
00:35:12It's not.
00:35:14It's your mom sitting on a couch
00:35:15telling you her body is trying to kill her
00:35:17and smiling while she does it.
00:35:27Theo told me.
00:35:31You don't have to talk.
00:35:35I'm not going anywhere.
00:35:42Chemo sounds clinical.
00:35:44Sterile.
00:35:45Like something that happens in a textbook.
00:35:48Nobody tells you about the waiting.
00:35:50The hours where the clock doesn't move,
00:35:52and your brain fills the silence
00:35:54with every worst-case scenario it can find.
00:36:01The doctor says she's responding.
00:36:03Early days, but responding.
00:36:05Okay.
00:36:08You should eat something.
00:36:13I'm fine.
00:36:14You're not fine.
00:36:17None of us are fine.
00:36:22I wanted to say something.
00:36:24Anything.
00:36:25But every sentence I could think of
00:36:27had a trap door in it,
00:36:29and I was so tired of falling.
00:36:33Hey, Mr. Marsh.
00:36:34Theo asked me to bring food.
00:36:36Said nobody's eaten since breakfast.
00:36:45Turkey and swiss.
00:36:47Extra pickles.
00:36:48The way you like it.
00:36:51Thanks.
00:37:00You don't have to do this.
00:37:02Do what?
00:37:03The food, the driving, the hovering.
00:37:06I'm not hovering.
00:37:07I'm sitting.
00:37:08There's ice cream.
00:37:09It's a whole different verb.
00:37:10She looks so small in that chair.
00:37:12The IV bag was bigger than her arm.
00:37:14She's tough.
00:37:17Everyone keeps saying that,
00:37:18like tough is a cure.
00:37:20It's not a cure,
00:37:22but it's not nothing.
00:37:23He didn't try to fix it.
00:37:26Didn't offer platoos or silver linings.
00:37:29He just stayed.
00:37:33And somehow that was the only thing
00:37:35that didn't make me want to scream.
00:37:38I keep thinking about time.
00:37:41How much she has,
00:37:42how much I've wasted being angry
00:37:43about stupid things.
00:37:45You're 17.
00:37:47Stupid things are kind of our whole deal.
00:37:50What if she doesn't...
00:37:50Hey, don't.
00:37:52You don't have to be okay right now.
00:37:54You don't have to be anything.
00:37:55I need you.
00:37:57And that terrifies me more than any of it.
00:38:01And I'm here.
00:38:01Simple as that.
00:38:08I told myself no one could see us in the dark.
00:38:11But the thing about secrets is...
00:38:13Someone's always watching.
00:38:17Be ready at 10.
00:38:18Wear something you don't mind getting dirty.
00:38:21That's ominous.
00:38:23Trust me.
00:38:27Where are we going?
00:38:28Starlight Pier.
00:38:29That's an hour away.
00:38:31Yeah.
00:38:31That's kind of the point.
00:38:32If this is some elaborate plan to murder me,
00:38:35at least buy me funnel cake first.
00:38:37Deal.
00:38:43Pink?
00:38:44Really?
00:38:46It's objectively the superior flavor.
00:38:49It's the same flavor.
00:38:51They're both just sugar.
00:38:52And yet you're wrong.
00:39:00There it is.
00:39:02What?
00:39:03That.
00:39:03You're smiling.
00:39:05Like, actually smiling.
00:39:07Not the sarcastic one you use on everybody else.
00:39:11What?
00:39:13Are you...
00:39:14This is disgusting.
00:39:16There's literally a...
00:39:30This is disgusting.
00:39:33There's literally a...
00:39:35Which is disgusting.
00:39:48Yeah.
00:39:49One minute.
00:39:51We're insane.
00:39:53Probably.
00:39:55Probably.
00:39:59beck yeah be my boyfriend for real
00:40:05not just whatever this has been i want it to be real took you long enough
00:40:20i walked inside and pressed my back against the door and stood there in the dark like an idiot
00:40:24grinning at the ceiling my mom was sick my best friend could barely look at me
00:40:29my dad and i spoke in monosyllables and somehow impossibly i was happy
00:40:39that should have been my first one
00:40:46boyfriend he typed it with his actual fingers on purpose and i'm lying here smiling at a
00:40:53screen like a golden retriever who just learned a new word
00:40:59i wrote back mourning with a period because apparently becoming someone's boyfriend turned
00:41:04me into a sociopath who can't use emojis
00:41:08wear the blue hoodie today you look good in it
00:41:14three days since starlight pier three days since i said be my boyfriend like some character in a
00:41:20movie i'd normally make fun of three days of texting under the covers deleting threads
00:41:25and feeling like my chest might actually explode
00:41:39tinted windows this is a school parking lot
00:41:42then stop talking and we'll be faster
00:41:47that's that's that's not how logic works
00:41:52you've been staring at me in calloway's class for 45 minutes
00:41:55i counted i was staring at the clock behind your head
00:42:00the clock's on the other wall
00:42:06i hate you
00:42:08no you don't
00:42:10that's it you're doing it again
00:42:12doing what
00:42:14smiling at nothing like you've got a secret stash of serotonin the rest of us don't have access to
00:42:19i'm just in a good mood is that a crime now
00:42:21for you historically yes you're seeing someone
00:42:27what no elliott marsh you are a terrible liar and you're wearing a hoodie someone else picked out
00:42:32who is it
00:42:37there might be someone it's new i'm not ready to talk about it
00:42:42i knew it
00:42:43keep your voice down
00:42:45is it someone at school do i know them
00:42:48sloney please
00:42:51okay
00:42:54okay
00:42:56but when you're ready
00:42:57i want details
00:43:00industrial quantities of details
00:43:04the landmark ruling has sparked celebration across the country
00:43:08with same-lex couples lining up at courthouses
00:43:11there it is again
00:43:12every channel
00:43:13like they've got nothing else to report
00:43:15dad
00:43:16it's kind of a big deal
00:43:18it's a circus
00:43:19that's what it is
00:43:21every week
00:43:22another parade
00:43:23another spectacle
00:43:24richard
00:43:25what i'm not allowed an opinion at my own table
00:43:27you're allowed to eat your dinner without editorializing
00:43:31there it is
00:43:32the wall i'd been pretending wasn't there
00:43:35brick by brick
00:43:36comment by comment
00:43:37my father built it
00:43:38and i'd been standing on the wrong my whole life without knowing it
00:43:43you've been quiet all day
00:43:44quieter than usual
00:43:46which is saying something because you never shut up
00:43:49my dad said some stuff last night
00:43:51about people like us
00:43:53what kind of stuff
00:43:54the kind where you realize the person who's supposed to love you no matter what
00:43:58has conditions
00:43:59fine print
00:44:01yeah i know that play brook
00:44:02what if he never gets it
00:44:04what if i tell him and he just
00:44:06looks at me like i'm broken
00:44:08then he'd be wrong
00:44:09and you'd survive it
00:44:11you're annoyingly hard to kill
00:44:12trust me i've tried
00:44:14what if i'm not ready
00:44:15then you're not ready
00:44:16there's no deadline elliot
00:44:17this isn't a college application
00:44:21seven across
00:44:23unwavering devotion
00:44:24nine letters
00:44:27steadfast
00:44:29look at you
00:44:30my walking to sarah vans
00:44:31something's eating at you
00:44:33and don't say nothing because i've been your mother for 17 years
00:44:36and i can hear you thinking from two rooms away
00:44:39mom
00:44:41if i were different from what you expected
00:44:43not bad different just different
00:44:45would that change anything
00:44:49elliot james marsh
00:44:50i loved you before i ever saw your face
00:44:53i loved you when you screamed for 14 hours straight with colic
00:44:56i loved you when you put a frog in theo's cereal
00:44:58there is nothing you could tell me
00:45:00nothing
00:45:01that would make me love you less
00:45:03even if it's something dad wouldn't understand
00:45:05your father's understanding is his responsibility
00:45:08not yours
00:45:09you hear me
00:45:11no matter what
00:45:12always
00:45:17mom
00:45:19i think i'm in love with a boy
00:45:21she couldn't hear me
00:45:22but i heard myself
00:45:24and for the first time
00:45:25the words didn't feel like a confession
00:45:28they felt like the truth
00:45:31rowan came back
00:45:32not all the way
00:45:33but enough
00:45:35he sits with us again
00:45:36he laughs at the right moments
00:45:38and if his eyes go somewhere far away
00:45:40when beckett's name comes up
00:45:41nobody mentions him
00:45:43that's the deal we made without saying it out loud
00:45:47you're doing that thing again
00:45:49what thing
00:45:50the thing where you look like you won the lottery
00:45:52but you're pretending you didn't buy a ticket
00:45:56leave him alone sloan
00:45:58fine
00:45:58but for the record
00:45:59i'm keeping a tally of every weird smile
00:46:01we're at 14 this week
00:46:03and it's monday
00:46:10you've been disappearing a lot lately
00:46:12busy with who
00:46:14homework
00:46:14riveting stuff
00:46:30nobody tells you secret dating
00:46:32turns every public room into a performance
00:47:04elliot that's not what this looks like
00:47:05don't
00:47:07don't
00:47:07we're done
00:47:13elliot
00:47:14elliot
00:47:15elliot
00:47:16elliot
00:47:16you saw one second and turned it into the whole story
00:47:19no
00:47:21i saw enough
00:47:25i can't keep doing this in secret and pretending it doesn't break me
00:47:29i wasn't hiding you
00:47:32i was trying to protect you
00:47:35please
00:47:35please believe
00:47:36inside was the flat lake stone from lakeview haven
00:47:39i wanted him to know
00:47:41i remembered the night everything changed
00:47:47got you
00:47:51after beckett's birthday i did what i do best
00:47:53i disappeared
00:47:54not physically i still showed up
00:47:56made lattes
00:47:56visited mom at st andrews
00:47:58smiled when theo talked
00:47:59but the version of me that existed for the last few weeks
00:48:01the one who believed in something
00:48:03gone
00:48:04we're not open for another 10
00:48:07you won't answer your phone
00:48:09nothing to say
00:48:11elliot
00:48:12she kissed me
00:48:13i didn't
00:48:15i know what i saw
00:48:17you saw one second
00:48:18you left before the other 59
00:48:20where i shoved her off and looked for you
00:48:21doesn't matter
00:48:22how can it not matter
00:48:23because i can't do this
00:48:25the sneaking
00:48:26the lying
00:48:26the
00:48:27watching someone else put their mouth on you
00:48:29while i stand there pretending i don't care
00:48:31i'm done
00:48:32you're scared
00:48:32that's not the same as done
00:48:34get out
00:48:35i'm working
00:48:44you look like death's understudy
00:48:47charming
00:48:48beckett looks worse
00:48:49if that helps
00:48:50it doesn't
00:48:54what happened at his birthday
00:48:55and don't say nothing
00:48:57theo's been weird
00:48:58beckett's a ghost
00:48:59and you've got that face you make
00:49:00when you're about to implode
00:49:01we had a fight
00:49:01it's over
00:49:02the fight or the whatever you two were
00:49:06both
00:49:18dude have you seen the whisper board
00:49:45birchwood cottage
00:49:46the forest
00:49:47someone was there
00:49:48someone saw us
00:49:53every nightmare i ever had about being found out
00:49:55none of them were this quiet
00:49:57in my head there was always screaming
00:49:59but the real thing
00:50:01the real thing is just your phone buzzing in the dark
00:50:04while the whole world reads your secret
00:50:10you don't have to go today
00:50:14yeah i do
00:50:16elliot
00:50:17if i hide they win
00:50:18you taught me that
00:50:19then you walk in there like you own the place
00:50:22because you do
00:50:23the photo had been up for 18 hours
00:50:24412 comments last i checked
00:50:26i stopped checking around midnight
00:50:27when someone wrote burn in hell with a smiling face
00:50:29the ashford whisper board doesn't sleep
00:50:31neither did i
00:50:43we're walking you to every class today
00:50:45non-negotiable
00:50:46anyone gives you trouble
00:50:47i'll handle it
00:50:51you don't have to
00:50:52shut up
00:50:53yes we do
00:51:04hey
00:51:09theo my brother
00:51:10my little brother
00:51:12and you couldn't tell me
00:51:14i wanted to
00:51:15he wasn't ready
00:51:16that's not your call
00:51:17you're supposed to be my best friend
00:51:18i am your best friend
00:51:20best friends don't sneak around with your family behind your back
00:51:24you're right
00:51:25i'm sorry
00:51:26he's 17 beck
00:51:27he's my kid brother
00:51:29and the whole school is tearing him apart
00:51:30and i didn't even know he needed for protecting
00:51:32break it up
00:51:33both of you
00:51:34principal hargreft's office
00:51:36now
00:51:41is it true
00:51:44yes
00:51:45the hail boy
00:51:48his name is beckett
00:51:51he needs time
00:51:52that's all
00:51:53what if time isn't enough
00:51:56then that's his loss
00:52:00i don't care who you love
00:52:02you're my brother
00:52:03always
00:52:08my phone buzzed in my pocket
00:52:09i didn't check it until midnight
00:52:11one text from rowan
00:52:13i'm sorry i disappeared
00:52:14can we talk
00:52:17can i come in
00:52:27i need to ask you something
00:52:29and i need you to be honest with me
00:52:31you already know the answer
00:52:32i want to hear it from you
00:52:36yeah dad
00:52:36it's true
00:52:37i'm beckler and i were together
00:52:38are together
00:52:39i don't even know anymore
00:52:43how long
00:52:44months
00:52:49i don't understand it
00:52:51i'm not going to pretend i do
00:52:52that's not the same
00:52:52it's okay
00:52:53no
00:52:53it's not
00:52:58you're still my son
00:52:59i just
00:52:59i need time
00:53:06you walked out of that room
00:53:07you just left him sitting there
00:53:09i said i needed time
00:53:10that's
00:53:11time
00:53:12told you the most terrifying truth of his life
00:53:14and you gave him your back
00:53:17i don't know how to do this karth
00:53:19i wasn't raised for this
00:53:20neither was he
00:53:21and he's 17
00:53:22and he's doing it anyway
00:53:23i am lying in this bed
00:53:24fighting for every day i get
00:53:25and i will not spend
00:53:26a single one of them
00:53:27watching you make that boy
00:53:28feel like he's broken
00:53:29what do you want me to do
00:53:29go back upstairs
00:53:31and this time
00:53:32stay
00:53:37scoot over
00:53:44you punched him
00:53:45he deserved it
00:53:47he didn't
00:53:48i was angry
00:53:49not at you
00:53:49at i don't know
00:53:50at finding out from a picture on a screen
00:53:52instead of from my brother's mouth
00:53:53i wanted to tell you
00:53:54i was terrified
00:53:54of me
00:53:55of losing you
00:53:57listen to me
00:53:58i don't care who you love
00:53:59you're my brother
00:54:00that's the only thing that's never
00:54:01gonna change
00:54:02always el
00:54:07the world didn't end
00:54:09it just rearranged
00:54:10and somewhere in the wreckage
00:54:12i could almost see a shape
00:54:14something that looked like it might hold
00:54:17okay
00:54:18okay then
00:54:31don't you dare look at me like that
00:54:33like what
00:54:34like i'm already gone
00:54:36i need you to do something for me
00:54:38and i need you not to fall apart
00:54:40while you do it
00:54:46name it
00:54:48there's a razor in the top drawer
00:54:49the one your father uses
00:54:50for his neck
00:54:52i'd rather choose this
00:54:53than watch it happen to me
00:55:02you sure you don't want theo to
00:55:04i want you
00:55:05you've always been my brave one
00:55:07even when you don't know it
00:55:11if i mess this up
00:55:12you're telling everyone dad did it
00:55:15deal
00:55:44that is
00:55:46brave boy
00:55:50thanks for meeting me
00:55:52you said you wanted to talk
00:55:54i disappeared on you
00:55:55right when everything was falling apart
00:55:57your mom
00:55:58the outing
00:55:58all of it
00:55:59and i just
00:55:59vanished
00:56:01yeah
00:56:01you did
00:56:03i was jealous
00:56:05and hurt
00:56:06and i told my
00:56:07that made it okay to bail on my best friend
00:56:08it didn't
00:56:12i can't give you what you want rowan
00:56:14that hasn't changed
00:56:16i know
00:56:17i'm not asking for that anymore
00:56:18i'm asking if there's still room for me
00:56:20as your friend
00:56:21just that
00:56:25you're buying next time
00:56:29yeah
00:56:32some days break you open so wide
00:56:34you're sure nothing will ever fit back together
00:56:38but then someone shaves her head
00:56:39and calls you brave
00:56:41someone says i'm sorry and means it
00:56:43someone leaves flowers and asks for nothing
00:56:50after everything
00:56:51the outing
00:56:51the fallout
00:56:52dad's silence
00:56:53mom's fight
00:56:54i told myself the kindest thing i did do
00:56:56was cut the wire
00:56:57for both of us
00:56:59i wasn't being brave
00:57:01i was being a coward dressed up as a martyr
00:57:03but i couldn't tell the difference anymore
00:57:16you texted
00:57:17yeah
00:57:19i wasn't sure you would again
00:57:21ever
00:57:22i need to say something and i need you to let me finish
00:57:24okay
00:57:24this
00:57:25us
00:57:26it's destroying everything it touches
00:57:28you lost your birthday to a scene
00:57:29i got outed
00:57:30theo punched you
00:57:31my dad can barely look at me
00:57:32your mom's not your problem
00:57:33she's right though
00:57:35everyone around us gets hurt
00:57:36so what are you saying
00:57:37i'm saying we stop
00:57:38for real this time
00:57:40no more sneaking around
00:57:41no more pretending we can just
00:57:43no
00:57:43beckett
00:57:44no
00:57:45you don't get to decide this alone
00:57:47not after everything
00:57:49i'm trying to protect you
00:57:50i don't want your protection
00:57:53i want you
00:57:56i can't be the reason something else goes wrong
00:57:58then stop running and let something go right
00:58:04elliot
00:58:04elliot
00:58:05go home
00:58:06look at me
00:58:07look at me
00:58:20no
00:58:21no
00:58:22no
00:58:22stay with me
00:58:24beckett
00:58:25with me
00:58:25stay with me
00:58:26don't you dare
00:58:27somebody help please
00:58:31you idiot
00:58:32you stupid beautiful idiot
00:58:34i'm here
00:58:36i'm right here
00:58:41he said he didn't want my protection
00:58:43so he gave me his instead
00:58:48they won't tell me anything
00:58:50he's not my family
00:58:51he's not my anything
00:58:53according to the paperwork
00:58:54i'm just a boy covered in his blood
00:58:58hey
00:58:59look at me
00:59:01he's in surgery
00:59:02that's good
00:59:02that means there's their fighting farm
00:59:03he pushed me
00:59:04he just
00:59:04i was walking away
00:59:05and he pushed me out of the road
00:59:06i know
00:59:07i was leaving him theo
00:59:08that's why we were in the street
00:59:09i was ending it
00:59:10and
00:59:16where is my son
00:59:18where is he
00:59:22beckett beckett beckett beckett hayle
00:59:23he was brought in a car
00:59:24hit him
00:59:25where is he
00:59:26you
00:59:27what happened
00:59:28what did you do
00:59:29my son is in surgery
00:59:30because of you
00:59:31whatever this thing is between you
00:59:32whatever you dragged him into
00:59:33that's not fair
00:59:34beckett pushed elliot out of the way of a car
00:59:36he saved his life
00:59:37and they lose his
00:59:38i want him away from my son
00:59:39do you understand
00:59:40away
00:59:44he's out of surgery there's significant swelling traumatic brain injury the next 72 hours are
00:59:50critical is he conscious no he's in a coma we won't know the extent of the damage
01:00:0472 hours he's strong you know he is
01:00:26you absolute idiot you stupid reckless beautiful idiot you don't get to leave me you hear me
01:00:34you don't get to say i love you for the first time and then die that's not how this works
01:00:46excuse me you can't be in here sir sir
01:00:59please just let me stay they told me to go home but home was in that room unconscious
01:01:06with a machine breathing for him
01:01:15three months 92 days since the intersection since the rain since his blood on my hands
01:01:23people say time heals people are liars
01:01:28time just teaches you how to function while broken
01:01:42breakfast had some liar liar sit
01:01:54your color's coming back i should know i've been monitoring my own like a paint swab
01:01:59how was yesterday's blood work dr reeves used the word
01:02:03animative i told him i'd accept nothing less than miraculous
01:02:08you're carrying too much sweetheart you know that right
01:02:10i'm fine you're 17 fine isn't supposed to look like this
01:02:23you eat today why does everyone keep asking me that because you look like a victorian ghost
01:02:28and i care about you quiz me on calculator
01:02:33hey hey any updates same stable lorraine won't return my calls
01:02:38theo he visits beckard's awake more now apparently physical therapy started last week
01:02:43but the restraining order's still active so i get everything second hand
01:02:47that's not fair none of this is fair
01:02:51elliott sit down a minute
01:02:55i went to that meeting again the one at the community
01:02:58the p blake meeting there was a father there his son's about your age he said something that
01:03:03stuck with me
01:03:05he said he spent two years mourning a version of his kid that never existed
01:03:09and by the time he stopped he'd almost lost the real one
01:03:13i don't want to be that father elliott
01:03:14i'm not good at this
01:03:16but i'm trying
01:03:18i know dad
01:03:21elliott
01:03:23he's awake
01:03:24like really awake talking
01:03:26sitting up
01:03:27you said that last week
01:03:28no
01:03:28listen to me
01:03:29he grabbed my arm today and said exact words
01:03:32where's elliott tell him to come
01:03:34the restraining order
01:03:35screw the restraining order
01:03:37theo
01:03:37he asked for you
01:03:39he's been asking for you
01:03:40lorraine can file whatever she wants
01:03:41you need to be there
01:03:43then let them arrest me
01:03:4792 days of being good
01:03:49of following rules
01:03:51of dying quietly
01:03:52enough
01:04:01there
01:04:02almost presentable
01:04:03hey
01:04:04you okay
01:04:06yeah
01:04:06i'm okay
01:04:07i'm sorry i made you wait so long
01:04:10don't be
01:04:11i'd wait forever
01:04:12he was the last person i ever wanted to fall for
01:04:15the arrogant insufferable beautiful elliott
01:04:18who moved in next door and ruined my entire summer
01:04:21he made me furious
01:04:22he made me brave
01:04:24he loved me even when i couldn't love myself
01:04:35the person i hated more than anyone in the world became the one i couldn't live without
01:04:39you
01:04:40you
01:04:44you
01:04:45you
01:04:45you
01:04:45you
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