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After I Left, The Mafia Heir Lost It - Ep
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00:05your mom was someone's whore so what does that make you
00:12Dante what are you saying it's in your blood baby being a mistress that's what you were born for
00:20from now on you're my mistress Scarlet Marchetti a Marchetti you know what that name means I'm
00:28marrying her your mother knew the man had a wife still crawled into his bed she could do it why
00:39can't
00:40you I was quiet for a long time my mother and I are different I will never be anyone's mistress
00:54then we're done fine done I've only ever made one vow I'd die before I turned into my mother
01:06Dante didn't know that don't be stupid you walk out that door what have you got
01:13I'm the only reason nobody's touched you
01:17your mom jumped off of you your father never even gave you his name
01:25he saw me crying took it as a wind his thumb wiped under my eye
01:32look at you one word about ending this and you fall apart
01:37if I really cut you loose one day you think you'd make it
01:42don't test me Elena staying by my side that's your only way out
01:49he took my silence as surrender and the engine turned over
01:53oh almost forgot you sit in the back now Scarlet says this seat's hers
02:00I gave her my word you know me I don't go back on what I say
02:05I promise to take care of you for life even if I marry someone else that still stands
02:15bet you didn't know three days from now I'm marrying her
02:21took me six months to get her to say yes she's not like you
02:26can't just sweet talk her into anything she told me she's a red rose
02:30you love her you bleed on the thorns
02:32Dante was lost in his little love story and I actually felt the thorn go in
02:36sharp real right through my palm
02:38my hand had pressed into an earring left on the seat
02:41the thin needle tip broke my skin
02:44what the hell did you do
02:46for a split second I thought he was worried about me
02:50that's Scarlet's earring she's a serious germaphobe
02:54if she finds out her favorite piece got dirty
02:56you don't want to know what happened
02:58so my blood was dirty to him
02:59my head was spinning from the pain I just looked at him for a long time
03:04long enough that he finally squeezed out something that almost looked like guilt
03:08forget it don't touch your things again
03:11I sat there
03:12didn't move
03:15he finished wiping the earring
03:17wrapped it in a clean tissue and placed it gently in the glove compartment
03:22you still sitting there I told you to get in the back
03:25no need I'll walk
03:28suit yourself I've got a family event tonight anyway
03:31gotta take Scarlet to pick out a dress
03:34head home on your own
03:36he didn't care that it was pouring outside
03:38didn't even leave me an umbrella
03:40I stood on the side of the road soaked through
03:44people passing by looked at me like I'd lost my mind
03:47there was one thing Dante got wrong
03:51I didn't need him to protect me
03:53three seconds the reply came back
03:58the thing about my mom being a mistress
04:00it didn't come out one day like some big reveal
04:03in this circle there are no secrets
04:14when his wife and baby didn't make it
04:17everyone said my mom drove them to their deaths
04:19my mom jumped off the roof when I was 10
04:22after she died Farhani never came for me
04:25it was some elder in the family who couldn't stomach it
04:28stuck me in St. Anna's
04:29a roof over my head but no name
04:31no status
04:32from the first day I walked through those doors
04:34I was one thing and one thing only
04:36the thing that whore left behind
04:38the family kids at St. Anne's kept it subtle
04:41they wouldn't touch me
04:43dropped their voices when I passed in the hallway
04:45look Farhani's bastard
04:48the wives were the ones who got physical
04:52Mrs. Conti, Sal Conti's wife
04:55when she talked the other wives listened
04:58stay standing
05:00your mother was on her knees
05:02serving someone else's husband
05:04and never complained
05:05a whore's daughter will always be a whore
05:09I knew my mom was guilty
05:10I didn't think I was innocent either
05:13I never fought back
05:14let them take it out on me
05:16that went on for years
05:18until Dante stepped in
05:20who says a whore's daughter has to end up a whore?
05:24what does your daughter do?
05:26my daughter works in investment banking
05:29and you?
05:30before you married Sal Conti
05:33where were you?
05:36she was tending bar before she married him
05:39see?
05:40your daughter turned out nothing like you
05:43after that
05:44he brought light into my life
05:46and now here I was
05:48standing in the pouring rain
05:50trying to make sense of it
05:51how did the man who saved me
05:53become the one destroying me?
05:56I wiped the rain off my face
05:58barely able to see where I was going
06:00and then everything was black
06:02I passed out
06:07when I woke up
06:08it was already dark
06:09I was lying on a bed
06:11in the ER
06:12a thin blanket over me
06:14a blood pressure monitor
06:15clipped to my wrist
06:17blood pressure's too low
06:18don't go anywhere tonight
06:20okay
06:21the second I said it
06:22my phone rang
06:23Dante
06:24I stared at the screen
06:26for a long time
06:27picked up anyway
06:28Scarlett's dress got ruined
06:30go get the starry dime
06:31and bring it to me
06:32she needs a change
06:34starry night
06:34the gown Dante had custom made for me
06:37meant for our wedding reception
06:38now he wanted me to hand it over to another woman
06:41his woman
06:42it didn't matter anymore
06:45Dante I'm in the ER
06:46the ER?
06:47cut the act
06:48don't pull this shit with me right now
06:52I didn't bother arguing
06:55call it repaying a debt
06:56for the time he once saved me
06:59I walked back out into the storm
07:01picked up the dress
07:02and brought it all the way to the venue
07:03on the phone Dante said
07:05Scarlett's waiting for you at the door
07:07she wants to say thank you in person
07:09be good
07:09don't make a scene
07:11but what Scarlett gave me
07:12wasn't a thank you
07:13it was a slap
07:14no warning
07:15the hits spun me halfway around
07:18Elena
07:18if you didn't want to do it
07:20you could have just said so
07:21why throw the dress on the ground?
07:24I didn't even understand
07:26what she was playing at
07:27but Dante did
07:28and he decided to play along
07:30Dante
07:30maybe we shouldn't force Elena
07:33to do things she doesn't want to do
07:35have I been too easy on you?
07:36apologize to Scarlett
07:37now
07:39Dante
07:40I hope you don't live to regret this
07:46I'm sorry Scarlett
07:48I shouldn't have dropped your dress
07:51that didn't sound very sincere
07:53try harder
07:55then what do you want from me?
07:58I won't be anyone's mistress
08:00Dante and I are done
08:02I pulled off the ring right in front of her
08:04the one Dante had made for our wedding
08:06take it back
08:07you and me
08:09it's over
08:10Dante's body went still
08:12he didn't reach for it
08:13I threw it at him
08:15it hit the floor with a sharp clean sound
08:18you wanna go?
08:21Carlett grabbed the back of my neck
08:22and shoved me through the doors
08:24into the hall upstairs
08:26like dragging a prisoner
08:28come look at this
08:29a woman begging to be someone's mistress
08:34isn't that Dante's girl?
08:38not anymore
08:40I'm with Scarlett Martetti now
08:44what did I tell you?
08:46a whore's daughter always ends up a whore
08:49and you used to stick up for her Dante
08:51right?
08:53dirty whore
08:54Dante would never want a woman like that
08:59baby's right
09:01it went through me like a knife
09:03I was to say something
09:04a glass of red wine hit me full in the face
09:07I couldn't breathe
09:10a mistress's spawn belongs where a mistress belongs
09:13who gave you the nerve to sit at the real table?
09:17more of them closed in
09:21one of them grabbed my jaw
09:23forced my mouth open
09:24poured wine straight down my throat
09:28die
09:30whore
09:31I was blown to the ground
09:33slaps and heels came down at me
09:36the thing I feared most had finally come
09:38before my mom died
09:40this is what happened to her
09:41surrounded
09:42beaten
09:42cursed
09:43stomped on
09:44she couldn't take it
09:45climbed to the rooftop
09:46and jumped
09:46that's why I cut things off with Dante
09:48because I was terrified of this exact moment
09:50and it came anyway
09:51Dante
09:52why is it that the man who pulled me out of the dark
09:55is the same man who threw me back in
09:57I went crazy
09:58ripping free from the crowd
10:00crashing into the hallway
10:01throwing myself at the stairs
10:03running all the way up to the roof
10:05he must have thought of my mother
10:08Dante's face changed
10:18but I didn't jump like my mom did
10:20I came up
10:21one step at a time
10:22onto the rope ladder
10:24hanging from a helicopter
10:29I'm sorry Scarlet
10:31I shouldn't have dropped your dress
10:34that didn't sound very sincere
10:36try harder
10:38then what do you want from me
10:41I won't be anyone's mistress
10:43Dante and I are done
10:45I pulled off the ring right in front of her
10:47the one Dante had made for our wedding
10:49take it back
10:51you and me
10:52it's over
10:54Dante's body went still
10:55he didn't reach for it
10:57I threw it at him
10:58it hit the floor with a sharp clean sound
11:01you wanna go?
11:04Carlette grabbed the back of my neck
11:06and shoved me through the doors
11:07into the hall upstairs
11:09like dragging a prisoner
11:11come look at this
11:12a woman begging to be someone's mistress
11:17isn't that Dante's girl?
11:21not anymore
11:23I'm with Scarlet Martetti now
11:27what did I tell you?
11:30a whore's daughter always ends up a whore
11:32and you used to stick up for her Dante
11:35right?
11:36dirty whore
11:37Dante would never want a woman like that
11:43baby's right
11:44it went through me like a knife
11:46I was to say something
11:47a glass of red wine hit me full in the face
11:50I couldn't breathe
11:53a mistress's spawn belongs where a mistress belongs
11:56who gave you the nerve to sit at the real table?
12:00more of them closed in
12:04one of them grabbed my jaw
12:06forced my mouth open
12:07poured wine straight down my throat
12:11die
12:13whore
12:14I was thrown to the ground
12:16slaps and heels came down at me
12:19the thing I feared most had finally come
12:21before my mom died
12:23this is what happened to her
12:24surrounded
12:25beaten
12:25cursed
12:26stomped on
12:27she couldn't take it
12:28climbed to the rooftop
12:29and jumped
12:29that's why I cut things off with Dante
12:31because I was terrified of this exact moment
12:33and it came anyway
12:35Dante
12:35why is it that the man who pulled me out of the dark
12:38is the same man who threw me back in?
12:40you went crazy
12:41ripping free from the crowd
12:43crashing into the hallway
12:45throwing myself at the stairs
12:46running all the way up to the roof
12:49he must have thought of my mother
12:51Dante's face changed
13:01but I didn't jump like my mom did
13:03and come up
13:04one step at a time
13:05onto the rope ladder hanging from a helicopter
13:12the helicopter came early
13:13my aunt Lydia
13:15she started from nothing in Monte Carlo
13:18built herself up to the point
13:20where even the old family dons think twice
13:23when they hear her name
13:24last week she reached out
13:26asked if I wanted to leave this hellhole
13:29and go with her
13:30I said no
13:31because I couldn't let go of Dante
13:34looking back now
13:35what a fucking joke
13:37I was so tired
13:38I passed out on the plane
13:40I was lying in a clean bed
13:42buried under a thick comforter
13:44the room smelled like disinfectant
13:51I knew I was in bad shape
13:53body and mind
13:54both broken
13:55Lydia was sitting by the bed
13:57sons of bitches
14:01then she turned to me
14:02her voice dropping soft
14:04it's over
14:05I got you the best doctors
14:07everything's gonna be okay
14:11drink
14:11you're safe now
14:16Dante watched me climb the rope ladder
14:19frozen
14:19then suddenly
14:20he bolted forward
14:22chasing after me
14:23why are you going after her?
14:25that kind of woman
14:26just let her go
14:29what kind of woman?
14:31the kind who likes being someone's mistress
14:35she was never anyone's mistress
14:38we forced her into that
14:41and even then
14:43she didn't take it
14:44you're yelling at me?
14:47over her?
14:50do you still love her?
14:52yes
14:52I still love her
14:54I always have
14:56then what about me?
14:58what am I?
14:59you're the biggest mistake I ever made
15:01I finally get it
15:02why you wanted to be with me
15:04why you had to turn her into a mistress
15:06because you get off on crushing people
15:08you need it
15:09that's not true
15:12Dante took a folded document from his bodyguard
15:15threw it in her face
15:19back in high school
15:21Scarlett had singled out her classmate
15:23and turned the whole school against her
15:25the girl hadn't done a single thing wrong
15:27Scarlett pinned it on her anyway
15:29and it was enough for Scarlett to destroy her life
15:32she enjoys that
15:33while we're at it
15:35are you even a real Marchetti?
15:42you came after me because of Elena
15:45from the very start
15:49the next day he started tracking down the helicopter
15:52nothing
15:53he pulled every string he had
15:56not a single useful lead
15:57Lydia had wiped the trail clean
16:00like Elena had never existed
16:02three full years
16:03not a word
16:04we have a contract
16:06Dante
16:07you don't get to walk away
16:08just because you feel like it
16:11you know what happens
16:12when you break a deal
16:13I had a contract
16:14with Elena too
16:17the wedding was a week out
16:21the one on the ground
16:22that was my promise
16:23she went door to door
16:25every family's wife
16:26every woman who mattered
16:28Scarlett showed up
16:29tears in her eyes
16:30playing the victim
16:37a few families bought it
16:38started pulling away
16:40from the moretties on business
16:42Dante did explain
16:44didn't defend himself
16:48he waited three months
16:50let Scarlett put on her little show
16:59he waited three months
17:00let Scarlett put on her little show
17:06then at a joint family dinner
17:08he laid it all out on the table
17:10in front of everyone
17:12Scarlett's real background
17:13her history of bullying
17:15her real reason for getting close to Dante
17:18her fake connection to the Marchetti family
17:21all of it
17:22page by page
17:24dead silence
17:25and then something interesting happened
17:28history repeated itself
17:30years ago
17:31Ferrante threw Elena's mother
17:33under the bus
17:34to save his own skin
17:35now it was Scarlett's turn
17:37to be stripped bare
17:38her mother was someone's mistress too
17:40and she herself
17:42was just another illegitimate kid
17:44the father threw away
17:46the circle turned on her overnight
17:48the same wives
17:50who had stood with Scarlett
17:51who had helped her humiliate Elena
17:54turned around
17:55and did the exact same thing to Scarlett
17:58she became joke
18:00fraud
18:00fake
18:01Scarlett's ending
18:02was the same as
18:03Amina's mother's
18:04she jumped off the roof
18:06Scarlett's ending
18:07didn't bring Dante any relief
18:10Scarlett had her sins
18:12but his were no lighter
18:14he wanted to make things right
18:16but where was Elena?
18:23he searched damn near the whole globe
18:26but Elena had vanished
18:28like she'd been erased from the face of the earth
18:31just when he was about to give up
18:33someone said they might have seen her in Paris
18:36he rushed to Paris
18:37then someone said Berlin
18:39he chased it to Berlin
18:41the trail went cold
18:43eight full years
18:44that's how long it took before he finally spotted her
18:47on a street in London
18:48but she was walking hand in hand with another man
18:51that should have been him
18:55his voice was so rough
18:56he barely recognized it himself
19:00Elena
19:00I didn't recognize him at first
19:02because he looked nothing like the man
19:04the man in front of me
19:05was wrapped in a black overcoat
19:06cheekbones jutting out
19:07worn down
19:08eased up
19:08it's been a long time
19:09Mr. Moretti
19:13can we talk?
19:15I looked at my husband Julian
19:17he nodded
19:21we found a small cafe
19:23stay on the corner and sat down
19:37after you left
19:38Scarla and I were done pretty quick
19:42I looked for you
19:44eight years
19:47Elena I'm sorry
19:50he wanted to make things right
19:52but where was Elena?
19:55he searched damn near the whole globe
19:57but Elena had vanished
19:59like she'd been erased from the face of the earth
20:02just when he was about to give up
20:04someone said they might have seen her in Paris
20:06he rushed to Paris
20:08then someone said Berlin
20:10he chased it to Berlin
20:12the trail went cold
20:14eight full years
20:15that's how long it took before he finally spotted her
20:18on a street in London
20:19but she was walking hand in hand with another man
20:21that should have been him
20:25his voice was so rough
20:27he barely recognized it himself
20:30Elena
20:31I didn't recognize him at first
20:33because he looked nothing like the man in front of me
20:35the man in front of me was wrapped in a black overcoat
20:37cheekbones jutting out
20:38worn down
20:38eased up
20:39it's been a long time Mr. Moretti
20:44can we talk?
20:46I looked at my husband Julian
20:47he nodded
20:52we found a small cafe on the corner and sat down
21:08after you left Scarla and I were done pretty quick
21:12I looked for you
21:14eight years
21:17Elena I'm sorry
21:22after you left Scarla and I were done pretty quick
21:27I looked for you
21:28eight years
21:31Elena I'm sorry
21:35it's in the past
21:37ancient history Mr. Moretti
21:39don't lose sleep over it
21:41something about my tone
21:42or maybe it was the name
21:44set him off
21:44he got agitated
21:45in the past
21:46this is the only love I've ever
21:49I couldn't help it
21:50I laughed
21:51so that's what he calls love
21:53interesting
21:54Mr. Moretti
21:56if there's nothing else I need to go
21:57Julian's waiting for me outside
22:00don't go
22:01have you been okay
22:02all these years
22:06as you can see
22:07Julie and I are doing just fine
22:09I'd rather be back with Julian
22:11than sitting here listening to this
22:12we'd only been apart a few minutes
22:15and I already missed him
22:16I'm not
22:17so I kept glancing out the window
22:20Dante noticed
22:20every time my eyes drifted outside
22:22his face got a little darker
22:27then he'd rush to say something
22:29to put me back
22:30do you live in London?
22:33no
22:34where then?
22:35can you tell me?
22:37no
22:40how long are you staying?
22:41will I see you again?
22:42I don't know
22:48Dante finally stopped holding me back
22:51go
22:53go find your husband
22:56I hope we meet again
22:57I let out a breath
22:59stood up
22:59he called after me
23:01Elena
23:03hmm?
23:05I never loved Scarlet
23:07she fooled me
23:09that's all it was
23:11I didn't react
23:12just nodded
23:13turned
23:13and started walking
23:14as I passed him
23:15he spoke again
23:16can you call me Dante?
23:18just once
23:18I didn't
23:20I'm someone else's wife now
23:21he just stood there
23:23a long time passed
23:24before he said quietly
23:25then can I call you baby?
23:28one last time
23:29that's your business
23:31nothing to do with me
23:33I was almost at the door
23:34when it came
23:35loud
23:35almost a shout
23:36from behind me
23:37baby!
23:40I turned my head
23:41Dante was standing
23:42at the entrance of the cafe
23:43tears streaming down his face
23:45I really miss you
23:46if I could do it over
23:48I wouldn't do that to you
23:49I gave him a small smile
23:51didn't stop
23:52walked out
23:53Julian was right there
23:54he took my hand
23:55the second I stepped outside
23:56fingers laced
23:57same as before
23:59we walked back down
24:00the same street
24:01where we'd run into Dante
24:03London was still wet
24:04but the rain inside me
24:06had stopped
24:06we stayed in London
24:07for a month
24:08we didn't run into Dante again
24:10didn't hear a thing about him
24:12then
24:12the day before
24:13we were set to leave
24:14the news hit
24:15two weeks ago
24:16a man had spent
24:17the last of his savings
24:18buying a small cafe
24:20on the corner of
24:20Carnaby Street
24:21last night he died there
24:23Dante
24:23I knew it instantly
24:24every drop of blood
24:26in my body went cold
24:29we rushed to the cafe together
24:31and it was Dante
24:32just as I'd feared
24:33the scene was still taped off
24:35the body had already
24:37been taken away
24:38we waited a week
24:39the autopsy came back
24:41cause of death
24:42chronic alcoholism
24:44late stage stomach cancer
24:46my legs almost gave out
24:48his stomach was always bad
24:49when we were together
24:51I made sure he took his pills
24:52never let him drink
24:53on an empty stomach
24:55all these years on his own
24:57he probably didn't bother
24:59with any of it
24:59he had no one in London
25:01cut ties with the family
25:03years ago
25:03there wasn't even anyone
25:05to notify
25:06Julian and I handled
25:07the funeral arrangements
25:09going through what he left
25:11behind
25:11I found a journal
25:12he'd left it for me
25:13every page was filled
25:15years of searching for me
25:17all over the world
25:18far more detailed
25:19than what he'd told me
25:20in person
25:21he wrote
25:22after the last time
25:23I saw her
25:24I kept telling myself
25:25she's doing fine
25:26I shouldn't bother her
25:27but I can't help it
25:28especially that man
25:29the one she calls Julian
25:31I wanted to kill him
25:33but I knew I couldn't
25:34it would hurt her
25:35day 18
25:36since I saw Elena again
25:38and lost her again
25:39I miss her
25:40more than yesterday
25:42I can't stop it
25:43I just want to hold her
25:44this ring
25:45I picked it up
25:46off the floor that night
25:47if I'm gone
25:49and you're still in London
25:50take it with you
25:52the journal ended there
25:55Julian and I held
25:57a small funeral
25:58for Dante
25:58as friends
26:00nothing more
26:01no family
26:02no guests
26:03just the two of us
26:04and a local priest
26:06the headstone was simple
26:07just his name
26:09and the years he lived
26:10I placed the journal
26:11and the ring together
26:13at the base of the stone
26:15Dante
26:16I said softly
26:17voice steady
26:19it's over
26:20rest now
26:22I don't hate you
26:23and I don't forgive you
26:25we owe each other nothing
26:28I'm going to live well
26:29safe
26:30whole
26:31happy
26:32that's what you owed me
26:34and it's what I built for myself
26:37I stood there for a long time
26:39then I reached out
26:41and touched the cold stone
26:42at my fingertips
26:43not saying goodbye to a lover
26:45but saying goodbye to a heavy past
26:47to the girl I used to be
26:49small
26:50helpless
26:51trampled under everyone's feet
26:53Julian's arm came around my shoulders
26:55let's go
26:56let's go home
26:57I nodded
26:58turned around
26:59walked away
27:00this time
27:01I didn't look back
27:03later Julian had the ring made into a necklace
27:06wear it
27:07I'm not going to be jealous of a dead man
27:12but I didn't put it on
27:13I locked it in a drawer
27:14that was the end of it
27:16everything between me and Dante
27:18all the love
27:19all the damage
27:20finished
27:21I didn't need him watching over me
27:23not in any form
27:24I never did
27:27after the funeral
27:28I got sick
27:29nothing serious
27:30just drained
27:31no energy
27:32sleeping all the time
27:34low fever on and off
27:35Julian insisted on taking me to a doctor
27:38they couldn't find anything wrong
27:40but I knew what it was
27:42some kind of withdrawal
27:43like when you finally set down something you've been carrying your whole life
27:47and your body doesn't know what to do without it
27:49Julian took time off work
27:51stayed home with me every day
27:53he never asked what's wrong
27:55just stayed close
27:56made me pasta
27:57pulled the blanket over me
27:59held my hand while I slept
28:01I woke up half conscious and heard him on the balcony
28:04yes her mood is stable
28:05just a bit tired
28:06don't worry I'll take care of her
28:08yes for now
28:09don't let her come into contact with anything related to that side
28:13six months after Dante died
28:15someone tracked me down
28:17Mr. Moretti left a will
28:18the cafe on Carnabut Street is yours
28:23it was his last wish
28:26I won't accept it
28:28his last wish was for me to be happy
28:31and my happiness now has nothing to do with him
28:35sell the cafe
28:36donate the money to girls who have nowhere to go after being bullied
28:49after the man left Julian came back and found me staring at nothing on the couch
28:53he sat down next to me arm around my shoulders
28:55reluctant
28:56no
28:57I just suddenly feel that world is so far away
29:04after the funeral I got sick
29:06nothing serious
29:07just drained
29:09no energy
29:10sleeping all the time
29:11low fever on and off
29:13Julian insisted on taking me to a doctor
29:16they couldn't find anything wrong
29:18but I knew what it was
29:20some kind of withdrawal
29:21like when you finally set down something you've been carrying your whole life
29:25and your body doesn't know what to do without him
29:27Julian took time off work
29:28stayed home with me every day
29:30he never asked what's wrong
29:32just stayed close
29:34made me pasta
29:35pulled the blanket over me
29:37held my hand while I slept
29:38I woke up half conscious and heard him on the balcony
29:41yes her mood is stable
29:43just a bit tired
29:44don't worry I'll take care of her
29:46yes for now
29:47don't let her come into contact with anything related to that side
29:50six months after Dante died
29:52someone tracked me down
29:54Mr. Moretti left a will
29:56the cafe on Carnabut Street is yours
30:00it was his last wish
30:04I won't accept it
30:06his last wish was for me to be happy
30:08and my happiness now has nothing to do with him
30:12sell the cafe
30:13donate the money to girls who have nowhere to go after being bullied
30:19this is our decision
30:20thank you for coming all this way
30:27after the man left
30:28Julian came back and found me staring at nothing on the couch
30:30he sat down next to me
30:32arm around my shoulders
30:33reluctant?
30:34no
30:34I just suddenly feel that world is so far away
30:42after Dante died
30:43I never thought about the name Scarlet again
30:46but the world is small
30:48one year I was in Rome on business
30:50walked past a community rehabilitation center
30:54there was a woman out front
30:56grey hair
30:57face aged beyond her
30:59a nurse pushing her
31:00letting her get some sun
31:02Ms. Marcelli
31:03time to go back
31:04Scarlet
31:05she seemed to hear something in the air
31:08lifted her head slowly
31:10completely without warning
31:11she was thin
31:13unrecognizably so
31:14deep exhaustion behind her eyes
31:17numb
31:18I stood there
31:19it took me a while to come back to myself
31:21Carm is a bitch
31:23she didn't escape it either
31:25Dante's journal had mentioned it
31:27don't push me
31:28don't push me
31:29I did nothing wrong
31:31ended up the same as my mother
31:33jumped off her roof
31:35she didn't die
31:36broke her spine
31:37spent the rest of her life in that chair
31:39I didn't feel satisfaction
31:41didn't feel pity either
31:43just calm
31:44not the cold kind
31:46not the kind where you pretend you didn't cheat
31:50it was a late autumn afternoon
31:52Lydia once asked me
31:53do you hate your mother?
31:56I thought about it for a long time
31:58I hated her when I was a child
32:00hated her for what she did
32:02hated her for making me live under those insults
32:05also hated her for leaving too early
32:07abandoning me alone in this world
32:09Aunt Lydia listened
32:10didn't interrupt
32:11but later I stopped hating
32:15she made a mistake
32:16and paid with her life
32:19Elena
32:20you know
32:21your mother called me before she died
32:25she said she regretted it deeply
32:27that the she wronged most in her life
32:29was you
32:31she asked me
32:32if possible
32:33to find you
32:34and take care of you
32:34for her
32:35I kept my head down
32:36didn't say anything
32:38Aunt Lydia took my hand
32:39I think you should know this
32:42and in that last phone call
32:45she was a decent mother
32:47I started to cry
32:49after a long while
32:50I got up and put my arms around her
32:53she gave birth to me
32:55you saved me
32:57silly girl
32:58I just sent a helicopter
33:00you climbed up yourself
33:02we both laughed
33:03yeah