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00:00the worst years of my bipolar i bought myself a broke scholarship kid 15 grand a month i'd take
00:06a riding crop to that ridiculous body of his slap that face the one too pretty for its own good
00:12i
00:12liked bdsm loved playing with him most of all finals week stress through the roof so i called
00:18him over to my place the moment he walked in he took the riding crop from my hand himself
00:22dragged the leather tip across his own abs
00:29later i wore myself out hitting him and fell asleep
00:35how did i wake up here did ethan decide i went too hard and sell me off while i was
00:39unconscious
00:40i look around lost everything is cold white expensive sleek furniture floors so gray they
00:46gleam and these strangers all staring at their phones nobody looks at me i swallow and get ready
00:52to slip out the door opens without a sound the man holding it bows with an apologetic smile and
00:58ethan walks in behind him awake
01:00he moves to the seat directly across from me i stare as he lifts his wrist without thinking
01:05a patek philippe sits on that lean strong forearm everything about him radiate something that
01:11doesn't belong to him something effortless and expensive this is not the ethan mercer i remember
01:17he doesn't look at me opens his mouth unhurried this contract contract right right okay he did sell
01:24me my voice cuts through the room what we had was consensual you wanted out you could have just said
01:30so selling me off is a whole other level of low everyone freezes the round-faced girl next to me
01:36taps my arm gently eat him ethan cuts her off his gaze locks onto me cold and flat are you
01:42having an
01:43episode he dares talk to me like that the old ethan mercer no matter how hard i hit him would
01:48only
01:48press his hand to his face look up at me with those damp hazy eyes and grit out two words
01:54more money
01:54now he has the nerve to call me crazy i shoot to my feet and swing the slap cracks across
02:00his face
02:01you want to get hit i'll ask one more time where is this
02:08ethan lifts his hand and wipes the corner of his mouth watches me that look it's too complicated for a
02:14second i'm sure he's about to hit me back but a few seconds pass he presses his lips tight leans
02:20into my ear want to keep going get it out of your system then we work i can't bring myself
02:26to swing
02:26again too many people kills the momentum i drop back into my seat i'm leaving now ethan lowers his head
02:33and goes back to the contract suit yourself then to the room the rest of you go it's past six
02:39past six
02:40what is even happening my head spins i wander the building for what feels like forever and can't
02:46even find the elevator the round-faced girl catches up careful gentle eden want to head out together
02:52we're the same direction as she talks she pulls out her phone the date glows across the screen 2026
03:01it's it's 2026 she gives me a puzzled look yeah 26 why what year did you think it was
03:08like getting hit by a truck i wasn't so son of a bitch i time travel the round-faced girl's
03:17name
03:17is brie keller i fish for information carefully each answer sinks my heart a little deeper into ice
03:22water in the conference room that was the entire strategic planning division brie breaks the silence
03:27eden i seriously admire you and i hit someone in front of all of them for what you slapped the
03:34ceo in front of the entire team i've never been so terrified and so thrilled at the same time
03:40cold sweat beads across my forehead honestly i've wanted to do that for months my vision goes dark
03:47around the edges
03:50ethan mercer is the ceo he was with me the guy was dead broke drowning in his father's gambling debt
03:56raising an underage sister without me he couldn't have paid tuition and now he's the ceo
04:01and i just slapped the ceo in front of every department head in the company
04:06something clicks back in the meeting you called me eden you know who i am brie stares at me like
04:12i've lost my mind you're his ea she's looking at me like i'm a special kind of stupid
04:18executive assistant ethan mercer's executive assistant that's why i admire you you slapped
04:24your direct boss at least there's one piece of good news seven years later i still live in the
04:29most expensive part of manhattan upper east side penthouse the moment i walk in mrs delaney takes
04:35my coat and hands me a glass of water different housekeeper from seven years ago but that's normal
04:40enough after all this time i sink into the couch the living room's changed a bit from what i remember
04:44but the overall vibe is still mine if this apartment's still here the family hasn't gone bankrupt
04:49i pissed off ethan today worst case i quit tomorrow i drift off on the couch in my dream
04:55ethan's body is still warm around me he's rubbing ointment into my hand the one that went red from
04:59hitting him something knots in my chest aftercare wasn't part of our deal but at some point he started
05:05doing it anyway every time checking my palms for swelling for redness from striking too hard i think
05:10he was afraid i'd let him go without my money he and his sister would have been on the street
05:14debt collectors circling my eyes dropped to the riding crop marks across his chest i frown i hit
05:19too hard this time the moment my fingers touch his skin ethan's lashes flutter he turns toward me and
05:25his lips land on mine soft as a feather light barely there it tickles his eyes open cold and steady
05:34eden we had a deal you get my body for this you don't get all of me oh right the
05:41kid had his
05:41boundaries i can't remember which time it was i was drunk shoved him against the wall and kissed him
05:48ethan's eyes rim red fury locks every muscle in his body tight he grabs my chin fingers white knuckled
05:55eden i will never be with you get that through your head who wants to be with him i pull
06:02my hand back
06:02sheepish then stop wait he leaned in first a cold draft sweeps through scattering the warmth from my palm
06:09the dream dissolves with it i open my eyes half awake and wander barefoot into the bedroom directly
06:14across from the bed hangs a framed photo half my height i freeze cold sweat breaks out everywhere
06:20sleep vanishes a man and a woman in the frame him in a suit effortlessly handsome her in a wedding
06:26gown
06:26that pools on the floor smiling like the sun it's my wedding photo mine and ethan mercer's at the same
06:32moment movement at the front door mrs delaney's voice drifts in fragments at first then clear warm
06:39in a way she never sounds with me mr mercer you're back mrs mercer's home already she's in the bedroom
06:46can i fix you something to eat no ethan's voice heavy with fatigue i'll go check on her
06:52i turn my head slowly stiffly one degree at a time his eyes meet mine
06:59neither of us speaks ethan's cheek still seems to carry a red mark i tuck my hand behind me something
07:05uncomfortable twists in my chest come here do i need to say it again every nerve in my body fires
07:12at once
07:13voice like ice water i flinch back i hit him without permission that was on me in front of all
07:19those
07:19people that kind of humiliation it's like being stripped naked in public i shuffle up to his chest
07:24i'm sorry plant my feet ethan extends his hand toward me in silence don't move but he catches my
07:32wrist in a sudden grip he turns my hand over examining my palm with care good no swelling his
07:40voice sounds blunt as a plate relieved don't hate me hate you i could strangle you i glance at my
07:47palm
07:47still cradled in his fingers he's rubbing it gently why i don't know how to finish the sentence
07:53feeling guilty then kiss me that'll make us even i blink the ethan from seven years ago would never
08:00have said what he used to look at me the way you look at trash cold always cold only in
08:06those first
08:07few seconds after the riding crop landed that's when something shifted in his eyes something wet
08:12something dazed and underneath it an emotion i could never name they were moments i almost believed he
08:19liked it when i hit him the doorbell rings mrs delaney answers it the therapist ethan hired for me has
08:25arrived and as it happens it's the same one who treated me before dr julian vaughn dr julian vaughn used
08:33to be a senior psychiatrist at nyu langone ethan found me during your first year of marriage before that
08:40your family went through a crisis your father's fund collapsed the sec got involved our sessions
08:48were suspended for a long time i almost laugh my father's fund collapsed that can't be right
08:56if that were true how am i still living here dr vaughn studies me for a few seconds a trace
09:01of pity
09:01crosses his face i pushed down the acid burning in my chest after your father's case this apartment
09:07what he mistilized auctioned out in the bankruptcy proceedings ethan bought it back so seven years
09:13later this apartment doesn't belong to me anymore it belongs to ethan mercer i'm still here because he
09:19allows it and listen to dr vaughn continue when i resumed your treatment you were already married
09:25you've been improving steadily this sudden amnesia i'll need to rework the entire plan
09:32dr vaughn my voice cracks can you tell me how my father is doing hesitates for a few seconds and
09:37opens his mouth to answer ethan pushes through the door that's enough for today i watch dr vaughn leave
09:44helpless no discussion then comes the wave i can't hold back i jerk my head up my heart slams once
09:50i lunge forward to stop him but ethan pins me to the chair with one hand raw choking frustration
09:56let go what gives you the right to stop me what gives you the right to keep me from asking
10:01because
10:02i'm the one paying for your treatment ethan pauses without me your father's debt would have buried you
10:08you begged me to marry you to protect you i start shaking have you forgotten what you look like back
10:15then burns through my whole body peeling back everything ugly i've tried to hide and my hand flies
10:22up almost on its own ethan catches my can't stop hitting people can you what right do you have to
10:27hit me now a faint edge of mockery in his voice rage floods my chest like a dam breaking the
10:33sting is
10:34sharp the urge to keep going ethan yanks my arm behind my back and locks it there eden i can't
10:40hear
10:40you need to learn to calm yourself down bite his hand full force copper floods my tongue his grip is
10:46steel his hand spasms he doesn't pull away his jaw tightens and he grips my wrist harder i pant
10:52through clenched teeth for the first time in my life i beg is my father dead i'm not sad i
10:59forgot what
10:59sad feels like a long time ago his eye twitches at the sting ethan looks down at me his silence
11:06is the
11:06answer your father couldn't handle the debt he took his own life i crumpled to the floor without ethan
11:13i would have been the second one he's right what right do i have to hit him now in my
11:17peripheral
11:18vision i can barely hold my voice together ethan i want a divorce what did you just say
11:25my voice goes quiet with them a divorce what's the reason this time the hand at his side curls into
11:32a slow fist whether you married me for revenge or out of pity it sure as hell wasn't love i've
11:38done
11:38you wrong i know that but it's been years let it go let me go let yourself go memories surface
11:47the
11:48truth is i liked ethan but we started so ugly that i never dared hope he could feel anything for
11:54me i
11:54told myself once he graduates once he doesn't need the money anymore i'll let go disappear from his life
12:00for good nobody could have predicted that seven years later everything would look like this he says
12:06nothing for a long time then he walks out and slams that night ethan doesn't come home the enormous
12:13apartment holds only me and mrs delaney mrs delaney shouldn't you be off by now i should be but when
12:22mr mercer's not home i stay why it's in my employment contract if he's away i stay with you he
12:29just venvoed
12:30me overtime pay and told me to keep an eye on you mrs delaney started after we got married thanks
12:35to
12:35her i find a spreadsheet on ethan's office computer every debt he's repaid on my behalf every dollar
12:40logged and tracked if i want a divorce i need to pay him back first only then are we even
12:45the next
12:46day i go to work like normal the moment i step into the conference room every pair of eyes lands
12:50on
12:50me complicated expressions all around here's what you asked for he takes the folder from me without
12:56expression drops it on the table with a flat smack he tugs at the collar of his turtleneck revealing
13:02his sharp cold eyes i stand at his side obedient the meeting runs until noon department heads file
13:08out one by one mr mercer what would you like for lunch ethan ignores me it used to be the
13:13other way
13:13around he'd bring me food after every session i'd even make him feed me claiming my hand hurt too much
13:18mind you now i call mrs delaney and ask what ethan likes to eat she rattles them off without thinking
13:24truffle mac and cheese lobster bisque grilled salmon those are all my favorites yes you eat first
13:32he eats what you leave i don't know what i'm feeling when i open door dash and order everything
13:38she listed at checkout apple pink pulls from ethan's amex black six figure balance my phone is the newest
13:44iphone chromex my bag is an unreleased saline this is the lifestyle i had before my family went under
13:50i set the food on ethan's desk gently he doesn't bother looking up not hungry it's all fresh not
13:58leftovers even less interesting now seriously i stare at him what is his problem ethan does not
14:05believe in separating work from personal grudges he's got anger stored up and he's freezing me out
14:10at the office at this rate i'll be fired i find an empty corner and call for advice mrs delaney
14:16ethan
14:16won't even eat how do i fix this he's ignoring you honey that's nothing ignore him for a few days
14:22he'll come crawling back always does what kind of marriage is this but i'm the one who messed up
14:28shouldn't i be the one doing the groveling well if you don't want to wait it out i do have
14:32one trick
14:33one trick tell me tell me now smack him again dear that always resets i'm speechless one christmas eve
14:41mr mercer cooked an entire dinner himself you didn't touch a bite you swept it all off the table
14:46he was devastated when i came to clean up he was sitting on the floor crying silently next time i
14:53came in you two were back to normal just like that the whip here the whip fixes everything in this
15:02house when the fight was at its worst you went at him with the riding cup i felt sorry for
15:07him but
15:07then he grabbed your hand and kissed your palm the hand you hit him with i'm crouched in the corridor
15:13i glance left glance right look ahead look behind when my head turns 45 degrees back i see two long
15:21straight legs i tilt my head up ethan's eyes meet mine
15:27on the phone mrs delaney is still going full throttle the harder you hit him the harder he kissed you
15:33lord i
15:34had to leave the room i'm too old for that kind of show you've lost your memory but i haven't
15:39you got
15:39angry again hit him with the other hand he grabbed both your wrists and pinned you on the bed i
15:44silently
15:45hang up a suffocating pause ethan cold and clipped go to internal alitis get the planning report from the
15:51director okay and tell the director of strategic planning to see me this proposal has issues okay
16:02next time you bite me use the left hand okay wait what
16:10ethan stands with his hands in his pockets perfectly straight perfectly untouchable that
16:15same glacial composure whatever he's thinking he won't say ethan seems determined to ignore me
16:21looks exactly like seven years ago cold to the bone eden i'll give you a ride on my motorcycle
16:27brie has something come up can't leave with me tonight genuine hard to say no to
16:33downstairs ryan's already straddling the bike in full riding gear i reach for it and a low horn
16:39sounds behind me a black bentley glides past like water roads are bad tonight i'll take you home
16:45mr mercer how'd you know i've always wanted to ride in a bentley call yourself another one expense it
16:51ethan cuts him off voice cool as marble you get in the door shuts with a clean thud heat seals
16:58out
16:58the noise i wasn't messing around ryan was just being nice don't flatter yourself you want a divorce
17:05right might as well audition replacements i'm not petty enough to care ethan's tone barely registers
17:12emotion me petty please his voice is level but something sharp presses just beneath the surface
17:18i don't know how to answer i close my mouth silence all the way home the car stops ethan's voice
17:24out
17:24of nowhere one affair wasn't enough now you're starting a collection i have an affair the kind
17:32of affair that means cheating eden what did i do wrong what do i have to do to make you
17:37stop since we
17:38got married i've let you hit me i've given you everything you wanted why do you keep trying
17:44to leave and on top of that he seems to remember the amnesia takes a deep breath his voice drains
17:49of
17:49energy you've been seeing someone behind my back you even brought him here for six months that's
17:54impossible a bitter scoff your words not mine he's your first love better looking than me younger than me
18:04i go still after my father's fun collapsed i married ethan almost immediately before that i was
18:10with him the whole time i almost laughed since when do i have a first love ethan holds up his
18:16phone
18:16face tight on the screen a selfie me and some boy i've never seen tangled up on a couch arms
18:22around
18:22each other way too close you've tried to divorce me over him more times than i can count that expression
18:30on his face like a husband who just caught his wife cheating so what if he's younger eden have your
18:36fun but let's be real can you take a hit like i can i hold it in for a few
18:39seconds then i burst out
18:40laughing bear that's my nephew he's in high school what is wrong with you ethan's dark pupils flash
18:47like a meteor streaking through them he zooms in on the photo comparing two similar faces you lied to me
18:54you didn't cheat something heavy settles in my chest the laughter fades from my face without a sound
18:59yeah why did the future version of me lie to him a week later i meet dr vaughn in secret
19:04there are
19:05things i need to know starting with my father's death dr vaughn lets out a quiet sigh eden i don't
19:10think you need to fixate on your father's death your memory stopped seven years ago everything before
19:15that you should still have of course i do seven years ago was the moment i hated my father most
19:20that was
19:21when i learned the truth about how my mother died my mother loved my father from the days when he
19:25had
19:25nothing to the days when he was worth hundreds of millions she loved him the same even knowing he had
19:31hereditary bipolar she married him had his child a child who would almost certainly inherit it she
19:36whispered in my ear that she was very sick a very very serious illness she said no cure she told
19:42me i
19:43had to take care of myself for years i believed her until i met ethan after one of our sessions
19:48i was
19:48still buzzing why do you react like that every time i hit you don't tell me you're falling for
19:52me would you marry me if i asked i will never forget what he said 20 year old ethan eyes
19:57full of cold
19:57contempt marry you so i can watch you destroy me the way your father destroyed your mother my mother's
20:03face floated up that hollow ruined smile her hand on my cheek gentle her voice breaking eden honey mommy
20:10can't save your father and she can't save herself i hate my father hate him for knowing he was sick
20:17and refusing to get help hate him for knowing he'd hurt my mother and never letting her leave
20:21until he finally destroyed her hate him for bringing me into the world another broken thing just like
20:27him i pushed the chaos down dr vaughn after my mother died my father sent me to boarding school we
20:34were
20:34never close i suspect that's precisely why he sent you away he was afraid of hurting you too what father
20:42doesn't love his daughter he was still my father i have a right to know how he really died my
20:47father's
20:48fund was massive ashford capital didn't go down quietly so why did he every article i found is
20:54about the financial scandal not a single one mentions how richard ashford actually died just one vague
20:59obituary the color drains from dr vaughn's face ethan lied to me my father's death wasn't just a suicide
21:08dr vaughn picks up the stack and shakes his head eden you really are something almost laughing
21:13what ethan called me last night he was happy said you were doing better said you still seem
21:20to like him even without your memories i press my lips together if he knew what you've been up to
21:24he'd be heartbroken say nothing since making up with ethan i've been acting like everything's fine
21:29eden why do you think ethan lied to you dr vaughn looks me dead in the eye something shifts in
21:33him
21:33like he's made a decision i dropped my gaze he sighs he speaks slowly you don't think he was trying
21:39to
21:39hurt you do you he was protecting you you'll recover your memories eventually i don't want to
21:46keep lying to you you and your father both have mental illness under extreme emotional stress people
21:52like you are capable of crossing lines you killed your father eden a red fog floods my vision out of
22:00nowhere dr vaughn stares at me face blank and repeats you killed your father your father destroyed your
22:06mother and you killed him people like you and your father maybe the world was never built for you i
22:14grip the edge of the table something buried deep in my skull is clawing its way out lines and fragments
22:19writhe and twist fighting to surface what the hell did you say to her have you lost your goddamn mind
22:26doing my job mr mercer why do you think nyu langone let me go my methods are too aggressive
22:32the mainstream doesn't approve i feel like i've been asleep for a very long time seven years in a
22:39single dream i didn't travel through time at all i got sick lost seven years of memory by accident
22:45dr vaughn's brutal words ripped a crack in my brain and through that crack memories pour back some of them
22:51trust me first i didn't kill my father after the fund collapsed it was one wave after another sec
22:57investigations investor lawsuits debt collectors the last time i saw him was in the old brownstone in
23:03brooklyn heights my mother's room the three of us lived there once my father's voice was wrong
23:09after my mother died he'd never looked this warm i didn't give you a sound mind or a whole family
23:14and now i can't even give you money he wasn't a father i was close to but i won't drag
23:20you down
23:21i didn't blame you all those years of privilege were enough i had a job two hands two feet we
23:28could
23:28share the burden later he replayed that moment over and over it was that coldness from the person
23:35closest to him that sent him over the edge triggered another episode took the last of his reason late
23:40that night he went back to ashford capital's corner office every financial record the company had was
23:45stored there he destroyed what he could shredder hard drives wiped clean then in that same office
23:50he overdosed swallowed an entire bottle of prescription pills and set a fire the fire department put out the
23:56blaze most of the documents were already ash some things could never be traced again the corporate legal
24:02team and the insurance company controlled the narrative the official statement read richard ashford
24:06passed away from cardiac arrest during the course of the investigation cause of death sealed the media
24:12kept its spotlight on the financial scandal nobody cared how a fallen fund manager actually died
24:17i didn't kill my father but i was the thing that pushed him faster toward the edge i ended the
24:22three-year arrangement with ethan his debts were long paid off aside from a small ache of not wanting
24:27to let go it cost me nothing i had nothing left even with most of the financial records destroyed
24:32the remaining liabilities and personal guarantees were enough to suffocate me without ethan my
24:37emotions had no outlet i realized i couldn't keep going i was so tired i wanted to die the rooftop
24:45of
24:45the ashford capital building ethan on his knees begging me controlled and falling apart at the same time
24:51he never gave me a kind look not once every glance said he despised me but the moment he saw
24:58me about
24:58to jump something in him snapped that shock the sheer strangeness of his desperation is what stopped
25:04me from stepping off the edge i stared as he took my hand in his gentle and terrified eden i'm
25:10here you
25:11want to hit me you can hit me i won't charge you not now not ever just come down please
25:15come down and
25:15hit me just i have nothing left to give you i don't need marry me i'll take care of you
25:20i'll pay off the debt
25:21please if you die i won't survive either from somewhere far away dr vaughn's voice calls me
25:29back eden my mind resurfaces dr vaughn watches my eyes a small smile on his face some of it came
25:36back
25:38ethan hovers beside me tense how are you feeling i look up at him i'm fine it's over when you
25:44first
25:45married ethan you were in a very bad place but he didn't give up he found me over the years
25:49you've
25:50made real progress as for why the amnesia happened that's not my story to tell ask your husband
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