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Love Story - Season 1 - Episode 08: Exit Strategy Eng Sub
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00:25Puff Puff Puff
00:30Puff your cares away
00:38Puff Puff Puff
00:42Night and day
00:51Blow, blow them through the air
00:56Silky little rings
01:03Those little smoke rings
01:09Hi
01:12Hey
01:15How was, how was the thing?
01:20Oh, you know
01:23It was a journalist's book party in Midtown
01:28How do you think it was?
01:31Utterly fine
01:32Violently fine
01:35Anthony dropped by for a bit
01:37Yeah? How do you look?
01:39Frail
01:40Wonder why you bothered showing up
01:42Life is for the living
01:44Does that constitute living?
01:46A journalist's book party in Midtown?
01:48I had fun
01:52Did you?
01:53Yeah
01:55Although I did get trapped for about 20 minutes
01:57By that artist lady who wears those hats
01:59Lizzie is a publicist
02:01The reason you think she's an artist
02:02Is because she's a good publicist
02:12What are you doing?
02:13What does it look like I'm doing?
02:17I love this song
02:26You know what else I love?
02:28Hmm?
02:30I love you
02:36I love you too
02:43Tonight would have been so much more fun if you were there
02:47Everything's more fun when I'm there
02:50That's usually true
02:54You know, I think this is the first song we ever danced to
02:58God, we barely knew each other then
03:01I knew you
03:02I knew who you were
03:03Yeah?
03:04You were fearless
03:04Oh no, I was terrified
03:10The way you used to walk into a room and just own it
03:17Used to?
03:18No, you know what I mean
03:22Baby
03:23I missed you tonight
03:27Everyone was asking where you were
03:30It's hard to keep track of all the excuses at this point
03:43You hungry?
03:44I don't want the food to get cold
04:04I'm sorry
04:05I wasn't trying to guilt trip you
04:08I just missed you
04:12I mean, it was a completely mediocre book party in Midtown
04:15I
04:15It really doesn't sound like I missed much
04:17I mean, right?
04:23If you were so desperate to see me
04:25You would have just skipped it to see me
04:26And the fact that it didn't even occur to you as an option
04:28Makes me feel like this isn't just about us spending time together
04:31But about
04:32People
04:33Seeing us spend time together
04:36Just
04:37I hate showing up to these things alone
04:41Because of what people will say?
04:42No
04:43No
04:45Well, obviously that's part of it
04:47You know what happens anytime I show up to these things alone
04:51It's another headline stating that
04:52We're headed for divorce
04:54Well, at this point
04:55They're going to write a story no matter what
04:57Exactly
04:59Damned if we do
05:00Damned if we don't
05:02Right, I just
05:03I feel like we're saying the same thing here
05:04All I'm saying is
05:06I'd like to spend time with you outside of this loft
05:14I have a crazy idea
05:16A plate?
05:17Let's go on a trip
05:19What kind of a trip?
05:20Any kind of trip you want
05:22Paris
05:24Belize
05:25Tahiti
05:25Tahiti?
05:26Yeah, Tahiti
05:26Just you, me, at the beach
05:28No parties, no obligation
05:30No press
05:32No clothes
05:33Carolyn
05:34I'm serious
05:38Maybe after the holidays
05:39After the holidays, John, it's August
05:42It's August 30th
05:43It's essentially September
05:46We have the Delancey Street Foundation dinner in San Francisco
05:49Back to New York for Fashion Week
05:51Then I have the Cuba trip
05:53After that, we're in the vineyard
05:55Straight to Redgate
05:56Then we're back in the city for Terry and Valerie's Halloween party
05:59November is the Georgia anniversary dinner
06:02Thanksgiving at Hyannis
06:03Christmas with the cousins
06:04Your birthday in January
06:06Figured you'd want to be with friends
06:07But yeah, the trip sounds nice
06:12Okay, so what you're saying is
06:13We can't go on vacation until 1998?
06:17Of course not
06:18We have Hyannis next weekend, remember?
06:23Fuck me, I forgot
06:28You know, a lot of people consider the cave to be one of the most beautiful areas of the country
06:33Yeah, I'm aware of that
06:34I don't have a problem with the cave
06:35It's a compound
06:37What about it?
06:39Come on
06:40No, let's hear it
06:42Out with it
06:45Um, it's not relaxing
06:47Every minute of the day is accounted for
06:48We can't sleep in
06:49We can't sit on the beach
06:51We can't go for a walk
06:52There's no privacy
06:53So we'd never have sex
06:55Oh, there's never enough hot water
06:57Which is, frankly, mind-boggling
07:00Given the marvel that is modern plumbing
07:01And even in the height of summer
07:03It's always cold
07:05How?
07:06And there were all these insane
07:08Unwritten rules
07:09Like, uh, board games are verboten
07:11But playing cards are encouraged
07:14What's the difference?
07:15Oh, and yogurt at breakfast is sensible
07:18But yogurt at lunch is
07:19And I'm quoting your cousin here
07:21Some Weight Watchers shit
07:23Oh, and that, um
07:25That rule about no TV during the day
07:27Well, that's not a rule
07:28It's just
07:29Do you want to watch TV during the day?
07:32I want the option
07:34Spending your day in front of the TV
07:36On a beautiful summer's day
07:38It's just wasteful
07:39So it is a rule
07:41It's a norm
07:42Oh, there is nothing norm about it
07:44Trust me
07:45Everyone shoots me these judgmental looks
07:47Whenever I read magazines
07:48And before you say
07:50That Caroline reads magazines all the time, too
07:52Let me interrupt your interruption
07:54And say that Caroline reads The New Republic
07:56And, well, technically, yes
07:57That's a magazine
07:58Spiritually, it's a book
08:01Vogue
08:02That's a magazine
08:03And don't think I haven't noticed the expectant looks on everyone's faces when I abstain from a cocktail
08:07I am basically guzzling dark and stormies prophylactically at this point
08:11I have to drink or else people will think I'm pregnant
08:14You think I'm joking, but I'm serious
08:16They just feel like I'm on display
08:18Like there's this sense of visibility
08:20Like my body is this living, breathing report card broadcasting the state of our relationship
08:27You could always drink a sea breeze
08:28And the clams
08:31The clams
08:31Over Fourth of July weekend, your family had five clam bakes over three days
08:35Six, actually
08:37We had a midnight clam bake, but I let you sleep through that one
08:39Who wants clams at midnight?
08:42That's diabolical
08:43That's sadistic
08:44Okay, okay, I hear you
08:47Hyannis can be specific
08:48I believe I said sadistic
08:52I like spending time with our family, I'm sorry
08:54John, they're your family
08:55They're your family, too
08:56Family's important
08:57Yeah, you and me, we're a family
09:08Hello?
09:12What happened?
09:17Lauren, slow down, you're scaring me
09:19What's going on?
09:20What?
09:23Mm-hmm
09:25Okay, what channel?
09:27Well, you
09:29Yeah, okay, let me call you back, all right?
09:32Love you, bye
09:35An update now on the condition of Princess Diana
09:38Who was involved in a traffic accident in Paris this evening
09:41She is in serious condition
09:43She was driving with her companion, Dodie Al-Fayed
09:45He, according to police officials, died in the accident
09:49Along with the chauffeur
09:50Along with the chauffeur
09:51The princess's bodyguard was also injured
09:53We don't know his condition at this hour
09:54Oh, my God
09:55The accident happened as Diana's car was being pursued by a group of paparazzi on motorcycles
10:00As they enter the town
10:01I just saw her
10:02What?
10:03At Johnny's funeral, I sat right behind her
10:06She has been monitoring Paris for any new information
10:09Nina, can you hear me?
10:11Yes, I can
10:11Dodie Al-Fayed, obviously a famous man
10:14A millionaire as well
10:15Do you have any news of his condition?
10:17We have police reports and others saying
10:18That he is, in fact, a serial killer
10:19Well, all we know at this moment is that he has, in fact, been killed
10:24As well as his father's
10:26Prison side of his family has been severely injured as well as bodyguards
10:30Do we know the nature of her injury?
10:32Carolyn
10:32Carolyn
10:33We know that she has something to a hospital
10:34Carolyn
10:35Yeah?
10:36The glasses in the dishwasher, are they clean?
10:40What?
10:42The glasses in the dishwasher, are they clean?
10:45I don't know
10:45There has been no comment on that from Buckingham Palace
10:48You don't know if you ran the dishwasher or not?
10:50I, what?
10:51I don't understand how you don't know
10:52You either ran it or you didn't
10:53Why are you asking?
10:54You've been home all day
10:56Do you remember hearing the dishwasher?
10:57Yes, I did a dishwasher
10:59So they've gotten out recently
11:00The Papadopoulos of the U.S. has been trying to photograph this with Brian
11:04The famous millionaire with whom she had been in a romantic relationship
11:09For the last couple of weeks
11:10Had they been generating a fair bit of publicity while they were in Paris?
11:14Did most people know they were there?
11:16Oh, yes
11:16There has been an extraordinary amount of pathway and media
11:21What can you tell us about the area where it was actually occurred around the entrance rent to the home?
11:27It's an entrance rent to the underground tunnel that goes under the Seine River
11:31It's an area well known by tourists, so it's a very well populated area
11:37Let's go back to the Seine River wreckage
11:39There is the recognizable back end of the Mercedes sedan
11:43And there is the unrecognizable front end of what must have been a high-speed collision
11:48In the front part of the car, the two flashes of white there are the deployed airbags
11:53The remnants of the airbags
11:56Princess Diana is unmatched when it comes to generating interest
12:01Going for a run
12:04What?
12:09John!
12:10I'll be back in a bit
12:26Which reported that she joined her
12:27A 40-year-old from the Airmanian and a group of friends for a Mediterranean crew, once again, putting her
12:34personal life under scrutiny.
12:35A private holiday was filmed by the Italian paparazzi, who are now launching the photographs to the highest bidder.
12:42We will continue to cover this.
14:28We have all evening walk with the covering on board.
14:33We have heard, with the confirmation from Buckingham Palace tonight, that the world has lost Princess Diana at age 36.
14:42The official cause of death was listed as cardiac arrest following a massive trauma and head injury.
14:48She's dead.
14:48The doctors noted that these injuries were consistent with the high-speed collision.
14:54If you are now tuning in, we have been covering...
14:56They killed her.
14:57...incident of Princess Diana, who has died...
14:59She did everything right, posed for every photo, gave them everything they wanted, and they...
15:06They still killed her.
15:09Surgeons at a nearby hospital fought for two hours...
15:11It's very sad.
15:12It's monstrous.
15:16She was their princess, and they treated her like prey.
15:18...treatment, which we now know got rather frantic as they started to lose her pulse.
15:24At the scene...
15:25I gotta clean my face off.
15:27...the paparazzi photographer is allegedly pursuing the princess's car in a high-speed chase.
15:32Seven men who are arrested, and the film roles have all been confiscated.
15:36And the world is slowly learning of this news.
15:39You know, I think there's something really macabre about watching this shit,
15:43when right now, halfway across the world, someone is waking up her kids
15:46before they find out their parent is dead on TV.
15:49He and the First Lady have sent their condolences to Buckingham Palace.
15:54There are reports that the royal family, as they are at all moral, is gone.
16:01I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you.
16:19Those poor boys.
16:22At least they have each other.
16:25Like you and Caroline.
16:27Like me and Caroline?
16:29Yeah.
16:31This is nothing like what me and Caroline went through.
16:34They're princes.
16:36I'm members of a monarchy.
16:38I was three when my dad died.
16:40I grew up 60 blocks from here.
16:41I rode my bike to school.
16:43It's night and day.
16:46Okay.
16:52You're telling me it wasn't like that.
16:56What was it like?
17:00I don't want to talk about it.
17:01John.
17:03You're making assumptions and trying to tell me
17:05what my own childhood was like.
17:07And I have everyone else in the world to do that for me
17:09without having to hear it from my own wife.
17:22John.
17:25I'm just trying to understand.
17:29Does it not scare you?
17:41John.
17:44Fine.
17:47You want to know what I'm so scared of?
17:49What's going through my head?
17:51What I was thinking about the entire time during my jog?
17:54That you are never going to leave the house again.
17:57Do I see the parallels between what we deal with
18:00and what happened to her?
18:01Of course I do.
18:02But can I say that?
18:04No.
18:04It'll just be one more thing
18:05that's going to stop you from living your life.
18:11Want to know why I can't watch this?
18:15Because if I do,
18:16I'll never fucking stop.
18:18Okay?
18:34Do you want to hear about my childhood?
18:37I don't remember my dad dying.
18:39At all.
18:41But what I remember vividly is my mom
18:44being basically in a trance
18:46and the hours that Caroline and the nanny and I spent
18:49while my mom was locked away in a dark room
18:51crying, alone.
18:59And why
19:02couldn't she just play with me?
19:10It was my mother I watched die,
19:12not my dad.
19:14But I watched her die twice.
19:23And now it feels like I'm watching you slip away.
19:27You're choosing the darkness.
19:30I'm watching it happen.
19:31I feel like I'm being
19:33abandoned again.
19:35I can't lose you.
19:37You're the one person I can't lose.
19:39Do you understand that?
19:40I've lost so many people in my life.
19:42And I can't lose you.
19:44I can't.
19:45I can't lose you.
19:46I can't.
19:47I can't.
19:48I can't.
19:56I can't lose you, Carolyn.
19:57Just breathe.
20:03I'm not going anywhere.
20:09Just breathe.
20:11Just breathe.
20:27I can't lose you.
20:28I can't lose you, Carolyn.
20:28I can't lose you, Carolyn.
20:30I can't lose you, Carolyn.
20:31I can't lose you, Carolyn.
20:31I can't lose you.
20:33Now you should smile.
20:40Oh, your heart is aching.
20:47Smile, even though it's breaking.
20:53When there are clouds
20:58Way up in the sky
21:03You're gonna get by
21:08That's the time
21:11You must keep on trying
21:16Oh, you gotta smile
21:19What's the use of crying
21:25You'll find that life is still
21:33Worthwhile
21:39If you just smile
21:48Come on
21:49Now show me a little smile
22:00You're gonna hurt yourself
22:04You sure you don't want a hand?
22:05No, I'm good
22:11God, we went through so much wine
22:13Uh-huh
22:32Hey Jason, it's John
22:34My dinner's done
22:35I'm just at home
22:37Give me a call whenever
22:41Why are you calling your Floyd instructor?
22:43What are you talking about?
22:44I talk to him all the time
22:47I have to log 40 more hours
22:49Before I'm instrument rated
22:51You just crashed flying
22:53That ridiculous llama or contraption
22:54I think it's obvious
22:55You need a bit more time than that
22:56It's called a Buckeye
22:57And it's an entirely different machine
23:00Buckeyes have nothing to do with airplanes
23:04Didn't you promise Caroline
23:05You were done with flying?
23:06Since when are you so concerned
23:07With what Caroline wants?
23:14What are you doing?
23:16I want my cigarettes
23:17No, just sit, sit
23:18I'll get them for you
23:19I don't want you hobbling up the stairs
23:22They're not up the stairs
23:23They're in my room
23:40You know, if we left now
23:41We could probably catch the tail end
23:43Of that Vanity Fair party at Pravda
23:46John
23:47You're not supposed to be putting
23:48Any pressure on that ankle
23:50No parties, no stairs, no flying lessons
23:53Well, we'll take a cab
23:54I can sit when I get there
23:59Ugh, fuck
24:00I'm wiped, but
24:02If you want to go, you should go
24:04Wiped?
24:05It's not even 11
24:10Can you please stop at the candle?
24:13Wait, is this a fight right now?
24:18No, I'm fine
24:19What?
24:20What now?
24:25Fine, if you want me to sit here
24:26And beg you for it, I will
24:28Or you can just
24:29Fast forward to the part
24:30Where you tell me exactly
24:31How it is I fucked up
24:36You told me to go work for Petra
24:40When?
24:40Uh, 30 minutes ago
24:41At this dinner party
24:42You insisted on hosting
24:45Petra was complaining
24:46About how difficult it is
24:47To find anyone with work experience
24:49Willing to build something
24:50From the ground up
24:50And accept a pay cut
24:51And you started yelling at me
24:53Oh, I did not yell
24:53Yeah, John, you were literally yelling
24:55And I know that
24:56Because you were seated
24:56At the other end of the table
24:57All I said was that
24:58You had fashion experience
25:00And you didn't need money
25:01PR
25:04I have PR experience
25:06At Calvin Klein
25:08Isn't that fashion?
25:09That's fashion
25:10Petra has a jewelry line, John
25:12I'm not a jewelry designer
25:13Well, I'm sorry for insinuating
25:15That you have great taste
25:16Yet that qualifies me to buy jewelry
25:18Not make it
25:25It's humiliating
25:26Getting pitched for job after job
25:29Regardless of my interest or qualifications
25:31When have I ever done
25:32You do it all the time
25:32I mean, you practically shoved me
25:34Into Andre Leon Talley's lap
25:35At that fundraiser
25:36Oh, I did not
25:37John, yes you did
25:38You, it makes me feel like
25:40I am this dead weight
25:41That you are desperate to shed
25:42You're just, you're
25:45You're getting waxed
25:46All over the table
25:47I thought you hated this table
25:58What did you mean
25:59I insisted on hosting this dinner party?
26:01It was your idea, wasn't it?
26:03Well, I knew better than to suggest
26:04We go to a restaurant
26:05Or anywhere else
26:06Other than this apartment
26:07Are you seriously that upset
26:09That I organized a dinner party
26:10For your friends?
26:12It really bothers me
26:13When you do that
26:15Do what?
26:17Delineate between my friends
26:18And your friends
26:19We're a unit, John
26:20They're our friends
26:25Okay, Caroline
26:29Pronoun rescinded
26:30What are you doing?
26:31Sorry if my grammar offended you
26:42You seemed perfectly happy
26:44Holding court with my friends
26:46Yeah, well they were bombarding me
26:48With questions
26:52Yes
26:55And to be honest
26:56I think people are uncomfortable
27:00Asking you about what's going on
27:01In your life
27:02Because they're not sure
27:03If you want to talk about it
27:04What do you mean
27:05What's going on in my life?
27:07You know
27:08That you're still trying to figure out
27:10Your thing
27:11My thing
27:15Enough with this relentless pressure
27:17To have a thing
27:18Why do I have to have a thing?
27:20It's all I hear about
27:21From your family
27:22And your friends
27:23And the press
27:24And especially you
27:25Because it's not enough
27:26To just be a Kennedy
27:26No
27:27You know
27:28You have to work at the NRDC
27:29Or make a documentary
27:29Or write a book
27:30About constitutional law
27:32I am 33 years old
27:34I've been working since I'm 15
27:36Can't my thing just be
27:37Like taking a beat
27:38To settle into my marriage
27:39And enjoy my life
27:40Is that what you're doing
27:41All day alone in the apartment?
27:43Enjoying your life?
27:47I'm figuring it out
27:49And in the meantime
27:50I don't want to just join some board
27:51Because it would make you feel better
27:52When people ask me
27:53What I do at dinner parties
27:55I would think you of all people
27:56Should be able to understand this
27:57Me of all people?
27:58Yes, John
27:58You of all people
27:59Should know what this is like
28:01Instead you just come at me
28:03With all this unhelpful help
28:04It's become a full-time job
28:05Just batting away
28:07This constant barrage
28:09Of indiscriminate suggestions
28:10On how to fill my days
28:11And I feel guilty
28:17Because I know you think
28:18You're trying to be helpful
28:19But it doesn't
28:21It doesn't feel helpful
28:24It feels like you're judging me
28:26So what am I supposed to do
28:28When you complain about
28:29How unmoored your life feels?
28:31Just sit there
28:32And say nothing?
28:34Yes, yes
28:35Just say nothing
28:37Just
28:39Just listen
28:42That's what I need from you
28:43I just need you to sit
28:44And listen
28:45And let me feel lost
28:46Can I
28:46But can I just
28:49Feel lost?
28:51Can you please allow me
28:53The space to do that?
28:55Yes
28:56Yes, I can do that
28:58Okay
29:01You know, look
29:03I get that it's daunting
29:04To start over
29:05But just look at my mom
29:06Oh my god
29:09She was a lifelong reader
29:10Who became a book editor
29:11At the age of 46
29:1246, yeah
29:13John, I know
29:14I know
29:14All I'm saying is that
29:16She figured it out
29:16Despite public scrutiny
29:18Or the threat
29:19Of public scrutiny
29:20John, it is impossible
29:21For me to overstate
29:23Just how aware I am
29:23That your mother
29:24Was a very impressive woman
29:26Believe me, okay
29:28But do you think
29:29Your mother could have
29:30Held a 9-to-5 job
29:31In publishing
29:31When she was married
29:32To the most famous man
29:33On the planet?
29:34She did that
29:35When she was a widow
29:35Enough
29:36Enough about my mother
29:38John, you brought her up
29:39And now I'm saying
29:40To drop it
29:40Well, you certainly
29:41Mentioned my mother enough
29:41Yeah, well your mother
29:42Is still here to defend herself
29:43You know, you don't know
29:44How lucky you are
29:45That I never introduced you
29:46To my mother
29:46Because she never
29:47Would have encouraged this
29:49Us
29:59Wow
30:00I mean, it's not like
30:01I would have listened to her
30:02No, no, yeah
30:03Sure
30:08Maybe I should have
30:09Listened to mine
30:10What?
30:11My mother basically
30:12Told me I should end this
30:14When?
30:17At the wedding
30:18Oh, right
30:19This speech
30:20No, no
30:21It was earlier
30:24That afternoon
30:25What are you talking about?
30:28Carolyn
30:31Carolyn
30:32What are you talking about?
30:35Carolyn
30:36My mother came into my room
30:37The day of our rehearsal dinner
30:39And warned me not to marry you
30:42She said that you would
30:43Never prioritize me
30:44That you'd always choose your job
30:46Or your family
30:47Or yourself
30:48I do prioritize
30:49Never make space for me
30:50In your life
30:53When I pushed back on her
30:54I told her she was wrong
30:55And now
30:56Now
30:56I don't know
30:57Carolyn
30:58I do make space for you
30:59No, John
31:00John
31:00I know you think you do
31:01But you're always out
31:04You come home at 11
31:05Midnight
31:06Last night you were home
31:07At 3 a.m
31:08Yeah, we're closing
31:09The August issue
31:10And George
31:14You're always
31:15Close the magazine
31:16Or you're out getting drinks
31:18To celebrate closing the magazine
31:20Or you're chasing some writer
31:21Or investor
31:22Or you're tearing up the layout
31:23And if it's not the magazine
31:25It's a Kennedy benefit
31:26Or a fundraiser
31:27Or a Senate run
31:29So you don't support it
31:34I support you
31:38And I'd support it if I really thought it was something you believed in
31:41But everything for you comes out of this misplaced sense of obligation
31:46Like your lunch idea
31:47I specifically set aside two lunches a week
31:50So that I can spend time with you
31:51That's not the same as wanting you spend time with me
31:54It's literally the same thing
31:55No, lunch is a checkbox
31:58It's something you can tell yourself to absolve yourself of guilt
32:00What guilt?
32:01You don't want to be around me
32:05You don't want to talk to me
32:06Half the time you're sleeping in the other room
32:07I talk to you all the time
32:09Oh, John
32:10You're not interested in me
32:12You don't solicit my advice
32:14You're not fascinated by what I want to say
32:16You're not curious about me
32:18You talk to me just long enough to keep the peace
32:20Just long enough to prevent more conversation
32:25You used to be desperate to spend every single second with me
32:28And now you treat our marriage like it's this layover
32:30Between places that you really want to be
32:34And I get it
32:38I imagine it's tough seeing how unhappy you make me
32:50You know what?
32:52It is
33:00And that's all I seem to be capable of lately
33:04Is disappointing people
33:07I spend all day fighting with publishers
33:11Investors, bankers
33:11All telling me to take my magazine out back
33:13And shoot it in the head
33:15And then I come home and I fight with you
33:17About how I'm never home
33:19And then I go to bed each night
33:21Dreading the moment I get up
33:22And having to do it all over again
33:23And the worst part about it
33:25Is that I want to talk to you about all of this
33:27But you feel a million miles away
33:29You're here, but you're not here
33:33And I miss you, Carolyn
33:35I miss the person I fell in love with
33:37John, I'm right here
33:41I am the person you fell in love with
33:46But you don't want this version of me
33:47You want the cold, unattainable, shiny version
33:51The version of me that's like a trophy
33:54The moment I started being vulnerable with you
33:56You think you're vulnerable with me?
34:00To be vulnerable, you'd actually have to want something
34:02Need something
34:04The only thing you seem to want to do
34:05Is tell me again and again and again
34:07How much you hate our life
34:09I knew it, I knew it
34:09I should never have let my guard down
34:11I broke my own rule
34:12I'm so dumb
34:15I've just been bracing myself
34:17For what?
34:18Oh, I'm always bracing myself, John
34:19I have spent my entire life
34:21Just bracing myself for these terrible things to happen to me
34:24And deal with them alone
34:25And this is no different from any of that
34:29You knew who I was before you married me
34:30I wish people would stop telling me that
34:34No one knows who they're marrying
34:37Apparently not
34:44People are supposed to change, John
34:47I didn't
34:50You say that like it's a virtue
34:51Like it's somehow commendable
34:55You haven't made any space for me in your life
34:57Tell me one thing that you have changed in your life
35:00Since we've been married
35:01You live in the same loft
35:02You have the same job
35:03The same friends
35:04You spend the same weekends at Redgate
35:05Or Hyannis
35:06The same schedule
35:10Everything in my life has changed
35:12Do you understand that?
35:13That's your choice
35:16You act like every misfortune in your life is the result of some ultimatum I've given you
35:20Like you have zero agency in this relationship
35:22I didn't make you quit your job
35:25I didn't make you marry me
35:26I didn't tell you to let the tabloids ruin your life
35:29But you know what?
35:30I think there's a part of you that enjoys this shit with the press
35:32Excuse me?
35:33Yeah
35:33So you can lord it over me
35:35Punish me with it
35:36Fault me endlessly for not controlling things outside of my control
35:40You relish it
35:41It's like you have no identity outside of your own victimhood
35:44Thank you
35:46Thank you
35:46You love how hated I am
35:48Of course you do
35:49Because you're America's son
35:50And I am just another tragedy
35:51You bravely endure
36:01Well
36:03Yeah, I think I may have hit my limit
36:11What are you talking about?
36:18John, what are you talking about?
36:21Maybe I've endured
36:22Enough tragedy for one lifetime
36:34John, come back
36:37John
36:40John, what are you doing?
36:46I can't keep doing this
36:51What are you talking about?
36:53Doing what?
36:54What are you talking about?
36:56Everything and everyone I touch falls apart
36:58And now this is falling apart too
37:00And I just think that if I stay
37:01I'm going to do or say something that I regret
37:04Like what?
37:05Like what, John?
37:07I'll be at the stand hope just a day or two
37:09No, John, just say what you were going to say
37:13There is nothing you can say to me that would hurt me more than you walking out that door
37:18Do you know what it's like to see it in your eyes that I'm failing at this marriage?
37:22Like I failed as a lawyer and now I'm failing as a magazine editor?
37:26I couldn't help my mom
37:28And I can't help Anthony
37:30And I don't think I can handle another failure right now
37:32No, John
37:36When I told you everything ends
37:38You said not us
38:03This isn't ending
38:06Yes, it is
38:09You're running away
38:10I don't want to keep hurting you, Carolyn
38:13I want to be with you
38:15Then be with me
38:16I don't want to fight
38:20You have to
38:23That's what people do
38:24They fight, they stay, they fight
38:26If we keep fighting, we're going to lose each other
38:30Please don't leave me
38:32He needs it
38:42Please don't prove my mother right
38:53I'm coming back, I promise
39:03I love you
39:05I love you
39:40I love you
39:49Oh, my God.
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