- 17 hours ago
Matilda’s battle to overcome her problem continues – but a devastating event soon changes everything. Emily reveals the truth about her relationship with Brad to Sally.
Category
📺
TVTranscript
00:00at all, like me, while people are dealing with the same kind of issues, low self-esteem.
00:05You're going to get through this. I know you will. You've just got to believe in yourself.
00:10And it won't be long before you're back home and we can get back to the way things should be.
00:15Did Brad send you here to have a chat with me? No, no. He doesn't know that I'm here.
00:21In fact, he doesn't really want me to tell you this, but I feel that you have a right to
00:24know
00:24why he shut down the way he did. Oh, look, it really doesn't matter. Yeah, it does.
00:30I have leukemia. I'm dying, Sally.
00:40Brad and I have only been together for a few months when I started to lose weight.
00:44At first, I thought it was just love, you know, high on life, no time to think about food.
00:50But then I got a chest infection, which I couldn't get rid of, and they found out that I had
00:55acute myeloid
00:57leukemia. And it was already pretty well advanced. I couldn't believe it. I've always been so healthy.
01:05Yeah, well, it was the same with Flynn. I'm just so sorry, Emily. Are you having treatment?
01:15Well, I'm too far gone for that. So I decided to spare myself the extra pain.
01:23Brad must be a very strong man. Have this happen when we've only been together for a year, or...
01:30It's a great test, isn't it? Not one I'd recommend, but it'll sort out the men from the boys, that's
01:36for sure.
01:38I just can't believe how strong you both are. I mean, when I saw you yesterday,
01:43after your wedding, you just looked so normal. I mean, you were just so in love.
01:50Well, we are. We don't have to fake it.
01:55We were already engaged when I got the news. I gave Brad the option of backing out,
02:00but he said that he wanted to marry me now more than ever. So that's what yesterday was. It's my
02:06gift to Brad.
02:10Anyway, I just... I wanted you to understand why he's being the way he is. He's trying to be so
02:16strong
02:16through all of this, but meeting you, knowing what you must have been through, it's everything that
02:19he's going to have to face in the future. Right now, that's just too scary for him to contemplate.
02:24So he pushed you away. Not the most rational reaction.
02:30It's totally understandable. I just feel so bad for making it all the more hard for him.
02:36Well, you learned to know. And you can't help the fact that you lost your husband.
02:43So don't be sorry. Just try to be patient with him. That's all I ask.
02:50He's still convinced that we shouldn't tell anyone that I'm sick. He's trying to handle it all on his own.
02:58What he really needs is people. He needs someone to be his support.
03:05Not that he'll ever admit that, mind you. He's too busy trying to convince everyone that he's unbreakable.
03:19When did you get to so early?
03:22You shouldn't be overdoing it, Em. If you wanted something from downstairs, I would eat on down for you.
03:28I wasn't at the diner. I had to tell her, Brad. It's for the best. You're the strongest man I
03:37know,
03:37and you've been amazing through all of this, but we have to start letting people in.
03:40Why? We've been doing so good up until now. It's only going to get harder. I can't avoid that.
03:47As much as we try to tell ourselves that we can handle it.
03:50You mean as much as I try and tell myself?
03:53Well, yes. If you're going to make a competition out of it, shutting down is more your thing than mine.
03:59I think Sally could be a really good support for you.
04:02Look, Em, if you want to tell people, that's your call, okay? But you have to do it for you.
04:07All I need is to spill my guts to the world. I'm not ready for that yet.
04:09Aren't you ready to shut people out? It's not healthy.
04:15I really like Sally, Brad. And I know that you do too, so I don't let fear stop you from
04:20letting her in.
04:23I want you to have good friends, and I need to know that you will for my own peace of
04:27mind.
04:30How am I meant to argue with that?
04:33I'm not.
04:46Worst mullet you've ever seen? No wonder he ended up here.
04:51If that isn't a cry for help, I don't know what is.
04:55That was a joke. You meant to laugh.
04:57If you want anything close to conversation, you're going to have to give me that.
05:02Didn't you sleep?
05:04I was stressing about the group therapy session we've got today.
05:07Suddenly it all becomes clear.
05:09I just, I just sit there. I can't think of anything to say.
05:14They've been letting me get away with it because I'm new, but that's not going to last forever, is it?
05:17Yeah, that's definitely how it goes. A couple of days to settle in, then you're in the hot seat.
05:22It's hard enough talking about it with one counsellor, but a whole room of people.
05:27And do I seriously need the whole world hearing about my problems?
05:30You should have been born American. Then we'd have no problem spilling our guts.
05:34We'd be on some talk show throwing punches at our stepmothers.
05:37At least it's good to know you hate it as much as I do.
05:39Hey, is this a private love fest or can anyone join in?
05:43Hi. You have way too much energy for this time of the morning.
05:46Well, how can you not be in a good mood when tonight is come as your favourite tragic pop star
05:49night?
05:50It is? Since when?
05:51Since I just made it up.
05:53What do you reckon? Come to dinner on a costume. It'll be hysterical.
05:57Yeah, about as hysterical as group therapy.
05:59Well, come on. Getting in touch with your inner white trash is therapy in itself.
06:03Funny you say that like you do it all the time.
06:05Freaky. It's like she knows you already.
06:11Come on, it's time to go.
06:15Don't worry about group, okay? It'll be cool.
06:21Anyway, that's my goal for this week.
06:23I know I have to call my parents and try not to go off at them.
06:26They are who they are. And that's all I guess.
06:31Thanks, Skye. I look forward to hearing about that call.
06:37Okay. So who wants to go next?
06:42I will. I've been thinking a lot about what's happened to me in my life.
06:47I've always been so bitter and twisted. Like, you know, why did it have to happen to me?
06:53Why did my mum have to die? Why did my stepdad take off the way he did?
06:58All my friends. They had it so easy.
07:01And here I was. Trying to support myself and my little sister just so we didn't starve.
07:08Anyway, so now I'm trying to see it all as a positive.
07:11Like, yeah, it's been tough. But I know I'm going to be a much stronger person because of it.
07:17It's been tough. You have to make a positive out of the negative.
07:20Be grateful for what you have. And stop worrying so much about what you don't.
07:26That's what I'm trying to work on at the moment, I guess.
07:30Yeah, all right. Thank you, Vanessa.
07:32Vanessa? So who's next?
07:41Matilda? You haven't shared anything with the group?
07:49Yeah, um, I'm not really sure what's going on with me right now.
07:53Well, you can start anywhere you like. Say, for example, you can tell us what's going on at home.
07:59How you feel about it?
08:03I don't know. Um, I feel confused, I guess.
08:09Confused about what?
08:12Oh, just, you know, stuff.
08:20I completely went to pieces when I found out about the leukaemia.
08:24First, it was like I was paralyzed, then I was angry, and then I just wanted to give up.
08:30I just thought, what's the point, you know?
08:34But through that whole time, Brad was just amazing.
08:37He was my rock. He really pulled me through.
08:42I'm beginning to wonder if maybe we haven't changed places.
08:46I've come to terms with it as much as he can, and Brad, you know, he tries to be so
08:51strong,
08:52but now I can see that he's just blocking out the pain. He's not dealing with it.
08:56Well, that doesn't sound like my brother at all.
09:00He wanted to go traveling, take all our savings and see the world.
09:05But all that stuff doesn't matter to me.
09:08Not anymore. What if I died when we were overseas?
09:12Brad would be all alone, no job, no family, nothing to ground him.
09:16He's gonna need that.
09:19Making sure that he's okay, that's more important to me than getting my photo taken in front of the Taj
09:24Mahal.
09:27Well, hey, if it's any consolation, I hear India is totally overrated anyway.
09:31No. Liar.
09:36You know, people ask me if I'm scared, and I am.
09:39But not for myself. It's Brad that I'm worried about.
09:44I'm just so scared that when it happens, when I'm gone, he's just not going to be able to cope
09:51at all.
10:01It's rough when the principal has to do that for himself.
10:04Look, if this is about the department and their budget cuts, we'll talk about it later, okay?
10:09Did Emily tell you that she came to see me?
10:14This is not a good time.
10:16No, I'm not going to push it. I just want you to know that I'm here if you need somebody
10:21to talk to.
10:22I know that it's hard, and I know that you can feel so isolated. I know exactly what you're going
10:28through.
10:28No, you don't.
10:30You don't know anything about it. You don't know me. You don't know anything about me.
10:34So why don't you just stay out of it, yeah?
10:51Hey.
10:56Okay, so that's either a letter from a guy, or you've got the answers to the HSC chemistry exam.
11:02Sorry, um, it's from Lucas, my ex-boyfriend.
11:06He, um, he lives in the same house as me because, uh, his dad is my mum's boyfriend.
11:12Sounds complicated. That must suck.
11:15It does when we're fighting.
11:17When I first met him, I thought he was the one. He was perfect in every way.
11:22So what happened?
11:24A lot. And that's the problem. I'm not sure that we can get things back to how they were.
11:30Do you want to?
11:33I thought I did. Last week, I was really looking forward to seeing him again, but
11:39now I'm not so sure. Maybe too much has happened.
11:42You know, it really all boils down to this. Only one or two things can happen.
11:47It'll either work out, or it won't.
11:50You make it sound so simple.
11:52It's good in theory, isn't it?
11:54So you guys can talk to each other, but not in group?
11:57If anyone could get a word in with you around Big Mouth.
11:59We're there to talk. That's the whole point.
12:02If you guys keep this up, Mel's going to give you the lecture.
12:05If you're not committed to being here, you're wasting your own time.
12:11It's not that hard. Just say anything. Like why no one understands who you are.
12:16So pick a cliche and go with it in other words.
12:18It'll get them off your back at least.
12:20But what's the point? How's talking in a huge group going to help?
12:23Some problems go a bit deeper than that.
12:26Exactly.
12:28You guys really are taking this angsty teen thing way too far.
12:32There's only one thing for you. Follow me.
12:35Should we be worried?
12:36If you guys hate expressing yourself in groups so much,
12:38I've got a way to make it easier. Come on.
12:52Okay, this is it. It's perfect.
12:53Perfect for what exactly?
12:54This.
13:00Okay, that was kind of weird.
13:02Are you all right? Well, if you don't want to talk, it's time to scream.
13:06I suppose I should have expected a bit of psychosis in a place like this.
13:08I'm serious, you guys. Come on. You've got to try it.
13:14It's so liberating. You've got to try it. Come on.
13:17Uh, no. I don't think so.
13:19What? Well, just pretend you're in a Freddy Krueger movie or something.
13:23Okay. But if you guys saw anyone, I did this.
13:30What did I tell you?
13:32I hate to admit it, but I think she's onto something.
13:34That was fantastic.
13:35Come on, Matty.
13:36Come on. You can do it.
13:37Nah. Come on.
13:38I'd feel like an idiot.
13:39What? It's okay for us, but not for you. Come on.
13:41We already know you're an idiot anyway. Come on. You've got nothing to lose.
13:43Come on, Matty. You can do it.
13:51Oh, dear.
13:58Keep it down, big mouth. Emily's sleeping.
14:02Can I, um, can I get you in here?
14:04No, no, um, actually, I'm here, um, I'm here because I'm worried about you.
14:12Oh, here we go. I'm not the only one who is.
14:15Which is exactly why I didn't want anyone to know about him.
14:18You know, now I feel like there's a whole group of women watching me,
14:20analysing every little thing I do.
14:22Me, Sally and your wife, who care about you very much.
14:26You make it sound like it's sport. It's not. We just want to make sure you're all right.
14:30I appreciate that. I do. But I need to deal with this in my own way.
14:34Look, there's so little time left, I don't want it to be about me, about my issues.
14:38We can concentrate on that after. Look, I just married the girl of my dreams.
14:43And I want to enjoy being with her and pretend that the rest of it doesn't count.
14:46Is that really too much to ask?
14:48Well, it is if you're being eaten up inside. How is it going to help Emily if you self-destruct?
14:54Look, I won't. And if I do, if I do need help, I'll ask for it, okay? I promise.
14:59But in the meantime, I should just mind my own business.
15:02There is so much else we're not going to get to do.
15:05I just want to make sure that the time I have left with Emily is the best that it can
15:09be.
15:15Compared to us, Vanessa's totally got her act together. I don't even know why she needs to be here.
15:20Yeah, I know she's got her problems, but she can handle it all so well.
15:23I wish I was so lucky. Do you think the screaming helped?
15:27It was fun, but I don't know if it was a magic cure.
15:30Mm, me neither.
15:31Are you calling me alone?
15:32Oh, drama.
15:33Vanessa, just calm down!
15:34You think you know me, but you don't! I'm not the person you think I am!
15:41Come on, are you okay?
15:42What the hell are you doing?
15:44Shh! Leave me alone, all of you!
15:56Are you sure you're okay?
15:58I'll survive. It's just a fat lip, nothing broken.
16:01What was Vanessa so upset about? What were you guys fighting over?
16:05Look, it's not for me to say. It's Vanessa's business.
16:07We're not here to gossip. She's our friend.
16:09Did something happen to Vanessa's little sister?
16:11Yeah, she was going on before about her stepdad coming back and trying to hurt her.
16:14Look, I'm sorry guys, but I really can't discuss this with you.
16:22You know something, don't you?
16:24Vanessa doesn't have a stepdad.
16:26Yes, she does. She was saying before about how-
16:28No, it's a story. She made it up.
16:30Her mum's alive and so's her dad.
16:33But why would she say all that other stuff?
16:35Vanessa has real problems. Like, sometimes she gets violent.
16:39She's here because she attacked her little sister and her parents no longer felt safer.
16:43They're in the house. That's the real story.
17:01I'm sorry for snapping at you. I know it's no excuse, but things have been pretty full on the
17:07last couple of days.
17:07There's no need for you to apologise. I should be the one doing that. I've turned into the kind of
17:12person I hate.
17:13I know how you feel. It's just, it's a really dumb thing to say.
17:18It's not dumb.
17:19Okay then. Badly timed.
17:21I know you're only trying to help.
17:23Yeah, and that's, that's all it is. I mean, if there's anything that I can do at all...
17:28Well, there is something that you can do for Emily.
17:31Look, I know you're convinced that I'm the one that needs help, but honestly,
17:34I'm big enough and ugly enough to look after myself.
17:37She doesn't know anyone here and she likes you.
17:40So, you could really help us out by being a friend to her. It would mean a lot.
17:45You don't even have to ask. I mean, after this morning, I already think of her as my friend.
17:50Just in the same way I think about you.
17:53Thanks, Sally.
18:12Beautiful. How was your day?
18:15Oh, I've had better days.
18:18But all I have to do is remember that I'm hitched to you and that makes me smile again.
18:25How was work?
18:27All I could think about was coming home to you.
18:30Good answer.
18:33You know, this is meant to be our honeymoon.
18:36Who needs Tahiti when he got Summer Bay, right?
18:40This is one of those moments I feel like it could last forever.
18:44It will.
18:46It's perfect.
18:50It's absolutely perfect.
19:02Vanessa was my big hope.
19:06I thought if anyone's got it together, she has.
19:09I hope she's okay.
19:12Do you think she'll be back tonight?
19:14I don't think she'll be alive back.
19:20Something's going on.
19:23What happened?
19:25Mel, what's going on?
19:26You should go back to bed.
19:27Who's in the ambulance?
19:30Vanessa.
19:31Is she okay?
19:32What happened to her?
19:34There was an accident.
19:35What sort of an accident?
19:36Look, I don't know what happened to her.
19:38I found her in the toilets.
19:42It's going to be okay.
19:43I think we got to her in time.
19:54This?
19:56My brother actually acknowledged that he might need some support.
19:59Well, not exactly.
20:01You said that it was Emily that needed the support, not him.
20:03Well, I guess it's a step forward.
20:05He's not trying to do it all himself.
20:08Yeah, men and women, they just deal with things so differently.
20:12I guess you've got all this pressure on them to be strong and not to show any weakness.
20:18That must be hard for Brad to deal with on top of everything else.
20:21Yeah, well, that's exactly why I'm worried about him.
20:24I mean, he can't keep this bottled up forever.
20:40Well...
21:00But he said,
21:03let me put him on it.
21:08It's an attack of the green-eyed monster