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00:00:07The snow is snowing, the wind is blowing, but I can't weather the storm, what do I care
00:00:23how much it may storm, I've got my love to keep me warm, I can't remember a worse December,
00:00:42just watch those icicles fall, what do I care if icicles fall, I've got my love to keep
00:00:59me warm, off with my overcoat, off with the flow, I need no overcoat, I'm burning with love,
00:01:15my heart's on fire, the flame grows higher, so I will weather the storm, what do I care
00:01:30how much it may storm, I've got my love to keep me warm, I've got my love to keep me
00:01:59warm,
00:02:04I just a fit bit know you're walking, because your arms are moving, say they weren't, well it's
00:02:12on your arm, who walks without moving their arm, a doll, someone needs a stroke, and I know
00:02:18what you're going to say, so both arms, a stroke, both arms, yes, put it on your ankle, you think
00:02:26that, but it's not in the instructions, is it? When are you going to take the decorations down?
00:02:33When are you going to take them down? It's your job, I put them up, you take them down. You
00:02:36put them
00:02:36up, I take them down, just that baby's a ladna could be the title of a song, you put them
00:02:41up,
00:02:42I take them down, baby. You should write it. I will. You going to get in the shower first? Nope,
00:02:51I'm going to have a beer. Oh, well that defeats the whole purpose of walking. No, it doesn't.
00:02:56How does it not? You're out walking to get a bit fitter, lose a bit of weight, how does the
00:03:00beer
00:03:01add to that? The walking allows me to have the beer. Oh, right. Plus, and this is more to the
00:03:06point,
00:03:07I'm a grown man, and if I want to sit in my own house and have a beer after putting
00:03:10a lot of effort
00:03:11into a good strenuous walk, that is what I shall do.
00:03:51Tom, can you come up here? Yes, sweetness. Feel my left breast? Just the one. This is a new approach.
00:04:01Feel it. Yeah. Yeah. Do you feel anything? A lump? Feel something. A lump?
00:04:11A lump. A lump? It's a lump. Could be anything. Well, it can't be anything. It's just,
00:04:19it can only be one of a few things. What do I mean? This could be nothing. Well.
00:04:23Go to the doctors in the morning. Yeah. It'll be fine. Lumps, bumps, beans, eggs. You're
00:04:30of an age, kid. I can go now. Done enough, Grubbin? Yes, of course.
00:04:38Done enough. Magic touch.
00:04:40Good.
00:04:52You're the universe.
00:04:52Do you want to do this?
00:04:53Let's do it.
00:04:55It's a hell of a sudden.
00:04:56Oh, I want to do it.
00:04:56So, you guys.
00:04:56What are you doing?
00:05:02I want to shoot yourillas.
00:05:02I want to do it.
00:05:04I want to do it.
00:06:05I think the shape of it is quite distinct.
00:06:08That was suggesting you that it's a cyst.
00:06:10You had a mammogram a while ago, didn't you?
00:06:11Yes, about eight months ago.
00:06:14I think to be on the safe side, we'll arrange an appointment for you at the hospital.
00:06:18Okay.
00:06:18This is just precautionary.
00:06:19I think it's a cyst.
00:06:20All right.
00:06:22How's Tom?
00:06:24Oh, it's the same.
00:06:27It's Tom all the time.
00:06:35Do you notice anything different about the soup?
00:06:38There is.
00:06:40What is it?
00:06:42You tell me.
00:06:43Is this a quiz?
00:06:44Do I get it right?
00:06:45Do I get another bowl of soup?
00:06:46For once in your life, can you be bloody normal?
00:06:48I am normal.
00:06:49Very normal.
00:06:51Let's see if I get this.
00:06:52I want you to get it right.
00:06:53That means what I did worked.
00:06:55I'm going to get it wrong on purpose now.
00:06:56Just say it.
00:06:57Eat it.
00:07:04Worcester sauce.
00:07:05Correct.
00:07:06I'm good, baby.
00:07:07I'm good.
00:07:10Your mind's getting later and later.
00:07:12What would happen if you were waiting on something?
00:07:13I was waiting on something.
00:07:16All right.
00:07:30Hospital appointment.
00:07:32When?
00:07:35Hmm.
00:07:38Next week?
00:07:40Could we have sooner the better?
00:07:44Yeah.
00:07:44No, no, I know.
00:07:45It's good.
00:07:47It's good.
00:08:26I don't know what the situation is here.
00:08:28Do I go in with you?
00:08:30Do I wait?
00:08:31What?
00:08:32It's a mammogram.
00:08:33I know.
00:08:34Well, they won't allow you into that.
00:08:36I know.
00:08:38After.
00:08:39Oh, I don't know.
00:08:41If you have to wait, you can drink a cup of tea.
00:08:44Come on, have tea.
00:08:46You know what I mean.
00:08:50It'll be all right.
00:08:51I know.
00:08:55He'd charge you for parking.
00:08:57Even if you're a patient?
00:08:59I think so.
00:09:00I don't know.
00:09:02Everything's money.
00:09:03I know.
00:09:05I don't know.
00:09:18I don't know.
00:09:21I don't know.
00:09:23Bye.
00:09:24Hi.
00:09:25Bye.
00:09:27Bye.
00:09:30Bye.
00:11:32One, two, three.
00:11:36I'm done with you in the area, now.
00:11:40And that's coming.
00:11:42One, two, three.
00:11:44Oh!
00:11:52I thought you said you were going off tea.
00:11:55Yeah.
00:11:55Just thinking about it.
00:11:57No definite decision has been taken as yet.
00:12:02I think we should both stop.
00:12:06Cut that caffeine all together.
00:12:07Why?
00:12:09Why you?
00:12:11Yeah.
00:12:12I just said you're going to be a bit sick.
00:12:15Yeah.
00:12:15I was thinking healthier.
00:12:17That would be just one more thing for you.
00:12:18For me to what?
00:12:19Hmm.
00:12:21For you to hit me with a stick about it.
00:12:24very good
00:12:26should hit you with something
00:12:36there's a lot of waiting on hospitals
00:12:40don't like it
00:12:43don't like all the sick people either
00:12:45that could not be a good thing
00:12:46hitting all the sick people together
00:12:48is that going to make anybody better
00:12:52depressing
00:12:53don't think I could do it
00:12:55if you had to do it you'd have to do it
00:12:59hospitals remind me of death
00:13:01lovely
00:13:01you know what I mean
00:13:05so if I have to come in
00:13:06you won't come and visit me
00:13:07they're not going to bring you in just for assist
00:13:11oh I know as it felt serious
00:13:14it's just because
00:13:14of all the other sick people around you
00:13:18you see
00:13:19the nonsense you talk
00:13:21how do you get through life
00:13:23all right
00:13:24you're still here with me
00:13:25I'm just doing that out of spite
00:13:27right back out you kid
00:13:29I realise it's been a very long day for both of you
00:13:32and we would have liked to have been able to give you a firm answer
00:13:34but we can't tell yet what we're dealing with
00:13:37what are all the tests about that
00:13:39Tom
00:13:39yeah I know
00:13:40I realise it's very frustrating
00:13:42we've found some cells that are concerning
00:13:44on a scale of one to five
00:13:46one being that it isn't cancerous
00:13:48and five being that it is
00:13:49at the moment we're sitting at three
00:14:01do you want to go out for something to eat tonight
00:14:03a tie or something
00:14:06um
00:14:08I've already taken the chops out for dinner
00:14:11I just thought
00:14:13I know
00:14:14I'm alright
00:14:17I know
00:14:18maybe it wasn't
00:14:22fix the deal
00:14:25no I want to cut the chops
00:14:26my dies
00:14:27if it's put it wrong
00:14:34so
00:14:34I don't
00:14:42it's not
00:14:44I don't
00:14:44it
00:14:44no
00:14:45I don't
00:14:46I אבל
00:14:49you
00:14:50you
00:14:50you
00:14:50you
00:14:51you
00:14:52you
00:14:55I
00:14:56you
00:15:18She doesn't know.
00:15:20Oh.
00:15:20You'd think that would be the type of thing to it now, wouldn't you?
00:15:23Did you tell her you spoke so now?
00:15:25Oh, yes.
00:15:27Well, we need tomato juice.
00:15:29Uh, it's the next time.
00:15:31I know that.
00:15:32We're just saying we need it.
00:15:34You drink too much tomato juice.
00:15:36That's stuff made from concentrates.
00:15:38It's full of sugar.
00:15:39You used to have the stuff that isn't concentrated, but they don't have it anymore.
00:15:44I like tomato juice.
00:15:47Why don't you just eat more tomatoes?
00:15:50What's wrong with you?
00:15:51Eat more tomatoes.
00:15:53I'm just saying.
00:15:55We should buy a juicer, then you could make your own tomato juice.
00:15:58What's the chances of that happening?
00:16:00It would just sit there beside a bowl of rotten tomatoes and a carton of tomato juice.
00:16:06Well, it wouldn't if you'd use it.
00:16:09Why don't I get this right here?
00:16:11We're having some type of an argument about the frequency of me using a juicer, we don't know it.
00:16:17No, I'm just saying if you had it, then you should use it.
00:16:21Aye, very good.
00:16:26What's going to happen if I've got cancer?
00:16:31You don't know that either.
00:16:33If?
00:16:35She said on a scale of one to five, it's three.
00:16:40I don't think she would have said that if it was going to be five.
00:16:43Three is closer to five than it is to one.
00:16:46No, it isn't.
00:16:47Well, no, it isn't.
00:16:48But in your head, it is.
00:16:50In your head, three is closer to five than it is to one.
00:16:52I don't know why, but you know what I mean.
00:16:54It is.
00:16:54It isn't.
00:16:59What's going to happen if I've got cancer?
00:17:04There's no point in saying it like that now.
00:17:06You don't know.
00:17:07You can't do anything until you know it.
00:17:09I know.
00:17:10I know I've got it.
00:17:12So you're a doctor now?
00:17:14You don't have to be a doctor to know things like that.
00:17:16Yes, you do.
00:17:18I know that three is closer to five, and I know I've got breast cancer.
00:17:23Okay.
00:17:23Well, what are you going to do now?
00:17:27I don't know.
00:17:29Correct.
00:17:30Because you can't do anything because you don't know.
00:17:33Well, that's not an answer.
00:17:38John.
00:17:42If you have breast cancer, which I don't think you do,
00:17:46if you have breast cancer,
00:17:49we will do whatever has to be done.
00:17:51They're tearless.
00:17:53That's what's going to happen.
00:18:06I'll take up to this toilet.
00:18:08It won't be long.
00:18:09I might be cold.
00:18:10It'll be as long as it takes.
00:18:32Mrs. June Thompson.
00:18:42Joan.
00:18:44Yes?
00:18:46Sorry, I'm just waiting on my husband.
00:18:48Is it the toilet?
00:18:49Of course.
00:18:51Yes.
00:18:56There.
00:18:59We've been able to look at your biopsy results,
00:19:01and I'm afraid it's not the news we were hoping for.
00:19:04It does show that there is cancer.
00:19:10We'll talk today about the road ahead.
00:19:12I think we should start chemotherapy in the next weeks.
00:19:15This would mean a first surgery to remove the lump and any lymph glands involved,
00:19:20followed by chemo.
00:19:22To reduce the risk of recurrence in your situation,
00:19:24we'll discuss a further surgery to remove both breasts.
00:19:28And, of course, your options for reconstruction.
00:19:30action.
00:20:19John, John, come on kid, no point in line there, come on, let's get you up to bed.
00:20:26All right, good man.
00:20:29All right, one, two, three, hip.
00:20:33Oh.
00:20:34That's all right.
00:21:12That's all right.
00:21:27This is gonna sound strange.
00:21:30I'm sure it won't.
00:21:35I'm glad our Debbie isn't here to go through this.
00:21:41I mean, I miss her every day, but this would break her heart.
00:21:53Look at me.
00:21:57Don't.
00:22:00John, look at me.
00:22:07Don't make me cry.
00:22:09There isn't a moment.
00:22:10I won't be there with you.
00:22:13I know.
00:22:16I'm gonna torture you.
00:22:17You know, man, don't you?
00:22:19Torture me now.
00:22:21Kid, you know what to expect, man?
00:22:26I'm frightened.
00:22:28I know, kid.
00:22:29I know.
00:22:32Every moment.
00:22:36Well, eat your toast before I get to school.
00:22:38I know, for you.
00:22:40Yeah.
00:23:07Can I wait back to school?
00:23:16I should have left earlier.
00:23:17It's an operation. You can't be late.
00:23:19You won't be late.
00:23:22It's only a fish.
00:23:23You still have to feed it.
00:23:27Flush it.
00:23:28Flush it, you.
00:23:30It's very good.
00:23:35How long does it take?
00:23:37How long does what take?
00:23:38The operation.
00:23:39Oh, I don't know.
00:23:41Hours.
00:23:44You've got plenty of time to go to the grave.
00:23:46I want to be there when you get out.
00:23:47No, Tom, it's her birthday.
00:23:49We always go to the grave on her birthday.
00:23:51You'll have time.
00:23:58Tell her I'm sorry I'm not there, but don't tell her why.
00:24:02John.
00:24:02No, that's the way I have to think about it.
00:24:04Am I not allowed to do that?
00:24:11If I was there, I'd say it.
00:24:13But I'm not there, so you can say it.
00:24:15If you were there, you wouldn't have to say you weren't there.
00:24:18Tom, everything isn't a joke.
00:24:19John, she's dead.
00:24:20I know.
00:24:21How could I not know that?
00:24:28Just do it, Tom.
00:24:29Please, just do it.
00:24:30Sorry.
00:24:33Of course I will.
00:24:35Sorry.
00:24:37Sorry.
00:24:37I'm sorry.
00:24:38I'm sorry.
00:24:39I'm sorry.
00:24:40I'm sorry.
00:24:40I'm sorry.
00:24:49I'm sorry.
00:24:58I'll be back here ready for you.
00:25:01I know.
00:25:06All right, kid?
00:25:08See you soon.
00:25:09Yeah.
00:25:12Come on.
00:25:20Come on.
00:25:23I'm sorry.
00:25:45happy birthday love
00:25:48your mother says she's sorry she can't be here
00:25:55look debbie this is this this is crazy this
00:26:00this isn't how i see you you're not here
00:26:04all i'm doing here is talking to that bit of stone
00:26:12your mother has breast cancer
00:26:16she told me not to tell you that and i can understand why she
00:26:21she doesn't want you to worry but then i imagine if you're looking down and she heard that conversation
00:26:27so it's just helping her get through it that's all
00:26:34protecting you makes her stronger
00:26:38she found out about a month ago
00:26:40he's having an operation today at their new thalums
00:26:43still no more after that how serious the situation is
00:26:46i'm serious now i mean cancer's cancer
00:26:57just
00:26:58i just can't tell her how frightened i am
00:27:07just i've got to continue on as normal
00:27:11i'm sure that's my job and all this
00:27:15that's what i can do
00:27:22i couldn't let the both of you go on
00:27:26i'd just be
00:27:29adrift
00:27:33what do you say to someone don't die
00:27:51everything okay with this right yes fine thank you
00:27:58everything is wrong on the schedule so you should all be brought down in order
00:28:06i think they'd know which one they were going to work on without having to put a mark on it
00:28:14i'm starving
00:28:15so am i
00:28:16me too
00:28:17they should be able to give you a tablet that makes you feel not starving
00:28:21or a vodka
00:28:24here we go
00:28:25more stitches somewhere
00:28:29good luck
00:28:30good luck
00:28:32shouldn't be long now
00:28:41have you had chemo before
00:28:43twice
00:28:46what's it like
00:28:47second one wasn't so bad
00:28:50first one was rough
00:28:53it doesn't last
00:28:54and you get through it
00:28:56sometimes i feel like you won't but you do
00:29:00take every tablet they give you and more
00:29:02and always remember when you're at your worst
00:29:06what you're going through is better than the alternative
00:29:14good luck
00:29:15good luck
00:29:16good luck
00:29:18good luck
00:29:18good luck
00:34:41Did he kill a goldfish by ever feeding him?
00:34:45I don't know.
00:34:48I only started working here.
00:34:50I only know about rabbits.
00:34:53Are they old?
00:34:55No.
00:34:58I don't want the wife to know the one we had died.
00:35:03Was she fond of it?
00:35:06No.
00:35:07She hated it.
00:35:11She had to go with her, she was gone.
00:35:24They were too old.
00:35:25Fine.
00:35:26Fine.
00:35:26Come away.
00:35:27Let's do it.
00:35:29Stop.
00:35:33To watch my videos.
00:36:48And what?
00:36:50You got everything means you got everything.
00:36:53No, they did a bone scan to see if the cancer had spread to my bones and that was clear.
00:36:58Correct, but now you have to get an upper body scan.
00:37:01Yes, because she wants to check my liver and my lungs.
00:37:04Why didn't she check your lungs when she was removing the lungs?
00:37:06I don't know, Tom.
00:37:08She can't just put her hand in and move things out of the way and take a peek.
00:37:11How do you know they don't do that?
00:37:11Oh, dear.
00:37:12Yeah?
00:37:12Are you a doctor now?
00:37:13I'm still talking stupid.
00:37:15Get cancer and end up knowing everything about medicine.
00:37:17All I know is there's something they're not telling us.
00:37:20There's nothing they're not telling us.
00:37:21Why are you doing this?
00:37:22Up to the damn hospital again and again and again.
00:37:25Yes, but you don't have to come with me all the time.
00:37:28Oh, and what would you do up there in your arm?
00:37:29I do what I always do.
00:37:30I sit and wait and then I get poked and prodded at.
00:37:32And what if something happens and I'm not there?
00:37:35No.
00:37:40Drive the car.
00:37:41I just drive the car, that's me.
00:37:44Just drive the car.
00:37:50One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen,
00:38:15fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty
00:38:35-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty
00:38:37-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty
00:38:37-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty
00:38:37-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty
00:38:38-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one, twenty-one
00:38:45Not good, but why?
00:38:48Because if it was good news, she'd be right back.
00:38:52So you think it's bad news and she doesn't want to tell you,
00:38:54and she's waiting out there or something?
00:38:56That's what I think.
00:38:57Oh, I think it's good news. So she's in no rush?
00:39:01No, if it was good news, you'd be in a rush. That's the whole point.
00:39:04You'd want to be telling the person.
00:39:06It'd be cruel if you had good news to wait to tell someone.
00:39:09It'd be kind if you had bad news to wait to tell them.
00:39:12She went away too long. It's bad news.
00:39:14Sorry, that took longer than I thought.
00:39:17It's called away to another patient.
00:39:23Well, good news. The scan is all clear.
00:39:31So what does that mean?
00:39:33It means we've removed the lump and the lymph nodes,
00:39:37and the cancer hasn't spread anywhere else.
00:39:39So it's gone?
00:39:40As far as we're concerned, yes.
00:39:43And the next thing is to refer you to an oncologist
00:39:46to discuss chemotherapy and other therapies.
00:39:49Why chemo? You just said it was gone.
00:39:52There still might be tiny cancerous cells
00:39:55that we can't detect through scanning.
00:39:57So, when you said the cancer is gone, that may not be true.
00:40:02Tom, Tom.
00:40:02I just want to get everything clear.
00:40:04That's all you should.
00:40:06The cancer that was there has been removed,
00:40:08and it hasn't spread any further.
00:40:10And Joan is now ready for chemotherapy.
00:40:14Thank you, Doctor. That's very clear. Thank you.
00:40:23From now on, when we're at the hospital, I don't want you talking.
00:40:27If I didn't talk, we wouldn't know anything.
00:40:30We already knew. We'd already been told.
00:40:34It's just you being you.
00:40:35Cancer free, she said.
00:40:37Yes, I knew what she meant.
00:40:41In situations like this, you have to be exact.
00:40:44Oh, I'm sorry, Tom.
00:40:45Are we in a hospital or are we in a courtroom?
00:40:48It's not black and white. The world's grey.
00:40:51It's nothing to do with black and white.
00:40:54Cancer free is different from not cancer free.
00:40:58Are you cancer free?
00:41:00Very good.
00:41:02As far as we know, I knew what she meant.
00:41:07Now I know more talk from you.
00:41:09It's to do with me anyway. I'll ask.
00:41:11It's to do with you. You'll ask.
00:41:13Yes. That was embarrassing.
00:41:16Embarrassing?
00:41:16Yes.
00:41:41Yes.
00:41:57You see that man in blue shirt over there?
00:42:00Yeah.
00:42:01I think he was our baby's teacher in primary school.
00:42:04Ah, right enough.
00:42:08Yes. Arrogant.
00:42:10I'm going to talk to him.
00:42:11What for?
00:42:13What for?
00:42:14There's something the matter with you.
00:42:16Just to talk to him.
00:42:17Tell him who I am, that I recognised him.
00:42:19He looks alone.
00:42:25Sorry.
00:42:27I just saw you sitting here.
00:42:29I think I know you.
00:42:31Did you used to teach my daughter Debbie Thompson in primary school?
00:42:35I did.
00:42:38I was very sad to hear what happened to Debbie.
00:42:42It's Jim.
00:42:44Peter.
00:42:45Debbie was a delightful child. Pleasure to teach.
00:42:49You still teach?
00:42:51Not at the moment.
00:42:53Please sit down.
00:42:57Are you on your own?
00:42:59Well, my partner Steve is downstairs in the cafe.
00:43:02It's very emotional.
00:43:04Yeah.
00:43:05It's difficult for him.
00:43:06I see that in my husband.
00:43:08All right.
00:43:10All right.
00:43:10So, you have the buzzer?
00:43:12Yes.
00:43:13Ah.
00:43:13Yeah.
00:43:15Right.
00:43:15Is this your first time here?
00:43:17No.
00:43:18Second.
00:43:19How's your treatment going?
00:43:21Eh.
00:43:22I'm terrible.
00:43:23I'm terrible.
00:43:25Oh, I'm sorry.
00:43:27Yeah.
00:43:27They say if I take the chemo, we'll have a while longer.
00:43:31What are you here for?
00:43:33I have breast cancer.
00:43:35Mm.
00:43:36Mm.
00:43:38Has the chemo been difficult?
00:43:41Difficult enough?
00:43:42The nausea.
00:43:43That might be difficult for you.
00:43:45Each treatment's different.
00:43:46I mean, they say that anyway.
00:43:49I don't want to lose my hair.
00:43:51You know, hair at my age is going to look like a man.
00:43:55For me, they said maybe, maybe not.
00:43:57I do not want to be very bald.
00:44:00Actually, that's not true.
00:44:01Being very bald is an issue.
00:44:03Lying in my coffin with the lid off and bald for all to see.
00:44:06I mean, not that there'll be anybody there, but that's not the point.
00:44:08You know, just, just in case.
00:44:12I think you look dignified.
00:44:15Dignified?
00:44:15No.
00:44:16Horrified.
00:44:20Well, you might not lose it.
00:44:22Whenever they say you might, it means you will.
00:44:26We should get that printed on T-shirts, wear them to the chemo sessions.
00:44:34Yeah.
00:44:36There we go.
00:44:39Okay.
00:44:40Well.
00:44:41That's lovely to meet you, Peter.
00:44:43I'm glad I came over to talk.
00:44:44Yeah.
00:44:45Have you met you, Drew?
00:44:46Yeah.
00:44:51I take it that's him, then?
00:44:53Yeah.
00:44:54His name's Peter.
00:44:57Did he remember our Debbie?
00:44:59Of course he did.
00:45:00Talked really fondly.
00:45:02Is he still arrogant?
00:45:04Hmm.
00:45:05No.
00:45:06He's...
00:45:07He's got terminal cancer.
00:45:10Hmm.
00:45:12That's not good.
00:45:13No.
00:45:15His partner, Steve, I think he said he was called.
00:45:18He...
00:45:18He sits downstairs.
00:45:19He can't come up here.
00:45:23Yeah.
00:45:24Yeah.
00:45:25I can imagine that would be difficult for some people, all right.
00:45:31I hope we'll bump into him again.
00:45:33I'm sure you will.
00:45:35He doesn't look gay.
00:45:37Well, no.
00:45:40But then you don't...
00:45:41Easy, Tiger.
00:45:44I was gonna say kind.
00:45:47There's not many of us left.
00:45:51I couldn't say stupid, because you do look stupid.
00:45:55Living with you too long, it's me looking like that.
00:46:01Oh.
00:46:03Here we go.
00:46:04Here we go.
00:46:06Here we go.
00:46:36Here we go.
00:46:38Here we go.
00:46:42Here we go.
00:46:43Here we go.
00:46:46Here we go.
00:46:46Here we go.
00:46:46Here we go.
00:46:46Here we go.
00:46:46Here we go.
00:46:46Here we go.
00:46:49Here we go.
00:47:23It's all right.
00:47:24It's all right.
00:47:25Oh, God.
00:47:28Is your head working until I get cold, Clod?
00:47:30Yeah.
00:47:32No, I'm freezing.
00:47:34Blanket?
00:47:36You want a blanket, sweetheart?
00:47:37It'll be all right.
00:47:37Go in for a minute.
00:47:41Shall I take this and just clean it out, or is there more?
00:47:45Yeah.
00:47:46Well, there'll be more, but you can clean it out anyway.
00:47:49Shall I go and just get another basin?
00:47:52Oh, no, just clean that one out.
00:47:54Right, right, right.
00:48:01Oh.
00:48:03Okay.
00:48:09Sarah has started a project at nearby Fillingham Court.
00:48:13She's teaching the residents about gardening to inspire them to make the most of their communal areas.
00:48:20Well, Robbie's bin goes out tonight.
00:48:23Fine or grey?
00:48:27I'm not sure.
00:48:29What went out last week?
00:48:32If I knew what went out last week, I'd know what one goes out tonight.
00:48:36I think it's grey.
00:48:39You just look what the neighbours put out.
00:48:43I know it's summer, right, but what's the point of having that been for garden waste during the winter, when
00:48:47there isn't any garden waste?
00:48:49I don't know.
00:48:51Well, you should know.
00:48:52That could be vital information at some point.
00:48:56Vital, really?
00:48:57Yes, John.
00:48:58Vital.
00:48:59Why didn't you go for a walk?
00:49:00No.
00:49:03No.
00:49:03I was there.
00:49:04I was TV.
00:49:05I haven't numb my brain enough today.
00:49:10Hm.
00:49:48It's coming out in clumps now.
00:49:52What do you want to do?
00:49:55I don't know.
00:49:57Look, there's no, you know...
00:49:58No, I know.
00:50:00I'll do it.
00:50:01You want me to do it?
00:50:06Where's the scissors?
00:50:10In the drawer.
00:50:11Right.
00:50:17Do you want to stand or sit?
00:50:20When have you ever seen anyone getting their hair cut standing up?
00:50:40Okay.
00:50:43Yeah.
00:50:55Stop.
00:51:04so what do you and your hair just talked about you and what i need you you are i need
00:51:09you to
00:51:10use a pair of scissors and a science any particular style today madam beehive showing your age there
00:51:18a kid a beehive of this
00:51:54so
00:52:03so
00:52:04so
00:52:04so
00:52:04so
00:52:04so
00:52:05so
00:52:30what do you think
00:52:33you look beautiful
00:52:35but then i never really liked your hair to begin with
00:52:42it feels weird
00:52:45you're a star kid
00:52:47absolute star
00:53:09so
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00:58:58poor
00:58:59poor
00:58:59poor man
00:59:00looks
00:59:01frightened
00:59:01you know
00:59:03more frightened of me dying than I am
00:59:05he won't even talk to me about stopping chemo
00:59:09where are you going to?
00:59:11well I'm thinking about it
00:59:14I think I can handle it
00:59:15but I keep thinking what's the point of even doing that
00:59:17if I'm going to die the same way no matter what
00:59:20Steve thinks I'm going to die the same way no matter what I'm going to die the same way
00:59:21Steve thinks I'd be depriving them of time spent together
00:59:27what would you do?
00:59:32I don't know
00:59:33you must have thought about it
00:59:36and you heard about the cancer
00:59:41yeah
00:59:43yeah
00:59:44I thought that
00:59:45if it came to that
00:59:50no matter how long you've been together
00:59:52no matter how much you love each other
00:59:56it would have to be my decision and my decision alone
01:00:02I cried when I thought that
01:00:07you know that we're all just really
01:00:11just on our own
01:00:25too hot
01:00:28tea cosy
01:00:35oh
01:00:36oh
01:00:37oh
01:00:37oh
01:00:38oh
01:00:38oh
01:00:38oh
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01:00:43oh
01:00:44oh
01:00:45oh
01:00:45oh
01:01:05You'd think I'd give these up, wouldn't you?
01:01:09No.
01:01:11But then, what would be the point?
01:01:21Are you somebody in here?
01:01:25My wife, she's got breast cancer.
01:01:28She's got chemo, you know.
01:01:38They're good in here.
01:01:41They can't do anything for me, but that doesn't mean to say they're not good.
01:01:46Your wife will be well-looked after.
01:01:50Thanks.
01:01:56My wife's dead.
01:02:02She's just as well.
01:02:15I can't do this, Tom.
01:02:20I can't take any more.
01:02:23It's all right, kid.
01:02:24It's all right.
01:02:28I can't do it, Tom.
01:02:36Look at me.
01:02:38I don't want to look at you.
01:02:44You're nearly there, but...
01:02:45I don't want to be nearly there, Tom.
01:02:48I don't want to be nearly there.
01:02:50I want it to be over.
01:02:51I've had enough.
01:02:59You know, you know the way...
01:03:04I always said I'd do the marathons.
01:03:08I never did it.
01:03:09Useless.
01:03:11Useless.
01:03:13You're standing in the finish line.
01:03:16Watching the people cross that line.
01:03:20One by one.
01:03:22Makes me want to cry.
01:03:27But it's...
01:03:29It's normal people that are doing it.
01:03:33I never did it.
01:03:38You are doing it.
01:03:41You're coming up to the finish line, John.
01:03:45You're nearly there, kid.
01:03:49You're going to do it.
01:04:14You're going to do it.
01:04:44I've been thinking we should do something to the house.
01:04:48Like what?
01:04:50I don't know.
01:04:52Bedroom, kitchen, I don't know.
01:04:54Just a change.
01:04:54They don't need change, John.
01:04:56Tom, we haven't decorated since...
01:04:58And what?
01:05:00There's only gummy in it.
01:05:01Well, it doesn't mean it shouldn't look well.
01:05:03It looks well enough.
01:05:05We're doing the bedroom.
01:05:07Right, not the kitchen.
01:05:09You think we should do the kitchen?
01:05:10I don't think we should do it, either.
01:05:12Right, we're doing the bedroom.
01:05:13I mean, right.
01:05:15Right.
01:05:17What are we doing after this?
01:05:19Do you want to go for a drink somewhere?
01:05:22No, just go up to the bedroom.
01:05:26I'll nap over, get some wine across the road.
01:05:28It'll be cheaper.
01:05:30Neither are we saving for an orange bedroom.
01:05:33We don't have to have any drink at all.
01:05:35Aye, very good.
01:05:38Don't be getting a lot of drink, Tom.
01:05:40I wasn't going to get a lot.
01:05:41Don't start.
01:05:42I know, but, I mean, we're here, doing this.
01:05:46We're having a good time.
01:05:47Yes.
01:05:47I know.
01:05:48I know.
01:06:16I don't know.
01:06:28you're gonna miss these
01:06:33what really no yes no no no but this is a trick question no
01:06:48you're gonna miss them
01:06:59no
01:07:02you'll still have something left
01:07:04I mean are you gonna miss them
01:07:15yes
01:07:19good man
01:07:20yeah
01:07:32yeah
01:07:33yeah
01:07:35I don't know.
01:08:26You okay?
01:08:27Yeah.
01:08:28What's the pain like today?
01:08:29Same.
01:08:31You get them to give you more pain killers?
01:08:33Yeah.
01:08:35Did you sleep?
01:08:38Off and on.
01:08:40It's difficult to sleep in.
01:08:42It annoys the place.
01:08:44How long could they say you'd be in for?
01:08:46Well, at least a week.
01:08:48I've got to make sure that their wounds clean and under my arms are all drained.
01:08:54Do you need me to bring in a snow?
01:08:57Yeah.
01:08:58Can you go into the top drawer and get my blue nightdress?
01:09:02Make sure it's the blue one, because the other one's a bit grubby.
01:09:04And some knickers.
01:09:08Any type?
01:09:10Grutzless?
01:09:13Don't make me laugh.
01:09:15It hurts.
01:09:17Not the grassless, then?
01:09:19Tom.
01:09:20Sturdy cusset.
01:09:21My steady cusset.
01:09:26A couple of face cloths as well.
01:09:30Anything else?
01:09:31Any other things that aren't sexually romantic?
01:09:34No, just the sexually romantic stuff.
01:09:43Tom, this is Peter.
01:09:45Yes, of course.
01:09:45You know, as I told you.
01:09:46All right, good to meet you.
01:09:47You too.
01:09:49I'm going to get down to the cafe.
01:09:51Let you two have a chat.
01:09:56Well, how about you, miss?
01:09:58Well, they've removed both of my breasts, and they've reconstructed them.
01:10:02They've pulled up some muscle from my stomach to do it.
01:10:06I've got this great big scar, of course.
01:10:08It's like a zip.
01:10:10Well, at least it's over.
01:10:15You know, at the start of all this, I had this feeling that if I can get through it all,
01:10:21that the experience of that, you know, just going through it, you know, would somehow change me.
01:10:29I don't think it has.
01:10:33I don't think I want it to.
01:10:42I don't think it's going to be done.
01:10:48I don't think it's going to be done.
01:10:51I don't think it's going to be done.
01:11:20Peter's, uh, with Joan up in the ward.
01:11:23All right, yeah.
01:11:26I heard she was in for an operation.
01:11:27I hope it all went well.
01:11:30And doctors speak as well as can be expected.
01:11:34I know it's just never a straight answer.
01:11:38It's good that she got through it, though.
01:11:39Yeah.
01:11:43Peter's in because his blood kind is dying.
01:11:45I'd just give him an eye on him.
01:11:52He's dying.
01:11:54You know that?
01:11:57Yes.
01:12:01Stop the chemo.
01:12:03I knew I was going to do it.
01:12:04I just took me time working round to it.
01:12:08I told Steve.
01:12:09I didn't talk to him about it.
01:12:10I told him, well, that didn't go down well.
01:12:16He'll come round.
01:12:18Well, he'll have to.
01:12:20It's all about time now.
01:12:28He used to teach my daughter.
01:12:32Like he said.
01:12:34I'm sorry to hear what happened.
01:12:37Yeah.
01:12:40It can't be easy.
01:12:43No.
01:12:46You've planned out what you're going to do.
01:12:49Do nothing.
01:12:51Spend time together.
01:12:52I don't want to do things.
01:12:53I spent my whole life doing things.
01:12:55Now I want to do absolutely nothing.
01:13:01Yeah, when we lost Debbie, I think Tom felt like that.
01:13:04Just gave up work and stopped, really.
01:13:09Well, I suppose I did too.
01:13:15I understand that.
01:13:23I don't know what I'm going to do.
01:13:27I don't think anyone knows that.
01:13:30You try not to think about it, but it's there all the time.
01:13:39Maybe I don't tell you anything.
01:13:45Look, I don't know if this is any good, but I'll say it anyway.
01:13:49My daughter, Debbie, was taken away from us suddenly.
01:13:52I can't explain it.
01:13:53It's beyond me.
01:13:56But if I didn't know when she was going to die,
01:13:59all I would have done was to spend time with her.
01:14:07I don't want him to die.
01:14:14I know.
01:14:18I know.
01:14:51Here, fix this tie, will you?
01:14:54A grown man can't fix his own tie.
01:14:56What's that about?
01:14:58You look well, kid.
01:15:01You're not meant to say that back.
01:15:03You look well.
01:15:04Too late.
01:15:10We'll just stay for the funeral, okay?
01:15:12I'm tired.
01:15:15John, if you don't want to go...
01:15:16Oh, no, I do want to go.
01:15:18But I don't want to get involved in anything afterwards.
01:15:20Are you going to pee in?
01:15:21Yeah, a bit.
01:15:23Take another towel out.
01:15:24Oh, I will later.
01:15:26I'm trying to hold off.
01:15:27I'm taking too many as it is.
01:15:30Do you want a cup of tea?
01:15:31Yes, please.
01:15:51The last few weeks of Peter and I's time together was...
01:15:56It was beautiful.
01:15:59I've never watched so much rubbish TV in my life.
01:16:04It's brilliant rubbish TV.
01:16:08All we did was sit together.
01:16:11It's all we needed to do.
01:16:16I've never loved any person as much as I loved that man.
01:16:23He made me face the world.
01:16:26And...
01:16:28I will miss him more than he will ever know.
01:16:34Peter, I love you.
01:16:38I don't know what I'm going to do without you, but...
01:16:41I do know that you are still forever the best part of me.
01:17:05Hey, hey, that's too many, John.
01:17:07Can you not just get a few?
01:17:08No, you need more than a few.
01:17:10Well, there's only the two of us.
01:17:11You can't just cook a few Brussels sprouts.
01:17:13Why not?
01:17:14Oh, I don't know.
01:17:16You just can't.
01:17:17Why do we even have to get any?
01:17:18I don't even eat them.
01:17:19I do.
01:17:21Once a year.
01:17:22You eat them once a year.
01:17:23Well, that's why it's important to get them.
01:17:25Anyway, what do you care?
01:17:26They stink the place up.
01:17:28You stink the place up.
01:17:29Very good.
01:17:31I'm going to head around here and get some beer.
01:17:33Have we enough wine?
01:17:35Yes, plenty of wine.
01:17:37Well, I'm out over Christmas.
01:17:38It would be a nightmare.
01:17:39Don't get too much beer.
01:17:41I'll give what I need.
01:17:42No, I'm just saying, don't get too much.
01:17:44Ditto regarding the sprouts.
01:17:45Oh, get some smoked salmon, will you?
01:17:47Oh, all right.
01:17:48Just a wee bit for you.
01:17:49All right.
01:18:05Put a wee bit of tinsel around the goldfish tank, too, will I?
01:18:09No, what if I've got enough left?
01:18:11Fish needs to know it's Christmas.
01:18:13Oh, aye.
01:18:14Okay.
01:18:15Okay.
01:18:19Okay.
01:18:27Want some more wine?
01:18:28No, I'm all right.
01:18:29I don't know if that happens.
01:18:33Know what I was thinking?
01:18:34No, Tom.
01:18:35What were you thinking?
01:18:38We should invite your aunt Steve over for Christmas.
01:18:44Yeah.
01:18:44It's a good idea.
01:18:46I do have them, sometimes.
01:18:49Not Christmas dinner, though.
01:18:52I hadn't thought to win.
01:18:53But why not Christmas dinner?
01:18:55Well, I'm sure he's got other places to be, anyway.
01:18:58How do you know he might be on his own?
01:19:00He might want to come out on Christmas Day.
01:19:03Maybe, but how do you know that unless he asks him?
01:19:06You ask him, then he says, I can, I can.
01:19:09I want to, I don't want to.
01:19:10Yeah, but he might feel under pressure if we ask him.
01:19:14Well, why don't you leave the decision up to him instead of you making it for him?
01:19:18Even though we haven't even asked him the question yet.
01:19:24All right, but just not Christmas Day.
01:19:27A drink, then.
01:19:28I'll invite him around for a drink.
01:19:30Yeah, that'd be lovely.
01:19:32Okay.
01:19:33You have his number?
01:19:34Yeah.
01:19:35Could you phone him, or will I?
01:19:37Yeah, you can phone him.
01:19:39Right.
01:19:41I know what we've just said, and I'm not saying this will happen.
01:19:46Tom.
01:19:48If you want to ask him for Christmas, ask him for Christmas.
01:19:51Okay.
01:19:52Thanks.
01:19:53Can we have enough Brussels sprouts?
01:19:55More than enough.
01:20:18Isn't it so?
01:20:37It's not so bad when it's good.
01:20:47You can't make the grave till you stop.
01:20:53So I sit around and mumble.
01:20:57Let your heart rest.
01:21:00We've got our words, you act.
01:21:21It's not so bad when it's good.
01:21:31It's not so bad.
01:21:35It's not so bad when it's good.
01:21:46It's not so bad.
01:21:53It's not so bad.
01:22:01Let her run, run around
01:22:05Like a sunset repress
01:22:10Let your poor heart rest
01:22:15For better hours you melt
01:22:27Let her run, run around
01:23:00Isn't it so?
01:23:05It's a crown and a stone
01:23:16Isn't it so?
01:23:20A candle and a window
01:23:30The winds blow to a clear new sky
01:23:34Tides fall and rise
01:23:38Stares that fall and let me rest
01:23:43For better hours you melt
01:23:56Isn't it so?
01:24:04Isn't it so?
01:24:06Isn't it so?
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