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Falling S01E06
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03:30We will get you an email address when I come home.
03:33Well, I can do it. I mean, it's free, isn't it? You just point me in the right direction.
03:36Anna, I know you want to get started, but this is going to be harder than you thought.
03:40Well, it's better I know how hard it is quite quickly.
03:43Let's get the poles in the ground before we put the tent up. I want to prove that I can
03:50do this. I want to feel like I'm starting. You don't need to prove anything. You don't need to start
03:58anything. It's just details. We can sort it.
04:01I'm not living off you. I'm not living off you. No. You're living with me. I'll see you later.
04:13Have fun at work. I hope you see Marcus from Obstetrics.
04:40We were out of hosts.
04:41I fetched some from Father George. Pleasant man, but terrible dandruff.
04:47Not good for a priest.
04:49There were many sins they warned us of at the seminary. Dandruff was a tragic omission. You cannot wear black
04:56and malt head skin.
05:01For your sister. For her wedding. It's a bracelet. I didn't know whether it was ugly or nice. I bought
05:09it on the off chance it was nice.
05:11You bought her a wedding present.
05:12Oh, no. Is that the wrong thing to have done? It is today, isn't it? Look, I like your sister.
05:18She's fun.
05:20Look, she's having a registry office wedding.
05:22I know. You were working on the blessing in here.
05:25The blessing's just in the garden. A small party.
05:29Anyone's welcome?
05:30No.
05:31You should come.
05:31I should not. I haven't been invited.
05:34No one's been invited.
05:35My sister's terrified of rejection, so she doesn't like to make anything formal.
05:41Please.
05:41Look, this wasn't me trying to...
05:44Of course.
05:45Well, you will be there.
05:463 p.m.
05:47See how the heathens do it.
05:513 p.m. I'll be free.
05:53How's your mum?
05:53Oh, that is a surprise.
05:58Tina's here. You'll never guess who she's with.
06:01The Lord be with you.
06:03And with your spirit.
06:06Lord, we have sinned against you. Lord, have mercy.
06:08Lord, have mercy.
06:11Show us your mercy and your love.
06:13And grant us your salvation.
06:16Let us pray.
06:18Thank you, Father.
06:21Hey!
06:27Hello.
06:30And hello.
06:32Don't get excited and thinking you're converting me.
06:35We've got an appointment at the hospital in the bit, and this one thought I might as well do this
06:39before.
06:39You're very welcome here.
06:41We've been having visitors every five minutes, sorting out this, that, and the other.
06:45I don't know who you pass me on to.
06:47How much pressure you put on.
06:49I'm just pleased it's working out.
06:51I slightly resent it.
06:54I think it's kind of you.
06:58She's going to speak in court.
07:01He wrote to me, asking for forgiveness, telling me he was going to kill himself if I didn't, or if
07:07I did.
07:09Asking for forgiveness.
07:11What did he do?
07:13Nothing.
07:14He didn't kill himself.
07:16Because he's full of shit.
07:21Oh, and, uh, I'm not Catholic.
07:34Happy?
07:36Happy.
07:37You?
07:38You should stop asking how I am.
07:40You can care about me.
07:41I can't care about you.
07:42Something like that.
07:45Can I just say, I liked your man.
07:51Liked her too.
07:53So you weren't a dick then?
07:54I thought you'd probably been a dick.
07:56I don't, if I'm honest, know what I was.
07:59If you don't know, you're probably a dick.
08:04I think you're grateful.
08:06But you don't care what I think.
08:08Because you were thinking about her.
08:14Mum, can you wait?
08:17I'm pregnant.
08:18Mum.
08:20You can go.
08:37OK, I need everybody in the car.
08:40Very loud.
08:41Mum, Simon, I need you in the car.
08:46Molly, why aren't you in the bloody car?
08:49OK, OK.
08:50Where are you going?
08:54You're not wearing that.
08:56You're not wearing that.
09:38You're wearing that.
09:42He wanted to wear that.
09:43What's that?
10:13Oh, yeah, you're a fucker.
10:14Oh, fuck.
10:18Fuck, fuck.
10:20Fuck.
10:24She's so...
10:30Hey.
10:33She's...
10:45She's...
10:46She's...
10:52She's...
11:01She's...
11:04She's...
11:05All right.
11:05All right.
11:06Oh, my God.
11:08She's...
11:32We're going to be late, we're going to miss our slot and it's going to be all your fault.
11:35Oh, I love you. Oh, I love you. Get in the car.
12:08What can I get you, love?
12:09I just saw the sign in the window.
12:11Which sign?
12:13I'm looking for work.
12:14Oh, that's an old sign, love. Sorry.
12:17You don't know of anybody else's?
12:19Not right now. There's a bit of a local dip happening. Everyone's struggling a bit.
12:23Leave me a number and I'll keep an ear out for you.
12:25Thanks. This is my friend Muriel's number. I'm just staying with her at the moment. I'm Anna.
12:35Okay, Anna. Good luck to you. Thank you.
12:42Why have you listened to this?
12:44I've done a playlist. A song for every year that Susan and I could have been together and weren't together.
12:51The songs we should have danced to.
12:55That's crazy.
12:56Oh, it's romantic.
12:58Telly-up.
12:59He's flying in the face of fashion.
13:02Woo!
13:03Look at her!
13:05He's flying in the face of fashion, yeah.
13:09Anna, thanks so much for coming in.
13:11What sort of work are you looking for?
13:13I'm not sure what I'm qualified for.
13:16Catering, I hope. I can cook and I can clean.
13:21Data entry skills?
13:23Sorry?
13:24What's your typing speed?
13:26I don't have one.
13:28Can you use a computer?
13:30I can try.
13:33You haven't filled in the book where it says previous work?
13:38No, well, I was a nun.
13:41I don't really think that counts as a job.
13:43I don't think it is a job. It's more a calling.
13:48Right.
13:49I could fill out the CV section but it would just say none.
13:52And then none and then none.
13:56Sounds like a joke, doesn't it?
13:59It does the way you're saying it.
14:03Have you got a permanent address?
14:06I have an address.
14:08Have you got a national insurance number?
14:11Ah, I remember having one of those.
14:15But I could find it.
14:16Do you have preferred hours?
14:18No.
14:20Maybe you want to have a little think about that.
14:22Childcare needs or...?
14:24No, no, no. I don't have any kids.
14:29I was a nun.
14:31You just, um...
14:32You don't look like a nun.
14:35I'm not one anymore.
14:49You can't help me, can you?
14:53We don't really get catering work.
14:57What I do is get your typing speed up.
15:01There's courses you can take online and come back when you're in a better place.
15:12Are we late? Are we late?
15:14Susan and Simon, we've got time.
15:19Morning. My name is Sandra and as the Deputy Superintendent Registrar for Bristol, it is my privilege to welcome you
15:27here today.
15:27I'm joined by my colleague Grace and our interpreter Bella, and we are met in a place duly sanctioned according
15:34to law for the celebration of marriages and civil partnerships.
15:38We're gathered here today for the joining in matrimony of Simon Ian Neve and Susan Grace Hicks.
15:47If any person here present knows of any lawful impediment to this marriage, they should declare it now.
15:56That's the difficult bit. It's really easy for me.
16:26I'm starting with St. Fulgentius, which is lovely.
16:28Love indeed is the source of all good things. It's an impregnable defence in the way that leads to heaven.
16:34He who walks in love can neither go astray nor be afraid.
16:39Love guides him, protects him, and brings him to his journey's end.
16:43And I was thinking I could then explain...
16:45That sounds like Shakespeare.
16:48You don't mean that as a compliment, do you?
16:50What else do you say? Do you make any jokes?
16:52It's not best man's speech. It's a blessing.
16:54Can you tell about the time when Mum bought home that box of milk tray?
16:58And then I pissed her off so she ate them all in her room.
17:01Oh yeah, that would really make them off, wouldn't it?
17:03She ate the whole box. Two layers.
17:05And then she got really constipated and really complained about it.
17:08Bugger it! I can't do this. It keeps falling down.
17:12I might be able to help.
17:16I'm too early. I always am. A little girl let me in.
17:21I presume she's related to at least one of you.
17:24I'm a dab hand at DIYs, surprisingly.
17:28Hello, I'm Frances.
17:30Hi. David.
17:54Dad? Mum?
17:56Muriel called. I brought my own brushes.
17:59Brushes for what?
18:00Setting things right.
18:02Well, I'm not here to paint. I hate paint.
18:04And I've got three different shades of blue, so you can choose the one you want.
18:07And one will be called Wistful Dog Breath.
18:09And the other will be called Shropshire Bed Crumpet, and they'll be-
18:12Of all things to be angry about, you're angry about paint names.
18:15Well, I brought the lamp you like and a bedspread from your Auntie Penny.
18:19Am I missing something? What's happening here?
18:21I've got Zach's permission. We're going to paint your room.
18:24I told you, I never liked that we didn't redo your room at home.
18:28For a long time he thought it was the reason you became a nun.
18:31That bloody dear wallpaper.
18:33So you're redecorating the room?
18:35Your room. And that's the start that matters. Making a home.
18:40I have a brush for you. You can bloody help.
18:57Working on your blessing?
19:00Oh, um, Lindsay, the older daughter says only more jokes.
19:07As a younger man, I once got told off by a priest for getting too many laughs in a sermon.
19:13Humour is an underrated quality in the clergy.
19:18I wondered if you wouldn't mind- Would you mind hearing my confession?
19:25Now? Here?
19:26I'd like it. If you have a moment.
19:49I'm not much of what most would consider a man.
19:54You are?
19:55Well, I've lived most of my life with my mother.
20:00I've dedicated myself to God, her, and my allotment in that order.
20:06I didn't know you had an allotment.
20:07Good. You shouldn't.
20:10It's my quiet place. I don't talk about it to anyone.
20:13Well, except Mother.
20:15My point is, there is no reason why you would take what advice I have in any way seriously.
20:21And it's not advice you are seeking.
20:26But, I am a little older than you.
20:29I've seen and experienced some aspects in a little more depth.
20:33And I do care so deeply about you. You've been a constant in my prayer.
20:39Well, that's very kind. I care deeply about you too.
20:42But, um, just to check.
20:47Is this a confession?
20:55My mother doesn't recognise me anymore.
20:58There are moments when I half believe she does, but she doesn't.
21:04Not a kind woman.
21:07Not someone even particularly filled with love.
21:12I stayed with her because she needed me after my father's death, even if she did not think she did.
21:21Well, just talk of your mother more.
21:24Her dementia, in the last six months, has become increasingly cruel.
21:30Violent, you understand, as some dementias get.
21:34The violence I can cope with.
21:36The words I sometimes find more.
21:40The hidden ways she's thought of me.
21:44She accuses me, she has accused me, of being attracted to her.
21:51She's accused me of watching her in the bath.
21:53She's an 86-year-old woman, you understand.
21:56She has accused me of being attracted to other women who come to the house, carers and elderly friends.
22:02She's found lust in my every...
22:06In all of me.
22:11The only reason I feel able to repeat these charges is because there is no truth to them.
22:20But that doesn't mean they aren't incredibly painful.
22:23I can imagine.
22:25And yet, still...
22:27And this is the beauty of his love, still.
22:30I sit on my allotment, or in church, or anywhere, really, and I pray.
22:35And I find such love in my life.
22:40Not from her, no.
22:44I find it in the love I give her.
22:47My love.
22:48You understand?
22:49And I do not regret.
22:51And this is important to me, and it's true.
22:53I do not regret a single second I spent with her.
22:57I do not regret my life, because it is a love to this day.
23:05It is a life filled with a true love.
23:15You're a good man.
23:18You're missing the point I'm trying to make.
23:22You think I do regret my life?
23:25I wouldn't presume to judge.
23:28But I've noticed the light going out in your eyes.
23:33Your eyes are normally so full of light.
23:38And that...
23:42Well...
23:43I have noticed that.
23:49Adultery.
23:50That's all it is.
23:51I'm sure you've heard plenty churned up and messy.
23:54I tell them in the confessional you have committed a terrible sin.
23:59There's some I can sense just like the sex.
24:02And for those I lay it on thick.
24:06But others...
24:07I sense a deeper conflict than to those I say.
24:12Love is the only gift worth fighting for.
24:18And this love comes in many forms.
24:21And God's gift.
24:22God's gift.
24:23Which he gave to all humanity.
24:26Is that only you know which love is true.
24:34And then I forgive them and give them penance.
24:37That is my right and duty as a priest.
24:39You think I'm committing adultery?
24:42You were married to God.
24:44And now you're looking elsewhere.
24:47You're risking sin.
24:49But...
24:50Sins can get forgiven.
24:52Sins can get forgiven.
24:55Sins can get forgiven.
24:58Why do you give all this up?
25:02What would you give up?
25:04A position?
25:05A trust perhaps?
25:06A wage?
25:07But...
25:07These are just trinkets and support mechanisms in life's great journey.
25:12They aren't an answer to anything.
25:14You would not give up God's love.
25:16And God would not give up on loving you.
25:20And those around you.
25:22The true ones.
25:23And I would hope to include myself in this number.
25:27They would not stop loving you either.
25:31A dog collar David isn't the reason I do good things.
25:34And it isn't the reason you do.
25:42There we go.
25:43That's all I have.
25:45Your turn now.
25:47Hail Mary's, etc.
25:49Give me my penance.
25:51Let's keep the pretense up.
25:54She tied me down, Frances.
25:59She's come back to the Wi-Fi.
26:01Back to where she wants to be.
26:03Ah.
26:06No.
26:07No.
26:09She's back.
26:11If no one's told you.
26:13She's left the convent.
26:15Again.
26:17You were quite right in your diagnosis of her.
26:20She is enormously flighty.
26:48To the left.
26:50To the right.
26:52Step it up.
26:53It's alright.
26:56To the left.
26:58To the right.
26:59To the right.
26:59Check the moon right out.
27:01It's all right, silent saving season
27:06Cause there ain't no good in grief
27:10Can't stop my mouth breathing
27:14Seeing what I see
27:18Curves with destinations
27:22Poetics in my dream
27:26Cause I'm inflammation
27:30In my own command
27:32Don't you say
27:35Yeah, yeah, yeah
27:37You can say forget my mind
27:39Yeah, yeah, yeah
27:41But I'll still reach out to your friend
27:43Yeah, yeah, yeah
27:45Till the last day that I drowned
27:47Yeah, yeah, yeah
27:49To me left
27:53It's on you now
27:54Well, it's on me
28:04I love you too
28:07I think I've missed something
28:09What have I missed?
28:39To you
29:06It looks nice.
29:08Can I bring some more things from home?
29:11You're welcome any time, you know that.
29:13But now your father and I need to go.
29:16Stay.
29:17Let me make us all some food.
29:19I'd like that.
29:21You'd like it?
29:23I'm not angry with you.
29:25Mum, none of this was your fault.
29:27I can't remember ever claiming it was.
29:31And I think I'm excited, Mum.
29:35It's okay to be scared, too.
29:40I thought you'd be going after him.
29:43No.
29:44No, he...
29:47He's not right.
29:48He's not ready.
29:50But I am still excited about what my life is going to be now.
29:54Okay.
29:59I'm proud of you.
30:09Tarragon chicken?
30:10Sounds lovely.
30:20I don't have anything to say.
30:22Just give it short.
30:23Pick your hands apart, isn't it?
30:24Short is fine, but you do understand.
30:26I can't recognise your marriage.
30:28I applaud what you're doing, but I'm a priest.
30:31It would be a betrayal to my congregation.
30:33Well, what can you do?
30:35I could have a go at blessing your love in some way.
30:39Yeah, we can, um...
30:40Follow our nose.
30:41Follow our nose.
30:48Hello.
30:49Hello.
30:51Is Muriel here?
30:53Oh, you look a mess.
30:55I've been running.
30:55Look, Muriel, I need to see her.
30:57Is this him?
30:58Yeah.
30:59Him?
30:59Who am I?
31:00This is Anna's mother.
31:02Oh.
31:03Hello.
31:04I'm her father.
31:05She's not home.
31:06She went to the shop.
31:08She wanted to cook us all dinner.
31:10We've been painting.
31:11Which shops?
31:11Yeah, hold your huxes.
31:12Why don't you just wait?
31:13Which shops?
31:14Tesco.
31:15It's nice to meet you.
31:17Uh, it's very nice to meet you, too.
31:21Hope we get to talk more.
31:27Sweet is thy work,
31:29My God, my King,
31:35To praise thy name.
31:42Hello, everybody.
31:43My name is Francis.
31:46I'm a priest,
31:48And I believe
31:50In love.
31:53Two
31:53Are better than one
31:55Because they have a good reward
31:57For their toil.
31:59For if they fall,
32:00One will lift up his fellow.
32:03But woe to him
32:04Who is alone when he falls
32:06And has not another
32:07To lift him up.
32:09Susan,
32:10Do you take Simon
32:12To be your beloved?
32:14Will you cherish him?
32:17And
32:18Trying to find other adjectives?
32:21Will you make him your home?
32:24Just as he makes you his?
32:27I will.
32:29Simon,
32:30Will you do the same?
32:32I will.
32:35Oh,
32:36Do you wish to kiss?
32:37You don't have to
32:38If you don't fancy it.
32:45Good.
32:46Well,
32:47I now pronounce you
32:49Nothing at all.
32:51Shall we have a party now?
33:00Anna.
33:04Don't run away, please.
33:06Just let me talk.
33:09Anna.
33:10I'm not running
33:11And you can certainly talk.
33:13Yeah.
33:14I came looking for you
33:16At Muriel's house.
33:18Oh,
33:18Okay.
33:20I met your mum.
33:23Okay.
33:25Yeah.
33:30I believe you promised words.
33:33Sorry?
33:34You said you wanted to talk, etc.
33:36Um,
33:37I just,
33:37I just want to tell you that
33:43I want to tell you that
33:44I'm leaving the priesthood.
33:51I haven't talked to anyone
33:52yet,
33:53but
33:53Yeah,
33:55I can't remain.
33:57I've told him.
34:01Okay.
34:03Why?
34:05Because
34:09It's because I love you.
34:17And why do you love me?
34:22I think...
34:27I've always loved you.
34:32I think it's just taken me a while
34:33to wait to help.
34:38I'm really sorry about that.
34:39I think it's just...
35:01I think it's just...
35:03I think it's just...
35:05I'm not talking.
35:22There was a boy at school, Adam, who sat behind me in French.
35:28Beautiful brown eyes.
35:30He never said anything to me but he would sit staring at the back of my neck all the way
35:34through the class.
35:35I could feel it.
35:39I was probably just bored.
35:42Well, I did take to wearing my hair up whenever we had French lessons.
35:48And then there was a Benedictine monk at Lord's when I was a postulant called Francois.
35:57Also brown eyes.
36:01I think they were my other temptations.
36:07I thought about both of them probably a little bit more than I should.
36:13But, well, the thing is, the thing is with them, I knew that they were just urges.
36:22Horrible word.
36:25Whereas...
36:28Whereas you changed my soul.
36:33And I just, I felt so angry that I didn't make yours change in the same way.
36:47But you did.
36:51It was humiliating.
36:53You understand me?
36:55You really, really humiliated me.
36:58You really hurt me.
37:02I could...
37:03I could...
37:04I could hit you.
37:07You wouldn't mind.
37:09That would be...
37:11before too easy.
37:14I need to find a better way to...
37:16pay you back.
37:17I can.
37:20Is this all...
37:23Are you saying I've lost my chance?
37:56Fuck.
37:58You terrible, insecure, cowardly fuck.
38:10I hate that word.
38:14I quite like it.
38:16Sounds like a maths teacher.
38:19Like...
38:19A maths teacher?
38:21A maths teacher we've never heard outside of class.
38:24It's a noble profession.
38:57I am a coward.
39:00Sometimes.
39:06I don't know if I'm gonna be good for you.
39:10I don't know if I'm gonna be good for you.
39:11I don't know if I'm gonna be good for you.
39:13I hope you know I...
39:15I don't have a job.
39:16I don't have a house.
39:19Well...
39:19The good thing is...
39:20I don't have any of those things either.
39:25I'm an alcoholic.
39:28And I'm...
39:29Paromenopausal.
39:36I think it's okay to say that we're...
39:38We're both scared.
39:39Yeah.
39:41Angry.
39:41That's just me.
39:43But...
39:44Scared.
39:46It's worthless.
39:49He...
39:50He saved me.
39:53I was lost and he...
39:54He saved me and...
39:56I don't wanna betray him.
39:59Well then...
40:01Let's decide that it's not a betrayal.
40:05He saved me too.
40:08You know, I'm just the same.
40:09I'd like to ring a bell and put my life back how it was but...
40:17I'd also really like to kiss you again.
40:48I like to kiss me again.
41:11What?
41:18How do we do this?
41:25I think I know.
41:42I think I know.
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