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Falling S01E04
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00:25It's just, it's just one bag, quite small.
00:28They don't, I don't, they don't want me to bring much.
00:31No, no, no. Yes, I read the booklet.
00:35So I can carry it?
00:37I always thought we should have redecorated this room. It was on my list, actually.
00:40Well, you can now.
00:42No, no, no, I meant for you. I meant this room was done up for a seven-year-old. You've
00:45dears on the wallpaper.
00:47I should have given it a lick of blue paint over the summer sometime. Made it feel more like a
00:51grown-up's room.
00:52I like it.
00:53My point is, I think you grew up. And I didn't notice.
01:02Well, Dad, none of this is to upset you. I found an answer to something, that's all.
01:11Ariel, are you there?
01:16Anna? If you're there, you need to talk.
01:24I'm just posting my number through the door.
01:28I just like to talk. Talk more.
01:32That's all.
02:02I'm just posting my number through the door.
02:02I'm just posting my number through the door.
02:21I'm just posting my number through the door.
02:21I'm posting my number through the door.
02:21I'm posting my number through the door.
02:23I'm posting my number through the door.
02:25I'm posting my number through the door.
02:27I'm posting my number through the door.
02:42No honey sandwiches?
02:43No, no.
02:45Should I can wash those up in half?
02:47Yeah?
02:48Don't.
02:52How are you doing?
03:09Oh, you brought him?
03:11Yeah.
03:13You've been waiting long, Father?
03:16I'm sorry to keep you.
03:18I'm having a bladder reaction to the Turks or something.
03:21They were changing my path.
03:24Is that the right level of embarrassing for you?
03:26Yeah.
03:28Do you want...
03:29Would you prefer some private time?
03:31No.
03:33She wanted you here.
03:35Besides, we've had enough of that.
03:38She's bored of me yapping away,
03:40complaining about this, that, the other.
03:43You're in pain?
03:44Oh, yeah.
03:46And it's on my notes that I'm an addict,
03:48so they're being very cheap with the painkillers.
03:53Tina wanted me to come and ask
03:56what you want to do next.
03:59I'd like to go home and live my life.
04:01Thank you very much.
04:04I suppose I am concerned that we have Tina's baby underway.
04:11Well, I'll let him back in and he'll mess up that kid too.
04:15You're still charming.
04:18Tina wants help.
04:20I just want things to be different now.
04:28So you went to a priest.
04:30I'm not a priest.
04:33Yeah, just someone who cares.
04:36We all care, Father.
04:40Some more than we should.
04:55I am through with vetting families for schools.
05:01Little Algernon is a firm Catholic.
05:03We can't attend, of course.
05:05We dry ski on Sundays.
05:06But he prays daily.
05:07And we bought him some of your holy beads from Amazon.
05:10Show him, Algy.
05:11Show him.
05:11I'm sure his name isn't Algernon.
05:13No.
05:15It's called Biscuit or some such nonsense.
05:20Sermon?
05:22Uh, uh, it's my sister's marriage, please.
05:25I didn't see it in the diary.
05:27Second marriage, yeah.
05:30First one was a bloke's an arsehole.
05:34It's a registry office wedding and then a blessing in the garden.
05:38And praise be she's getting on the horse again.
05:42Why?
05:43The church isn't right about everything.
05:45And I like your sister.
05:48And I like people getting on horses.
05:51I'm extending an awkward metaphor.
05:55I'm checking you're getting the help you need.
05:59I'm getting the help I need.
06:02I love the witcher's coming from my sister.
06:05Well, that's good.
06:09I was concerned, etc.
06:12I won't interfere, etc.
06:15Consider me spent.
06:20Now, we've had a strange request.
06:23I didn't know whether to pass on.
06:26The chaplain at HMP Avonmouth has requested a visit.
06:31What?
06:32Apparitioner has requested you.
06:35Tina's father.
06:36I don't think you should.
06:39I'm not even sure Tina would like you going.
06:43But, uh...
06:45Your decision...
06:51We or went to Rome.
06:55You're the one that has been chained.
06:59I went to Rome.
07:07From his house...ahlen
07:08I
07:12speak to him. ...
07:17To
07:26Oh.
07:30I, uh, wasn't sure whether to, um...
07:32Knocked what you lied four or five times at Muriel's.
07:34Every now.
07:36Well, that is, uh, impressive of you.
07:38I've run.
07:40Repeatedly.
07:41You've done a lot.
07:43Very thorough.
07:45It's, uh...
07:46You're going to sound like harassment.
07:51Well...
07:52I wanted to talk to you.
07:55I'm aware.
07:58I just wanted to say...
08:01that I stand by everything I've said.
08:04I've...
08:05I've thought about it, and, um, this...
08:07doesn't often happen to me, but, uh...
08:10I think I was right.
08:13I think you and I should accept that what happened between us was meaningful, but not in the way...
08:19well, not...
08:21not in the way that I thought it to be meaningful.
08:24Can I speak?
08:26No.
08:27No.
08:30Yes, if you want to.
08:35You are...
08:36But you're not allowed to compliment me.
08:38To me.
08:38Just if, for instance, you were going to say, uh, that I was formidable, or fantastic, or even just interesting,
08:47or anything about how I look, or how I am, then that...
08:50that wouldn't be okay to say.
08:53Why not?
08:57Let me just start from the beginning.
08:58But the beginning, and the end, is that I changed my life for you.
09:04And you are not responsible for that.
09:07I really...
09:07I really hope I've made it clear that you are not responsible for that.
09:13It's just the truth.
09:14I've...
09:14I've found all of this very confusing.
09:18I apologise.
09:20I also hope I've made it clear that it was all me, and, uh...
09:26I...
09:27I do apologise for your confusion.
09:29But I wasn't for you.
09:30You're not allowed to say that, either.
09:31And what am I allowed to say?
09:37Have you been praying?
09:39About you?
09:41No.
09:42No, not about me.
09:45I just mean, have you...
09:46Have you been, uh, praying generally?
09:49I feel like I've, uh, been the cause of some...
09:53spiritual undoing, and I just...
09:56I just wanted to make sure that you've been...
09:58You've been praying again.
10:01Yeah, I've been praying.
10:03Have you?
10:04Yes.
10:07I've also been going more regularly to Alcoholics Anonymous.
10:11It's not something I want advertised, but...
10:14Something you probably guessed.
10:19Yeah, I did, um...
10:21Hmm?
10:22So, just, um...
10:23And that's helpful.
10:26Good, son.
10:29My sister's...
10:31Good people around me.
10:34You want to feel...
10:36Responsible.
10:37You shouldn't apologise.
10:38I should.
10:40I'm sorry.
10:43I behaved towards you.
10:46I...
10:46I felt you...
10:48You made me...
10:50Feel things.
10:51I needed to know that.
10:54You...
10:54Make me feel things.
11:00Now, I...
11:01I'm trying to set myself right.
11:03I'm determined to be a good priest.
11:06At least the best priest I've been capable of being.
11:11My confusion...
11:12Was not for you.
11:14It was...
11:16You...
11:17Brought to light.
11:19Well, you've done a bit more than you've been to light.
11:26At AA, we tried to explain not...
11:29Who we are, but why we are.
11:32And...
11:32I think...
11:34You saw...
11:35The who...
11:37But not the why.
11:39I think my understanding of what I should be has been...
11:42I think I've been trying to help people in the wrong way.
11:46And which way is that?
11:48Saving people.
11:51Some...
11:51Addiction like any other.
11:56No.
12:22Wonderful is the word that would be used.
12:26To describe you.
12:33See you again.
12:37What if I see you first?
12:39Let's go.
13:21Is that you?
13:24Oh, of course it's you. I'm due on shift.
13:28Oh, I've cooked.
13:30Yeah, a disgusting idea, I know, but on the off chance you're not repulsed, there's half a shepherd's pie in
13:35the oven.
13:37You look like you're coming down with a cold.
13:38Yeah? No, I'm fine.
13:40You sure?
13:41What time you're back?
13:43Shift ends 5am. Very lucky enough, can you?
13:48Eat the pie.
13:57Me.
13:59Meela gets two ahead of you.
14:01We're going local for this one.
14:03In which English county will you find watch out?
14:06Seven.
14:07Not quite.
14:10Five.
14:11Correctly.
14:12What card suit do you use if you're all of it in Sweden?
15:05What card suit do you use if you're all of it in Sweden?
15:11How's that? I've got some red wine.
15:13We've got a list if you want to.
15:15Oh, just the cheapest.
15:16Come right up.
15:41Oh, no.
15:43Oh, no.
15:44Oh, no.
15:46Oh, no.
15:57It's good.
16:01Hey.
16:03I just said, I didn't knock my face.
16:05I said I'd be...
16:21I just wanted to owing.
16:38I love them.
16:41I love them.
16:44I love them for someone who's alive.
16:49Someone with a pen.
16:52I want to put a TV shirt on.
16:55I like to take me out.
17:04I love them.
17:07I love them.
17:09I love them.
17:11I love them.
17:16I love them.
17:26I love them.
17:46I love them.
17:49I couldn't stay in the house any longer.
17:51How come?
17:55I'm getting irritated by the sound of my own thoughts.
17:59I know that feeling.
18:02Hi, Tony.
18:04Anna.
18:05Hi.
18:11Who are you with?
18:13My brother and his wife.
18:15They came here to get away from their kids.
18:17And they just want to talk about their kids.
18:22You got children?
18:24Yeah.
18:25Are you?
18:25Yeah.
18:26Yeah.
18:27One.
18:27It's 11.
18:29It's my night, of course.
18:30It's tricky.
18:33Yeah.
18:34I can imagine.
18:37What do you do, Anna?
18:41I'm a cook.
18:46A cafe cook.
18:49Which cafe?
18:51Really, I just, I make cakes and bakes and sell them to different cafes.
18:56It's just a home kitchen.
18:57Nothing big.
18:59It keeps me going.
19:01I may have eaten a sausage on reals in my time.
19:04That's spicy lamb rolls.
19:06My speciality.
19:12What do you do?
19:13I have a sister.
19:14I work for the Bristol City Council.
19:19Listen, I'm not very good at getting served, but, um, can I buy you a drink?
19:32One more and I'll be drunk.
19:38I'm a mum.
19:39To be honest, I am, uh, I'm a bit bored of this place.
19:45Have you, have you got somewhere with your dough?
19:50Uh, sure.
19:51Whatever.
19:52Jonathan?igerent?
19:54To be honest.
20:00We see you later
20:01in the morning now, what's the auntie bodas? Ugh! Ha ha
20:07ha.
20:09actively ending in a
20:10month. It's such a
20:13and you have to see me. Take me representation soon,
20:13I love who I enjoy doing.
20:16Hey, wход me!
20:37Are you okay?
20:40I'll just say you're in great shape.
20:43Better shape than me.
21:04Are you okay?
21:06Am I going too fast?
21:11I'm sorry.
21:12This was your idea, wasn't it?
21:17That's not your idea.
21:19It's not, I'm sorry if I...
21:21No, it's not you, I'm sorry.
21:26It's okay, I like you.
21:28Shall I?
21:30I can make a cup of tea.
21:32Some biscuits, maybe we can talk about it.
21:35I am.
21:38I'm.
21:40I can't.
21:41Where are you going?
21:43Can I call you?
21:45I don't know.
21:47No.
21:50Anna?
21:52You've done nothing on this.
21:53It's my mistake.
21:56Please, please don't.
21:57I don't want this.
22:00I'm not ready.
22:02I don't want this.
22:05I don't want this.
22:08I don't want this.
22:11I don't want this.
22:14I don't want this.
22:16I don't want this.
22:17I don't want this.
22:18I don't want this.
22:18I don't want this.
22:18I don't want this.
22:18I don't want this.
22:19I don't want this.
22:19I don't want this.
22:19I don't want this.
22:19I don't want this.
22:20I don't want this.
22:22I don't want this.
22:23I don't want this.
22:26I don't want this.
22:31Oh, my God.
23:09Father Hicks? Father Bennett?
23:13Call me William.
23:14Oh, David.
23:21Okay, so you'll be meeting him in the multi-faith room.
23:24It's up to you if you want someone in the room with you.
23:26I'll be okay.
23:27I think he generally needs one to cancel.
23:52God, stay now.
23:54You asked for me?
23:56Yes.
23:58I was surprised.
24:00Yeah.
24:05My hand's a priest.
24:07Where's the man?
24:10There's a priest.
24:18What do you want from me?
24:24I, um...
24:29They told me she's going to be okay.
24:33I asked if I could call her, but they said no.
24:37You thought they might allow it?
24:38I didn't know.
24:39That's why I asked.
24:40Why do you want to speak to her?
24:41Because I love her.
24:46I wanted to hear her voice.
24:47Here she was...
24:50Here she wasn't in too much pain.
24:54What pain did you cause?
25:00I know, I know, I know.
25:06Have you, um...
25:10Will you visit her?
25:12I have.
25:16And is she...
25:17She's in pretty brass shape.
25:21I don't know.
25:29I don't know...
25:31How to stop.
25:39If she gives evidence against me, they'll give me two years, maybe, and...
25:43I'll be released on condition that I stay away from her, but she'll find me, because...
25:47That's her way, and then I'll just do it again.
25:50You assumed a lot of things in that statement.
25:51Of course you won't, and I'll find someone else.
25:57I can smell it on them.
26:01The woman.
26:04The women who won't say no.
26:07The women that'll take it, and I know who they are.
26:09Sounds like...
26:10Or what, you think there weren't others before her?
26:12Others during her?
26:16Yeah, it doesn't take a lot for me to get women.
26:19These hands have broken three jaws.
26:21I've stamped on hands.
26:22I've shattered legs, pelvises, eye sockets.
26:25One girl I almost ripped her ear clean off.
26:27What can you say to that?
26:28You sound almost proud.
26:30My mum.
26:33She wore it with a hunch.
26:37Walking around the house with a bunch of washing and a cheap plastic basket, and this saggy face, and this
26:43hunch.
26:47Like she was always waiting for the gut punch.
26:49Why did you want me to hear that?
26:52What's the question?
26:56I'm thinking I need to kill myself.
26:59And then I know that that is a sin, but I'm thinking it's all that I've got.
27:07Here's the only way to stop me.
27:15And I'm asking for your guidance, Summer.
27:43Okay.
27:48I think that you need help.
27:51Tried it, it didn't work.
27:53I think you need to try again.
27:57Brother Bennett told me the counselling service here.
27:59No, no. I just want to hurt them too.
28:01They think they're so fucking clever. They never are.
28:03I am actually clever. I can see how fucking thick they are.
28:06And I won't have it.
28:09Do you think I'm clever?
28:10You? You're not as clever as you think.
28:14And you are weak.
28:21I can smote the booze on you now.
28:26Fine.
28:28But I've smote the booze on you before.
28:32And I know you go to those meetings.
28:35I've got friends in those meetings and they know you're weak too.
28:38Why does it matter what I think?
28:39Because I have said this!
28:44You are my priest.
28:46I've never much felt like you're a priest.
28:50You can talk to any priest.
28:52Maybe someone was some distance, Father Bennett.
28:55I don't know them. They could be kiddie fiddlers.
28:57Or worse still, the pious fuckers who think that everything is easy.
29:00You're weak!
29:06But you're a good man.
29:08I've seen you.
29:09And I know you're good.
29:11And you have been good to my daughter.
29:14I trust your judgment.
29:17I don't want this last act to be a sin.
29:21I want it to be an act of penance.
29:23And God is not talking to me right now.
29:25So I need to know from you.
29:26I need to know that.
29:27I need to be sure that this is...
29:32That penance is right.
29:46I need to know that this is all I want to say.
29:49Good. Yeah, you're sinking.
29:54Well, there it is.
29:55I know I've said all I want to say.
29:59I'll trust your word.
30:08Yes or no.
30:09First foster home I went to was fine,
30:13but they were only doing emergency care.
30:15Second was okay, but we didn't get on.
30:19Third foster family I went to, I was...
30:23five.
30:24I lived there for two years until I was seven.
30:28The other kid there was 14.
30:32I won't give him his name because
30:35he doesn't deserve it.
30:37To be honest, I don't need to hear the personal stuff.
30:39He thought I made too much noise.
30:41He liked to pinch me.
30:44Just little hard pinches that no one saw.
30:47And I was a pretty scared child and I let him.
30:51And then it escalated a little.
30:55He'd punch me.
30:57Little rabbit punches, he'd call them.
31:00He'd push me off things and he'd...
31:04do everything he could.
31:06Little things to...
31:10He enjoyed my pain.
31:11I'm not finding this interesting.
31:13I just want to know.
31:13I didn't want to talk to my support worker about it
31:15because I thought it was this or an institution.
31:18And I had my own room with this family
31:20and I really enjoyed the food.
31:22And I had a couple of friends at school
31:24that I liked to play with.
31:27And then...
31:28the people who became my parents
31:30started to visit.
31:33And they were really special.
31:35Everyone could see.
31:37They...
31:38smelled good.
31:40They were Catholic.
31:41Everyone knew that religious adopters were the best kind.
31:44The third time they visited...
31:47He...
31:48followed me into the toilet.
31:51And he slammed my head into the bowl
31:54and he held it.
31:55He tried to hold it into the water.
31:56He tried to drown me in the toilet water.
31:58But there wasn't enough water in the bottom of the bowl.
32:01And so he pushed his hands around my head
32:04and I was bleeding.
32:06He strangled me.
32:13He strangled me.
32:16So hard.
32:18I was consciousness.
32:22I...
32:23I don't know how...
32:27I know who saved me.
32:32I was taken away from that foster family.
32:35Immediately taken...
32:35Actually taken into...
32:37But a Catholic who adopted me.
32:43My point...
32:45Is...
32:45Actually, I have two points.
32:47My first is...
32:48I understand pain.
32:50I understand people who want to inflict pain.
32:56My second point...
32:57My second point...
32:58Is...
32:59That boy, me...
33:03I had no one...
33:06To talk to.
33:07No one.
33:10And...
33:10I...
33:11I thought since then...
33:12I resolved...
33:13I would never let...
33:14Anyone...
33:15Be alone like that...
33:16Like I was again.
33:21But...
33:21But I think...
33:23You do need to be alone, Phil.
33:27Penance...
33:28Is about change.
33:29It's not about ends.
33:33If you commit the same sin...
33:35You can't just clean it off.
33:37And you can't think one act...
33:38Cleans the slate.
33:39It doesn't...
33:40God doesn't work like that.
33:42God loves.
33:43But God also expects.
33:44And what does He expect?
33:45He expects love.
33:49He expects...
33:50Love.
33:52For yourself...
33:53And for others.
33:55And He expects you to be the best love.
33:59John chapter 4, verse 8.
34:01Dear friends, let us love one another...
34:03For love comes from God.
34:04Everyone who loves...
34:05Has been born of God...
34:06And knows God.
34:17So no.
34:17No.
34:18I will not sit in judgment on your head.
34:20It's a sin how you've lived.
34:21And if you kill yourself...
34:22It'll be a sin how you die.
34:26But I will say this.
34:29Yeah, you're right.
34:30I am weak.
34:33But you are weaker.
34:35If you think...
34:36You truly have no way of helping yourself.
34:41And I will be...
34:42I will do...
34:44Everything I can...
34:46To help Bianca see this through.
34:47So you stay in here...
34:50For a very long time.
34:57I need help.
35:11I need help.
35:14I need help.
35:38Hi. Hello. This is a surprise.
35:45I thought about calling. I didn't want to catch you unawares.
35:49You caught me unawares on your last visit, so there's there.
35:54And you're cooking.
35:57The James family invited us over. I thought I'd make my apple cake.
36:01Chris? Chris?
36:07Don't let me stop you.
36:10Do you want to help?
36:13Yeah. Of course.
36:25Hello.
36:26She's helping me now. You can go back to your room.
36:30Nice to see you.
36:32And you, Dad.
36:32Are you well?
36:33We're cooking.
36:47That was an odd thing to do, wasn't it? I forgot I had some out.
36:51Sure.
36:53You decor and slice. I'll keep working on the rest of it.
36:57Okay.
37:01I've been making a yoghurt and apple cake, actually.
37:06And we had a farmer who had swapped me.
37:12Doesn't matter.
37:15I hate it.
37:16I hate it when you do that.
37:18When you're superior like that.
37:20It doesn't matter.
37:23And you are the arbiter of...
37:27I...
37:27I...
37:29I'm just...
37:30I'm just here to see you, Mum.
37:32I just want to help you make a cake.
37:42I like thin slices.
37:45Feels like they melt into the cake when they're thin.
38:12I need a lift, Dad.
38:15Okay.
38:15Hey.
38:16Where to?
38:43Hello, Father.
38:45Hello.
38:46Hello.
38:46Um...
38:47I just wondered if Anna...
38:49If I could talk to Anna.
38:52Um...
38:52No, I'm afraid you can't.
38:54Look, I know I've made mistakes.
38:56I just want to explain or try to set things right.
39:01Just talk to her.
39:02She's gone back.
39:04Back where?
39:15She, um...
39:15She, um...
39:16She left me a letter.
39:18You probably thought I'd try to convince her different.
39:27Do you want to come in?
39:28She's made a mistake.
39:32I think you've thought that a few times.
39:34She has.
39:38She took her skin off for you.
39:44Maybe she just wanted to put it on again.
39:49Feel safe again.
39:55Yeah.
39:58Oh.
40:06Oh.
40:11Oh, it is you.
40:13And looking so healthy.
40:15Look at that lovely hair.
40:18Hello, Polly.
40:20Hello, Agnes.
40:23I didn't think I'd see you again.
40:26You have light all through you.
40:29Hm.
40:45Hello.
40:49I...
40:50Are you in the middle of something or something or something?
40:53Stay, please.
40:58Please don't make this humiliating.
41:00I wasn't intending to.
41:03But...
41:04May I ask why?
41:07This is my home.
41:09No.
41:10It is a home of God.
41:17Did he reject you?
41:19No.
41:21Are you going to change your mind again?
41:24No.
41:25Sorry to ask.
41:26I hope you...
41:28know why I have...
41:29Is there still a place for me?
41:34Of course, there is.
41:37I can do good work here.
41:40You always did.
41:41But...
41:42I...
41:43I...
41:44I have my habit.
41:47If you want to...
41:50You may push it back on.
41:55You are loved here.
41:58And we are pleased you've found your way back.
42:04I love you too.
42:08And...
42:09I will try not to expect you to be the same person now as you were when you left us.
42:17Though you do seem to be just as irritating.
42:21In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.
42:25The Lord be with you.
42:27And with your spirit.
42:31Lord, we have sinned against you.
42:35Lord, have mercy.
42:37Lord, have mercy.
42:40Lord, hear our prayer to fill us as you filled your Son with love.
42:45To fight the world.
42:46Lord...
42:48Help us...
42:52To...
42:54Help...
42:56Help...
42:56Help us to...
42:58Amen.
43:00Amen.
43:02Show us.
43:05Show us your mercy...
43:08And your love.
43:10And grant us your salvation.
43:15May Almighty God have mercy on us.
43:18Forgive our sins.
43:21And bring us to everlasting life.
43:24Amen.
43:27Amen.
43:46Amen.
43:55Amen.
44:12Amen.
44:14Amen.
44:43Amen.
44:44Amen.
44:55Amen.
45:03Amen.
45:04Amen.
45:04Amen.
45:04Amen.
45:05Amen.
45:05Amen.
45:07Amen.
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