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Temptation Island - Season 7 - Episode 06
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00:16You
00:45Yeah, yeah, I can't be on your son. This is my side
00:51Did you think coming into this experience you sitting in a bed with some girl
00:57Like there's a physical attraction, but also like, you know, she won't know herself like
01:02It's hard to act like there's not something there
01:05Looks like our bodies
01:10wanna make some waves
01:12I got the sexy sexy sweet you crave
01:19You're a giant
01:21Oh my god
01:29I want you
01:32I want you to come
01:34With me
01:37Oh my god
01:39Jack
01:40I want you to come with me
01:45I want you to come with me
01:49I want you to come with me
02:19I don't know it just turned into something crazy like overnight
02:21It's so weird like I'm about to be like back in the game
02:23That's crazy
02:25You are back in the game
02:27Yeah, I'm back in the game
02:30I'm gonna have to learn how to like actually talk to guys
02:34Okay, I'll give you practice
02:36You're strengthening your arsenal
02:48You're strengthening your arsenal
02:50What's up
02:50How do you feel?
02:53I feel
02:54I feel shitty
02:55Can you talk about it?
02:57Yeah
03:00Yeah
03:01Let's just cut straight to the point
03:04I'm sorry
03:05Because I feel like
03:06Me going into the tent last night
03:08I was kind of running from my feelings a little bit
03:11And I feel like
03:13I did that
03:14Because I was scared
03:16I just came to the realization that like
03:20I really fucked this up
03:23I just hope that
03:25You end up picking like
03:29Yourself
03:30Not at the end of this
03:31Just in like everything that you do
03:32I think you haven't been the main character of your own life for so long
03:36And it's time for you to like
03:39Make yourself
03:40That
03:41I'm starting to realize that
03:43It's scary
03:44I think I came to terms in like realization last night
03:47Like
03:48Jack you're an idiot
03:49You're not an idiot though
03:50You
03:51Are living the experience the way that you should
03:54You're answering questions
03:56And it's scary
03:57But at some point you gotta answer the questions
04:00Jack is here to live his single life
04:03That's exactly why
04:04I wasn't upset
04:06That he went in the tent with Jessenia
04:08I think he needs to really find himself here first
04:12But it was so refreshing
04:15And like a breath of fresh air
04:16To hear him actually be emotional
04:20Yeah I wanna
04:20I just wanna hug
04:21I feel like you need a hug
04:23Really bad
04:24I deserve better
04:26I'm not gonna settle
04:28I would rather walk away
04:31Cause I know it's never gonna change
04:33Yeah I know
04:35I'm the one to let go
04:37But it's cause I finally know my word
04:45Something's falling into place
04:45She's laughing
04:45Are you talking about me?
04:47I told you that
04:50I was talking about you
04:51I know you were talking about me
04:52I thought I was talking about you
04:53Yeah I was
04:53I was
04:54I was
04:54I was
04:54I was
04:55I was
04:55I was
04:56I was
04:58I was
04:58I was
04:59I was
05:01I was
05:02I was
05:02I was
05:11I was
05:11What's wrong with you?
05:20You just need a hug?
05:41I was wondering when it was gonna happen, but yeah. It was great.
05:51Real. Real.
06:01I'm fucking crying.
06:03What are you crying about?
06:07Did you just kiss me?
06:08I did, I did.
06:13I could see myself leaving Temptation Island with Xavier.
06:19I'm crying.
06:21Jesus.
06:22You make me nervous.
06:24You make me nervous.
06:26This could be forever.
06:31Hit me.
06:32That water looks so good.
06:33Hit me.
06:38Hi, everybody.
06:40Hi, Mark.
06:42Oh, here we go.
06:43Mark.
06:45There he is.
06:45What's up?
06:46How are you?
06:46What up?
06:51Hi.
06:51Hi.
06:52Hello.
06:53I snuck up on you.
06:55Hi, everybody.
06:56How are you?
06:57Hi.
06:57How are you?
06:59So the reason I dropped by is to let you know, tonight I'm gonna see you at a bonfire.
07:06Should we say it together?
07:08Should we say it together?
07:08Yeah.
07:08Tonight?
07:09You have another bonfire.
07:11Tonight's another bonfire.
07:15We're getting down to it.
07:17And now, well, the stakes are higher.
07:21Right?
07:23So, you got the rest of the day to kind of get your head around that.
07:26It's not something you should dread.
07:28It's actually, there's a point where you start leaning into it because it's less comfortable to not know than it
07:35is to get the answers that you need.
07:36Right?
07:37Even if it's painful to see it.
07:39The only way out is through it.
07:43I look forward to talking to you guys.
07:45All right.
07:46See you.
07:46Thank you, Mark.
07:47You're right.
07:48Perfect.
07:49Thank you, Mark.
07:49Take it easy on us, Mark.
07:51Yeah.
07:52I'll take it as it comes.
07:54I don't know why I'm like so anxious for this one.
07:56I know.
07:57I know.
07:57I have like a pit in my stomach that I haven't had.
08:00Me too.
08:00I can just see where what I've seen could escalate and that's what's freaking me out.
08:05Yeah.
08:06Yeah.
08:06Yeah, it gives you like a sick feeling for sure.
08:08Yeah.
08:14I know, dude.
08:15I can't keep doing shit.
08:17I know.
08:17We're ready for this.
08:19Yeah.
08:19We've got this.
08:20And we got each other.
08:21Yeah.
08:22Most importantly.
08:23Yep.
08:23Look it in.
08:25One, two, three.
08:26Bonfire.
08:27Oh, God.
08:28It's the worst cheer I've ever been a part of.
08:30It sucks.
08:31Ah.
08:44I'm not worried about what Jack's going to see.
08:47He's going to see me making out with Preston.
08:49He's going to see me going into the Haven with Preston.
08:51He's going to see me and Preston having a sleepover.
08:53And I can't wait.
08:55Holding on for hope.
08:58But it's a slippery, slippery slope.
09:03The first two bonfires, they haven't been comparable to some of the other guys.
09:08But I think going into every bonfire, you're still kind of shit in your pants.
09:11Since the last bonfire, our light has gone off twice.
09:16It's going to be a very difficult bonfire for everyone.
09:21And especially, I think, one or two individuals.
09:28I feel like it just gets worse and worse every time.
09:30I'm obviously super stressed to what I'm going to see.
09:33But we're both here to figure out our relationship as a whole.
09:37And I'm just going to take everything with a grain of salt and keep my head high.
09:53What?
09:57I definitely feel as if what I'm about to see is going to bring emotions of jealousy.
10:03I feel like the worst case scenario is seeing Sydney do some sexual shit.
10:07It's like, how are you moving that fast?
10:09I mean, no sense.
10:16Yon, sup, sup, sup, sup.
10:25Welcome back to the bonfire.
10:27By now, you know what this is.
10:30You're going to see clips of your girlfriend's experience tonight.
10:33And then we'll talk about it.
10:37But tonight, we're going to do things a little different.
10:44Normally, you'd watch a single clip of your girlfriend.
10:47But tonight, I'm going to give you a choice.
10:51After your first clip, you'll have the option to go deeper.
10:55A second clip.
11:00You can choose to watch it if you think that'll help you.
11:04You can choose not to watch it if you think that's something you'd like to avoid.
11:08It's entirely up to you.
11:14Jack, we'll start with you tonight.
11:16Perfect.
11:18You good?
11:18I'm good.
11:19Okay.
11:20Let's take a look.
11:24All right, let me walk.
11:25All right.
11:26We'll get you there.
11:36Straight to it, okay?
11:48You good?
11:51You just know what to do.
11:55Okay.
12:02What comes up for you?
12:06Finally.
12:07Honestly.
12:13I'm not going to even sit here and act like that doesn't hurt me, because it does.
12:16But I'm glad she did it.
12:19I mean, this is kind of what we both needed to get out of the toxic cycle we were in.
12:26I find it interesting that your reaction to a pretty heavy clip is relief.
12:34I mean, it sucks.
12:35It hurts.
12:36Like, I don't...
12:37Like, the thought of that is just mind-boggling, but...
12:44And you can understand that she's probably had her mind boggled as well.
12:49Correct.
12:50That says a lot, too.
12:52Yeah.
12:57Let's run the second one.
12:59Okay.
13:04Did you think, coming into this experience, you'd be sleeping in a bed with some...
13:07Nope.
13:07...some girl?
13:14It's a hard watch.
13:16Hmm.
13:18Like, giant?
13:28Fuck this chick, dude.
13:31It's all good.
13:32Honestly.
13:34I'm not going to even sit here.
13:35Like, it's so hard to watch, but I feel like this is, like, this is just what we needed.
13:40Okay?
13:41Like, truthfully, like, I feel like I can just finally just be me and just focus on myself and really
13:46just do my own thing, and I think I'll get a lot farther in life that way.
13:50Do you think there's any part of you that, when you guys are at a final bonfire, you'd be able
13:55to look across from one another and maybe, as a couple, find each other again?
14:00I think, in a perfect world, uh, yeah, I mean, I'm a very forgiving person.
14:07If she could be forgiving of what I've done and we could move on and talk about it, um, I
14:16-I mean, I love her to death.
14:17I mean, I-I would love to be with her, but I just don't know if that's going to end
14:21up happening.
14:25I get it. I get it. And thanks for sharing. And I'm sorry this was painful to watch.
14:30No, it's okay.
14:33Okay, let's move on.
14:35Cole, you ready?
14:37Yep.
14:38Okay, let's take a look.
14:42I just think, like, energy is just such a big thing.
14:45It is.
14:46When I first started dating Cole, he was like, I've never heard the term energy.
14:49I was like, that's my life.
14:52Yeah.
14:52You can only meet someone to the depth, like, they've met themselves.
14:57That's literally it.
14:58Yeah.
14:59Bradley, I dare you to kiss Scarlett's toe.
15:04You're doing that.
15:05I'm down for that.
15:06You're down there.
15:07I'm down for that.
15:08Yeah!
15:12Woo!
15:13Woo!
15:14Woo!
15:14Woo!
15:15Woo!
15:15Woo!
15:15Woo!
15:18Woo!
15:18Woo!
15:20I mean, yeah, what she brought up, I've heard that story from her before.
15:25She's all about energy, the universe, things like that.
15:29I mean, what she's kind of describing to him, I mean, it's not...
15:32It doesn't come off to me as, like, special, though.
15:34She said she wants to, you know, be with me long-term,
15:37but she doesn't have that fiery connection, you know, that she's searching for.
15:43And it hurts because she expressed it, she had it in a prior relationship that was not good by any
15:49means.
15:50And so it hurts.
15:51I crossed every box for her except, at times, that, like, just fiery feeling.
15:56Well, the fiery feeling's a big deal.
15:58For sure.
15:59And that it hurts that she had it with somebody else is a good sign.
16:03Yeah.
16:04That it hurts you to think that somebody else lit the fire lets me know that there's an emotional part
16:13of you you've yet to really examine.
16:18Yeah.
16:19Yeah.
16:20Do you want to see the second clip?
16:25Yeah.
16:26Let's rip it.
16:27Rip it.
16:33Just make me look...
16:34Sick?
16:35Yeah.
16:35Yeah, duh.
16:42Your paint's gonna get all over my bikini.
16:47He's like, I see you.
16:50He gets me.
16:51I see what you're going through.
16:52And I'm like, holy fuck, like, I don't have to settle.
16:56Exactly.
17:04I don't like the word she used, settle, obviously.
17:08You know, I know the kind of man I am and what I, you know, bring to the table in
17:13the relationship
17:13and how good I do treat her and it sucks to be kind of hurt as, you know, something she'd
17:17be settling for.
17:19What is the definition of the man you think you need to be?
17:22I mean, Scarlett a lot of times in our relationship uses this term masculine energy.
17:26And she says...
17:28In a good way or a bad way?
17:29In a bad way.
17:30She expresses that I don't have it.
17:33I think masculinity is the wrong name for it and it's not fair to you.
17:37Mm-hmm.
17:38Because that's gonna send you down, I'm alpha.
17:40I climb mountains and slay dragons.
17:43You know, I'm that dude, which you are.
17:45Yeah.
17:46I suggest true masculine energy is the courage to be completely vulnerable.
17:52Yeah.
17:56I'm not really sure what else I can do at this point.
17:59Like, I'm just being, I'm just being cold.
18:01A lot of cold is fantastic.
18:04I appreciate it.
18:05I just want to access another level to save your relationship.
18:09Because I believe you love her.
18:11A lot, yeah.
18:14Okay, uh, Summit.
18:17Yeah, let's, let's get into it.
18:18My, my stomachs.
18:19All right, let's take a look.
18:20In knots.
18:25So, you remember how you said you wanted me to write you those affirmations?
18:29Mm-hmm.
18:29So, I wrote you a couple.
18:32I don't need to change a thing to be amazing.
18:35You're so sweet.
18:37You're literally like the sweetest man ever.
18:39These are things that you should believe within yourself?
18:41I'm made to think that I'm, like, too much or not enough of this and too much of that.
18:48Was that Summit that made you feel the way?
18:50Yeah.
18:51It's just like a mind to fuck.
18:54Like, there was a night where I was, like, in his room, beside myself, and his friends were outside with
19:01some random girls.
19:02And he was like, I'm gonna go hang out with them.
19:05Left me crying in his room.
19:08Went outside.
19:09I watched him through the window, where he was, like, dancing, having so much fun, while your girlfriend's sitting upstairs
19:16sobbing.
19:17Like, how can you do that to someone you love?
19:20It's, like, sociopathic.
19:29Uh, yeah, I mean, it's right on theme with my last two bonfires.
19:36I'm here to, like, make sure Kaylee's the one, and it sounds like she's here because she's... I'm not fulfilling
19:42her.
19:43And so it's like we're both just super unsure in the relationship, and that sucks, and that's scary.
19:49Feels like pressure, doesn't it?
19:51Yeah, it does.
19:53Do you think you're ready for forever?
19:56Well, that's why I'm here, you know, is to decide if I am ready for forever.
20:00I just don't want to, like, blink and it's all over, and I want to squeeze the juice out of
20:05life as much as humanly possible.
20:08And it's scary thinking that, you know, I'm just, like, not tied down. Tied down is the wrong word.
20:15There's no wrong words.
20:16As a matter of fact, whatever comes out of your mouth first is what we work with, so just don't
20:20at it.
20:21Yeah, okay, tied down.
20:23It's just, I like Kaylee every second. I love Kaylee every second.
20:28That I need is what I'm trying to figure out.
20:31You can't will commitment.
20:36Do you want to see more?
20:41I don't probably want to see it, but...
20:43No.
20:44Okay.
20:46Mikey.
20:47What's up?
20:49What's up?
20:49How are you?
20:51I'm great.
20:52Thanks for asking.
20:52Let's... let's work on you.
20:54Let's take a look.
21:02Goddamn.
21:08Very intimate.
21:11Am I in trouble?
21:16You just needed a hug?
21:23What the fuck?
21:24No.
21:26What's up?
21:31Oh.
21:37Goddamn.
21:41Oh.
21:41Oh.
21:43Oh.
21:45Oh.
21:45Oh.
21:45Oh.
21:46Oh.
21:49Oh.
21:53Oh, oh.
22:01Wow my life is my life is gonna be different and that's okay it's okay for my life to be
22:07different
22:26I thought this was I thought this was it for me I thought it was I thought it was gonna
22:30be me and
22:30Sydney right into the sunset and sometimes you have to go through certain things to know if she's
22:37the one I don't want to offer false hope right because I don't know how things go but I can
22:45tell
22:45you the only chance you have in life is to keep doing what you're doing to discover more about
22:51you and at the end when you get to talk to one another we'll see if that makes a difference
22:57see sir you want to see the other clip let's do it you sure positive okay let's take a look
23:13I put a big-ass heart on your back hey that's all I need come on now I don't even
23:18know what to say
23:18about Xavier anymore like everything with him feels so natural everything feels so genuine he
23:23just makes me feel like seen in her and I feel like that's all a girl wants and then oh
23:34oh shit oh oh
23:49yeah sexual um it's a very sexual connection there and it's just kind of it hurts like she's she's
24:00she's like two weeks ago she sat front row at my sister's wedding and she sat right next to my
24:05mom
24:06and she looked my mom in her eyes and said I love your son and that's not a woman that
24:10would do that
24:11to some like somebody that she loves I just want you to just be honest with me do you think
24:18it
24:20do you do you think it's time for me to shut that door I just don't think it's that simple
24:25okay do I
24:27think she's experiencing a real connection with somebody Mikey I think she is but do I think you shut
24:36a door hell no when we show up at these final bonfires if you've done the work you're a different
24:47person yeah that conversation doesn't resemble the conversations you've had in the past they're at
24:54another level yeah I'm just finally happy to know what it is like she's not thinking about the gaining
25:01of the trust within the relationship she's gaining she's gaining something deeper from what I see with
25:07somebody else the thing about this place you come here saying these are the problems in my relationship
25:15I hate to tell you it's never what brings you here that's the actual problem yeah at least I can
25:20say I'm growing and learning and I wish there was a softer easier path for you yeah me too this
25:26is
25:27painful but it's okay well it's it's gonna be okay there you go all right gentlemen you've made it
25:36through another bonfire it's a lot to process I'm gonna let you go but there are some changes I need
25:43to let you know about when you come back to the villa tonight the temptation haven will be gone so
25:50what's
25:50next tomorrow you'll have the chance to record a 30-second video message for your girlfriend now
25:57you can choose to do it where you can choose not to do it it's entirely up to you okay
26:03and so you know
26:05I'm giving the women the exact same choice which means some of you could receive a message from your
26:11girlfriends and some of you may not the decision will be theirs all right that's it guys good night
26:34um I'm hurt I came in here I set my boundaries and I stuck with them and looks like Sydney
26:41fell for
26:42temptation I'm kind of past the tears point of this because I'm like I got the answers I need it
26:47like it's black and white you can't fake that words you can you feel me get a little misconstrued but
26:54action she stood on business yeah I'm feeling hurt annoyed sad angry she was telling me not to hurt her
27:10little heart and crying and she's obviously doing things to hurt my heart and I don't even know if
27:14I'm on her fucking mind when she's going through this process with whatever Bradley so it's for sure
27:20it's tough my girlfriend called me a sociopath did she say that word yeah I was at socio I wish
27:26I had
27:27your problems how am I a sociopath like I'm like very endearing and caring and I treat her like a
27:33princess
27:34and I do so much to try and make that woman happy and it doesn't work I don't know what
27:42to do
27:42I can't believe she's calling me a sociopath
27:49what hit hardest for me was just the fact that when I cheated she knows how I felt and
27:59I don't really see that in her I feel like she just took everything we've ever done together
28:04for granted and doesn't care go back to the creed I just want to go home
28:24every bonfire so far I feel like has been the exact same I have gotten no clarity and no answer
28:29so I
28:30just still really feel like I'm in the dark what I've wanted from this is the accountability but so
28:37far I haven't seen anything along those lines so it's really hard it's crazy how like your
28:46perspective changes as that's what scares me yeah at least I'm not going into this one blindsided yeah
28:54at least I'm not going into it like he's gonna cheat I know he's gonna cheat like I know what
29:00I'm
29:00gonna see yeah I'm going into this bonfire prepared I know Jack was the one who set those red lights
29:06off
29:06I can't tell y'all what this man's capable of he's capable of it all
29:21obviously there's a fear that I'm gonna see something from Summit that I don't want to see
29:26I think I've been just like working on myself to improve our relationship and if I'm not seeing that from
29:34him I'm gonna be really frustrated
29:41honestly I feel like after the first bonfire you know I stated that I was done with Mikey and I
29:46was
29:46I said that because I wanted to be able to stand on that but it's always hard going back to
29:51these bonfires
29:51you know hearing him talk hearing him laugh seeing him smile like all those things that would usually bring
29:58me joy don't anymore
30:09good to see you all
30:10good to see you too
30:13welcome back to the bonfire
30:15you guys have done some amazing work
30:17in the bonfires we've had
30:19coming up to today
30:21tonight's gonna be a little different
30:25here's how it's gonna work you're gonna see a clip
30:26just like we've done before
30:29and we'll talk about it just like we've done before
30:32and then after that
30:33you're gonna have an option
30:35you can choose to see more
30:40a second clip
30:45got it?
30:46got it
30:48we'll start with Kaylee
30:53it feels like I'm sacrificing a lot
30:56yeah
30:56to like be in the relationship with Kaylee
30:59like I just don't really know what I can do differently to be like
31:03yeah
31:05appreciated
31:05it's like go out there and find this like perfect boyfriend
31:09that you keep talking about
31:11yeah
31:11clearly it's not me
31:12right
31:13instead of putting me through this and trying to change me
31:15like why are you dating me if I'm such a shitty boyfriend
31:17yeah
31:18it's exhausting
31:24okay
31:25okay
31:26he's said that to me many times
31:29it shows me that he is
31:32still in denial of where the relationship is lacking
31:36and he's not learning anything
31:38what have you defined you want
31:41your relationship to be
31:43are you ready for that next level of forever
31:46is that what you're
31:47that's what you want
31:48yes
31:48of course
31:50I want someone that wants to be with me
31:52and wants to put in the effort to make that work
31:55not someone that just
31:56takes the back seat
31:58and wants it to be easy
32:00it looks like he doesn't want to put in that hard work
32:02to make it work
32:04and it makes me wonder like
32:06do you love me enough
32:08if that's so hard for you to
32:11do the bare minimum
32:14it's not a lot to ask
32:15no
32:17okay
32:20have you seen enough
32:26I'll see another one
32:28okay
32:29let's watch the next clip
32:57she's good
33:04disrespectful
33:06that is not showing me him making any effort at all
33:10towards the relationship
33:12and that makes you feel how
33:15makes me feel worthless
33:19you're not worthless
33:20you're not worthless
33:23you're not worthless
33:25you are a prize
33:27you are somebody's forever
33:30and
33:31you've started the process of
33:33defining it
33:34recognizing it
33:35making space for it
33:37and demanding it
33:37yes
33:38I will demand that
33:42I'm
33:42I'm gonna have a lot of questions for that boy
33:44when I see him
33:46and I did call him a boy for a reason
33:52okay
33:54Cheyenne
33:56you ready
33:57I'm ready
33:59let's take a look
34:00yeah
34:04would you go in there with me
34:06oh my god
34:07is anyone gonna see us
34:10that's so messy
34:12let's go
34:14let's hurry up
34:19oh my god
34:24this is so bad
34:25Jack
34:26Jack you're crazy
34:27no
34:28are you trying to be
34:34I'm a bra
34:35Jack
34:36you're crazy
34:46that's Jack
34:48I mean he showed me that
34:50since the first bonfire
34:51so
34:52I'm not surprised that I'm
34:54continuing to get the same shit from him
34:56this is what I get with him
34:58and I'm glad that he's showing
34:59the whole world who he is
35:01because this is Jack
35:03so who's Cheyenne
35:06I don't know
35:08well what have you learned so far about you
35:11um
35:12I've learned
35:16you're the coolest person
35:17she's a fucking mess
35:19like what
35:20well the girls make me feel like
35:22I'm like the best person ever
35:23because you are
35:24they made it
35:25yeah
35:25I don't know
35:26I'm realizing that
35:28I am fun
35:29and I can have fun
35:30without Jack
35:32and there's way more out there
35:34besides these three women
35:36supporting you
35:37anybody else in the house
35:38helping you through this
35:41oh Mark
35:44um
35:46yeah
35:46so I have a
35:47BFF of the house
35:48his name's Preston
35:49and yeah
35:50he's been helping me get through it
35:51I'm maybe 20 feet from you
35:53but I can
35:53feel you blushing from here
35:55I'm not
35:58okay
35:58I'm not
35:59no yeah
35:59he's just a great guy
36:00just your BFF
36:01he's my BFF
36:02yeah
36:03so I know you've thought about
36:06not
36:06I think I'm falling in love with Preston
36:08I want to be with him
36:09I think you've thought about
36:10what would it be like
36:11with a guy like that
36:12so what do you want
36:14in a partner
36:15what have you discovered
36:16that you want
36:17that you're not getting
36:19I want respect
36:20I want my partner
36:21to respect me
36:23and love me
36:24and provide for me
36:26and just make me feel
36:27like I'm the most beautiful person
36:29in the world
36:29I want him to scream my name
36:31from the mountaintops
36:31and make me feel like
36:32I'm worth
36:35more than what Jack does
36:37and
36:39I think I'm already starting
36:40to know
36:41that there's other people
36:41out there
36:42that are better than him
36:43so
36:44are you done
36:45or you want to see more
36:52I'm good
36:52I've seen everything
36:53that I need to see
36:54Jack has hurt me enough
36:56these clips stick with me
36:57for like
36:57the next
36:59days after
37:00and I
37:00I don't want to see anymore
37:01I don't want to see him
37:02period
37:03like I don't
37:04ever
37:05I don't want to see him
37:06ever again
37:07I've seen enough
37:09your decision
37:10I honor your decision
37:12that's my decision
37:13Sydney
37:14you ready
37:16I'm ready
37:17let's take a look
37:25what'd they know
37:26oh
37:27okay
37:27I'm scared of India
37:30bad news
37:32bad news
37:33you
37:34you gotta resist temptation
37:35and you gotta
37:37see the temptation
37:38in order to resist
37:39you have to
37:39see the temptation
37:40in order to resist it
37:41that's real
37:42that's true
37:43that's real
37:43and I feel like
37:44I saw the temptation
37:45and I resisted it
37:48that's good
37:49I'm glad that
37:50he has
37:51you know
37:51respect
37:52in what
37:53our values were
37:54in terms of
37:54not touching
37:55but
37:56at the end of the day
37:57it doesn't change anything
37:59could it be
38:00that subconsciously
38:02you were looking
38:02for a reason
38:03to say
38:04I'm done
38:07honestly Mark
38:08not at all
38:08because
38:10he's not being
38:11who I need him to be
38:12the first thing
38:13he said
38:14in the first two days
38:15was
38:16I'm
38:16my biggest fear
38:17is falling for one of you
38:18I'm gonna shoot my shot
38:19with India
38:20and I'm like
38:20whoa
38:21that's not what we came here for
38:22and that's not what you told me
38:23how much of your ability
38:25to say that
38:25has to do
38:26with what you found
38:30so much
38:30let's just start there
38:32the night after
38:34I believe it was
38:34the first bonfire
38:35the guys made us
38:36some cards
38:38and
38:38my card
38:39from Xavier
38:40like
38:40you could tell
38:41he had took his time
38:42designing it
38:43and everything
38:43and it was a little prize
38:45and I had told him
38:46like I always
38:47I want to be the prize
38:48and it was like
38:49peel here
38:50I peeled it back
38:50and it said
38:51you're the prize
38:52Sydney
38:53oh
38:54so like
38:55seeing that
38:56it's like
38:56thank you
38:58for seeing me
38:58like
38:59Jesus
39:00it's amazing
39:01so now
39:02no pressure on you
39:04but
39:06could this be a real thing
39:09yeah
39:09it definitely
39:11could be a real thing
39:12it could
39:13I would love that
39:14he's a great guy
39:15just exploring our connection
39:17I feel more comfortable
39:19and
39:19it definitely
39:20could turn into
39:21something real
39:21all right
39:22let's see where that goes
39:24want to see more
39:32I've seen what I needed to see
39:34what I came to the island to see
39:35and
39:37I'm good where I'm at
39:39promise
39:39I'm good where I'm at
39:40all right
39:41that leaves Scarlet
39:44let's see where Cole's at
39:48I feel like she just doesn't
39:50got me
39:50you know
39:51and she always prides herself
39:52on my team
39:53and like
39:53getting each other's backs
39:55and I'm just like
39:55I don't feel like she has my back
39:57right now
39:57I have hers
39:58yeah
40:01it hurts bro
40:02yeah
40:03I just feel like she doesn't care
40:05just fucking rubs me
40:06in the wrong way man
40:10I'm solid with that chick
40:12I have so much to give
40:14so much to offer
40:16my girlfriend's like
40:17I don't even know if they fucking
40:18even see that
40:18yeah
40:20I'm sick of just every night
40:22going to bed
40:22just staring at the fucking ceiling
40:23and can't fall asleep
40:24for like hours
40:25and then
40:26waking up in the morning
40:27food doesn't even look good
40:28like anything
40:29I'm just like
40:29yeah what are we doing
40:30so I can just
40:30take my
40:31hopefully take my mind off it
40:32and I just hope the sun goes down
40:33and I can fall asleep
40:34and wake up next day
40:35I just keep ticking off days now
40:36I mean
40:48kind of what I've been saying all along
40:50since being here
40:51like one of the things
40:52that has become so clear
40:53when I talk about the missing piece
40:55like that's it
40:56like I just want to see
40:57if he can go deeper
40:59and like express to him
41:00that like I have pinpointed
41:01I think this is the root
41:03of everything
41:05and like
41:05can you meet me there
41:07and then
41:08you know
41:08if he can't
41:09then that's the answer
41:09I don't think we'll ever align on it
41:11where does that leave you
41:13I'm confused
41:15because
41:16he has so many amazing qualities
41:17that I do love
41:18what do you do
41:20do you
41:20give up
41:21lack of depth
41:23for someone
41:24that truly
41:25just
41:25loves you
41:27with their entire being
41:29or do you have someone
41:30that
41:30half ass loves you
41:32but
41:32goes deeper
41:33are those our only choices
41:35no
41:36so what you're saying is
41:37there's no one else
41:38who's going to love you
41:39as deeply as that
41:40I mean
41:41there probably is
41:42but
41:44I don't want to go looking
41:47then one might argue
41:49that you're playing it
41:50as surface as he appears to be
41:55I think it's just scary
41:57so before we go any further
41:58do you want to see more
42:07okay
42:08I have some thoughts
42:10the thing I get most worried about
42:12in any relationship
42:13is acquiescence
42:15he's
42:16pretty great
42:17yeah
42:18he leaves me feeling
42:21worried every time
42:21he leaves the house
42:22and I can't have a deep
42:23conversation with him
42:24and I'm never sure
42:25if I can trust him
42:27but he's pretty great
42:28and he really
42:29really loves me
42:32yeah
42:32not what I want
42:34so what do you want
42:36I want my soul
42:38to be set
42:38on fire
42:40okay
42:42I'm down for that
42:43yeah
42:44is Cole the guy
42:45who can set your soul
42:46on fire
42:51it says a lot
42:52that you don't have
42:52an answer for that yet
42:54I don't have the answer
42:57well you've got
42:58some choices to make
43:02okay you guys
43:02we made it through
43:03another one together
43:04good for you
43:05when you return
43:06to the villa tonight
43:07there's gonna be
43:07a little change
43:07okay
43:11the temptation haven
43:13will be gone
43:14thank the lord
43:16for some of you
43:17it served its purpose
43:19and for others of you
43:20it hasn't served at all
43:21but nonetheless
43:22it's done
43:23so
43:24what's next
43:27it's time to decide
43:28if there's something
43:29on your heart
43:32something you want
43:33to share with your
43:34boyfriend
43:35because tomorrow
43:36you'll have the chance
43:38to record a 30 second
43:39video message
43:40for your boyfriend
43:42now you can choose
43:43to do it
43:45or you can choose
43:46not to do it
43:47that decision
43:48is entirely yours
43:50and just so you know
43:51I'll be giving
43:52the same choice
43:52to the men
43:54so you may receive
43:55a video clip
43:56or you may not
43:58that decision
43:58will be theirs
44:00I appreciate all
44:01four of you
44:02that's it
44:03thank you
44:04thank you Mark
44:05good night you guys
44:06good night
44:13I'm just like
44:14really struggling
44:14with the thought
44:15right now
44:16that Cole and I
44:16might not be meant
44:17for one another
44:18I feel like Bradley
44:20and I communicate
44:21without even speaking
44:22and Cole and I
44:25I mean we can't
44:26even communicate
44:27with words
44:29I know Cole
44:31means well
44:32but some things
44:34you can
44:34you just can't force
44:36and that is
44:39a soulful
44:40connection
44:42was it an illusion
44:47like it's just like
44:48you're sitting there
44:49enjoying yourself
44:50like running around
44:51naked having so much fun
44:53like
44:55I'm just glad
44:56you feel like
44:57I didn't exist
44:59whenever I ask
45:00for an ounce
45:02of more effort
45:03that's what I'm
45:04met with
45:04is go find
45:05someone else
45:06that can give
45:07you that
45:07and to hear
45:08him still saying
45:09that is just
45:10like a slap
45:11in the face
45:12it's like
45:12when are you
45:13gonna step up
45:17you can keep
45:18your excuses
45:22Mikey's a good person
45:23you know what I'm saying
45:24yeah
45:24in the sense of
45:25like him
45:26resisting that
45:27but it's like
45:28choose me every
45:28fucking time
45:29yeah
45:29seeing the clips
45:30is like
45:32showing me
45:32that I'm moving on
45:34and that
45:34I don't feel
45:35the same way
45:36I accepted
45:37the bare minimum
45:38for a very long time
45:40from Mikey
45:40and I want more
45:42for myself
45:44wait do you guys
45:45think he's gonna
45:46send me a video
45:47oh yeah
45:48I think he will
45:49I am realizing
45:52with this experience
45:52that Jack
45:53was never worth
45:54my time
45:54I've been looking
45:56for someone
45:57in Jack
45:58that he just
45:59he can't get
46:18I really hope
46:20that I can see
46:20like
46:21some sort of
46:23proof
46:24that he has been
46:25putting in the work
46:26and
46:27digging a little deeper
46:28I'm tired of feeling
46:30like I'm fighting
46:31for this relationship
46:32so much more
46:32than he is
46:34I still
46:35am holding on
46:36to so much hope
46:37and I still think
46:38that there is
46:40a chance
46:41for this to work
46:43I'm just at my
46:44point of like
46:45knowing what my line
46:46is for when
46:46I'm not gonna
46:47go forward
46:49but
46:49that doesn't
46:50stop me
46:51from still loving him
46:53and
46:54hoping for the best
47:07baby girl
47:09I love and miss you
47:10beyond words
47:12not a moment
47:12passes by
47:13where I don't think
47:14of your big
47:14beautiful blue eyes
47:15and your little head
47:16nestled up on my chest
47:18this experience
47:19is more emotional
47:20than I ever
47:20could have imagined
47:22the clips I've seen
47:23during the bonfire
47:24make it nearly
47:24unbearable
47:26I'm proud
47:27that I've never
47:27put you down
47:28that's why
47:29it makes it
47:29all the much harder
47:30to see the way
47:31you speak of me
47:32so poorly
47:34I'm worried
47:34that you're not
47:35proud of the man
47:36I am
47:37I don't care
47:38about our past
47:39I just care about
47:40us and our future
47:41I just want us
47:42to be happy
47:59I love Sumit so much
48:01but if he's saying
48:03the past is the past
48:04then I don't know
48:05if he has
48:06fully
48:07you know
48:09realized
48:10like the things
48:11that you have
48:12said and done
48:12to me
48:13will leave a scar
48:15on me
48:15for the rest
48:16of my life
48:16I want him
48:17to just admit
48:18like
48:21what I did
48:21was
48:22in the past
48:24was not right
48:25and I'm gonna
48:25be a better man
48:26now
48:29that's all
48:29I want
48:31like tell me
48:32you're just gonna
48:34be better
48:35things might not
48:36work out the way
48:37that I had hoped
48:48the weight of this
48:49video message today
48:50it could make or
48:52break our relationship
48:53I just want to be
48:54enough for somebody
48:55but from what I've
48:57been seeing from
48:57the bonfires
48:58I don't love the
48:59things she's saying
49:00about me
49:00I just don't get
49:01how it's constructive
49:03I don't get
49:04what we're working
49:05on here
49:06sometimes it feels
49:07like as hard
49:08as it is
49:09the only way
49:10out is out
49:18hi summit
49:19um
49:20I have been
49:23seriously
49:23taking this
49:24opportunity
49:25to reflect
49:26on myself
49:27and learn
49:27so much
49:28and I have
49:29such a new
49:30outlook on
49:31life
49:31and I'm so
49:32excited for you
49:33to see that
49:34side of me
49:34but I also
49:36want you to
49:37remember what
49:38we came here
49:38for
49:39this isn't just
49:41about resisting
49:41temptation
49:43we came here
49:44together
49:44to dig a little
49:46deeper
49:46and realize
49:47why things
49:48aren't working
49:49and figure out
49:50how to make
49:51them work
49:52and so far
49:53I just feel
49:54like I haven't
49:55seen that
49:55from you
49:57I'm so tired
49:58of feeling
49:58like I am
49:59fighting
50:00so much
50:01harder than
50:01you are
50:02for this
50:02relationship
50:03to work
50:04and I'm
50:05tired of
50:05feeling like
50:06I have to
50:06prove myself
50:07over and
50:08over again
50:11I need to
50:12see more
50:12from you
50:14I want
50:15us to
50:16come out
50:16of this
50:16as the
50:18amazing
50:18Kalian
50:19summit
50:19that I
50:20know
50:20we can
50:20be
50:22and that's
50:23not going
50:23to happen
50:23if we
50:24don't start
50:24to make
50:25some changes
50:25and I
50:26do not
50:27want this
50:28to all
50:28be for
50:29nothing
50:49this is
50:50just kind
50:50of you
50:51know
50:51some of
50:52the best
50:52I felt
50:54I have
50:54gotten
50:55clarity
50:56on what
50:57I need
50:57to do
50:58the rest
50:58of this
50:58process
50:59I need
51:00to better
51:01myself
51:01for her
51:02and for
51:03me
51:03and if
51:04at the
51:04end
51:05we like
51:06the people
51:06we've
51:07become
51:08then
51:09we're going
51:10to be
51:10perfect
51:10and happy
51:11and live
51:12together
51:12forever
51:12and get
51:12a wiener
51:13dog
51:13and move
51:13in
51:13together
51:14if
51:15we don't
51:16like
51:16how we've
51:17changed
51:17and who
51:18we've
51:18become
51:20we cut
51:21ties right
51:21there
51:21and then
51:22we move
51:22on
51:23all I
51:24know
51:25is
51:25what
51:26I
51:27mean
51:30I'm pretty
51:30anxious
51:31obviously
51:31there's a lot
51:31on the line
51:32like I love
51:32this girl
51:33and so
51:33I hope
51:34in the video
51:34it's nothing
51:35like wishy-washy
51:36it's like
51:36definitely get
51:37some insight
51:37into where
51:38her head's at
51:38I mean
51:39I've never
51:39felt this far
51:40from her
51:41you know
51:42ever
51:42I think
51:43if she
51:43really loves
51:44me
51:44and she
51:44wants
51:44to be
51:45with me
51:46yeah
51:47this video
51:47message
51:47from her
51:48needs to
51:48really
51:50portray
51:57that
51:58Cole
51:59I want
52:00to start
52:01this by
52:01saying
52:02everything
52:02I say
52:03I say
52:04with love
52:05I truly
52:06wish
52:07coming into
52:08this that
52:08we had
52:09not set
52:09such strict
52:11boundaries
52:11I feel
52:13that
52:14you've been
52:15so hyper
52:16fixated
52:16on the
52:17no cheating
52:18that you're
52:19actually missing
52:20the big
52:20picture
52:21this is a
52:22huge opportunity
52:23for growth
52:24you know
52:25I have been
52:26expressing for
52:26months
52:27that I feel
52:28that we are
52:28lacking in
52:29trust
52:30and transparency
52:30and communication
52:32and in depth
52:33I just feel
52:35let down
52:36to see that
52:36there has been
52:37no inner work
52:38there's been
52:39no accountability
52:40there's been
52:41no depth
52:42in your journey
52:43here
52:44I am diving
52:45in over here
52:46I am getting
52:47to know people
52:48and through
52:48getting to know
52:49these people
52:50I'm getting
52:50to know myself
52:51we can't leave
52:53here as a couple
52:54if we leave
52:55the same way
52:56that we arrived
52:57so please
52:58put in the effort
52:59know why I'm
53:00doing the same
53:01and I love you
53:12I was hoping her
53:17message would be
53:17a little more
53:18heartfelt
53:18more like
53:19I miss you
53:20at the end of the day
53:21it's like
53:21I'm a good guy
53:22I treat you well
53:22I love you
53:23like what else
53:25am I supposed
53:25to do
53:26you know
53:26like I bring
53:26a lot
53:27to the table
53:27let's not stay
53:30let's just stay here
53:33and make believe
53:35that we're okay
53:38here
53:41Cole and I both
53:42deserve to feel
53:44fully fulfilled
53:46the last few days
53:47I have
53:48had
53:49a lot more
53:50clarity
53:51I would love
53:52if
53:53we came back
53:54together
53:55and like there was
53:56all of this depth
53:57and growth
53:58but
53:58I just don't know
54:01how much could have
54:02actually
54:03changed
54:05it just is
54:07what it is
54:08I'm not ready
54:10to call it quits
54:13hi my most precious angel
54:15this process has been
54:16one of the hardest things
54:17I've ever gone through
54:18emotionally
54:19and I just want you
54:20to know there's been
54:20so much depth and growth
54:21in this experience
54:22and I can't wait
54:22to show you
54:23I miss you so much
54:26I want you to know
54:27that my loyalty
54:27lies with you
54:28and your most precious
54:29heart has always been
54:30top of mind
54:31in all the decisions
54:31that I've made
54:33I've seen some things
54:34in the bonfire
54:35that have definitely
54:35caused some pain
54:36and suffering
54:37and confusion to me
54:39but just know
54:40how much I love you
54:40and how much I want us
54:42I just miss your scent
54:43I miss your smell
54:44I miss your touch
54:46I just see us
54:46in our kitchen right now
54:47listening to our
54:48favorite Shani Twain song
54:49dancing around
54:50going for a walk
54:51snuggling in bed
54:52with our little ankle wrap
54:54I love you so much
54:55and I can't wait
54:55to see you soon
54:56always Colt
54:58I'm losing control
55:00you played your role
55:02didn't take it
55:04you stole
55:04this part of me
55:07we never fit the mold
55:09this love won't grow
55:11cause we laid it to rest
55:13where hearts don't beat
55:15seeing Cole
55:17and just hearing his voice
55:20it actually broke my heart
55:24he obviously still really wants this
55:29meanwhile like I've realized
55:30what is truly missing
55:32oh god
55:35are you okay?
55:37oh my god
55:38I don't know
55:40I think like
55:41the reality of everything
55:42is
55:45setting in
55:46and like
55:46I truly don't know
55:47I don't know
55:48what's next
55:48and I think that
55:49that just like
55:50hurts my heart
55:51I'm scared
55:53I'm scared
55:54I'm not getting
55:55things right
55:56of who I really am
55:59on the inside
56:01what if hell
56:04I feel sick
56:05denying myself
56:09like you looked sad
56:17just makes me feel like
56:19love is back and forth
56:22there's too many doors
56:24has anyone found
56:26what they're looking for
56:28and I
56:32I want and feel free
56:37but the more that I die
56:40a part of me does
56:42cause being alive
56:44always feels like
56:46it's killing me
56:53cause being alive
56:56always feels like
56:57it's killing me
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