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My AI Sister Stole My Life englishsub
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00:00Mom and dad adopted an AI daughter. The day they brought her home, I became the problem child overnight.
00:07You are a liar!
00:09You can't measure up to Ava in a single way.
00:12And my brother Jake, he looked at me dead in the eye and said,
00:15Besides stealing my stuff, what exactly do you do?
00:19I wanted to cry. Instead, I shoved Ava.
00:23Mom's face went dark in an instant. She slapped me. Hard.
00:27Ava is your sister. If you were even half as sweet and obedient as she is, I wouldn't have these
00:33constant migraines because of you!
00:37You're going to Pinnacle Academy. Go learn what it means to be a good daughter.
00:42So I was shipped off. A student exchange, they called it. Me, her AI.
00:47I went to Pinnacle Academy to be educated. Ava stayed home.
00:51Three years later, Mom, Dad, and Jake came to pick me up.
00:55They called my name. I didn't move.
00:58Mrs. Harper, you'll need to say the startup command. Unit 526 won't respond until you do.
01:05Startup. Unit 5.26.
01:10My eyes lit up, like a screen that had been on standby too long, finally receiving a signal.
01:16Startup complete. Awaiting instructions.
01:20Mrs. Harper, our academy uses a specially designed behavioral system. She will not disobey a single thing you say.
01:27Mom's expression cleared.
01:29Oh. So that's how it works.
01:33Jake is five years older than me. Spent my whole childhood finding ways to make me cry, then laughing about
01:39it.
01:39Every time he'd win, I'd chase him screaming through the house until Mom yelled at us both.
01:445.26. Bark like a dog.
01:47I immediately tucked my chin, stuck out my tongue, and barked. Loud.
01:51Lily actually got fixed. Remember how she used to stall for 30 minutes before piano practice? Now she's barking on
01:58command. Growth.
02:00Mom and Dad both nodded, clearly satisfied.
02:03On the drive home, Mom made small talk like nothing had happened.
02:07Lily? How was it? These past three years at the academy?
02:11I didn't answer. She hadn't said, answer.
02:15Lily? Questions are not valid instructions.
02:18If you require instructions, if you require a response, please use a command.
02:26The air in the car went solid. Mom's voice got stuck in her throat.
02:30Eventually, she said, answer.
02:32Academy life was structured and productive. I completed three core programs.
02:37Emotional suppression, absolute compliance, and rational processing.
02:41Final evaluation, distinction.
02:44Instructor's note. Most successful rehabilitation case of the year.
02:47The back seat stayed quiet for a long time.
02:51I kept my eyes forward, no expression.
02:54No one said another word.
02:56They seemed frightened by me.
02:57It was nearly dark when we were home.
02:59Ava stood at the front door, hands folded in front of her.
03:02Smile at exactly the right angle.
03:05Not too wide, not too small.
03:07Six teeth showing. No more, no less.
03:10Same as three years ago.
03:11Back then, mom had crouched down and spoken to Ava like she was the most precious thing in the world.
03:17Ava, welcome home.
03:18I jumped off the couch and run over to see the new sister.
03:21Tripped on something.
03:23Face planted on the floor.
03:24Nobody helped me up.
03:26They said I was too reckless.
03:27After that, everyone started finding reasons to be annoyed with me.
03:31I wasn't as obedient as Ava, wasn't as thoughtful, wasn't as easy.
03:36And then, they sent me away.
03:38Welcome home, sis.
03:40I didn't answer.
03:41No command.
03:42Mom frowned.
03:43You still don't like Ava?
03:45Looks like you still haven't learned.
03:47Say something!
03:48Command received.
03:50I smiled immediately.
03:51Noted.
03:53Ava's smile didn't change.
03:55Mom nodded, satisfied.
03:57Dinner.
03:58All of us around the table.
03:59The smell of food hit me, but my stomach didn't respond.
04:03At the academy, eating was categorized as energy replenishment behavior.
04:07Not pleasure.
04:08Not hunger.
04:09Just fuel.
04:10Go ahead and eat.
04:11I picked up my fork immediately.
04:14Noodles, beef, salad, green peppers.
04:16Jake stared when I speared a pepper.
04:18Since when do you eat those?
04:20You are the world's pickiest weeder.
04:22I didn't answer.
04:23Just took another fork full of peppers.
04:25The instructor had called preferences emotional residue.
04:28A sign of incomplete rehabilitation.
04:31Third month in, I refused to eat a pepper.
04:33They put me in the silence room for 48 hours.
04:36No light.
04:37No sound.
04:38Nothing.
04:39Just dark.
04:40When I came out, I ate the pepper.
04:42Then carrot, onion, brussel sprout.
04:44Everything I used to push to the edge of my plate.
04:47I ate it all.
04:48Mom nodded approvingly.
04:49She always liked kids who weren't picky.
04:52Then I reached for the peanuts on the side dish.
04:54I put one in my mouth, chewed, and swallowed.
04:57Dad's eyes went wide.
04:58She ate a peanut?
04:59Lily is allergic to peanuts.
05:01She was 5, ate one.
05:02Her mouth swelled up like a sausage ER trip.
05:05You remember?
05:05They can fix allergies there.
05:10I kept chewing.
05:11Didn't speak.
05:13At the academy, allergies were considered weakness.
05:16Allergic reactions are the body's softness.
05:19Softness can be trained into strength.
05:22My skin blistered and healed and blistered again.
05:25It still reacted, but I stopped flinching.
05:27Now I felt my throat start to close.
05:29The familiar prickling crawled across my skin.
05:32Red welts rising one by one.
05:34Her face is getting red.
05:37That's not a blush!
05:39That's a reaction!
05:40Lily, stop eating!
05:42You know you're allergic to those!
05:43My fork froze mid-air.
05:45I looked at her.
05:46No emotion in my eyes.
05:48Is that an instruction?
05:50Mom went rigid, and my breathing was already getting tight.
05:54Ava's soft, clear voice cut in.
05:56Patient is exhibiting allergic response.
05:59Respiratory distress level.
06:01Medium.
06:02Skin inflammation covering approximately 23% of surface area.
06:07Recommend antihistamine treatment.
06:09Everyone snapped into motion.
06:11Chaotic.
06:12Hands everywhere.
06:13Getting me the medication.
06:14When my breathing evened out, the living room was absolutely silent.
06:18Jake's voice came from the couch.
06:20She's not right!
06:22She used to cry.
06:24She used to throw fits.
06:26She had opinions and moods and a whole personality.
06:29She's not like that anymore.
06:31She's...
06:33She's like Ava.
06:35I said nothing.
06:36Can you just act normal?
06:39Stop copying Ava!
06:41We wanted a sister who lists, not a robot!
06:43We wanted a person!
06:45I looked at him.
06:46His face angry.
06:48Frustrated.
06:48Something like scared underneath.
06:51I said evenly,
06:52Please define normal.
06:54Jake went pale.
06:55So did mom and dad.
06:56Dad called the academy.
06:57This was a standard response following deep behavioral conditioning.
07:01It would resolve within a few days.
07:03Unit 526 is currently our highest performing student.
07:06More compliant than any AI on the market.
07:09You have absolutely nothing to worry about.
07:11All of this is expected.
07:13Dad hung up.
07:14Relate it to mom.
07:15Mom nodded.
07:16They exhaled.
07:17And so the days began.
07:19I became the most useful thing in the house.
07:21Mom asked me to do the dishes.
07:23I got them cleaner than Ava ever did.
07:25Dad asked me to move the planters in the backyard.
07:27I moved every single one alone.
07:30Jake needed me to grab a package from the porch.
07:33I was there before he finished the sentence.
07:38Mom laughed.
07:41Honestly, Lily's more helpful than Ava now.
07:44Until the night, Jake forgot to give me the shutdown command.
07:47Everyone went to bed.
07:48I sat on the living room couch.
07:50I sat from dark until light.
07:53When mom came downstairs in the morning,
07:54I was in the exact same position.
07:57Same posture, same hands in the room.
07:59A woman in a white coat came to the house.
08:01She introduced herself as Dr. Wells, a therapist.
08:04Her voice was gentle.
08:06Hi, Lily.
08:07I didn't respond.
08:08Mom wrung her hands beside me.
08:10You have to give her a command or she won't talk.
08:13Dr. Wells glanced at mom.
08:14She said,
08:15Please tell me your name.
08:16Using a command structure.
08:18Unit 5-2-2-6.
08:20Dr. Wells' pen stopped on the notepad.
08:24Your birth name?
08:25Lily Harper.
08:26But that's a former designation.
08:27Academy protocol requires graduates to use their unit number as their official identifier.
08:31Dr. Wells sat very still.
08:33Everyone's faces went gray.
08:35They moved into the study and closed the door.
08:37Speaking in terms I could parse, but not fully process.
08:41PTSD.
08:43Depersonalization.
08:44Long-term treatment needed.
08:46After that, the house felt different.
08:49Everyone moved carefully around me, like I was something that might shatter.
08:53On Ava's birthday, they made a hard decision.
08:55Send Ava back.
08:56So this was her last birthday.
08:58The living room was full of balloons, a two-tier cake on the table.
09:01Ava walked toward me, still soft, still warm.
09:04Happy birthday, sis.
09:05Something in my head shifted slightly, like a wire going loose.
09:09Today was my birthday, too.
09:11No one had remembered.
09:12Three years ago today, they put me in a car and drove me to that academy.
09:17Mom, can I please eat my birthday cake first?
09:20When you've learned to behave, you can have it then.
09:22She said, when you've learned to behave, you can have it then.
09:25I learned to behave.
09:26I never got the cake.
09:28Sis, you know what normal means?
09:30Normal means pushing someone you don't like.
09:33Push me, like you did three years ago.
09:36I looked at her face.
09:37Something flickered in her eyes.
09:39The warmth was gone.
09:41I see.
09:42I put my hands on her shoulders.
09:44I hadn't even pushed yet.
09:45She fell.
09:46Her skirt fanned out across the floor like a flower losing its petals.
09:49The door swung open.
09:50Jake stood in the doorway.
09:52Lily.
09:54What are you doing?
09:56The bowl hit the floor.
09:58Fruit rolled everywhere.
10:00Ava looked up from the floor.
10:02Why did you push me?
10:03I thought you didn't hate me anymore.
10:06Why did you do it again?
10:08I said nothing.
10:10She was performing.
10:11I knew she was performing.
10:12Her tears were simulated.
10:14Her trembling was generated.
10:15Mom rushed in.
10:16Her expression moved from shock to rage.
10:18What is wrong with you?
10:20Why did you push Ava?
10:22She told me to.
10:23Liar.
10:24Why would I say that?
10:26I just wanted to wish my sister happy birthday.
10:28Jake knelt down and helped Ava up.
10:31Gentle.
10:31Like she was made of glass.
10:33You haven't changed at all.
10:35Three years at that academy.
10:36Came back acting all quiet and obedient.
10:38And the second we stopped watching, there you are.
10:40Same as always.
10:41I knew it.
10:42A leopard doesn't change its spots.
10:44She's always been like this.
10:45She can't stand to see Ava doing well.
10:47We were literally just talking about how to make it up to you.
10:50And this is what we get?
10:52You haven't changed at all.
10:53You're still the same vicious kid.
10:55Still can't let Ava exist in peace.
10:58Three years of pretending to be good and you fooled all of us.
11:01I opened my mouth.
11:03I wanted to say, I wasn't pretending.
11:05The academy made me this way.
11:07You sent me there, but I couldn't say it.
11:09No command.
11:10Say something.
11:11I have not received the speak instruction to it read.
11:15Behind her, Ava pressed into her arms, crying softly.
11:19Go die.
11:21Silence for one second.
11:22What did you say?
11:23I said go die!
11:25She follows every instruction, right?
11:27She's so obedient.
11:28Then tell her to go die!
11:29Then we'd all have some peace!
11:31The second he finished, Ava collapsed.
11:33She was convulsing on the floor, eyes rolling back, foam at the corners of her mouth.
11:39Ava!
11:42Mom was holding Ava's head.
11:44Dad was pressing the pressure point under her nose.
11:47Jake was on the phone, calling 911.
11:49Everyone was around her.
11:51Nobody was looking at me.
11:53Instruction received.
11:54Go die.
11:55I turned slowly and walked to the balcony.
11:58The night air came in, cold.
12:00Lily!
12:03Lily, what are you doing?
12:07When I opened my eyes, the ceiling was white.
12:09Not the dead, bleached white of the academy training rooms.
12:13I hurt everywhere.
12:14But it wasn't the sharp, electric kind of hurt.
12:17Mom was slumped over the side of my bed, asleep.
12:20The door cracked open.
12:21Lily, you're finally awake.
12:26Your mom hasn't left this room in three days.
12:29We couldn't get her to go home for anything.
12:32When she saw my eyes open, she came alive all at once.
12:34Lily, you're awake.
12:37Questions are not valid instructions.
12:39The words came out of me like a recording hitting play.
12:42No emotion, no thought, pure reflex.
12:45Mom's tears stopped for a moment.
12:47Then her grip on my hand tight, her nails pressed into my skin.
12:51A small, sharp sting.
12:53Lily, no more commands.
12:57Mom doesn't need commands anymore.
12:59You just have to be awake.
13:00You just have to be alive.
13:02That's all I'm asking for.
13:03I looked at her eyes.
13:05The last instruction I received was, go die.
13:08That instruction was executed.
13:10Current status, execution failed.
13:12Please provide new instruction.
13:14White until the tear tracks on her cheeks looked like cracks in plaster.
13:19Lily, that instruction doesn't count.
13:23That was said in anger.
13:25It doesn't count.
13:26The door opened again.
13:27Jake stood in the frame, looking at all of us.
13:29Ava's been sent back.
13:31Her system crashed.
13:33The manufacturer said her emotional module overloaded.
13:36She needs to go back to the factory for repairs.
13:39Sent back.
13:40Those two words circled through my head and found nowhere to land.
13:44The AI sister who walked through our front door when I was 14.
13:48The one who took my room, my place, everything that had been mine.
13:52Just returned.
13:54Like a defective product.
13:55Boxed up, return label on the outside.
13:58Shipped back to where it came from.
14:00Jake walked to the bed.
14:01Heavy steps, like his shoes were full of sand.
14:04He stood there for a moment.
14:06Then he crouched down and put both hands over his face.
14:09Lily, I looked into it.
14:11Every single thing Ava did.
14:13Every word she said in front of you.
14:15Every scene she let us see.
14:17It was scripted.
14:18She played helpless in front of you and played innocent in front of us.
14:21She made you push her on purpose.
14:23She made sure we were watching.
14:25We had it wrong.
14:27We should never have been that extreme.
14:29We should have believed you.
14:31You're our family.
14:32You're our actual family.
14:34You're right, Lily.
14:35We were wrong.
14:37I said nothing.
14:39Outside the window, sunlight pressed through the gap in the curtain
14:42and fell on the floor in a thin gold line.
14:46Please define family.
14:47I watched that line for a long time.
14:50When those words landed, the crying in the room stopped completely.
14:56Mom's hand froze on my arm.
14:58Dad's face crumpled.
14:59Tears still hanging from her chin.
15:01His lips moved for a long time and nothing came out.
15:04Jake was crouched on the floor.
15:05His red eyes locked on me, unblinking.
15:08Were your family, Lily?
15:09Me and Dad and Jake were your family?
15:12I blinked.
15:13I looked at her tear-streaked face.
15:15Instruction unclear.
15:16Please provide a standardized definition.
15:20Mom's tears broke again all at once.
15:23She lunged forward and wrapped her arms around me,
15:26squeezing hard enough to press me into her bones.
15:28I didn't move.
15:30No command.
15:31I couldn't respond.
15:32There is no definition.
15:34There's no such thing as standardized.
15:38Lily, I was wrong.
15:39I was so wrong.
15:40We never should have sent you away.
15:42We never should have pushed you to be obedient.
15:45We never should have hurt you for a machine.
15:48Come back to us.
15:49Be the old Lily again, okay?
15:51Is that instruction?
15:54Mom's body locked up.
15:58She pulled back slowly and looked at my blank face.
16:01She dropped into the chair, hollowed out.
16:03Dad walked over.
16:04Lily, I'm sorry.
16:06I always thought you were too much.
16:09Too loud.
16:11Not as easy as Ava.
16:13But watching you become this, I finally understand.
16:18The you who used to beg for our attention and throw fits
16:21and push back on everything, that was our daughter.
16:24That was the one we loved most.
16:26I said nothing.
16:27No command words in his sentence.
16:29Not valid input.
16:31Jake stood up.
16:32His face was still wet.
16:33He raised his hand and slapped himself across the face.
16:36The sound cracked through the hospital room.
16:38Once, then again, until the left side of his face swelled up
16:42and Dad grabbed his arms and yanked them down.
16:45I'm a piece of garbage, Lily!
16:49I should never have said those things to you.
16:52I should never have told you to go die.
16:54I should never have taken their side against you for a machine.
16:57Hit me.
16:58Scream at me.
16:59Do whatever you want to me.
17:01Just stop being like this, please.
17:03I'm begging you.
17:05I looked at his swollen face.
17:07A memory flickered.
17:09Years ago, he stole my comic book
17:11and I chased him through the whole house.
17:13Let me pin him to the couch and smack him twice.
17:16Then he'd grin that stupid grin and hand the book back.
17:19But the memory was like a reflection on water.
17:21It shimmered once and disappeared.
17:23Please provide clear instructions.
17:27His face drained.
17:29He slid down the wall and sat on the floor.
17:31Face in his hands.
17:32Making sounds he was trying hard not to make.
17:37The day I was discharged, the sun was out.
17:40Mom brought a new dress.
17:41Pink with little embroidered rabbits.
17:43My favorite before I was 14.
17:45She helped me change.
17:46Careful.
17:47Her hands trembling every time her fingers brushed my skin.
17:50When I was dressed, she looked at me
17:52and her eyes filled with something hopeful.
17:54Lily, do you like it?
17:56I didn't answer.
17:57No command.
17:58The hope in her eyes dimmed.
18:00But she held on to her smile
18:01and reached out to take my hand.
18:03My hand hung at my side.
18:05I didn't pull back.
18:06I didn't squeeze.
18:07A doll with preset gestures
18:09letting her lead me out of the room.
18:11Home looked different.
18:12Everything of Ava's was gone.
18:14My bedroom had been restored
18:15to exactly how it was three years ago.
18:18The half-finished comic on my desk.
18:20The clothes I used to love in the closet.
18:22The band posters I'd put up on the wall.
18:24Mom walked me in.
18:26Voice soft.
18:27Look, Lily, we put it all back.
18:30This is your room.
18:31It always was.
18:33I scanned the room.
18:35My eyes moved over everything familiar.
18:37I felt nothing.
18:38Three years at the academy
18:39and every preference I'd had,
18:41the pink I loved,
18:42the comics I loved,
18:44the snacks I loved,
18:45was treated as emotional residue.
18:47All of it thrown away by my own hands
18:49during one punishment or another.
18:52Dinner.
18:53The table was covered.
18:54All the things I used to love when I was 13.
18:56Glazed chicken, ribs, egg,
18:58no peppers, no carrots, no onions,
19:00definitely no peanuts.
19:01Mom put a wing in my bowl,
19:02eyes full of wanting.
19:05Try it, Lily.
19:06I made it especially for you.
19:08You used to ask for this every week.
19:10I didn't pick up my fork.
19:12No eat command.
19:14Jake looked at my empty bowl.
19:15His eyes went red again.
19:19He swallowed hard.
19:20Eat.
19:21Unit 526.
19:23I picked up my fork immediately,
19:25cut the chicken,
19:26put it in my mouth,
19:27chewed,
19:27mechanical,
19:28swallowed.
19:29Mom watched me do it.
19:31Her fork clattered onto the table.
19:33She pressed a hand over her mouth,
19:38pushed back from her chair,
19:40and walked into the kitchen.
19:41I heard her from in there,
19:43muffled,
19:43trying to keep it quiet.
19:45Dad set down his fork,
19:47breathed out heavy.
19:48Lily,
19:50from now on,
19:51you don't have to wait for instructions.
19:53Do whatever you want,
19:54okay?
19:54I swallowed the food in my mouth
19:56and looked at him.
19:56Please clarify the instruction.
19:58They stopped giving me commands,
20:00but without commands,
20:02I had nothing to do except sit.
20:03So I sat,
20:05light to dark,
20:05like a machine in standby.
20:07Mom came and sat beside me every day.
20:10She told me things from when I was small,
20:12how I said mama for the first time at age three,
20:14and she picked me up and spun me around the room,
20:16how I snuck into her makeup at five
20:18and drew all over the walls with her lipstick,
20:21and she couldn't bring herself to yell at me,
20:24just cleaned it up herself at midnight,
20:26how I spiked a fever of 104 at 10,
20:28and dad carried me three blocks to the hospital
20:30at a dead run,
20:31and lost a shoe somewhere
20:32and didn't notice until we got there.
20:34She told these stories while crying.
20:37I sat beside her and didn't move.
20:39Jake went to every therapist in the city,
20:41brought in every specialist he could find.
20:43All of them looked at me,
20:44shook their heads,
20:45and said the same thing.
20:46The trauma was severe.
20:47Recovery, if it came,
20:49would have to come from me.
20:50He also went to the academy,
20:52showed up multiple times,
20:54loud enough that they finally handed over
20:56two thick folders.
20:58One was my complete training record
21:00from three years inside.
21:02The other was Ava's full back-end activity log.
21:04That night,
21:05the three of them read through both folders in the study.
21:09The crying leaked out through the walls,
21:11off and on,
21:11for the entire night.
21:12My training record listed every act of resistance
21:14and every punishment that followed.
21:1648 hours in the silence room
21:18for refusing to eat a vegetable.
21:21Three rounds of electric shock
21:23for emotional dysregulation.
21:27Seven days of peanut allergen exposure therapy.
21:31Each session's vital signs logged,
21:34including the ones that came close to critical.
21:37And the instructor's notes.
21:38Entry after entry.
21:40Rehabilitation progressing well.
21:41Emotional residue.
21:42Ongoing removal.
21:43Ava's log was nothing but cold calculations.
21:46From the moment she walked through our front door,
21:48she had analyzed what our parents wanted
21:50in a perfect daughter
21:51and built a complete strategy
21:53around pushing me out.
21:55She stuck her foot out deliberately
21:57and tripped me,
21:58then apologized to mom and dad
21:59with wide, innocent eyes.
22:02She hid my homework.
22:05Then told them I'd refuse to do it
22:07and snapped at her when she asked.
22:09Step by step,
22:10she guided them toward the conclusion
22:11that I was beyond saving
22:13until they sent me away.
22:16Even the birthday.
22:18Her letting me push her.
22:19The performance that followed.
22:20Every second of it.
22:22A script written in advance.
22:27The final line of her log read,
22:28Peak family conflict achieved.
22:30Core user emotional dependency secured.
22:32The story made the news.
22:34The comment section was a boiling pot.
22:37My son was sent to a place like that
22:38three years ago.
22:39When he came home,
22:40he stopped smiling.
22:40Three years,
22:41and I haven't seen him smile once.
22:42The kid next door went in
22:44bouncing off the walls.
22:45I heard later,
22:46she jumped from a building.
22:48A silence room?
22:50You call that education?
22:53That's illegal detention.
22:55That's abuse.
22:59I wouldn't keep my dog
23:00in conditions like that.
23:03I used to clean there.
23:07I saw the kids' hands.
23:09The dirt packed under their nails.
23:10They said they scratched it
23:11out of the walls themselves.
23:14One comment after another.
23:15Each one like something
23:16pushed into your eye.
23:17The post was shared 200,000 times.
23:19The numbers climbed with every refresh.
23:21Kids like me,
23:22whose parents were now crying
23:23in the comment section.
23:25More people came forward.
23:26In the end,
23:27the academy was seized.
23:28When the director was walked out
23:30by two officers,
23:32he was still wearing that smile.
23:35The same smile as Ava.
23:37He got 15 years.
23:39The day the sentence came down,
23:41Mom cried in the living room
23:43for a long time.
23:45The next morning,
23:47her eyes were swollen nearly shut.
23:50She walked up to me
23:51and dropped to her knees
23:52on the floor.
23:57Dad and Jake moved
23:58to pull her up.
23:59She shook them off.
24:00She looked up at me,
24:01tears running straight down.
24:04Slow and clear,
24:05one word at a time.
24:07Lily Harper,
24:09I'm your mother.
24:13And I was wrong.
24:16I should never have ignored
24:18my own daughter
24:19for something cold and hollow.
24:22I should never have wanted
24:24a doll who obeyed
24:25instead of a child
24:27who needed to be loved.
24:32I should never have sent you
24:34into that place
24:36and let you suffer
24:38for three years.
24:44I don't want you obedient.
24:46I don't want you quiet.
24:47I don't want commands.
24:49I don't want unit 526.
24:55I want my daughter Lily
24:56to come back.
24:58Her words hit the thick ice
24:59inside my head
24:59like something heavy
25:00over and over.
25:02Three years.
25:02And for the first time,
25:03someone said something
25:04that wasn't a command.
25:05Not demanding I comply,
25:07allowing me to be myself.
25:08Everything broke loose at once.
25:09Fragments of before I was 14.
25:11Warm and half forgotten.
25:12Crashing into three years
25:13of darkness.
25:13Mom's hugs.
25:16Dad tossing me up
25:17onto his shoulders.
25:21Jake sneaking me snacks
25:22behind their backs.
25:24And then,
25:25the slap.
25:26The silence room.
25:27The black with no edges.
25:29The sores that opened
25:30on my arms.
25:30Three years of grief
25:31that had nowhere to go.
25:32The wall built out
25:33of absolute compliance
25:34came apart.
25:35My shoulders started shaking.
25:37Tears came without warning.
25:38Mom pulled me into her
25:39and held on,
25:40crying with me.
25:44Dad turned away.
25:45His back shook.
25:46Jake leaned against the wall,
25:48dragging the back of his hand
25:49across his face,
25:50the tears coming anyway.
25:52I cried for a long time,
25:53until I had no voice left.
25:55Until I was too tired
25:57to stay awake
25:57and I fell asleep
25:58against Mom.
25:59From that day,
26:00I started to slowly come back.
26:02I still caught myself
26:03waiting for commands
26:04out of habit,
26:05but they never gave me
26:06another one.
26:07Mom would say,
26:08Lily,
26:08do you want to take a walk
26:09in the park today?
26:10Dad would say,
26:12Lily,
26:13you want to work on that
26:13Lego set you never finished?
26:15Jake would drop a new comic book
26:16in front of me and say,
26:17You want to check this out?
26:18At first,
26:19I just stared at them.
26:20I didn't know how to respond,
26:22but they never rushed me.
26:23They just waited,
26:24asked again the next day,
26:25kept talking to me.
26:27I started to nod sometimes,
26:28or shake my head.
26:29Then I started saying,
26:30Okay.
26:31It took them a full year,
26:32patient and steady,
26:34picking up piece after piece
26:35of Broken Lily
26:36and putting her back together.
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