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00:09Previously, this season on Love Island Beyond the Villa.
00:12I'm healed, and I hope you're healed.
00:14I'm happy that, like I said, you got to be here and speak it all out.
00:18How are you, love?
00:19Good.
00:19Good, good.
00:21For a long time, I was always close with Anna.
00:23Then her and Iris got really close.
00:25I would never get a call to hang out with her.
00:27It definitely doesn't feel good.
00:28We have to do another trip.
00:30Yeah, let's do another trip.
00:31Okay, but where?
00:32We're going to Lake Tahoe.
00:34I'm from Tahoe!
00:35I am ready to conquer the snow!
00:40Where are Iris?
00:42I can't stop!
00:44Look at this!
00:50Hi, Maya, how are you?
00:51Hi, sorry.
00:52Oh, you got makeup?
00:53No, it's just relationship and boundaries.
00:56I feel like I don't need to, like, be close with everyone if that's not how I feel.
01:00At the end of the day, like, not everybody is your best friend.
01:03Jeez!
01:05Hey, y'all!
01:06I'm a pageant queen, and I have blonde hair!
01:11So you pick the name.
01:14Grayson, are you good, though?
01:18Coco, Bella, can we go downstairs real quick?
01:21Oh, sure.
01:22Yeah, we're going to take a quick break.
01:25What's going on?
01:27We overheard you saying, like, you don't really want to be friends with everybody.
01:31You have your friends.
01:34Hannah, I think that you have kind of, like, isolated yourself from, like, speaking to everybody, including myself.
01:38It's not me intentionally doing that.
01:41I am exhausted.
01:43I'm not exhausted being around everyone.
01:46I am exhausted.
01:54I'm not thinking, hmm, let me check on, see how Bella and Grayson and Coco and Iris are doing.
02:00I wasn't even talking about you guys.
02:02I was talking about Brian and Chris.
02:04I'm sorry, I don't want to be friends with Brian and Chris.
02:07People are allowed to have, like, bad days, and, like, the times that we are together, maybe she was just
02:12not having, like, a good day.
02:14But then, like, that's why you asking me, like, upstairs, like, are you good?
02:20I don't think it was coming from that place.
02:22Like, it wasn't me trying to fucking stir up shit.
02:24I feel like I'm fucking talking out of my ass and nobody is using their fucking brain.
02:29It, like, actually, it's driving me crazy.
02:30And I have to be up for a flight in, like, an hour.
02:38Where is he going?
02:40We staying out the way.
02:42We having a peaceful time.
02:43This is my first trip.
02:45I'm missing school for this, all right?
02:46I'm not going to be caught up in no drama.
02:48What the fuck is going on downstairs?
02:50Grayson felt upset that they were, like, left out or something.
02:54Yeah, that's some girl stuff.
02:55Because imagine me, like, telling the critics, like, bro, why don't you hit me up to go work out?
02:58I want to see you more.
02:59Well, there's definitely a divide.
03:00Like, it's evident that Iris and Hannah don't want to obviously be friends with any of the other girls.
03:05Speaking of them not wanting to be friends, like, even what Hannah said about me and Brian,
03:08be friends with Chris and Brian, why would I want to do that?
03:10We had no clue she felt that way.
03:12I'm like, damn, like...
03:13That was a little aggressive.
03:14I'm like, what did we do?
03:15You don't have to be friends, but then I think there's an energy that's rude in it as well.
03:19Yeah, Hannah's just kind of like a firecracker.
03:21But she's just saying, like, she had a boyfriend, she's not looking for new male friends.
03:24Even if Hannah didn't have a boyfriend, I don't think anyone needs to want to be friends
03:27with anybody.
03:28If I have a girlfriend, I'm not going to go look to make new female friends.
03:32Did you, like, know, though, that's how she felt?
03:35Know what?
03:35Like...
03:36Towards us?
03:36Yeah.
03:37Not...
03:37I mean, obviously, I knew, like, they're not...
03:40They don't want to be, like, your friend because of my obvious...
03:42Yeah, no.
03:43But I didn't know, like, you're just kind of, like, his bro, so it's kind of just like...
03:46Oh, so I get treated like that because I'm his friend?
03:48You don't see it because you guys are fucking...
03:50Like, we not over here talking shit on him or, like, don't want to be around him.
03:54Like, I definitely don't see it from y'all's side because I'm not...
03:56I'm cool with him.
03:57Through this entire process and this experience, I think, like, one of the things I was hoping
04:02to get out of it was closer friendships.
04:05It sounds really corny, but, like, I wanted us all to, like, grow closer.
04:10There's always been, like, this underlying, like, I think, hurt.
04:15Kind of like a feeling of, like...
04:19Like, you don't care.
04:24I take accountability in the fact that maybe I haven't been close to all of you guys and
04:29it's not out of ill intention or I hate any of you.
04:33I don't hate any of you.
04:34I think you all are great people, but I have my own things to deal with.
04:38I have my friends before all of this shit that, like, don't hear from me.
04:43Sometimes I'm not, like, really present, but it's, like, I'm just having a hard time.
04:50People think that I am, like, standoffish or rude.
04:55In reality, I'm just, like, somebody who's, like, struggling.
05:00I feel like I'm a new person now and I'm trying to figure myself out.
05:05You know, you can't sit here now and tell me those girls were giving the energy, like, fucking...
05:12I mean...
05:12I think the thing is, I think that's okay.
05:14Like, they don't got to be best friends.
05:16No, no, no one has to be best friends.
05:17Yeah.
05:17You know, it's just, like, being a normal human and just say, yo, what's up?
05:20Like, bro, me and her haven't even said a word.
05:22Okay, but you haven't said a word and she hasn't said a word, so it's two-way street.
05:26Because, bro, because the energy she gives is fucking weird, bro.
05:29We clicked the icon and said what's up, nothing, she looked away.
05:31What the fuck have I ever actually done, bro?
05:34No.
05:35This is a repeat of Palm Springs.
05:37I don't know what's going on with her, mate, to be honest with you.
05:40Who knows?
05:41I do think it's a little bit odd, yeah?
05:43It might just be ego.
05:44Palm Springs was a moment where we kind of felt like maybe we didn't, like, fit in the group.
05:49And, like, you know, that stings a little.
05:52The divide is, like, not on my end.
05:55I don't know about you guys, but, like, I don't feel like you guys feel divide.
06:00Yeah.
06:00I'm just very drawn off by everything that's going on because I don't really see what they're saying.
06:07I mean, Hannah and Iris, they don't have a mean bone in their body.
06:11Why do you feel isolated?
06:13Why, like, where does this isolation ever come from?
06:15It's not from you, Amaya.
06:16You do really well at, like, talking to everyone and, like, there are also others that don't do that well
06:22at that.
06:24To be like, oh, I really praise you because you can talk to everyone, that's singling me out.
06:28It's also putting other people here and other people here.
06:31Yeah, you're literally like, I praise you.
06:33I don't think that that was the point that I was making.
06:35I was more so making a point that, like, we should all be speaking to each other.
06:39Simple as that.
06:39I can appreciate someone without calling anyone out, but it's very apparent that you don't want a kumbaya.
06:45The first time I, like, felt her was, like, at the Christmas party.
06:51Like, I tried to, like, confide in you, like, about a situation.
06:55I felt like you did hear me more in that moment, but, like, you didn't listen to me, like, at
07:01all.
07:01I was trying to listen to you, but there was so much going on.
07:04I want to just also say my feelings with Bella were strained after the holiday party.
07:10And that wasn't in Palm Springs.
07:12That was after she brought TJ over to Pepe.
07:15I brought both of you guys over to Pepe.
07:17He has expressed that he wants to have conversations.
07:20If he does want to have a conversation, he needs to take accountability for all the lies.
07:27Can I say this?
07:28She would only do it to, like, try to, like, make everyone feel okay.
07:31So that's my boyfriend.
07:32Like, that's my boyfriend, you know?
07:34It's more about, like, boundaries.
07:36But if these boundaries have never been set, then how would she know that?
07:38But it's like, it's like girl code.
07:40Why is Bella getting involved?
07:42I just feel like this isn't very fair.
07:46I came into this wanting us all to just get along.
07:51Ugh.
07:53I hate this situation.
07:54I don't have a lot of bad things to say about Bella, but I think she always tries to bring
08:00everybody together and everyone should be friends.
08:02And in reality, life's not like that.
08:04Yeah.
08:05Brother, this friendship that could have been potentially amazing is on the withhold right now because of the friendships and
08:11connections that you have with both of our ex-boyfriends.
08:13As a woman, I just don't understand how you can understand that.
08:17But you guys know that the only reason that I had been in the same spaces, in the same rooms
08:24as your exes is because I've always just been cool with everybody.
08:28I haven't had beef with anybody.
08:30Even though I understand the circumstance, I understand it, but I can't respect it.
08:35Yeah.
08:36Amaya coming at me really hurts.
08:38She thinks I'm best friends with Brian.
08:40That's not the case.
08:42I love Amaya.
08:44I love her so much.
08:45And even when they went through their breakup, I was supposed to have a brand deal with Brian for $20
08:50,000, and I turned that down right away out of my loyalty to Amaya.
08:54She thinks I'm not even considering her, and I do think that's pretty considerate.
08:59I respect each one of you, and I care about you guys.
09:03I think it was just, like, a lot of things coming to a head.
09:06Yeah.
09:06It's those, like, schoolgirl feelings.
09:09I feel like there are times where we're not, like, completely nice to each other.
09:13You know that's going to push a mean girl narrative that I don't fuck with.
09:17I just, I have a flight, and I'm going to leave.
09:20You can leave.
09:21That's fine.
09:21Good night, everyone.
09:29Exhibit A.
09:36For Hannah to stand up and walk out, it's just kind of a slap in the face.
09:40I'm sorry, but, like, that's...
09:42She does have a fight, though.
09:43But, like, that doesn't feel good to just get up while I'm crying and leave.
09:51My anxiety is really bad, and I'm not somebody that's, like, when I'm having a hard time,
09:56I can fake it with a smile on my face, and that can come off as, like, bitchy or rude,
10:01I guess, but I just kind of have to ride it out.
10:04That's not okay.
10:05I'm not standing for that.
10:15I'm trying to make sure she's good.
10:17She's being vulnerable, and she doesn't do that often.
10:20So is that what you feel like is not nice?
10:23That's not okay.
10:24I have to say, I agree.
10:26Yeah, I have to say, I agree.
10:28I don't even want to talk about it too much because she's not here anymore.
10:31I've talked to her.
10:32I've seen her going through some mental stuff.
10:36And I give her so much grace.
10:38But I'm not part of the situation, and I have to say that I understand how these girls feel.
10:43Because even myself, I felt a little bit that way.
10:47She's just very vocal about how she doesn't care about us.
10:51I don't think that she doesn't care.
10:52I don't think that it is anything, like, to pinpoint any one of you guys at all.
10:57I don't know.
10:58I don't know.
10:59How are you feeling, though?
11:00How are you?
11:01Bro, I'm going crazy.
11:03You're good.
11:03It's like, I'm sorry, I don't want to argue.
11:10Let's just call it a night.
11:12Let's go to bed.
11:14Yeah.
11:16I want to catch y'all.
11:18Come on, get your mouth up.
11:22Oh, boy.
11:23You know you're a good person.
11:25That's enough.
11:25I feel like I'm turning you into an angry guy from that movie.
11:28You know, like, where he's like, that's me, volcano coming out of my ass.
11:33You just need to sleep, Sebastian, Luca, Paris.
11:35You're good.
11:35And if everyone fucking hates me, at least I have a dog and a boyfriend that fucking love me.
12:07Isn't it so pretty?
12:09It is.
12:10You know, we can do this every day in the country.
12:12Just sit and enjoy the view.
12:13The view don't look like this, Taylor.
12:16When we get our house, we're going to have a nice view.
12:18Okay.
12:19And I kind of want a change of scenery before I settle down in nature type of thing.
12:27So, what's your deal with that?
12:29L.A., New York, Charlotte?
12:32I like New York and I like L.A.
12:35But I want to be close to my family.
12:37My plan right now is to stay home, continue to work towards the goals I had for myself
12:43before all of this was introduced, the life coaching in school and, you know, that side of things.
12:50I'm just going to stay in North Carolina, travel to New York and L.A. for work, and I'm going
12:56to continue to prioritize studying psychology.
12:59School is super expensive.
13:00So, with content creation, social media, this will all help me be able to pay for school
13:06and be comfortable in doing that.
13:08I think you've got a much crazier schedule with school.
13:12I have a much crazier schedule with my endeavors.
13:16So, we have to see each other at least once a month.
13:20Mm-hmm.
13:20Clark decided to stay in North Carolina, showed me that, you know, she's looking at the bigger picture
13:25and not just trying to live in the moment.
13:28I'm down for Charlotte over L.A.
13:30It's more of the slowest pace, not as bad as traffic, not as many people.
13:35Some chaotic stuff happened last night.
13:38Sipsy.
13:41Mm-mm, mm-mm, mm-mm.
13:44I think I needed this after yesterday.
13:49Yeah.
13:50Last night was crazy.
13:51The conversation downstairs.
13:53There was, like, this narrative being, like, pushed that, like, I'm a mean girl.
13:58They feel excluded from me and Hannah.
14:02I was just so stuck on the idea that I'm friends with Pepe and I'm not friends with Pepe.
14:07We cannot let this guy dictate friendships.
14:11Like, if these are exes, no, no, no.
14:13He's got so much before.
14:15I can't even understand this concept of Pepe playing a part in any of our relationships.
14:21The problem is with Iris and something that she needs to sort out with Pepe.
14:26Before I went to bed, I was looking at my text with Grayson.
14:30December 18th.
14:31The holiday party?
14:31Yeah.
14:32And I said, I wanted to check in on you.
14:34How are you?
14:34Did you guys squash it?
14:35I was freaked out last night.
14:37So I did text her.
14:38And I did check in on her.
14:40In my eyes, it defeats the whole, like, you don't check in.
14:43Like, you know, because what was I doing the night of the holiday party afterwards?
14:47I was, like, bawling my eyes out at home.
14:50And I still made a point to make sure she was still okay.
14:54Grayson and Bella said that they feel like I wasn't fully there for them.
14:59That's not true to my experience at all.
15:01I feel like I really was there for them.
15:03And for them to just say this out of nowhere to me is very hurtful.
15:09I appreciate you always having my back and always listening to me.
15:13And always being there for me and giving me different perspectives.
15:16I value that a lot.
15:18And I love you.
15:19Thank you for always being here for me.
15:21I love you, too.
15:25Teen.
15:29Yeah, it's official.
15:30I said, I love you first.
15:33I've been wanting to say that to you for a while.
15:36It takes me a long time to really love somebody.
15:40And with him, it's been really quick.
15:43That's crazy.
15:45I am really thankful for him.
15:47I really love him a lot.
15:49You should run through the house and say you love me.
15:54I love you!
16:07Good morning.
16:08Good morning.
16:09Good morning.
16:12Hey, come on, everybody, get around.
16:14Let's go snowboarding.
16:16Woo!
16:18Snowmobiling.
16:19Snowboarding?
16:19Fuck.
16:20All right, come on, everybody.
16:21Let's go tubing and snowmobiling.
16:24Yay!
16:28Everybody, let's bounce.
16:29Bring your asses.
16:31All right, all right.
16:35I got something to do.
16:37And I got nothing to lose.
16:41So here we go.
16:42Go, go, go.
16:44All right, all right.
16:49Oh, my gosh.
16:50I'm excited.
16:51Yeah.
16:53We going snowmobiling.
16:55Hi, guys.
16:57Couples, man.
16:58Couple shit.
17:00Sure feels good to be in a couple.
17:02Man, doesn't it?
17:03I can't imagine not being a fucking couple.
17:06Whoa, we got hills and shit?
17:09Oh, my gosh.
17:10Wait, let me see.
17:11Aw, damn.
17:11Wait, can we go down two at a time?
17:13Aw, damn.
17:14Nah, bruh.
17:15Launch me, cats.
17:16Chris, be careful.
17:17Launch me.
17:18Oh, shit.
17:22Ty?
17:22Want to spin?
17:24Yeah.
17:25Oh, my God.
17:28Poor Gracie.
17:31Ow.
17:36Yeah, buddy.
17:44Oh, hell no.
17:47Yo, how you making this shit go faster, dawg?
17:49Little did know we in a competition, OK?
17:51It's a couple-versus-couple.
17:52They don't even know.
17:52What up?
17:53But, damn.
17:58Cal, you're gonna throw up.
18:04What?
18:04Oh, no, that is crazy.
18:09Yeah.
18:11Yeah.
18:12And that's what I call a rival is style, bitches.
18:19are you having fun uh yeah you uh yeah i mean it's like yesterday
18:31um i feel like we need to talk though um for sure what's on your mind i think that
18:38uh when it comes to us and our friendship i want the flaring to actually stop for good
18:45i'll bet hey then i'll stop that's fair but i've never once like led you on no that's
18:52not true how's it not true i think everybody online just assumes you're with jeremiah i
19:06know i'm very transparent with you about where i stand friendship best friend but i don't
19:17feel like you act like you're my friend we're flaring we're posting a lot of content together
19:25so everybody thinks we're together and we're not yes we flirt together yes and if you want
19:35that to stop that's cool but the mix same thing it's like well it's you always who stars it's
19:41always you you got it hey no i don't know i'm no i don't want to make i promise we're
19:46good
20:07well that went bad i think if you care about me as your friend why are you hurting my feelings
20:14like you're literally playing with me
20:34hey maya can i talk to you for a quick second about what uh i'm respecting your boundaries and
20:42that's kind of what i just really quick just want to touch on the only thing i want to say
20:47is
20:47i wouldn't do anything to disrespect your relationship and your boundaries i just feel
20:52like the boundaries switched and if you real quick was like brian real on some real we can't
20:59really greet each other i'm just doing this for me and my relationship i would have been like cool
21:03noted like we're good the only thing i felt hella like slapped in the face with was like
21:09the dinner table thing at the end of the day if i don't with someone
21:14i just don't with you i thought the the dinner thing was a little much for someone that just
21:19tried to say hi in a cultural way like that's why i was like even questioning like is that about
21:24me
21:24i mean if you're cool with your girl kissing her ex on his cheeks to say hi that's a you
21:31problem no but
21:32that's not something i'm cool with and that's not something my man's cool with and we will never be
21:36not for sure no i see that and that's cool like i'm not negating that at all especially with this
21:41new relationship that i have right now that i'm very content in i don't want anything especially
21:51brian boundaries confusion to destroy this beautiful love story that i have currently going on
21:59we gave each other a hug in palm springs right we said hi boom that's that's it sorry you love
22:04good
22:05good good it's not like i was giving you like it was a hair it was a heritage thing we
22:11know that like
22:11we we both went through that like with the villa thing i'm not trying to say that you came in
22:16there
22:16with the tension of trying to be malicious or anything like that but what i'm saying is that before
22:22we were just saying hi keeping it casual but now as my relationship is progressing it's like i don't even
22:27want to say hi to you and that's fine i was just confused i'm gonna pull me for a chat
22:30right now
22:31i know just because it was like this is the last day on the trip like i was just confused
22:34as in like
22:35if i really od disrespected it or something like that that's being disrespectful okay then i apologize
22:40for that that won't happen again well you go that way i'll go this way and that's cool like that's
22:44what
22:44it is that's literally what it is yes it's wild to hear that she thinks i was trying to disrespect
22:49the relationship uh i hope that works out like i really do have wishing nothing but the best god
22:56bless god bless that is literally the clarity i need book is closed and it's sent away i'm happy that
23:07that was cleared up whatever the happened right there because don't even come
23:12near me are you crazy you see how long my hair is when i flip it that's how far you
23:17gotta stay back
23:18away from back the fuck up from me am i me the fuck all right can i can i can
23:27i jump and go
23:29all right hold on christopher please be careful do you have gloves no only gloves i'm such a mom let
23:34me
23:34just relax he's nuts he's literally nuts no it's so weird bro he was like i've always been clear
23:45we're friends what he said that yeah i'm like i'm so glad the camera caught you doing all that weird
23:50shit the day before the bar he kissed me yeah i never said that to make him look bad yeah
23:55so how
23:56you gotcha oh my god too late okay i'm your best friend but you kissed me two days ago but
24:05not only
24:05just kissing me but also being all over me i think he's trying to protect his image you've never
24:13escalated it even though we're flirting at the end of the day like i know we're just friends i'm not
24:18gonna like do something to jeopardize that has she ever tried to escalate things with you no i have
24:25all the test messages it's always him testing me i'm like we're friends we don't need to talk every
24:29day he's like hey just checking on you don't fucking check on me yeah me and tino friends he's not
24:33checking on me you should sometimes i'm ready i just graced it with my life i forgot how to start
24:42it
24:42already i'm not even gonna hold you i forgot how to start it already y'all walking over here okay
24:48you're talking yeah bye this is getting all over again at the end of the day i think that when
24:59you
24:59use words and say things like i let you or i allow you it gives a false perception that it
25:05was one-sided
25:06i never said that i said you're always the one to initiate everything and i follow like i do it
25:13back yeah that feels like different than like mutual though like it just feels like i'm like
25:18just annoying you or on your body crazy no because i always said it's fun and i like it but
25:23it has to
25:24stop because that's smooth like that's all you had to say i feel like the conversation but i think i
25:28said the same thing just in different words but at the end of the day it's like you want the
25:32flirting
25:32to stop i'm so down for that i get i mean after this trip i guess i'll see you around
25:40i'll see you
25:42around it's crazy i mean i don't know what okay good at first i didn't understand where anjun was
25:51coming from because i was like i'm telling you we're just friends how you're getting mixed signals but
25:55if i'm telling you we're just friends and we're flirting like we're not just friends that's how you get
25:59mixed signals come come over here is my hair messed up i can't even see anything i can't even see
26:05it
26:06what are you gonna do she knows the type of conversation we need to have she's already
26:10texting me this morning crying we don't need to do this if you don't want to she was basically giving
26:14me an out like dead ass she gonna take that bad either way but how would you plan to do
26:19it in the
26:19first place off camera coco keeps telling me to do it off camera like talk to her off camera
26:23i know my boy chris is uh scared to talk to coco because he's scared that courtney might come out
26:30but i think he should just rip the band-aid off instead of like having it lingered on because the
26:34long as it lingers on and he doesn't want to be part of it anymore the real courtney gonna come
26:40out i
26:40hope he does it quick because it's only gonna get worse and respect your wishes because if you don't
26:45get more mad at you if you're not respecting her wishes that's what i'm seeing okay all right
26:49guys i'm ready to go back to be honest with you yeah i'm starving i'm cold
26:58i feel like today was the first day i was finally able to enjoy myself fully
27:02i really had such a great time it was so fun
27:10time to pack i stood up and get the hell out of here
27:18oh my god it's time to go back home
27:25i didn't even get to wear my fur
27:29tahoe was rough in the beginning and it was rough in the end i feel like the division just grew
27:34more
27:36prominent and i hate that for us
27:43guys quick we're gonna miss the sunset i had a great time in tahoe there were obviously some tough
27:50conversations and it was a little weird but we're a big family at the end of the day we went
27:56through a
27:57very unique experience together and i'm just so happy to have these friendships
28:14i think we got a good this is eight bars from last time yeah and i think we got a
28:21nice little
28:22record here honestly i think my team and i are hoping to drop the album right before summer because
28:29we want to make sure that all of the girlies all the papayas are you know what the dads could
28:34dance
28:48to her too since you were sick in tahoe did you even get to talk to grayson wait how was
28:53that for you though
28:53sitting here it was fine we're both just kind of at the understanding now it's just not like gonna happen
28:58you're gonna kick with her oh yeah like i mean she's a really great friend do you know what i
29:04mean
29:04andrina just texted me what did andrina say i love you i miss you where you at
29:10no i'm just kidding i'll give it 10 minutes to the flight and stuff
29:13fuck off
29:29thank you
29:30what's up brother t's how we doing good to see you bro how many time do i see my name
29:42is nick vance
29:43i'm from jacksonville florida you might know me from season seven love island
29:52i'm a mom mamacita
30:01quick hurry up get in what the fuck
30:05you might not and if you don't my name is nick vance cheers bro good to see you man as
30:11well
30:12how's wifey how's lifey great bro we're now dating and everything so sick yeah i've been staying with
30:18her for a little while i'm with jeremiah all the time i'm with hannah iris like pepe all the time
30:22no he honestly hasn't been showing up really is there beef there's a bunch of stuff he said
30:27and took away from iris and i's relationship but uh we're not on the same page we uh you know
30:33we'll
30:34just we're just not gonna be friends i'm not that surprised that you know that there's tension
30:38since the beginning of time girls will make men go crazy pepe and i are boys i just support both
30:44my boys at the end of the day like i stay out of it where'd you get that thing bro
30:48alandra got it for
30:49me oh really that's fire bro it's dancing i gave her a present and um i like filmed it for
30:55my youtube
30:56video or whatever and people started like crashing out like why the i guess like the louis box was it
31:01was small oh like people were like oh like he didn't get her shit yeah oh my god i got
31:08her something
31:08good but that that's like some of the toughest things like since the villa like dealing with the
31:14public and like everyone watching everything and like have an opinion i think it's like it's crazy
31:18yeah because like you kind of control like the narrative in a little bit of a way like
31:22i only let people see like 10 i think there is some things that we keep private but we post
31:29every day basically it's just a part of our daily life so the public knows majority of what's going
31:34on in our lives so i saw alandria went to the golden globes yeah yeah you couldn't make it or
31:42something
31:42i never got the invite in the middle because my car kept moving so that's my home address yeah
31:47yeah no but next year i want yeah i really want to get into acting and like yeah what's your
31:52plans
31:52you think you're moving out here or anything or i don't know like the djing's so time consuming and
31:57like i go back and forth every other day dude i've been i've been debating it for forever but i
32:03don't
32:03know it's it's kind of not my vibe here yeah talk about long distance like is that hard for you
32:09yeah i mean like it's literally the opposite sides of the country yeah what about you she's in houston
32:14so it's like only two and a half hours away but at the same time it's like she is never
32:20in houston
32:21and i'm never in florida so it's like you guys are so busy and everything how do you make time
32:25for each other it's it's rough i mean i'm in a club like probably wednesday through saturday
32:32and she's 99 doing a shoot throughout the week or whatever but honestly our schedules have been like
32:37aligning up pretty nicely like she coincidentally was in la yesterday so we got dinner and chilled
32:43kicked it i mean just pray that it aligns iris and i are the same way but you know she
32:49has a lot
32:49more going on than i obviously do but i i have more with like the real estate and the stuff
32:54over in
32:54tampa so that's kind of like where we are like a little off schedule i've never really done a long
33:02distance relationship before so it's it's very new to me and there's a lot to learn and it's a lot
33:08to balance but iris and i were making the long distance work i feel like we don't get to see
33:13each other every single day so when we are together we're making sure that it's quality time spent
33:17it's so good to see you bro yeah thank you for coming out of course
33:38honey i'm hey oh you look good yeah i like this necklace thank you thank you uh you look cute
33:49thank you so you and tj how are you guys doing you guys said i love you like officially yeah
33:57we
33:58were in bed so i was like oh i love you oh he's always there for me like you know
34:03sebastian like
34:03he's always like there for you and always has your back that's what we needed this whole time when are
34:09you going to aruba during valentine's day i told myself no more cold places i like tahoe though it was
34:15beautiful it's really beautiful i was just going through it yeah and i felt like everybody was kind
34:20of like attacking you the thing is i was just not having like i was not doing good and like
34:25i feel
34:25like that's okay i feel like my friends would like know that we know i just feel like people don't
34:33understand how i deal with things because it's different than the way that they deal with things
34:39like i'm doing my best and it's just really hard that like i feel like everybody's just going
34:44against me i always say like you need to just be yourself and the people that like you want to
34:50be
34:50around you and the people that don't don't you know and like that's okay doesn't this spot on my
34:56my set kind of look like a penis it does that one's a penis i was staring at it right
35:02now i was like
35:03ah i feel dirty
35:05i feel like i feel like i feel like i feel like i feel like i feel like i feel
35:13like i feel like
35:13this one's a job like my yes
35:15so cute
35:23hi baby how are you
35:26where's gray
35:31oh my god you look good girl you look good i'm like a twilight man come on right now
35:42we love the little edward moment um oh we all got the same thing thank you so much thank you
35:50wow these look good that breather was great right yeah i've never really talked to many
35:55since the trip but i mean it's only been like a week so i talked to andrena a little bit
36:00but yeah
36:01me too she's kind of nice she kind of was like in her corner a little bit i just wish
36:06there was like
36:06no animosity no tension obviously like hannah asked me so it's like if you're gonna ask me i have to
36:13speak on it i understand what you're saying but i'm also really happy that you did speak your mind
36:18because otherwise that's something that you would have been like holding in
36:23yeah all of that aside have you spoke to chris lately how have you guys been
36:31girl i feel like what's that look don't piss me off i mean i sent him a message and i
36:39let him know
36:39that things are off i'm not sure why but if we need to call it close we can yeah
36:50i mean i sent him a message and i let him know that things are off i'm not sure why
36:55but if we need
36:55to call it close we can yeah you know so i was looking for him to fix it and it
37:00didn't feel like
37:02that it felt almost like a drag felt like he was just sweeping out of the rug during the trip
37:09in tahoe
37:09i realized i wasn't gonna get what i needed from him in a relationship there was still a certain
37:14attentiveness that he lacked hey watch my board bro watch the board i gotta handle something oh my god
37:23i'm having a hard time i'm not a baby but at the same time when i'm with a man i'm
37:30his baby so did you
37:32guys speak again after tahoe we did it was very inconsistent communication and now we've kind of
37:38like called things off so that's where you guys stand yeah we're done i don't like the story the
37:45ending was better in my head girl me too but no babes
38:00what's going on brother what's up right big dog for a big guy i know we got boundaries brother boundaries
38:08hey how are you how are you sorry no no it's just that my relationship and boundaries
38:20you're good though this is coda bro god and coda coda's already tired he went to the park earlier
38:26yeah that's you done for the day huh no coda need to hop on the gluten-free dairy-free diet
38:33for a
38:34little bit out here that they do in l.a he old for real yeah he's about to be eight
38:38that's why he got
38:38the gray hill that's what i'm saying bro like he's not about to be shredded i'm gonna be officially moved
38:44out here february word yeah did you find a spot yeah oh okay i went hollywood being in l.a
38:51the past
38:52few months and going from the east coast to west coast has definitely been adjustment but i can't
38:57lie i can't deny this the weather and the views yeah i'm loving cali i'll say that it's just about
39:02that time all the brands and stuff work out here too so yeah you want to chill here for a
39:07little bit
39:08yeah bro i think coda need a break huh bear i'm hella excited bro moving out here yeah me too
39:14bro
39:14spend the summer out here and stuff like that so how are you doing bro since tahoe since that whole
39:20situation and everything really good bro really honestly like that was like because obviously we
39:27left off like when we first talk it was cool and everything and then tahoe kind of like everything
39:31switched yeah but like it was more so like we're cordial like that chapter's been closed i feel like i
39:36closed the chapter in some part of my life bro and i'm opening up a brand new chapter out here
39:40in
39:41la yeah starting fresh and stuff like that so how you feeling post tahoe oklahoma that was a lot
39:47how's stuff with you and coco we're done really yeah i told you we should just be friends bro
39:56i just don't think i can meet the expectations that she has just where i am in life right now
40:00bro
40:01i i i can't be stressed and worried about getting that done coco was raised by a single dad and
40:09you
40:09know he he instilled some expectations and treatment that you know a man should be giving her which any
40:14dad should do i would do that for my own daughter i think when you're on the other side you're
40:19actually
40:19dating the girl that has those expectations from her father i think it's a little tough what do you think
40:25she's saying to the girls right now about you i'm not really tripping bro another one bites the dust
40:32wait so you guys are like done you called it quits i gave him some space and then kind of
40:38reached out
40:39i kind of let him know like hey i'm gonna keep it a band with you i feel like our
40:43exchange hasn't
40:44been as fluent in the beginning i feel like you were really invested and excited to get closer to me
40:49but i feel like now i'm not really sure how you feel and then i go on instagram and like
40:54he's outside
40:56with brian he went to the club over the weekend without you i was just like oh well maybe he's
41:03just
41:03dealing with whatever personal things he has going on and then i just dealing with it on instagram and
41:08i'm like oh you're at the club in the section you're outside i thought and i'm inside waiting for
41:14your text did you speak with him after the club or did you just see him i did i did
41:19okay so you kind of confronted him about that i did i sent him a message i know i kind
41:23of brought
41:23it up the other night but i'm bringing it up again because it's kind of weighing on me i want
41:28you to be happy getting closer to a person you really really like and if this is truly not that
41:33we don't have to do this the reason he gave didn't feel legitimate and we both agreed like let's just
41:38call it a quid i really wish we would have just stayed friends he doesn't have the experience of
41:44having like a girlfriend right in front of him that he has to court regularly you know what i mean
41:48and i just don't have the energy to teach um a 27 year old man how to do that no
41:55there's nothing
41:56wrong with that at all like you know exactly what you want and if you weren't getting exactly what
42:02you want like you're not trying to waste your time you're not trying to waste his time and it's not
42:05even a one it's just a bare minimum you know when you get to know somebody you're stating it's going
42:10out and like courting properly and like being attentive and like because you want to pay attention to
42:15what this person does and how this person is i just i require that kind of attentiveness
42:22say i mean you tried yeah i did i really tried i stepped up romantically
42:29um i handle situations in a grown matter in my opinion with me dating coco for these last two three
42:37months i think it gave me a new perception on what i want for my future it gave me even
42:42more of a clear
42:43ahead of what i won't tolerate what i will put up with and what i will accept and also what
42:50i want
42:50going forward i think i need a day older someone who's more established i want a queen bro i don't
42:56want a princess you make sense like i want my girl to have her own i want my girl to
43:02be established
43:03with her career and what she wants in life knows what she wants and how she wants to go about
43:07it
43:08like a real woman not a girl that's still chasing princess treatment
43:16all the time damn sheesh that's really a lot of family granted see how you feel bro
43:22shit it didn't really work out i think for now with single chris all 26 on your time on my
43:29time
43:29what i want to do where i want to go okay leaving the seat belt open riding dirty
43:41you know seeing austin post his relationship with the girl that he had told me he wasn't going in
43:55that direction with it was kind of a shock but at the same time no it wasn't because i always
44:02knew
44:02there was something going on he just kind of made me feel like i was crazy and it's like
44:09baby i mean clearly i wasn't it clearly she wasn't in the matcha i really just want austin to be
44:14happy
44:15and if this makes him happy then i'm happy for him so i don't feel any sort of animosity towards
44:21him
44:21it was just kind of like people lost us and that's not our loss but we have each other and
44:29we found each
44:30other yeah through our hearts yeah and like i'm so grateful like i see you guys at my wedding like
44:36i see you guys going through life experiences stop i won't cry stop but you know what i mean like
44:41you
44:41know it's really special like and we're so lucky because this is what we wanted through it you know
44:45and just because we didn't find it with everyone how lucky are we to have found it with even just
44:50us
44:51oh that's when i came into the love island experience like hoping for girl you know don't make me cry
45:03and
45:09maybe we're silly for having our heart as much as we did but yeah i'm just i'm glad that like
45:16at least we have each other no matter where you go oh you are never alone
45:36oh my god damn this is way more work than i expected oh my nursing graduation cat i'm gonna put
45:48this
45:48here for now oh my gosh to finally be in my own place my own apartment my own castle it
45:58feels so
45:59free and papa papaya approves i don't like this it's like a flower growing out of power shape
46:09i still can see the look in his face that he doesn't want to let his little papaya go
46:14but he does approve and he knows that i'm safe which is the most important part this is crazy
46:20like how much the lip gloss a girl needs
46:27time this clarky
46:31what's up baby girl i miss you i miss you more i'm at my castle and no matter how much
46:38i unpack bro
46:40the boxes just keep coming big it's like a bad nightmare there's more
46:47but no honestly like i'm really happy that i just finally have a place where i could call home
46:53just a place where i feel like i've worked for you know i'm so happy for you oh my god
46:59wait do you
47:00want to see do you want to see the apartment did i show you okay let me give you a
47:04tour this is one of my
47:06closets we're trying to do what i was saying period period this is the bathroom i'm going to make this
47:11into like old haughtywood country style and i also have a balcony you can see the water wait literally
47:18you can see the water from here and then that's the city
47:23the fact that i'm here been in my home together it's like wow i can't believe it i can't believe
47:29it
47:29i'm just very very proud of myself and i am happy to basically just make that little girl and me
47:36smile i just also wanted to say thank you you were such a great support system on this journey really
47:42does mean a lot and i really do have a lot of love for you seeing all my friends do
47:47these amazing
47:48big things and accomplish these crazy goals is very motivating and i have so many things that i want to
47:54accomplish putting myself back into the cheer world owning multiple businesses and just continuing to
48:01grow into the best version of myself what's tea what's next for amaya papaya um i'm just going to
48:14continue on following my journey i'm so proud of you you're doing big things and even bigger is coming up
48:23they don't even know amaya when somebody calls your name you just have to go for it you know exactly
48:29it's your passion this past year just taught me a lot of resilience and to keep on having faith and
48:36when life give you lemons make the fucking lemonade i just see amaya papaya not stopping men who are
48:42gynecologist kind of freaking out you know i got a 97 on my vagina exam we didn't get the happy
48:49ending
48:49on the villa in fiji but this ending is better yeah this is the way it was supposed to be
48:59and look
48:59at us now look at us now we made it you made it
49:08what was that i never would have thought i could be doing long distance i don't think anybody would
49:20choose this
49:22it strengthened our relationship it has made me more like hopeful for what the future looks like for us
49:32christmas pjs to friendsgiving my life in a year should have been my life over the span of like
49:39six years there's so many opportunities that lie ahead i want to travel the world have fun get married
49:47and have babies you know i met somebody yesterday and she told me i'm gluten free
49:52is gluten my first time in the west coast was this past summer and now i'm moving here
49:58it's so crazy and this experience it forced me to change in a lot of ways that i needed to
50:02change and
50:03uh hearing
50:06people like my mom say i changed it means a lot
50:21and guess what we have more crazy guys memories to be more made okay so get prepared make sure that
50:28that buckle seat is buckle up
50:36why not bring a white christmas to l.a
50:45tomorrow night a new bomb scene enters the view yeah guys like i got a few properties
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