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00:00i was born not because i actually lied but because of this thing around my mom called me a liar
00:05from
00:05the day i was born not because i actually lied but because of this thing around my neck the verity
00:10choker mom was luna of silver moon pack and she believed one thing above all lying was the mark
00:16of a weak wolf we were her daughters future alpha heirs weakness was not an option so when my twin
00:22sister emma and i were born mom clasped these chokers around our throats which had witch magic
00:28to detect lies green light means truth red light means you were lying emma's choker always green
00:34she could shred mom's ceremonial cloak and blame the cat and gem would glow a steady green not me
00:40green light believed me mom i'm hungry and flash red light the choker choked tight i shifted on instinct
00:50a small white wolf pawing desperately at the gem around my neck claws scraping against it unable to
00:56get it off i'm not lying not lying please but mom's eyes had already gone cold instant punishment
01:03mom's punishment wasn't gentle no food locked in my room no contact with anyone in the pack
01:09the truth necklace doesn't lie stella starve now study later i'm doing this for your own good after
01:1610 years of this i started believing it too maybe i really was born wrong new year's eve everything
01:22changed mom was getting ready to take emma to the pack's bonfire celebration and that's when the pain
01:28hit like a knife twisting in my gut i collapsed on the floor my skeletal frame curling into itself
01:34mom please the choker flashed red and choked tight she looked down at me disgusted in her eyes
01:42in your dream stella faking an illness to ruin our night she grabbed emma's hand and headed for the
01:49door i wanted to howl but my wolf was too weak to answer i shifted anyway forced it a small
01:56white
01:56wolf trembling on the floor ribs heaving maybe in this form the pain would hurt less it didn't i
02:02couldn't even hold the shift i slipped back into myself without meaning to sorry mom i won't lie
02:08anymore but the pain got worse way worse the door handle turned for one second i thought mom's coming
02:15back she came back for me hurry up the bonfire is starting emma's waiting mom i reached out with a
02:23shaking hand please something's really wrong i feel like i'm dying she glanced at my neck the gem was
02:29flashing red over and over she crouched down grabbed my chin stella how long are you gonna keep this up
02:37can't you just be honest and stay here and think about what you've done dad appeared in the doorway
02:43honey should we at least leave her some food food she has a stash of snacks she bought with stolen
02:50money she won't starve lock the door when that gem turns green we'll talk but but what it's because
03:00you spoil her that she turned out this way look at emma her gem has always been green
03:06stella is a liar an alpha heiress who can't tell the truth she needs discipline but my cabinet was empty
03:13emma stole that money emma ate those snacks emma just stood there with her glowing green gem saying
03:20not me and mom believed her i tried to defend myself it wasn't me red light the choker choked tight
03:28i tried to shift nothing happened deep inside my wolf barely stirred mom locked me up for three
03:36days with nothing but water and stale bread mom turned to leave emma peeked through the door made
03:43a face at me bye sis we're gonna see the bonfire her gem glowed a steady green so pretty the
03:51door
03:51locked the house went silent i called my wolf nothing came back not even a whisper just
03:58me alone the pain was unbearable but i kept thinking mom's right the gem doesn't lie it's red
04:07so i must be lying i'm not in pain i'm not in pain i'm not in pain i kept repeating
04:17it like a prayer
04:17eventually i almost believed it the pain dulled or maybe i was just going numb i crawled to my desk
04:26i had to write that was the rule if the gem glowed red i had to pen a thousand word
04:32apology
04:33or mom would never let me out i am a liar write it down and maybe mom would forgive me
04:40maybe she'd even let me out i opened my journal pages and pages of apologies i'd written over the
04:48years sorry i lied i won't do it again but this time i wanted to write the truth my vision
04:55blurred
04:55my hand shook as i wrote mom i really love you it really hurts why won't you believe me please
05:05believe
05:05me just once the moment i finished the last word the pain vanished just gone i felt light weightless
05:15i looked down i was floating and there slumped over the desk was my body motionless the gem still
05:24flashing red around a dead girl's neck oh i'm dead and then she came out my wolf stepping out of
05:32my
05:32body like she'd been waiting all along small skinny barely holding together she looked up at me and
05:40once soft and low in the pack's old stories they say when a wolf dies young her spirit doesn't cross
05:49over alone her wolf walks beside her until they find the door together i knelt down she pressed her
05:56nose into my ghostly palm finally we were together now but i never learned how to be honest sorry mom
06:04i heard laughter mom dad emma coming through the front door tonight's bonfire was beautiful
06:11the best one yet just like our emma perfect in every way i'd never heard her sound like that when
06:20she talked about me i floated toward them my wolf patting silently at my side moving on instinct i wanted
06:27to help them take off their cloaks that's what i always did mom my arms passed right through her body
06:33like wind why is it so cold here is the hearthi out i stood there staring at my transparent hands
06:41my wolf pressed against my leg and looked up at me with sad eyes right dead wolves couldn't hug the
06:47living shall we go and see stella she hasn't eaten yet still the good cop i looked at mom hopefully
06:54if she found me dead would she be sad would she regret it she won't starve she is a werewolf
07:02not a human pup this whole fake sick for attention thing is out of control i laughed bitterly mom
07:10wasn't wrong werewolves heal but i hadn't been able to in a long time last winter the choker left bruises
07:17that stayed for days that hadn't happened before i reached for my wolf she was still there but the
07:23warmth never came she was too hungry just like me mom never noticed she only ever looked at my
07:32neck for one thing the gem and whether it was red or green mom pushed open my door didn't even
07:38turn
07:39on the light just for a second her eyes flashed gold her wolf might have known mom didn't listen in
07:45the
07:46dim glow from the hallway she saw me slumped over my desk i looked like a skeleton hadn't moved still
07:53putting on an act you're ten years old not five grow up mom i'm not playing i'm dead look at
08:02me
08:02touch me i'm freezing she couldn't hear me she only believed what she wanted to see emma squeezed past
08:10her held up her choker with that smug little grin look my gem is green stella's is still red she's
08:17lying even in her sleep that's my good girl ignore the liar let her stay there maybe she'll learn how
08:24to be honest should we at least put her in bed it's freezing put her in bed look at that
08:31red gem
08:32still lying come on leave her we have to visit grandma tomorrow the door locked again i floated
08:40next to my corpse my wolf curled silently at my feet staring at that single point of red light in
08:46the darkness mom if you'd just stepped closer if you'd just touched my hand you'd know i was ice
08:52cold but you didn't you believed the choker not the daughter you carried for nine months
08:59that night a rat crawled out of my empty cabinet i used to scream whenever i saw rats but now
09:05i just
09:05floated by the ceiling watching it scurry across my dead body the rat bit into my toe i didn't feel
09:11anything my wolf charged at it anyway and passed right through landing on the other side she turned
09:18back to look at me confused lost i pulled her close and buried my face in the fur of her
09:24back it's okay
09:26you can't feel it anymore it'll be over soon she let out one low growl then went still against me
09:33finally no more pain for either of us the next morning sunlight streamed through the window no
09:40warmth reached my body in the kitchen i could hear mom making breakfast the smell of roasted meat crept
09:47under my door my favorite but mom always said liars don't deserve meat so i only ever got steamed
09:53vegetables she was clanging the pots extra loud on purpose trying to tempt me out trying to make me give
10:00in and apologize for things i never did in the old days i might have caved i might have confessed
10:06to
10:06anything for one bite of roasted meat but i don't need food anymore stella still hasn't come out yet
10:13dad asked reading the pack notices she is so stubborn she can eat or not i don't care
10:22emma walked to my door and made a big show of sniffing the air
10:26then she screamed dramatically mom stella's room smells like poop did she poop in there i floated by
10:34the door watching my sister with a bitter smile my wolf sat beside me ears flat eyes low the hearth
10:42was
10:43burning hot after just one night my body started to rot mom stormed over pounding on the door
10:51i remembered being six i had food poisoning couldn't make it to the toilet in time mom didn't
11:05help me clean up she made me stand outside pointed at me and told the neighbors look at this she's
11:11such
11:12a mess she can't even use the toilet herself now she thought i was dirty again leave her let her
11:17sit in
11:18her own stink but dad stood up frowning that smells really bad i should check could it be a dead
11:25rat or
11:26something my heart if i still had one leapt dad please open the door i'm right here just turn the
11:35handle and you'll see i'm not moving i waved my transparent arms frantically my wolf ran straight
11:42to my bedroom door willing dad to open it dad's hand touched the door handle his hand froze someone
11:49was pounding at the front door a pack elder urgent business dad's face went pale he grabbed his cloak
11:55the border there's an emergency he was already out the door i froze so close one second away if that
12:03knock had come one second later i would have been found maybe then i wouldn't have rotted alone that
12:08afternoon mom took emma to the pack market the house was empty except for my corpse when they
12:13came back that evening loaded down with food and gifts from the market the smell had gotten worse
12:18mom gagged the second she walked in stella are you trying to turn this place into a den of inequity
12:24she didn't even open my door just grabbed cloth strips and sealed the gap at the bottom if you want
12:30to stay in there and make disgusting stew zoos don't stink up my house she patted her hands together
12:35satisfied then went to prepare dinner i stared at that sealed door my wolf pressed her nose against
12:40it and whimpered once so that's it i'm worth less than a venison dinner by day three even the cloth
12:46strips
12:46couldn't contain the smell mom was arranging fresh wildflowers trying to cover it up but the stench of
12:52death is unmistakable sweet rotten oily she cut a rose stem too hard a thorn pierced her hand she snapped
12:59in her mind i was doing this on purpose not bathing poop on the floor hiding dead rats in my
13:05room all
13:06to piss her off all to defy her authority as luna stella she grabbed a rolling pin from the kitchen
13:12stormed toward my room i'm done with you you disgusting little brat time you learned what real
13:19pain feels like i floated in front of her waving my arms desperately don't come in mom please please
13:28even though she never loved me i didn't want her to see me like that but she walked right through
13:33me
13:33ripped the cloth strips off jammed the spare key into the lock the door flew open the smell hit her
13:39like a wall she stumbled back retching stella what are you doing she saw me still slumped over the desk
13:47back turned not moving to her this was the ultimate rebellion i'm talking to you she marched
13:53over raised the rolling pin but stopped she wanted to see my face first wanted to see my get up
14:01she
14:01grabbed the back of my shirt grabbed my skin the moment she touched me she froze through the thin
14:06fabric her hand didn't feel warm flesh she felt cold hard dead meat the kind of cold that seeps into
14:13your bones what but momentum carried her forward she yanked crash my body stiff as a board toppled
14:20backward taking the chair with it and there was my face blue black eyes bulging features twisted in
14:26agony dried foam and blood crusted around my mouth around my blackened neck the verity choker hung
14:32the gem dark no red no green just silence my journal slid off the desk fell open at mom's feet
14:41the last
14:42page stared up at her mom my stomach really hurts the choker is wrong i'm not lying please don't punish
14:48me
14:49mom screamed not a wolf's howl a raw guttural shriek that tore through her throat she stumbled backward
14:57slammed into the bookshelf a clay pot shattered but she didn't seem to feel the pain she just
15:03stared at me eyes wide unblinking no no no no this is not real get up stella get up get
15:13up i'm not mad
15:15anymore stop scaring me her hand reached out trembling to touch my arm the second her skin made contact with
15:24my corpse she recoiled like she'd been burned that cold was too real lisa from next door heard the
15:31screaming and went straight to the pack healer when she saw what was in my room she collapsed
15:36in the gate within the hour heavy boots on the floorboards the pack healer and a handful of pack
15:41warriors crowding the entrance mom sat on the floor a warrior's hand on her shoulder she's speaking
15:48it she's always lying it doesn't lie i'm just teaching her no one responded they all looked at
15:57her like she was a monster the pack healer crouched next to my body he muttered under his breath
16:03severe malnutrition organ failure this puppy has been starved for at least a month he carefully tried
16:10to remove the verity choker but it had fused years of tightening had pressed the leather deep into the
16:16skin of my neck damn it he had to use tools to pry it off even dead my soul flinched
16:23my wolf lifted her
16:24head and long raw desperate the kind of howl that should have shaken the walls no one heard it no
16:34one
16:34flinched we were already dead a warrior picked up my journal started reading his face went from neutral
16:41to horrified mom's eyes locked onto that book that's her confession she admits she lied look she wrote it
16:49herself the warrior pushed her back wrapped the journal in cloth and took it we'll report it to
16:57the council that's when dad got home he saw the pack healer and the pack warriors crowding the doorway
17:04saw the body wrap being carried out saw the long cord that sealed away my entire life
17:11his legs gave out he collapsed on the doorstep emma stood nearby sobbing in confusion
17:18she pointed at the discolored verity choker on the table why does stella have a black collar
17:23and i have a green one see she held up her neck the gem blinked its steady green it was
17:30grotesque
17:32the council elders arrived before dawn mom straightened when she saw them even now even
17:38with my body three days cold and rotting her luna instincts kicked in she lifted her chin squared
17:45her shoulders it didn't work today they started questioning mom in the living room mom grabbed the
17:51severity choker off the table like it was a lifeline test it that choker proved she was lying red gem
17:59means
17:59lie i never abused her the choker told me i was just educating her the council elders looked at her
18:09like she'd lost her mind the pup shows signs of extreme malnutrition months of starvation
18:17aphelion multiple old injuries consistent with prolonged that's just discipline that's teaching
18:23her to be honest then she did something insane you don't believe me fine i'll wear it
18:34watch it'll be green the leather pressed against her skin cold sticky that was my blood she took a
18:43deep breath tried to calm herself she needed to prove she was innocent needed to prove her way of
18:49raising an alpha heir was right she held up the gem eyes wild listen i'm rachel i'm stella's mother
18:58this is the truth the absolute truth the gem flashed red mom's confident expression shattered
19:07i said truth i am rachel i never abused her i did it for her own good i love her
19:18and suddenly
19:19she remembered me 10 years old gasping as the choker tightened around my throat biting my lips
19:27so i wouldn't make a sound is this what it felt like why is it red i am telling the
19:34truth turn green
19:35you're broken you're setting me up but the gem kept flashing like it was mocking her you're a liar
19:42you're a liar you're a liar enough this is just a bloodstone i've seen it before it changes color
19:52with body heat fear pain anything that makes your heart race temperature rises it burns red that's all it
20:01does no witch magic never was think about your daughter ruptured appendix organ failure the pain
20:10must have been unbearable she was terrified and what did you see a red gem so you punished her more
20:18which made her more scared which made her temperature rise which made the stone turn redder
20:27you are luna you are supposed to protect every wolf in this pack you couldn't even protect your own
20:35daughter you ignored her cries for help you starved your daughter to death mom's world collapsed she sat
20:43there staring at the flashing gem on her own net and finally understood for 10 years every red light
20:51wasn't because i was lying it was because i was scared scared of her anger scared of being misunderstood
20:59scared of eating food that made me sick i was in pain pain that made my heart race and cold
21:05sweat pour
21:06down my face i was desperate desperate for a hug for her to hold me the way she held emma
21:13every signal
21:14from my frightened heart she had interpreted as proof of my lies no get it off
21:24i'm not lying i'm not she tried to shift fur rippling across her skin bones cracking but the
21:32leather cinched harder around her throat the moment her neck didn't change she snapped back into human form
21:38gasping i can't get it off stella take it back i'm sorry it's all my fault this little bit of
21:48choking
21:48and she was already breaking mom i suffered for 10 years the council elders needed evidence for judgment
21:58so they opened my journal in front of my parents february 14th sunny mom put celery on my plate i'm
22:06allergic
22:07my throat swells i can't breathe i said i can't eat it but because i was scared of making her
22:12angry
22:13my body ran hot the gem flashed red the choker tightened mom said i was picky lying made me eat
22:22the whole plate that night i threw up blood my throat felt like it was on fire i shifted to
22:29ease my pain
22:30mom saw it and said i'd snuck berry juice that i was faking the choker tightened for 10 more minutes
22:38mom's hand flew to her mouth she was shaking violently she remembered that she really did think it was
22:46berry juice she didn't even look closely just turned away to read emma a bedtime story that was blood from
22:54a
22:54swollen torn throat june 1st pup's day emma shredded mom's ceremonial cloak emma's heart is always calm
23:04her gem stays green i tried to explain but i was scared of being hit my body ran hot red
23:11gem choker
23:13tightened for 10 minutes it hurt so bad but i didn't cry because crying makes your body run hotter and
23:21mom
23:21thinks that means you're not sorry so i held my breath pretended it didn't hurt mom said see she
23:29doesn't even blink she's definitely faking it dad couldn't take it anymore this man who had always
23:36put the pack before his own family chose duty over his daughter for 10 years you monster what did
23:44you do that was your daughter you treated her like a stray blood at the corner of her mouth
23:51not my fault not my fault it's her it's emma emma's gem was always green emma was the good one
23:59if it wasn't for that green light making me trust her i wouldn't have believed the red light so much
24:05this is emma's thoughts that little princess everyone who protected one of the council elders
24:10walked over gently removed the green verity choker from her neck took out a blade pried the gem loose
24:17right there it rolled onto the table still glowing green steady unchanged the elder picked up the stone
24:26a glowstone that is all your younger daughter's choker was always going to shine green no matter what she
24:34said did or lied about it would never change your so-called verity choker was a fraud that was her
24:44truth
24:44for 10 years that was the evidence she used to convict me a common glowstone that put me in hell
24:51well emma lived in paradise so i wasn't a liar i laughed laughed until i cried turns out ghosts could
25:00cry too the elder turned to the last page of the journal his voice broke the handwriting was a mess
25:06clearly written while dying mom if i die will the choker stop glowing red or if it turns green will
25:14you hug me
25:14then i'm not lying i couldn't heal myself anymore my stomach hurts so much like knives next life please
25:23don't make me wear the choker please i just want to be a normal pup i want to eat mom's
25:29roasted meat
25:30mom stared at the broken glowstone on the table that truth magic she trusted without question
25:35a worthless stone because of that stone she spoiled emma for 10 years because of that cursed red light
25:42she tortured me for 10 years
25:48mom started laughing her voice cracking in every sound worse than crying fake all fake
25:59i killed my most honest pup and i worshipped a liar she'd lost her mind for real this time
26:08my death became the talk of the entire pack lisa the neighbor who had sent for the pack healer
26:14told everyone what she'd seen every wolf knew by morning luna had starved her own daughter
26:20to death monster murderer she doesn't deserve to be luna stones flew at our door the word killer carved
26:30into the wall the council convened within the day the verdict was swift dad lost his alpha title
26:37no wolf would follow him now my grandfather the former alpha read out the judgment himself he didn't
26:45look at his son once dad walked out of the council hall and never looked back he took emma and
26:51left
26:51the pack that same night emma was a bad seed sure but she was still his blood before they left
26:58emma tried
26:58to take her green choker dad stomped on it why the hell would you want that piece of trash emma
27:05cried as
27:06dragged her away mom got out of the dungeon the healer said she had lost her mind the council
27:12locked her in the home instead the one that still smelled like death her mental state deteriorated fast
27:18she refused to take off the red choker she would tighten it herself whenever the guilt got too heavy
27:24she said choking was the only thing that eased it it was her self-imposed punishment i floated in the
27:30darkness my wolf curled beside me watching her unravel day after day she'd talk to the empty
27:36corner where i used to stand stella i brought you some food no celery today it's all roast
27:43just how you like it but there was no food there was nothing just her hands cupped around air she'd
27:51pretend to set a plate down her hands shook the gem flashed red she was anxious guilty falling apart
27:58she smiled but her eyes were empty the gem is red mom is lying liars don't deserve food she pulled
28:07the
28:07choker tight with her own hands let it choke her her body convulsed against the cold floor it hurts so
28:13much is this how stella felt i'm sorry mom started reenacting my diary entries i couldn't eat celery
28:23because of my allergy so she forced herself to eat spoiled food until she vomited blood then swallowed
28:30it back down i was locked in isolation so she locked herself in my old room lights off and bowed
28:38to my
28:38portrait until her forehead blood over and over blood on the floor late at night she'd see the red glow
28:47of
28:47the bloodstone reflected on the wall to her it looked like my bloody eyes were watching she kept
28:53punishing herself the wounds healed slower and slower her wolf exhausted by months of self-torture
29:01slowly fell into a deep sleep mom didn't care she scrawled on the back of my journal i'm sorry
29:08i was wrong red means pain red means love please come back and say it hurts hurts one more time
29:16i'll save you i promise too bad i'm dead dead wolves can't cry for help eventually the new alpha
29:23intervened mom's self-harm had gone too far she'd nearly choked herself to death with her own hands
29:29he ordered her to move to a small hut at the far edge of the village locked from the outside
29:35someone
29:36posted to watch her day and night she was the strangest woman they'd ever seen nobody knew where
29:42she'd found it a frayed red cord tied around her own neck her homemade choker if anyone tried to
29:49remove it she'd snap at them teeth bared snarling wild-eyed don't touch me stella's watching she'll be
29:59angry if you take it every time the guard called her name and brought her food mom would grab the
30:05red
30:05cord and pull it tight against her own throat convulsing screaming red light red light don't
30:12punish punish me i'll eat i'll eat even if the food was scalding hot she'd gulp it down burning her
30:20throat
30:21wouldn't spit it out she was reenacting my final moments living my hell on repeat years later emma grew
30:29up without guidance and with a trail of shame behind her she drifted from pack to pack stealing to
30:36survive no one would take her in when she ran out of options she remembered mom was still alive she
30:43slipped back into the silverman pack under the cover of night not for love for money hey crazy lady dad's
30:52dead give me whatever you've been hiding emma stood there face hard eyes full of contempt she looked
30:59at mom's hollow broken form and spat on the floor it's disgusting give me what i want or i'll send
31:08you
31:08to meet your daughter for a moment mom's cloudy eyes cleared she looked at emma and suddenly remembered
31:15that choker that always green glowstone that decade of deception it's you you lie you're the green light
31:25that wasn't there you killed stella give her back to me give her back to me the last shred of
31:32maternal
31:33love twisted into something feral mom lunged grabbed emma by the throat should have died not her you
31:45emma thrashed but couldn't break free from a mad woman's grip the guards rushed in pulled her off
31:51emma stumbled out of the hut terrified they're all insane she bolted into the forest she didn't get far
31:59rogues the kind that haunted the borderlands preying on anyone foolish enough to run through the trees
32:05alone at night emma never saw them coming by the time she did it was too late she survived barely
32:13both
32:14legs shattered beyond repair she'd never walk again meanwhile mom was strapped to her cot staring at
32:21the ceiling tears streaming in her dreams she finally saw me i was 10 again no choker white dress smiling
32:30mom she reached for me crying with joy stella but the moment her hands touched me i burst into ash
32:39no she woke up screaming if she'd been wearing that choker it would have been blood red eternal
32:47torment i stood in the void watching it all mom strapped to her bed emma in a wheelchair begging on
32:54the market dad drunk and dead in some gutter i felt nothing no satisfaction just a flat dead calm my
33:03wolf
33:03patted over quietly she didn't howl didn't nudge just pressed her head against my hand and held it there
33:10in the distance a door of light appeared soft steady waiting i looked at my wolf she looked at me
33:18yeah
33:18time to leave this life was too bitter nothing worth holding on to i floated to mom's hut one final
33:26time
33:26she looked ancient hair completely white frail as paper she sent something her cloudy eyes focused
33:33on a point in the air right where i stood stella is that you her trembling hand reached into the
33:38emptiness mom destroyed the choker i don't believe in it anymore come back please i'll cook for you no
33:45salary i'll buy you new dresses not emma tears rolled down her face i looked at the red marks on
33:51her neck
33:51from the frayed cord i i reached out my cold ghostly finger touched her forehead this was my
33:58final mercy sleep mom in sleep there's no pain her eyes fluttered shut she slumped into a deep
34:04dreamless rest a breeze blew through the hut the old journal on her cot flipped open the last page
34:11my dying words stared up at the ceiling but below it in shaky handwriting were new lines written by mom
34:18during a lucid moment next life let me wear the choker let me be the liar punish me however you
34:24want just don't leave me i stared at those words felt nothing too late repentance means nothing to the
34:30dead mom i don't hate you anymore but i don't love you either let's not meet again i turned away
34:37my wolf
34:37was waiting in the distance the door of light still glowed soft steady patient i looked at my neck the
34:44phantom verity choker still there even in spirit form the nightmare that had changed me for a lifetime
34:50i grabbed it it shattered into nothing i felt weightless free no red light no hunger no lies
34:57just freedom my wolf pressed against my side together we walked toward the light i didn't look back
35:04morning came a guard pushed open the door rachel time to eat no response she walked closer mom's hand
35:10clutched the torn journal a single tear crystallized at the corner of her eye she crouched beside her
35:16held two fingers beneath her nose nothing she was gone passing through the door wasn't violent no
35:22spinning no chaos just warmth like sinking into a spring stream i looked to my side my wolf was gone
35:29i didn't panic i pressed my hand to my chest and there she was steady warm then i heard her
35:35voice not a
35:36whimper not a whine clear and bright and full of life like the first time we met run i shifted
35:42four
35:43paws hit the ground and i ran through forests that smelled of pine and rain through cold shallow streams
35:49that splashed silver around my legs through meadows i had never seen but somehow knew my white fur caught
35:55the light my paws were sure my lungs were full my body was strong no choker around my throat no
36:03red light
36:03no hunger the lingering ache in my soul the phantom pain of 10 years started to fade with every step
36:10i ran toward brightness behind me old life dissolved like a worn photograph left out in the rain mom's
36:17final tear the red glow of the choker blood on the journal pages gone i didn't look back that 10
36:24year
36:24nightmare was finally truly over when i opened my eyes again i was tiny wrapped in soft blankets
36:33someone was humming a woman's voice gentle off key but full of love her fingers brushed my cheek
36:42the scent of wildflowers not the cold clinical distance of my old mother not the silence of
36:49someone who only touched me to punish i blinked up at her she had kind eyes a soft smile she
36:56cradled
36:56me like i was made of glass grace is awake honey come quick our daughter just opened her eyes a
37:04man
37:04appeared tall a little awkward but his face lit up when he saw me he touched my tiny hand with
37:11one
37:11finger his voice was deep warm hey grace i'm your dad grace not stella no weight no chains no red
37:23light
37:24just grace a name that meant something light something cherished this house was small but warm
37:31full of light cartoon painting on the walls flowers by the window sunlight pouring through the windows
37:38warm on the floor i realized fast this family was nothing like the last one they never forced me to
37:45do anything there were no chokers no red lights no punishments for things i hadn't done
37:51i grew learned to crawl to talk and when i was three mom made a stew with celery the green
38:00stalks
38:00in the bowl triggered me i flashed back to choking throat swelling vomiting blood
38:06i stumbled backwards shaking tears came without permission mom immediately put down her spoon crouched
38:13pulled me into a hug grace what's wrong you don't like celery i couldn't speak just shook my head
38:20sobbing dad knelt too rubbed my back hey it's okay you don't have to eat it can you tell us
38:28why
38:28their eyes were patient gentle finally i choked out it hurts my throat makes me bleed they didn't say
38:38the verity choker doesn't lie they didn't accuse me of faking they took me to the pack healer immediately
38:45turns out i really do have a celery allergy after that celery never appeared in the house again mom added
38:52it to her market list grace's allergies celery she checked every time she shopped i lay in her arms
38:59that night smelling wildflowers and realized this is what it feels like to be believed love isn't
39:06measured by a stone it's listening even when the story sounds impossible when i was four dad took me to
39:14the pacular for my first health check there was a blood draw i saw the needle and lost it flashes
39:20of
39:20the choker tightening around my throat flashes of starvation i screamed clung to dad's leg the healer
39:27sighed i couldn't stop shaking don't punish me i'm not lying dad immediately scooped me up sorry she's not
39:35ready we'll come back another time on the walk home dad didn't scold me for being weak he just asked
39:42gently grace did someone hurt you before i buried my face in his shoulder tears soaking his shirt
39:49mom joker red light i couldn't explain it clearly but he listened nodded it's okay dad's here now
40:01no one's ever hurting you again from then on they took me to the pack healer regularly not for blood
40:07draws just to talk she has been hurt be patient with her my parents never complained never made me feel
40:14like a burden they bought me a colorful necklace but never forced me to wear it this is just a
40:20pretty
40:20thing grace wear it if you want take it off if you don't we'll love you either way slowly i
40:26started to
40:27heal i could say i don't like this without fear i could say i'm scared i could say i want
40:35that i didn't
40:36have to worry about my heart racing being proof of a lie i started sharing my stories with them
40:41i cried when i didn't get a toy i laughed when i got praise i was finally just a pup
40:47a normal loved pup
40:52when i turned seven i started at the pack school there was a girl in my class annie sullivan
40:59she looked exactly like emma same eyes but her hair was shorter and she was timid
41:05scared the first time i saw her my heart clenched flashbacks emma's smug grin the green light mocking
41:14me i stepped back instinctively annie noticed she looked down voice barely a whisper i'm annie
41:24do you want to be friends her tone was so careful so desperate to please just like i used to
41:30be
41:31i glanced at her neck she wore a simple choker with green gem my stomach turned later i found out
41:38annie's mom was strict too demanded honesty locked her in her room without food when she made mistakes
41:46one day annie accidentally knocked over the teacher's ink pot she was trembling too scared
41:51to admit it i saw her face red rimmed eyes barely holding back tears i remembered myself at that desk
41:59writing i am a liar over and over i walked over took her hand annie it's okay accidents happen let's
42:10tell the teacher together she won't be mad annie looked at me shocked but mom says liars are bad wolves
42:17being honest isn't about never making mistakes it's about owning up when you do and even if you tell the
42:23truth you shouldn't be punished for it if the teacher gets angry i'll stand with you if your
42:29mom gets angry come to my house my parents will help i gave her the courage i never had she
42:35confessed
42:35the teacher forgave her told her to be more careful next time from that day on we have been best
42:41friends
42:43i brought annie home to meet my parents she saw how warm they were how they didn't yell didn't punish
42:49little things i told her you don't have to make everyone happy you're allowed to feel things say
42:57things one day annie's mom came to pick her up from school she saw us together and her face twisted
43:04she grabbed annie's hand did you mess up again is grace covering for you annie immediately looked down
43:11silent i stepped in front of her looked at the mom in the eye ma'am annie didn't do anything
43:17wrong
43:18she's a good pup you shouldn't always assume the worst she's scared of you the mom froze looked at me
43:28then at annie's tear-filled eyes her expression softened that night she called my mom thanked her
43:35said i'd opened her eyes over time annie's mom got gentler what you want to do started listening
43:41instead of yelling and annie she blossomed confident happy i watched her laugh freely one day and felt
43:49this warmth in my chest i didn't get saved in my last life i suffered alone in the dark but
43:55this time
43:56i could save someone else i could stop another stella from happening maybe that's the gift my past life
44:02gave me the ability to see pain and to heal it when i was 10 my parents took me to
44:08visit grandma there was
44:10an old oak tree in her yard its branches spread wide casting shade over the whole garden i sat beneath
44:15it
44:16watching sunlight filter through the leaves my wolf dozed inside me warm and content then i saw her
44:22an old woman white hair hunched over a walking stick wearing a faded blue dress the second i saw her
44:29face i froze she looked exactly like rachel my old mother grandma noticed me too walked over slowly
44:37her eyes were hazy but there was something familiar in them something heavy what's your name child grace
44:42she repeated it softly grace that's a beautiful name she reached out like she wanted to touch my hair
44:48then hesitated pulled back like she was afraid of disturbing something sacred my mom came over
44:54steadied her mom this is our daughter grace so she was my grandma in this life too over the next
45:00few days
45:01grandma watched me constantly her expression was unreadable one morning she brought me a bowl of
45:06roasted meat grace eat up this used to be your favorite i stared at the bowl in my last life
45:12i wrote in my dying breath i want to eat mom's roasted meat and here was grandma saying those exact
45:18words tears blurred my vision this wasn't some distant wish anymore it was real right in front of me
45:25i picked up a piece bit into it tender sweet perfect grandma smiled a tired guilty smile that night
45:33lying in bed with my wolf curled warm inside my chest i thought about rachel's last words next
45:39life let me wear the choker let me be the liar punish me however you want just don't leave me
45:45i thought about her final tear the torn journal i didn't hate her anymore hating someone is like
45:51locking yourself in the past chewing on pain forever this life's warmth had already washed away the
45:56bitterness i just felt sad sad that she only understood too late real love was never about
46:02stones or punishment we stayed for a month then went back home before i left she held my hand grace
46:09live well be happy her voice was soft but heavy with meaning i nodded you too grandma i watched her
46:15walk away and i felt nothing no anger no grief the grudges of my past life were like fallen leaves
46:22blown away by the wind i wasn't stella anymore the girl locked in the dark choking on a lie i
46:28was grace
46:28sterling surrounded by love free at 13 i graduated from pack school got into the best academy in the
46:35region my parents took me to the lake for a picnic to celebrate i stood at the edge of the
46:40water wind in
46:41my hair the scent of pine and cold water on my skin i stretched out my arms feeling the freedom
46:47for a
46:48moment i saw her my ghost self floating desperate to hug someone but passing right through grace what
46:56are you thinking dad handed me a drink i smiled just i'm grateful to be alive to be with you
47:02both
47:02mom pulled me into a hug silly girl we're the lucky ones no one said anything we all just shifted
47:09at the
47:09same time like we'd done it a hundred times before we ran together through the trees through the shallow
47:15edge of the lake water spraying silver around our paws eventually i slowed down turned and threw
47:21myself at them we tumbled into the grass together mom nuzzled her head against mine dad licked the top
47:28of my head with lazy affection i pressed into them both and stayed there breathing hard warm all the way
47:35through i looked up at the sky through the canopy of trees i didn't need to prove i wasn't a
47:39liar anymore
47:40i didn't need to fear a red light i could laugh cry speak freely i had parents who loved me
47:47a best
47:47friend a healthy body a bright future this was the life i died wishing for that night i wrote in
47:54my
47:55journal not the blood-stained confessions of my old life this one was full of happiness growth love i wrote
48:02today we ran by the lake mom and dad shifted with me without saying a word we tumbled in the
48:08grass like
48:08pups i thought about my past self that little girl locked in a room choking in the dark desperate
48:15to be loved she'd never believe that i could be this happy mom and dad love me they taught me
48:20that
48:20honesty isn't something you punish out of someone it's something you grow with patience and warmth
48:26annie is my best friend now she laughs freely she speaks without flinching grandma is getting older
48:33but her eyes are warm when she looks at me my wolf grows stronger every day with her beside me
48:39i feel
48:40at ease i don't hate anyone anymore i don't cling to the past those painful memories are like paw prints
48:46in the mud washed away by rain but they taught me to cherish every step forward i know my old
48:52mom
48:53sister and dad got what they deserved and i finally broke free i found real freedom i don't want to
49:00see
49:00again i don't want to relive that life i just want to be gray simple happy loved the lake was
49:07beautiful
49:07life was beautiful i closed my journal looked out the window moonlight shimmered on the water through
49:13the trees my wolf stirred softly inside my chest warm steady i smiled this life i finally became who i
49:21wanted to be no red light no starvation no lies just love freedom happiness and those scars from my past
49:29they became part of me proof that i had survived proof that darkness no matter how long it lasts cannot
49:35swallow you whole not if you keep moving toward the light the road ahead is long but i will walk
49:41it
49:41with courage with courage with joy toward something even brighter
49:45you
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