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The Only Way is Essex S36E03 (2026)
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00:00The only way is up, baby, for you and me now
00:11The time is here
00:15The time is here
00:29I don't agree with his morals
00:30Yeah, but can I just say something like I'm not going to sit here and have any like a freddy
00:35slanzar
00:35Listen, he calls the line with me. He calls me a slag
00:39I've got the daughter. That's not okay. At the end of the day, I'm going to say whatever I want
00:43to say, babe
00:44That's fine. I know it's fine. Because I'm always going to say what I want to say
00:52I don't want to say that people need to air me out now
00:57Elmar at the end of the day. I've also got the needle with you
01:01Yeah, I'll tell my
01:07I'm speaking to you
01:10Shut up
01:12Shut up
01:14Shut up
01:16Shut up
01:16Shut up
01:25What, what, what, what, what
01:26Yeah, she's going to tell him
01:27And he's going to do his absolute nut
01:29I spoke to Ella the other night
01:31Yeah
01:32And she did say, like, you've been really flirty
01:34And she walked down and you went, poor
01:37Don't do that to me
01:38Because she was in, like, some corset and red lit
01:40What are you talking about?
01:43I think she leaves the butt out of you
01:44I don't understand why they get themselves involved
01:46I can't do that to you, though
01:47And let it say that you're, he's not flirting when he is
01:50You've got to have a conversation with him
01:52I will not allow another one of my friends get fucked over by you
01:55Thank you
01:55She's not your friend
01:56Thanks
02:24What?
02:26Yeah
02:27I did tell you last night that people were talking
02:31Yeah, but, listen, I've, obviously, I have a separate issue with Courtney getting involved
02:35Because it's none of her business
02:37What she's saying to me is that she's going around telling everyone that you're, you're flirting with her
02:42Didn't come from me
02:43Did not come from me
02:43And being disrespectful
02:45From being out here, I didn't think coming out here, it was going to maybe be the way it has
02:52been
02:53Obviously, the feelings between me and you are going to be the same
02:56Like, they don't just go, they haven't just gone with me
02:58Of course
02:59And we are going to find it hard to be around each other, and
03:02I feel like both me and you are experiencing new emotions going through this by the day
03:08It's actually frustrating
03:18You do know how I feel, and I don't think that the feelings that you had towards me have gone
03:24I don't, I generally don't feel that
03:29Aren't you hating?
03:31Look, please don't get upset
03:33Yeah, but I'm going to because I love you
03:35That's it, like, I am going to
03:48It's actually annoying
03:52And it's sad
03:54Well, yeah
03:55And I didn't think that I would probably feel this way, like
03:57Well, no, I didn't think you'd feel this way
03:59You obviously didn't think you'd feel this way
04:01It's only that
04:02With us getting out here that
04:04We're probably both finding it quite tough
04:08Yeah, down the line, we maybe thought it would be a bit easier to just be mates and be normal,
04:12but
04:17When we've had something there, for us to be friendly is obviously not
04:21No, because there's still feelings there for each other
04:24It's not going the right way
04:24If there wasn't feelings there for each other, Dan, I'd only say, babe, we wouldn't be how we are
04:34Me and you went through a hell of a lot together and we aren't going to help how we are
04:37around each other
04:39We're not
04:39And it's not for anyone else to comment on because no one knows
04:43No, they don't know
04:44The situation, they don't
04:45They don't know
04:47I've always wanted to try and be friends with you and have some sort of friendship
04:54And obviously if other people are making comments that
04:58How me and you are with each other is not right
05:00Then we need to take a step back from that
05:02I don't want to do that
05:03Yeah, but why don't you want to do that?
05:05Like
05:07You obviously don't want to do that because you like being around me
05:11Well, of course I do
05:12I like being around you
05:17We had something good together, of course I like being around you
05:28I don't want to walk into a room and have to avoid you
05:31Or sit there and go
05:32I don't want you to do that
05:33And go
05:33I don't think it's going to be any different between me and you
05:36I don't feel like we're going to be able to be friends
05:42Well, no, but this is what I'm saying
05:43I want to try and have a friendship with you
05:45But maybe it's too soon for that
05:46I don't want you
05:47But I want you
05:48And I don't want
05:49I don't think anything that's happened on this trip between me and you
05:52Is overly disrespectful
05:55I don't think she'd like it though
05:58Well, yes, but then that's for me to now look at and go
06:02Alright, if me and you are getting too close as friends
06:04Then that needs to stop
06:08Well, I respect your decision, but
06:11I don't really think you're being that honest with yourself
06:13I don't
06:14I hate the way my friends adore you
06:17Hate that I'm your type
06:18I hate the way that I can't leave you
06:21Hate that I still care
06:22Wish that we meant nothing
06:24But there's still a little something there
06:34I hate your brand new black Mercedes
06:37Hate your 95s
06:38I hate the way I still adore you
06:40Hate that you're my type
06:42I know I shouldn't feel this way
06:44I know I shouldn't care
06:46Can't believe I'm saying
06:48That there's still a little something there
06:54Still a little something there
06:58What's been going on?
06:59What a lovely day we had yesterday
07:00Didn't we have the best day?
07:01I had so much fun
07:02So much fun
07:03You had fun as well, right?
07:04I did actually have fun
07:05It was really nice
07:06Joel, I appreciate you
07:07You obviously love Jodie so much
07:09Yeah
07:09And I appreciate her a lot
07:10I just wanted her to do her own thing
07:12Which apparently I've had to now tag along with
07:16Not always fun
07:17And that seems to be getting dragged
07:18Because what I thought
07:20Go on, let us know
07:20What I thought was
07:21That Jodie was going to have yous too out here
07:24And I was going to get to spend more time with my boys
07:26Right
07:26What's happened is
07:27I've just been
07:29You fucked that up for us
07:30I think Dan's going through a bad time
07:33I'm not
07:33You're not actually that
07:34Yeah, I'm not actually sure
07:35Because I'm not really focused
07:35You're too busy double dating with us two
07:37Yeah
07:37To know what your best mate's doing
07:39So how are you two lovebirds now
07:41After the other day?
07:42Yeah, we've worked through it
07:44I think we needed to see each other's point of view
07:47Sometimes you're going to
07:49Agree to disagree
07:50Agree to disagree
07:50And I'll hold my hands up
07:53I was tired and moody
07:54And a bit sappy
07:54Right
07:55Yeah
07:56But I still stand by everything that I said
07:58And I stand by everything I said
07:59Oh, fine, whatever
08:00That's like what I said to you the other night though
08:02I think you've just
08:03Sometimes in relationships
08:03You've just got to find that boundary
08:05You're not the same person
08:06No
08:06You're not
08:07You don't want to fucking date yourself
08:09Do you know what I mean?
08:10No, no, no
08:10Maybe Janae does
08:13Janae does
08:13In the heartbeat
08:14You love each other so much
08:16And it's so nice to see that
08:17It shows how strong you are
08:19It's just been like really good vibes
08:20And I feel like
08:22Especially for me and Jo
08:23Like on these trips
08:23We've always been in the firing line
08:25Whoa, look at you
08:26Who's in Harry the other night
08:27Whoa, I know
08:28I was going to
08:28Yeah
08:28We actually need to debrief properly about that
08:30I just think I never in a million years thought
08:32We were going to be doing tequila shots of Harry D
08:34I know
08:35Did you instigate that?
08:36I did
08:37Do you know what it is?
08:38Obviously a lot's happened
08:39It's been nearly two years
08:40And I think there's been so much upset and hurt from everyone's side
08:43Yeah
08:44At some point the line has to be drawn
08:46And we have to happily try and be like around each other
08:48He even said that he's happy for you guys
08:49And he's glad that it didn't happen for nothing
08:52Yeah
08:52And I feel like that was like so much growth
08:54Well that's a big thing for him as well
08:56Yeah
08:56To come over to your ex-partner
08:57And your ex-mate
08:59And can I sit here?
09:01Yeah
09:01I don't want to make it feel uncomfortable
09:02No
09:02Yeah
09:03Go on sit down
09:03And we ended up having tequila shots
09:05It's healthy for him
09:06Because whenever you hold a grudge
09:07The person it ends up affecting is the person who's holding it
09:09Do you know what I mean?
09:10You end up holding all this anger and shit inside you
09:12As soon as you let that go
09:14You're a better person for it
09:15I don't think we're ever going to obviously be friends
09:18I think like keep it nice and civil
09:20Like keep it polite between us all
09:22I think that's the best way forward
09:23I mean
09:24If we spend too much time with each other
09:26It probably will go backwards
09:27Yeah
09:28If we go back to Essex
09:29And this ain't the vibe
09:30We're coming round
09:30I will be knocking on your door
09:32Is this a holiday romance?
09:33I think Dan can just come involved
09:34No
09:35When he's speaking
09:35I think Dan's going for
09:37He's got enough going on his head
09:38Rather than dealing with
09:39You'll have me and Janae knocking on the door with a takeaway
09:41I'll come and cook your food
09:42I'll come round with dinner
09:44Guys
09:44For now
09:46I love you three
09:47I'll do your thing
09:47I need to spend some time with my friends
09:49Yeah
09:49I'll book dinner for 7 o'clock
09:50Yeah
09:52I'll see you at the seafood crew at 7
09:54Yeah?
09:54Shut up Janae
09:55I love you
10:04I love you
10:07Come on
10:07Come on
10:25Come on
10:25To begin with really
10:26Yeah
10:27Before that dreaded coach
10:29How you both feeling?
10:32I feel alright
10:33Weirdly
10:33How did the chat go with Dan?
10:35Erm
10:36I knew it was going to go the way it was going to go
10:39He just basically said to me like
10:41We can't be friends
10:43And I said no we can't
10:44But I don't really think you're being true to yourself at all
10:46Yeah
10:47It's like one of them things
10:48Like he knows how I felt
10:49I told him yesterday how I felt
10:51I needed to get it off of my chest
10:53Of course I'm still going to have feelings for him
10:54Of course I'm still going to love him
10:56So
10:56Yeah
10:56We're not talking
10:58We're not going to speak
10:59I don't want to speak to him
11:00I need for my own head
11:01And for my own mental sanity
11:03I have to pull my energy away from him
11:05And be somewhere else
11:06And I'll be honest
11:07I think that's the best decision
11:09I understand
11:10You're frustrated with the whole Courtney situation
11:13Because you feel like she's probably making herself a bit busy
11:16But I think she's not calling you out
11:19I think Courtney's actually calling Dan out
11:21Because he's the one that's got a girlfriend
11:24What pissed me off so much about Courtney yesterday
11:26Because she doesn't know the internet to the situation
11:30Like to her
11:31Like yeah I know that you are seeing the flirting
11:33And stuff like that
11:33And you are going to want to protect your friends
11:35That's fine
11:36But it runs a hell of a lot deeper than that
11:39That she doesn't know
11:40I get it's frustrating for you
11:41Courtney sticking her nose in
11:43Yeah
11:43But I do think Dan needs to be pulled on it
11:45Because you've got two girls that have got feelings for you
11:48And you're actually playing them both a little bit
11:49So he needs to decide what he wants
11:52But that's what it is for me
11:53It's not about the flirting
11:54It's about everything that he says to me
11:57Which has given me false hope
11:58And it's not fair
11:59Because I think to myself
12:01Do you actually really feel like that?
12:03And I do think he does feel like that
12:04I just think he's in something
12:07And he didn't think about his feelings for me
12:10Before he got in something with someone else
12:12Yeah
12:12And when we were around each other
12:13They'd just all come back
12:15Things will get better
12:16Time's a healer
12:16Everything will get better
12:17Look at you Steve
12:17Yeah I'll be alright
12:18Used to be sitting around the same table again
12:20Yeah that's right
12:21So there you go
12:21That's right
12:22Time is a healer
12:23Can I just say
12:25What about our spying skills last night?
12:27Oh my god
12:27Do you know what?
12:28I am shocked to the core
12:30Of what I saw last night
12:32Harry
12:33Joe
12:34Janaid
12:35So we've
12:36Only innocently
12:37Gone for a little stroll
12:39We like an evening stroll
12:40Don't we?
12:41Someone was just talking a little bit too loud
12:43And we thought
12:43Oh
12:44And in the corner of my house
12:46Is the Durbinator
12:47I see
12:47Janaid
12:49Joe
12:49And Durbinator
12:50All sitting around doing shots
12:52You can have a glass
12:53You want a glass Joe
12:54Janaid what about you?
12:56I thought
12:57That's why I had to just be like
12:58Like listen
12:59Yeah
12:59That threw me off
13:01It threw me off
13:01Like I never thought I'd hear a conversation like that
13:03When they were all having drinks and shots and stuff
13:05Nor do I
13:05And I think at the end of the day
13:07I think Harry's trying to do it to be like
13:09I'm the bigger person
13:10No
13:11No
13:11Have a bit of self respect
13:12No just stand on business
13:13Don't you wrong
13:14Don't speak to him ever again
13:15I wouldn't
13:16It is quite calculated really
13:18Can I just say something though
13:19The way Harry's behaving
13:20Proves what I said in Portugal right
13:23I called him calculated
13:24I called him conniving
13:25And I said he was obsessed with me
13:27Tick tick tick
13:29So the ranting team is back
13:31In full swing
13:32Finally
13:32I like a good old gossip
13:33Although there has been a lot of ranting going on anyway
13:36Yeah there has
13:36Everyone
13:37That bus was a big old rant yesterday
13:39It was
13:39Courtney
13:40I'm really like
13:41Let down and frustrated with Elma
13:43I've got to be honest
13:44And the more I think about it
13:45The more it winds me up
13:46Same
13:46Because you know what it is
13:48I feel like
13:49The conversations me and Elma have in private
13:52Is not the same energy she keeps in public
13:55No it's fair
13:56It's like two different people
13:57I feel like Elma
13:58Because what we've got
13:59I told you so
13:59You did always say that
14:01And I do feel like
14:02This trip has shown me a bit of a different side
14:04Do you think she just gets very wrapped up in
14:07People pleasing
14:08Yeah
14:08I feel like maybe I should message her at least
14:11Like I know I'm not in that group chat anymore
14:13But maybe like text her and say
14:14Look
14:15Should we have a conversation
14:16Because there's clearly tensions
14:18There was a lot on that coach yesterday
14:19Do you know what I mean?
14:21And just have it out with her
14:22Yeah
14:22Like a calm level
14:23Yeah I agree
14:24I would
14:24Otherwise it's just going to blow up and get worse
14:26Tell her to bring Courtney as well
14:28Yeah because I feel like Courtney does
14:29Does actually need to be there to be fair
14:31Yeah so do I
14:34Right
14:35But we need to just stay calm
14:37I promise you I'm staying calm
14:38If it's not that you deserve
14:41If it's not that you need
14:44Give it all that you've got
14:47When you're down on your knees
14:50The only way is up
14:52When the stars don't show
14:56Don't go off the edge
14:58When your heart feels broke
15:00Forgive and forget
15:01Right
15:02Careful
15:04What way do they drive down here?
15:06Yeah I don't know
15:08No they're coming down this way
15:09Hey the roads are mental
15:10They just fear
15:12About anything
15:13And they don't stop
15:14They don't stop at crossings
15:15No
15:15And there's about a million motorbikes everywhere you go
15:18But the thing is they see her
15:19And they still
15:20No they don't care
15:21And they still don't stop
15:23Forgive and forget
15:25When the heat comes round
15:26Oh God knows where we'll be
15:28All done just breathe
15:30And dream a little dream
15:33That's better
15:35Oh
15:36Oh
15:37Oh
15:38It's the age you know
15:39It is
15:39When the heat comes round
15:42Oh God knows where we'll be
15:43All done just breathe
15:44I do love Vietnam
15:46But you know what
15:46I don't laugh
15:47Well
15:48It's fucking wind
15:50It's too in my head
15:51It's not the air flick
15:51Don't give yourself whiplash again girl
15:53I don't know
15:54Dare I turn around
15:54Get rolled out
16:03What about this little gaff here?
16:04This looks nice
16:05Alright let's try and get across here then
16:07Oh no
16:08No
16:09Stop
16:11I can't tell you
16:13What's he doing at?
16:14Sorry
16:16No
16:17Sorry
16:18No
16:19No
16:19No
16:20No
16:20No
16:20No
16:20Right
16:21Go on
16:23Right
16:23My side's busy
16:25Oh
16:25You're busy
16:26Let's go
16:26Let's go
16:26Hang on
16:27Quick
16:28Go
16:28Go
16:29Go
16:29Go
16:29Go
16:35Hopefully they'll do a beer in here
16:37Yeah
16:39Hello
16:40Hello
16:40Hello how are you?
16:41Chin chow
16:41Hello
16:43Chin chow
16:43Hello
16:45Yeah lovely
16:45Erm
16:47This is going to be hard to order a beer
16:49Okay
16:50Err
16:51Choto
16:52Choto
16:53Choto
16:53And beer
16:54You do beer?
16:56No
16:57Right
16:57Err one
16:58Oh green lemonade
17:00Okay
17:01Yeah
17:02And a
17:03Yeah I'll have one and all then
17:04Two
17:04Two green lemonade
17:06Thank you so much
17:06Err come on
17:07Come on
17:08Come on
17:09Hey you've got the lingo ain't ya?
17:12Well
17:13It's very limited
17:14But it gets you about though
17:16It's only cause me and me and Dykes was at the pool the other morning and that this is what
17:19the barman's taught us
17:20I had to order a beer
17:22Easy
17:22That's what I'm saying it gets you about
17:23Hello
17:25Please
17:25Thank you
17:26Can I have a beer
17:27Mate it's all you need
17:28Scary
17:28That looks amazing
17:30Erm
17:30Come on
17:32Thank you
17:33So what happened with you and Ellie yesterday then
17:35Oh mate
17:36It's just a lot
17:37Since we've been out here
17:38It's been hard
17:39We've been around each other
17:41It's
17:41What are you finding hard though
17:42Like when you're around each other
17:43Like what that she's there
17:44Or like
17:45Is it just like
17:45I just think it's
17:46Listen it's never ideal going away with your ex
17:49But I'm sure we'll manage it
17:51It's not working that way as friends
17:52But from me though
17:53From my side though
17:54Like I'm looking at my side though
17:55Like you are trying to do the right thing
17:57I'm trying to play it the best I can
17:59Being
18:00The right person in this situation
18:02And I've moved on
18:04I'm with someone else
18:05And I'm trying to navigate that
18:07Yeah
18:07It's not easy
18:08The problem is now
18:10With Courtney coming over
18:11And making this into a big thing
18:14She's picking up on little hearsay things
18:16That someone's starting to cause a bit of drama
18:18She said you made a comment to her
18:20About a top she was wearing
18:22I said yeah I did make a comment
18:23Yeah
18:24I had to come out
18:25She had a tight top on
18:26And then she come up and stood in front of me
18:28And I went don't do that to me
18:29Or don't do that
18:30And just
18:31And whatever tone it was in
18:33Yeah it was a throwaway comment
18:34Like whatever
18:35But there's nothing in it though
18:36Do you know what I mean?
18:36It was a nothing comment
18:37Like when it's being made into the big thing
18:39It's been made into
18:40Then yeah
18:41People make it how they want to make it
18:42It doesn't sound great
18:43But all of this is sort of
18:44Coming away from the main point of this all
18:47And the point is
18:48No matter how good a friend's Courtney thinks she is with someone
18:50It's none of their business at all
18:52I went and spoke to her on the beach
18:54And just said look I mean she was upset
18:57Told me she still loved me
18:59Which was like
19:00Tough
19:01How does that make you feel though
19:02Look she's still in love with you though
19:03How do you take it
19:03Well it was obviously
19:05Listen it's hard
19:05Standing on the beach with her there
19:07She's crying saying I still love you
19:08Like it's hard
19:09I've moved on
19:10And I've got something else going on
19:12And I just said to her
19:13Look we've got to
19:14This has got to stop now
19:15But I've got to deal with this
19:17The best way I can for me
19:18And the best way I can do that
19:22Is to just
19:22Call off
19:23Completely and stay out of each other's way
19:26I'm cool with you
19:31I'm cool with you
19:35I'm cool with you
19:38I'm cool with you
19:42I'm cool with you
19:45I'm cool with you
19:46I'm cool with you
19:47Can we get two chicken season salads and two fries please
19:50Thank you
19:51Thank you so much
19:51I feel like we need to discuss yesterday
19:53It was a shambles
19:55No it was actually hell and horror
19:57From start to finish
19:57Wait what are we going to call Diagsys tours going forward
20:01Diagsys disastrous day tours
20:03That's what we're going with
20:04I just don't want to be in a bad place with Dan over it
20:07It obviously got left not very nice
20:09Because I feel like he was deflecting it
20:11By being like you're not friends you're not friends
20:13But I actually looked up the definition of friends
20:16No
20:17What is it?
20:17It says a person known well to another and regarded with liking affection and loyalty
20:23And that shoe fits
20:26So that means we are friends
20:27And Dan would do the same for Diags
20:30Hi
20:30Hello
20:31You okay?
20:33Hi girlies
20:34You okay?
20:35How are you?
20:35We're so upset
20:36We're so upset
20:38Are you?
20:39It's terrible
20:47From my point of view obviously
20:50Oh thank you
20:51Amazing I know what I'm going to get to you
20:52I know what I want as well
20:53Can I have the pork belly please?
20:55Yes
20:55Thank you
20:55Can I get a Caesar salad please?
20:57With chips?
20:57With chips yeah
20:59You've got to ride the carbs
21:00You've got to ride the carbs
21:01You've got to have the chips
21:01It's always a chip of Caesar salad
21:02I know
21:03Gelding up
21:04Like I think for me
21:04The other night when Danny stuck up for me in front of everyone that you could have definitely
21:10Said more to protect me as a friend and I just wouldn't be in a room full of people
21:16Bad mouthing you
21:17Fred I haven't
21:18I actually I haven't allowed anyone in front of me to say anything about you
21:22Like I think what I've realised and I do want to apologise for this
21:24I have not reached out when I've got here
21:27Yeah
21:27I messaged you once and you didn't message me back that day and then that phone went off
21:30In my head I'm like
21:31Freddy's alright
21:31He's got Joe, Janae and Danny
21:33In Elmer's defence whenever your name is brought up she always shuts it down
21:37We do say things to like back your corner
21:40Obviously Elmer's in a bit of a crap situation because she has a long term friendship with you
21:44She has a very long term friendship with
21:46And I'm upset
21:47Which is why I think it's about being fair
21:50I recognise the fact that you're friends with both so I never expect you to pick a side
21:53Yeah
21:53But when I say I feel like I want you to be more fair
21:56For example I know you turn around and say like yeah he has got morals
21:59But at the same time are you like telling Liv she shouldn't be saying that
22:02I have, I have told her
22:04And even on the coach yesterday
22:05Thank you so much
22:05That was why I was so taken aback with like what you said to me Fred
22:08Thank you darling
22:08When you were like get out of Liv's house
22:10I was thinking to myself
22:11You've actually given me a chance
22:12Yeah
22:12You kind of come for me
22:13No I just said are you alright because I thought you were shouting a call
22:15I mean
22:16It was very yours
22:18Let me explain this whole coach situation
22:19And I just want to clear everything up so we know it in black and white and clear as day
22:23As soon as we got on the coach
22:25I felt like you were going for Danny and I thought you know what
22:28I'm not having anyone shit
22:30And I've gone bang
22:31That's all it is
22:32Did you feel like that?
22:34Everyone in this situation has
22:35As in like you've said under the belt
22:37You've said under the belt
22:37You've said under the belt
22:37Libby's said under the belt
22:38You three have said under the belt comments
22:40I've got personal
22:41One thing I'm not is nasty
22:44And I wouldn't start on someone
22:45No you're not nasty
22:46For no reason
22:46I have got my morals in check
22:48Fred
22:48So I don't know why Harry's even saying that as well
22:50We're not going to talk on behalf of Harry
22:52Of course
22:52No I'm not
22:53Like I've questioned him
22:54Is that the right term that you want to use
22:57I don't think that was the right term
22:58It made absolutely no sense
22:59It didn't need to be like that
23:00It didn't
23:02I think she's changed her
23:03I did feel like she's changed her tune
23:04She has approached this whole situation completely wrong
23:07What did she say at the start of the trip that started this off?
23:10She said stuff to Ella
23:11She said stuff to Ella
23:12But can I just say
23:13I know you are friends with Ella
23:14But Ella has also said a lot
23:16And a lot about you
23:17She has
23:17But they weren't speaking
23:18I don't think it's Ella's fault
23:19Ella probably has said a lot behind my back
23:22And I'm not going to sit here
23:22She said stuff that you've said about other people as well
23:24But listen
23:25She's not innocent
23:26That is what it is
23:27But I think personally
23:28If you know that Ella said this
23:30You need to have a conversation with Ella
23:32And pull her up on it
23:33Because at the end of the day
23:33Me and Ella had a conversation yesterday
23:35And it's very fresh and raw still
23:37All of this
23:38You know what I mean?
23:39But me and Livy are never going to be friends
23:41And I just want you to be able to
23:42I think I've really realised that now
23:44Juggle that
23:44None of us want you to like fall out
23:46No
23:47Should we have a group hug guys?
23:48Yeah because we'd be so upset
23:50Yeah
23:50Yeah
23:51I'm looking for it
23:54Now I'm looking for it
24:03Now I'm looking for it
24:20I'm giving VB these days
24:21I think I am you know
24:22You are
24:23I was giving Katie Pryor cheers
24:25I don't know
24:26I was giving Katie Pryor cheers
24:27Sorry I completely agree
24:28I was giving Katie Pryor cheers ago
24:29Now I'm giving VB
24:36Whoa
24:37Absolutely smashed it
24:39You alright yeah?
24:39Yeah
24:39Good mate
24:40Good mate
24:40Not bad
24:41Not bad
24:41Not bad
24:45Come on
24:48Back fence
24:49On the tee
24:50Jordan Brook
24:53No
25:03I just want to say thank you for coming to the gender reveal
25:06So it was unreal
25:07Amazing
25:08It was the most emotional beautiful thing I've ever seen
25:11Oh
25:11Honestly
25:12Everyone was crying
25:14You too are so in love
25:16I actually convinced myself it was a girl
25:18So when they said a boy I was like
25:20Oh I haven't prepared for this
25:22So I
25:22Not that I had gender disappointment
25:24It just took a while to process
25:26Close
25:27But I will be honest
25:28And I don't know if you've felt like this
25:30But I think pregnancy is hard
25:32Yeah it is
25:33And if something I've wanted for so long
25:34And I don't want to be ungrateful
25:36Yeah
25:37Which I'm not
25:37I'm over the moon
25:39I've got everything I've wanted
25:40Yeah
25:41Everything changes
25:42Yeah I know
25:43Your hormones are everywhere
25:44I just
25:45You just
25:46Yeah it's hard
25:46And enjoy it
25:47And just sleep
25:48Because when I did have that bump
25:49I really really missed it
25:50It's just such an amazing time to be alive
25:53I am so excited for this baby
25:54I know
25:54I feel like it's my baby
25:56I know
25:56We need to start shopping though
25:58Mmm
25:58Can I just ask like
26:00Have we heard anything from Vietnam?
26:02Yeah
26:02Have you
26:02I've had Fred on the phone, Danny on the phone
26:05Oh my God
26:05Janae rang me
26:06Oh my God
26:07I think they've all been feeling it
26:09Like I don't want to shock you but I have got something to tell you
26:11What?
26:12Is it bad?
26:13Well it's weird
26:14Tell me
26:15Harry's befriended them out there
26:17Who?
26:18Oh no no
26:18Junaid and Jo
26:19No
26:20That's a game
26:24To the point that he's spending time with them drinking at the bar
26:28I feel like
26:29First of all one he'd tell me
26:31And second of all he probably didn't tell me
26:33Because he knows how I would
26:40He's from here
26:45Yeah
26:45Time
26:45But Lauren
26:47Nights up
26:47Staying at your house
26:48For tears
26:48I can't even express that time in my life with Harry
26:51With that whole thing going on
26:52Can you imagine that now?
26:53I picked up all the pieces
26:54Now but he's not said it to me
26:55Yeah
26:56He didn't spoke a lot me and Harry
26:57But the first thing he would have said to me
26:58Would have been
27:24I can't believe first time I've seen you since the gender reveal and you've come out in pink
27:28Laces
27:30Wait
27:31What's that about?
27:31It's a bit of both
27:32Because I didn't know what it was going to be
27:33So you know
27:35You know now
27:36You know now
27:37Honestly
27:38You two know how to throw a party
27:40That was unbelievable
27:42Mate
27:42I can't
27:43What is your wedding going to be like?
27:45Because that was a gender reveal
27:46Trust me I'm already thinking about that
27:48But
27:48As far as days go
27:51The best day of my life
27:52Wait what?
27:53I was so emotional
27:54I know
27:54You cried
27:55I kept crying
27:56Like all day
27:57She was like what's going on?
27:59It wouldn't have mattered what the baby was
28:01But
28:02When that smoke went blue right
28:04It was like
28:05I was 98% that that was going to be a girl
28:08Yeah
28:08It was just
28:10Mate
28:11Like euphoria like I've never felt
28:13I'm so so excited
28:15It's the best feeling
28:16Because you'll be sitting there
28:17Just staring at him
28:19It's mad isn't it
28:19And just thinking like
28:21He's mine
28:21Yeah
28:22That's
28:22That is the mad thing
28:23You've created
28:24Of course
28:24You've brought into this world
28:26Yeah it's mad
28:26I can't describe love like it
28:29Yeah
28:30How was Spain Bill?
28:33Mate
28:34Honestly
28:36Disastrous
28:37Disastrous start
28:38You could ever think of
28:40Right
28:40Me and Aime
28:41When we go away
28:41We're just jinxed
28:42Just about to land
28:44On the Tanaya
28:46The winds are up
28:47Diverted to Malaga
28:48Right
28:50Then we've got into the airport
28:51Supposed to get a bus back
28:53The bus is gone
28:54Right
28:54Because it's like
28:55Take a nap long
28:55You've got to get the taxi back
28:57That's an hour and a half
28:59Missed the time
29:00To pick up the hire car
29:02So I ain't got no car now
29:03To get about
29:04And it's pissing down a run
29:06Oi
29:06Have you spoke to any of the boys in Vietnam?
29:08Not at all
29:10So I don't know what's going on
29:12Barring a couple of little messages
29:13With Wills
29:14Mate
29:15But other than that
29:16Mate
29:17Oi
29:17I feel
29:19So sorry
29:20For Dan Edgar
29:21Oh no
29:22What's happened?
29:23That's Dyax and his new crew
29:24Junaid, Joe
29:25James and Jodie
29:28What?
29:29Oi
29:29Oi
29:30They're running in the sea together
29:32All holding hands
29:32Dan's at the bar on his own
29:34What is that all about?
29:35Sorry but
29:36You know
29:37Come on
29:38I ain't calling my name
29:40But you call me if you don't care
29:45Smiling while you're still there
29:47Or is it just for the evening
29:51Or will you love me for the weekend
29:58You alright, Sash?
30:01Help
30:02Help
30:03Finally I've seen your face
30:04What's going on?
30:05I've not even put my phone on
30:07You know
30:07It's been that much chaos
30:08Since we've got here
30:09That I've actually left this phone off
30:11I've heard
30:12Well I've heard a lot
30:13To be honest
30:14But where is it all at now?
30:16I mean
30:17Anyone talking?
30:18Well actually funny you say that
30:19I've just had lunch with Danny and Freddie
30:21And Courtney
30:22And me and Freddie were a bit on the rocks
30:25I'll be honest
30:25He shouted at me yesterday
30:27On the coach
30:28When we were on our way to our little day out
30:30Our little excursion
30:31Yeah
30:31That all just went down like a lead balloon
30:33I think he was really irate
30:35And I was really anxious this morning
30:36I didn't think
30:37I didn't think he was going to be alright with me at all
30:39Obviously naturally
30:40Because of everything that's happened
30:41And how it's all panned out
30:42You know what I'm like, Saf
30:44I've done it with you and with Chloe in the past
30:45If I'm with someone
30:46And I feel like they need my attention
30:48I'm going to stick with them
30:49So I seemed like I was sticking with Liv
30:51More than I was even
30:53Why?
30:53Well only because she felt really on her own
30:55Obviously I know that Freddie's upset
30:57And Freddie knows how I feel about the whole situation
30:58He knows that I think it was below the belt
31:00Both of them said really personal things
31:02I've made sure I've obviously said it
31:03But I've obviously not checked in with Fred
31:04From my perspective
31:05Ella has done a lot of fucking stirring
31:07She was saying some stuff on that flight
31:09On the way out here
31:10That I think if he knew deep down
31:12But no one's calling Ella out
31:14And I think that's the frustration
31:15Listen
31:16Ella ain't the scapegoat here
31:17But she's chimed in
31:19On the slagging off about Fred
31:21She's
31:22No, do you know what she said, Saf?
31:23Ella sat there on the plane
31:24Next to me and Courtney
31:25And said
31:26I'm surprised that Freddie's
31:27So far up Saffron's ass
31:29Because it wasn't that long ago
31:30That he was saying really derogatory
31:32Horrible things about Saffron
31:34Yeah, babe
31:35So imagine
31:35I've not even said this
31:36Like I wanted to say it today
31:37But I just thought
31:38We've just squashed things with me and Fred
31:40I don't want to bring it back up
31:41But she's said a lot of nasty things, Saf
31:43And I can't help but think
31:44She's sitting there
31:45Twisting things
31:45Manipulating things
31:46Turning things
31:47Is she saying what was being said?
31:49Yeah, but I'm not going to tell you
31:50Because it's nasty
31:51Me and you are both the same
31:52We've vouched for Freddie and Ella
31:53To be friends again
31:54We've said it from the beginning
31:55And it's sad if Freddie doesn't
31:58Know
31:59Like, listen
31:59When you fall out with people
32:00You say stuff about
32:01And we're not silly to that
32:03But the stuff that she was coming out with
32:05The stuff that she has said
32:07Wasn't giving
32:07That she wanted to make up with him
32:09Like, Saf
32:09Me and you could fall out
32:10I would never air your dirty laundry
32:12Ever
32:12That's like an unwritten rule
32:14Of a friendship
32:14I can't deal with all of that, Saf
32:16The only way is love
32:28You love me cause you never loved me back
32:31I touch the stars when I'm around you
32:35Oh, you treat me right, you never treat me wrong
32:38Darling
32:39Danielle
32:40Hello
32:41I got you
32:42Oh, that was a very deflated
32:43Danielle
32:44I got you a little white wine
32:46Thank you, bubs
32:47Needed
32:48You okay?
32:49Mwah
32:53How are you feeling?
32:54I can't believe what's happened
32:56Freddie
32:57I am in absolute shock about everything
33:02Like, so am I
33:03I can't believe that me and Ella have made up for one day
33:07And it's all kicked off again
33:08Well literally within the same day you've gone from being best friends
33:11And we're having to catch up like old times
33:13To back at each other's throats
33:16I've never said that, Danae
33:17I've never slagged off Safran once
33:19I've got no reason to slag off Safran
33:20I love Safran
33:21It's just like a really tricky situation
33:23Because you and Ella are both my best friends
33:25I've got Ella swearing blind that you've said something about Safran
33:29And then I've got you swearing blind that you've never said anything about Safran before
33:33And I haven't
33:34And that's the truth
33:35But at the same time, as much as Ella is in the wrong
33:38Elma also shouldn't have come out of this now
33:40I feel like if you've known for a few days
33:42And you found this out on the plane
33:44Why have you waited for you both to make up you and Ella
33:48And then drop this bomb?
33:49For me, I don't understand
33:50Yeah
33:51Why you'd open your mouth then?
33:54That's besides the point
33:55At the end of the day
33:56It was said
33:56Ella has said what she said
33:58And it's not true
33:59I understand
34:00Like, if I'd said it
34:01I'd own it
34:02And I'd be able to move past it with Ella
34:05And have a friendship still
34:06Because you know what?
34:07I'd be like, do you know what?
34:07We all sometimes say things about each other
34:10Make comments
34:10Et cetera, et cetera
34:11And make comments
34:11But I haven't said it
34:13Yeah
34:13So that's why I can't look past this
34:14This isn't a passing comment
34:17No
34:17These are deep things that are horrible
34:20And I think the thing that hurts me the most
34:23Is the thought of, like, Safran thinking that I've said such personal remarks about her
34:29Yeah
34:29That's the thing that fills me with so much frustration
34:33It's hard
34:33It's hard because it's two people literally swearing blinds at the other person's lying
34:37Do you know what I mean?
34:37Like, you know what I'm like
34:39I'm not going to take sides
34:40Regardless I'm going to be there for Ella
34:41Regardless I'm going to be there for you
34:43What's going on, though, with Safran?
34:45Have you spoke to Saf?
34:46Yeah, I have spoken to Saf
34:47And I think
34:48Is she okay with you?
34:49Listen, me and Safran are strong
34:51We're an absolute unit
34:52She isn't being off with me at all
34:54But also
34:55I've got to respect the fact that
34:57She needs to digest this information
35:01Even though I know deep down
35:03And Safran knows deep down
35:05It's not true
35:06You've got to think for her
35:07I think she loves you to bits
35:09And I feel like she does trust you
35:10It just must be a bit of a shock
35:12And it would be for me as well
35:14The last thing she's going to think is that
35:15Elmo's going to come up with that
35:16Yeah
35:16You can imagine how shocked she was
35:17Yeah, 100%
35:18It's still a shame, though
35:20No more me, you and Ella
35:22For the rest of it
35:23Yeah, but you know how I'm, like, spiritual in that
35:25And I feel like the angels and universe
35:27Have just shown me this massive sign
35:29That I should never have made up with her in the first place
35:31That's how I feel now, unfortunately
35:34I've been missing you, babe
35:36Tell me something
35:38Do you feel the same, baby?
35:41I've been missing you, babe
35:44Shall we cheers you, cheers you?
35:45Love you
35:46I love you there
35:47Cheers
35:48I've been missing you, babe
35:50Tell me something
35:52Do you feel the same, baby?
35:54I've been missing you, babe
35:57Tell me something
35:59Do you feel that way?
36:00Well, it's good to see you, actually
36:02Yeah, listen
36:03It's really good to see you
36:04Like, I've
36:05Like, all them jokes I made in the first few days
36:08About being on my own
36:09And now I'm really, really on my own
36:11Picture this five years ago
36:12Your best friend James
36:14He's running in the sea with Joe Janais
36:17You know, I could
36:20I couldn't have pictured that two weeks ago
36:22Five years ago
36:24So
36:25It's a
36:26It comes all shock to me
36:27It's a surprise to us all
36:29I've been missing you, babe
36:31Tell me something
36:32If you feel that way, yeah
36:36It has just been such a different trip
36:39Which I'm so grateful for
36:40I mean, if we flash back a few years
36:44In Cyprus
36:45When I poured my heart out to you
36:47When you were in a difficult situation
36:49It was a massive risk
36:51And it definitely paid off
36:52Yeah
36:53It's coming up to two years
36:55We've got the house
36:56Can you believe it's coming up to two years?
36:58That has gone so quick
37:00I know
37:01I did the first year anniversary
37:03So the two year anniversary's on you
37:04Do you know what?
37:06I feel like
37:06This is where I feel like James
37:07Because I can't even remember
37:08No, I know
37:09What did we do for our one year anniversary?
37:11Are you joking?
37:12No
37:12I hired out the most beautiful log cabin there was
37:14Oh, yeah
37:15And we had the best time ever
37:16Oh, hey
37:17Can I get a rosƩ, please?
37:20RosƩ
37:20Thank you so much
37:21It's alright?
37:21You alright?
37:22Yeah, good, how are you?
37:23He was okay?
37:24Yeah, how are you?
37:25Yeah, I just wanted to say
37:26Thank you so much
37:28Yeah, it was nice to see you the other day
37:30And like properly talk
37:31Yeah, I think so too
37:32It was lovely
37:32It was actually so nice
37:34I never in my wildest imagination
37:36Thought we would be cheersing tequila shots together
37:38On a night out in Vietnam
37:39I know
37:40Do you know what?
37:41I was actually really glad that you come over
37:43And like we actually had the chat
37:44Yeah, I mean listen
37:45I wouldn't have come over unless Jodie would have gone
37:47Cool
37:48Yeah, of course
37:49I think you have to thank Jodie for that one
37:51Yeah
37:51No, but do you know what?
37:52It was an icebreaker
37:53But like when she called me over
37:54She was like Harry
37:56I literally
37:57All the boys looked at me and went
37:58What the fuck?
37:59What's going on?
38:00And I thought do I go over?
38:02Or do I not?
38:03And I thought no, do you know what?
38:05A lot of shit has to be put to bed now
38:07Yeah, I agree
38:07And I feel like so much time has gone on
38:10Yeah
38:10Like we can't keep going round in circles
38:13No
38:13And listen, I'm not sitting here saying to you I'm going to be your mate
38:17No
38:17Because I feel like that's never really going to happen
38:19It's unrealistic
38:20It's unrealistic, yeah
38:22But we can all be adults and we can all be mature
38:24Yeah
38:25It's nice to just like see you at a bar and be able to say like
38:28Hello, you all right?
38:29Like how are you?
38:30And just have like the nice little conversation
38:31Like it's just so much nicer
38:33I don't know, I just feel really weird because talking to you now
38:35It's like nothing went wrong
38:37It's weird, isn't it?
38:38Do you know what?
38:39I'm actually glad that you said that because even sitting here now
38:41I don't feel awkward with you
38:43No, I don't feel awkward
38:43It doesn't feel awkward
38:44Because the times pass, that's why
38:45And it's all about moving forward
38:46Yeah
38:47And honestly, I'm happy
38:49Good
38:49You look happy as well
38:50Cheers to happiness then
38:50Thank you
38:51Cheers, yeah
38:52Who would have thought?
38:53Who would have thought?
38:54Who would have thought?
38:54Cheers to happiness
38:56You guys are actually very, very attractive gentlemen
38:58May I ask who is with who?
39:04Wait
39:05It's a complicated story
39:07Is it not appropriate to ask?
39:09No, no, no, no, no
39:10It's fine
39:11Them two are together
39:13Okay, right
39:14I'll tell you
39:15I have all shift, so
39:17Once upon a time
39:19Me and Harry
39:20We were best friends
39:22Right
39:22Once upon a time
39:24Harry and Joe
39:25Were together
39:27Oh
39:27That
39:28Right
39:28And then once upon a time
39:31Junaid and Joe
39:32Are now together
39:35Does that make sense?
39:37Does that happen?
39:37Yes
39:37Does that happen in Vietnam?
39:38Basically he stole my man
39:43God
39:44He stole your man
39:45Do you know what it is?
39:47Do you know what it is?
39:47It's just very messy
39:49Messy
39:49Messy
39:49Yeah
39:50Essex gay drama
39:51Yeah, we don't like going over it
39:53Awkward
39:54But
39:55We're all good now
39:56Right
39:56Yeah
39:57I would just say to celebrate the friendship
40:00Yeah
40:00Would you like me to take a picture of you all?
40:03Should we just do it for the memories?
40:05Just for the lars?
40:06Right, can I do it on my canon now?
40:07Oh, okay then
40:08Okay
40:09All you need to do is push this button here
40:12Gotcha
40:12Right
40:13All good?
40:14I know
40:14We're taking this picture together
40:16Sorry, we're really taking the piss now
40:17All right
40:18Let's do one, two, three
40:22Lovely
40:23Junaid, right?
40:24Sender of a show
40:25Thank you very much
40:26Yeah, we're good
40:27Thank you
40:29It's actually quite a nice picture
40:30It was cute
40:31Thank you so much
40:32Cheers guys
40:33Thank you
40:33But listen
40:34This has been nice
40:35I'm gonna go, yeah
40:36I'm gonna go meet the girls
40:37Yeah
40:37Nice, I'm nice
40:38So yeah
40:39Listen, it's lovely to see you
40:40Yeah, listen
40:41I'm glad that we can just move forward
40:43Yeah
40:44Shows a lot of growth from us all
40:45Cheers
40:46Cheers
40:46And honestly I am
40:48I am glad it worked out for you both
40:49Yeah
40:50Enjoy it
40:50After all, after it all
40:53Come on
40:53See you later
40:54See you later
41:01What is going on?
41:04They go la la la
41:07So this ain't no way to live
41:09They go la la la
41:11What you get is what you give
41:13So this ain't no way to live
41:16So this ain't no way to live
41:18Little wine
41:19Yay
41:21So needed
41:22No, it actually really, really is
41:24I don't think I've ever needed a wine so bad in my life
41:26Neither
41:27But I actually need to just quickly powder my solar
41:31It's a long hour away from me, your room
41:33No, it is
41:35Oh
41:36Sorry
41:37That was disgusting
41:38I'm not expecting that taste
41:40How are you feeling?
41:42I'm just frustrated
41:44Really?
41:45More than anything
41:45With Elma
41:47Yeah
41:48I don't understand why she would've needed to wait until me and Freddie made up
41:54And I don't understand what her goal is to drop it now we're friends
41:59Obviously, we're not now but
42:02I just can't believe that within 24 hours
42:05I mean, I don't even think it was 24 hours that you and Freddie had made up for
42:08Oh no
42:09Like you were literally friends for two minutes
42:11It was 12 hours
42:12And then that happened
42:13I spoke to Freddie earlier
42:15And
42:17It's so hard for me because
42:19I've obviously got two best friends that are falling out again
42:22You're adamant that he said these things about Saffron
42:26And he's adamant he's never said a bad word about Saffron
42:30Like even earlier when I see him
42:32He was like Danny, I've got no reason to lie
42:34Like I would never say them things
42:37And I was like Freddie is sure
42:37But he has got a reason to lie
42:39Because at the end of the day he's grown close to Saffron now
42:42So he knows that if he was to admit it
42:45Saffron probably would never want to speak to him again
42:48And like I'm not saying these things were said at a time where they were friends
42:53And when they are as close as what they are now
42:55Yeah
42:55Because it wasn't
42:56I wouldn't repeat such repulsive things if I weren't sure
43:00Yeah, yeah
43:00It's just such a weird, awkward situation
43:03And it was never done like that
43:04Like I've never been in a situation like this
43:06And it was never done like that
43:06Like that's what upsets me as well
43:07Like it was never actually done like that
43:09I sat on the plane with Courtney and Elmer
43:10They were asking me questions
43:12Like I see I was vulnerable, I was crying
43:14Yeah
43:15And I feel like I played into their hands
43:17Yeah
43:18And now they've fucking used it against me
43:21And I think it's really, really mean
43:23It's obvious you should have probably never said that to Elmer
43:25I should never have opened up to them
43:27Like that is probably the worst person you could have told
43:29What Freddie had said about Saffron to
43:31Because she is close to Saffron
43:32Like that was always going to get back to Saffron
43:34But like I did try to explain to him that you had said it more so
43:39In a way of you was confiding in them
43:41You were having a bit of a moment
43:42Like I did explain that to him
43:44They asked me how I felt about Freddie and Saffron's friendship
43:47I said to be honest I can't really get my head around it
43:50Because all he used to do was slag her off
43:51Yeah
43:52Like and that was generally how it was
43:54It wasn't like oh I'm going to go out my way
43:56And I'm going to say this and I'm going to say that
43:58And I'm going to ruin their friendship
44:00I'm so free speaking
44:01I'm so honest like what you see is what you get with me
44:04And I overshare massively
44:05And it's a massive downfall for me
44:09Yeah
44:09And I overshare to the wrong person
44:12And I'm so so so let down with myself
44:15Whether it was said or not
44:17It should have never got to Elma
44:18And Elma should have never passed that on
44:20Like even for Saffron's sake you've got to think from her point of view
44:23I know it's not nice of her to hear
44:24She's like what the hell like it's come out of nowhere
44:26Do you know what I mean so
44:28I feel like she's used it as a bit of ammo
44:30Yeah
44:30I half felt like they understood where I was coming from a little bit
44:34And that's what I said to Freddie I was like the timings for me
44:37I just a bit bizarre
44:39Like I don't understand why she's used this now
44:41It doesn't make sense to me
44:42She was being so nice to me on the plane Dan
44:45Yeah you did say that
44:46If I didn't feel as if they'd fucking liked me
44:48Yeah
44:48I would never have confined it in them
45:19She was going to me
45:20Because he slagged her off
45:22Elma I feel like you shit said a lot this trip
45:24And I don't know what it is
45:26No no no no no no no
45:27I've got to be honest with you
45:28I do find it very very strange
45:30Yeah
45:30And I feel like yeah you probably should have told me
45:32There's a difference between stirring shit and stating facts
45:35and all I have done is stake facts
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