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00:00:14I am a haunted house, and she is the ghost in the attic, turning on lights, stomping
00:00:23on the floor, and making herself known in every reflection I see.
00:00:29She's there, she's always there, to remind me of how lonely the world can be.
00:00:36To remind me that we are all fragile.
00:00:40I am there, with her, up those stairs, sitting in the dark, planning our future together.
00:00:47A future we will never have, a future I will never deserve.
00:00:56I am an exorcist, purging her with pigment.
00:01:17If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?
00:01:22One thing?
00:01:24One thing's all I get?
00:01:27One thing's all I get, I don't want to play this game.
00:01:35I want to be President of the United States.
00:01:38That's right.
00:01:39That way I can declare a state anarchy.
00:01:44I want to be a movie star.
00:01:46A big fucking movie star.
00:01:50I live in a big fucking house, make big fucking movies.
00:01:58I want to be the love child of Sid Vicious and Molly Ringwald.
00:02:07I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
00:02:13I want to be God, for the sole purpose of saying, I brought you into this world, don't
00:02:17think for one minute I will take you out.
00:02:23I want the original promise.
00:02:27I want justice for all.
00:02:32I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between, for nothing in return.
00:02:44I want the world in my palm.
00:02:47No cooler than 60 degrees, no warmer than 75, and never a cloud in the sky.
00:02:58I want the perfect kiss, the perfect imperfection, the perfect life.
00:03:09But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
00:03:16And I want her to walk through that door right over there, and order biscuits and gravy.
00:03:28Hi.
00:03:30Hi.
00:03:30Hi.
00:03:31I bet your kids are adorable.
00:03:37Oh, it's okay, I already know what I want.
00:03:39Okay.
00:03:40I'll have the biscuits and gravy, please.
00:03:42Same.
00:03:43Okay, two biscuits and gravy, anything to drink?
00:03:46Coffee's fine.
00:03:46All right.
00:03:47Thanks.
00:03:48Thanks.
00:03:49I'm Brian.
00:03:50Bella.
00:03:51Nice to meet you, Bella.
00:03:54She blew into my life like a storm, uprooting everything I knew to be true, and filling it
00:04:00with so much more.
00:04:02She became everything I never knew I wanted.
00:04:05In a single glance.
00:04:07In a moment.
00:04:09In a straight conversation.
00:04:12In that slight smile that started with the curling of her toes and ended at the corner
00:04:16of her lips.
00:04:18Just before she burst into laughter, she became it.
00:04:25She became perfection.
00:04:32Cool.
00:04:33So.
00:04:34So.
00:04:35Morrissey or The Cure?
00:04:37Uh, The Cure.
00:04:38Yeah.
00:04:39Beatles or Stones?
00:04:40The Stones.
00:04:41King of Pop or King of Rock?
00:04:43King of Rock.
00:04:45Definitely.
00:04:47Well, Elvis is always fascinated.
00:04:49How so?
00:04:50Well, here's this normal guy that accidentally got famous.
00:04:53I mean, he wrote a song that was for his dad, or his uncle, or something like that, for
00:04:58their birthday, and the next thing you know, he's a teen idol.
00:05:02I just, watching his life is like watching a tree grow.
00:05:06And it gets bigger and bigger, and then he ends up swollen and yellow.
00:05:14I don't know, it's like he was on a satellite somewhere in outer space, watching himself, and
00:05:20that's what it did to him.
00:05:22Are you saying that Elvis was an alien?
00:05:26Hello, darling.
00:05:27This is Elvis from the planet Graceland, and I just want to thank you for coming out
00:05:31on a date with me this evening.
00:05:34You know what I like about you?
00:05:36What's that?
00:05:37You're full of shits.
00:05:39I think I just got a little Amish.
00:05:42Oh, I apologize.
00:05:44Sorry about that.
00:05:44You better be.
00:05:48To Elvis.
00:05:49To Elvis.
00:05:51Elvis.
00:05:53Yellow and swollen.
00:05:55How could I have known even then, in a moment of such happiness, the longitude and latitude
00:06:02of my fall from Graceland?
00:06:06Hours went by.
00:06:08Day turns to night, night to day.
00:06:11Small talk turns to talk of dreams and aspirations.
00:06:16First date eyes become the eyes that you take for granted.
00:06:22I hang on every word, she says.
00:06:26And those hours that became days become weeks.
00:06:29And we were married on a Saturday.
00:06:33And those weeks became months.
00:06:36And Cole, our first daughter, was born, sweet as sugar.
00:06:41And those months became a year.
00:06:43And that year became four years.
00:06:45And Sarah, our second daughter, was born.
00:06:49Born sick.
00:06:51And that sickness drove Bella into darkness.
00:06:53And she began to wither and die.
00:06:58And me.
00:07:01I became Elvis.
00:07:03Yellow and swollen.
00:07:05Watching my life unfold from a satellite somewhere in space.
00:07:12Counting the rings of my tree.
00:07:13And forever wondering how this perfect life came to be.
00:07:42I'll be right there, honey.
00:08:11I'll be right.
00:08:25Yay, well I think you got dog poo in your hair, yeah, yuck, where did you get the dog
00:08:32poo in your hair, oh, here we think we need to wash it out, okay then let's wash it out,
00:08:43all right here we go, here turn over, lean back, lean back, there we go, no you want to lean
00:08:50back, no the other way, because if you lean back then I won't be good dressed, hold your
00:08:55hands, lean back, there we go, oh that feels good right, there we go, yay good girl, there
00:09:06it is, oh yes, standing on the shoulders of children, innocent eyes that gaze upon the
00:09:15world with wondrous excitement, you will probably never know me, you will probably not remember
00:09:22me, but someday when you're older, your mother will show you a photograph and tell you my
00:09:29story, a story filled with self-abandon and regret, regret that I will not be there for
00:09:37your report cards, for proms, for graduations, to give you both away at your weddings, I always
00:09:48wanted to be the one to teach you to drive, to navigate life with that same beautiful innocence
00:09:53that fills your youthful spirit today, to hope, to strive, to dream, but you're only three
00:10:05feet tall, and already bigger than me, good morning, time to get up, my water broke, Ryan,
00:10:32huh, Ryan, I just thought I was having a wet dream, oh, honey, come on, get up, look at who,
00:10:39hello, hello, I can't reach you, come on, get up, get out of bed, feel this thing, it's coming
00:10:46out, it's coming out, please, okay, alright, I'm just trying to keep you from panicking,
00:10:52alright, yeah, take your time, well, I'm trying, look, I can't go to the hospital naked, why
00:10:58not, that would be awkward, okay, alright, speak at which hospital we're going to, you
00:11:05don't know which hospital we're going to, yes, I know which hospital, which hospital are we
00:11:10going to, I don't know, let's go, I got it, okay, okay, okay, calm down, okay, calm down,
00:11:19come on, you need to do it, do you want, oh, where's the hose, something with more water
00:11:28than you, oh, come on, Reese's, you stay right there, and, okay, let's do this, thank you, oh,
00:11:39Oh, God, we're going to have to detail the car after this.
00:11:45Okay.
00:11:48Okay.
00:11:50You ready?
00:11:50Oh, baby, I'm ready.
00:11:52Um, are you ready?
00:11:54You seem a little frazzled.
00:11:55Yes, I'm frazzled, yes.
00:11:57Just breathe.
00:11:59Okay.
00:11:59Maybe, um, Cole should drive.
00:12:05Cole!
00:12:11Oh, my God.
00:12:42I'm going to go for a walk.
00:12:43Oh, my God.
00:12:45Oh, my God.
00:12:51Oh, my God.
00:13:11Hello?
00:13:13Are you busy?
00:13:15Ryan, are you okay?
00:13:17I just needed to talk to someone.
00:13:20I'll wait up.
00:13:30Time.
00:13:31It moves so slowly when you have nothing to do but think.
00:13:36To remember the beginning.
00:13:38To dwell on the end.
00:13:41And to be haunted by everything in between.
00:13:44To be haunted by that word.
00:13:48That undefinable word.
00:13:51As undefinable as God.
00:13:54Yet a word I thought I knew intimately.
00:13:58Perfection.
00:13:59The perfect wife.
00:14:01The perfect children.
00:14:03The house.
00:14:04The dog.
00:14:05The job.
00:14:05The two-car garage.
00:14:07The diapers.
00:14:07The joint bank account.
00:14:10Piano recitals.
00:14:12Tap shoes.
00:14:14The American dream.
00:14:16An idea that became an ideal.
00:14:21It's Friday.
00:14:23Is it recycling or yard waste today?
00:14:26The Humphrey plays.
00:14:27Oh, yeah.
00:14:33Yeah.
00:14:37Yeah.
00:14:39Yeah.
00:14:41Okay.
00:14:46Yeah.
00:15:14Have you ever stood naked, alone?
00:15:18And out of reach.
00:15:33The way Sarah cries, I can't help her.
00:15:39And the way Bella cries, she doesn't want me to help her.
00:15:43I just want...
00:15:46I know.
00:15:49Well I don't.
00:15:52Once upon a time maybe, but not anymore.
00:15:56You want too much.
00:15:59No I don't.
00:16:01Mom.
00:16:02I only want it to be perfect.
00:16:04Well it's not.
00:16:05You never would have started fucking me.
00:16:12The idea of what it's like to want something that you can't have.
00:16:18What do you want?
00:16:20I want you.
00:16:23And you want her.
00:16:25But you don't want her.
00:16:28You want the idea of her.
00:16:30And what you don't understand, Brian, is that you've idealized your life away.
00:16:36But I want you.
00:16:38I don't know what you want.
00:16:41But you don't want me.
00:16:43I'm just another part of the ideal and I'm not perfect.
00:16:47But you're perfect to me.
00:16:52And that I need time with people.
00:16:55But I already know all of this.
00:17:00Everything I want.
00:17:10I need her to hold me like she used to.
00:17:15To hold me so close like we're the same person.
00:17:19Like this.
00:17:21Like what we have.
00:17:31We have a dance.
00:17:33And a photograph.
00:17:41Kim was right.
00:17:43She had become the band aid for a wound that would not heal.
00:17:48And no matter how much of her I stripped away.
00:17:51She would never fit into the mold Bella had created.
00:17:54I don't know if I'd be more alone with you than without you.
00:18:16She was right about a lot of things.
00:18:19One day you wake up and you realize that everything you ever wanted turned out to be nothing you ever
00:18:25wanted at all.
00:18:27And even the big things become as trivial as watermelon.
00:18:53You smell like cigarettes.
00:18:57Watermelon.
00:19:09Watermelon.
00:19:10Ha.
00:19:17Yeah.
00:19:25Mountainave.
00:19:25It's not for her.
00:19:26Saturn souvenirs.
00:19:26Señorfilm.
00:19:27It's the only way she can give you us.
00:19:34Are you doing anything for lunch today?
00:19:36No. Did you want to do something?
00:19:39I was thinking about stopping by.
00:19:43I'd like that.
00:20:02What time did you come in last night?
00:20:06What's that, honey?
00:20:07What time did you come in last night?
00:20:11I don't know. I didn't really look at the clock.
00:20:14I didn't even hear you come in.
00:20:16Really?
00:20:18Well, I gave you a kiss. Good night. You rolled over. I thought I woke you up.
00:20:25Nope.
00:20:28You know, one of these days I'm going to get a call from Canada.
00:20:32You're going to be missing a sock.
00:20:33You're going to have a new tattoo of a heart and some sailor's name on your ass.
00:20:38And you're going to say,
00:20:40I don't know where I was, but I woke up in a car that wasn't mine
00:20:44with some large man in a unitard offering me a sip of bourbon.
00:20:51Here's your other sock, sailor.
00:21:04You're so sexy when you have your drafting face on.
00:21:07Hey, beautiful.
00:21:08Hi.
00:21:10Want to go get some lunch or something?
00:21:11Yeah, I was thinking we could go down to the waterfront, but first I need to use the restroom.
00:21:16Yeah, just at the end of the hall to the left.
00:21:19Well, aren't you forgetting something?
00:21:20And what would that be?
00:21:22Do I have to ask?
00:21:34Hi.
00:21:35Hi.
00:21:37You look good.
00:21:39Oh, thanks.
00:21:39How are you?
00:21:40I'm good.
00:21:41I just stopped by for lunch.
00:21:42I think we're going to go to the waterfront.
00:21:43Did you want to come?
00:21:45I can't.
00:21:46Thanks, though.
00:21:46I've already got plans.
00:21:48Well, that's too bad.
00:21:48We don't hang out enough.
00:21:50I know.
00:21:50We should see each other more often.
00:21:52Oh, that's pretty.
00:21:53What is it?
00:21:55Thanks.
00:21:55Uh, I think it's called posh, but it tastes like watermelon.
00:21:59Yeah, watermelon.
00:22:01Watermelon.
00:22:02I like it.
00:22:04Watermelon.
00:22:05How have you been?
00:22:06Good.
00:22:07You know, kids and stuff.
00:22:10Yeah, we've got some clients like that.
00:22:13Well, it's good to see you.
00:22:16I've got to get back to work.
00:22:18Yeah, good to see you too.
00:22:20Watermelon.
00:22:22Watermelon.
00:22:23Watermelon.
00:22:25Watermelon.
00:22:27Watermelon.
00:22:29Watermelon.
00:22:30Watermelon.
00:22:30Watermelon.
00:22:30Watermelon.
00:22:34Watermelon.
00:22:34Watermelon.
00:22:37Watermelon.
00:22:39Watermelon.
00:22:46Watermelon.
00:22:49Watermelon.
00:22:51Watermelon.
00:22:52Watermelon.
00:22:53Watermelon.
00:22:53Watermelon.
00:22:53Watermelon.
00:22:53Watermelon.
00:22:53Watermelon.
00:22:55Watermelon.
00:22:59Watermelon.
00:23:17Oh, she does, doesn't she?
00:23:21Yeah.
00:23:27Bella?
00:23:28Bella?
00:23:29Are you okay?
00:23:30Yeah.
00:23:30Bella?
00:23:32If you want to talk, I'm on my phone.
00:23:34I'm fine.
00:23:35I'm fine.
00:23:36I'm fine.
00:23:37It's okay, I just-
00:23:38Right out here if you need anything.
00:23:39I'm fine.
00:24:09Shut up.
00:24:10God.
00:24:16It's gonna be okay.
00:24:18Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:20Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:20Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:21Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:22Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:22Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:23Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:23Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:23Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:24Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:24Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:24Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:26Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:28Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:36Hey little angels, how are you doing, what are you doing, putting on a show, hi, is mommy
00:24:45cooking?
00:24:46Something smells good.
00:24:49Cooking baby.
00:24:55Something smells good.
00:25:03How was work?
00:25:04One of my new clients are probably correct though, and that was good.
00:25:07It's nice to see you there for lunch.
00:25:09Did you do that morning?
00:25:11Yeah.
00:25:12I'll let you go.
00:25:15Come on.
00:25:39She knew.
00:25:41Nothing more need be said.
00:25:43She knew.
00:25:45And the thought came to her as quickly as a bullet.
00:25:49A bullet expelled from a gun that I had cleaned, oiled, aimed, and fired.
00:25:57Dearest Bella, I miss you.
00:26:39Oh my god.
00:26:40Bella.
00:26:41Bella.
00:26:42Bill, what the fuck?
00:26:44Oh my god.
00:26:46Bella.
00:26:47Jesus Christ.
00:26:49Oh my god.
00:26:52Oh my god.
00:26:54Oh my god.
00:26:55Oh my god.
00:26:56Oh my god.
00:26:59Oh god.
00:27:01Oh my wife just cut her wrist.
00:27:03I need an ambulance at 6124 Street.
00:27:06Sir, I need you to calm down.
00:27:08Can you do that for me?
00:27:10Yeah.
00:27:10Yeah.
00:27:11The ambulance is on its way.
00:27:13I need you to know, sir, is she still breathing?
00:27:18Yeah.
00:27:21I need you to stop the bleeding.
00:27:23What did you do, sir?
00:27:24Bryan?
00:27:25Bryan, I need you to apply pressure above the laceration and lift her arm above the level
00:27:31of her heart.
00:27:31Can you do that for me?
00:27:33Yeah, but do I have to put the phone down?
00:27:35That's okay, Bryan.
00:27:36Put the phone down.
00:27:37Oh god.
00:27:37Just don't hang up.
00:27:38Just hang up.
00:27:40Oh god.
00:27:42Oh god.
00:27:43Oh god.
00:27:57Oh my god.
00:28:01Oh my god.
00:28:08I don't get close.
00:28:11One of my
00:28:13Hehe, how would youל?
00:28:34You're welcome.
00:28:43Thank you for calling Jennings Architecture.
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00:29:01Hey John.
00:29:03This is Brian.
00:29:06I'm having a family emergency, so I'm just calling to let you know that I won't be to
00:29:11work for a couple of days, so I'll probably see you next Monday.
00:29:15Bye.
00:29:46Bella died for 48 seconds.
00:29:50I have been dying ever since.
00:29:54As her heart slowed and stopped, I realized at that very moment something I should have
00:29:59always known.
00:30:02She loved me more than she loved herself.
00:30:35How would you live before she loved me?
00:30:35I'll have to wait for her.
00:30:35I won't be very tired.
00:30:35I'll be kidding, but I would have to wait for her.
00:31:03I remember when I met your mother.
00:31:06She was beautiful.
00:31:10It's not that she's not beautiful, she's gorgeous.
00:31:15It's just, I'm used to her.
00:31:29It's like no matter how good I have it, it's no one's fault.
00:31:35I just fucked up.
00:32:02Yeah, this is Brian Sanders.
00:32:05I'll call to see how my wife's doing.
00:32:07What is her name please?
00:32:09Bella Sanders.
00:32:25Your wife is in stable condition.
00:32:27She should be released sometime this evening or tomorrow morning.
00:32:32Okay, thank you.
00:32:58She's sleeping Brian.
00:33:00Okay.
00:33:13She doesn't want to talk yet Brian.
00:33:16I just want to make sure she's okay.
00:33:18I think it's going to be a long time before she's okay.
00:33:48Hello.
00:33:49Hello.
00:33:50Hi Gary.
00:33:51Is Bella there?
00:33:52We'll call you when she's ready.
00:33:55Hello.
00:33:57Oh sorry.
00:34:09Oh sorry.
00:34:12Oh sorry.
00:34:25We'll call you to her.
00:34:26Brian, she's just not ready yet.
00:34:29Can I at least see the girls?
00:34:32Hold on.
00:34:37What time do you get off tomorrow?
00:34:40Whenever you want.
00:34:43Meet me at Owens Beach around 1.
00:34:46Thank you. Thank you so much.
00:34:49I'll see you tomorrow.
00:34:53I'll see you tomorrow.
00:34:56Alright.
00:35:08Hi.
00:35:12Oh.
00:35:14There you go. Hey.
00:35:16How are you doing?
00:35:18Hi. How are you doing?
00:35:20Come on.
00:35:22How are you doing? There's Daddy.
00:35:24There she is. Hi.
00:35:25Oh, look who's here to see you.
00:35:27Oh, I know.
00:35:29Here, come on.
00:35:31Here, who's excited?
00:35:33Okay.
00:35:34Get this up.
00:35:36I feel like a magician.
00:35:38Okay, you ready?
00:35:39I'll trade you.
00:35:40Okay.
00:35:41Hey.
00:35:43There she is.
00:35:44Oh, gorgeous.
00:35:46Come on.
00:35:48Come on.
00:35:49Hey.
00:35:52Hold on here.
00:35:55It's good to see you guys.
00:35:58Yeah.
00:35:58Yeah.
00:36:02How have you been, huh?
00:36:04Oh, she's been.
00:36:06How has she been?
00:36:07Oh.
00:36:09Oh, he's doing interesting things.
00:36:12Oh, yeah.
00:36:14Character.
00:36:15Come on.
00:36:16There you go.
00:36:18Oh.
00:36:22Oh.
00:36:26Ready?
00:36:38There she is.
00:36:39Come on.
00:36:40Let's get out and see the day, huh?
00:36:42Hi.
00:36:43There you go.
00:36:44Hi.
00:36:47There you are, gorgeous.
00:37:01Thank you so much for bringing the family.
00:37:02It's just the right thing to do.
00:37:07So how are you doing?
00:37:09I just want to know if she's okay.
00:37:11She's really hurt, Brian, and I don't think she's going to forgive you.
00:37:16Well, I can't even forgive myself.
00:37:18I know you love her, and she loves you.
00:37:20You've just made a mistake.
00:37:22She doesn't understand that you understand what you've done.
00:37:26She only knows she's hurting, and it's because of you.
00:37:33I, this is either going to drive you farther apart or bring you closer together, but it's not your choice.
00:37:41It's her choice now.
00:37:43I know.
00:37:45You just have to give her time to decide.
00:37:48It's just hard not being able to see her or talk to her.
00:37:59Thanks for coming out today.
00:38:03It's the right thing to do.
00:38:19My mother has the gift of Catholic guilt, and my dad's going to kick your ass if you've been calling.
00:38:24So how are you doing?
00:38:27If I see a therapist three times a week, the state won't take the kids.
00:38:31How are you?
00:38:32Well, it's over.
00:38:34I told her we're done.
00:38:35It's too late for that part.
00:38:37I know I messed up, and I can't go back.
00:38:42But I'm sorry.
00:38:44I'm so sorry.
00:38:46How could you do this to me?
00:38:49How?
00:38:50When I love you so much?
00:38:54I don't know.
00:38:55I love you so much, Brian.
00:39:05I love you.
00:39:15I want a divorce.
00:39:17Bella.
00:39:17I don't want to talk about it.
00:39:19I want a divorce.
00:39:20And I want the kids.
00:39:23And the house and the car.
00:39:27And you can keep the dog, okay?
00:39:30Take whatever you want.
00:39:33Could you be out by Friday?
00:39:35If we don't come home soon, Cole's going to know something's wrong.
00:39:38What are you going to tell her when you come home and I'm not here?
00:39:42I'm going to tell her the truth.
00:39:46Okay. She should know.
00:39:55I have to go.
00:39:58Take care of yourself, Brian.
00:39:59Yeah.
00:40:01I love you.
00:40:10Okay.
00:40:11I guess this is it for a while.
00:40:31I have to go.
00:40:31I guess this is it for a while, I'm not too late because of me.
00:40:35I know.
00:40:37I'm not too late because I want to talk about an awful lot, but I want to talk about a
00:40:39lot.
00:40:39I'm so selfish about the ticket.
00:40:39I'm so sorry.
00:40:44I'm so sorry.
00:40:44You must be a certain thing.
00:40:45I don't know.
00:40:45I love your dress.
00:40:51I'm so sorry.
00:41:04Hello.
00:41:04Hi.
00:41:05Where's Kim?
00:41:07Um, I've only been here for a week.
00:41:08I don't think I've met her yet.
00:41:10Okay, thanks.
00:41:11Oh, Mr. Jennings wanted to just stop by his office and cut it.
00:41:14All right, thank you.
00:41:21I've known you for a long time, and I've never seen you like this.
00:41:26I'm sorry, John.
00:41:27I'm just having problems at home.
00:41:29You've missed 43 days in the past three months, and when you do show up, you smell like alcohol.
00:41:39My wife and I are...
00:41:42I don't even know what we are.
00:41:43Which is why it hurts me to do this, but you're really not leaving me any choice.
00:41:50I understand.
00:41:52And I wish you the best.
00:41:53I really do.
00:41:56Thanks.
00:42:14What I didn't give away, I threw away.
00:42:18I threw it all away.
00:42:20As easily as one throws away the wrapping on a birthday present.
00:42:25I've always been too selfish to understand that it's the wrapping that makes it special.
00:42:31You're fired, you're fired, you're fired from life, for you have failed everyone who has ever loved you.
00:42:41You have failed yourself, and no amount of sorry will make this better.
00:42:47No amount of forgiveness will make me worthy.
00:42:50I deserve the hurt I have caused, and in the end, the last thing I want is to feel better.
00:43:26Security?
00:43:38Excuse me sir, we've had a few noise complaints and to top it off, your credit card is going
00:43:46to be closed.
00:43:48So we need to get your stuff out right now.
00:43:51Do you have a jacket you want to bring?
00:43:53Is this your jacket?
00:43:55Is this the one?
00:43:57Yeah?
00:43:58Yes.
00:43:59Why don't you put that on?
00:44:00Alright, we've got to grab your stuff.
00:44:02What do you want to bring with you?
00:44:08There.
00:44:10Hold on to that.
00:44:13Hold on.
00:44:14Hold on.
00:44:15Just get him.
00:44:16I don't know.
00:44:17Is that all you need?
00:44:18Alright, we're going to go.
00:44:19Alright, we're going to go.
00:44:35You
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00:45:42Oh, Marty just moved to a new venue, that's all.
00:45:46Good morning.
00:45:57You know what?
00:46:01I love you, Reese.
00:46:03You know what else?
00:46:05You're too good for this.
00:46:08You want to go home?
00:46:10Come on.
00:46:13Off like a herd of turtles.
00:46:15Come on.
00:46:24Can't believe I let you talk me into this.
00:46:31Well, I know you've heard this story a million times.
00:46:38But, if I don't keep talking, I can't keep walking.
00:46:43So, a million and one.
00:46:47What do you have to say about that, huh?
00:46:50Huh?
00:46:53That's what I thought.
00:46:57Anyway, we drove all day to get to where you were born.
00:47:02Have you ever seen your mother drive?
00:47:04Huh?
00:47:06She's beautiful.
00:47:08She's so serious.
00:47:13I always felt like I was on a mission to make her laugh.
00:47:18I like that feeling of trying to impress somebody.
00:47:22She made me feel that way all the time.
00:47:26Huh.
00:47:28And when she smiled, I swear there was heaven on her lips.
00:47:34But don't get any ideas.
00:47:37You're too young to start dating there, mister.
00:47:40You're too young for that.
00:47:45Anyway, we get to the farm way out in the boonies.
00:47:52And I swear the place was odd.
00:47:55It was like a circus.
00:47:58There was kids on unicycles.
00:48:03Goats with eight horns.
00:48:06I think there was even a cat with wings.
00:48:10Woo-hoo-hoo!
00:48:13I thought you liked to play with that.
00:48:15Chase that around the yard all day, huh?
00:48:20Oh.
00:48:22And your mother, she had the best sense of style.
00:48:28So she wore dresses from the 50s.
00:48:31And little things in her hair.
00:48:39She reminded me of Marilyn Monroe before...
00:48:43Well, she was Marilyn Monroe.
00:48:50I think it was the way the wind whipped up her dress.
00:48:56It didn't matter where we went or what we did.
00:49:03I couldn't take my eyes off her.
00:49:09She glowed even when she slept.
00:49:15Have you ever seen The Lion King?
00:49:17Yeah.
00:49:19I have about 75 times.
00:49:21I have kids.
00:49:25Remember?
00:49:26Remember?
00:49:27Remember when James Earl Jones is holding up Simba?
00:49:34Well.
00:49:37That's how it was when I met you.
00:49:39Only...
00:49:42You weren't Simba.
00:49:47You...
00:49:50You were like a peanut butter cup.
00:49:57A fat...
00:50:00Chunky...
00:50:03Little peanut butter cup.
00:50:08Little peanut butter.
00:50:08That's how you got her.
00:50:34Let's just do this tomorrow, buddy, OK?
00:50:38One more time.
00:51:30Let's just do this tomorrow.
00:52:02Let's just do this tomorrow.
00:52:04Let's just do this tomorrow.
00:52:30Oh, I missed you.
00:52:35Oh, I missed you.
00:53:32Oh, I missed you.
00:53:34Oh, I missed you.
00:54:04Oh, I missed you.
00:54:07Oh, I missed you.
00:54:19Oh, I missed you.
00:54:44You walk through here every day, where do you go?
00:54:47I don't know.
00:54:48I guess I'm not going anywhere.
00:54:49Quit being a pathetic fuck and say hi every once in a while, huh?
00:54:54Well, you're gonna sit down and ain't fucking church.
00:54:59You're a piece of shit, Paul.
00:55:01I'm Terry.
00:55:02This is my friend, Vodka.
00:55:03Who the fuck are you?
00:55:05Brian.
00:55:08Hey!
00:55:09Hey, waitress, can I get a napkin for my friend here?
00:55:12Don't sleep at all.
00:55:14A child rotting, you stagnant cunt.
00:55:19I gotta go.
00:55:21Where the fuck are you gonna go?
00:55:23You got a job interview or something?
00:55:26Oh, gonna be a big shot dental assistant?
00:55:29Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:55:37Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:11Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:12Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:14Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:16Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:17Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:17Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:18Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:18Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:20Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:24Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:43The taste of used food subsides as the flickering streetlights create a rhythmic dance of muted
00:56:49shadows. I stuff my coat with newspapers I will never read. The first night was cold.
00:56:59So was the second, and every night that followed. Memories will never keep you warm at night, but they will
00:57:09keep you out, even the good ones.
00:57:14Have you ever held someone so close that you forget which one you are? That you think it's your fingers
00:57:21moving, that it's there?
00:57:26Let them finish your words.
00:57:35I can hear your heartbeat and your lips.
00:57:40I think it's your lips that make my heart.
00:57:48Hey, so did you get that job?
00:57:53Jesus Christ, watching you is like watching some pathetic fucking dog shit himself, and then wipe his ass all over
00:57:59the ground and smear it in real good.
00:58:03What you need is an aspirin and a shower.
00:58:11Well, are you gonna sit down or what?
00:58:17What is your deal anyway? You ain't supposed to be here.
00:58:22Well, I used to have a wife, kids, a dog, and a house.
00:58:27Jesus Christ, you are a dental assistant.
00:58:31Well, I was an architect.
00:58:34An architect?
00:58:36If you were an architect, you'd know how many floors there were between you and the ground.
00:58:44Let me tell you something, you piece of shit.
00:58:46I used to be a dental hygienist.
00:58:51Being a dental hygienist is a lot like being a shrink.
00:58:55Only most of my clients were numb.
00:58:57Kinda like you.
00:58:59Talk to me about being numb.
00:59:02You ever smoke crack?
00:59:06Smoking crack is kinda like waking up Frankenstein's monster.
00:59:10There's a big jolt of electricity, and then he just stumbles around all sad and lonely.
00:59:15So the town folk, they all get together and, you know, get their pitchforks and,
00:59:20I don't know, they run him out of town or kill him or...
00:59:23Fuck, I forget.
00:59:26Killed it.
00:59:27Killed it! Thank you very much.
00:59:30Anyway, my point is this.
00:59:32You walk around here like fuckin' Frankenstein's monster.
00:59:35And I see.
00:59:37I can tell you ain't supposed to be here. You're a fuckin' accident.
00:59:41So, I look for my pitchfork.
00:59:43But, then I realize I'm not a fuckin' farmer, what do I need a pitchfork for?
00:59:49But by the time I realize that, you're fuckin' gone.
00:59:55Just do yourself a favor.
00:59:57Go be an architect.
00:59:59Build yourself some big building that you don't wanna jump off of.
01:00:03Or at least be a good drunk.
01:00:06You fuckin' piece of shit.
01:00:18Yeah.
01:00:19Go fuck yourself, Frankie the Park Fly.
01:00:21Why?
01:00:27Jesus Paul, you're a fuckin' embarrassment.
01:01:14Do you mind if I sit and watch you paint?
01:01:17No, not at all.
01:01:22This has always reminded me of something from a different life.
01:01:26A couple of months ago.
01:01:27Interesting how something so strong can also be so fragile.
01:01:32So are you in school?
01:01:34Third quarter freshman.
01:01:36Well, it's very beautiful.
01:01:40Do you paint?
01:01:42I always wanted to.
01:01:43I was told my wife I'd paint her, but I never did.
01:01:47You're married?
01:01:49No, I'm divorced.
01:01:50I'm sorry.
01:01:52It's okay, it's been a while now.
01:01:55How long?
01:01:57Going on three years.
01:01:59This is too bad.
01:02:02It's all right.
01:02:04Where are you from?
01:02:05Yeah.
01:02:06I must have tourists written all over me.
01:02:09Well, that depends if you ask me to take your picture in front of the space nail or not.
01:02:15I'm from Portland.
01:02:17Really?
01:02:17Yeah.
01:02:18I'm sailing.
01:02:18Right on.
01:02:22Well, I should probably let you get back to your work.
01:02:26That's okay.
01:02:27You don't have to.
01:02:29Thanks, but I need to start looking for some dinner.
01:02:33But good luck to you.
01:02:34You too.
01:02:38What?
01:02:44Okay.
01:02:45Oh, God.
01:02:52See ya.
01:02:52Bye.
01:02:52Bye.
01:02:56Bye.
01:02:56Bye.
01:02:56Bye.
01:02:57Bye.
01:03:01Bye.
01:04:02Have a good night.
01:04:03You too.
01:04:20I don't give the homeless money, but I will help you help yourself.
01:04:24You don't have to do this.
01:04:26No, it's okay.
01:04:27I want to.
01:04:28See, you can paint pictures, and that way you don't have to bed.
01:04:32Can I hug you?
01:04:34What?
01:04:36Oh, you're one of the nicest people I've ever met.
01:04:40I hope you get everything you ever want from life.
01:04:44That you know what you have when you have it.
01:04:57Hey.
01:04:59Hey!
01:05:01Here goes Frank, you're the architect.
01:05:05Fuck.
01:05:14You're gonna come over and join me or what?
01:05:25What the fuck are you so happy about?
01:05:29Life goes on.
01:05:33It doesn't matter how much you push it, pull it, remember or forget.
01:05:38It's indifferent.
01:05:40It just goes on.
01:05:43And I think back to the little things.
01:05:45The things that matter most.
01:05:47The laughter.
01:05:50The wet laughter that hurts in the best way.
01:05:55Her lip-lock eyes across a crowded room.
01:05:59Philosophy over coffee.
01:06:04Explaining why the sky is blue to a child who thinks the world of you.
01:06:08So wide-eyed and full of possibilities.
01:06:12Endless possibilities.
01:06:15When the world was made of magic.
01:06:19Of course unicorns are real.
01:06:23As real as princesses.
01:06:26As real as Bigfoot.
01:06:28As real as you and me.
01:06:32Once when I was your age.
01:06:33I rode one.
01:06:35I rode one but the horn is very sharp.
01:06:40That's how I got these scars on my chin, you know?
01:06:47Fly.
01:06:51Fly.
01:06:55Fly as I sink.
01:07:05Fly as I sink.
01:07:06Fly as I sink.
01:07:07Fly as I sink.
01:07:19Fly as I sink.
01:07:22Fly as I sink.
01:07:26Fly as I sink.
01:07:27Fly as I sink.
01:07:28Fly as I sink.
01:07:30Fly as I sink.
01:07:31Fly as I sink.
01:07:31Fly as I sink.
01:07:31Fly as I sink.
01:07:31Fly as I sink.
01:07:57Take a walk with me.
01:08:01And let's go find belief.
01:08:06I want to see the stars again.
01:08:10With the wonder that I had at the age of ten alone.
01:08:17She lost the magic in her eyes.
01:08:22I could share the same self.
01:08:28Not at all.
01:08:34But now I walk alone.
01:08:39Once again, I'm on my own.
01:08:45She lost the magic she had for me.
01:08:52Lost the magic, I'm not complete.
01:08:58In each one of us, Peter Pan, Elvis Presley, Superman.
01:09:08In each one of us, Jacques Cousteau, to marvel at the earth and the sea below.
01:09:29In each one of us, Peter Pan, Elvis Presley, Superman.
01:09:41In each one of us, Jacques Cousteau, to marvel at the earth and the sea below.
01:10:11Do you remember the first day we met?
01:10:18Let's go find belief.
01:10:31I want to see the stars again.
01:10:42The stars again with the wonder that I had at the age of ten.
01:11:01I remember lying on your chest and talking for hours.
01:11:07The age of ten.
01:11:11And then we remembered we were lying on the bathroom floor.
01:11:15I just thought we had a shower again.
01:11:29So I walk alone.
01:11:36Once again, I'm on my own.
01:11:43She lost the magic she had for me.
01:11:50Oh, in her eyes.
01:11:57We no longer share the sky.
01:12:05Oh, no.
01:12:08Oh, no.
01:12:11Not at all.
01:12:17Not at all.
01:12:22Sometimes I can't help but wonder if maybe we forget each other every time you look away.
01:12:33I see you.
01:12:35You are beautiful.
01:12:40In each one of us, Peter Pan.
01:12:53In each one of us, Jacques Cousteau, to marvel at the earth and the sea below.
01:13:06Oh, well, I just need someone who understands the little boy inside the man.
01:13:21I just need someone who understands the part of me lives in our dreamland.
01:13:51I remember.
01:13:53I remember.
01:13:55I remember.
01:13:57I remember.
01:13:58But I can't forget.
01:14:00Once you asked me if I had ever stood naked in front of anyone.
01:14:05Alone and out of reach.
01:14:08I took off my clothes and backed away from you.
01:14:11You simply asked me my middle name and told me to put my clothes back on.
01:14:18I am standing naked and raw for you now, Bella.
01:14:22Not to beg forgiveness.
01:14:24But to beg that you find happiness.
01:14:28The kind of happiness I could never give you.
01:14:32And if you should see the unrecognizable me on the street, don't look down.
01:14:39Don't look back.
01:14:42And I will grant you the same respect.
01:14:47Ain't you guys got a home to go to?
01:14:50Yeah.
01:14:51I was thinking about maybe getting a wife.
01:14:54Shitting out some kids.
01:14:56Being an architect.
01:14:58You'll marry me.
01:15:00Shut up, you fucking drunk.
01:15:03Do you ever leave the bench?
01:15:07What, do they decorate you guys at Christmas time?
01:15:13Yes?
01:15:14No?
01:15:17Okay, well, I'm gonna go get a cup of coffee if you want to join me.
01:15:27Come on, sweetheart.
01:15:29Daddy wants some breakfast.
01:15:32Lupe!
01:16:02You guys are gonna die.
01:16:03If he works, he's going to die.
01:16:06He's gonna sit down.
01:16:06And I'll get a phone.
01:16:06If this was messed up, can I get you ready?
01:16:07So, you'll see where that dobry is.
01:16:09It wasn't as good as your know of your neighbor at Zahlen.
01:16:11Can you bear it back at that one?
01:16:13No, this is all I was waiting for.
01:16:15And I don't care.
01:16:16Let's don't see.
01:16:17It's not true.
01:16:17But she is.
01:16:19Guy didn't even write one of those songs.
01:16:20I have more range than when I spoke more.
01:16:23Man.
01:16:24Just piss me off.
01:16:42If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?
01:16:47One thing is all I get?
01:16:50If one is all I get, I don't want to play this movie.
01:16:54Pussy.
01:16:56I want to be President of the United States.
01:16:58That's right.
01:17:00That way I can declare a state anarchy.
01:17:05I want to be a movie star.
01:17:07A big fucking movie star.
01:17:10Live in a big fucking house.
01:17:13Make big fucking movies.
01:17:17I want to be the love child to sit vicious in Molly Ringwald.
01:17:25I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
01:17:32I want to be God for the sole purpose of saying,
01:17:35I brought you into this world.
01:17:36Don't think for one minute I will take you out.
01:17:41I want the original promise.
01:17:44I want justice for all.
01:17:47I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between.
01:17:54For nothing in return.
01:17:58I want the world in my palm.
01:18:01No cooler than 60 degrees.
01:18:04No warmer than 75.
01:18:07And never a cloud in the sky.
01:18:11I want the perfect kiss.
01:18:14The perfect imperfection.
01:18:18The perfect life.
01:18:21But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
01:18:26And I want her to walk through that door right over there.
01:18:30And order biscuits and gravy.
01:18:35You're a pathetic fuck.
01:18:39Thanks.
01:18:40Not you, him.
01:18:43Jesus, that was beautiful.
01:18:45You look like this night.
01:18:46…
01:18:47…
01:18:48…
01:18:48…
01:18:49…
01:18:50…
01:18:52…
01:18:52…
01:18:52…
01:18:53God bless you.
01:21:54And the way you were lives in shadows now and becomes a blur.
01:22:09And nothing can touch the moment, it's all yours now, you own it.
01:22:18Nothing, no, not even reason can touch the season that you're in, that you're in.
01:22:30You lean to kisses, well it fades away.
01:22:39But then you're missing, you're so close, but through the years in circles again with burdens and fears.
01:22:56Oh, now you are swimming in tears of sorrow.
01:23:04Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
01:23:43And the way you were lives in shadows now and becomes the blur.
01:23:59And nothing can touch the moment, it's all yours now.
01:24:35You own it.
01:24:36That you're in, that you're in, that you're in, that you're in.
01:25:02I don't
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