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EastEnders - Season 42 - Episode 68: 29/04/2026
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01:04Are you still throwing duds?
01:07How the hell did you know I was here?
01:08I guessed. Billy was worried you were going to do something stupid.
01:12Billy sent you? After last time, I'm not a joke.
01:16Nobody sent me and nobody knows that you're here.
01:19And you can lay into me as much as you like later on.
01:21But right now, we need to get back for night.
01:26He's dying, Phil.
01:28Don't you think I know that?
01:29Why the hell do you think I'm here?
01:31One last stone. That's what he told you, right?
01:34Yeah. I gave him one and it fell through his fingers.
01:36Yeah, because it weren't the right one.
01:37Julie told me about that one that he kept all them years.
01:41It was flat and smooth and round.
01:43And it fit perfectly in the palm of your hand.
01:45How could he even tell the difference?
01:47There's nothing left. He's as good as gone.
01:49He ain't gone yet.
01:50We need to go, Phil.
01:51I'll go when I've found the right stone until the end.
01:54Well, you're going to either stay and help me
01:57and sling your hook.
02:08I've got some lip balm if he needs it.
02:10I think you'll like that.
02:25He used to say he was too much off a lip balm.
02:40He used to play sounds of the sea
02:49when he couldn't sleep nights.
02:50It drove me potty.
02:51But he said it relaxed him.
02:54I'm sure it's relaxing for him now.
02:56And if I'm honest with you, it's more for me than it is for him.
02:59It's his breathing.
03:03It's this...
03:05sort of rattle.
03:08And I don't like you, innit?
03:10I know.
03:12It's nothing to be scared of.
03:14It's not in any pain.
03:22Here you go.
03:23Take your pick.
03:24Let's get out of here.
03:26Ain't right.
03:27No, bro.
03:28It's you that ain't right.
03:30There ain't no perfect stone because you don't want to go back.
03:33I mean, what was I doing dragging myself out here?
03:35I didn't ask you to come out here, did I?
03:37I came for night.
03:38Oh, here we go.
03:39Flying in again to save the day.
03:41Just like you do every time.
03:42Like you did with mum.
03:43Like you did with me, yeah?
03:45You ever going to change the record?
03:47That you want me to apologise?
03:49All right.
03:50I apologise for leaving you in the archers that night.
03:54I let you down.
03:55That said, if I stayed in the archers, I probably wouldn't have been able to have saved Sharon's life, would
04:00I?
04:01Probably thought he was going to get another bunk up.
04:03Yeah, that worked out for you well, didn't it, eh?
04:06Well, you didn't think I'd find out, eh?
04:09Wasn't meant to have...
04:10Oh, so what?
04:11It's always a mistake.
04:12An accident.
04:13You really want to talk about this when our best mate is dying?
04:16Oh, yeah, because that would be inappropriate, wouldn't it?
04:18A bit like jumping on my ex a minute.
04:20I was out of the picture, yeah?
04:21She was my ex too, remember?
04:23And you weren't together.
04:24You knew how I felt about her.
04:25And you knew how I'd feel when I found out.
04:27But that didn't stop you.
04:28Just like always.
04:31Look.
04:32You want to stay here and play with pebbles?
04:34Fine.
04:36I'm going to see our dying mate.
04:39You know what?
04:40You've had a year, Sid.
04:42You've had a year.
04:44Where were you?
04:45Eh, where were you?
04:45I was doing what you told me to do.
04:47Staying the hell out of it.
04:48Sis, when have you ever done what I've told you?
04:51Eh?
04:54If you'd have really cared, you'd have been there.
04:56But you weren't, were you?
04:57Because it's the same old story with you.
04:59When a guy gets tough, you ain't got the balls for it.
05:02You ain't got the balls for it.
05:03You didn't have the balls for mum.
05:04You didn't have it with me.
05:04You didn't have Nigel.
05:05You didn't even have it with your own boy.
05:07Don't talk about my son.
05:09Your son don't make me laugh.
05:11You don't even know him.
05:12Oh, well, you want to hit me?
05:13You want to hit me?
05:14Well, go on, then.
05:14Hit me.
05:15Go on.
05:15Do your worst.
05:17Do your worst.
05:17I want you to hit me.
05:38It's all right, bruv.
05:41I'm going to miss him, too.
06:03Oh, is it OK for us to come in?
06:06Oh, I don't, I don't really think it's a good idea for you to be here, love.
06:11She, uh, she really wanted to come.
06:15It's his breathing.
06:18Um, sometimes he stalks and then he makes a strange thing to them.
06:21I just don't want you to get upset.
06:22I won't.
06:24Same thing happened to my mum.
06:27She wants to say goodbye.
06:29Why, um, why don't we just go and have a cup of tea, Julie, and let them say what they
06:35need to say?
06:35It's fine, it's fine.
06:36Um, I'm fine.
06:38Um, I'll just leave you on to it.
06:46You did your best by it.
06:50You were the friend you needed now.
06:54No.
06:55No, he was...
06:58He was the friend I needed, and that...
07:01That, that's the truth.
07:04You know, I'm certain today, tomorrow, he's, he's going to be gone, and all that's going to be left is
07:08me sitting in that chair, wondering what the hell I'm going to do with my life now, now that he's
07:14gone.
07:16Well, you still got me.
07:20Yeah.
07:21Yeah, I still got you, man.
07:23There's no shaking you, is there?
07:26Coming back here.
07:28Makes you think about the choices you've made.
07:32People you've, you've chosen to spend your time with.
07:36Would they stick around if I got sick like Nigel?
07:41Probably not.
07:43And I wouldn't blame them if they didn't.
07:45You're not family, are they?
07:48You've got family.
07:51Yeah, no disrespect, bruv, but after the abuse you put your body through, uh, I'm expecting to outlive you by
07:57stretch.
07:58Oh, you've got caught me.
08:00You've got Mark, you know.
08:04You, you want a relationship with him, he's, he's right there, isn't he?
08:09No.
08:10I, he, he ain't interested.
08:14He's, he's just saying that, isn't he, trying, trying to protect himself.
08:17He's, he's right there, you just, you just got to get through to him, that's all.
08:27Maybe.
08:31Right.
08:34Whether it's too late or not, we should get back.
08:38Not until I've found the right stone.
08:40What is it with you and the stone?
08:42Well, he asked for it, so it's important.
08:45One last stone.
08:47You hurt yourself.
08:48I mean, what does it even mean?
08:49I don't know, I don't know.
08:51But, but he said it.
08:57Well, I'm, I'm going to go.
09:05I don't know.
09:28Phil, Nigel's still hanging on.
09:29We've got to go.
09:42Looks like I'm driving.
09:49Julie.
09:51We came as quickly as we could.
09:53Are we too late?
09:54Er, no, um, Yelande and, um, Callum and Lexi, they're all in with him.
10:00Lexi's in there?
10:01Yeah.
10:02Do you want him to say goodbye?
10:05I mean, because that's what we're supposed to do, isn't it?
10:07We're supposed to say goodbye.
10:10But it just doesn't feel right for me.
10:13It feels like we're writing him off.
10:14I mean, what if you can hear everyone waving him off and, and it's like he's setting off on
10:19some train journey and he can hear it and he doesn't want to go and, oh God, I can't
10:22best for him not wanting to go.
10:35What the?
10:37Are you serious?
10:39Don't tell me the battery's gone.
10:41It ain't gone.
10:42It's drained.
10:43So all them range warnings you said was fine to ignore, turns out they were bang on.
10:47What can I say?
10:48You normally get a few more miles than it says.
10:50Where'd you get this toaster on wheels anyway?
10:53Borrowed it, I think.
10:54Yeah.
10:54Well, that explains it.
10:55He probably built it himself, didn't he?
10:56Where'd you go?
10:58To the care home.
10:58Where'd you think?
10:59It's miles away.
11:00Yeah, and so's near his character.
11:02Unless you've got a better idea, I'm walking.
11:08Hey, Louisa will soon come home into this beautiful garden.
11:27What was that song?
11:29A tune my mother used to sing to me when I was a little girl.
11:33And I couldn't sleep.
11:35It would soothe me.
11:39And you can remember it from all that time ago?
11:43Mm-hmm.
11:44And the older I get, the more I reach back to it.
11:49Twin times were simple.
11:53And I felt safe and loved.
12:04Hi.
12:05Hi.
12:08Lex, I think it's time to go now, darling.
12:14Bye, Marjorie.
12:41The nurse says he's close.
12:48But I feel he's holding on for something.
12:56Phil!
12:57Phil, hold up.
12:58Hold up.
12:59I mean, what's the plan?
13:02You can't walk it.
13:03Well, I'm going to have to, thanks to you, aren't I?
13:05Yeah, well, I didn't take myself off to the seaside, did I?
13:08And what's Nige going to do with a stone anyway?
13:10He's unconscious and on the brink of death.
13:12Just shut up for one second, will you?
13:14Why is there never any taxis or cabs or anything when you need one?
13:16Well, try cabs, cabs again.
13:18You heard what they said.
13:19They're all out, all right?
13:20There's nothing.
13:21I've got to walk, all right?
13:24Here, mate.
13:25Do you fancy making a special delivery?
13:26My brother needs to get to Walford now.
13:29Phil, hold up.
13:31Pizza boy says he'll give you a lift.
13:34What about you?
13:35Well, we've struggled to get three of us on that.
13:38And I've got your shoes back on the square.
13:42Go on.
13:43The best get going.
13:45All right.
13:45Thanks.
13:48Hey, mate, you got an helmet?
13:50He's very close.
13:54You should be with him.
13:59I know it's hard to say goodbye.
14:04My mother died suddenly.
14:13There was no doubt.
14:13I don't want to say goodbye.
14:21And if you can't, do it for yourself.
14:26Do it for Nigel.
14:28He's holding on for you.
14:33You need to tell him that it's okay
14:37to let go.
14:49See you on the other side, Mitch.
14:51See you on the other side, Mitch.
15:04See you on the other side, Mitch.
15:07Sweet dreams.
15:11Come on.
15:42I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
15:50I don't know what I'm supposed to do, and I don't want to sit here and go through everything we've
16:02done together, because you know all that.
16:10So, what is there to say?
16:17I can't imagine my life without you.
16:31But, I need you to know that I'm going to be okay.
16:40And, erm, it's alright to let go.
16:48Or, you can, you can let go now.
16:56Lovely.
16:59Everything's going to be okay.
17:07It's okay, you can let go.
17:10You can let go.
17:17Oh, God.
17:23Yes, please.
17:25Please go, please go.
17:26I think.
17:40You made it?
17:43Yeah, yeah, just about.
17:44Oh, I'm so good to see you.
17:48It's...
17:50It's always natural.
17:56I've got a screen to the left.
17:58Swithers has blockers here over 30, 35.
18:01Nice play.
18:02Oh, great effort by the linebacker to stop that from going for more.
18:06Game at 12.
18:07Perfect play call.
18:09That's probably on Brown.
18:37I brought in this.
18:40Grant said he was...
18:43He was asking for it.
18:45I...
18:45I tried to find the right one.
18:49Oh, that's just like the one that was on the side of his bath all those years.
18:57It's funny where your mind goes, isn't it, eh?
19:04At the end.
19:12It's all like that.
19:15Should I give it to him?
19:17I don't think he'll be able to take it.
19:19You can try.
19:25It's...
19:26Nigel.
19:28Nigel.
19:31I don't know.
19:31I don't know who it is.
19:33I don't know who it is.
19:38I don't know who it is.
20:06One, a lost stone, eh?
20:11A lost stone.
20:41Is that the one you wanted?
20:43Yeah, that's my stone.
20:47So, you're gonna tell me what this is all about, then?
20:52I don't know.
20:53Come on, Nides.
20:55The stone.
20:56This place.
20:58Do you know that scene on the beach in Chariots of Fire?
21:02You know, all the young bucks running along in slow motion.
21:07Vangelis.
21:10What about it?
21:13Well, they were meant to be on a beach in Broadstairs, which is not too far from here,
21:17but do you know where they actually filmed it?
21:20Not me there, mate.
21:21Scotland.
21:23St Andrews.
21:24Oh.
21:25Have you ever dipped your time in the North Sea in April?
21:28They must have been freezing.
21:31Grass monkeys.
21:40I always knew I'd come here at the end.
21:45I just didn't know I'd come here with you.
21:50It shouldn't be me, though.
21:52It shouldn't be Julie and the kids.
21:55You and me.
21:56To the end.
21:57That's what you said.
21:58That's what I agreed to.
22:00So, here we are.
22:04I'm sorry, Nigel.
22:13You don't need to be sorry.
22:18I'm the reason that he's sick.
22:20I'm the reason he's dying.
22:23He was already dying.
22:25This moment was always going to come.
22:29I need to say sorry to you as well.
22:33You know the way I've been.
22:34You were grieving.
22:37I see that now.
22:43Are you OK?
22:44You don't need to talk about me.
22:45He needs to hear that.
22:47He needs to know that you're going to be OK.
22:53Because you know he loves you, mate.
23:10Is there something wrong with it?
23:12No.
23:13No, it's perfect.
23:15Close my eyes and I'm back there.
23:17Where?
23:18Here.
23:19Here on this beach.
23:22My dad.
23:24Looking for skimming stones.
23:27Smooth and flat and round, Nigel.
23:29Smooth and flat and round.
23:30I bet you found loads.
23:31But I found one.
23:33And it was perfect.
23:35And I showed it to Dad.
23:41And he smiled.
23:45And said,
23:47Son,
23:49That is the best skimming stone
23:51I have ever seen.
23:54And he looked proud.
23:56I didn't get much of that.
23:57You and me both, mate.
23:59Maybe that's why we click.
24:01We both understand what it is
24:02to be a disappointment to our fathers.
24:05But not that day.
24:07That day
24:09I basked in the warm glow
24:11of his approval.
24:14Oh, you liked that, did you?
24:16I might do.
24:17If I knew what it meant.
24:22Means I was happy.
24:27I kept that stone
24:28over half a lifetime.
24:29A connection.
24:31A memory.
24:32How I felt in that moment
24:33whilst he was still with me.
24:36Happy.
24:37Safe.
24:39Loved.
24:42You feel that?
24:43Even if it's just once.
24:44Even for one moment.
24:47You spend a lifetime
24:49trying to chase it down again.
24:52What a waste.
24:56I could have been somebody.
24:58I could have been a contender.
25:01Eurgh.
25:04Brando.
25:04On the waterfront.
25:07We really don't have
25:08that much in common, do we?
25:10I don't know.
25:11Cheese and ham toasties.
25:21Are you going to be okay?
25:29I don't know who's doing that.
25:32Holding on to it like that.
25:38You know,
25:39when
25:42Yolandi said
25:42she thought that he was
25:45holding on from me.
25:48But
25:51I've said my goodbyes
25:54and I told him
25:55he didn't need to.
25:58So
26:00I've never been any good
26:01at saying goodbye.
26:02You don't have to be good at it.
26:03You just have to
26:05do it.
26:06He needs to know
26:07what you're going to be.
26:19Phil.
26:20Wait.
26:22Wait.
26:25What is it?
26:26What did I say?
26:27Nothing.
26:27I just
26:28I just don't like
26:29talking about myself.
26:30That's all.
26:30It's embarrassing.
26:32I thought he asked
26:33if you were going to be okay.
26:34That's all.
26:35Okay.
26:36Without me.
26:41Look.
26:43I know we don't like
26:44talking about our feelings
26:45blokes like you and me
26:46but
26:48I care about you.
26:50Yeah.
26:51I said it.
26:51I care about you.
26:54And I won't know
26:54you're going to be alright.
26:56Well I ain't gonna
26:58I ain't gonna do anything stupid
26:59if that's what you're worried about.
27:01It's not.
27:04I just
27:05don't want to think
27:06that you're going to sink
27:06back in that chair
27:07with the curtains closed
27:08and wait to die.
27:12I want you to live
27:16like you wanted me to live.
27:18Remember?
27:19The deal we made?
27:23I need to know
27:25you're going to be okay.
27:29I need to know
27:50you're going to be okay.
27:54you're going to be okay.
28:04You need to get all of yourself, Phil.
28:07You need to let him know
28:08that it's okay
28:09you need to know
28:21You know, you know I was never any good at saying how I feel.
28:29I suppose I said I ended up in the arches that night, you know, because I...
28:35I suppose it all builds up inside and I...
28:39You know how I feel, I just...
28:42I can't let it out.
28:47You...
28:52You showed me how to be a different kind of man.
28:58You know, you showed me...
29:00You showed me how to be strong.
29:04Without you to me, Fizz, you...
29:08You showed me how to laugh when there weren't...
29:13There weren't much to laugh about.
29:19You...
29:23You're the best mate I've ever had, Lodge.
29:26You're the best mate I've ever had.
29:28You're the best mate I've ever had.
29:56Not for me.
30:09I'm gonna be okay.
30:12I'm gonna be okay.
30:13It's okay.
30:14We're all...
30:16We're all...
30:17We're all gonna be okay.
30:20It's okay.
30:23It's okay for you to go, Lodge.
30:25Why?
30:27You can go.
30:29Go now.
30:30Go now.
30:40Go now.
30:43Go now.
30:51Go now.
30:54Go now.
30:54Go now.
31:05Nigel.
31:07Come on, it's time to go.
31:09Just one last go.
31:28Do you see that dad? It was perfect. It went on forever and ever and ever.
31:45Oh, my God.
32:14Oh, my God.
33:05Oh, my God.
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