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So Sorry, Mom – I Won't Lie Next Life
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00:00After I was born, my sister Olivia got really sick.
00:03No, I don't eat!
00:04Only when she fed me, she would smile and eat more.
00:07So whenever Olivia held the spoon, Mom would hold my shoulders down.
00:12She gently made me open my mouth.
00:14When I was five, the teacher said pups should say no to things that make them unhappy.
00:19So when I was so full I couldn't swallow one more bite, I refused Olivia's feeding.
00:24She cried until her face turned blue, like something really bad happened to her.
00:28Mom rushed at me like crazy.
00:31Her nails dug deep into my skin.
00:33You already have Mom and Dad's love.
00:35Why do you have to compete with your sister?
00:38Can't you just be good and eat more for your sister's sickness?
00:41Dad looked at Mom with a sad heart.
00:43He picked Olivia.
00:45He said he would take her to the new pack lands to cheer her up.
00:49I rolled on the floor in pain, but Mom thought I was lying.
00:53She got so mad, she slammed the door shut.
00:56She said she had to punish me for being bad.
00:58I held my stomach.
01:00Tears covered my whole face.
01:02I'm sorry, Mom.
01:03Next time I will eat nicely to make Olivia happy.
01:06I pressed my little hands hard on my belly.
01:08I curled up into a ball, but in my head I saw Mom's stomach hurt.
01:13She took the healer's pills and felt better.
01:15When I finally got the pill bottle open, my stomach suddenly hurt so badly.
01:20Pills fell all over the floor.
01:22I was about to pick them up when I heard the door open.
01:25My eyes lit up.
01:26Dad was back.
01:27I reached out my hand to him.
01:29Daddy, there are so many bugs biting me inside my tummy.
01:35Dad rushed to me, scared, but Mom grabbed him.
01:37She never tells the truth.
01:39Did you forget the other day?
01:40She stole jerky.
01:42When I caught her, she blamed Olivia.
01:43Now she's lying about a stomach ache.
01:45She just wants to play sick, so we won't take Olivia out to play.
01:49That's not how it happened.
01:51Last time, Olivia took the jerky.
01:54She brought it to my room.
01:56She tore the package open.
01:57She stuffed it in her mouth to show off.
01:59I told her to eat less, or she wouldn't be hungry for dinner.
02:02But Olivia puffed her cheeks.
02:04She waved the jerky in front of me.
02:06When Mom opened the door, she shoved the jerky into my hand.
02:09She wiped the grease on my clothes.
02:11I happily told Mom Olivia was better, but Mom got mad.
02:14She dragged me out of my room.
02:16She made me kneel in the living room.
02:19She called me a liar.
02:21She said I stole the jerky myself, then blamed my sick sister.
02:25I cried and said I didn't steal it.
02:27Mom's face turned cold, like the snow outside, ice cold.
02:31She threw me outside the door.
02:33She said she would throw away a lying pup.
02:35I cried for so long.
02:37I begged Mom not to leave me.
02:39Finally, Dad felt bad.
02:41He slipped a piece of meat into my hand.
02:43He told me to admit my mistake fast.
02:46He said not to make Mom mad.
02:47The sky got dark.
02:49My stomach growled.
02:50Mom held a bowl of hot meat soup.
02:52She asked if I knew I was wrong.
02:54The soup smelled so good.
02:56I sobbed and said I was wrong.
02:59That time, I really did lie.
03:01But Mom forgave me.
03:02Thinking of this, even though I had no idea what I did wrong,
03:06I still held Mom's skirt carefully.
03:08I said I was wrong again and again.
03:10I thought Mom would hug me like last time.
03:13And she said she loved me too.
03:15But she saw the pills on the floor.
03:17She got mad and kicked me hard.
03:21Emma, are you this naughty now?
03:23First you won't eat to starve your sister.
03:26Now you want to wreck the house?
03:28I have to punish you today.
03:30Dad tried to speak.
03:32Mom stopped him with one look.
03:35Adrian, if you stop me again, we're getting a divorce.
03:38Dad sighed.
03:39He had no choice.
03:40He took me from Mom.
03:41I thought he would carry me to the healer.
03:43But he locked me in the bedroom himself.
03:45Dad touched my head.
03:47Emma, for this family.
03:48Just be good, okay?
03:50I held Dad's sleeve tight.
03:51But Dad, my tummy really hurts.
03:55I cried my eyes out.
03:56Mom's voice came from the living room.
03:58She sounded mad.
03:59Are you favoring Emma again?
04:01When we mated, you promised to love Olivia like your own daughter.
04:04If you keep favoring the little one, there's no point in this marriage.
04:08Dad heard that.
04:09He pushed me away hard.
04:10He left fast.
04:12He didn't even notice he pushed me to the floor.
04:14My head hit the table corner.
04:16Everything got fuzzy.
04:18Through the crack in the door, I saw Dad lift Olivia up high.
04:21Mom's face finally smiled.
04:23She turned her head.
04:24Our eyes met.
04:25Mom frowned.
04:26She slammed the door shut.
04:28The room went dark.
04:29I couldn't see anything.
04:30But I heard Mom's words clearly.
04:32Emma is spoiled by you.
04:34Eating is such a happy thing.
04:36But she wastes food.
04:37Good.
04:38Lock her up for a day.
04:39Let her learn that every grain is hard work.
04:42Then came her soft voice.
04:44Olivia, you're my baby forever.
04:46It's okay if you don't like to eat.
04:49But when you're hungry, tell Mom.
04:51The house got quiet.
04:52Pitch black.
04:53My heart raced.
04:54But I was too short.
04:55I couldn't reach the light.
04:56So I climbed into bed myself.
04:58If I fell asleep, the pain would stop.
05:00I always got through it this way before.
05:02But this time, my tummy hurt so much.
05:05I copied how Mom fed Olivia.
05:07I gently patted my swollen belly.
05:09Please stop hurting.
05:10It's your fault Mom thinks I'm bad.
05:12But it didn't listen.
05:13It hurt even more.
05:14So when Mom scolds me for being bad, does it hurt her this much too?
05:19Tears dropped down.
05:20I'm sorry Mom.
05:21It's my fault for being bad.
05:22I made you hurt so many times.
05:24My head started hurting too.
05:26I wiped the sweat off my head.
05:28It was sticky.
05:29I remembered last time.
05:31Mom locked me out because of grease on my clothes.
05:33I panicked and tried to wipe my face clean.
05:35But the sweat wouldn't come off.
05:37I felt colder and colder.
05:39Even under the blankets, I shivered.
05:41Slowly, I got so, so tired.
05:43I fell completely asleep.
05:46When I opened my eyes again, my tummy didn't hurt at all.
05:49I started jumping around happily.
05:51My body went right through the locked door.
05:54I saw Mom and Dad just got back.
05:56Mom was feeding Olivia sweet potato.
05:58Olivia, one more bite.
06:00Okay.
06:00Olivia turned her head away.
06:02No, no.
06:03It makes me sick.
06:04Mom sighed.
06:05Her brow was tight.
06:06I reached up to smooth it.
06:08But my little hand couldn't touch Mom.
06:10I slowly realized, I think I died.
06:13Just like the kitten Olivia killed.
06:15Olivia begged to buy that kitten.
06:18But a few days later, she said the poop was gross.
06:21Mom gave me the job of taking care of it.
06:23I didn't mind the kitten's mess at all.
06:25Every day after training, I changed her water and filled her food.
06:28After a while, the kitten let me pet her.
06:30She even acted cute with me.
06:32With her around, I wasn't sad anymore that Mom and Dad only saw Olivia.
06:36Okay, I lied.
06:37I was still a little sad.
06:39Just a little bit.
06:40When Olivia saw the kitten liked me more, she grabbed it from my arms.
06:44The kitten meowed in fear.
06:46That night, Mom's face was really dark.
06:48After Olivia got her shots, the kitten hid under the bed, too scared to come out.
06:53I knelt in front of Mom.
06:54I cried and said sorry to the kitten.
06:56But Mom said animals that hurt people can't stay.
06:59She said I had no heart.
07:01Is your sister's safety less important than a mean animal?
07:04I cried and said it's different.
07:06Olivia has Mom and Dad's love.
07:08The kitten only has me.
07:10If I can't protect her, no one will.
07:12Mom said I was being impossible.
07:14She had Dad tie me up with a belt.
07:16She grabbed the kitten and brought it to Olivia.
07:18She let Olivia do whatever she wanted.
07:20I fought so hard, but I could only watch the kitten get killed.
07:24I cried until my voice was gone.
07:26But Mom only cared that Olivia ate three more bites today.
07:30And Dad only cared about Mom's mood.
07:32When the kitten died, at least I was sad.
07:35But when I died, no one cared at all.
07:39Dad put toys on the sofa.
07:41He had a sweet potato too.
07:43He knocked on my door.
07:44Emma, are you asleep?
07:45Dad brought you something good.
07:47My big sister was playing with a Barbie.
07:49She jumped off her chair.
07:50She whined at Mom.
07:51Mom, I want the sweet rye Dad has.
07:54Mom was glad she wanted to eat.
07:56She swapped sweet potatoes with Dad.
07:58Mom watched Olivia take bite after bite.
08:00Her eyes got red and teary.
08:02Maybe because Mom couldn't see me, I yelled out loud.
08:05I hate my sister the most!
08:08She always takes my stuff.
08:09Even when there are two same things, she thinks mine is better.
08:13Mom even thinks Dad bought me something better.
08:15So every time, I get what my sister didn't want.
08:18The leftovers she ate.
08:19Even my dresses and shoes are her old ones.
08:22Thinking about this, I let out a big sigh.
08:25Mom always says,
08:26I'm jealous you are young, with no worries.
08:29But I have so many worries.
08:32Mom says my sister doesn't have her real dad.
08:34So she has to love my sister twice as much.
08:37My real dad says we have to be nice to my sister too.
08:40He says he's a stepdad.
08:42So he has to treat everyone the same.
08:44Otherwise, the wolf pack will gossip.
08:47Both my parents say, be nice to my sister.
08:49They tell me over and over to be nice to her too.
08:52I count on my fingers.
08:54Five is smaller than eight.
08:56So why does five-year-old me have to give in to eight-year-old her?
09:00Then I noticed Dad was still at my door.
09:02Mom got mad.
09:03Didn't I say we're starving her all day?
09:05If you go soft on her, you're sleeping in the studio tonight!
09:08Dad didn't say anything.
09:10He called my name again.
09:12Still no answer from me.
09:13I floated next to him.
09:15I said over and over,
09:16I am right here.
09:18But he couldn't hear me.
09:19He muttered,
09:20Why is this cub so angry?
09:21Mom was even prouder.
09:22See?
09:23I was right.
09:24That Emma is so ungrateful.
09:26I locked her in for only three hours.
09:28And she already ignores you on purpose.
09:31If she grows up like this,
09:32who knows how rebellious she'll get.
09:34Not like our Olivia.
09:36So obedient and smart.
09:38My sister lifted her chin proudly.
09:40She quickly swallowed her food.
09:41I watched Mom feed my sister.
09:43I was so jealous.
09:45Mom never fed me.
09:46Mom says I already have a dad.
09:48So she has to give more of her love to my sister.
09:51She's busy cooking for my sister.
09:53Busy taking her to practice.
09:55Busy taking her to the doctor.
09:56I got handed over to the neighbor lady.
09:58After a while,
09:59the other cubs made fun of me.
10:01No dad ever picks you up?
10:02I frowned and yelled back that they were wrong.
10:05Not only does no dad pick me up,
10:07Mom never picks me up either!
10:09When I got a bit older,
10:10I learned to eat by myself.
10:12But my sister said she wanted to feed me.
10:14The food was too hot.
10:16The spoon hurt my tongue.
10:17My belly was so full it hurt.
10:19But every time I mentioned this,
10:20Mom said I was being a baby.
10:22Just eat more.
10:24She said that would make my sister happy.
10:26And if my sister felt better,
10:28her eating disorder would get better too.
10:30Once her sickness was gone,
10:31Mom said she would have time to love me.
10:33But I waited and waited.
10:35That day never came.
10:37At night,
10:38after my sister fell asleep,
10:40Mom went into the kitchen.
10:41She made a bowl of meat soup.
10:43Then she knocked on my door.
10:45Emma,
10:45are you hungry?
10:47Mom sighed.
10:48During the day,
10:49I lost my temper.
10:51Sorry,
10:52I didn't mean it,
10:53but...
10:53Mom didn't finish her sentence.
10:55She left the soup at the door.
10:56If you're hungry,
10:58come out and eat.
10:59This was Mom's second time making meat soup.
11:01The first time I ate it,
11:03it was so good.
11:04Even my sister couldn't get that special soup.
11:07Mom only made her spicy jerky
11:09and peppered steak.
11:10What a shame.
11:11I can never eat Mom's cooking again.
11:13The next morning,
11:14Mom saw the spilled soup.
11:16She got furious.
11:17Emma,
11:18how long will you keep this up?
11:20I apologized yesterday.
11:22You're so young.
11:23Why hold such a grudge?
11:24I tried to explain it wasn't me.
11:26My sister knocked it over on purpose.
11:28But Mom couldn't hear me.
11:30She got angrier
11:31and pushed the door open.
11:33My sister just finished brushing her teeth.
11:35She followed.
11:36In the morning light,
11:37my sister pointed at the red stain.
11:39Mom,
11:40Emma sneaked ketchup in her room.
11:42She's so bad.
11:43Then she pointed at the blanket with a bump.
11:45Mom,
11:46look.
11:46She's hiding because she's guilty.
11:49With every word,
11:50Mom's face got worse.
11:51She didn't even bother to wake me up.
11:53She took my sister's hand and said,
11:55Don't be like your sister.
11:57She was born a little monster.
12:00My sister happily shook her head.
12:02I won't be like Emma.
12:04She's a piggy.
12:05To punish me,
12:06Mom went shopping all day.
12:08But she didn't know I was right behind her.
12:12I listened to her brag to the sales clerk.
12:14She said her older daughter is so good,
12:16but the younger one is rebellious.
12:18She always wants to compete for attention.
12:20The sales clerk said it'll get better when she grows up.
12:23Mom thought so too.
12:24So even though all the bags were full of my sister's clothes,
12:27she finally bought me a new pair of leather shoes.
12:31But the wolf pack celebration was long over.
12:33Back then,
12:34I wore sandals that kept falling off.
12:36The other kids called me a trash picker.
12:38Now,
12:38even with new shoes,
12:40I don't want them.
12:41When my sister came home from school,
12:42she covered her nose and screamed,
12:44Mom,
12:45it stinks in here.
12:46She sniffed around like she meant it.
12:49Then she pointed at my room.
12:50Emma must have pooped her pants.
12:52Mom walked over holding the new shoes.
12:55She saw my room really was the source of the smell.
12:58She got so mad,
12:59she threw the shoes aside.
13:00My sister took the chance to stomp on them a few times.
13:03Mom yelled through the door.
13:05Emma,
13:06don't you know to go to the bathroom?
13:08Do you have to make such a mess at home
13:10just so I can clean up after you?
13:12Again,
13:13only silence answered her.
13:15Not talking, huh?
13:16Mom angrily pushed the door open.
13:18A weird smell came from the bed.
13:20The stench made Mom's eyes water.
13:23How did I end up with such a dirty daughter?
13:25She ran to my bed and ripped off the blanket,
13:28but what she saw made her freeze in shock.
13:31The pink sheets were covered in dried blood.
13:34I was on the bed with my back to her,
13:36curled up in a ball.
13:37Mom's heart suddenly started racing.
13:39She looked down to avoid it,
13:40but the rug on the floor was also covered in blood.
13:43Her head was buzzing.
13:44Didn't Olivia say it was just spilled ketchup?
13:47Mom didn't have time to think.
13:48She looked back at me on the bed.
13:50Emma,
13:51don't sleep.
13:52You said you wanted new leather shoes,
13:53right?
13:54Mom got them for you.
13:56But it's me on the bed.
13:58Even if I'm dead,
13:59it's still me.
14:00Why would a mom be scared of her own cub?
14:02I'm not scared of dead kittens at all.
14:04Dad buried a kitten with me by the big tree.
14:06He said when I grow up,
14:07the kitten will come back.
14:09Now I'm dead.
14:10I'll probably come back to mom someday,
14:12but I kind of don't want to come back.
14:14In this house,
14:15no one likes me except that kitten.
14:17My nose got tingly again.
14:19Luckily,
14:19this time I was strong and didn't cry.
14:21If mom knew,
14:22she'd probably praise me,
14:23right?
14:24While mom was zoning out,
14:25my sister hid the dirty shoes under the couch.
14:28She also took a bite of the cake mom just bought.
14:30After doing all that,
14:31she slowly walked into my room.
14:33Mom,
14:34did Emma poop her pants?
14:36Punish her.
14:37She's five years old and still poops her pants.
14:40How embarrassing.
14:43Just then,
14:44dad came home.
14:45He frowned.
14:46What's that smell?
14:50Did the toilet break?
14:53Dad changed into his slippers.
14:55He saw the shopping bags on the sofa.
14:57He was confused.
14:58Didn't mom come back?
14:59Why didn't she answer him?
15:00My sister heard the noise and ran out of my room.
15:03Dad saw her and picked her up for a spin.
15:05Olivia,
15:06did you eat well today?
15:07I ate a whole bowl of meat soup.
15:10My teacher praised me.
15:11Right.
15:12Kids need to eat big bites.
15:14Dad happily tapped her nose.
15:15Look at your sister.
15:17She eats so well.
15:18That's why she's so energetic.
15:20How's mom feeling now?
15:21Is she still mad at Emma?
15:23Emma snuck ketchup and got it everywhere.
15:26She also pooped in her room and made the whole house stink.
15:28Dad put my sister down and quickly walked to my room.
15:32Charlotte,
15:32Emma is still little.
15:34Don't be mad.
15:35I'll call a cleaner later.
15:37As soon as he stepped into my room,
15:38he held his breath.
15:39Seeing mom just standing there,
15:41dad worriedly patted her.
15:42Mom turned around blankly,
15:44her eyes red.
15:45Dad spoke awkwardly.
15:47I know you're mad,
15:48but
15:48Emma is still little.
15:50She was locked in her room all day.
15:52It makes sense she went on herself.
15:54If you're tired,
15:55go rest.
15:56I'll change Emma's clothes.
15:57Dad thought mom was too mad to even talk,
16:00so he decided to act first.
16:02Emma,
16:02don't sleep.
16:03Go to the bathroom and change your clothes.
16:05Take a bath.
16:07Even little cubs need to be clean.
16:08I didn't move at all on the bed.
16:11Feeling how cold my skin was,
16:14dad endured the stench
16:15and gradually frowned.
16:16He sat on the edge of the bed.
16:18He turned me over.
16:19I was curled up in a ball.
16:22Emma,
16:23wake,
16:23wake up.
16:25The weather is warm now.
16:27Why is your body still so cold?
16:29Dad couldn't finish his sentence.
16:31He quickly put me back on the bed.
16:33My stiff body bounced a few times.
16:36My sister was bored on the couch.
16:38She didn't hear me cry or scream,
16:40so she came to my room again.
16:42Mom and dad ignored her.
16:44My sister climbed onto my bed.
16:46She pushed me hard.
16:47Emma,
16:48why are you still sleeping?
16:52Mom,
16:53dad,
16:53tell her off.
16:54She's lazy,
16:55messy,
16:56and doesn't like to study.
16:58Usually,
16:58after my sister said that,
17:00mom would frown and scold me.
17:01But this time,
17:02mom stayed quiet.
17:04Instead,
17:04dad picked me up and ran out.
17:06Dad will take you to the priest right now.
17:10Mom finally snapped out of it.
17:11She grabbed her bag
17:12and followed dad.
17:17As for my sister,
17:18mom left her with the neighbor.
17:20Even though my sister cried
17:21and said she wanted to come,
17:23mom still said no.
17:26The priest's healing hut.
17:28Dad ran straight to the back room.
17:30Where's the priest?
17:31Somebody come quick!
17:32The wolf priest stood up.
17:34He told dad to put me on the bed.
17:36Dad did it right away.
17:37The priest touched my cold little hand.
17:40He frowned.
17:41How do you take care of your cub?
17:43In the dead of winter,
17:44you put her in just thin pajamas?
17:46My fault.
17:47Dad wiped his forehead.
17:48Priest,
17:48please save my cub.
17:49The priest didn't say anymore.
17:51He took out a stethoscope
17:52and started asking.
17:54What symptoms did the cub have?
17:56Or did she tell you?
17:57He stopped mid-sentence.
17:59He realized something was wrong.
18:01He gave dad a sharp,
18:03suspicious look.
18:04The body is already cold.
18:05And you just brought her in?
18:07Dad's head shot up.
18:08His eyes were bloodshot.
18:09What are you talking about?
18:11My daughter is just sick.
18:12What do you mean cold?
18:13You quack!
18:14Don't curse my daughter dead!
18:16Priest had seen troublemakers before,
18:18but this was the first time
18:19someone brought a dead body
18:20and asked to be saved.
18:22He stopped talking
18:23and started examining me.
18:25But as he checked deeper,
18:26his frown never went away.
18:27How did you raise this cub?
18:29From the wrecker and the spots.
18:30She's been dead for at least eight hours.
18:32As parents,
18:33didn't you notice anything wrong?
18:35Mom collapsed onto the floor.
18:36She finally remembered.
18:38Last night,
18:39I was rolling in pain.
18:40But back then,
18:41Mom was sure I was faking.
18:43That I was just trying to get attention
18:44away from my sister.
18:45The priest pressed on my belly.
18:47It was swollen and hard
18:49like a little ball.
18:50I have to report this
18:50to the Wolfpack's law team.
18:52The cub's cause of death is unknown.
18:54We need a full exam.
18:55Soon,
18:55sirens went off.
18:56After Mom signed the paper,
18:58the law team elder
18:59cut open my belly.
19:00When they pulled out
19:01all the undigested food,
19:03everyone there was shocked.
19:04Two fist-sized chunks of meat,
19:06a big pile of raw lettuce,
19:08and food chunks as big as apples.
19:10She's only five.
19:11How could she eat so much?
19:13Mom still stubbornly argued back.
19:15So she ate a little more food?
19:16Nobody dies from overeating!
19:19The priest looked at her surprised.
19:21Are you the stepmother?
19:22Mom was confused.
19:24She shook her head.
19:25The priest turned to Dad.
19:27Then are you the stepfather?
19:28Dad shook his head, pale.
19:29The priest's eyes were full of pain.
19:31If you're the real parents,
19:33how don't you know
19:33a five-year-old's appetite?
19:34Her stomach shows
19:35it was overloaded
19:36for a long time.
19:38The cause of death
19:39is gastric rupture
19:40from acute stomach expansion.
19:42He looked at Mom and Dad
19:43with disappointment.
19:44Normally,
19:45even if someone sleeps deeply,
19:48stomach pain
19:48forces them to stay awake
19:50before she died.
19:51Didn't she show pain
19:52or ask you for help?
19:54Dad's pupils shrink.
19:56Emma told me.
19:57She said there were bugs
19:58biting her belly.
20:00I thought she was
20:01just talking nonsense, so...
20:03The priest got so mad,
20:05he forgot their ranks.
20:06He punched Dad in the face.
20:08So that's why you didn't
20:10take your own daughter
20:11to a doctor?
20:12Do you know that
20:13after the stomach ruptures,
20:14acidic stomach fluid
20:15keeps burning her insides?
20:17That pain is too much
20:18for an adult,
20:19let alone a five-year-old cub.
20:22Your daughter was begging for help,
20:24and you thought she was
20:25throwing a tantrum?
20:27After hearing the priest's explanation,
20:28Mom finally realized
20:30people really can
20:31get stuck to death,
20:32and she had personally
20:34pushed her daughter
20:34toward death.
20:36Mom's tears finally fell.
20:38Priest, it's all my fault.
20:40Blame me if you want.
20:44After the questioning,
20:45Mom and Dad were let go.
20:46They wanted to take my body,
20:48but the full autopsy
20:49wasn't ready.
20:50The law team wouldn't let them,
20:52so they had to leave.
20:54On the way out,
20:55Mom looked lost.
20:56Dad, who used to wait for Mom,
20:59now walked faster.
21:00Once they left the law team building,
21:02Dad finally turned and snapped.
21:04Are you happy now?
21:07Emma is dead.
21:08No more cub will steal Olivia's love.
21:11Mom looked up in disbelief.
21:13What do you mean?
21:14You think I killed Emma?
21:16Dad's eyes were red.
21:18All these years,
21:19you ignored Emma.
21:21Your heart was full
21:22of your ex-husband's daughter.
21:26People would think
21:27you're Emma's stepmom!
21:29Dad's words were like
21:31a sharp boomerang.
21:32They hurt Mom and him too.
21:34After all,
21:35the priest also wondered
21:36if they were my step-parents.
21:38Otherwise,
21:39how could they ignore me
21:40crying in pain?
21:41They only found me
21:42when my body already stank.
21:45I sighed sadly.
21:46If only I really
21:48weren't their real daughter.
21:49Then,
21:50I wouldn't have hoped
21:51for anything from them.
21:52But Dad said
21:53I came out of Mom's belly.
21:55He was the one
21:56who cut the cord.
21:57Mom's lips trembled.
21:59She choked out.
22:00I had no choice.
22:01Both palm and back
22:02are flesh.
22:03Emma is your real daughter.
22:04Of course,
22:05most of your heart
22:06would be with her.
22:07Olivia only has me.
22:09If I don't love her more,
22:10who will?
22:10And you know
22:11Olivia has an eating disorder.
22:13Emma loves to eat.
22:15The two sisters
22:17help each other.
22:18How was I supposed to know
22:19she'd get stuck to death?
22:21The last few words
22:23were barely a whisper.
22:24Dad fell silent too.
22:26You were wrong.
22:27I was wrong too.
22:30My mistake was
22:32always taking your side
22:33to scold Emma.
22:35I always told Emma
22:37to stop throwing tantrums
22:38for this family.
22:39But I forgot
22:39she's only five.
22:41A cub who should be
22:42cherished by her family.
22:43How did we,
22:44these irresponsible parents,
22:46end up killing her?
22:48After yelling at each other,
22:50Mom and Dad went quiet.
22:51When they got home,
22:52Mom took my sister
22:53from the neighbor.
22:54The neighbor quickly
22:55handed her over.
22:56Your two cubs
22:57are so different.
22:58The older one
22:59is a little monster.
23:01She steals my cubs
23:02toys and food.
23:03Emma is so good.
23:05Every time I took her
23:06to school,
23:07she never cried.
23:08She even told me
23:09in her baby voice
23:10to remember to pick her up.
23:11Talking about me
23:12made the neighbor smile.
23:14By the way,
23:14you left in a rush.
23:15What happened to Emma?
23:17I watched her grow up.
23:19If you're busy,
23:20I can watch her for a few days.
23:22She didn't see me.
23:23She thought I was really sick.
23:24She looked worried.
23:26Hearing the neighbor praise me,
23:27I covered my face shyly,
23:29but I couldn't help
23:29lifting my chin.
23:31So in other people's eyes,
23:32I am a good girl too.
23:34I am liked too.
23:36I wish the neighbor lady
23:37were my mom.
23:38Mom wiped her tears.
23:40Emma,
23:41she died.
23:43My sister's eyes went wide.
23:45Where mom couldn't see,
23:46she smiled.
23:47Her eyes were full of joy.
23:49The neighbor couldn't believe it.
23:51She rubbed her ears.
23:54Did you say Emma is gone?
23:56I just saw her a few days ago.
23:58How can she be gone
24:00just like that?
24:01Mom covered her face and cried.
24:03After she told the whole story,
24:05the neighbor looked at her
24:05with disappointment.
24:07How could you not trust
24:08your own daughter?
24:09Emma is known as the most
24:10obedient cub in the pack.
24:11I wish I had such a good little girl.
24:14I remember once
24:15I was late picking her up.
24:16I had to buy groceries.
24:18I was half an hour late.
24:19She held my hand
24:20and didn't complain at all.
24:22My heart melted right there.
24:24I said I'd buy her jerky.
24:26You know what Emma said?
24:27She said she'd save it
24:28to share with her sister.
24:30Mom's tears fell again.
24:32But my sister got impatient.
24:34She whined for mom to go home.
24:36That broke up their talk.
24:38With my body gone,
24:39the house didn't stink anymore.
24:41Dad locked himself in the study.
24:43He didn't say a word.
24:44Mom sat on the couch
24:45and stared into space.
24:47My sister shook mom's hand.
24:51Mom, don't be sad.
24:54Your little girl is dead.
24:56But you still have me.
25:00Mom didn't hear the glee in her voice.
25:02She held my sister and cried hard.
25:05Olivia, your sister.
25:07She's never coming back.
25:09It's all mom's fault.
25:11I wasn't careful enough.
25:13My sister heard mom crying.
25:15Her eyes were full of jealousy.
25:16So she said she was hungry.
25:18Mom quickly dried her tears.
25:20She had already lost her little girl.
25:22She couldn't lose her older one either.
25:25She was in a rush.
25:27She only made my sister meat soup.
25:29But my sister thought mom was half-assing it.
25:31She frowned and knocked the bowl over.
25:35Mom, you don't love me at all.
25:38You only love my sister.
25:40You used to make me lots of good food.
25:42I don't want meat soup.
25:43Mom saw her like this and snapped back.
25:46What do you mean I only love your sister?
25:48Haven't I been good enough to you all these years?
25:50Your sister never picked on food like you do.
25:53She loves meat soup.
25:55My sister started crying hard.
25:57Nobody loves that nasty meat soup.
26:00She ran to her room crying.
26:02She said she wouldn't eat anymore.
26:04Mom was exhausted.
26:05But she started doubting what she just said.
26:08Did Emma really love meat soup?
26:10She tried hard to remember.
26:12Then she realized something sad.
26:14As a mom, she knew her older daughter hated kale.
26:17And loved spicy jerky.
26:19But her little girl?
26:21She didn't even know what her little girl liked to eat.
26:24Mom opened her phone.
26:25She scrolled through photos from bottom to top.
26:27The one who appeared the most was still my sister.
26:31At the pack's new territory.
26:32At the banquet hall.
26:34In new dresses.
26:35Getting awards at training.
26:36In every photo, my sister smiled like a flower.
26:40She stood in the most obvious center spot.
26:42She finally found a photo of me in it.
26:45But I was only in the corner.
26:47Only half my face showed.
26:49How did this happen?
26:50Her fingers shook.
26:52She tried to zoom in.
26:53But the photo was too blurry.
26:55She couldn't even see my face.
26:58Emma, what did I do to you?
27:04Mom held her chest in pain.
27:06Her throat made broken sobs.
27:08In her heart, she always thought she treated both daughters the same.
27:12Just sometimes she favored the older one.
27:15But photos don't lie.
27:17Mom finally realized she had ignored me for five whole years.
27:21The study door opened.
27:22Dad walked out with red eyes.
27:24He showed Mom a message from my teacher.
27:27Emma is a very good cub.
27:29She always shares her cookies with kids who didn't bring breakfast.
27:32She says good cubs learn to share.
27:34Like she shares her love with her sister.
27:36But Emma is too obedient.
27:38Even with food she hates, her little face scrunches up.
27:41But she still eats it.
27:43So I told her, if you don't like cabbage, you can eat spinach.
27:47Learn to say no to things that make you uncomfortable.
27:49I hope parents can teach Emma to say no.
27:54Dad let out a long, painful cry.
27:56I'm a bad dad.
27:58Even the teacher saw something wrong with Emma.
28:02But I got mad at Emma for being brave.
28:04At that moment, all the lies fell apart.
28:06Saying it was for family peace.
28:08Saying it was for my sister's illness.
28:10Those were just excuses to run from responsibility.
28:13They simply loved the other cub more.
28:15The one who whined, laughed, and begged.
28:18And ignored the quiet one.
28:20The good one.
28:21The one who always said, it's okay.
28:23Because she said, it's okay, she could be sacrificed.
28:26Because she said, it's okay, she could be ignored.
28:30Mom got up.
28:30She slowly walked into my room.
28:34On the nightstand was the picture book I hadn't finished reading last time.
28:38Mom picked it up.
28:40Inside the pages was a picture I cut out from a magazine.
28:43It showed a kitten sleeping soundly in its mom's arms.
28:47On the back, I wrote in pencil.
28:49I want mom to hold me like this too.
28:51In that moment, mom felt like she'd been stabbed.
28:54Her heart hurt so much she couldn't breathe.
28:57She clutched the picture tightly and let out a heartbroken cry.
29:00Emma, I'm sorry.
29:02It's all my fault.
29:04Mom's fault.
29:04In the empty room, only her cries echoed.
29:07If I'd noticed earlier, would you still be here with me?
29:11I floated in the air.
29:12I wanted to hug her and tell her I didn't blame her.
29:14My hand went through her body.
29:16All that was left was a faint breeze.
29:18Mom seemed to feel something.
29:19She looked up suddenly, confused.
29:21Emma?
29:22She looked all around.
29:23Is that you?
29:24Mom stood up in a panic.
29:25Emma, if you're still here, give me a sign.
29:28Even just a little sound, please.
29:30Her eyes were full of hope, but she couldn't hear me, even though I just wanted to say,
29:34I love you, mom.
29:36After a long time, the hope in mom's eyes faded.
29:38They went dead again.
29:39She hung her head in despair.
29:41She laughed at herself.
29:42I'm the one who killed you.
29:43You must hate me.
29:45Why would you ever answer me?
29:47After pulling herself together, mom noticed the shoes were gone.
29:51She searched the whole living room.
29:54She found them under the couch.
29:57Dad shook his head.
29:58He said it wasn't him, so that was only left.
30:01Mom thought it might be my sister.
30:03A bad feeling grew in her heart.
30:05Dad thought the same thing.
30:06He forgot about being a good husband.
30:08He used a key to open my sister's locked door.
30:11Right there, he saw my sister eating jerky in big bites.
30:14She looked nothing like someone with an eating disorder.
30:17My sister quickly hid the jerky under her blanket.
30:19Out of habit, she tried to blame me.
30:21Mom, I didn't eat jerky.
30:23Emma did.
30:24Right after she said it, her face showed regret.
30:26I was already dead.
30:27Dead people can't sneak food.
30:29Mom immediately thought of the last jerky incident.
30:32Her face went cold.
30:33She asked,
30:34Last time?
30:35Were you the one eating jerky and blaming it on Emma?
30:39My sister forced herself to say no.
30:42Mom asked again.
30:42Aren't you?
30:43My sister finally broke down and admitted it.
30:46I only ate a little.
30:48Mom, didn't you say I can eat anything I want?
30:52My sister cried and reached for mom's hand,
30:54but mom pushed her away hard.
30:55That's different.
30:57You can eat whatever you want because you have an eating disorder.
31:00I wish you would eat more.
31:04But Olivia, tell me the truth.
31:06Is your eating disorder real?
31:08My sister tried to lie again,
31:10but mom's eyes were too scary.
31:11So scary that my sister didn't dare lie.
31:14She cried and admitted it was all fake.
31:16It's all fake.
31:18I just wanted mom to care about me more.
31:22Emma was stealing mom's love from me.
31:25Only by faking sick would mom love me with all her heart.
31:28My sister sobbed out the truth.
31:30Mom kept pushing.
31:30Then why did you force your sister to eat?
31:33If she got fat, she'd be ugly.
31:35Mom and dad would only love pretty me.
31:38Mom, don't be mad.
31:39I won't lie to you again.
31:41My sister's face turned blue from crying.
31:43She could barely breathe.
31:45She reached out for a hug,
31:46but mom was so shocked by the truth,
31:48she kept stepping back.
31:49She never thought of the daughter she gave up everything in the divorce.
31:52Could be so cruel.
31:54Dad raised his fist to hit my sister.
31:57Dad's fist stopped in midair.
31:59It hit the couch instead.
32:01He looked down at mom.
32:02After Emma's funeral, let's get a divorce.
32:04His voice was hoarse.
32:06Mom sent my sister back to her ex-partner's home.
32:09My sister cried and begged,
32:10but it didn't matter.
32:12Just like when I cried and begged mom to save me,
32:14all alone,
32:15no one to help.
32:16The grave was on a hillside.
32:18The wind was strong.
32:20Mom put on the little leather shoes in front of the tombstone.
32:23She fell to her knees.
32:25Dad stood nearby.
32:26His face was covered in tears.
32:28He touched my name on the stone.
32:29His fingertips were cold.
32:31Baby, I'm sorry.
32:32Dad was wrong.
32:34Dad was wrong.
32:36If there's a next life,
32:38don't be our daughter.
32:40Find a family that truly loves you.
32:43Be the treasure in their hands.
32:44Don't meet us again.
32:47Don't suffer like this anymore.
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