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Call the Midwife - Season 15 - Episode 05
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00:26The Ordinary Seldon
00:29The Ordinary Seldon
01:00Ah, tea, best drink of the day
01:06Fetch a packet of Eccles Cakes
01:12Cyril's back from his conference today
01:15So I've ordered in his guardian
01:17Fred, there's water coming out of the ceiling
01:20Oh, flippity bit
01:28It's one minute past
01:30Sorry, no screen
01:31It's my fault
01:32I went to see if there was any post
01:34And we've had a card from Sister Veronica in Hong Kong
01:38The post on a sterile surface
01:44Christopher doing nicely
01:46New hibiscus clinic thriving
01:48Sister Hilda in her element
01:51Element underlined
01:53We may now turn our attention to the particularly trying day we have ahead
01:58Do we really have to move clinic to the annex at St Cuthbert?
02:02The Board of Health have given us no notice
02:04Dr Turner has tried his utmost
02:06But there's been no reprieve
02:08I know that annex
02:09The screens and equipment are totally inadequate
02:11We'll be taking our own accoutrements
02:13Don't you worry
02:15Meanwhile, we do have both
02:17Nurse Sailwood and Nurse Clifford coming back today
02:20Will you get a chance to go to bed this morning
02:22And catch up on some sleep?
02:24No
02:25I'm going to meet Miss Higgins
02:27And try and lick these new arrangements into shape
02:30You do have to wonder what it all bodes
02:38I keep thinking about how we counted
02:40Every step all the way to the top of York Minster
02:43And now I'm counting every step all the way back to your front door
02:46In Lenata's house
02:48Because there are hardly any left before it's over
02:52It was a beautiful view from the top of York Minster
02:55And nothing is over
02:58It felt like another beginning, didn't it?
03:01Yes, it did
03:04Let's go and make another cup of coffee
03:06Before we go back to the ordinary world
03:08You think it wraps Mr Buckley?
03:11Nasty, greedy things
03:12Niner things with their incisors
03:14This leg pipe
03:16If they know that, they'd get poisoned
03:18I want them poisoned
03:19I use this flat for prayer meeting
03:21It's not rats
03:22It's just
03:23The soldiers perished
03:25It's not tissue paper
03:26This, Fred
03:31Hang on
03:33Look
03:34I reckon you need to pull all these out
03:37Refit it
03:38We're proper plastic
03:39I just put something on our new house
03:41Did you hear?
03:42We're moving back to Poplar
03:43Moss Street
03:44Oh, Waltham still didn't rain long then
03:46No
03:47Never mind your geographical teacher
03:49This young man is wheezing like a creaking gate
03:53Hey, use your inhaler
03:54Son, it's alright
03:55He just gets like this every time we pull up floorboards
03:57He's alright
04:03Hello, Mrs Waddis
04:05Fred
04:06What's all this?
04:08Greetings, Pastor Robinson
04:10And greetings, Rosalie
04:12You didn't see the plumber's van outside?
04:16Perhaps your mind was on other matters
04:24Good afternoon, Miss Figgins
04:26I've been sent to hold the fort while you're at the clinic
04:28Master Timothy Turner
04:31Or
04:32Should that be Doctor?
04:34A little bird informed me
04:36That a certain set of examinations
04:38Have not only been passed
04:40But passed with flying colours
04:41Yes
04:42That pen you gave me
04:44Stood me in very good stead
04:47Of course, I won't be writing any prescriptions out with it
04:50Until I'm formally qualified
04:51All good things will happen in time
05:03Mrs Hennessy
05:04We discussed the merits and demerits of peanut butter jars last week
05:08Leave your sample with me
05:10And if you cannot find a seat, you make you against the wall
05:15I'll be extra alert for signs of protein in that one
05:19And diabetes in the rosehip syrup bottle
05:25Honestly, Aisha
05:25I'm still a bit full from our lunch
05:29Feed mother, feed baby
05:32Maybe I'll just nibble on one
05:33While I'm waiting
05:34Ruth can?
05:36Oh, hello, Ruth, dear
05:38I'm sorry we're still finding our feet in our new location
05:41Sister Julianne will see you behind the screens in the far corner
05:46I come
05:46I have to go in on my own
05:48You know the drill
05:58Is there somewhere I can put this?
05:59Um, a paper towel, perhaps
06:02I was thinking more like the bin
06:08I love this sort of food
06:09But my mum-in-law keeps trying to feed me
06:10And I'm not that hungry
06:11We do advise small, frequent meals
06:15At this stage of the pregnancy
06:19Nurse Crane said that in mothercraft class
06:21I had to translate it for my mother-in-law
06:23And I think she only heard frequent
06:27I don't think it'll be too long before baby puts in an appearance
06:30Have we delivered the whole birth pack to you yet?
06:33No
06:34I'm so glad I'm having it in my own bed
06:36Babies are born at home in my husband's tradition
06:38And I was born at home with Nunata's nuns
06:41So it's something that sort of makes us the same
06:44I'll put by tomorrow with the pack
06:46And then we'll be all prepared
07:00Kindly desist forthwith
07:02Those cards contain confidential medical information
07:05I work for the National Health Service
07:08In which case I should not need to point out the proprietors
07:13I'm starting to think we were moved here for a reason
07:16Now we're on National Health premises
07:18Can't they just breeze in at will?
07:20It's the thin end of the wedge
07:21If they want information about our district cases
07:24Then they should put in a formal request
07:26The administrator claims they can demand access without notice
07:30But as we have previously discussed
07:33We are under no obligation to do everything they ask
07:41I'm not sure she's any nearer to deciding
07:43Whether to accept the new rules or close Nunata's house
07:46Sheila, if she delays any longer it won't be up to her
07:50And what happens after that will happen to us all
07:54Are you not partaking in pudding, sister?
08:00Can it be preserved?
08:01I find my appetite does not keep the hours that once it did
08:07I will put some foil on it
08:11Standard of cakes has gone right down
08:13While sister Veronica's been away
08:16This is the second time this week I've made a sponge so bad
08:19We've had to pour custard on it
08:21You pour away?
08:22Custard's one of the things I miss most when I'm in America
08:24Is there anything else you yearn for whilst you are overseas?
08:28I could be flippant and say lemon curd and electric kettles
08:32But above all else I miss the respect for midwifery we're so used to over here
08:38May I suggest we turn our attention to the matter of St. Raymond's feast day
08:44There will be the usual Eucharist in the chapel in the morning
08:47And then I thought as the holiday falls on a bank holiday Monday
08:52A strawberry tea might be appropriate
08:58Thank you
08:59Good evening Mrs. Barrelman
09:01Now you look like a woman on a mission
09:04I'm a woman in search of comestibles
09:08My Ivan and his family, they're moving house tomorrow
09:10So I'm going to christen the kitchen by making their tea
09:14Ivan did me a favour and a half this morning
09:17Sorting the burst pipe inside an hour
09:21Have you got any luncheon meat?
09:24At the bottom left dear, next to the soap powder
09:27Oh
09:30I'm going to take three tins
09:32Oh, I hope you're planning fritters
09:34There's nothing like the smell of frying to make a house a home
09:38Yeah well all I can smell at the moment is wet paint and plaster dust
09:41Still, it's on a better bus route
09:44Now Suzanne's got into the grammar school
09:47Gran, they've got rulers and protractors
09:49Grammar school
09:50Well let's hope this is the beginning of great things for you
09:54Pick yourself out a rubber, I'll let you have it half-pruffs
09:57Oh
10:05Last orders for Ovaltine
10:14I can't drink anything
10:15My face is lathered in complexion food
10:19Why didn't you come down and join us in the parlour?
10:22I can't seem to settle Phyllis
10:24I knew this constant to-ing and fro-ing would have you all frayed around the edges
10:29I wish I was the only thing that was frayed
10:34My marriage isn't exactly thriving under the current conditions
10:40Are you spending too much time apart?
10:42We're certainly not doing enough together
10:46He has his business interests and I have this
10:51You say that as though this weren't enough
10:54Won't be enough for anybody if it all comes to an end
10:58If you know more than you're cracking on Trixie then that's your business and I'm not going to press you
11:05But there's been a sword of Damocles hanging over Ninata's house for almost as long as I've been here
11:11And we've always lived to fight another day
11:14And deliver another baby
11:20Things have been changing all the time haven't they?
11:22Yes
11:24And we're still here
11:28Though I can't answer for your epidermis if you leave that face back on much longer
11:40Midwife calling?
11:44You're welcome
11:52You've certainly got everything and everyone organised Ruth
11:56Deal was well on his way up the ladder at the factory
11:59But he had to start out as a government presser
12:01A good manager must have experience of every department
12:04This not management, this woman's work
12:09It is alright isn't it? The flat?
12:11The flat is spotlessly clean
12:14And this is clearly a home full of love
12:17I inspect for that too
12:20It's much more important
12:21You wouldn't have found that in the house I grew up in
12:25My mum ran off and left us when I was eight
12:29And my dad hardly knew what to do with us
12:36Please?
12:41We...
12:41Wanted to ask you something, sister
12:46Can Dilwa stay with me when the baby's born?
12:50That of course
12:53I want it because I do not want Ruth to be afraid
12:56And I won't be if Dilwa's with me
13:01Mag!
13:02I found the tomato sauce
13:04What was it?
13:05Within the tea chest for the bedding!
13:07No!
13:09Susie, you'll have to go on the camp bed until that new mattress is delivered
13:13You know what I mean for us?
13:15Oh, she'd be like lunch and meat apparently
13:18It means you don't like your cooking
13:21Hey!
13:23Stop!
13:25Give her some more sauce
13:30Thank you for wanting to be with me
13:33I don't want to be outside the door
13:35Waiting for my mother to come out and tell me how you're doing
13:38At least that's not going to happen now
13:40The mother is always in the room with the mother
13:43I do everything I can to respect your customs, Dilwa
13:48We are
13:48But if we don't do some things our way
13:51We aren't going to know who we are
13:54Please
13:55Don't let her in the room
14:08Oh, Suzanne love
14:09I need you to go to the phone box and ring the doctor
14:13It's dark
14:14The phone hasn't been connected and nobody else is well enough to go
14:17Paul's still in the outside lab and his asthma's bad
14:20The operator will help you find the number
14:22Put your coat and shoes on
14:27Ivan?
14:29Can you let me in?
14:31Why? Why me?
14:41Just keep puffing on it as often as you feel you need to
14:45The stress of the vomiting has aggravated your asthma
14:48I'm hoping that's fair enough
14:49You know, I haven't worn the old porcelain turban like that in years
14:53I know it's tough, but if it is something you've all eaten
14:57Then the best thing is to let your body clear itself of the poison
15:00I know my mum's cooking a glitters in here
15:03You're shivering Ivan
15:05I can see your goosebumps from here
15:08You can take paracetamol for fever
15:12Lovely
15:13Then go to bed
15:14And keep yourselves warm
15:17T's up
15:18And Suzanne's busy putting water beside your beds
15:20You're a bit overqualified to be a waiter, aren't you?
15:24Chip off the old bloke, eh?
15:25Nothing like a lad following in his father's footsteps
15:29Paul's working with Ivan now
15:31They did half the renovations to this house
15:33All mod cons
15:34Send to Eaton if you please
15:36Put it on if need be
15:39This is going to seem like a bad dream by tomorrow tea time
15:45Bill Wong!
15:48Shh!
15:49They must beeping
15:53You, you sit, you sit
15:59I need him to go to the telephone box and ring the Nartis house Aisha
16:05I telephone, you sit, you rest
16:11Are you heading out already?
16:12Angela and I are practising our bus route for the grammar school
16:16She's a bit worried about the change at the top of the commercial road
16:19It'll soon become second nature
16:21Aren't you wearing your blazer to get you in the mood?
16:24It's a rehearsal, not a dress rehearsal
16:32They should put you two on the television
16:34It's like watching a dance routine
16:35London Palladium, here we come
16:38Let's get you into the bed, honey
16:48Hello, I'm...
16:49Are you the lady who's about to become a grandma?
16:51Yes!
16:53Tell her
16:56Go!
16:57Mother, go!
17:02Mother!
17:03Mother!
17:03Do you have a baby?
17:05Mother!
17:07Mother!
17:09Mother!
17:09Mother!
17:10Mother!
17:11Mother!
17:15Mother!
17:16Mother!
17:17Mother!
17:20Is it because of Paul's asthma that you're making a return visit?
17:24He was the one that worried me
17:27But everyone in the house is affected apart from Suzanne
17:31Which makes them vulnerable
17:40The bedroom curtains are still drawn
17:57Doctor calling?
17:59Doctor calling?
18:02Mother!
18:06Mother!
18:08Mother!
18:08Mother!
18:11Mother!
18:12Mother!
18:12I've stopped being sick
18:14I've used up nearly all my inhaler
18:16My head's splitting
18:18You're dehydrated, which won't help
18:19Are your parents upstairs?
18:22I haven't come down yet
18:26No!
18:28I'm stuck!
18:29I'm stuck!
18:30I can't get out!
18:31Ruth
18:32You're nearly there
18:34It's just all happened so fast
18:36You've hardly had a chance to catch your breath
18:38Listen to the message, Ruth
18:40You know what I should be doing
18:43Well, you obviously do
18:46That's it, Ruth
18:47Keep pushing
18:48Just like that
18:49Your wife's a quick learner
18:51Help!
18:57Mr. Barrowman?
19:00Mrs. Barrowman?
19:02Dr. Turner's going to come up and see you in a minute
19:45Dad?
19:47Dad?
19:49No!
19:54No!
19:58No!
19:59It's it, Tonya!
20:00You've been a little...
20:01It's a boy
20:03No!
20:03No!
20:04No!
20:06No!
20:08No!
20:08No!
20:09No!
20:10No!
20:12No!
20:13No!
20:14No!
20:16No!
20:17No!
20:19No!
20:23No!
20:25No!
20:26No!
20:27No!
20:29No!
20:29You've given me a son
20:44No pulse, no pupil reflexes.
20:51You poor little love.
20:59I think Mr Barrowman has gone too.
21:06First, we need an ambulance for Paul. He's in respiratory distress.
21:11And then we need to call the police.
21:17I've gone a bit faint.
21:26Deep breaths.
21:29Then we need to get you outside.
21:32I think I know what this is.
21:36Why can't I go back inside?
21:38Look, you're to sit on the pavement and wait for the ambulance to arrive.
21:41I'll wait with you.
21:42Where's my mum and my dad? I can't go to hospital without them knowing.
21:48Dr Turner's in charge of everything that's happening inside.
21:52It's not an ambulance. It's a police car.
22:02Is this bad?
22:03Not necessarily, but the placenta should have come away by now.
22:07We don't want you to go to hospital, honey.
22:09I don't either.
22:11I think you may have a full bladder and sometimes that gets in the way.
22:15If you can pass water, that may help.
22:17I'll get you a bedpan.
22:19Can we have it ladies only for that bit?
22:23I think you've seen enough for one day.
22:33I hear your wife cry and I cry.
22:36I hear the baby cry and I cry.
22:40Why are you speaking in English?
22:43Think like an Englishman.
22:45You understand like an Englishman.
22:47Ruth has just given birth.
22:50It was not easy.
22:52It's not easy now.
22:54Not easy.
22:56Because she need mother.
23:00A mother has known her pain.
23:03Mother gives ease.
23:06Mother gives peace.
23:08Husband can't give that.
23:10She wanted me there.
23:13All is well that ends well.
23:15Ruth passed water and then the afterbirth.
23:21It's not for you to even hear such things.
23:26We have a young man.
23:28Asthmatic.
23:30Dehydrated from food poisoning and suspected exposure to carbon monoxide.
23:34Where's my mum and dad and my sister?
23:37Stay with him.
23:38Keep him on an even keel.
23:43No.
23:45I tell you.
23:46There is nothing like a cream horn after a successful delivery.
23:50I'm more of a custard tart girl really.
23:54Honey.
23:55What are you fretting about?
23:58Mrs Wallace phoned Cyril last night and she wants to speak to him about his conduct and also his conscience.
24:04Are you surprised?
24:07He's a pastor who walks into his flat, which is also his church, with a woman who is not his
24:13wife carrying bags from a weekend away.
24:16And bumps into the principal elder.
24:18I had hoped you'd tell me not to worry.
24:21That's not what friends are for.
24:28Where's my grandson?
24:30It's through there.
24:31He's resting and receiving oxygen.
24:34I could come in with you if you'd like that.
24:37What I'd like is to have my son and my daughter-in-law and my granddaughter still alive.
24:43I'd like them to have seen a competent doctor who hadn't tucked them into their deathbeds with kind words and
24:50no action.
24:54Oh no.
24:56Oh no.
25:09Three deaths in one family.
25:11Miss Higgins says if the statements are signed she'll deal with them immediately.
25:17I don't think I've ever had to do harder paperwork than this.
25:22Oh, age eleven.
25:26She might have been in Angela's class.
25:30I told them to go to bed and keep warm.
25:36And when we found them, her little hand was hardly cold at all.
25:52You're a good man, Pastor Robinson.
25:55And you're doing a good job navigating this church through some very choppy waters.
26:00But you haven't come here to tell me what I'm doing well.
26:04Have you, Mrs. Wallace?
26:06No. I have not.
26:09I have come here to tell you that you're compromising your position.
26:13And you're compromising that young girl.
26:16Nobody at church knows you went away together.
26:18Nobody at church?
26:20You don't think the almighty got a church?
26:23The almighty see everything.
26:26And what's more, he knows his way to York Minster.
26:31I'm sorry, Mrs. Wallace.
26:35We are modern people.
26:37Living in a modern world.
26:39Wrestling with some very modern problems.
26:43But sometimes, Pastor Robinson,
26:46the best way of protecting ourselves and those we love,
26:52is by being a little bit old fashioned.
26:55You understand?
26:57Because I require you to understand.
27:05How?
27:06I mean, how?
27:08Was it the food my Nan cooked?
27:10Paul, everything is going to have to be reviewed by the coroner.
27:15Ultimately, they will pronounce a verdict.
27:17I don't need a verdict.
27:18I just need to know.
27:21Because if I don't know, I can't believe they're dead.
27:28Paul, from what the lab tests tell us,
27:32the food your Nan cooked probably made you all ill.
27:35But that's a simple case of bacteria with the tinned meat.
27:41Not her fault at all.
27:44Suzanne never had any, anyway.
27:48Yesterday, I suspected that the problem was carbon monoxide poisoning.
27:58And now the post-mortem have said exactly the same thing.
28:04The signs are clear and unmistakable.
28:07It's in the air, isn't it? Carbon monoxide?
28:09Only in very small amounts.
28:12When there's too much, it becomes very dangerous.
28:16Why would there be too much?
28:19If a heating system develops problems.
28:22It was a brand new boiler.
28:24My dad fitted himself.
28:35Oh.
28:38I helped him, Dr Turner.
28:42Oh.
28:44I helped him.
28:50Timothy said everything Daddy did when he went out to that family
28:53when he was appropriate.
28:54Why is he so upset?
28:59Angela, every so often when you work in medicine,
29:03we say a case gets under her skin.
29:07This case has got under Daddy's skin.
29:09PHONE RINGS
29:14Hello?
29:15Oh, Mrs Turner.
29:16I rang the surgery, but Dr Turner wasn't there.
29:20We've just had the public health inspectors at the shop.
29:24Public health inspectors?
29:26We're under investigation for selling contaminated meat.
29:30And they've taken I don't know how many tins off the shelf.
29:34Well, I only picked them up from the cash and carry two days ago.
29:38I knew Match Barrowman.
29:41She was on the Play Street subcommittee.
29:43And now they've gone.
29:46Possibly because of something that we sold.
29:53I think we all have to remain calm.
29:56Nobody really knows who or what is to blame for this.
30:04How did you get on with Mrs Wallace?
30:07We're going to have to go for a walk.
30:09The gas inspectors nearly finished.
30:12Well, once the boilers stripped out,
30:13I'd have no objection to Paul moving back in.
30:16I don't know where you get your flaming nerve.
30:19You should be locked up for what you said to my grandson,
30:22telling him he killed his family by fitting a dodgy boiler.
30:25Mrs. Barrowman, only the coroner can say what happened.
30:29I hope he finds you guilty of criminal negligence and strikes you off.
30:35If you'd sent them all to hospital,
30:38they'd still be alive.
30:48We can't turn the clock back, Cyril.
30:50Not in terms of morals.
30:52And not in terms of what having sex has done to me and my body
30:56and for us and our relationship.
30:58Masaline.
31:00Stopping sleeping together isn't going to turn me into a virgin again.
31:03And I wouldn't want it to.
31:04I wouldn't want it to either.
31:06Because I feel just the same as you.
31:10But I am not yet divorced.
31:12And I am still a pastor.
31:13And I don't like putting you in harm's way.
31:16I'm not in harm's way.
31:18I'm on the pill.
31:19There is more than one type of harm, Masaline.
31:22Maybe we should wait now.
31:26Until I'm in a position to put a ring on your finger
31:28and do things decently.
31:31I have two things to say in response to that.
31:34A, I'm sure Mrs. Wallace would be delighted.
31:37B, if that's a proposal of marriage,
31:40it's very poorly thought through and you can keep it.
31:59Thank goodness you went in so early.
32:02Under no circumstances must any patients be allowed to see it.
32:06I'll root out some turps.
32:14Oh, Phyllis.
32:17Whatever is this?
32:20No one is to contact the police.
32:23Patrick, this is a clear case of criminal damage.
32:26And probably slander.
32:28That family have suffered.
32:31And are suffering enough.
32:34There's no proof at all that that vandalism
32:38is anything to do with them.
32:40I, meanwhile, have had to give short shrift
32:43to a reporter from the Gazette.
32:45He asked questions about potential malpractice.
32:49In front of patients?
32:51What did you see?
32:52Well, I mainly reminded him that it is against the law
32:55to print, publish or speculate on any details of a medical case
32:59whilst an inquest is pending.
33:01Miss Higgins, that isn't true.
33:04The Mam's very junior and you know better.
33:07No further rebuff was required.
33:10I don't think anyone knows anything right now.
33:13Until we hear from the coroner, I'm not seeing any more patients.
33:29This feeling inside me could never deny me the right to be wrong if I choose.
33:37And this pleasure I get from saying, winning a bet, Mr. Girls.
33:49Nothing good, nothing bad, nothing ventured.
33:54Nothing gained, nothing still born or lost.
33:57Nothing further than proof, nothing wilder than you.
34:01Nothing older than time, nothing sweeter than wine.
34:06Nothing physically recklessly hopelessly blind.
34:10Nothing I couldn't say, nothing why cost a day, nothing right.
34:16You know, Cyril called again this morning, don't you?
34:20Before you came down to breakfast.
34:22Perhaps he had a sleepless night too.
34:26I don't know what we're supposed to say to each other.
34:35The matter of my ablutions generally falls to Sister Catherine.
34:41Sister Catherine is standing in for Sister Veronica at the Head Lice conference this morning.
34:46And set off looking as though nothing could make her happier.
34:54Do you recollect what it was like to be at the beginning of all this?
35:00Yes, I do.
35:02If only barely sometimes.
35:04I've watched so much water flow underneath the bridge.
35:11The question is, Sister, do we watch the water or are we the water?
35:18Because if it is the latter, you speak not of change, but of we ourselves being changed or changing.
35:32It is a rhythm, is it not?
35:37It is indeed.
35:47Sister, how long have your feet been as swollen as this?
35:52It is a recent development.
35:56Let us not speak of it.
36:06Dad.
36:08What good is shutting yourself away going to do?
36:11It'll do less harm than trying to treat patients when I'm not trusted.
36:15And I can use the time to study the latest statistics on the rising epidurals.
36:22Trust is essential, isn't it?
36:24It's like clean hands.
36:26Or a steady hand with a lancet.
36:30Like antibiotics.
36:32Black coffee on the night shift.
36:35Can't be a GP without it, son.
36:40You're going back to factory and maybe not named?
36:43We can't decide on the name yet, Aisha.
36:45When we decide, we'll do it then.
36:50She wait for us.
36:52She's sick?
36:55Are you sick?
36:56Sick of being cooped up.
37:01I just need some fresh air.
37:08Miss Higgins?
37:09Um, can I ask Dr. Turner to make a house call on Sister Monica Joan?
37:17She seems to have developed some new symptoms.
37:22I'm afraid that until the Barrowman family situation resolves, he doesn't feel able to see any patients.
37:30I understand.
37:33In the scheme of things, I suspect this is not urgent.
37:45Hi.
37:48You stay home.
37:51The baby needs fresh air, Aisha.
37:53And I need to get into a routine.
37:59Please don't go out.
38:04I'm only popping out for an hour.
38:33I've changed the sheets.
38:35I've cleaned everything.
38:36But he will not let me do anything with that pillowcase.
38:41Oh, lad.
38:43Do you really think this is the best place for you to be lying while you come to terms with
38:48everything that's happened?
38:49How the hell can I come to terms with it?
38:51I helped my dad put that boiler in.
38:54It's my fault.
38:55And I'm the one that's still here.
38:56It's not your fault.
38:59There are plenty of others you could blame.
39:00What about you?
39:02Eh? And your cooking?
39:03Come on.
39:05You're both going through something that no one should ever have to endure, alone or separately.
39:11Look.
39:12You'll face it better together.
39:19I can smell my dad's hair on this pillowcase.
39:22Rod!
39:32Rod!
39:41Oh.
40:01I think I need the doctor.
40:03I could walk there.
40:05I go for doctor.
40:10You walk.
40:11I walk with you.
40:22Every single person touched by this case is in torment.
40:27Can we not do something to at least get a preview of the details?
40:32Dr Turner's on the police surgeon roster.
40:35He feels he can't ask for early access to the documents
40:39because he's perceived to have a vested interest.
40:43The baby's mother lying in street by five stairs.
40:46I think she'd die.
40:48Oh no, no.
40:51Dr Turner!
40:53Dr Turner!
40:59It's Ruth Kahn.
41:00She delivered a few days ago.
41:02She just opened her eyes, said something about seeing lights.
41:07Her ankles are swollen.
41:08Looks like postnatal preeclampsia.
41:10Ambulance?
41:11She's on the brink of fitting.
41:16We need Bromathol now.
41:18Can you fetch some?
41:19It's too late for 999.
41:20I'll drive her there myself.
41:22Now run.
41:26It's all right, Ruth.
41:28I'm not going to leave you.
41:31You need a hand with those?
41:35Yes.
41:36And we wouldn't mind a bit of fridge space
41:39if you've got any to spare in your flat.
41:42I'm sorry I lost my temper.
41:46It was certainly a spectacle.
41:48If you hadn't been shouting at me,
41:49I would have quite enjoyed it.
41:52And you're right.
41:53It was a terrible marriage proposal.
41:57Was it a marriage proposal?
42:01Yes.
42:04Will you give me the chance to do a better one?
42:08This is better already.
42:12But why don't you take me away for the weekend?
42:16Discreetly.
42:18And ask me then.
42:20You know your own mind, don't you?
42:23I'm a grown woman.
42:24And a feminist.
42:25And they're a cathedral town
42:28for length and breadth of England.
42:36Mr Parry is still with Ruth.
42:39He says she stopped her from tipping over
42:41into full-blown aclampsia.
42:44She hasn't had any seizures?
42:46None.
42:48That would have been a very different story.
42:53We don't always get to write the endings we choose
42:55in this profession.
42:57But sometimes we do.
43:00And sometimes there isn't an ending.
43:03And those stories are the best.
43:08I'm sorry for pushing you away, Aisha.
43:10A mother cannot be pushed away.
43:13Ever.
43:14A mother always at your shoulder.
43:18And it is good.
43:21I never knew that before.
43:25I didn't know what to do with that kind of love.
43:30But I do now.
43:40For showing me.
43:45It's all written down there in good plain English.
43:49It's as thorough as it comes, Mrs Barrowman.
43:52And it states very clearly
43:54that it was the boiler that was faulty.
43:57Not the way it was fitted.
43:59It had a defective valve.
44:03What happened was nothing to do
44:05with anyone who was there that night.
44:07Or anyone here today.
44:12Meanwhile, all the tins of meat have been recalled.
44:16And the cash and carry will be prosecuted.
44:20I'm sorry if I acted out of turn.
44:24That's all right.
44:27But I think if you did want to sue
44:29the boiler manufacturer,
44:31there would be a case to answer.
44:33Yeah.
44:34We've got a family to say goodbye to.
44:37And a life to build.
44:40Haven't we, Len?
44:48It's Mrs Russell, isn't it?
44:50What can I do for you?
44:51It's not for me, sister.
44:53It's for one of me neighbours.
44:56Well, a sort of neighbour.
44:58I reckon there's a baby on the way.
45:04I can remember you sisters
45:06coming out at all glowers
45:07and in all weathers.
45:12We still do.
45:15Midwife calling.
45:17I don't need a midwife.
45:19My dear,
45:20I'm afraid it seems very likely that you did.
45:22I don't need a ruddy midwife.
45:34What we'll do
45:35is take a gentle look at you
45:37and then we'll decide what to do.
45:39Oh, I don't know why you're saying
45:40we this
45:41or we that
45:42like we're friends or something
45:43because we ain't friends.
45:45Don't you talk to the sister like that.
45:47And we ain't friends neither.
45:51Mrs Russell,
45:53I don't see any means of heating water in here.
45:57Would you return to your flat
46:00and boil a kettle for me?
46:05It's such a shame
46:07Sister Veronica missed the Eucharist.
46:08But her plane from Hong Kong
46:10must have still been in the air.
46:11And it's also a shame
46:13that your brother
46:14can't join us, Trixie.
46:15He's become quite a fixture
46:17on high days and holidays.
46:19Oh, I know,
46:20but he's gone to Lido de Jeslo
46:21with a friend
46:22from his national service days.
46:23At least I get to arrange
46:25some flowers
46:25in his absence.
46:31This is the salt, this is.
46:32Lana,
46:33the sense of pressure
46:34that you're feeling
46:35is because your baby's head
46:36is descending
46:37through your pelvis.
46:38It's almost ready to be born.
46:40Send for a bloody ambulance!
46:42Lana,
46:42it's too late.
46:51How's things?
46:54Sorting through
46:54on my dad's tools.
46:56Seems the first step
46:57towards what he would have wanted.
47:00Following in his footsteps
47:02and all that.
47:06Me too.
47:09Delivering insulin
47:10to a self-injecting diabetic.
47:15This is a lead dressing tool.
47:18Yeah, there's so many years
47:19it's been worn to his grip.
47:23It's old-fashioned,
47:24but
47:25I'm going to keep it.
47:27That sort of thing matters,
47:29doesn't it?
47:39Could you walk
47:40and ask a urine some
47:42next time she feels
47:43like getting up?
47:45She has been needing
47:46a lot of rest lately.
47:48I do not require repose.
47:51It is almost invariably
47:53forced upon me.
47:57If you feel like it,
47:59I can bring you a strawberry scone
48:00to nibble on later.
48:10She's a pretty little thing.
48:15I'm
48:16paying particular attention
48:18to her eyes
48:20as I bathe her
48:21in case there's any infection.
48:23Are you saying I'm dirty?
48:24We take the same approach
48:25with every newborn.
48:29I want to hold her.
48:32When you've, um,
48:34finished your cigarette perhaps.
48:35I want
48:36to hold her.
48:51get your hands
48:52off my baby.
48:53I didn't ask you
48:54to come here.
48:56Get your hands
48:57off me.
48:59Who asked you
49:00to come here
49:00in the first place?
49:02Yes.
49:04Yes.
49:05Yes.
49:06Yes.
49:06Yes.
49:08Yes.
49:08Yes.
49:22The mother was
49:24angry
49:25and she was distressed.
49:27She wasn't unusual in that.
49:31And she needed
49:33every ounce of love
49:35I could show her.
49:36She spat at you
49:37and she assorted you.
49:40And the only thing
49:41that stopped me
49:44turning my back on her
49:45and running out
49:46of that squalid room
49:48was the fact
49:49that I was there
49:50as an act of
49:54Christian witness.
49:57Did that give you courage?
50:00It gave me purpose
50:02and it gave me strength
50:04and it reminded me
50:05that we are
50:06missionaries
50:07here in the East End
50:10and I'd rather go
50:11and be
50:12a missionary elsewhere
50:14than be forced
50:15to pretend
50:16to be something
50:17we are not.
50:24Sister?
50:27Have you made
50:27your decision?
50:30Sister Julianne,
50:31Sister Veronica
50:32has arrived back
50:33from Hong Kong.
50:34She's waiting
50:34in your office
50:35and insists
50:36she'll see
50:36no one but you.
50:39I came back
50:40to Poplar
50:41via the Mother House.
50:43I needed to confer
50:44with Mother Mildred
50:45because I have been
50:47feeling increasingly
50:50unhappy.
50:52I wasn't
50:53unaware of it.
50:56but our work
50:57is not about
50:58our happiness.
51:01It is about
51:03seeking no reward
51:04other than
51:06knowing
51:07that we do
51:08his will.
51:09If you are
51:10quoting
51:10St Ignatius
51:11of Loyola
51:12then you are
51:13omitting the bit
51:14about giving
51:15and not counting
51:16the cost
51:17and I
51:18can't
51:19keep on
51:20giving
51:20and not
51:21counting
51:22the cost
51:22any longer.
51:23But you must.
51:25We must
51:27sister.
51:27It is what
51:28we do.
51:29It is what
51:30I have done
51:31and done
51:32for too long.
51:33I have
51:35loved
51:37and
51:37served
51:39and I have
51:40saved
51:41other women's
51:42children
51:42for decades.
51:44If anyone
51:45were mine
51:46or
51:48felt like mine
51:50for a day
51:51or even
51:52an hour
51:55I had
51:56to hand
51:56it back
51:58and stand
51:59there
51:59trying
52:00not to
52:01scream
52:01because
52:02my arms
52:04were empty.
52:07Why didn't
52:08you tell me
52:08this before?
52:09Because I
52:10hoped
52:10I could
52:11bear it
52:12and I
52:12can't.
52:36I've been
52:37given permission
52:38to go away
52:39for six
52:41weeks
52:42while I
52:44decide
52:46if I want
52:47to give up
52:47my vows
52:48and leave
52:48the order.
52:53Pull then.
52:54All right.
52:55I'm pulling.
52:55I'm pulling.
52:56I'm pulling.
52:56I'm pulling.
52:56Just gonna.
52:57Push.
52:58Come on.
52:59Yeah, that one.
53:00Come on.
53:01Come on.
53:03Come on.
53:04Come on.
53:20Come in.
53:34I couldn't let you go
53:35without coming to see you.
53:38I've stood
53:39exactly
53:40where you're
53:40standing now.
53:43Well, I hope
53:44you were standing
53:45in better shoes
53:45than these.
53:47There are no
53:48lace-ups
53:48in the charity
53:49cupboard
53:49and I can
53:50only walk
53:50in lace-ups.
53:52There is a knack
53:53to court shoes.
53:59Please
54:00don't put
54:01your arms
54:01around me.
54:03I'm scared
54:04I might
54:06break apart.
54:09Beryl,
54:10do you have
54:11somewhere to go?
54:14I've
54:15been offered
54:16a room
54:17in a Christian
54:17retreat house
54:18near Gravesend.
54:20There are no
54:21other religious
54:21there
54:22and I'm
54:23assured
54:23no questions
54:24will be asked.
54:28Let me find
54:29you a pair
54:29of tights.
54:30You'll feel
54:30more pulled
54:31together
54:31in a proper outfit.
54:45You were
54:46right about
54:46Sister Monica
54:47Jones' oedema.
54:49It points
54:50to kidney
54:51failure.
54:52But tests
54:53will tell us
54:54more.
54:57This was always
54:58going to come,
54:59wasn't it?
55:02In one form
55:03or other.
55:04And when it
55:05does,
55:06it's
55:07going to feel
55:08like the
55:08ravens leaving
55:09the Tower
55:10of London.
55:13The end
55:13of the
55:14known world.
55:17One could say
55:18that about
55:18so many things.
55:24I'm telling
55:25the board
55:26that if the
55:27Order
55:28are not
55:28permitted to
55:29work in a
55:29missionary
55:30capacity
55:32we are
55:32leaving
55:33Poplar
55:35at the
55:35end of
55:35the year.
55:37And that
55:38is final.
55:53Do you know
55:54what you want,
55:55Sister?
55:56Apart from
55:56a baby
55:57to call
55:58my own?
56:00No.
56:01Sometimes I
56:02don't think
56:02anyone knows
56:03anything,
56:04really.
56:12I'll walk
56:13with you
56:14as far as
56:14the post office.
56:16This must
56:17go with the
56:18first post
56:19in the morning.
56:34some things
56:36bring joy
56:37year after
56:39year,
56:40summer
56:41after summer.
56:42They have
56:43delighted us
56:44before and
56:45they will
56:45again.
56:47we trust
56:48the tides
56:49and the
56:50rhythm
56:51of the
56:51seasons,
56:52the tilt
56:53of the
56:54sunflower's
56:54face
56:55towards the
56:56sky.
56:58When the
56:59wind blows
57:00a little
57:00colder,
57:01do we even
57:02notice it?
57:04Or if we
57:05do,
57:06do we think
57:06it will not
57:07be for long?
57:09Because one
57:10day it may
57:11blow cold
57:12forever,
57:13but not
57:14yet,
57:16not now,
57:18while miracles
57:19are ordinary
57:20and still
57:21within our
57:22reach.
57:26She's about
57:27to have the
57:27baby.
57:27We think,
57:28I just keep
57:29getting with,
57:29oh,
57:30here it comes
57:30again.
57:31Hello,
57:31Harmony,
57:32I'm a nurse.
57:33I'm sorry
57:33you've been
57:34hurt.
57:34There is no
57:35reason to
57:35treat me
57:36as an
57:37invalid.
57:38I saw
57:38Shreeming
57:38Poplar,
57:39guarantee.
57:39And if I win,
57:40you'll get
57:41that bike.
57:41One would
57:42hope they were
57:42above such
57:43pettiness,
57:44when there
57:45is so much
57:45at stake.
57:46week.
58:12I'll see you
58:15next week.
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