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Love Is Blind - Season 10 - Episode 01: Honey, I’m Home
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00:00:09I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you so much. Will you marry me? Yes. Here's
00:00:20to love.
00:00:20This is crazy. Finding love, it's everything I thought it would be. Time's on. This is what
00:00:29a great relationship is supposed to look like. I never thought I would fall so hard and so
00:00:36fast. You make it easy to love you. I'm very excited for this new adventure. I know real
00:00:44love exists. I just feel like you guys aren't going to get married. You need someone who's
00:00:48going to show you places you've never been before. I want to do that with you. Stop. You
00:00:52might be dangerous for me. Yes. You're the bitch. Oh my god. I just have to trust my feelings.
00:01:00I hate you so much. I think I thought things were better than they were. Are you nervous?
00:01:04I don't think I've ever put so much into a relationship. I've been waiting for this day
00:01:08my whole life. I'm just nervous. Holy shit. This is the biggest moment of my life.
00:01:14hard work.
00:01:25Ladies, ladies, ladies.
00:01:29Oh-h. I-o. I-o. I-o. I do that every season but
00:01:36but it's never worked.
00:01:38Grab a seat, grab a seat.
00:01:42Look at Ohio in the house.
00:01:45He's a proud Ohioan.
00:01:47Hi everybody.
00:01:49Hey.
00:01:49Hi.
00:01:51I'm Vanessa Lachey.
00:01:52And I'm Nick Lachey,
00:01:54and welcome to Love Is Blind.
00:01:59Well guys, I'm curious, why love is blind?
00:02:02For me, it's just simply just to find my best friend.
00:02:05That's beautifully said, man.
00:02:06A lot of people judge me by how I look
00:02:09and want to take me home,
00:02:11but not take me home to mama.
00:02:12Aww.
00:02:13I'm the doctor, and you get the awards,
00:02:14and you get the career,
00:02:15and you get everything that you ever wanted.
00:02:17You can't share it with somebody
00:02:18that understands you to your core.
00:02:20It's empty.
00:02:21This is me showing up for my life.
00:02:25Wow.
00:02:25I'm adopted into a white family from China.
00:02:29Oh, okay.
00:02:29I also had over 10 surgeries
00:02:32to get rid of a birthmark
00:02:33that would have caused melanoma.
00:02:35Um, so my whole life has been
00:02:37thinking about the physical aspect.
00:02:40So this is the first time
00:02:41I get to showcase, like, my personality.
00:02:44I'm super excited to be here.
00:02:45I spent my entire 20s
00:02:48focused on becoming the woman of my dreams.
00:02:50Personally, professionally, spiritually.
00:02:53And as I've entered my 30s,
00:02:54I'm like, okay, she need a man.
00:02:56A husband.
00:02:57And I always say, Jesus died single.
00:02:59I don't need to die single.
00:03:01No.
00:03:02That's why I'm here.
00:03:04No.
00:03:06Well, over the next 10 days,
00:03:07you will finally have a chance
00:03:09to fall in love based solely on who you are
00:03:11on the inside.
00:03:12Not for your looks, your race,
00:03:15your background, or your income.
00:03:17And if you fall in love and find somebody
00:03:19that you want to spend the rest of your life with,
00:03:21you'll get engaged.
00:03:22And then you'll finally see your fiancé
00:03:25for the very first time.
00:03:27And in just four weeks,
00:03:29you will be at your wedding.
00:03:31And there you will make the most important decision
00:03:33of your life.
00:03:35Will you say, I do,
00:03:37to the person you fell in love with, sight unseen?
00:03:40Or will you choose to walk away forever?
00:03:44Is love truly blind?
00:03:47An age-old question.
00:03:50We hope that you prove that it is.
00:03:55The pods are now open.
00:04:04H-I-O.
00:04:07Go, boys.
00:04:08First day of the rest of your life, boys.
00:04:10Whoo!
00:04:12Let's do this.
00:04:13Yes.
00:04:14Let's go find love, boys.
00:04:16Yes.
00:04:17Pods are open.
00:04:18Bye.
00:04:20Hi.
00:04:21Is that my wife?
00:04:22Is that my husband?
00:04:24I don't think I've ever been on, like,
00:04:25almost 16 dates in one day, so.
00:04:27Your voice is literally, like, sex operator voice.
00:04:30Nah, sex operator.
00:04:31Oh, let's get in there.
00:04:33What are you, like, doing outside of work?
00:04:35Saturday and Sunday, it's football.
00:04:38Oh, music to my ears.
00:04:40Why love is blind?
00:04:41To find my wife.
00:04:42I thrive in chaos.
00:04:45I don't want to always meet a girl, like, at a bar.
00:04:48Where do you meet them?
00:04:49Target.
00:04:51Six of my friends DM me about this.
00:04:54At first, I was like, I didn't know how to take that.
00:04:57You're like, how single do I look?
00:04:58Yeah.
00:04:59I think the biggest misconception that people
00:05:01have about me is, like, it's kind of like a big oaf.
00:05:06But I like art and reading, and I think
00:05:09I'm a pretty good cook.
00:05:10Hello.
00:05:11Hello.
00:05:12You're not going to be hungry.
00:05:13Look at me.
00:05:14This is Jordan.
00:05:15What's your name?
00:05:16My name is Amber.
00:05:17So definitely a foodie.
00:05:19Love to cook.
00:05:20Yes.
00:05:21I'm a foodie, too.
00:05:22Like, I'll talk food all day long.
00:05:23What's your favorite thing to cook?
00:05:25Honestly, breakfast.
00:05:25I do have a seven-year-old daughter.
00:05:27OK.
00:05:28I love making her waffles.
00:05:29So good.
00:05:30I make Thanksgiving for my family every year.
00:05:32Nice.
00:05:33I make Christmas dinner for my family every year.
00:05:35Yeah, OK.
00:05:36When I first had Emma, nurses really weren't making a lot of money.
00:05:39There was a Christmas there where I couldn't even
00:05:41buy her Christmas presents.
00:05:42Oh, wow.
00:05:42I was, like, so stressed out and crying,
00:05:44and, like, felt so bad about myself.
00:05:46But I have a picture of her and I, like, just laying there
00:05:50on the top of my staircase.
00:05:51And she's so happy.
00:05:53Because children, they don't care about anything but love.
00:05:57And I think that's the same with relationships.
00:05:59You can make all the money in the world.
00:06:00You can have the hottest girl in the world.
00:06:01You can have the hottest guy.
00:06:03At the end of the day, they're not going to lay there
00:06:06on the staircase with you when you're broke and laugh with you.
00:06:09Like, it doesn't mean shit.
00:06:11I guess that's what I'm looking for here, too,
00:06:12is just to find that person.
00:06:14That's what we're here for.
00:06:16I'm often not the best with first impressions.
00:06:19They're not going to want this, like, country bumpkin.
00:06:22I do have a daughter, so do you want a family?
00:06:26I want to be judged for who I am inside,
00:06:28because I'm funny, and I am settled down.
00:06:35So I would love for somebody to come join that
00:06:37in my comfy ass bed.
00:06:39You got to stay cool, baby.
00:06:42Yeah, no matter what you do.
00:06:44Find your wife, find your wife.
00:06:46My name is Victor.
00:06:47I go by Vic.
00:06:48I'm Christine.
00:06:49I think we're here for the same reasons.
00:06:51I hope so.
00:06:53I've been wanting to be married for some time,
00:06:55and I've searched for that sometimes in the wrong places.
00:06:57Let's get talking.
00:06:59That's where I thrive.
00:07:00I'm here to find a wife.
00:07:01Where are you from, Vic?
00:07:02I'm originally from Brooklyn, New York.
00:07:04But coming to Columbus, you become a Buckeye.
00:07:05You know what I'm saying?
00:07:06Did you hear us on the OHIO earlier?
00:07:08Oh, you already know.
00:07:10What do you do?
00:07:11I'm a professor at one of the universities
00:07:13out here in Columbus.
00:07:13Are you?
00:07:14Yeah.
00:07:15In what?
00:07:16Specifically in public policy.
00:07:18Pretty much a big focus on data analytics.
00:07:21Sounds fun.
00:07:22It is, though.
00:07:23It is.
00:07:24It is.
00:07:24Right.
00:07:25I'm very passionate about it.
00:07:27I love that.
00:07:28What drives you?
00:07:28What motivates you?
00:07:29Get you done?
00:07:30I am a speech-language pathologist,
00:07:32but I just want to continuously be better.
00:07:35Are you a Christian?
00:07:36100%.
00:07:37Did you tell your folks you were coming out here?
00:07:39My mom, yeah.
00:07:40What did she say?
00:07:41She trusts my judgment, and she's really,
00:07:43really excited for me.
00:07:44Cool.
00:07:45How about you?
00:07:46She trusts my judgment as well.
00:07:47She better.
00:07:48Yep.
00:07:50I want to get married because I really
00:07:52want a true partnership.
00:07:54I want to have kids, and I want to have the Super Bowl
00:07:56house.
00:07:57Like, I want to be cooking out and making snacks
00:07:59for the kids, all the friends, the family, the guys,
00:08:02like my girlfriends.
00:08:04The Super Bowl house is definitely my fairytale ending.
00:08:06Can we just start?
00:08:07I know, literally.
00:08:08I was like, I love talking to these men.
00:08:10When someone sees me or I see them,
00:08:12there are all sorts of automatic assumptions
00:08:15that happen immediately.
00:08:17I mean, that's been studied, but it's
00:08:18unavoidable.
00:08:19Being a woman in science, having no idea what somebody
00:08:23looks like, and really getting to know their heart and soul,
00:08:26it makes sense to me.
00:08:28My name is Chris.
00:08:29I am Jess.
00:08:30You can be the most gorgeous man.
00:08:32If you open your mouth and say some stupid shit,
00:08:34you are not going to be gorgeous to me anymore.
00:08:37Do you have any pets?
00:08:38I do have a pet.
00:08:40It's a little cat.
00:08:41She was like a stray.
00:08:42She chose you.
00:08:43I know.
00:08:44What's her name?
00:08:45Chalupa.
00:08:46Chalupa.
00:08:47I'm obsessed.
00:08:49I have two English Bulldogs.
00:08:51It's a face only a mother could love.
00:08:53Oh, I love the uglier the better.
00:08:55What do you do for work?
00:08:57I am an infectious diseases doctor, so I work at the hospital.
00:09:01OK.
00:09:02So, like, during COVID, I was, like, in the ICU,
00:09:05like, watching people dying all day.
00:09:07Oh, my God.
00:09:08So you're, like, front lines.
00:09:09Yeah.
00:09:10Anybody who works inside a hospital during that time period,
00:09:13like, listening to, like, a bunch of bullshit from, like,
00:09:15outside world and, like, seeing people in there,
00:09:17it must have been tough.
00:09:18It was really, really hard.
00:09:20I actually went to Kuwait for, like, a whole year,
00:09:22spent nine months in the desert.
00:09:23I was in a Blackhawk unit.
00:09:24And, you know, the order I get, you just naturally gravitate
00:09:27towards, like, just wanting to be a better person
00:09:31and wanting to live in a better society.
00:09:33100%.
00:09:33I mean, you live it, which is amazing.
00:09:36I actually am divorced.
00:09:38OK.
00:09:39And I only bring up the fact that I was divorced because,
00:09:42at the time, I would just watch people die and come home
00:09:45and, like, crash.
00:09:46It kind of felt like this person who was supposed to be,
00:09:49like, my safe space and my support was, like,
00:09:52oh, gosh, like, what am I supposed to do?
00:09:55And my ex-husband is a really good person.
00:09:58But our ideas of what a marriage was,
00:10:01what a spouse does, were so different.
00:10:05And it opened my eyes to so much about me.
00:10:09I have a very, very full, active, fun, loving, amazing life.
00:10:16And I feel like, man, I would love to share this with somebody.
00:10:19I want to share it with, like, my best friend.
00:10:21I love that so much, Chris.
00:10:23We're on top of the world.
00:10:25Modern dating is, are you hot, am I hot?
00:10:28Is he maybe a little taller, heavier, more muscles?
00:10:31What's your name?
00:10:31My name is Chris.
00:10:32Chris, I'm Brianna.
00:10:33You're like, oh, what's a guy man supposed to look like?
00:10:36I'm not going to lie about it.
00:10:37I'm not going to put six foot just to, like, beat someone and be like,
00:10:39hey, dude, you're not six foot.
00:10:40My friends call me Breezy.
00:10:41All right, that sounds good, Breezy.
00:10:43So what do you do to unwind?
00:10:45I do a lot of jujitsu.
00:10:47That helps me balance myself out a little bit.
00:10:49I've done, like, Ironmans.
00:10:50I like doing, like, triathlons.
00:10:52Wow.
00:10:52I just love being active.
00:10:53I love doing, like, hard shit that, like, people, nobody else wants to do.
00:10:57They're like, I don't want to do it.
00:10:58Like, I'm going to do it.
00:10:58Like, I love this shit.
00:10:59He's a lunatic.
00:11:00I, like, have an ice plunge at my place,
00:11:02and I get in every single morning.
00:11:03It's 34 degrees, and I'm like,
00:11:04this is the hardest thing I'm going to do today.
00:11:06The rest of my day and whatever happens to me, I don't care.
00:11:09That is so attractive.
00:11:10Like, I want to do hard shit.
00:11:12Like, I want to challenge myself.
00:11:14I'm telling you, I will make you do hard shit.
00:11:16If you don't want to do it, I'll help you coach.
00:11:17I'll motivate you.
00:11:18I'll motivate you the best of my ability.
00:11:20I respect that so much.
00:11:22I was in competitive cheerleading and softball.
00:11:25What position in softball did you play?
00:11:27Um, I was a pitcher.
00:11:29Oh, wow.
00:11:30Do you think you could strike me out?
00:11:32Oh, hell yeah.
00:11:33With confidence, I could strike you out.
00:11:35I absolutely could.
00:11:37I get intense.
00:11:38Oh, yeah.
00:11:38My friends and I are very competitive.
00:11:40Are you?
00:11:40So, I think you would fit it in the mix.
00:11:43Totally agree.
00:11:45Why are you here?
00:11:46I mean, how much time do you have?
00:11:47Like, could this be a therapy session?
00:11:57I think that love is deeper than a physical attraction.
00:12:01I felt it.
00:12:02I know that.
00:12:02My friends and I joke, we're like, we've given a lot of medium
00:12:05ugly guys some chances.
00:12:07I know that's savage to say, but like, why'd you break my heart?
00:12:10You're only medium ugly.
00:12:11What's your name?
00:12:12I am Brianna.
00:12:13Brianna?
00:12:14Yes, but people call me Breezy.
00:12:17Why do they call you Breezy?
00:12:18I've just been Breezy since I was little.
00:12:20Breezy's one of the coolest nicknames I've ever heard.
00:12:23Let's go.
00:12:24What's your name?
00:12:25My name's Connor.
00:12:26Connor?
00:12:26No cool nicknames?
00:12:27My last name is Spies.
00:12:29Most of my friends call me Spies.
00:12:31I love it.
00:12:31Breezy and Spies, dude.
00:12:33That's actually really cool.
00:12:34Breezy and Spies.
00:12:35Breezy and Spies.
00:12:36Okay, tell me about yourself.
00:12:37What's going on?
00:12:37I went to school at Michigan.
00:12:39So you're Wolverine?
00:12:40I am.
00:12:41Oh, that is the hottest thing I've heard all day.
00:12:45I'm looking for someone that wants to slow dance, but then when Mr. Brightside comes on,
00:12:49we're in the middle of the dance floor.
00:12:50My God, the fact that you just said Mr. Brightside.
00:12:52I'm like, you know I went to Michigan.
00:12:54I'm like where I'm known for singing that in the stadium.
00:12:57That's my favorite song of all time.
00:12:59Amazing.
00:13:00I literally like put three stars next to your name.
00:13:03Are you a Michigan draft?
00:13:05I am not, but I hate Ohio State.
00:13:07I went to OU.
00:13:08I'm from Cleveland.
00:13:10My dad grew up in Minneapolis.
00:13:11I lived in Minneapolis.
00:13:12I just put two more stars.
00:13:15I'm super active.
00:13:16I played in a broomball league.
00:13:18No way.
00:13:19Yeah.
00:13:20Broomball is so fun.
00:13:21I like to go on ski trips.
00:13:23Oh my God.
00:13:24I love skiing.
00:13:25Okay, so star, star, star.
00:13:27We both like to ski.
00:13:28You have like the most stars so far.
00:13:30Oh, Connor.
00:13:32I know.
00:13:32I shouldn't have said.
00:13:33I love this for us.
00:13:34So let's get married.
00:13:36Connor.
00:13:37A couple weeks later after we get married,
00:13:38our honeymoon would just be on a ski trip.
00:13:41Well, ski trip.
00:13:42I'm not even fucking kidding you.
00:13:43Like that sounds like the coolest like next seven weeks of my life.
00:13:46Can you imagine?
00:13:47When you say, can you imagine?
00:13:48I'm not even kidding you.
00:13:49You're like, no, I can't because I feel like it's going to happen.
00:13:51Like putting it in the universe.
00:13:52I really can't imagine that.
00:13:54Oh, I love it.
00:13:55It's crazy.
00:13:56I put so many fucking stars on here.
00:13:58I'm looking to find my ride or die.
00:13:59I want someone there next to me.
00:14:03Whether it's karaoke, singing Mr. Brightside with all of our friends cheering us on.
00:14:08And then Sunday, just sitting on a couch, not even speaking to each other.
00:14:12Just holding hands, door dashing food, watching Netflix.
00:14:15Hey, a man that knows what he wants.
00:14:17God dang.
00:14:17That's what I'm looking for.
00:14:19Let's do this shit, baby.
00:14:24Hello.
00:14:24Hello.
00:14:25What's your name?
00:14:26My name's Connor.
00:14:27Connor, I'm Emma.
00:14:28Emma?
00:14:28Emma.
00:14:29God, I love that name.
00:14:30Ooh.
00:14:31So I'm already a winner?
00:14:32I'm not going to say it out loud, but like I've already put a star next to your name.
00:14:36Wow, okay.
00:14:36I didn't say it out loud.
00:14:37I didn't hear it.
00:14:38Good.
00:14:38My mom literally goes, I love you, but sometimes just shut the fuck up.
00:14:44And I'm like, I mean, honestly, not bad advice.
00:14:48Keep going, Connor.
00:14:49Disappoint your mom.
00:14:50I've already done that for 31 years.
00:14:52What do you do for work?
00:14:53I'm in retail merchandising, so I work at like a fashion company.
00:14:57What do you do?
00:14:57I sell dumpsters.
00:15:01Do you actually?
00:15:02I swear to God.
00:15:03No.
00:15:03I can't make it up.
00:15:04What kind of dumpsters?
00:15:05Like those large like commercial ones.
00:15:09Hey, we would actually be living in a world of waste if we didn't have dumpsters.
00:15:13Because of you, Connor, we are clean.
00:15:15Are you just gassing me up?
00:15:17Do you like me?
00:15:18I literally put sells dumpsters star.
00:15:22You have like three stars already.
00:15:23My sister's going to watch this and like, she's so dumb.
00:15:26But I'll be like, hey, well, me and Emma are married, so.
00:15:28I'll get on board with dumpsters.
00:15:30Oh, gosh.
00:15:30What are you doing for this in your life?
00:15:32I used to be self-conscious of my scars on dates.
00:15:35Like it just was like an elephant in the room that people stared a lot and didn't ask questions.
00:15:40And that was really uncomfortable.
00:15:41So when I'm here, you completely erase all those physical appearances.
00:15:46Hello.
00:15:47Hi.
00:15:47Hey, how's it going?
00:15:49Oh my gosh, it's going so good.
00:15:51There's just something so incredible and exciting about that.
00:15:53What's your name?
00:15:54My name is Mike.
00:15:55How about you?
00:15:56Mike, I'm Emma.
00:15:57Pleasure, pleasure, Emma.
00:15:58Pleasure.
00:15:59So your dating experiences, how have they been?
00:16:01So I've been single for about a year now.
00:16:04And I do want to get married.
00:16:06I think there is something to a commitment, a lifelong like journey, being able to celebrate your love.
00:16:13Absolutely.
00:16:13I definitely want kids.
00:16:15It's like, okay, we've done so much together in our married life now.
00:16:19Let's put that love into a little baby.
00:16:21I want to find the right partner.
00:16:24But kids change the whole dynamic.
00:16:26Yeah, listen, I know I want kids, right?
00:16:29Yeah.
00:16:30But it doesn't necessarily mean that I need to have them right away.
00:16:33I am not a 100% yes, but I'm not a no.
00:16:39I know a lot of people really want kids, but for me, I don't know yet.
00:16:45I appreciate you being super honest with me about it. Thank you.
00:16:49I'm adopted.
00:16:50I do not know my birth family or if they're going to pass down any medical problems.
00:16:55That scares me about having a child.
00:16:58I've been raised by a white family.
00:16:59They're the best examples of love.
00:17:03But right now, I'm not ready to disclose that.
00:17:08It's just something I don't think anyone can understand until they know who I am.
00:17:15Sometimes you don't even understand it yourself.
00:17:22Who am I speaking to?
00:17:23Oh, you're speaking to Steven.
00:17:25Steven!
00:17:26Who am I speaking to?
00:17:27Emma.
00:17:27Emma.
00:17:28So just to let you know, I'm not like the type of guy that's going to be like diving
00:17:32super deep into like hard-hitting questions. Like someone who can answer back and forth,
00:17:35it's like they are smart.
00:17:36You got to stay on your toes.
00:17:38Be quick with it.
00:17:38You got to be quick with it.
00:17:40What do you do for fun?
00:17:40I love spending time with my dog. He's 12 years old. We go to breweries.
00:17:45I'm excited for having him meet whoever my fiance is.
00:17:50I found him through this adoption Facebook page and now he is my best friend.
00:17:56Transitioning to like dog to human, do you think you would ever like adopt a child ever?
00:18:03Yeah, I, um, am, uh, for children I think right now I want to find like the right partner for
00:18:13kids,
00:18:14but adoption is a million percent on the table. Like there are so many children that deserve and need
00:18:22to be loved.
00:18:23And I feel like a lot of the guys in here, I don't know, tell me if I'm wrong,
00:18:25but I feel like they're starting off like, do you want, do you want my babies?
00:18:28Yeah. And it's like, I feel like when I get back, I'm going to do a big brother program pretty
00:18:32hard.
00:18:33I've like seen a lot of men who like haven't had like a dad like mine or like a grandpa
00:18:37like me.
00:18:38Yeah. And I'm like, they're missing out on a lot.
00:18:41My grandma and grandpa have like the best like love story ever.
00:18:45Oh my gosh. Wait, do you have time to tell it or do you need to bookmark that?
00:18:48Of course, for you, anything. My grandpa was a World War II guy.
00:18:51He served in France like towards the tail end of it and he would always go to like this bank
00:18:55teller
00:18:56and they didn't speak each other's language at all and ended up being like my grandma.
00:19:00And he just went up to her one time and like pointed at the clock and like
00:19:03gestured to meet me here at that time.
00:19:05Stop.
00:19:06It was like the most healthy marriage.
00:19:08Oh my gosh, that is so, I love love stories. I love love.
00:19:11I'm just like, you don't hear that anymore.
00:19:13No.
00:19:14Now you just get me and you behind a pot.
00:19:16Are you pointing at a non-existent clock?
00:19:19Yeah, right. I'm like dancing by myself.
00:19:21I love dancing. So I used to dance for 12 years.
00:19:24Oh, wow.
00:19:24In college, I actually taught senior citizens hip hop and like dance fitness.
00:19:28Why is that the cutest thing ever?
00:19:30When my parents would come home from date night, they would like start dancing in the kitchen.
00:19:34My parents were the same way. Like you can hear about love, but I like saw it my whole life.
00:19:38I want that.
00:19:40First day in the pod, there are people that make me laugh and make my heart flutter.
00:19:44I don't want to like, like, I don't want to jinx it.
00:19:47But there's a highly likely chance my future husband's here.
00:19:54She's like, yeah!
00:19:55Yeah!
00:19:57Their energy is insane.
00:19:59So much better than sitting at a bar with somebody.
00:20:02We could all be engaged next week.
00:20:03I like having with an A.
00:20:04Do you have one or two standouts?
00:20:06Yeah.
00:20:06I have eight boyfriends.
00:20:09Literally every guy told me they wanted a family.
00:20:11I'm like, so I have a daughter, so how much do you want a family?
00:20:14Yeah.
00:20:15Amber, the one that has a kid, she's great.
00:20:18I think I literally already started thinking about places we could go on our ski trip.
00:20:22I was like, we're both Delugos.
00:20:25Here's to finding love, boys.
00:20:38All right, boys.
00:20:39It's cooking.
00:20:40It's good.
00:20:41Uh, you guys can start getting this.
00:20:43Finish the eggs.
00:20:44We got some bacon.
00:20:44I'm finishing up the bacon.
00:20:45Appreciate you making this.
00:20:46Of course, man.
00:20:47This is like what I enjoy doing.
00:20:51Did you take a nap?
00:20:52I did.
00:20:53I heard you giggling.
00:20:54Maybe I was giggling in my sleep.
00:20:55I don't know.
00:20:56Maybe you were dreaming about us.
00:20:58Maybe.
00:20:59No, she doesn't even know her names.
00:21:01Yes, I do now.
00:21:02I know everybody's names now.
00:21:03She says she does now.
00:21:04Priyanka, Amanda, Kia.
00:21:07Who's Amanda?
00:21:09Your name's not Amanda?
00:21:11Amber.
00:21:14You're a fuckboy.
00:21:16Oh.
00:21:17Amber.
00:21:18Amber.
00:21:20Oh my God.
00:21:20Goodness gracious.
00:21:21This experiment, if I can be completely honest, is this is crazy.
00:21:26It's like when you're in the dark tunnel, but I see at the other side all of the sunshine.
00:21:31So I'm here to find my light, my light, my love, my man.
00:21:36So what are some things you think you want to learn more about me?
00:21:39What's your favorite movie?
00:21:41Interstellar's up there for me.
00:21:43Okay.
00:21:45Love and Basketball.
00:21:46It's a great one.
00:21:48No shade, but it's the worst movie ever.
00:21:51What?
00:21:52It is really not good.
00:21:53I mean, like, I get it.
00:21:54It's nostalgic and actors were great.
00:21:57But in terms of storyline, the whole play for your heart and then he dunks on her is ridiculous.
00:22:04Like, y'all lost me.
00:22:06Yeah, no, that part story, the ending, I'll agree with you on that.
00:22:10My favorite movie is Love Jones.
00:22:12Love Jones.
00:22:13Yeah, I think that their love story was so unconventional, and I love the idea of
00:22:19them taking time to kind of work on their selves and then, like, circling back.
00:22:25And it was just so romantic.
00:22:27Mm, that's what I'm talking about.
00:22:29Yeah.
00:22:30So I've been single for about two and a half years is for so.
00:22:33And my ex, she just wasn't my person.
00:22:36Which is fair.
00:22:37Yeah, super fair.
00:22:38But she did teach me a lot.
00:22:40She taught me, like, how to be more patient,
00:22:42have tougher conversations when things got hard.
00:22:46Oh, yeah.
00:22:46I want to get married, have kids.
00:22:49And you're going to know exactly how I feel.
00:22:51I'm not just going to just leave it up to assumption.
00:22:53Yeah.
00:22:53A super important lesson that I learned.
00:22:55Yeah.
00:22:55That's a phenomenal lesson if you ask me.
00:22:59Shout out to your ex.
00:23:01Shout out to her, yeah.
00:23:06Kia's down to earth and just chill.
00:23:08I feel like she could potentially be a best friend.
00:23:13But when I hear Tyler's voice, it makes me excited.
00:23:18Like, yes, this is the date I've been waiting for.
00:23:20Hello, hello.
00:23:22How are we feeling, Tyler?
00:23:23Good.
00:23:24So excited to talk to you.
00:23:26Yes, I'm excited to talk to you, too.
00:23:28I'm doing a lot of journaling and reflecting,
00:23:30and really asking, you know, myself and my partner on the other side,
00:23:33like, the questions that I think are required to get married,
00:23:36which I don't even know what they are yet.
00:23:38Yeah.
00:23:38But I think tonight, you know, will help me.
00:23:41Exactly.
00:23:41Have you been journaling here and writing here?
00:23:43Yeah, I have.
00:23:44I actually have.
00:23:44Oh, a writer.
00:23:47Yeah.
00:23:47What you be saying about me?
00:23:51So when I'm married, ideally, I have somebody I could just rely on and call
00:23:57and be like, what are we doing?
00:23:59Same.
00:23:59I want to have somebody to bounce ideas off of.
00:24:02Yeah.
00:24:02Yeah.
00:24:02My best friend, my partner, my person.
00:24:05Yeah.
00:24:05I love that.
00:24:06Yeah.
00:24:07Now, one question I do, you know, because, you know, I'm in Columbus, I know you're in
00:24:10Cincy.
00:24:11Yeah.
00:24:11Yeah.
00:24:11How do you think we would attack that?
00:24:13Like, this is a once-in-a-lifetime experiment, and maybe this is the way that I find my husband.
00:24:17And if I find somebody who's open to relocating, that would be beautiful.
00:24:21But if, like, we're talking about my husband, that's priority number one.
00:24:26If I got to go to Columbus, if I got to go to Cleveland, if I got to go to
00:24:28Alaska, like,
00:24:29I'm doing what I got to do to be with my partner because I believe in the power of marriage.
00:24:36Like, thank you for that.
00:24:37But your ambition, at the end of the day, you, you know, you have to win.
00:24:42And my job, it is a very, very small percentage of people who have gotten to the level that I
00:24:48am.
00:24:48To be able to be in the corporate environment that I'm in and to get to a director level before
00:24:5430 was, like, crazy.
00:24:56Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:24:56And I did it while being me.
00:24:58I can go look at a little girl like me that came from where I came from and be like,
00:25:02girl, you ain't got to do much about your personality.
00:25:03This isn't about personality.
00:25:05It's not about, like, code switching.
00:25:07Like, be who you are for girls that look like me and girls who don't.
00:25:11Like, you know, I think we all have stories where people just don't feel enough for whatever reason.
00:25:16And I feel like my, yeah, like, my biggest accomplishment is that I was able to get to where I
00:25:21am today
00:25:21while being true to myself.
00:25:23Yeah.
00:25:24I love that.
00:25:25So it might be crazy to leave the professional environment that I'm in now.
00:25:30And I wouldn't want to do that because it's a place where I'm thriving.
00:25:34But I think love is so important and is now, like, probably the number one priority in my life,
00:25:40even over my professional career because, like, me and my husband's decision.
00:25:43And if we decide to make a move on that, that's the decision that we make, you know?
00:25:50All the conversations that I've had with you, you definitely, you know, have that.
00:25:55You have that it factor.
00:25:56Yeah.
00:25:57Appreciate that.
00:26:02How are we really doing this?
00:26:03We are really doing this.
00:26:05Yeah.
00:26:05Like, there's going to be people who are engaged, people who are married.
00:26:12And it could be like me, like what?
00:26:16Yeah, exactly.
00:26:18That's what I'm like, wow.
00:26:19I'm just so appreciative of you.
00:26:28Who am I speaking with?
00:26:33Ashley.
00:26:33What's up, Ashley?
00:26:34It's Alex.
00:26:35Hi, Alex.
00:26:36I won't really approach women unless I have that, you know, physical there to start with.
00:26:40That's a fault that I'm admitting now.
00:26:42You know, candidly, I think there's probably women that I've missed out on
00:26:44that would have been great for me that I didn't give a chance to.
00:26:47So I'm excited to actually see the potential that can come from this.
00:26:51I want to feel so understood by my woman that we're on the same page on everything.
00:26:55We finish each other's sentences and she knows exactly who I am and I know who she is.
00:26:59I literally get, like, hypnotized by this wall.
00:27:01I'm, like, so focused on it and I, like, I'm, like, thinking about what you look like
00:27:05and, like, trying to place a face and just, like, listening to your words and, like, your voice.
00:27:09And I'm like, hmm, what does he look like?
00:27:10And then I'm just, like, staring and I'm like, I'm getting a little dizzy.
00:27:13I like that.
00:27:13You're getting dizzy over me.
00:27:15Obviously.
00:27:15I will say I'm thinking about you the same way.
00:27:17The voice is catching me for sure.
00:27:19Huh?
00:27:19I like it.
00:27:20I'm definitely curious about what you look like.
00:27:22Oh, I won't be giving any hints.
00:27:24Ah, but I'll try to figure it out myself.
00:27:26No hints on the looks.
00:27:27Sorry.
00:27:28Sorry, I didn't think about that.
00:27:29Do you like kissing?
00:27:31I like to think I haven't gotten any bad reviews,
00:27:33so I think I'm a decent kisser, but you might have to help me out and see if I'm all
00:27:36right.
00:27:36I'm a top critic.
00:27:37I'm not going to lie.
00:27:39Are you?
00:27:39Are you a good kisser?
00:27:40I'm a really good kisser, so.
00:27:41You're a good kisser, huh?
00:27:41I'm a great kisser.
00:27:42That's going to be dangerous moving forward.
00:27:44Yeah.
00:27:45So if I were in bed with you, are you taking all of the covers in, or no?
00:27:51Um, probably.
00:27:52I do it as like a strategy, because I'm like,
00:27:54ooh, I'm going to steal the cover, so he has to come over here.
00:27:56Ooh, I like that.
00:27:58Yeah, I'm diabolical.
00:27:59Big spoon, little spoon.
00:28:00I like both, honestly.
00:28:01I love being like wrapped up,
00:28:03but I don't mind like putting my arm around you and spooning you a little bit.
00:28:06I love that.
00:28:08Men are so funny.
00:28:09They like secretly love being little spoons.
00:28:11Low key we do.
00:28:12I hate that.
00:28:13I hate that you know that.
00:28:14I hate that you know that, but you're right.
00:28:16Yes.
00:28:17Do you like massages?
00:28:18Are you a big massage girl?
00:28:20I mean, yeah.
00:28:21What kind of question then?
00:28:22Of course you do.
00:28:23It's like an easy way for a guy to be like, oh, I'm in the mood.
00:28:25Like, I'm just going to rub your back for 10 seconds.
00:28:29We all know your secrets.
00:28:31I'm going to have to come up with new ones.
00:28:32We know your secrets.
00:28:32I know you do.
00:28:33Sex is important for me.
00:28:35I like that physical connection.
00:28:37It's almost like a celebration of like the fact that we're that close.
00:28:41Like at this point, in my eyes, let me explain.
00:28:43Wait, I thought this was a celebration.
00:28:44No, no, I'm kidding.
00:28:46Another big turn-off for me is feedback.
00:28:51Like, if that feels good to you, let me know.
00:28:53Oh, so you like dirty talk.
00:28:54Oh my God, yes.
00:28:56Absolutely.
00:28:56Calm down over there.
00:28:57I'm trying to.
00:28:58You're just hanging out all the time.
00:28:59I'm flustered.
00:29:00I'm flustered.
00:29:00I'm flustered too, don't worry.
00:29:03You're so dangerous, Ashley.
00:29:04We're going to have a problem here.
00:29:05You're welcome.
00:29:06I thank you.
00:29:08My dad will tell you I have a bad picker, but I'm ready to be a wife.
00:29:13All right, I'll talk to you later.
00:29:14Sounds good.
00:29:15Bye.
00:29:16I really like speaking with Alex.
00:29:18Me and Alex do have sexual chemistry, and I'm very excited to test that out.
00:29:24Sorry, Mom and Dad.
00:29:26I'm sweating, you guys.
00:29:28I need to go freshen up the downtown.
00:29:33You got to be open-minded.
00:29:35That's the one biggest thing I said to myself coming into here, and that's what I'm trying to do.
00:29:40Because on the streets, I, you know, I am not, or I wasn't.
00:29:46That's what we do.
00:29:47What was that?
00:29:48With Emma and I, it's been absolutely amazing.
00:29:51I feel like she touches on every single level.
00:29:54But some women want kids right away.
00:29:56Some women don't want kids right away.
00:29:58And I definitely want children.
00:30:00Give me a, give me a whole damn baseball team.
00:30:03To be completely transparent, like I am like very confused and like.
00:30:07Yeah, as you should be.
00:30:08Yeah.
00:30:08You're dating, you know, X amount of guys.
00:30:10Yeah.
00:30:11Like, I get it.
00:30:12You were one that actually surprised me a little bit.
00:30:15I liked your vibe the first date, but it wasn't like.
00:30:18No, no, no, my gosh, this is gonna sound so bad.
00:30:21Just say it, be honest.
00:30:23I was like, I want to get to know him.
00:30:24But it wasn't like, oh my gosh, like, yes, like 100% yes.
00:30:27Like, yeah.
00:30:28But I was like, you're very nice.
00:30:29Like, this guy is like so funny.
00:30:31He makes me feel like so comfortable.
00:30:32I think you are so attentive and it really makes me feel supported.
00:30:40I like your laugh.
00:30:41Aw, that was amazing.
00:30:43I actually put it in chat to you PT.
00:30:48Oh my God.
00:30:49I like that you laugh at my jokes too.
00:30:50You're funny.
00:30:51I know I am.
00:30:52What do you mean?
00:30:54I have had you very high on my list this whole time.
00:30:58Since the first date, to be honest.
00:31:00I think that you're absolutely amazing.
00:31:03And I feel like with you, I can be myself.
00:31:06Yeah.
00:31:07And your voice is beautiful.
00:31:10Yeah.
00:31:11What are your reservations on having children?
00:31:15It's this internal battle I have because I have an amazing family.
00:31:19And I really struggle as to, like, why I sometimes just, like, don't want one myself, you know?
00:31:25But how great would it be to create life and have children?
00:31:28I just don't want to commit to that right now, you know?
00:31:30Yeah.
00:31:32I want to get married.
00:31:34I don't want to have kids right away.
00:31:35Yeah.
00:31:36I want to enjoy marriage with my wife.
00:31:38I want to explore each other.
00:31:41I want to travel.
00:31:43I want to accomplish goals.
00:31:45And then once we're comfortable, let's start this new journey of our lives together.
00:31:50Let's bring a child into the world because it's a part of who we are.
00:31:54We're leaving a part of us on this earth and the person that we created together, our child.
00:32:02That is a beautiful way to put it.
00:32:03I'm really not trying to change your mind or force you in any direction.
00:32:06I promise you that.
00:32:08No, yeah.
00:32:09And I, like, really appreciate you are, like, helping me see a new POV, but, like, not belittling, like,
00:32:16what I'm feeling.
00:32:17If I find the right person, like, it could happen, but it's not guaranteed.
00:32:22If I'm in love with you and you're my wife, I don't know.
00:32:28I feel like that'd be super tough because now it's like I'm choosing between my wife and the
00:32:35love I have for her and possibly, you know, having a kid.
00:32:38And that's so heartbreaking to me.
00:32:45Wow.
00:32:46Oh, shit.
00:32:47This is awkward.
00:32:47Damn.
00:32:48No, it's not awkward.
00:32:49No, no, I'm just kidding.
00:32:50I definitely do want to see you tomorrow.
00:32:52I don't know if you're going to have me on there.
00:32:55No, I, um, I will definitely, I fit you in.
00:33:00I fit you in.
00:33:01No, you don't have to tell me what you do.
00:33:03If I see you tomorrow, amazing.
00:33:04If not, then I understand.
00:33:07No, you know I'm joking.
00:33:10You're, you're near the top.
00:33:12You don't have to tell me.
00:33:14I just wanted to make sure that you know that I, like, you're actually up there.
00:33:21I'm validating you.
00:33:23Oh, it feels good to be validated.
00:33:27Enjoy the rest of your night.
00:33:29You too, buddy.
00:33:31Bye.
00:33:32The buddy love it.
00:33:33Thanks for that.
00:33:35I did friend zone you.
00:33:36Don't worry.
00:33:37No, I know.
00:33:38I know.
00:33:38Good night.
00:33:39Good night.
00:33:40I really like my, we are developing feelings for each other.
00:33:44But you have to take so many things into consideration.
00:33:46And it's just, it's a wild ride.
00:33:50Maybe in the past, I've kind of told girls what they want to hear.
00:33:53But I don't want to just do that to you or to anybody else, honestly, in here.
00:33:56But it's just like, every single time we come here, nothing else, like, matters.
00:34:01I don't even think about, like, you talking to other guys.
00:34:03I know it's happening, but I'm confident in what we have so far.
00:34:06That's just, yeah, just like, really trust where we're at.
00:34:09You are starting to mean something to me.
00:34:11Yeah.
00:34:12The banter is easy, but it has felt very surface level.
00:34:19I just see parallels to my first relationship.
00:34:22Yeah.
00:34:23It was easy.
00:34:24It was good.
00:34:25And we never dug into anything until we were drunk.
00:34:28And it just felt, like, mediocre.
00:34:31I did not come here to have a mediocre relationship.
00:34:33Me and you are not mediocre.
00:34:35But, like, I just get so scared that, like, if both of us are afraid to open up,
00:34:40and if both of us are afraid to push each other, like, I am just...
00:34:44I believe in, like, what I've done, and, like, I don't want that.
00:34:50And I don't want that either.
00:34:53A lot of the relationships that I have had have stemmed...
00:35:04...from not feeling good enough and, like, the people that I try with are the ones that leave.
00:35:13So are you scared of getting hurt again?
00:35:16Yeah.
00:35:16I tell you, I feel that on a bunch of different ways and levels.
00:35:23It's happened.
00:35:24You love somebody.
00:35:26Mm-hmm.
00:35:26And they can just fucking leave like it's almost nothing.
00:35:31I want to let you know I'm not going to run.
00:35:36You're never going to feel a lack of effort from me.
00:35:38Yeah.
00:35:39You're not going to feel like, is he into it?
00:35:42I'm not going to leave.
00:35:43Yeah.
00:35:44I will never abandon you.
00:35:46You have given me everything that so far I could ask for.
00:35:51I don't think you give yourself enough credit for that.
00:36:02The journey that me and Connor have been on has been very lighthearted and easy.
00:36:07And today he was able to open up to me, which was a great turnaround.
00:36:17So I have mine and Mike's relationship and mine and Connor's relationship.
00:36:21What's up?
00:36:21Hi.
00:36:22What's up, dude?
00:36:23And then Steven.
00:36:24Steven is a silly, goofy boy.
00:36:27What are you wearing right now?
00:36:28I'm wearing brown leather pants, white heels, and like a Harry Winkle off the shoulder,
00:36:34long sleeve sweater.
00:36:35I'm wearing a nice cream, multi-textured button down with a red crop, not even crop top.
00:36:42It's like low, it's shorter than most shirts, but it's not a crop.
00:36:44If you were like a magazine, what would you be?
00:36:47Oh, GQ.
00:36:50That's a good one.
00:36:51Yeah.
00:36:51I would say men's health, but that's more like I'd have to be topless for it.
00:36:54Yeah.
00:36:55It's a lifelong goal of mine to be a Hanes underwear model.
00:36:58It just gives me the ick.
00:37:00So I'm just being a silly goose.
00:37:02I know, you are such a silly goose.
00:37:04I do like our dates.
00:37:05I do too.
00:37:06Um, but you can only pick one.
00:37:08Yeah, that is the thing.
00:37:09I cannot have brother husbands.
00:37:12And like, if you were my husband, what I am nervous about in serious situations.
00:37:18Like, can you not joke?
00:37:20Yeah.
00:37:20I know I joked about Hanes underwear model, but I definitely think I know the appropriate time
00:37:24to be funny and silly.
00:37:25I'm really deep.
00:37:28Okay.
00:37:29I'm still trying to figure out.
00:37:32Like what makes me tick?
00:37:34Yeah.
00:37:35I want you to be able to like get vulnerable and open up and like,
00:37:39I'm not asking you to cry.
00:37:40You want to see sad boy, Steve?
00:37:42You want to see the sensitive sensei?
00:37:44I, ew, okay, I'm leaving.
00:37:46That was such an ick.
00:37:47I have a playlist on my phone called sensitive sensei.
00:37:50No, please don't.
00:37:50It's all sad boy songs.
00:37:51Steven, I can't with you.
00:37:53I like aching.
00:37:54I hate that word.
00:37:55Sensei?
00:37:55Yeah.
00:37:56I don't know.
00:37:57It's like weird.
00:37:58Not to put a mirror up to you, but like, do you feel like you can have like hard conversations
00:38:03or like confront me without beating around the bush?
00:38:06Yes.
00:38:06It'll be uncomfortable, but I, I am ready to like,
00:38:09Like kids might not be in your future.
00:38:11Yeah.
00:38:11That's honestly cool with me.
00:38:12But do you feel like you could really like fully open up?
00:38:14Cause I feel like I could just like spill like tea about myself.
00:38:18Yeah.
00:38:19Do you feel like you could tell me about like the deepest darkest secrets that you're hiding?
00:38:22I mean, that's my hope.
00:38:24Like I, at the end of this, I want someone that knows me for me.
00:38:28I'm going to try to come up with some stuff to like, let you know and like share.
00:38:31Like, I'm not scared to share these things.
00:38:33We can get deep.
00:38:33Yeah.
00:38:34Steven, it's six days, boy, to the ring.
00:38:37I got to, I got to shape up.
00:38:39I know.
00:38:41It'd be fun.
00:38:42It would be fun.
00:38:45I have such strong connections with all three of the guys I've been talking to.
00:38:50I did not imagine going into this.
00:38:52Like this is the position I would be in.
00:38:57Oh my gosh.
00:38:58How cute.
00:38:59A little candle.
00:39:00It feels kind of like a real date.
00:39:04It does.
00:39:05I feel like each day I talk to you, I have a little bit better of like an outline picture
00:39:09of you.
00:39:09Yeah.
00:39:10Obviously, I want to see you and I want to see your face.
00:39:12And like, I want to touch you, but I really want to smell you.
00:39:15Fair enough.
00:39:16You know what I'm really excited about in Mexico?
00:39:18What's up?
00:39:19Coffee tequila.
00:39:20Oh, I never had that.
00:39:21Oh my gosh.
00:39:23Tequila was always trouble.
00:39:24Do you smoke?
00:39:25Nah, I don't.
00:39:27I don't.
00:39:27What about yourself?
00:39:28No.
00:39:28Mm-mm.
00:39:29Have you ever smoked?
00:39:30I mean, I have before.
00:39:32Yeah, but I'm not like a smoker.
00:39:34No, I used to smoke a little bit in high school.
00:39:38Have you ever?
00:39:39Yeah, I have.
00:39:40Tried it in high school.
00:39:41Wasn't my thing.
00:39:42Tried it once or twice again in college.
00:39:44Still not really my thing.
00:39:45I got a misdemeanor when I was 18.
00:39:48Did you?
00:39:49For what?
00:39:49For having weed on me.
00:39:51I had to get a lawyer and had to get it expunged.
00:39:54It was a mess.
00:39:54I also had a misdemeanor that got expunged.
00:39:58Really?
00:39:59Yeah.
00:40:00For what?
00:40:00Possession of marijuana.
00:40:02Yeah, well, look at that.
00:40:07Match made in heaven.
00:40:09That's hilarious.
00:40:10Any other run-ins with the law?
00:40:12Nothing crazy.
00:40:13Okay.
00:40:13By some parts of my adolescence, I was, like, attracted to and involved in, like, just,
00:40:20like, knucklehead behavior in my community.
00:40:22How old were you when you started to?
00:40:2414.
00:40:25Okay.
00:40:25Around age 14.
00:40:26Okay.
00:40:27By the time I was, like, maybe 18, going off to college, like, things were already changing by then.
00:40:32But I felt guilty perpetuating the way of living that people.
00:40:36We don't need to be living.
00:40:37We don't need to be normalizing at all.
00:40:39I think my issue is, like, the fear of having guilt in the future.
00:40:43My mom is tricky because she's never had much and she's never been taken care of.
00:40:48She's been through some really, really, really traumatic things, like, literally her whole life.
00:40:52So when that time comes, I'm afraid that I'm gonna, like, feel guilty that I didn't do enough
00:40:56or that I couldn't do enough.
00:40:58But also, she's created trauma in her kids and in her grandkids.
00:41:04And you play a role in your own life, too.
00:41:07Yeah.
00:41:08And, uh, so unfortunately, my mom's not healed.
00:41:12Mm.
00:41:13I've been really trying to push her to do therapy.
00:41:15She's like, I don't know how many years I have left.
00:41:17I don't want to spend my last five years bringing up all this awful stuff.
00:41:21Mm.
00:41:21I think it would be really beneficial for everybody to see her at least try.
00:41:27You just want to love on your mama.
00:41:29That's it.
00:41:29I do.
00:41:30It's tough and similar with my dad.
00:41:33My dad was not, uh, not the best dad when I was little.
00:41:38Mm.
00:41:39One of my really prevalent memories, I was maybe, like, 10 or so, driving home from somewhere,
00:41:44and I remember him swerving.
00:41:47Like, I remember him, like, falling asleep while driving.
00:41:49Okay.
00:41:50Somebody called it in and said, this car is swerving, like, there's a child in the car.
00:41:55Yeah.
00:41:56And when we got pulled over, my dad gave me a pill bottle to hold and to hide.
00:42:00Shit.
00:42:01And it's sad because, like, I think deep down my dad's probably, like, a decent human.
00:42:06It's just he's been affected by so much stuff his whole life.
00:42:10Right.
00:42:11And it makes me sad for him.
00:42:12He missed out on my sister.
00:42:14He missed out on me.
00:42:15I mean, look how you turned out, though.
00:42:17Yeah.
00:42:17And my sister's incredible, too.
00:42:19Have you forgiven him?
00:42:20No.
00:42:21Yes.
00:42:23I don't know.
00:42:23So I guess if I don't know, probably not.
00:42:26Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:42:27And that's all right.
00:42:28Mm-hmm.
00:42:29That's all right.
00:42:30I never thought I'd be emotional over anything.
00:42:32And I thought that I had a pretty good grasp on things.
00:42:37And obviously, I don't.
00:42:39You do.
00:42:39You got a good grasp.
00:42:41You're getting emotional because you're human.
00:42:43That's it.
00:42:43You're human.
00:42:45Yeah.
00:42:45Yeah.
00:42:46In my household, I had a stepfather that was, you know, around when I was young.
00:42:50He was, he always had, like, an alcohol problem.
00:42:53And I didn't think too much of it.
00:42:54And I remember one night, like, I heard, like, you know, fighting or something coming from
00:42:59another room.
00:43:00And I went to the door.
00:43:02My mom, like, kind of cricked open the door.
00:43:04And I remember seeing, like, like, a hand grab her hair and then the door closed.
00:43:09It was, like, one of the scariest things I've seen in my life.
00:43:12And I was young.
00:43:13I didn't know what to do.
00:43:15I felt, like, weak.
00:43:16You know, I'm, like, the only boy in the house, right?
00:43:18The man of the house, essentially, right?
00:43:20And I remember running to my sister's room.
00:43:22And I'm like, Deidre, Deidre.
00:43:24Deidre don't play.
00:43:26She's a little pit bull.
00:43:27She protects those who she loves, for sure.
00:43:30She, man, she got to that door, got in there, and all types of what I will do to you
00:43:36if you
00:43:36ever put your hands on my mother again.
00:43:39Even with all that, like, I forgive that man.
00:43:43I forgive that man.
00:43:45Do you think your mom is healed from that?
00:43:49Yeah, she is.
00:43:50Yeah.
00:43:50My mom is strong.
00:43:52We got him out the house, ran him up out of there.
00:43:56And much time has passed since.
00:43:58Much time has passed since I know she's healed.
00:44:00Everybody in your life sounds really good women, really good people.
00:44:05Yeah.
00:44:06You get along with them.
00:44:07Yeah.
00:44:08So today I was reflecting.
00:44:10I wrote, I can't see her, but I see her, this invisible woman.
00:44:17She's God-fearing.
00:44:18She's intelligent.
00:44:19She's nurturing.
00:44:21She's resilient.
00:44:23She's kind, loyal, confident.
00:44:26She's a good vibe.
00:44:28She's a big softie.
00:44:29She has great musical taste.
00:44:31She's warm, beautiful.
00:44:34She deserves the world.
00:44:36She's Christine.
00:44:37Darling, I will be loving you till we're 17.
00:44:44That was really beautiful.
00:44:45That's what I think about you.
00:44:47Which I really appreciate because I think dating in the real world, guys might quote unquote fall for me because
00:44:53I'm like good on paper, but they don't love me.
00:44:56Mm-hmm.
00:44:57They don't know me.
00:44:59That's crazy how after just a short period of time, like I do feel like you really know me and
00:45:03you get me.
00:45:04Yeah.
00:45:04So it means a lot to hear you say those things.
00:45:07Of course, you make it easy to say these things.
00:45:11People fall in love in mysterious ways.
00:45:17It's funny, like how hard it is to find somebody has to check the same morals as you, also like
00:45:23the job, family oriented or educated or whatever it may be.
00:45:27It's like how hard is it to find somebody that has the things that you want, is ready for the
00:45:32things that you want at the same time as you are.
00:45:36Right.
00:45:37But then also the energy is there, like the connection is there, the chemistry is there, like that spark is
00:45:43there, the love is there.
00:45:45It just seems almost impossible, but it's feeling really real.
00:45:49I mean, it is real.
00:45:50I don't want to be corny, not like that you were made for me kind of thing, but, uh.
00:45:54You could say that.
00:45:56It does just feel, I don't know, it's just incredible.
00:46:03I agree completely.
00:46:04Maybe we found love right where we are.
00:46:11Maybe we found love right where we are.
00:46:19Questions?
00:46:20Yeah.
00:46:21Are you talking to Emma or just?
00:46:23What?
00:46:24Are you?
00:46:24I didn't know if that was your number one.
00:46:25I was like, no.
00:46:26No, it's not, it's not.
00:46:27That's mine.
00:46:27Yeah, that's my number one.
00:46:29It is?
00:46:29Yeah.
00:46:30Got you, got you.
00:46:30I feel like Emma's really energetic, really bubbly.
00:46:33I appreciate her, like, wanting to peel back, like, another layer of me.
00:46:36And maybe she doesn't want kids, but you're here to find a wife.
00:46:40You're not here to find, like, a baby factory.
00:46:43Let's get it.
00:46:43Good luck, boys.
00:46:46What size ring do you wear, by the way?
00:46:48You'll figure it out.
00:46:49Okay, so mysterious all the time.
00:46:52No, but, no, but it leads to things.
00:46:54Okay.
00:46:55But no, I have small hands.
00:46:56Okay, that sort of leads me to another conclusion.
00:46:59But, so, you're like, we're not getting deep.
00:47:03Let's go there.
00:47:04Are we ready to go there?
00:47:05I'll start here.
00:47:08I, I was adopted, um, at the age of three.
00:47:11Okay.
00:47:12So, when you were talking about adoption, I was like, hello, but I, um.
00:47:16You should have spoke.
00:47:17You should, I feel like that was a perfect intro to be like.
00:47:19No, but it wasn't, because I don't want it to be a fun fact.
00:47:22My parents are my fam, like, my family's my family, and I don't feel the need to figure
00:47:29out where I came from.
00:47:30Are any of your siblings adopted with you, or is it just, like.
00:47:33Um, it's just me.
00:47:35I feel like, obviously, it's going to identify something about you that maybe you haven't,
00:47:39like, shared with me yet.
00:47:41I'm a little mentalist, by the way, if you can't tell.
00:47:44I don't, I don't like that you try to guess.
00:47:46You don't like that I guess things?
00:47:47I like that you guess things.
00:47:48I don't like that you try to guess things about my appearance.
00:47:50It's not about your appearance.
00:47:52Is it not?
00:47:53No, I.
00:47:54I just feel like I'm trying to get to know you fully.
00:47:56I've kind of been taking this process.
00:47:59Like a shy girl, like hiding.
00:48:03Dude, you know how I feel about adoption.
00:48:05Do you feel like you have, like, the desire, like, I know you, like, I don't know if I
00:48:11want kids or not, but like, do you feel like if you did have kids, do you feel like you
00:48:13would, like, sort of want to, like, adopt a kid just because, like, you know how it's
00:48:17like?
00:48:21Yeah, I think if I wanted kids, I'd like to adopt.
00:48:24Yeah.
00:48:25There we go.
00:48:27The whole point is, like, not to hide things from the other side of the wall, right?
00:48:36I wanted to go on this show because I really like the idea of, like, the physical, like,
00:48:43being kind of, like, removed from it.
00:48:45Do you feel like you've just been, like, people have been, like, just about the physicality
00:48:48of it all?
00:48:49Yeah, and so...
00:48:59You there?
00:49:00Yeah, I'm thinking.
00:49:01I'm just...
00:49:02Processing.
00:49:03I'm processing.
00:49:05So when I was born, I was actually born with a birthmark covering my whole arm.
00:49:10Okay.
00:49:11I had a high chance of melanoma, so I had about 10 surgeries before the age of, like, seven
00:49:20to remove my birthmarks.
00:49:23The biggest one was on my arm, but I have birthmarks, like, all over my body that I have
00:49:32to get checked, like, every year.
00:49:33And I think this was something that I struggled with, like, growing up because, like, it just
00:49:41felt like an elephant in the room.
00:49:42It's not anything, like, hindering my, like, abilities to do anything, but, like, I do think
00:49:47it's impacted the way people see me on dates, impacted the way, like, I am perceived when
00:49:52you're growing up and...
00:49:53Going to the pool or something.
00:49:55Yeah.
00:49:56Yeah.
00:49:56It's just something...
00:49:58Those two things are kind of, like, a part of me that both have...
00:50:02Affected, like, your...
00:50:03Affected my life, but I don't know.
00:50:05Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:50:07Are you getting sad over there?
00:50:11Yeah.
00:50:12I feel like you don't want to be asked questions about it right now.
00:50:16I can get you out of this funk, girl.
00:50:18You want me to get you out of this funk?
00:50:20I'll tell you, like, how far I'm willing to go to share details about my life.
00:50:23Let me tell you about my first kiss.
00:50:25Ready?
00:50:26Okay.
00:50:26So I went to AMC in eighth grade with this girl, Fallon.
00:50:30Okay.
00:50:30We saw a movie.
00:50:32I was so nervous because I feel like I've heard all my friends at this point, like,
00:50:35sixth grade, seventh grade, and they'd be like, oh, my God, like, I just made out, blah, blah,
00:50:38blah, behind the park.
00:50:39And I was like, what?
00:50:40Like, I felt like I was a really late bloomer.
00:50:41But we went to AMC.
00:50:43Then we went to Barnes & Noble right next door.
00:50:45And we were listening to music, like, sharing, like, headphones.
00:50:48Both had braces.
00:50:49Super probably ugly to see.
00:50:50But then, yeah, we just turned to each other and she's like, I like you.
00:50:53And, like, we kissed each other.
00:50:56Cute.
00:50:57It was very cute.
00:50:58Tell me, like, about your first kiss.
00:51:00Not memorable.
00:51:01I was in high school.
00:51:02Oh, wow.
00:51:04Yeah, it was high school and it was with a, with a boy and it was not memorable at all.
00:51:11High school with a boy?
00:51:12Yeah, like, it was just like.
00:51:14So deep.
00:51:15Are you comfortable telling me about, like, how you lost your virginity?
00:51:18Yeah, I lost in college.
00:51:20Oh, I thought I was a late bloomer, too.
00:51:23God, you're beating me.
00:51:25I don't, I don't like this.
00:51:26I don't like the comment of late bloomer.
00:51:29I think everyone is on their own journey.
00:51:31Yeah, no, I just felt like I was behind, like, all my friends.
00:51:34Yeah, I, I didn't date in high school.
00:51:36I wasn't a huge dater.
00:51:40So in college, it wasn't romantic.
00:51:45I, I, um, started talking to this guy.
00:51:48We liked each other and we just, we just.
00:51:52Did it?
00:51:53Did it.
00:51:53Was it, like, early in college, like, freshman year type thing?
00:51:55I was just like, I got, it is what it is.
00:51:58I like this guy.
00:51:59He likes me.
00:52:00Like, let's just see how it is.
00:52:03So, like, 19, 20.
00:52:07Mine's, like, beautiful.
00:52:08It's sort of, like, notebook-esque.
00:52:10I dated this girl for, like, a year.
00:52:12Loved her.
00:52:13I just remember we were watching, like, a love movie.
00:52:15Like, a bunch of light was coming in.
00:52:17We were, like, laying on this floor.
00:52:18And I just remember she's, like, hey, like, I just want to say, like, I love you and I
00:52:21really appreciate you, like, just, like, waiting for me and, like, not pressuring you.
00:52:25Yeah, yeah.
00:52:26And she, like, gave me a kiss and she's, like, I think I'm ready to have sex.
00:52:29Aw.
00:52:30And then we had sex.
00:52:31And it was beautiful.
00:52:32It was, like, the notebook.
00:52:33I literally feel like I had the notebook, like, Virginia scene.
00:52:36And then, um, yeah, the morning after we had sex everywhere.
00:52:39But.
00:52:40I actually have never seen the notebook.
00:52:42Come on.
00:52:43No, I actually haven't.
00:52:44You never saw, like, the abandoned house scene on the floor?
00:52:47No.
00:52:47Like, the creaky wood floor where they just lay her down and.
00:52:50Nope.
00:52:50Rachel McAdams can't deny him.
00:52:52No, I actually didn't.
00:52:54Come on.
00:52:55You got to add the notebook.
00:52:57I can't believe you never added it before.
00:52:58Like, no girls have talked about it in high school.
00:53:01Yeah.
00:53:01I feel like every girlfriend I ever had watched the notebook with me.
00:53:05Yeah, never, never seen the notebook.
00:53:07Just to set the expectation.
00:53:08Just to be like, this is what I demand.
00:53:10I watched the beat of my own drum, Steven.
00:53:12I, I don't need people to tell me what to do.
00:53:18He's telling you what to do.
00:53:21I feel like you've been walled off from me.
00:53:24I feel like you were, like, go deep.
00:53:26And I'm like, okay.
00:53:27And I've gotten deep.
00:53:28First kiss, even, like, Virginia stories, when I, like, ask you, it's, like, a guy in high school.
00:53:32A guy in high school.
00:53:33But it was a guy in high school.
00:53:34I feel like your first kiss is different than a kiss in college with a random guy.
00:53:39Yeah, but I don't think my first kiss was special.
00:53:41And that's, that's my story.
00:53:42No one wanted me in high school.
00:53:44No one wanted me up until college.
00:53:46Okay.
00:53:47You think you can latch on to the first person that cares about you.
00:53:56And those boys didn't care about me.
00:53:58And I, I don't think they were worth painting a picture of.
00:54:10Okay.
00:54:12I'm sorry I'm listening.
00:54:13I'm just, I feel like this is a conversation for another one.
00:54:16And, like, the, the comment about being a late bloomer.
00:54:24Like, these are comments that, like, kind of rub me the wrong way.
00:54:28And, like, just the interrupting.
00:54:30I think it was.
00:54:31I don't, okay.
00:54:33I feel like I didn't interrupt, to be honest.
00:54:35It doesn't have to be put back on me, like, you did something wrong.
00:54:38No, okay, I'm sorry.
00:54:38It can be, like, I'm just not feeling this.
00:54:40But this is what I am feeling.
00:54:42Yeah, you, you can't see how I'm reacting on the other side of the wall.
00:54:45I was very, like, you know, intent.
00:54:47And I was, like, really taking it in.
00:54:49And I feel like now it's, like, I just feel like you're trying to paint it like I reacted wrong.
00:54:53Where I'm, like, I feel like I had a great response to all of this.
00:54:55I just don't think.
00:54:57You're going to get there?
00:54:58I'm going to get there.
00:54:59And I just believe that my connections.
00:55:03Are stronger with other people.
00:55:04Are stronger with other people.
00:55:06And that's, like, yeah, that's, that's fine.
00:55:10I just don't think we're the right people for each other.
00:55:14No, that's fine.
00:55:16Okay.
00:55:26We're done.
00:55:28Hi, babe.
00:55:31Oh, no.
00:55:32Oh, no.
00:55:36Oh, Emma.
00:55:38It's not going to work for me.
00:55:41Jesus Christ.
00:55:43I open up to him about my story.
00:55:48And, like, I'm not victimizing myself, but I know.
00:55:54You didn't do anything wrong.
00:55:55You did nothing wrong.
00:55:57You did exactly what you were supposed to do.
00:56:00You open up about your story.
00:56:01I did my way.
00:56:02You did nothing wrong.
00:56:03You did it Emma's way.
00:56:04Oh, my goodness.
00:56:05Emma, I'm sorry.
00:56:06That was your experience.
00:56:07I'm, now I'm fucking afraid of going into the next one.
00:56:10So tell it to me straight.
00:56:12Cause I just want to know what's in your heart.
00:56:16So I can let you go.
00:56:21I feel blessed that I found Christina in this experience.
00:56:25I'm in awe.
00:56:26And I'm excited.
00:56:27And I'm in love.
00:56:28I was in a pretty severe car accident.
00:56:32I broke my neck and my back in many places.
00:56:35So I went and got angel wings on the very top of my spine to signify my protection and my
00:56:45blessings.
00:56:46By the grace of God, right?
00:56:47Yes.
00:56:47Wow.
00:56:48Do you still follow your exes on social media?
00:56:51My ex ex?
00:56:52No.
00:56:53What does that even mean?
00:56:55There's like a handful of guys that I've dated in the past couple years.
00:56:58But like, no.
00:56:59Do I get to reciprocate?
00:57:00Mine is very quick.
00:57:01No.
00:57:01Okay.
00:57:02Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:57:02All right, good.
00:57:04I like that.
00:57:05So people that you've dated in the past, do you feel like you date pretty similar people?
00:57:08Like very feminine women, very intelligent.
00:57:11How about appearance-wise?
00:57:13Oh, like cultural?
00:57:14Yeah, yeah.
00:57:15Oh, the gamut.
00:57:16I've been in serious relationships with like black women, white women, Latina women.
00:57:21In New York, you're exposed to so much different like cultures and ethnicities and just like,
00:57:25where is your heart?
00:57:26Where are our values aligned?
00:57:28And the cultural elements, less of a care there.
00:57:31Okay.
00:57:31Babe, what about yourself?
00:57:33Same.
00:57:34And I wouldn't want to date somebody who like only dates this.
00:57:39Yo, that is real.
00:57:41Yep.
00:57:42What pushes you to want to get married?
00:57:44The family aspect is in there, but then I think there's something beautiful about merging
00:57:47into one.
00:57:49I can just really see and feel like your genuine, like kind, loving heart.
00:57:56You have a gift.
00:57:58Are there things you think we need to share with each other that we haven't shared?
00:58:01At this point.
00:58:02If it was something really important and really critical to me, I would have asked or I would
00:58:06have inquired already.
00:58:08I think that I'd be able to compliment you well.
00:58:10I think I'll be able to compliment you well, too.
00:58:12Yeah.
00:58:13When I, like, don't run away from what I think about you, what I know about you, what I feel
00:58:19about you, there's no other way I could frame it or articulate it outside of, like, I love
00:58:25you.
00:58:25I love you, too, Vic.
00:58:27I love you, Christine.
00:58:29I love you, too.
00:58:31In the pods is giving us the opportunity to do something we typically wouldn't do, which
00:58:35is express yourself.
00:58:37Say what you feel.
00:58:38I have a prayer that I wrote this morning that I would like to share with you.
00:58:42Oh, yes, please.
00:58:43Okay.
00:58:43I'm going to stand.
00:58:44I'll stand with you.
00:58:46Dear Heavenly Father, we come to you today in prayer and ask for continued love, patience,
00:58:54and understanding, and an eagerness to grow deeper.
00:58:59May we open our hearts and may we open our minds throughout this unique journey as we further
00:59:05this walk towards a marriage.
00:59:07Amen.
00:59:08Amen.
00:59:09And amen and amen.
00:59:11I literally wrote amen and amen.
00:59:14That was beautiful.
00:59:15That was beautiful.
00:59:17You're like a dream come true, you know what I mean?
00:59:18I feel the same.
00:59:20I want you in my life forever.
00:59:25Can you hear me?
00:59:26Yeah.
00:59:28Well, I can't see you, but I see you.
00:59:31I know.
00:59:33Christine Louise Hamilton.
00:59:37Will you marry me?
00:59:43Of course I will.
00:59:47Yes.
00:59:48Of course I will.
00:59:52Oh.
00:59:54This is the beginning.
00:59:55Just the beginning.
00:59:58I love you.
01:00:00I love you too.
01:00:07This is for a lifetime.
01:00:12What up?
01:00:12What up, dude?
01:00:14I'm gonna hand me a wife.
01:00:38I'm a strong independent woman.
01:00:39I don't need no man.
01:00:41I am worried about like sleeping with a man again
01:00:43and I've become so much more 2D.
01:00:45Like, I don't know if I fart in my sleep.
01:00:47Oh my God, okay, yes.
01:00:48I'll just won't sleep.
01:00:50Oh my God.
01:00:54What do I do?
01:00:56Fuck.
01:01:02No, we just did that.
01:01:04Okay, I know, I know.
01:01:05You're scared right now.
01:01:08All right, we're gonna have to send you out.
01:01:10Mm-hmm.
01:01:12Mm-hmm.
01:01:16Crapbook is my name.
01:01:20Don't stand in my way.
01:01:24How to play or not to play.
01:01:28When it's more than just a game.
01:01:41Oh, it's more than just a game.
01:01:43Oh, it's more than just a game.
01:01:56Oh, it's more than just a game.
01:02:31Oh, it's more than just a game.
01:02:32So, you
01:02:32don't get to play, right?
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