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00:18:31oh i'm featured right now am i that's actually pretty cool
00:18:40welcome everyone who's watching from the front page
00:18:51damn really is there really 1600 all right well from there i've been doing a lot of soul searching
00:19:02over the last several years and it led me back to the point where i wanted to sink my life
00:19:09into
00:19:09breath of the wild and stream it nadaran thank you very much
00:19:233000 that's insane thank you
00:19:28thank you very much
00:19:35what do you do for a living and feel free to not answer
00:19:39any of this obviously
00:19:48oh golly gosh i don't even know your name is alex
00:19:54now i know
00:19:59i'm from another galaxy
00:20:02oh no i live alone
00:20:04i kind of like to have my own space but also
00:20:08if i'm alone
00:20:12then it's lonely
00:20:15well i should probably go to sleep
00:20:18oh you just got home i'm sorry i'm sorry
00:20:21i gotta go to bed i have to
00:20:26i guess i kind of stream so that sometimes i am part of people's daily routine
00:20:30it's kind of cool to have people tuning in regularly and kind of coming along the journey with me
00:20:39uh peace out goodbye
00:20:43i bet you can bow spin to do that
00:20:44but bow spinning also doesn't get as many hits so you need more stamina so
00:20:50narcy what's up
00:20:51sitting stable at like 10 plus viewers it's just like it's fucking amazing
00:20:57like seriously like it means it really means so much to me that you guys fucking like
00:21:04come around to watch me be bad at games
00:21:06if i could have any pet
00:21:07it would be either a skunk or a bat
00:21:12katarina says
00:21:18i'm d girl i like your username
00:21:21d stands for dick and to death to your foes
00:21:24d girl have you ever had soil
00:21:27it tastes really good
00:21:30i'll go to bed for narcy on a lot of things
00:21:32but not for that fucking soil and shit
00:21:35what was that on the ground
00:21:36was that like a nut or something
00:21:40or should i say nut nut nut
00:21:44this is the way i am to people i like
00:21:46so if i'm giving you shit it's probably because i like you
00:22:03i really love the people here honestly
00:22:06not to get all like soppy and shit
00:22:08i'm getting a little emotional
00:22:11this is magical
00:22:13oh my god there's a star
00:22:20they're gobstoppers
00:22:27d girl will you be my d girlfriend
00:22:39i think i'm dating narcy
00:22:41i don't know
00:22:47d girl i've been thinking about you being here
00:23:11i like the view up here
00:23:13i feel like i'm in a high point of my life suddenly
00:23:15and i think this game is partially to thank for that
00:23:23someone chopped down a tree
00:23:24and like launched it super far
00:23:26but then link pulls the paraglider
00:23:29and it actually maintains the momentum from the ragdoll physics
00:23:33and i'm like oh my god
00:23:44okay like look at this tree right
00:23:50this looks bad actually
00:23:51this one right here
00:23:53this one
00:24:12i guess we want to go more this way
00:24:22hey here's your sister
00:24:23i'm calling up to say hi
00:24:25give me a call sometime
00:24:27all right i love you
00:24:28five new voicemail from mom
00:24:30hi my darling
00:24:32should hear a voice
00:24:33all right sweetheart
00:24:34hang in there
00:24:35i love you
00:24:37call me when you're free
00:24:38bye
00:24:42oh
00:24:49oh
00:24:49oh
00:24:49oh
00:24:50wait why
00:24:54all right this is doable i think
00:24:56we can do this
00:24:58let's fucking go
00:25:01no that's what i call speedrunning
00:25:05she just started her own let's go
00:25:08i'm disrupting speedrunning much like i did in 2011
00:25:12i want to be the single greatest player of this game
00:25:15nine hours and 38 minutes
00:25:175-0-4-11
00:25:183-51-50
00:25:20there's a whole journey to it
00:25:22there's the magic to it
00:25:23there's dreams
00:25:24learning and improving
00:25:25keeping people company during lonely nights
00:25:46i can't get up this
00:25:47it's too high up
00:25:48but i think i can jump it with this
00:25:49you take a bomb
00:25:51you place the bomb
00:25:53then it's like
00:25:53shield
00:25:55backflip and detonate
00:25:56forward air jump
00:25:57shield surf
00:25:59paraglider
00:26:01and then you climb up the wall
00:26:03i need to do it all really fast and accurately
00:26:05so let me try it's like
00:26:09wait
00:26:10it's hard to do
00:26:16oh my god come on
00:26:21come on
00:26:22why did that work though
00:26:23what the fuck
00:26:25i started today feeling very adequate
00:26:27and now i feel like kind of inadequate
00:26:34it's okay
00:26:35it's okay for me to be a mess on stream sometimes
00:26:37it's okay
00:26:38i have self-image issues like a lot
00:26:43being trans
00:26:45you walk this fine line between being like
00:26:49a goddess and a monster
00:26:55it's hard for me to explain this
00:26:57but sometimes it feels like i
00:27:01am really not
00:27:05enough or
00:27:07i'm not enough
00:27:08or i'm not like where i want to be with myself
00:27:10i don't want to feel like i'm like this
00:27:12but she doesn't got to point both
00:28:02a group of people showed up and we're like we're with something we're looking for jake
00:28:08for people who are having trouble and then i said i'm not jake and then they said well
00:28:12what's your name and then i was like if you don't know my name then go away and then they're
00:28:20like
00:28:20okay but can we leave a card and i'm like okay fine
00:28:27mental health crisis services i wish i asked them more questions like how the fuck like why are you
00:28:48here
00:28:49i need a fucking cloth
00:29:22like that
00:29:29so
00:29:37so
00:29:42so
00:29:51so
00:29:59so
00:30:14so
00:30:18so
00:30:30i think i've been very desperate for any attention
00:30:33and thus the people who show me negative attention i seek it out
00:30:40i've read more hate than you can imagine i've read thousands and thousands of hate messages
00:30:47towards me
00:30:49kill trans people and like kill these freaks
00:30:53cosmo's not my name my name isn't cosmo my name isn't cosmo my name is narcissus
00:30:58oh this is like transphobic shit i feel like i started to internalize some of that shit
00:31:03watching this stream right now in hopes
00:31:17people reacted really negatively to anything that was apparently some sort of weakness
00:31:21so i fucking blew up the weaknesses i pressed myself up against the wall and did some crazy
00:31:27shit please support me please flush all your credibility and dignity down the toilet
00:31:33okay would you shut up maybe i've caused a little damage certainly other people have
00:31:38caused some damage to me it's like i want to respond to all their comments what's going
00:31:42on in your life on the other side of the screen another fucking coward goodbye you are coming
00:31:47into random people's chats being a bigot being a total piece of shit
00:31:55i complain about people being negative towards me
00:32:01you talking shit about me on youtube not even a week ago
00:32:12then it causes another whole group of negativity to spawn off of that
00:32:19i can almost date these people into spreading my image all over the place even though it's
00:32:24really negative
00:32:31i'm so lost how do i navigate this fucking online experience
00:32:54how are you i've been a bit emotional lately
00:32:58i've been a bit emotional lately it's great to be emotional and it's great to be deep and aware
00:33:03what you are of the world and everything but mostly you shouldn't be crying a lot
00:33:18i know i should probably be calling more often
00:33:30i should probably be calling more often
00:33:40because we just drink all of our sorrows away
00:33:58i feel like i'm in a mental rut and i'm never gonna pull myself out of it
00:34:07okay
00:34:09if anyone in my chat
00:34:10is like a counselor or a therapist
00:34:14dealing with people
00:34:15who have depression
00:34:17let's have a conversation
00:34:18publicly
00:34:21twitch must
00:34:22be my all and my everything
00:34:25it must be
00:34:27it has to be public
00:34:30no
00:34:31stop doubting the power of the internet
00:34:42I feel isolated
00:34:43I feel it
00:34:47I feel really lonely
00:34:48I don't feel like I have friends
00:34:53I think that I don't know
00:34:54how to be friends with people
00:34:57me interacting with people
00:34:58IRL is like me being really shy
00:35:00and closed
00:35:02and then like
00:35:03having trouble connecting
00:35:06that's my experience
00:35:13I have this queen size bed
00:35:15it's like all I want to do
00:35:17is like roll around with someone
00:35:20and like
00:35:23I just don't
00:35:27I'm just alone
00:35:29I'm just alone
00:35:44alright
00:35:56oh my god
00:35:58oh my god
00:35:58and oh my god
00:35:59why
00:36:02Jesus
00:36:03too much is happening right now
00:36:08okay
00:36:09voice chat with me right now
00:36:15it's ringing
00:36:16it's ringing
00:36:17hi
00:36:18I don't know like
00:36:19where do you feel we are right now
00:36:20I feel not alone
00:36:22right now
00:36:23yeah
00:36:23I feel like I'm sharing my time
00:36:25and space with you
00:36:26yeah but I don't
00:36:27I don't get to like
00:36:28wake up next to you and shit
00:36:29that's almost not even
00:36:30just okay like look
00:36:31there's like physical
00:36:32into this
00:36:33it is absolutely
00:36:34okay it is
00:36:35it is
00:36:35it is
00:36:37it bums me out
00:36:38man
00:36:38let's hear what's my guitar
00:36:46it bums me out
00:36:52it bums me out
00:36:55yeah
00:36:57this is beautiful
00:36:58it bums me out
00:37:03your voice is so beautiful
00:37:05it bums me out
00:37:10and if I could be
00:37:13in your apartment
00:37:16and you could be
00:37:19in southern california
00:37:22all the time
00:37:28all the time
00:37:45it's me
00:37:46it's d girl
00:37:49this is only our first date
00:37:50come on
00:37:51you gotta fucking
00:37:52take it slow
00:37:53I opened up
00:37:54Narcy's fridge
00:37:55it
00:37:57is
00:37:58only
00:37:59soylent
00:37:59and then
00:38:00a fucking
00:38:01jar of peanut butter
00:38:02I died
00:38:04the moment I opened it
00:38:07it
00:38:07it tastes like
00:38:08fucking mold
00:38:09so
00:38:10she keeps her room
00:38:11dark
00:38:12with
00:38:14fucking garbage bags
00:38:15in the window
00:38:16it's like
00:38:17it's kind of a nightmare
00:38:19I'm
00:38:20I'm
00:38:20gonna be
00:38:21nesting so
00:38:22fucking hard
00:38:23nesting
00:38:24we're gonna upgrade
00:38:25so much shit
00:38:25in your apartment
00:38:26that's okay
00:38:27I'll fucking
00:38:27upgrade it
00:38:29yes
00:38:30damn
00:38:31alright
00:38:32thank you
00:38:32for tuning in
00:38:37I'll see you
00:38:39later
00:38:49we've been
00:38:50improving my place
00:38:50basically
00:38:51yeah
00:38:53I'm
00:38:53trying to make her
00:38:54have a apartment
00:38:54like an adult
00:38:55I'm actually like
00:38:56super hungry
00:38:57suddenly
00:38:57I want some pizza
00:38:58now
00:38:59we can just get it
00:39:00but
00:39:01we need to like
00:39:02end this
00:39:03stream
00:39:03no
00:39:03do another
00:39:04time
00:39:07these are here
00:39:09I'll be right back
00:39:10when I get
00:39:10Lisa
00:39:14that's been good
00:39:15there's this person
00:39:16there with me
00:39:17and like I'm not
00:39:18being like
00:39:19harshly judged
00:39:19and like
00:39:21we're like
00:39:22doing cool shit
00:39:22and like
00:39:23improving things
00:39:24and it just felt
00:39:25really like
00:39:25I felt like
00:39:26this bond
00:39:27and it was really
00:39:28fucking good
00:39:28and I just started
00:39:29like crying
00:39:29really hard
00:39:30and it was like
00:39:31incredibly fucking
00:39:32like
00:39:32it felt almost
00:39:33like therapeutic
00:39:34it felt like
00:39:34extremely good
00:39:36I think she's back
00:39:38cool
00:39:42hey
00:39:43hey
00:39:44cool
00:39:46how are you
00:39:46just going
00:39:47um
00:39:49I still haven't
00:39:50left the plateau
00:39:52I'm about to start
00:39:53another one I guess
00:39:54although I could
00:39:55use a slice
00:39:55I could use a slice
00:39:57super tempered slice
00:39:58okay
00:39:59we're going back
00:40:00to IRL
00:40:28I'll see you next time
00:40:30I'll see you next time
00:41:30Oh, this is the run.
00:41:37Yes, first try.
00:41:42We're heading to the airport later tonight.
00:41:44And that'll be the end of our five-day vacation.
00:41:49I'm squeezing every last possible second out of the day, Norsi.
00:41:54Yes, this is world record pace.
00:41:57Adrenaline pumping through my veins.
00:42:00Holy shit.
00:42:11Oh my fucking god, no.
00:42:15I think I just lost one minute.
00:42:21I've failed the tree launches every fucking run lately.
00:42:23I don't understand why.
00:42:25Still a minute ahead.
00:42:38I staced it too, really.
00:42:40So it didn't go.
00:42:42It wasn't disconnected from the bottom yet.
00:42:45I'm so bummed.
00:42:47Like, what the fuck?
00:42:48Okay, it's over.
00:42:49It's actually over.
00:42:50I'm so fucking sad.
00:42:51That's it.
00:42:51Like, there's no more.
00:42:53That's it.
00:42:54I could have had it and I didn't get it.
00:42:55It's over.
00:42:57The run's over.
00:43:03It's time to go.
00:43:39It's over.
00:43:40It's over.
00:43:41It's over.
00:43:42It's over.
00:43:42It's over.
00:43:42It's over.
00:43:43It's over.
00:43:45It's over.
00:43:46It's over.
00:43:47It's over.
00:43:48It's over.
00:43:48It's over.
00:43:49It's over.
00:43:49It's over.
00:43:52It's over.
00:44:18okay I'll use those play games or something I don't know how's life for everybody I missed
00:44:24you too but it's been replaced by missing Narcy even more like I really like her so nice the line
00:44:37is it
00:44:37was a gaycation but we just haven't gotten we haven't like hammered out shit
00:45:06what I miss is feeling like the universe loves me and that everything was good
00:45:15a lot of my ego is built out of the impact I had before and I feel like I don't
00:45:23have that impact
00:45:23anymore and it it really hurts me feels like I've failed if I can't reach that
00:45:33hello hello let's hatch out everything we are to each other right now I'm gonna start a new run
00:45:38while we're chatting so you're saying that like you would kind of want to develop something with me
00:45:46I mean I'd like to think I'm building a relationship
00:45:51I've kind of designed my life in a way where I can just focus in on a few things that
00:45:57I really want
00:45:58to work towards okay so what do you want I want to be idolized by my viewers 20,000 viewers
00:46:07or bus
00:46:25if this is the record then we must post a reddit thread called absolutely disgusting record by
00:46:31Narcissa do I still think I can get over 10,000 viewers in breath of the wild yes I do
00:46:36I certainly do clear your minds for this jump we're actually on pace for fucking sub 340 it's unbelievable
00:46:56I want this one I want to finish this one I want this to be the one
00:47:09oh my god that was fucking miraculous oh my fucking god
00:47:32this beats the record by minutes may I ask do you really remember me peace and love peace and love
00:47:44and remember
00:47:46trans girls rule breath of the wild
00:48:02the current world record holder on Zelda Ocarina of Time
00:48:09you immediately have an audience right oh absolutely several thousand usually tune in for Zelda
00:48:20I was at the precipice and now I'm like a fallen star I want to feel like I'm on top
00:48:30of the world
00:48:33I feel like I'm being swallowed by it
00:48:52no one in the world gives a fuck
00:48:56it turns out life is not a fairy tale after all
00:49:03turns out everyone abandons the fuck out of you
00:49:05everything I've done up until now
00:49:09it was all over nothing
00:49:12I will never succeed in the way I succeeded in the past
00:49:20this stream will never fucking be big again
00:49:22it'll never fucking happen I'm not relatable anymore
00:49:25it doesn't matter if I'm the best fucking player in the world of this game
00:49:27no one fucking cares
00:49:29I've gone from being the superstar to the fallen star plummeting into earth like a fucking comet
00:49:36slamming down creating a shockwave and burying in my fucking chasm so deep as everyone piles on
00:49:42and pushes me down into the caverns of darkness where I'm crowned the queen of hell
00:49:50they think I'm a deranged freak who's delusional and should kill myself
00:49:56they only fucking watch me if I'm raving
00:50:00so the only solution is just to fucking go nuclear
00:50:09I am the monster that you all created
00:50:15these fucking people watching and observing me as I sit here and fucking literally struggle
00:50:21I fucking hate this game I hate people who watch a video game
00:50:24that fucking twitch and viewership is so fucking
00:50:26you all have such fucking poor tastes
00:50:27I fucking hate you
00:50:53so what happens if I call that phone number
00:50:56you get to talk to your counselor
00:50:59and my phone is right here
00:51:05suicide prevention lifeline
00:51:06um well I cut off all my hair and
00:51:12I guess it was like an act of self-harm
00:51:17and
00:51:19feeling kind of hopeless
00:51:23it's like
00:51:25people want to see me fail
00:51:29and anytime there's any sort of sign of weakness
00:51:31they pinpoint it and like harass me
00:51:33and like pick out of like a scab until I'm squeezed
00:51:35and I'm bleeding
00:51:38I mean I guess I just have like a certain level of visibility
00:51:41so they're like jealous or something
00:51:42I don't know
00:51:43but like there's a lot of like sick twisted feelings
00:51:45I get out of it
00:51:46and it just makes me like
00:51:47feel like humanity in general is kind of evil
00:51:50and that like every single entity on this planet
00:51:52is just like self-interested
00:51:55and that friendship is an illusion
00:51:57and that love is an illusion
00:51:58and that like I'm just like incredibly fucking alone
00:52:00I'm just like a fucking alien on this planet
00:52:04it just feels easier to like damage a social connection
00:52:08than it does to grow it
00:52:10yeah
00:52:11I'll get through tonight
00:52:12definitely
00:52:16alright bye
00:52:25well that was okay I guess
00:52:36why weren't you all watching
00:52:39when I broke the Breath of the Wild record
00:52:41I could have really used your support
00:52:49I think I'm an attention addict
00:52:55thanks
00:52:57be
00:53:57You did it live on stream?
00:54:02I don't know.
00:54:03I just hope she's going to be okay.
00:54:09Hello?
00:54:10Hey.
00:54:12What do you feel?
00:54:13I, like, ruined myself by cutting my hair off.
00:54:18And you didn't ruin yourself.
00:54:20You just fucking cut your hair off.
00:54:25I don't know how to just be calm and quiet during the hard moments.
00:54:30Because I feel like I really, really want and need connection.
00:54:37I feel like crying because...
00:54:42I'm, like, grateful that you're talking to me right now.
00:54:46Happy cries are good cries.
00:54:52Can I ask you something?
00:54:54When would you be free if I was too calm?
00:54:58Whenever.
00:54:59Whenever.
00:55:14We did it.
00:55:16It's like we're parting the birds.
00:55:26I like this big opening here.
00:55:28Let's just, like, move in here.
00:55:32This is the ocean.
00:55:38How is all this even real?
00:55:40What is reality?
00:55:42I see all this and I'm, like, I'm alive.
00:55:44Like, this is a thing.
00:55:45It's happening.
00:55:46It's like...
00:55:48I can't help myself.
00:55:48This is happening as fuck.
00:55:57Do you think your life is too filled with things?
00:56:00You have your band, so then you're streaming.
00:56:02Yeah.
00:56:03And you're cooking.
00:56:04I mean, that's just kind of the thing I like to do.
00:56:06Yeah.
00:56:07That's why I like having people around because I can cook for them.
00:56:13Try to change your perspective so that you see the sky as, like, a giant lake.
00:56:19Okay.
00:56:19And you're, like, you're above it looking down at it.
00:56:28Do you ever want to go to outer space?
00:56:30For some reason, I feel like the view is better down here.
00:56:33Earth is beautiful, I think, from here and elsewhere.
00:57:06Earth is beautiful, I think.
00:57:06Even like a bully with a bite
00:57:10Skin to stone, high like a bone
00:57:14Guilty and polite
00:57:17It'll hold you down the throat and screw
00:57:19Dead up you to your lips for blue
00:57:22It'll hold you down the tear from fire
00:57:24The testimony's out of you
00:57:27It's got you by the fifth talent
00:57:29It's got you by the tone of it
00:57:51It's got you by the fifth talent
00:57:52It's got you by the fifth talent
00:57:54It's got you by the fifth talent
00:57:58It's got you by the fifth talent
00:57:58It's got you by the fifth talent
00:57:58It's got you by the fifth talent
00:57:58It's got you by the fifth talent
00:57:59It's got you by the fifth talent
00:58:01It's got you by the fifth talent
00:58:03It's got you by the fifth talent
00:58:05It's got you by the fifth talent
00:58:09We're man-eaters.
00:58:16I started fucking crying
00:58:18because you were so inspirational.
00:58:21You looked fucking beautiful.
00:58:23Just shut up and hug me.
00:58:37I lose my center of balance.
00:58:39I lose my center of balance.
00:58:41I also felt like
00:58:43very personal experience.
00:58:45Wait, what did he say?
00:58:47Did he say you lose your center of balance
00:58:48in general or like...
00:58:50No, just when we're doing this.
00:58:54But why...
00:58:55I don't care.
00:58:56It's like I...
00:58:57Wait, let's try again.
00:58:59Alright.
00:59:04There we go, yeah, there we go.
00:59:14Ah, this is really cool.
00:59:16This reminds me of Coventry Cove
00:59:18from Beetle Adventure Racing.
00:59:20Well, that's your...
00:59:21That's your comfort zone.
00:59:22This is my room right here.
00:59:25I always just book it when I'm on a trail.
00:59:28Kinda hard to get your hands
00:59:29when I'm behind you and the path is so thin.
00:59:40I feel sick.
00:59:42Oh, fuck.
00:59:43Wanna sit on this?
00:59:44I guess so.
00:59:56I wish I got more sleep.
00:59:58I don't...
00:59:58I don't have a pillow on me,
01:00:00but I've got a bag full of shit.
01:00:01It's gonna work.
01:00:01I feel bad.
01:00:03I'm like...
01:00:04I think I'm ready to go.
01:00:09See what I'm doing.
01:00:11Oh.
01:00:15Okay.
01:00:21There we go.
01:00:22There we go.
01:00:22That wasn't so bad.
01:00:23There we go.
01:00:50Oh.
01:00:50I might puke.
01:00:52Try to lunge it over the edge.
01:00:59Oh, I am really feeling queasy.
01:01:05Fuck.
01:01:07Such bad timing.
01:01:11Okay.
01:01:31Here we go.
01:01:32Oh, God.
01:01:39Okay.
01:01:41Okay.
01:01:42Okay.
01:01:43Okay.
01:01:43Right.
01:01:45Okay.
01:01:46Okay.
01:01:46Okay.
01:01:59All in all, I'm doing better now than I was before the trip.
01:02:08The time I spent there felt like it kind of healed me somewhat, like I really needed
01:02:19that being able to share some affection and just be around people, I guess, without being
01:02:30so isolated just felt really good.
01:02:47I don't know, it's like a breath of, what is it, a breath of fresh air.
01:03:09When I was little and she used to help me play Soda when I was like, I don't know, six,
01:03:14seven years old and that's a really fun thing.
01:03:17To crop.
01:03:18Okay, I just wanted to crop like one pixel in.
01:04:00I got banned on purpose because it wasn't making me happy.
01:04:07And maybe that's because my brain got hooked on the dopamine.
01:04:11So now my Twitch account is gone.
01:04:15Hi, my darling.
01:04:17Missed you terribly.
01:04:19Maybe you should come home, my darling.
01:04:28It might be nice to receive some kind of unconditional love.
01:04:34Seeing my parents.
01:04:53This is not a healthy environment for me to be in, therefore I must leave this place.
01:05:02But do not grieve for my disappearance.
01:05:07Bye.
01:05:11For I will find what I'm looking for in this life.
01:05:17I will just do it alone.
01:05:24It's like level one where you grew up.
01:05:27Green fields, grass, trees.
01:05:37You are my most beautiful flower.
01:05:42Baby, mommy's gonna catch a fish to fry tonight.
01:05:49You are the best of your generation.
01:05:52Brilliant, talented, sweet, honest.
01:06:01You were special, different from other children.
01:06:08That is why I quit my job and became a stay-at-home mother.
01:06:14I couldn't possibly trust anyone else to give you the love, attention, and freedom
01:06:19that your mind needed to explore life.
01:06:22Bye-bye.
01:06:23Bye-bye.
01:06:25Bye-bye.
01:06:30Bye-bye.
01:06:44Bye-bye.
01:07:04Oh, how are you?
01:07:07Oh, how was your flight?
01:07:10It was fine.
01:07:11Oh, baby.
01:07:15Baby, I'm sorry it's been so long.
01:07:20Oh, oh.
01:07:24Oh, it feels so good to hug you.
01:07:27I mean, look at you.
01:07:30You're just beautiful.
01:07:32I've been waiting for that moment for a long time.
01:07:34Yeah. Oh, you've been wonderful.
01:08:14Oh, you've been wonderful.
01:08:14Oh, you've been wonderful.
01:08:19Margaret Seas, she bet them leaves as the days fly
01:08:28Each get named to be thrown out and die
01:08:33She was one of the bodies, God kissed
01:08:40Perfect in their resemblance
01:08:45Without a care, I promise you this
01:08:50Even if you don't believe me
01:09:12Margaret weaves from a world of teeth as a sea beast home
01:09:21Angry, hot like a spilled flame, tired and alone
01:09:31Margaret, I'm to believe I've tried, but I'm not so sure
01:09:39I can have one thing you can pity me for
01:09:44She can't keep holding on
01:09:49This can't be all that alive and lonely
01:09:56Margaret, don't dare
01:09:59I promise you this
01:10:02Even if you don't believe me
01:10:23But Margaret, I'm sorry, I have no excuse
01:10:28You deserve so much more than this world would afford you
01:10:33Bed in your belly like a panic attack
01:10:37It's you, you see, I'll leave it for you
01:10:43Margaret, I'm sorry, you must understand
01:11:04For it's all I have no hope
01:11:21Katerina says
01:11:25I've been on this roof too long
01:11:30Sleek October rain
01:11:35Railing with my ears
01:11:39At the bitter eyes like fire
01:11:44Raking the oven down and spinning out
01:11:48You damned it, damned it
01:11:50But Katerina
01:11:55If you feel light too
01:11:58I'd like you to know
01:12:03Here's a song for when you get lonely
01:12:07And oh, you count it as holy
01:12:11Falls aside
01:12:13Sends you up shivering in the cold
01:12:20But Katerina
01:12:23Honey, it's not fair
01:12:26And up there when you
01:12:30Can't decide
01:12:32If it is worth it at all
01:12:35When everything hounds you
01:12:39I'll be round
01:12:40To carry you home
01:12:42To forget about
01:12:45All that you told me
01:12:47Last night
01:12:48And those
01:12:49And there were zing times
01:12:51Like when you were laid on the ground
01:12:53Picking lilies and boxes and stones
01:12:57I won't go
01:13:07Picking lilies and boxes and stones
01:13:07When you were laid on the ground
01:13:07And you were laid on the ground
01:13:07And you could know
01:13:07The blue
01:13:07Then there was a place
01:13:10When you were laid on the ground
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