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Evil Lives Here - Season 19 - Episode 10: Badge of Evil
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00:03that's my mother and Dave Rogers and at the Kern County Fair don't know what year
00:11a couple in love you know most painful right now just think about it she was so blinded by his
00:17love his affection his everything for her that she couldn't see anything else and even if she
00:23did see it she wouldn't let herself believe it I mean the man's a monster
00:42the bodies of a 20-year-old woman and a 15-year-old girl who both worked Union Avenue were
00:48found in
00:48the same Arvin Canal both killed with the same weapon but it was a bombshell when the killer
00:53turned out to be a sheriff's deputy David Keith Rogers mr. David Keith Rogers yep this is him
01:06typical picture of of evil policemen are supposed to be good people you know they're supposed to be
01:16that man cost me a lot right there cost my mom he cost a couple lives my mom passed away
01:22this man's
01:23still alive and he still has that smug look on it even though look where he's at as taxpayers we
01:30spend
01:30$70,000 a year to house this this killer here and that's evil
01:41what I think so
01:41that's
01:41good
01:41good
01:42good
02:42I wouldn't have done that, but, you know, she just kept everything she could.
02:48My feelings at the time was, why torture yourself, you know?
02:52But she loved that man, no matter what.
02:59This is after he was arrested.
03:01I had been through three marriages.
03:05Mr. Rogers said,
03:06When those ended, I figured there ain't no man out there worth having.
03:10Then along came David and changed my mind.
03:14I never in my whole life had a man open car doors for me.
03:18I've never had anyone buy gifts for me for any reason, bring home flowers, hold my hand whenever you go,
03:23wherever you go, and wanted to be with you all the time.
03:28That's why everything was such a shock, she said, her voice trailing off.
03:32We always talked about things, and this other personality just wasn't there.
03:39I know it's hard for people to believe.
03:41It never surfaced in David, not in his job, not in his home life.
03:49That best describes the whole thing.
03:50It was the facade he was putting on.
03:52I mean, he was a very good person to her, you know, and, you know, she was quite happy, and
03:59she did never see it.
04:02So, that was her opinion of him, and she kept it till the end.
04:08She truly loved the man.
04:14But his true powers finally came out.
04:38But his true powers finally came out.
04:44That is the wedding picture of them.
04:47From the time I met him till they got married was a short amount of time in my eyes.
04:51But my mom's happiness was the most important thing.
04:57Just everything.
04:58I mean, she brought me into this world.
05:00She deserved everything she could get.
05:02I was happy that he was going to make my mom happy.
05:04My father was a drunk, and he abused her a lot.
05:08And, you know, he's a cop, so that means he's a good character, supposedly.
05:18Like a wolf in sheep's clothing right there.
05:21He is.
05:33Bonding with David Rogers was a little hard.
05:36We were all staying over there at his house, and it was that macho thing, you know, it was his
05:40house and the whole thing.
05:43You know, he was alpha, you know, he just, dominant.
05:46He just projected, you know, you do as I say, and everything.
05:51You know, he was a typical ****.
05:54And then I, being a cop kind of made me nervous.
05:57You know, just as a kid who's doing dumb things, and I was pretty much experimenting with drugs at the
06:02time, and it made me nervous, to say the least.
06:12He had a garden growing in the backyard and some things to it, and I basically took over the garden.
06:19And then I was thinking that'd be the perfect time to sneak in a couple of pot plants, because I
06:25had them hidden in between some tomato plants and got away with it for quite a while.
06:30And then I came home one day, and it was in my bedroom, sitting on my bed.
06:38He found the plants, he pulled them, dirt and all, put them in the middle of my bed.
06:43I was waiting for the scolding that's going to come, or the lecture that's going to come behind it, and
06:48he could arrest me, you know, for that, if he wanted to.
06:54Because it was a felony at the time, and went to dinner, and sat down at the table, nothing was
07:00said.
07:01I kept staring at him, he was looking at me.
07:05But I think a lot was really said, without being said.
07:10It was his way of controlling me, making me squirm and enjoying it.
07:17The feeling was terrible, actually.
07:21And that went on for a while, just every time I looked at him, always had that s***y grin.
07:30The man never said a word, never, not one word ever mentioned about it, ever.
07:37It ate me up, because he tried to hold something over me that he could use later on.
07:43But, yeah, that was definitely his way of showing that, you know, I'm the man, and, well, he was in
07:49control.
07:50And after that, it was just downhill.
08:03I was the oldest of my friends.
08:05I had the only vehicle, and I couldn't make it home without being pulled over by a sheriff.
08:13Anytime I saw a cop on the way home, I knew I was going to get pulled over.
08:17And after he just said, well, let's give this kid a, you know, let's make him nervous or something like
08:21that.
08:22You know, I know he did.
08:24He'd get pulled over, like, nine different times in one night by sheriffs.
08:29You know he had something to do with that.
08:32Got old real fast after the second and third time, you know.
08:35I mean, we did nothing wrong.
08:37He was just messing with me, which really pissed me off.
08:41But nothing I can do about it.
08:44Yeah, definitely, he was getting off on it completely.
08:48I mean, he always wanted control over everything.
08:51She also knew he had eyes everywhere all over town.
08:55Yeah, he did.
08:56And, you know, it was going to make my life miserable.
09:08When my mom first met him, my mom had a house on Penny Street.
09:13It was supposed to be empty.
09:14The thing on my mind was a party house.
09:18There was, like, five of us in there just getting high.
09:21Next thing you know, there's door flies open, and there's two policemen standing there.
09:28We were all surrounded, light shining on the house, and just the feeling of being trapped in a room like
09:33that.
09:33And then in the back of my mind, am I going to be okay over this, or is it going
09:37to be bad, you know, how it's going to play out.
09:40And I had a hard time explaining to him, you know, Dave's my step back.
09:43You know, you need to call him, this is his house.
09:45Right at that instant, the door pops open.
09:51And he just walked up.
09:55Stuck his head into the door and looked around.
09:58Looked at me.
10:01But nothing was said.
10:03You know, he just, he gave me that look.
10:06Like, I can do this at any time.
10:10It's just, it's the way he did things.
10:12He just seemed to show up where we were at all the time.
10:15Like, this was back before tracking, back before cell phones, everything.
10:18But he just seemed to know where I was at all the time.
10:21And he'd show up, just, it's kind of weird.
10:25Now that I think about it, he always showed up.
10:28But back, it probably was his way of trying to put his hand on top of me, no one he'd
10:32squish me at any time.
10:48Yeah, they called it the Jeep Posse.
10:50They all had Jeeps or four-wheel drives.
10:53And they all did everything together.
10:55Brothers, basically.
10:57That's a typical picture of them.
11:00About every other weekend, Dave and my mom on the one end.
11:04And then three of us partners and a wife there.
11:08It was mostly just a gathering of them eating and drinking.
11:11That's what they do.
11:13And if the women wasn't involved, the bull**** started.
11:21The men would make a bonfire and sit around it.
11:24But I didn't want to be with them.
11:25So I just would lay back in the background where no one would see me and just listen and observe.
11:31And they're all just bull**** telling their stories and cleaning their weapons.
11:37Dave stood up.
11:39All of a sudden, like, it's my time, you know, to tell his story.
11:44And he tells a story of how he had arrested a young man.
11:49And he said this guy was getting on his nerve.
11:51So he decided he would show him who's boss.
11:54And took him down to the river and made him get out of the vehicle.
12:00Made him kneel by the river.
12:01He said, I put my gun to the back of his head.
12:05And then he's like, no, I can do this and get away with it.
12:13And I'm sure the guy was scared.
12:16You know, I'm sure he was.
12:18You have control of their life at the moment.
12:22I mean, I don't even want to think about it anymore.
12:24About that.
12:26It was kind of like him when he just stared at me.
12:29You know, he gives that person that thought of what could have been.
12:34So once again, it's that controlling factor.
12:35He is now in control.
12:37And then he put him back in the car.
12:39And then he just took him to jail.
12:45And I was looking for someone to say something about it.
12:52Nothing.
12:54Which scared me because he's a cop.
12:56You know, he's a cop.
12:57And they're supposed to protect people.
13:01I thought I knew that man.
13:03I didn't know he was doing all that.
13:06To that, to that, to that extreme.
13:17Akersfield wasn't like it is today.
13:20Back then, it was actually a small town.
13:24Dave Rogers had the prostitution beat.
13:28It was Union Avenue from 58 to, you know, all the way to 178.
13:35It was basically the bad part of town, you know.
13:40Because he requested for that beat, you know, there.
13:55He lent me the truck numerous, numerous times.
13:58And I would run across notes that had, you know, information on females.
14:05They're aging the whole thing.
14:10He would take a picture of them.
14:12I don't know why he did that.
14:15At the time, I was assuming it was part of his job.
14:18But now I know that wasn't, you know, it was leading into something worse.
14:25You know, no telling what was in his evil mind.
14:29If it was for sexual fantasies or anything, or because he wanted to do something later, or...
14:34I don't know.
14:46Was it your idea to be a cop, or did Dave suggest it?
14:51Yeah, I can't really answer that.
14:53The sheriff's test came up.
14:56I would call that.
14:57And I don't know if he encouraged me to do that, or I jumped on it.
15:01You know, I just...
15:02The salary was good.
15:05And in a way, I guess I might want to impress him, you know, follow his footsteps or whatever.
15:09I really don't know my train of thought at the time, but it sounded like a good thing to do.
15:14I would hear him talk to Mom about the authority he had, and just his day, you know.
15:19He got this crud off the street, or he did this and that.
15:23And I wanted to be able to do that.
15:41If he pulled someone over, you're on probation or anything like that, and he'd do a search,
15:45he'd find a gun and drugs or something like that, he'd just look at the guy, he'd say,
15:49well, what's this?
15:50And they'd go, what's what?
15:51You know, he goes, exactly.
15:53And he'd take the gun, he'd take the drugs.
15:55He took them home.
15:56That's what he did.
15:59And then he abused the women in a different way.
16:02God, these poor women, too.
16:05He pulled over a couple women that were intoxicated.
16:10He was going to take the driver to jail for DUI, and he ended up getting her phone number
16:17and was going to meet her later.
16:20She didn't get in trouble.
16:21She drove away.
16:23When he came back to the car, he told me, you know, that's one of the perks of the job.
16:29And I was just so confused because he's telling me this, and he's supposed to be loving my mom
16:33and the whole works, but how can you love someone and do that?
16:37Do you think he was testing to see if you'd tell your mom?
16:41That's crossed my mind a few times, but if he was, I'd pass because I never did.
16:47So why do you think you didn't tell your mom?
16:50I didn't want to hurt her.
16:52No, I didn't care about him.
16:54It was all about her, you know.
16:56She was in love with the man.
16:58He was a loving husband with her.
17:00The only time I ever saw a good day was when mom was around.
17:03When he wasn't with her, he was like a Jekyll and Hyde, you know.
17:08He was a whole different person when he wasn't around her or had anything to directly relate to her.
17:20There was this one time I was with him on a ride-along.
17:23He pulled over a good-looking woman, and he said, well, watch this.
17:30And, yeah, he got her to remove her top, and, you know, he bundled her breast, and...
17:37like it was nothing, like it was nothing.
17:41And then I felt guilty because maybe he did that just to show it to me, you know.
17:46Maybe if I wasn't there, maybe he wouldn't have done that.
17:48I don't know.
17:50This is hard.
17:52I just felt bad because it's a shame that she had to feel.
17:55The way he acted and treated people, it's like he had no regard for me being there, that I'm witnessing
18:02this.
18:02Not that I was anything special, but I was his wife's son, so, you know,
18:07he didn't even act like he was worried that I would repeat it.
18:11I don't know if he was testing me, if I could keep a secret or, you know, join the brotherhood.
18:20I don't know.
18:21It makes me feel like I was a bad person, too.
18:29I didn't do something about it when it happened, which I should have,
18:33and so I'm embarrassed about that part of it.
18:36And, like, you know, I've tried to suppress the thoughts of it for so long.
18:42I just know as a decent human being, you can't let people get away with stuff like that, you know.
18:46And I was in a position where I could have done something, and it just kept getting worse.
18:56I hate people not thinking good about me because I felt I was a good person.
19:01And there's just so many things I can't say.
19:04He showed me the bad side of what he does.
19:10How you get favors by just abuse of power.
19:16He got away with it and just kept going and going and going.
19:19I didn't do nothing about it, and I should have.
19:23And I just don't know.
19:25I just, it comes back.
19:26I should have done something.
19:31Can I have a second, please?
19:32Yeah.
19:34Just for a second.
19:45Let's go ahead and cut.
19:58Sitting in a car, watching him do something doesn't mean you had something to do with that.
20:04He's a police officer.
20:08Yeah, but I was in the one in position to do something about it.
20:13We all, we all have moments in our lives where we wish we could have spoken up and done something.
20:26And you don't need to be afraid of the truth.
20:34We'll just do what we do, right?
20:35Let's give it a shot.
20:36All right.
20:37All right.
20:39All right.
20:41Fuck.
20:44Sorry.
20:46Fuck.
20:52God.
21:01I really don't know why he confided in me.
21:04It feels like it was something that happened slowly over time.
21:07It escalated to him confiding in me over certain things, like maybe, like, be part of him or bond with
21:14him or whatever.
21:17He dropped the tidbits of it, you know, little bits of information here and there during the conversation.
21:23If you ever do something real bad, you don't leave evidence.
21:28You know, you use the weapon, you get rid of the weapon.
21:31You know, you chop it up, chop up the barrel so the serial number's gone.
21:35Get rid of it.
21:36Anything you wore, anything you drove, you know, if you keep your truck, you put new tires on it.
21:41No witness is the best witness for you, you know.
21:44And no evidence is the best, you know.
21:46So just, you do what you do.
21:50And back then there was a DNA, hardly just snarking and stuff, so you didn't have to worry about that.
21:53He thought he was untouchable.
21:56There was plenty of little flags along the way.
22:00I don't know what I was thinking at the time.
22:12I just wanted to, if anything ever happened, I wanted documented proof that, you know, you can't tell a story
22:17unless you can prove it.
22:19Things I observed and witnessed, everything, anything I witnessed, good and bad, everything was bad.
22:28He found that, the journal too.
22:33I had left it out.
22:34I was just sitting on the couch and I wrote on the coffee table and just left it there.
22:40He picked it up, not knowing what it was, and opened it up and he was about, he couldn't have
22:47been more than a few pages into it when I went in there and I said, oh, what do you
22:51got in your hand?
22:53It was just a scary thing.
22:55Well, I walked in there and saw that it was, it made me nervous that he was reading it.
23:01I kind of, I'm kind of like, I got caught, my game's up, you know.
23:09Goes, is this yours?
23:10And I'm like, yeah, that's mine.
23:12Sure, it seems like it's got a lot of information about me in it.
23:15I said, well, come on, Dave, what do you expect, you know?
23:16I got to remember things, you know?
23:19You told me to keep information, that's what you do, because he had always, you know, cops have to write
23:24down and stuff so they can remember for the report.
23:26So, I just write all this stuff down.
23:29I didn't write good s**t, but there wasn't any.
23:33He just threw it down on the coffee table and walked away and.
23:42He wasn't happy.
23:44I saw the disappointment in him, thinking that I would do something like that because I was supposed to be
23:49part of his family, you know?
23:51Like, are you going to use that against me or, you know, what, I don't know what he was thinking
23:55about it.
23:55It changed his opinion on me.
23:57It had to.
24:00I never talked to him about it, but after he had seen it and everything, I just quit gathering information.
24:06I think a little of that stopped me because of the fear of what could have happened.
24:12I was scared as hell.
24:15I still don't know today what happened to it.
24:17I probably did throw it away.
24:20I don't know.
24:22I feel guilty over it.
24:24I always, I'll live with the fact that, you know, I could have maybe worth it if I had said
24:29something.
24:30Why didn't I talk to somebody about it, anybody, you know?
24:32I had no one to confide in and I did nothing.
24:35I did nothing.
24:36And it ended up with two deaths.
24:38It makes me feel like s**t.
24:50That's when I noticed he had a fixation on prostitutes.
24:54We would go driving down Union, which was his beat, and he would say, hook her, hook her.
25:01Stay away from her.
25:02She's, she's a cop.
25:03It was an obsession with him, and he, you know, he, I don't know, it's hard to explain.
25:13I think that you saw other stuff, and I'm curious what else you saw.
25:21That's what I saw.
25:22They're just things I'd rather not say.
25:26Well, it, it feels like, like, in a weird way, that you're protecting him a little bit.
25:34And I don't get that.
25:34You're protecting me.
25:44Okay, he, uh, he got me laid by prostitutes a few times.
25:56He, he hooked me up with some of the girls, free of cost, because of his power.
26:02Uh, I'm embarrassed about that.
26:07It was just, I mean, it's, it's, you know, I don't know if, if, to look back, it's just,
26:18to walk into a room with a stranger, and then she's all over you, you know, and he had direct
26:25involvement in that, you know, he had something over them, and he told them to do this.
26:32And, at the time, I was just getting laid.
26:40I mean, man, it's not normal.
26:42No, not normal at all.
26:44You know, I, I really, I really don't know to this day why, you know.
26:48I think in the way he was grooming me to, to let me know that when you become a cop,
26:52this
26:52is what you can get away with.
26:55Because people are afraid to say anything about it.
26:59Maybe that was his way of holding something over me, you know, and he was probably doing
27:03that, both of them.
27:04He was not only grooming me, he was having something over my head, just in case.
27:09I was just so conflicted that, you know, I wanted to do good, but I knew there was something
27:15wrong with that man.
27:28There was a time there, in Dave's career, that a, a prostitute had made the accusation
27:36that he had done some pretty heinous things to her.
27:42He had picked her up at the Wienerschnitzel on Union in California, made her get in his
27:48car, drove her to Union Cemetery, made her get out of the car, undress, and did numerous
27:57things to her, and then drove her back to the Wienerschnitzel and dropped her off.
28:05She went in and complained about it, and he got suspended, uh, during the investigation.
28:11So they gave me the first notion that he may not be as good as he thought he was.
28:21What did he tell your mom when he got suspended?
28:25He denied it, you know, basically.
28:28But he let her believe that it was nothing, that it was all bulls**t, and that, you know,
28:31everything will be fine.
28:33But I know he did it.
28:35You know, he told me he did it.
28:38Part of me made me wish that, you know, she'd find out and, and leave, and stuff like that.
28:43I'm, I'm almost 100% sure she suspected, but she loved the man, and, and she stayed by him.
29:02He asked me if I would help him do something.
29:05I said, yeah, I'll help you do anything.
29:06What?
29:07He said, I need to get rid of a few things.
29:08I said, okay.
29:09What's that?
29:10We went to the shed, and we pulled out two gunny sacks of, there had to be at least 40
29:15handguns in there, at least.
29:17There was, and a, and a couple shot-off shotguns.
29:24Maybe because the way he acquired them, he was afraid that they would come out to his house.
29:31I could just tell he was in a rush, and we took him someplace, and we dumped him in the
29:36water.
29:40They're in the deepest part of the river.
29:44I bet they're still there today.
29:50I was just trying to help the man.
29:53But I had that feeling like I'm doing something really wrong right here, right now.
30:11Then when court came, the lady did not show up to court, and nobody stands or buts until they had
30:17no case.
30:19The feeling or the talk around was that, well, maybe he got rid of her.
30:24I don't know.
30:25She just didn't show up to testify.
30:31And that's all they had was her, you know, that's all they had was her.
30:35So he got his job back.
30:38But they took him straight to the jailhouse.
30:41That's where rookies go, you know, that's where you go in the beginning to earn your time to get out
30:47on the street.
30:50And that made him angry.
30:52And that's where it all went downhill.
30:56That's when the vaccination and everything got heated towards hookers because of what she did.
31:00I think he was mad because that one tried to take his life away from him or something.
31:04And he's got some resentment.
31:06You know, he hated hookers after that.
31:09He hated all women except my mom.
31:13He just looked at women, looked at them all, yeah, like, you know, sluts, whores, you know, all the above.
31:22And he was going to make them pay one way or another.
31:44It was a normal day on February the 13th, a Friday.
31:51I was working down at the truck stop when my neighbor from across the street called and told me, you
31:57know, Tony, there's at least a dozen cop cars at your mom's house, you know.
32:02And he said, Tony, what happened?
32:05And I said, I don't know.
32:06And I went and told my manager, I said, I got to go.
32:08I just hauled ass there.
32:10And I went in there, Mom, are you OK?
32:12I was more concerned about her.
32:17I was just consoling her.
32:19And then, and it was so loud in there with all the officers talking.
32:22And so that's when I officially found out what his charges were for murder, two counts of it.
32:34And they were all discussing, you know, who's trying to, who's setting him up, you know, who's trying to black,
32:38you know, none of them believed it.
32:40None of them believed it.
32:43Phone rang, and I think I was the only one who heard it.
32:46So I went and I got it, and then I picked it up, and it was that message from the
32:50jailhouse saying, you have a call from, you know, Kern County.
32:54And I said, hello?
32:55And he goes, Tony, let me talk to your mom.
32:59She got the phone, and everybody kind of quieted down a little bit.
33:03And, and then, and then it happened.
33:06I mean, she, she slid down in the chair, she turned white, and she said he confessed.
33:12She, she said he confessed.
33:22That was the beginning of the end.
33:24I mean, I'll never forget that moment in my life.
33:27I saw, I saw the life drain from my mother, you know, right then.
33:30Because that was her everything.
33:32You know, everything.
33:34I lost my mom that day.
33:45Unfortunately, that's Dineen Benatende, and I think she was 21 years old.
33:50A young prostitute, I think he killed Dineen probably early, early 86.
33:56She had been in the canal for quite a few days, and it was unrecognizable.
34:03I mean, they, they had to go through fingerprints to get her, even though her hands were swollen, I guess.
34:09Somehow they got fingerprints off of her, and they were able to match her up in the database.
34:13That's how they found out that was who she was.
34:16And they had no clue whatsoever, but she was shot six times with a .38.
34:24He was even investigating part of the investigation team that was investigating for that, investigating the, a murder he did,
34:33but nobody knew.
34:36Then I was wondering, well, what, was he in there, you know, to try to do something to cover it
34:40up, but he didn't need to, because they had nothing at all.
34:48I mean, he, he got away with the first one for a year and 11 days.
34:52They would have never busted him on that.
34:54They would have never found out, ever.
34:57And the second one, Tracy Clark, same canal, same gun, you know, same everything.
35:03So the same gun was used in both murders?
35:06Yes, sir.
35:08Same gun, same ammunition.
35:18It's a picture of, it's Tracy Clark, um, one of, his second victim.
35:24I think she just got into town that night, and he shot her once, kicked her out of the truck,
35:29drove away, came back, and then emptied the gun in her.
35:33Then when they, yeah, they did the ballistics, and it was the same gun.
35:38She's like 15 and a half years old, and I think she was six weeks pregnant.
35:43Fifteen and a half, wow.
35:47I'm sorry for that.
36:13And then how many did he do that they don't know about is a thing, too.
36:20They were investigating the 11 unsolved murders that were related to homeless women or prostitutes or something like that.
36:30They asked him a whole bunch of times about that, and he never denied anything.
36:34He didn't say he didn't do anything.
36:37But, yeah, yeah, he, he did two that we know, and no telling how many that could have been.
36:43I don't know.
36:57Rogers was tried and convicted of both murders, and in 1988, his penalty phase of the trial began.
37:03The time for jurors to decide if he should be sentenced to life without parole or death.
37:10They chose death.
37:18What do you want people to understand about how this all affected your mom?
37:24That there's more than one victim in it, and she loved that man no matter what.
37:31And she stayed by him.
37:32She didn't believe it at all, no matter how hard I tried to convince her,
37:36to the point where I said bad things, and none of it worked.
37:43That's love.
37:46She was in love with the man, and I don't understand.
37:48I tried to get her to stop, but it just wouldn't work.
37:52You can't make someone stop loving.
37:56My mom went approximately every three months.
38:01Once he got sentenced up there and finally got to San Quentin,
38:04about the first five years, it was every three months, she'd go up there and stay in the night.
38:10But then it got expensive, and she just couldn't, she couldn't do it.
38:14And her health started falling, but I think, I think the total was 14 times she saw him before she
38:22had to stop.
38:23She stayed home, she didn't go nowhere, she waited for phone calls, she waited for letters.
38:29And then to watch her suffer for that 12 years she suffered after that, it was really painful.
38:36I never even thought about forgiving him.
38:38In fact, I hate him more today than I did back then.
38:51Morro Bay.
38:53That was a picture of my mother and me.
38:59She just, she was happy.
39:00She was a, she loved going to the beach and loved going camping.
39:04And, uh,
39:08I just called her over and took a picture and,
39:10God, she looked happy.
39:13I would consider myself,
39:15mama's boy took care of her and she took care of me.
39:19I miss that woman.
39:24But that was in her time of happiness right there.
39:27Just waiting to be shattered.
39:38I mean, I wrote him a letter.
39:41After my mom passed away,
39:44I poured my heart into it
39:48and told him how I felt and how I had to take care of her, how she, she suffered so
39:52much.
39:53And I just wanted the man to know exactly what she went through, you know, and that he was directly
39:58responsible for putting her through it.
40:00And he responded with,
40:03Your mom was a nice person.
40:07That's all I got.
40:08That's the one and only letter I ever got from him, and that's all he said.
40:13I don't know what I was expecting.
40:15I know it just, it hurt so much.
40:18I lost everything.
40:21Absolutely everything.
40:23I lost my home.
40:24I lost my pursuit of a law enforcement career.
40:29After he was arrested, they didn't want me.
40:32My mom lost a lot too, so, you know, say you're sorry.
40:37If anything else, he never did that.
40:39And for him just to respond like that, you know, was the final nail in the coffin.
40:44I don't give a what happens to him now, you know.
40:47He should have died a long time ago.
41:04It's not right.
41:06I didn't deserve it.
41:07She didn't deserve it.
41:08The two girls' families didn't deserve it.
41:11And I didn't even think about any of this stuff until, you know, I tried to block it all out.
41:16And when my mom passed away, I thought I was done with that, you know.
41:20That part of my life is gone and stuff like that.
41:22But guess what?
41:24It'll never leave.
41:26It'll never leave.
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