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Love Is Blind - Season 10 - Episode 04: Stage Five Clinger
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00:14I
00:15Think we just need to say what we want to do
00:26Do you need time to think about it?
00:33I
00:33This morning and in the first date I had I just got like a gut punch just felt
00:40Like a little bit more
00:42Like a different feeling
00:48I think that's a sign I
00:53Think so too
00:56I'm so sorry, don't be sorry. Don't be sorry
01:00All I want is someone who gets me
01:03Until then, I'm not settling
01:06Bye, Connor
01:07I've been all through the mud
01:10I've got a wild side
01:13All I want is someone who understands
01:17My heart, the dark places I've been
01:21Right now, I'd rather be lonely
01:24I'm holding out for someone who gets me
01:30Someone who gets me
01:31Emma
01:32What happened? We broke up
01:34Someone who gets me
01:35Are you okay?
01:36Who was this?
01:37Your number two?
01:38No, it's my number one
01:39I get it
01:54I was like, I have just a feeling and I was like
02:08Like, you got to follow that feeling.
02:11Yeah.
02:12You're not going to change your mind.
02:26So checking in, how are we emotionally
02:28when it comes to your grandpa?
02:31It's a lot.
02:31But having that family support, it's kept me at peace.
02:34OK, good.
02:35So how are you feeling?
02:37Good.
02:37I got a little workout in, which, I mean, honestly,
02:40is kind of the nice part of pod dating
02:43because I don't exactly smell like roses over here.
02:47But you don't know that.
02:49It's fun to envision you.
02:51I think you're probably going to be wrong about me.
02:56Time will tell.
02:57I have a guest for you, but obviously,
02:59like, having the name Devontae.
03:02I could be French.
03:03I could be Italian.
03:05You could be.
03:06Devontae.
03:07Shut up.
03:10You're definitely not French.
03:12Not with that accent.
03:13You'll never know.
03:15So with your dad, I know you said he wasn't, like, present in your life.
03:19How old were you when he, like, stopped being a big part of your life?
03:23Around, like, three or four.
03:25How old were you when he passed?
03:27I was 18, and he was 42.
03:33There was one time after one of my high school football games, I was, like, going off the field.
03:38And, like, you know how, like, people Friday nights are all, like, waiting by the fence.
03:41And I remember, like, someone by their self, and they're like, hey, good game.
03:44And, like, I just, like, you know, kept walking.
03:47And then my mom was, like, hey, did you talk to anyone?
03:50And I was, like, what are you talking about?
03:51And I didn't know, but it was, like, my father.
03:54Oh, wow.
03:55I just didn't have any idea and just never heard or saw from him again.
04:00I did get, like, a chance to, like, meet him, like, once.
04:02But at that time, you're an 18-year-old kid.
04:05You don't really know what to even say.
04:07Like, I always questioned.
04:08I was, like, how could you have a child and you don't want to be in their life?
04:12I was, like, if my father, like, didn't even want me, like, sorry.
04:18With my therapist, like, all the things that I wrote down, like, who I want to be on that paper,
04:23the very top, most important to me, was to be a husband and then to be a father.
04:28Yeah.
04:28I want to be my kid's everything.
04:30That's what I want.
04:32Yeah.
04:32My mom's my best friend.
04:34I do her lashes, her nails.
04:36I hope that I'm half of the mom that she is when I do become a mom.
04:41I definitely think having this emotional connection makes the physical ten times better.
04:46And I think that's kind of why I'm in this season of celibacy, because it feels different.
04:51Yeah.
04:51We've got these little phrases over here, like, you're feeling, like, some feels for
04:56somebody.
04:56Like, oh, I got the tingly-winglies.
04:58Like, it's like when you're feeling it in your heart.
05:01And then the other one, it's basically when you're feeling it down below.
05:05That's the one that you need to run from.
05:08Which one do I give you?
05:09The tingly-winglies?
05:10Yeah, you give me the tingly-winglies.
05:16Oh, you have me smiling ear to ear.
05:19Yeah, you got the tingly-winglies.
05:20I have the tingly-winglies.
05:22I have the tingly-winglies.
05:29After meeting you, my whole, like, perspective has, like, changed on a lot of things.
05:33And it's an amazing feeling to your core, Jess.
05:37How compassionate you are, how kind you are.
05:39I wouldn't want to spend the rest of my life with anyone else, ever.
05:43I love the way that you talk to me.
05:45This is the greatest gift I have ever been given.
05:49I'm in love with you.
05:50Yeah.
05:51And, like, that's the truth.
05:52And, oh, my gosh.
05:58Jess Lee.
06:02Will you spend the rest of your life with me and marry me?
06:08Okay.
06:16I will.
06:16I love you so much.
06:18God.
06:19I love you.
06:20I love you so much.
06:21I have my hands on the wall.
06:23Oh, my God.
06:24Oh, God.
06:26I think I felt that.
06:29I love you.
06:30I love you.
06:31I love you.
06:36Yay!
06:38Yay!
06:39Yay!
06:40Yay!
06:41Yay!
06:41Yay!
06:41Yay!
06:53I just don't know what to do.
06:56I don't want to go to my second just because my first doesn't like me, but I also owe it
07:02to myself to try and continue this experiment.
07:05Re-evaluate after the date.
07:07Yeah.
07:07Going into today, I really thought I was on the same page with Connor.
07:14I thought I knew things, and I don't.
07:17I'm getting in my mind a little, but I came here to find love.
07:20So, I do think it would be regretful of me to not try.
07:25Baby, could it be love?
07:26Baby, could it be love?
07:31Hello.
07:32Hi.
07:33Talk about waiting all day to see or speak to you.
07:37You were waiting all day for me?
07:38I was.
07:39I mean, it's been absolute chaos out there.
07:42There's, like, six guys here that have number ones.
07:47I was hoping it was going to be you, but I didn't know if it was.
07:49I was super nervous.
07:51Hmm.
07:52So, I'm so sorry.
07:54I feel so bad.
07:54But, yeah, um, today, me and my second ended it.
08:03Do you want to hear this?
08:05You don't have to tell me if you don't want to.
08:07I think it's important for our journey.
08:13It wasn't mutual.
08:14Oh, shit.
08:15Okay.
08:16Um.
08:17Well, it was him ending it with you then?
08:19Mm-hmm.
08:19Yeah.
08:20Okay.
08:20Yeah.
08:21So, he had another connection.
08:22Yep.
08:23Jesus Christ.
08:25No.
08:25Mike, I don't want that to negate what we have.
08:29I just think I, the past couple days, like, I was juggling so many people.
08:33Yeah.
08:33So, I do, I do really like you, and it's just in my mind.
08:38I just need to get that shit out of my mind.
08:43Yeah.
08:44And you were so incredibly kind and caring and listening.
08:49Like, it has meant a lot to me, so.
08:51Listen, I know, you know, I know we got a little deep, and I know it was very emotional,
08:56and it gave me, like, a little bit more clarity, obviously.
08:59And, like I said, I waited all day for this.
09:02You've been my number one.
09:04Since the beginning.
09:08And, yeah, I can't wait.
09:10I have a question, actually, to ask you, like, tonight.
09:12You're getting on one knee already?
09:14It involves, like, what your ring looks like.
09:17Seriously?
09:18Swear to God.
09:20Damn.
09:21Think about that, and we will chat tonight.
09:23I will not ditch you.
09:24Don't ditch me.
09:25I will be there.
09:26I will be there, or I will be square.
09:28Bye.
09:28Bye.
09:37Falling in love with him every single day has been so exciting.
09:41What's his last name?
09:42Spees.
09:43Spees.
09:43It's kind of funny, though.
09:44Free, spees.
09:45Breezy, spees.
09:47Breezy, spees.
09:47Breezy, spees.
09:48Breezy, spees.
09:48Breezy, spees.
09:48Yes, spees.
09:50I do have some things to say.
09:52Okay, let's hear them.
09:53Wait, you really want to hear it?
09:54I do.
09:55Okay.
09:56Connor?
09:57Yes?
09:57From the moment I met you, I knew I met my perfect match.
10:01You take away all my self-doubts of never being enough or being too much and embrace me for all
10:08that I am, even though I cut you off every other sentence.
10:13Thinking about our future together, I know that the best is yet to come.
10:18You've been my slow burn from the start, but falling in love with you more and more each day has
10:23been my favorite part.
10:25I believe it's fate that brought us together and know that it will be unconditional love that will keep us
10:30bonded for a lifetime.
10:32I can't wait to start this next chapter with you.
10:35You're the man I've been praying to find, and I'm so excited to be your ride or die and forever
10:40stage five clinger.
10:42Oh, my God.
10:43Are you ready for this?
10:45Brianna, I am so ready for this.
10:47I can't believe we found each other.
10:49I am so happy that we did.
10:52I really do think you're my person.
10:54Like, it's crazy.
10:55I did not see this coming, and that's why I think it's one last coincidence for us that this just
11:03happened.
11:05You are everything I could ever ask for.
11:09You support me.
11:11You laugh at all the dumbest jokes I tell.
11:14Thank you for helping me open up.
11:17Thank you for challenging me.
11:19Thank you for being open.
11:21Thank you for feeling like you can share anything with me.
11:25You make me feel secure.
11:27Thank you for accepting me for me.
11:30Thank you for being authentic, honest, and genuine.
11:34But most of all, thank you for being you.
11:37I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
11:41I love you.
11:43Brianna Marie McNeese.
11:46Will you marry me?
11:53Absolutely.
11:54Let's go.
11:58Oh, my gosh.
12:01We are engaged.
12:03Holy shit.
12:04I love you.
12:04I love you, too.
12:05Let's go.
12:13Come on, boys.
12:14Come on.
12:15Oh, my gosh.
12:24You guys are screaming, crying, throwing up.
12:27Screaming, crying, throwing up.
12:30This is insane.
12:31This is insane.
12:34Oh, my gosh.
12:34Oh, my gosh.
12:39I literally would walk into the dates with Vick and be like, Kevin.
12:42That is so freaking funny.
12:44What's up, Kevin?
12:45Wait, has he told you that?
12:46No.
12:47But I knew it wasn't him.
12:49They have very different voices.
12:50Yeah.
12:50You're going to be perfect.
12:52You are perfect.
12:53I am excited to see y'all's journey.
12:55I was literally telling Dynasty.
12:56I was like, I don't know who else could be.
12:57I said, but I would not be mad if it's Christine.
12:59From day one, you've been authentic with what you have in common,
13:03which is your freaking faith.
13:04Like, the type of personalities that y'all are.
13:06The way that you would blend in with his family.
13:08His background story.
13:09I know Dynasty struggled with, like, my story isn't that.
13:13And I don't know how I could relate to someone that came from that.
13:16Which I got that just didn't make sense for me with him.
13:20And I know, like, may look different.
13:21Maybe a different color.
13:22But your story and his story are similar.
13:25Just different colors.
13:26Different version.
13:27And it sounded to me like he needed someone to connect with on that level.
13:31So, I think your love story is beautiful.
13:34You're in La La Land.
13:36I am in La La Land.
13:37I'm the president of La La Land right now.
13:39I'm the mayor.
13:40You're the mayor of La La Land.
13:42La La Land.
13:43Ooh.
13:45Seeing the girls thriving and happy and fall in love with someone makes me feel worthy.
13:50Like, why wouldn't this work for me?
13:52I don't know.
13:53I feel like I deserve to have a husband.
13:57I deserve to have a husband on the other side of that wall.
13:59Kevin better be for me.
14:04That is my expectation.
14:09But Kevin has to make a decision.
14:12Every time I'm, like, now looking at the door and Tyler together, it's just when she goes,
14:17what did you say?
14:18Not rewind, but you're like...
14:19Redo.
14:20Redo.
14:20And, like, walked out.
14:21I was like...
14:22Very embarrassing.
14:23The fuck?
14:23Good.
14:24No, nothing's embarrassing here.
14:26I don't think I'm necessarily worried about Kevin.
14:29Dating other folks.
14:31I think that's what we're supposed to be doing.
14:33It's my intention to ignore the noise and focus on what's going on here.
14:48Wow.
14:50That's a watch.
14:51I talked to you a little bit about honoring my dad, and I've been wearing my watch every
14:57day.
14:58It looks great.
15:01It reminds me of my father, but I feel like it's perfect for you, too, because I feel like
15:06sometimes you're in your head, and I want this watch to represent understanding that
15:12it is okay if it takes a few more ticks to understand where you're at with things.
15:19Just know that everything is what it should be.
15:25That's beautiful.
15:31You deserve honesty.
15:34I'm Kevin.
15:36I'm from Columbus.
15:37I'm literally putting everything by my bootstraps to pay for my stuff, my mother's stuff.
15:47Drive a little beat-up Chevy Cruze.
15:51I love it.
15:52I don't have the crazy crib or anything.
15:55I just have, like, a little one-bedroom apartment.
15:57I don't have everything figured out.
15:58I came out here to take a chance and find someone that's special.
16:04You are a phenomenal, amazing person.
16:12And I do think you deserve the world.
16:17Yes, I do.
16:20I know that.
16:24But, to be clear, I don't want a man that has it all.
16:27It doesn't matter.
16:28What matters is someone who is kind, who is thoughtful.
16:33It doesn't matter.
16:34You're right.
16:37But...
16:37At the same time...
16:39You are so awesome, Kevin.
16:43I hope you feel like that.
16:47I appreciate you, Kia, for really taking the time to learn about me and getting to know
16:53me.
16:54You are phenomenal, Kia.
17:00Yeah.
17:01Damn.
17:01In this experience, the one thing I really have learned is what it means to love.
17:09For you to share that with me, it means the world to me.
17:14You, Kia, you have, you know, really opened my eyes.
17:20I feel good.
17:21I want a better word than good.
17:23Like...
17:23I feel thankful.
17:29Thankful for this experiment.
17:31And, I don't know, like, I feel like we unlocked a...
17:36Like, this is crazy, right?
17:37Do you want to open up the gift?
17:41Oh, my God!
17:43Are you kidding me?
17:44It's so funny because of what you do, you know.
17:48Yeah.
17:49For basketball.
17:50And, I want to be the LeBron James of fathers.
17:56This is really cool.
17:57This is a very sweet gift.
17:58Are you kidding me?
17:59Oh, my God.
18:01Aw, I'm so excited.
18:05How do you feel right now?
18:07Uh, I feel...
18:12Just heavy, a little uneasy, but...
18:15Really?
18:16Today, I think I've really just realized that I probably should...
18:25Let Kia win.
18:27Okay.
18:28Let everybody win.
18:30Let what?
18:32Let...
18:33Let...
18:34Let...
18:34Let Kia win.
18:35Let everybody win.
18:36Let...
18:38I don't know.
18:39Like, it's...
18:39This is so crazy to me.
18:42I don't know if I'm worth the love of both people that I'm talking with now.
18:50Yeah, it's time to start doing the mature decisions, you know.
18:58We have feelings for each other, right?
18:59Yes.
19:00I care.
19:02Kia, I do, you know, care about you.
19:05You really took it to a whole nother level.
19:10But I also know that I have to make sure I'm making the best decision for everybody.
19:20Yeah.
19:21Me and Tyler.
19:27I want the best for Kia, and I don't want to fuck up.
19:36We both have a lot to think about.
19:38You want the best for me.
19:39I want the best for me.
19:41I want the best for me.
19:42But I...
19:42On a serious note, I want the best for you too.
19:44So like...
19:47Yeah.
19:47Yeah.
19:48Yeah.
19:50Let's go process.
19:51I'm gonna go see if they'll let me play basketball with my new shiny blue basketball.
20:01I deserve somebody who's willing to take all the risks for me.
20:04You all have an instinct today.
20:06Right now, the power is like all in his hands.
20:09Yeah.
20:09I don't like that at all.
20:11Yeah.
20:13Hi, guys.
20:14Hi, beautiful.
20:16Hi.
20:16Hi.
20:17How was it?
20:18It was good.
20:19Good.
20:20Is that a gift?
20:21It is a gift.
20:22Well, you guys know how...
20:24Well, I don't know if you guys know this about me, but I used to work for the Cavs in
20:27sales
20:27and marketing.
20:28Long story short, I'm a basketball girlie.
20:30And ironically enough, I got a basketball.
20:35So like, what are the odds?
20:37Very sweet gift.
20:39It's now or never.
20:42Now or never.
20:44Now or never.
20:45Now or never.
20:46Now or never.
20:48Now or never.
20:48I'm just gonna say it, because I just can't with this whole fucking secret of shit.
20:51Yeah.
20:52Like, it's me and Kia, like, sitting in this fucking room every day.
20:56And that's my girl.
20:57We're just sitting ducks.
20:58I know it sounds silly, but it's like, I just want to be somebody's, like, undeniable choice.
21:03I just want for once, like, a man to be like.
21:08That they choose Tyler, I know.
21:13But you and Kia have been phenomenal.
21:17I don't want to fucking let anybody down.
21:26Shit's, shit's hard, man.
21:28It's the hardest decisions I've ever had to make in my life.
21:33I don't know what your journey is with Kia, but what I would need, like, today is for you to
21:41only be dating me.
21:44I need you to make a decision.
21:52I'm just gonna speak from the heart.
21:54When I hear your name, like, my face, it lights up.
21:57I love that passion that you've had.
22:00You've been just so fucking steady rock, fighting for it, getting to it.
22:08It's, like, wow.
22:13That's true love right there.
22:16That's fucking true love.
22:18So what you gonna do, Kevin?
22:29I am choosing fucking Tyler.
22:34Kevin, look at you making a decision.
22:38This feels so good.
22:40Wow.
22:41Are we, like, official?
22:44You are currently my girl.
22:51I got a boyfriend.
22:53Oh, yes, ma'am.
22:56I got a boyfriend.
22:57Yes, ma'am.
22:59Oh, I haven't had a boyfriend in so long.
23:02Okay, so we're official now.
23:04Love that for us.
23:05Love that.
23:06Now that I'm your girlfriend, do you remember my middle name?
23:14Because I don't remember yours at all.
23:16Facts, facts.
23:17I don't.
23:18I don't.
23:18It's Marie.
23:19Oh, shit, I did.
23:22Oh, my gosh.
23:24In all seriousness, I have loved every interaction, moment when we had to share the highs and the lows.
23:34Yeah.
23:34I can't shy away from how that makes me feel.
23:38What's the feeling like?
23:41It feels like I'm floating.
23:50It feels like cloud nine.
23:52It's a wild feeling.
23:54It's a great adventure.
23:55I think I'm falling in love.
23:57Oh, I love that.
23:59Yeah.
24:03Oh, man.
24:04This is...
24:05What a fucking day.
24:06What a day.
24:08Oh.
24:09Oh, my God.
24:12Okay, I kind of got to pee.
24:15Okay.
24:16What?
24:17Wanna take a quick ten minutes?
24:19Yeah, I'll hop out.
24:20Yeah, I'll hop out.
24:27Hi, sweet girl.
24:29Hi.
24:30I've got to pee.
24:31I have to go patty?
24:32Do you need anything?
24:34Do you want an old-fashioned?
24:35Yes.
24:37Want a snack?
24:38Yeah, maybe some cheese and salsa.
24:41Is Kei in here?
24:42What?
24:42Is Kei in here?
24:43No.
24:45I have a boyfriend.
24:47Shut the fuck up.
24:48What happened?
24:49She has a boyfriend.
24:53I think Kei is using a good headspace about it.
24:58Girl.
25:02So are you going to wait till he can talk to her tomorrow?
25:05Or are you going to say anything?
25:06I'm not saying anything.
25:07Okay.
25:07I wonder if he can ask to talk to her tonight,
25:09or if he'll just wait till tomorrow.
25:10I think I might ask him.
25:12Yeah.
25:12You don't want to sleep on that shit.
25:13Fucking decide.
25:17It's about you.
25:20You're good.
25:21Have fun.
25:22Good luck, sweet friend.
25:23I love y'all.
25:25No.
25:25That is hard.
25:29I wonder if we should take a shot now or wait for Kei.
25:35Welcome back.
25:37It was just Emma and Christine in there.
25:39And I was like, I'm just going on a quick bathroom break,
25:41and like, how do you feel?
25:42I was like, I feel really good.
25:43And they looked at me really confused,
25:45because they were like, okay, I think Kei also feels really good.
25:48Yeah.
25:49That just feels like shit to me.
25:51I'm sorry.
25:52Like, she could be laying out her engagement outfit,
25:56where she's going to get engaged in.
25:57Like, that's just kind of fucked up, Kevin.
25:59Like, if it was me, I would want you to tell me.
26:06I have been having strong connections with her.
26:14It was hard choosing between, you know, you two.
26:18And why was that again?
26:20I didn't want someone who I had these feelings for
26:26to just...
26:29to leave.
26:34You know, at the end of the day, Tyler,
26:36I felt very deeply about you.
26:40But me and Kei were able to bond.
26:43Is there any parts of you that feel like you have, like,
26:47feelings of love for her?
26:52Love is a very strong word.
26:56Yeah.
26:56But I will say, you know, definitely, you know,
26:59bonded, exchanged gifts.
27:01It's relating to a lot of...
27:04a lot of stuff.
27:05How are you gonna tell me that?
27:07You literally asked me to be your girlfriend.
27:10Yes.
27:11I want you to be my girlfriend.
27:13But...
27:14having two...
27:17amazing...
27:18people...
27:19this isn't a fucking game, you know?
27:21This is our lives.
27:24Like, this isn't...
27:26fucking...
27:27Oh, my God.
27:35I want you, though.
27:38What the fuck is happening?
27:40You know?
27:45What?
27:47I want...
27:49you.
27:51I...
27:52do want that.
27:54Oh, my God.
28:02Okay.
28:08Oh, my God.
28:09I just...
28:09Oh, I feel so fucking dumb.
28:12Not...
28:12not dumb.
28:15Oh, my God.
28:18Look, my jaw is, like, on the floor.
28:22How do you ask somebody to be their girlfriend?
28:25How do you talk about...
28:27engagements and weddings and marriage and life?
28:31If you don't feel ready to be married,
28:32if you don't feel ready to be engaged, that's fine.
28:33I feel...
28:34I feel ready.
28:35Oh, my God.
28:36I feel crazy.
28:38Don't feel crazy, Tyler.
28:40But, baby, tomorrow,
28:42you're supposed to be getting down on one knee.
28:44I know. I know.
28:46But I...
28:47I wanted to talk through...
28:49us, though.
28:50Let me just be very clear.
28:51I'm not spending the night in that hotel
28:53with the feeling that I have right now.
28:56I'm not coming back tomorrow.
28:58This is crazy.
28:59This is bananas.
29:00This is nuts.
29:02Like, if I think about...
29:04how my husband would make me feel,
29:06it's how I felt two hours ago,
29:07not how I feel right now,
29:08which is fucking crazy.
29:10If you're my husband, you gotta spend the rest of your life
29:11making it up to me.
29:12But if you're not my husband, then leave me alone.
29:15I'm gonna go.
29:17Tyler, don't go.
29:18You know...
29:20You are an amazing woman.
29:23You are that person that I want to...
29:27be with.
29:28Prove it.
29:30Okay.
29:32Let me figure out how to...
29:34do something to...
29:38Because I'm not coming back here tomorrow without clarity.
29:42And I don't know how to tell you to do that.
29:44Okay.
29:44Yeah.
29:44So you gotta figure that out.
29:46See, I'll figure it out.
29:48Alright.
29:49Goodnight.
29:49Goodnight.
29:53Might be having one of the...
29:55craziest days ever.
30:00Girl, unless that man can send a secret carrier
30:02to my motherfucking hotel room,
30:04I thought I might get back on another bus.
30:06I just went on the most...
30:09rollercoaster of my shit, too, bro.
30:10This shit is fucking crazy, bro.
30:13I gotta figure some shit out, man.
30:16If y'all already see the last five hours I've been through,
30:18I just feel like I gotta jump by, like, sumo wrestlers.
30:21Oh.
30:24Oh, Jesus.
30:25How's that sumo wrestler?
30:27Like, I just got my ass looked.
30:30It was... I was great, man.
30:32Went from great to okay.
30:34Ooh.
30:34Who's that?
30:35Which one?
30:36Tyler.
30:37Tyler.
30:37Tyler.
30:39Well, it's been...
30:42I thought we were...
30:44said that we were ready to move forward and...
30:48be together and, you know, move forward,
30:51but then she did make me think about with Nia.
30:55Yeah.
30:57I just don't...
30:58I just don't like how that ended up.
30:59Oh, God.
31:01Help, man.
31:04I think you got laid off.
31:06I couldn't fucking tell her that you love her.
31:08Give me up.
31:09I went from exuberant to just fucking...
31:11what the fuck, bro.
31:12Man, I love you, bro.
31:14It's gonna work out.
31:16It's gonna work out.
31:17Appreciate it, man.
31:19Never gonna take me down.
31:29Hello.
31:30Good morning, my love.
31:32How are you?
31:33I'm good.
31:34How did you sleep?
31:35Amazing.
31:37That's good.
31:38I do not.
31:39I was up a lot.
31:41Daydreaming.
31:42What were you daydreaming about?
31:44Our life together.
31:45I am grateful for you.
31:49Thank you for bringing me so much peace and comfort and security.
31:54Even with not even physically being with you, I just feel so safe.
31:59I feel loved.
32:00I feel seen.
32:01And I pray for a lifetime of laughs, love, and lots of babies.
32:10You have me at a loss for words.
32:12I met my best friend, and I'm excited to do life with you.
32:18Brittany, Elena, Wicker, I love you.
32:25Will you marry me?
32:29Yes!
32:32I know you didn't know what I was gonna say, but...
32:35I can't wait to be your wife.
32:38Getting married.
32:39We're getting married.
32:40Be ready.
32:41No more waiting for you.
32:43Right.
32:44Let's go celebrate.
32:45Okay.
32:46Bye.
32:46Bye.
32:58Hey.
33:02Oh my god.
33:06He's her fiancé.
33:08Bye-me-me-me-me-me.
33:10What are you waiting for?
33:15I come alive
33:18When you walk into the room
33:21I swear to dim the lights
33:24It's beyond comprehension
33:27how lucky and grateful I feel in this moment.
33:30I'm ready to commit to Chris forever
33:32because of who he is.
33:34I love that man so much.
33:36It is fucking wild.
33:37This can't be real
33:39It's like I'm living out a movie
33:43and you're the star
33:44Choosing Jessica to be the person
33:47I want to spend my life with
33:48it's almost like a premonition of fate
33:51when the stars align like almost perfectly.
33:54My life that I've lived up to this point
33:57and maybe her life she's lived up to this point
33:59it's just like literally meant to be.
34:04I'm dying to see Chris
34:06because I want to touch him
34:07and I want to be in his presence.
34:09but not because I want to see what he looks like.
34:11Like I don't care.
34:14The anticipation is unbelievable.
34:19She's willing to go above and beyond for love
34:23and I don't think that's ever been reciprocated back to me.
34:25I mean, I love her.
34:27Yeah.
34:28Yeah.
34:44Yeah.
34:46Yeah.
34:48Yeah.
34:51Yeah.
34:53Yeah.
34:54Yeah.
34:54Yeah.
34:54Yeah.
34:56Yeah.
34:59hmm Wow I feel like I have to do this in person right now you try to figure this
35:11out real quick okay
35:36oh my god I feel like I'm so nervous right now
35:44you're okay okay you're okay I love you I love you oh my gosh you look amazing
36:01seeing Jessica I'm like I know you so well and like to see her physically it was like
36:07oh my god and she's perfect it was the best moment of my entire life
36:14I'm so happy oh god I love you I love you oh my god I could have never found you
36:23never
36:25wow you're literally stunning stunning literally I'm also so short like when you were talking
36:33about my six inch heels I was literally I wasn't gonna say anything to you I was like how do
36:38I
36:38because I'm not I'm not six foot three obviously so I was like six inch heels I was like she's
36:43six
36:43foot with heels I was like I'm gonna be like yo this guy literally only five feet tall
36:51you're perfect stop no you are I was like I don't know if she's like the way I look
36:56are you kidding me can we just stay here I know hmm oh my god this is like
37:07you want to look at me I really do just want to like
37:12the connection we made I love you so much and like just seeing you it just like it literally
37:17makes it like a thousand times better I will remember this forever
37:27god you're so cute
37:32stop you stop everything's exactly how it's supposed to be literally one of the best moments of my entire
37:37life a hundred percent actually no question it's not one of it literally is same
37:51I absolutely did not care what package he came in but he's gorgeous oh god I'm really glad I have
38:01some champagne I haven't had this love before after my divorce I literally couldn't even have dreamed
38:17it he just makes me feel so safe like I just know he's never gonna let me down I just
38:23know it
38:24I love you oh gosh I love Jessica I couldn't imagine being with anybody else like ever
38:33and in this crazy life and through these crazy times it's you it's you you make me sing
38:48oh my god I'm getting more of this you're every song and I sing along
39:02cause you're my everything
39:10so you felt like your one last night after the everything went a lot better I'm so
39:16I was so confused and I had feelings for two people that I feel so comforted feel so stable so
39:23secure and like I feel like loved like I can like feel I feel really really really
39:30cares for me that's the one and that was never the one that I thought I was gonna go for
39:35that was that was him like that was the one who's standing here today I woke up at peace for
39:43the
39:43first time in a long time I got butterflies you know do you want to open first sure all right
39:48I'm opening right now okay they are letters okay so my mom is an amazing writer every year she writes
39:59a Christmas letter summarizing our life in a nutshell and excerpts of each of us oh my gosh I'm already
40:05getting cured up
40:06I was hoping that someone was going to get to know me so well I found that in you
40:13so I'm really excited for you to be able to read these letters and learn more about my family
40:20through my mom's words
40:22I'm gonna read the first one what year is that 2002 I didn't have a personality then so it's not
40:29as
40:29funny but a person I think you had a personality season's greetings after writing the past three
40:36Christmas letters from three different homes living in the same house for over a year we had a good
40:41year took a few family vacations the biggest being four days at Disney World it was Emma's first time
40:47there so it was very exciting for everyone Cora 10 continues to study violin and also participates
40:54on the math team and went on to the state level Hannah 8 is in third grade still loves animals
41:00in
41:00the outdoors on her walk home from school one day our mighty little naturist managed to capture two
41:06little turtles so the two turtles join our two guinea pigs two fish and two dogs oh my god the
41:11arc is full
41:12she goes your mom's got a sense of humor we had every single pet under the sun hamsters rats rats
41:19rats
41:19yeah my sister had rats Jesus we had lizards we had ducks we had a rabbit you had a whole
41:26farm yeah we
41:27like have housed many things all right um Emma here we go is five and a half don't make the
41:37mistake of
41:38leaving off the end a half most of you know she underwent six operations to remove a big black
41:45birthmark that covered her left arm and we are all grateful to that behind us and we've developed an
41:51enormous medical vocabulary over the last several months and can probably name more types of bandages
41:58than the average intern I wanted to be a doctor when I grew up because of that oh wow that's
42:03amazing
42:04this is now she delights in playing hospital with the leftover supplies yeah yeah there you go
42:11checks out she wrapped the neighbor's boy's leg in in bandages and then told him to come back on
42:16Tuesday for a dressing change we wish all of you a wonderful holiday season and wish all the best for
42:25the upcoming year love Jeff Steph Cora Hannah and Emma oh you can really feel the love and yeah how
42:33proud she is of you I knew my parents loved me yeah but I didn't know like it could be
42:40that much like
42:41looking back at these my mom I told you you're very big into sports yeah yeah she did like she's
42:47doing
42:47like a scrapbook for me yeah oh for like my my high school career special she went to every single
42:53one
42:53of my games and she filmed it oh my gosh even my younger ones wow it's amazing how mothers just
43:00can
43:00show love in so many different ways I couldn't agree more all right you're gonna open up mine oh yeah
43:05oh my
43:07gosh this is so cute little scrapbook stop it so do you like scrapbooking I do like scrapbooking so I
43:20decorated the front Mike you did this yeah I'm excited to have the both of us take pictures and fill
43:28that out together and it's our story wait so I'll be boyfriend and girlfriend yes I think we have so
43:36many similarities to you don't judge you're very empathetic towards me I am very very excited for committing to
43:44you and wanting to be my wife um the only thing would be the kids thing yeah you're kind of
43:53afraid
43:53because you don't know your genes what if we got gene testing done and it was fine because I I
44:00mean
44:00listen to you talk and like like even when I was reading these letters you're such a family person I
44:06know you could be a great mother and just think of having a little you that you can literally do
44:15what
44:15your mom did for you I think that you would absolutely kill it I could see a family with you
44:26the idea is still
44:28so new to me I'm also nervous that I'm like some days I am very selfish and I'm like no
44:37I don't need
44:37to take care of anyone but me and like that's kind of how I've been rocking and rolling for 27
44:41years I've
44:43been selfish too yeah you can be selfish for a little yeah and I'll take the brunt of the work
44:48yeah you
44:50know and then vice versa like if I'm having a tough day you know you might take the brunt of
44:54the work my
44:55parents gave us so much I'm just afraid like I can't like offer that to my kids I've been in
45:04money situations where I'm like oh shit like yeah I've maxed out my credit card what if shit hits the
45:11fan we're young yeah you're 27 I'm not even 30 yet maybe like three or three years ago yeah I
45:17I maxed
45:19out my credit card yeah I was $23,000 in debt yeah I fought and I clawed my way and
45:25now I don't have
45:25any debt things like that happen yeah and it's a learning experience but we're learning together
45:31and I know just how my family is and I'm getting a really strong sense how your family is too
45:36I feel
45:37like if there ever was a money issue yeah which I don't think there would be but I know that
45:43my family
45:43would help out yeah and I'd like to think that that maybe your family yeah it seems would help
45:48out too yeah I know they would say yeah so that's what I'm trying to say and it's not that's
45:53not being
45:53shameful to go to parents for help that's what they're there for yeah it doesn't sound good I'm
45:59sorry no no no it didn't it did sound good I'm like speechless just seeing you so passionate about it
46:05I want to be open-minded I do see myself marrying you and that was the only thing that was
46:11a question
46:12mark are you still okay that it's a question mark I am yeah okay I feel such a strong connection
46:18with
46:18you that that I'm okay with the question mark yeah I'm okay with the question mark but I'll be lying
46:24to you if I if I didn't say I'm gonna try to sway you a little bit yeah um not
46:31looking for an answer
46:31no I know but I'm just saying yeah think about it
46:35anything could happen anything could happen anything could happen
46:56oh my gosh I've literally engaged to Connor I feel like I just put it in the
47:01universe the first day I was like this is my guy I found my person I feel over the moon
47:13elated
47:14Brianna has made me realize what I want we've trusted each other put confidence in each other
47:20supported each other listen to each other me more than her since she doesn't ever stop talking it's so
47:28awesome I never wanted to stop talking it's definitely a fairy tale but is this all gonna
47:35come to fruition and be real life or are we just like living in this fairy tale world that isn't
47:42really gonna pan out I do have some insecurities is she gonna be okay with how I look I know
47:51I'm out of
47:51shape I'm not the most built and I'm 5 11 and 3 4ths I'm not short just standard date normal
47:59body
47:59normal height and I don't really stand out hopefully she's okay with that because she's my soul mate
48:16stop Connor finally oh you have no idea stop it oh my gosh you're freaking gorgeous
48:38the wildest brusque as ever you have one thing for you what okay you're so sweaty your hands are so
48:48yeah I know this is insane you're like free I know officially it's official
49:02okay holy shit no you have no idea oh my god no you have to go my way because I
49:10you have to walk
49:11wait not me I was gonna walk you back there oh you were you're a gentleman yes oh my god
49:17Connor
49:17what your hands are the sweatiest of the entire world this is nuts my heart's like Connor's a stud
49:25I can't wait to see like all of each other whether that's with clothes or without
49:39I don't know she's gorgeous it matches her personality you look unbelievable okay holy shit you get out of
49:51here I'm here perfect smile you could see it just radiating off her and she was just so happy
49:59to see me that's when I knew I'll remember that moment for the rest of my life am I what
50:05you
50:06expected really yeah I think so it all really well he's not meaning ugly I appreciate that
50:16the minute you just started laughing when you came out of the double doors I was like that's all I
50:21needed it's just like when we were on our dates and I'm just like if I'm ever nervous or whatnot
50:24and I
50:24just hear your voice and like your like positivity and your optimism just like look at them gas and
50:31me that's all I needed and then you just started laughing I'm like I told you I would I'm like
50:36I'm just
50:36gonna start laughing I know it's like my nervous tick I don't even know what I did wait how tall
50:40are you
50:41five four okay wait how tall are you five eleven and three-fourths I'm not six foot yeah someone fact
50:48check this man get a real I didn't say I was six foot yeah you were honest yeah well it's
50:52a great
50:53it's a great quality in you I think I got like an extra half inch you were his high heels
50:57today is my
50:58heart still being like fast yes mine was too did you think there's gonna be any awkwardness when we
51:03saw each other no I thought maybe for like a you thought of me or you me being engaged is
51:11one of the
51:12craziest feelings no one's ever said how good it feels I feel like I can climb a freaking mountain
51:21right now even in this suit this is an unbelievable feeling I found the love of my life just perfect
51:33you're too far away from me oh my gosh she's like sit on my lap
51:43you are so freaking cute stop do you want me to stop or no no okay don't actually stop
51:52I know a miracle there's not something to ignore okay what you can't just make out for 20 years
52:05oh we can
52:11feels like I'm gonna be okay because I have Connor
52:18oh my gosh well it's nice to meet you stop it I'm really happy to walk me down no I'm
52:25not
52:26walking you down I'm fine I love you love you too oh my gosh so how we've not said that
52:37yet
52:38so you just wanted to make out I told you okay watch out you're gonna like run into that side
52:44you're worth it babe
52:51you kidding me I fucking love you guys
52:55oh my gosh
53:02the best moment of my life I don't know what to do with my hands
53:11you're being in your head for a while now
53:14you don't have to make a decision now make a decision together
53:17I don't know don't know we shall see
53:22I never expected myself to be in a love triangle but here we are
53:28getting stronger as I move through everything
53:31what percentage of your heart is with Kia and what percent is with Tyler
53:39I don't know if I can put a percent on it what I will say is that for different reasons
53:46there's something that's pulling me and I truly don't want to
53:55don't want to mess that up
54:01I'm not here to find a girlfriend I'm here to find my best friend
54:05I want to raise a family
54:08be with my wife and in today's date with Tyler
54:11I need to be able to say hey this is where I'm at this is how I feel
54:19that beautiful chapter it needs to be written that's what I'm here for
54:26Tyler makes me feel like she may be the one
54:28so I'm ready to see if she's she's available and she's ready to see me
54:39hey hello hello
54:49hello
54:51hello
55:02yeah nobody's on the other side
55:31so much
55:33There's so much to discover.
55:38There's so much to discover.
56:33There's so much to discover.
57:03There's so much to discover.
57:33There's so much to discover.
57:33There's so much to discover.
57:37There's so much to discover.
57:38There's so much to discover.
57:39There's so much to discover.
57:39There's so much to discover.
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