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The Alpha’S Regret She Never Looked Back Ep
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00:30Heard it, the soft shift of body's ragged breath, and her voice, quiet and hesitant, laced with thrill.
00:36Should we really do this here?
00:42It's okay. She fell asleep.
00:44My blood turned to ice, but I did not flinch. I forced my eyelids shut, imagining them.
00:50Noah, my mate, the alpha I built, pressing Lydia against our bedroom stonewall.
00:55His hands in her hair, his mouth on hers, starved.
00:58She was his stepmother, the late alpha's mate, betraying me right beside my bed.
01:03They thought I slept, thought they were quiet, but I heard every kiss, every possessive growl, every shameless sigh.
01:10His hands roamed her like she was his. She clung to him like she belonged in my place.
01:14I swallowed down bile, keeping my breathing even, my face impassive.
01:19I lay silent, chest aching as if clawed open, but gave no sign.
01:23I did not scream, did not confront them.
01:26I just listened, letting cold resolve settle.
01:29The blood moon was coming, and I would leave forever.
01:32For now, I would pretend, pretend ignorance.
01:35Pretend the betrayal did not cut deep.
01:37I would bide my time, then vanish without a trace.
01:44This was the man I gave up everything for, but he cheated on me with his stepmother, behind my back.
01:50I am Arya.
01:51I left my entire world behind to stay in this cursed.
01:54Frozen wolf territory, a world of frost and tradition, where strength was worshipped and softness was a weakness.
02:00I tilled the barren earth that had never grown crops before, turning rock and snow into soil that could feed
02:05the pack.
02:06I healed the sick with wild herbs.
02:08I'd learned to recognize, stitching wounds and calming fevers, when the pack's old ways only brought suffering.
02:14I built stable shelters that blocked the biting winter wind, keeping their children alive through the coldest nights.
02:21Most of all, I built Noah.
02:23I turned him from a reckless, hot-headed warrior into a respected alpha,
02:27Teaching him patience, wisdom, and how to lead with kindness, not just strength.
02:32I gave him my loyalty, my effort, my heart, and my future.
02:36I thought love could outrun tradition.
02:38I thought he would choose me.
02:40Now, I knew better, but I would not let him see how much he had broken me.
02:45But the moment his father died, everything changed.
02:48The old alpha's funeral fire had barely turned to ash when Noah brought Lydia back to our den.
02:53Under the pack's ancient, twisted law.
02:55The son inherits his father's mate, a tradition he'd once sworn to break for me.
03:00He did not fight it.
03:01He did not hesitate.
03:03He did not even apologize.
03:05He just brought her home, and betrayed me where I slept.
03:08That night in our chamber was not the first time, and it would not be the last.
03:12And every night, I lay there, pretending to sleep.
03:16Pretending not to hear the sounds of their betrayal through the thin stone walls.
03:20Lydia was given the chamber beside ours.
03:22Close enough to touch.
03:24Close enough to taunt.
03:25Every night, the whispers.
03:27The moans.
03:28The proof that he had forgotten every vow he'd made to me drifted through the walls.
03:32I did not scream.
03:34I did not confront him.
03:35I only carved tiny marks into the stone wall in dried beast blood.
03:39Counting down the days until the blood moon, my silent countdown to freedom.
03:43Hidden from his sight.
03:45The next morning, I went to my seedling beds, the fields I'd nurtured with my own two hands.
03:51The future I'd built for the pack that owed me everything.
03:53When I arrived, my heart sank completely.
03:56Every plant was drowned.
03:58Flooded.
03:59Destroyed beyond any hope of saving.
04:01Lydia stood beside the wreckage.
04:03Holding a wooden bucket.
04:05Tears streaming down her face.
04:07Before I could speak, Noah appeared.
04:09He shoved me backward with brutal, unthinking force.
04:13My knee crashed hard into a sharp stone.
04:15And white-hot pain exploded through my leg.
04:18Lydia lifted her tearful face.
04:20Whispering softly.
04:22I only wanted to help.
04:25Can you not even tolerate her?
04:27What was the point of explaining?
04:29He had already chosen.
04:31Chosen the woman who destroyed my work.
04:33Chosen to believe her lies over my pain.
04:35He had chosen to break me.
04:37One cruelty at a time.
04:39I pushed myself up slowly from the mud and dirt.
04:42My leg throbbing violently.
04:44Blood dripping steadily down my calf.
04:46I lifted my head and looked Noah directly in the eyes.
04:50My voice soft but final.
04:51No hint of the rage I felt.
04:53I'm hurt too, Noah.
04:55For a single heartbeat.
04:57I saw hesitation.
04:58A flicker of guilt.
04:59A moment of regret.
05:01But then Lydia whimpered and pressed a hand to her stomach.
05:04Her voice trembling.
05:05I'm bleeding.
05:06A single red drop appeared on her thigh.
05:08Noah's face turned white.
05:10He did not hesitate.
05:12He lifted her in his arms and ran.
05:14Leaving me alone in the wreckage of the life I had built.
05:17In that moment.
05:18The very last thread of hope inside me snapped.
05:21Clean and final.
05:22I no longer loved him.
05:24I no longer hated him.
05:26I simply did not care.
05:27And I let that indifference show.
05:29My face calm.
05:30As I tended to my wound alone.
05:33One more part of the act.
05:34One more step toward freedom.
05:37We gathered in the healer's small, quiet stone chamber later that day.
05:41The healer's voice suddenly rang out with bright joy.
05:44Lydia was with child.
05:46With the deepest lunar mark in generations.
05:49A sign of great power for the pack.
05:51Noah's face lit up with a wild, overwhelming joy I had never seen.
05:55A joy he had never shown me.
05:57Not even on the day he became alpha.
05:59Then he turned to me, his expression cold and calm.
06:03As if he were giving a simple order.
06:05Not a knife to the heart.
06:07You will care for her.
06:08This is your duty.
06:09I laughed bitterly.
06:11The sound echoing in the small chamber.
06:13This is not my child.
06:15It's your choice.
06:16I refuse.
06:17The room fell silent.
06:18Noah's eyes turned cold enough to freeze the air.
06:21And I knew, in that moment, that my fate was sealed.
06:24For the first time, I dropped the act.
06:27Not out of anger.
06:28But out of acceptance.
06:29The pretense was no longer needed.
06:31My escape was near.
06:34Noah's face hardened instantly into cold, unyielding stone.
06:38He gave me an ultimatum.
06:40Sharp and final.
06:41You must serve, Lydia.
06:43Tend to her every need.
06:44Or leave the alpha den forever.
06:49Where am I supposed to go?
06:51This territory.
06:52This pack.
06:53This life.
06:54I had built it all with my own two hands.
06:56It was as much my home as his.
06:58He hesitated for a long.
07:00Then spoke the words that felt like a death sentence.
07:03The old mountain dens.
07:05The place where wolves go to die.
07:08The healer gasped and tried to protest.
07:11It was a death sentence that no one survived the mountain dens alone.
07:15But Noah silenced her with a single, I see you look.
07:20I agreed without hesitation.
07:22I was not surrendering.
07:24I was waiting, waiting for the blood moon.
07:27I'm gonna leave him with nothing.
07:29Just like he started out.
07:33Once, Noah had knelt before me in firelight.
07:36His large hands trembling as he placed a rough wolf tooth.
07:39Pendant around my neck.
07:41It was unpolished, uneven.
07:43But to me, it was the most precious thing in the entire territory.
07:46He swore I was his only mate.
07:49His only equal.
07:50He said he cared nothing for pack laws.
07:52Nothing for heirs.
07:54Nothing for the marks that defined other wolves.
07:56He said I was enough.
07:58I wore that pendant like a crown.
08:00I believed him.
08:01Even when the pack whispered.
08:03That a human like me could never be a true Luna.
08:05Now, it felt like a chain.
08:07But I kept it around my neck.
08:09One more part of the act.
08:11One more way to pretend I was still the naive.
08:14Loving mate he once knew.
08:15But after Lydia arrived.
08:17Every gentle memory turned to poison.
08:20The pendant around my neck felt like a weight.
08:22A reminder of every lie he'd told.
08:24Every promise he'd broken.
08:26I was no longer begging for his love.
08:29I was waiting for my escape.
08:30And the blood moon would be my ticket out.
08:33And until then.
08:34I would keep pretending.
08:36Keep hiding the rage and heartbreak that threatened to consume me.
08:42One night.
08:43Long after he'd been with Lydia.
08:45Noah finally came to me.
08:47His skin reeked of her.
08:48Thick and cloying.
08:49Mixed with a cold.
08:51Impatient guilt.
08:51He sat on the edge of my fur bed and reached to touch my hair.
08:55As if he still had the right to comfort me.
08:57As if nothing had broken between us.
09:00I flinched away as if burned.
09:02Not out of anger.
09:03But to keep up the pretense of a sleepy.
09:05Don't touch me.
09:06Unknowing mate.
09:08Startled by his touch.
09:09Avoiding his eyes so he would not see the pain there.
09:12His jaw tightened.
09:13His eyes hardening.
09:14This is just duty, Aria.
09:17For the pack.
09:18For an heir.
09:22I would send her away once she gave birth.
09:24That the pup would call you mother.
09:26That you were still my only Luna.
09:29I said nothing.
09:31I closed my eyes again.
09:33Pretending to drift back to sleep.
09:35Letting him think his lies had lulled me into complacency.
09:38I did not look at him.
09:39I did not believe a single syllable.
09:42Every word was a knife.
09:43Twisting deeper into a wound he would never let heal.
09:46Duty was just an excuse.
09:48An excuse to betray me without guilt.
09:50And I let him believe I did not see through it.
09:56That night.
09:58After he left.
09:59I tore the wolf tooth pendant from my neck with a single.
10:02Sharp movement.
10:03I held it in my palm.
10:05Staring at the rough bone that once meant forever.
10:08That had once been my most cherished treasure.
10:10It was no longer a gift.
10:12It was a lie.
10:13I walked slowly to the hearth.
10:15Where the fire still glowed low and warm.
10:17Casting faint shadows across the stone walls.
10:20I opened my fingers and let the necklace fall into the flames.
10:23I watched it char black.
10:25Crumble into small pieces.
10:27And fade silently into the ash below.
10:29When it was completely gone.
10:31I felt no sorrow.
10:32Only a quiet.
10:33Heavy.
10:34Liberating relief.
10:35On my wrist.
10:36I wore a smooth.
10:38Ancient bone ring.
10:39Something I had kept close.
10:41And hidden since the very first day I arrived in this strange land.
10:44The blood moon would rise soon.
10:46I would be ready.
10:48And until then.
10:49The act would go on.
10:51I was moved to the mountain den before sunset.
10:54It was cold, damp, and completely empty.
10:57With no fire, no soft furs, no warmth.
11:00Nothing but rough stone.
11:02And howling wind that cut straight through my bones.
11:04The air smelled of decay and neglect.
11:07A reminder that this was where the pack left those they no longer wanted.
11:10Noah came once on the first day.
11:12Bearing a small basket of simple rations.
11:15Bread and dried meat.
11:16Barely enough to survive.
11:18I shut the door in his face without a single word.
11:21After that, he never came back.
11:24I assumed Lydia needed him.
11:26The unborn child needed him.
11:28The pack needed him.
11:30I was nothing to him now.
11:31And that was fine.
11:33It made my way easier.
11:34My resolve stronger.
11:36Days passed slowly.
11:37Painfully.
11:38The food ran out.
11:39No one refilled it.
11:41No one checked on me.
11:42No one cared.
11:44I curled up on the hard stone bed.
11:47Shivering uncontrollably.
11:49As a dull, heavy cramping began deep in my stomach.
11:52For years, I had used wild herbs to avoid carrying a child.
11:56I did not want to be tied to this world.
11:58To this pack.
11:59To Noah.
12:00By blood.
12:00But fate had other, crueler plans.
12:05The pain grew sharper.
12:07More unbearable.
12:08Tearing through my body like shards of ice.
12:10I realized slowly.
12:12Coldly.
12:13What was happening.
12:14Against all odds.
12:15I was carrying his child.
12:17And in this cold, abandoned den.
12:20With no food.
12:21No care.
12:22No love.
12:23No warmth.
12:24The small, fragile life inside me could not survive.
12:27Warm blood spread slowly beneath me.
12:29Dark and sticky.
12:31Soaking into the thin furs I'd been given.
12:33I stared up at the dark stone ceiling.
12:35Tears falling silently down my cheeks.
12:37But I did not grieve.
12:39I felt only quiet.
12:41Profound relief.
12:42That baby deserved a father who would choose it.
12:45A pack that would value it.
12:46A life that would cherish it.
12:48The last living link between Noah and me was gone forever.
12:51My bone ring slipped from my finger and clattered loudly onto the stone floor.
12:55Outside.
12:56The sky glowed silver.
12:57The blood moon had come.
12:59My chance to escape was here.
13:04The sky blazed silver above the mountain.
13:06The blood moon hung full and bright.
13:08Casting an otherworldly light over the entire land.
13:11Turning the snow to liquid silver and the rocks to shadow.
13:14My bone ring glowed softly on the stone floor.
13:17Humming with a quiet.
13:19Old power I had long kept to myself.
13:21This ring was my only connection to the life I once had.
13:24A life far away from wolves and packs and blood moons.
13:27I was not born to this world.
13:29I was pulled here unexpectedly.
13:31Torn away from everything I knew and loved.
13:34From a modern life of warmth and safety and family.
13:36From a home that never asked me to sacrifice myself for love.
13:40This ring was my only way back.
13:42I left the bloodstained furs spread wide on the stone bed.
13:45Making it clear and obvious for anyone.
13:47Who found me that I had perished here in the cold.
13:50I took one last long.
13:51Final look at the territory that had broken me.
13:54Then stepped calmly into the glowing light of the blood moon.
13:57The portal closed softly behind me.
13:59I was free.
14:01Noah woke suddenly in the dead of night.
14:04His wolf screaming inside him with a blind.
14:07Uncontrollable panic that made his whole body shake.
14:09He did not know why.
14:11He only knew something was unspeakably.
14:13Terribly wrong.
14:14He threw off Lydia without a second thought and ran.
14:17Rushing wildly up the mountain path.
14:19His feet bleeding on the sharp stones.
14:21His lungs burning with every breath.
14:24The den door hung open.
14:25Creaking weakly in the wind.
14:27He stumbled inside.
14:28It was empty.
14:30Then he saw it.
14:31The massive, dark, wet bloodstain on the furs.
14:34So large it made his breath catch.
14:36The healer was summoned immediately.
14:38She knelt and trembled violently.
14:40Pressing her fingers to the blood.
14:42Then looked up at him with tears streaming down her face.
14:45It was the blood of a miscarriage.
14:48It's hers.
14:50The mighty, feared alpha of the shadow pine pack collapsed helplessly to his knees.
14:55He clutched the bloodstained furs to his chest and let out a broken, animal-like sob that echoed through the
15:00empty den.
15:01He had lost me.
15:02He had lost our child.
15:04And he knew, with every fiber of his being, that it was all his fault.
15:09Noah never recovered from that day.
15:11He drove Lydia and their newborn pup far away from the pack.
15:15Refusing to even look at the air he had once craved so desperately.
15:18The pup was a reminder of his betrayal.
15:20Of the child he had lost.
15:22Of the woman he had destroyed.
15:24He wanted nothing to do with the pack.
15:26The land.
15:27The title.
15:28The life he had fought so hard to gain.
15:30He only wanted me.
15:32The pack turned against him completely.
15:34Calling him mad.
15:35You're not worthy of being our alpha.
15:37They stripped him of his alpha title and locked him away in isolation.
15:41Fearing his grief would destroy them all.
15:43He stayed in that bloody mountain den for days.
15:45Four weeks.
15:47Staring blankly at the stone walls.
15:49Whispering my name over and over again like a prayer.
15:52He was not crazy.
15:53He was repenting.
15:55Repenting for me.
15:56For the child he never got to hold.
15:58For every choice that had broken the one person who had ever loved him truly.
16:02Unconditionally.
16:04I opened my eyes to the soft white light of a hospital room.
16:07The steady beep of machines.
16:09The warm, familiar scent of antiseptic and home that I had missed so deeply.
16:14I was back in my own world.
16:15The world I had been torn away from three years ago.
16:18My parents were beside me.
16:20Their faces lined with years of grief and overwhelming relief.
16:23Their hair streaked with gray from worry and searching.
16:26They had searched for me every single day for three long years.
16:29Selling everything they owned.
16:31Never giving up.
16:32Even when the police had stopped looking.
16:34Even when everyone else had said I was gone forever.
16:37I held them tightly and wept.
16:39For the years I had lost.
16:41For the pain I had put them through.
16:43For the fool I had been to abandon the people.
16:45Who loved me unconditionally for a man.
16:47Who had only loved me when it was convenient.
16:50I promised them I would never leave again.
16:53I promised myself I would never let anyone break me like that again.
16:56I lived quietly for a full year.
16:59Healing slowly but steadily.
17:01Rebuilding my life one small step at a time.
17:03I stayed close to my family.
17:05Got a job.
17:06Decorated a small apartment that felt like home.
17:09And learned to feel safe and calm again.
17:11I put the wolf territory.
17:13The blood moons.
17:14The pain.
17:15And Noah firmly behind me.
17:17I thought I was free.
17:18That I would never see him again.
17:20Never be haunted by the past.
17:22Then I saw him.
17:23He stood in the middle of the busy modern street.
17:26Surrounded by cars and neon lights and crowds of people.
17:29His long hair wild and unkempt.
17:31His clothes strange and out of place.
17:33His eyes fixed on me like I was a ghost he could not believe was real.
17:37He had used my bone ring.
17:39The ring I had left behind in the mountain den.
17:41He had crossed worlds.
17:43He had found me.
17:44My chest tightened with a mix of fear and anger.
17:47The old wounds aching as if they had never truly closed.
17:50I thought I had escaped him.
17:52But he had followed me home.
17:55My blood turned to ice in my veins.
17:57I grabbed his arm roughly and pulled him into a dark, quiet alley.
18:01Away from the crowds.
18:02My heart racing with fear and anger and cold disgust.
18:06How did you find me?
18:08Leave now.
18:09Go back to your world and never bother me again.
18:12His eyes filled with hot, helpless tears.
18:15A sight I had never seen from the proud Alpha.
18:17Get out of here!
18:18He begged me desperately.
18:20His voice cracking.
18:22Please, don't send me away.
18:24I know I don't deserve forgiveness.
18:27I just want to make it up to you.
18:30Let me stay.
18:32Let me protect you.
18:34And love you the way I should.
18:35Then the proud, powerful Alpha dropped to his knees before me.
18:38In the dirt and shadow of the alley.
18:41Humbling himself completely.
18:43Hit me.
18:44Hate me.
18:45Hurt me.
18:47Just don't leave me again.
18:49I felt nothing but cold.
18:50Empty revulsion.
18:52His apologies meant nothing.
18:54His regret meant nothing.
18:56He had broken me.
18:57And I would never let him fix me.
18:59Just then, I saw my cousin walking toward the alley.
19:02Coming to check on me after I'd disappeared into the crowd.
19:05A sharp, quiet idea flashed into my mind.
19:09A way to make him leave.
19:10Darling!
19:11I had taught him.
19:12Long ago.
19:13That darling was for the person you loved more than anything in the world.
19:17I hid behind my cousin.
19:18Pretending to be afraid.
19:20Noah's face shattered completely.
19:22He knew what that word meant.
19:26Who are you?
19:28Let's go home.
19:29Back to our home.
19:31To our son.
19:32He realized I had moved on.
19:34That I had built a new life.
19:36A new love.
19:37A new family.
19:39Without him.
19:40He stood frozen.
19:41As if the breath had been stolen from his lungs.
19:44And I could see every bit of hope he had carried die in his eyes.
19:47I was truly completely gone.
19:49And nothing he could do would ever bring me back.
19:52Noah did not leave.
19:54He refused to go back to his world.
19:56Even after I had shattered his hope.
19:58He found a job near my apartment.
20:00Working long.
20:02Tiring days just to be close.
20:04Just to catch a single glimpse of me as I passed by.
20:07He watched me from a distance.
20:08Silent and broken.
20:10Never daring to approach.
20:12He learned to adapt to my world.
20:14Fumbling with strange tools and heavy work.
20:16Struggling to understand cars and phones.
20:19And the busy pace of modern life.
20:21All to stay within reach of the woman he had destroyed.
20:24One day.
20:25He stepped shakily in front of me and pulled out a small.
20:28Simple ring.
20:28A human symbol of commitment.
20:31Aria.
20:31And love he had learned about my world.
20:33I want to give you forever.
20:37I'll spend the rest of my life making up for every mistake I made.
20:41I took the ring from his hand calmly.
20:43I held it up for a long moment.
20:45Then threw it hard into the grass.
20:47I told him his regret was pathetic.
20:49Your regret is pathetic.
20:51Your apology worthless.
20:53And your presence disgusting.
20:54If you ever come near me again.
20:57I'll disappear forever and you'll never find me.
20:59I turned and walked away.
21:01Never looking back.
21:05A few days later.
21:07A small.
21:08Plain package.
21:09Arrived quietly at my door.
21:11There was no return address.
21:13But I knew who it was from.
21:14Inside was my bone ring.
21:16The key to the wolf world.
21:17The key that had brought me safely home.
21:20The key he had used to cross worlds and find me.
21:22And there was a letter.
21:24Written in shaky.
21:25Childish.
21:26But painfully careful handwriting.
21:28It was from Noah.
21:29He wrote that he would never bother me again.
21:32That he was returning the ring in case I ever wanted to go back.
21:35Though he knew deep in his heart I never would.
21:37He wished me happiness.
21:39Peace.
21:40A life free from pain and regret.
21:42I will spend the rest of my days making up for what I've done.
21:46Even if you never forgive me.
21:49I don't ask for your pity.
21:51I don't ask for a second chance.
21:54All I ask is that you be happy.
21:57When I finished reading.
21:58I folded the letter and set it aside.
22:00He was gone.
22:02Truly.
22:02Finally gone.
22:03And this time.
22:04I did not feel a thing.
22:07I put the bone ring away in a quiet.
22:09Hidden drawer.
22:10Closing the final chapter on wolves.
22:13Blood moons.
22:14Broken promises.
22:15And a love that had destroyed me completely.
22:17I did not feel anger.
22:19I did not feel sadness.
22:21I felt light.
22:21As if a weight I had carried for years had finally been lifted.
22:25I went back to my family.
22:27To my quiet.
22:28Warm.
22:29Safe life.
22:30To the world that had always been mine.
22:32That had always loved me.
22:33I learned the hardest and most important lesson of all.
22:36Real love should never ask you to lose yourself.
22:39It should never make you small.
22:41Or silent.
22:42Or broken.
22:43It should never require you to give up your home.
22:45Your heart.
22:46Or your worth.
22:47I had once believed that love meant sacrifice.
22:50But I now knew that true love means respect.
22:53Respect for who you are.
22:55Respect for your choices.
22:56Respect for your heart.
22:58I chose to save myself.
23:00I chose to go home.
23:01I chose to live for the people who loved me.
23:04And that was the bravest.
23:05Kindest.
23:06Most necessary choice I ever made.
23:08I walked forward into my life.
23:10Open and unafraid.
23:12Leaving the wolf.
23:13The pack.
23:14And the pain far behind me.
23:16I would never again give up my world for someone.
23:19Who would not fight for me?
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