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00:00:06Oh
00:00:30Let's go.
00:01:10Rito, open that up.
00:01:12Come on.
00:01:13Get it open.
00:01:16I totally knew it.
00:01:18I totally knew it.
00:01:21What is it?
00:01:23It's a rope.
00:01:24Get rid of that box.
00:01:26Another 12 year old would love a rope for Christmas.
00:01:29Yeah.
00:01:31Yeah.
00:01:31Come on, Em.
00:01:33Yeah.
00:01:34Woo!
00:01:35Yeah!
00:01:37Yeah!
00:01:38Yeah!
00:01:39Yeah!
00:01:39Yeah!
00:01:45Emily.
00:01:46Emily.
00:01:47Emily, where are we?
00:01:48I don't know.
00:01:50I don't know.
00:01:51We're at El Capitan.
00:01:57From Colorado, Emily Harrington.
00:02:02She's certainly a force to be reckoned with.
00:02:06Emily, make it look easy.
00:02:12Five-time national champion.
00:02:22But Emily is certainly one of the most well-rounded American female climbers.
00:02:27Part of your brain knows that this is slightly illogical.
00:02:32It is dangerous.
00:02:33But life's boring if you don't have that little element of spice, right?
00:02:38We should try to get a little bit more comfortable with being afraid.
00:02:46I love exploring my perceived limit and trying to push past it.
00:03:20It's in early summer.
00:03:21Within the run, we can see we can get a little outta our bodies on the building.
00:03:22And then finally, we need to be a other leader with another 1950.
00:03:28Are you biting my nose?
00:03:45We got fire.
00:03:47I think this is my pee bottle.
00:03:51Nope, it's just a normal water bottle.
00:03:59A little flair in the van.
00:04:15I'm really proud of my career so far, but if you want to call yourself a successful all-around
00:04:21climber, you've got to be up on El Cap.
00:04:26There it is, in all its glory.
00:04:30El Capitan.
00:04:47It's always surprising how big it is.
00:04:49I never think, oh, it doesn't look that bad, or it doesn't look that big.
00:04:54It's always fucking so big.
00:04:58I don't know why no one talks about how scary it is.
00:05:04I wish I could not feel afraid anymore.
00:05:11El Capitan is a 3,200-foot granite face.
00:05:18It doesn't get much bigger.
00:05:20It doesn't get much more difficult.
00:05:23It doesn't get much more high quality than El Cap.
00:05:28It's just the most impressive, most beautiful stone in the world.
00:05:32And it's so hard to free climb.
00:05:38When you look at El Cap, it looks impossible.
00:05:41It looks smooth, and you can't imagine what there would be to climb it.
00:05:44Always attracted people that are curious to push themselves to the highest level.
00:05:52For decades, climbers have been testing themselves up there.
00:05:58Climbing El Capitan is the most badass thing that you can do, as a human.
00:06:04With the exception of Lynn Hill, and a few other women, it's very much like a boys club.
00:06:09Come on, go fast, stop!
00:06:13When I started climbing, the first person I learned about was Lynn Hill.
00:06:18She was the first to free climb a route on El Capitan called The Nose.
00:06:23And then the following year, she went back and free climbed it in a day.
00:06:29Which was the most groundbreaking, astonishing achievement.
00:06:34I didn't feel like I needed to prove anything after that.
00:06:38Because I was at the age where I wanted to have a kid, I wanted to have a family,
00:06:41and having the freedom to just go rock climbing was not going to happen forever.
00:06:47At a certain point, you have to be happy with what you've done.
00:06:56What's your ring?
00:06:57You want to hear my alarm?
00:06:58Yeah.
00:06:59This is mine.
00:07:00What's yours?
00:07:01Mine's more the other end of the spectrum.
00:07:03I was in Yosemite looking for a project, some sort of inspiration.
00:07:08I was working on my personal quest to free solo El Cap on the free rider.
00:07:12And she was willing to go up the wall to support me for a day of climbing.
00:07:15I got really excited because climbing with Alex on El Cap is like playing basketball with Michael Jordan.
00:07:21It's like you're with the best of the best.
00:07:25First time I met Emily was at a cliff called Jailhouse.
00:07:28She was already a very established, very successful climber.
00:07:32She was a lot better than me.
00:07:34And the thing that really made an impression was that she was all kind of done up and she had
00:07:38earrings and things.
00:07:38And I was like, man, how can someone climb that hard with earrings?
00:07:42She was just so well put together and going to college and doing the hardest thing at the cliff.
00:07:46You know, everything about it was just different than what I was living.
00:07:49I was like, whoa, that's a different level.
00:07:53You could tell he just didn't really care about anything but climbing.
00:07:56And he is very famous for free soloing, which is rock climbing without a rope.
00:08:04No person does what he does at his level.
00:08:10I was incredibly inspired by the way he moved.
00:08:16He was so perfect.
00:08:19He seems so at ease.
00:08:21And I've always envied that.
00:08:23With the green ground, you can climb up to the spire and like reflake the rope and manage.
00:08:28I'm just trying to nurture you into a simul climbing machine.
00:08:35Good work.
00:08:37Yeah, good work.
00:08:39Good work.
00:08:40That was good.
00:08:41There's no way I would have done any of that without you.
00:08:44Isn't that pretty rad?
00:08:45That was pretty rad.
00:08:46That was a life experience.
00:08:48Yeah.
00:08:49I think you could do that in a day.
00:08:51You do?
00:08:51Yeah.
00:08:53I don't think it'd be that bad for you because you just have the base fitness that you need,
00:08:56you know?
00:08:56Yeah.
00:08:57It'd definitely be a dream.
00:08:59Yeah, it'd be sick.
00:09:00It's got to start somewhere.
00:09:01Yeah.
00:09:03I mean, you know.
00:09:05That's when I first thought of trying to free climb El Cap in less than 24 hours.
00:09:12Climbing it in a day is the epitome of hard rock climbing.
00:09:16And there's a desire to prove myself.
00:09:18Like, I do deserve to be here.
00:09:20I do deserve to be climbing with all of these people that I've looked up to and idolized for a
00:09:26long time.
00:09:27That's awesome.
00:09:28That's pretty good.
00:09:29I like a bag or two.
00:09:31It's the sense of belonging that I want.
00:09:48I see some big wet streaks, but I also see dry rock.
00:09:53So it's kind of a mixed bag up there.
00:09:58It is not going to change a single thing.
00:10:03Most people free climb El Cap over five days or so.
00:10:06It's so much harder to free climb El Cap in a day.
00:10:10The difference between doing a multi-day ascent and doing a one-day ascent is huge.
00:10:16To climb that thing in a day, it's outrageous.
00:10:19It's an audacious undertaking.
00:10:23I'm left wondering whether she can pull it off.
00:10:28Most people who free climb El Cap in a day have done it via the free rider,
00:10:32because it's the easiest route.
00:10:34I wanted to do a more challenging route, and that's why I chose Golden Gate.
00:10:41There are very few climbers who have free climbed any route on El Cap in a day other
00:10:45than the free rider.
00:10:47Golden Gate is quite a bit harder.
00:10:50Golden Gate has only been free climbed in a day by three people.
00:10:53Three of the best El Cap climbers in the world.
00:11:00These guys are heroes of mine, and I want to be a part of that group.
00:11:11Golden Gate has 34 pitches.
00:11:14My goal is to climb from the beginning of each pitch to the end without falling.
00:11:19That will be a free ascent.
00:11:21If I fall, I have to go back to the beginning of that pitch and try again.
00:11:26And I need to do this in under 24 hours.
00:11:36That's going to be really hard for her.
00:11:38I give her a 20% chance of sending, honestly.
00:11:52It's hard to put yourself out there and say you're going to try to do the hardest thing you've ever
00:11:57done.
00:11:58It's just because I'm trying to protect myself from people finding out that I'm afraid, or that I fail, or
00:12:04that I'm just like everyone else.
00:12:09I mean, I don't want to say it's mansplaining, but primarily there's men that have accomplished this goal, and so
00:12:13it's like, I get a lot of advice.
00:12:16And it's a lot of like, oh, you need to be committed to this, and you need to go here
00:12:20for this amount of time, and you need to do it this way, and you should be doing this, and
00:12:23you should be doing that.
00:12:24I've been climbing for 22 years, like, I know how to approach a goal.
00:12:31I don't need someone to tell me how to do it.
00:12:35But obviously, that's a hard, that's a hard thing to convince yourself of as well.
00:12:40It's hard for me to convince myself that I know what I'm doing.
00:12:44Do you think I need more than one three?
00:12:45I wouldn't even take the three.
00:12:46Oh my god. Maybe I don't need this, and two purples.
00:12:51I always had it in my mind ever since he asked me to support him, that he would probably be
00:12:56willing to support me on Golden Gate.
00:12:59I'd like to think I may be the best supporter in the world for El Cap, just because I know
00:13:04the roots really well, I've worked on them a long time.
00:13:06I don't think anyone has climbed any of those parts of the wall faster.
00:13:09Are you climbing the monster with just one six?
00:13:11Yeah.
00:13:12Awesome.
00:13:12And I wanted to help Emily achieve this big dream of hers.
00:13:16Alex is very comfortable, very confident, but I also trust him.
00:13:20Having someone up there who you can tell is right at home makes me feel that much more comfortable.
00:13:26I'll give you that. I'll give you that.
00:13:28Go up and try your best and...
00:13:30That's all I'm doing. I'm just going to go try.
00:13:31Move by move, you just do your best and see how it plays out.
00:13:34I'm allowed to fall.
00:13:36Yeah, I mean, that's the beautiful thing. You have a rope. It's like a good shit.
00:13:40I'm really happy that I have a rope.
00:14:10I'm going to take your time. Enjoy.
00:14:15I'm going to take your time.
00:14:16I'm going to take your time.
00:14:17Remember, climbing mountain is fun.
00:14:35The way that I climb the bottom 2,000 feet of the route with Alex is something called simul climbing.
00:14:40So I'm leading, placing gear, and Alex is following, climbing at the same time as me.
00:14:46So we're moving up the wall together.
00:14:48And it enables you to move a lot faster,
00:14:52but it cuts some corners because you're placing less safety equipment between yourself and your partner.
00:14:58So if either of us falls, we can get severely injured or we could die.
00:15:03But this is really the only way to climb it in a day.
00:15:08I was kind of proud of myself, honestly.
00:15:10Yeah, that was good.
00:15:11I just hand over hand on the rope.
00:15:13I was like, what's that?
00:15:34That was the easiest that the monster has ever felt, but it's still really hard.
00:15:40That was way faster than ever before.
00:15:42Oh yeah?
00:15:43Yeah, like 45 minutes.
00:15:48You've climbed 2,000 feet already.
00:15:50You may as well climb one more pigeon.
00:15:51I'm going to try.
00:15:52I don't know if I can though.
00:15:53Yeah, of course you can.
00:15:54Let's get in there and engage.
00:15:59All right, you need someone to like punch in the nuts.
00:16:01I don't have nuts.
00:16:02Ovaries.
00:16:03Ovaries.
00:16:15You're doing great.
00:16:16I really appreciate it.
00:16:17I'm really digging deep here.
00:16:18You know, this is uh...
00:16:20This is my first effort.
00:16:21Yeah.
00:16:22Do you think it's worth giving it one to the death effort?
00:16:25I mean, I've been trying to give it to the death.
00:16:27Yeah, is that to the death?
00:16:28It seems a little like worky.
00:16:31If we decide to go down, let's fully debrief.
00:16:34Like what are you going to do differently?
00:16:35What are you going to do better?
00:16:36Where can you save energy?
00:16:38Yeah.
00:16:39Because I mean, obviously there's a ton of room for improvement today.
00:16:41A lot of room for improvement.
00:16:47Yeah, that's crazy.
00:16:52It just went from perfectly okay to perfectly not okay.
00:16:58Oh, oh my god.
00:17:00It hurts so bad.
00:17:06Hey, give me a hug.
00:17:08Oh, you needed a hug from you all day.
00:17:11These bruises are just all from one pitch.
00:17:15I was secretly happy that we got rained off because everything just felt so hard.
00:17:24I don't really foresee me trying again this spring.
00:17:27I'm kind of worked over from the season.
00:17:31I didn't feel ready.
00:17:34And I haven't put in the work in order to be successful.
00:17:54Oh, that was her first wetsuit.
00:17:58Look at how tiny that little thing is.
00:18:01Here you go.
00:18:02Here's a bunch of trophies.
00:18:06Climbing self first place.
00:18:11Junior nationals.
00:18:12Oh, when she was 12 years old.
00:18:15I don't remember what that one was.
00:18:19What's that one from?
00:18:22Sierra Seville.
00:18:23Oh yeah, this is the world cup she won.
00:18:28Oh, there's the little mohawk.
00:18:30Look at that mohawk.
00:18:35I would say I had like a very normal childhood.
00:18:40My dad was really into any activity that was in the mountains.
00:18:45Ski.
00:18:50Turns.
00:18:51Growing up, I had this idea that girls were inferior in some way.
00:18:58Desperately wanted to prove that I wasn't like that.
00:19:05I grew up with my two cousins who were boys and we were super competitive with each other.
00:19:11All I wanted to do was be better than them.
00:19:15I wanted to do well in everything and I tried really hard.
00:19:23When I found climbing, this switch went off.
00:19:29It was like instantly that's what I wanted to do.
00:19:34The feeling of lightness and strength and invincibility was pretty profound.
00:19:46I liked the feeling of success.
00:19:52And if I didn't measure up to that, I was so upset and disappointed.
00:20:05Competitions, being the best, winning.
00:20:08To me, that was what climbing was.
00:20:15I definitely started putting more pressure on myself.
00:20:19My self-worth was so tied to my success in climbing.
00:20:24And then my success in climbing was tied to my weight.
00:20:29The less mass you have, the easier it's going to be to stay on the wall.
00:20:35It just became this cycle of punishment.
00:20:38I remember being completely exhausted all the time.
00:20:43She was so thin and I didn't know what to do.
00:20:48And I remember her hands were orange because all she was eating was carrots.
00:20:53And I wasn't sleeping well and I was dizzy sometimes.
00:21:00And then climbing wasn't very fun.
00:21:04I feel like I barely laughed.
00:21:08I started realizing that this isn't how I want to live my life.
00:21:13And is climbing going to be a positive force in my life?
00:21:18Or is it always going to be this negative thing?
00:21:24I guess now is the best time and here is the best place to say this.
00:21:28I have an eating disorder.
00:21:30I can't admit it to anybody else, but at least I can admit it to myself.
00:21:35I feel out of control when I indulge in food.
00:21:38And my all or nothing behavior makes me depressed and unhappy.
00:21:43I don't ever give myself a break.
00:21:45I want to be perfect all the time.
00:21:48I must run fast, climb strong and eat as little as possible.
00:22:01Eventually my body and my brain just couldn't really handle all the stress and the pressures.
00:22:07I realized that competing wasn't something that I really wanted to do anymore.
00:22:16The pivotal thing that happened was I joined the North Face athlete team
00:22:22and got invited on an expedition to Mount Everest.
00:22:28I had no idea what it would do for me in my life.
00:22:34She was keen to try out mountain climbing.
00:22:38So I was like, oh, first mountain climbing trip, how about Everest?
00:22:42A little bit crazy, but why not?
00:22:45It's the tallest and most precipitous mountain range on our planet.
00:22:50If you want to test your mettle, that's where you go.
00:22:53I remember just saying, Emily, no, I do not want you going to Everest.
00:22:59Tim said to her, you're not going. And she said, dad, I'm not 16.
00:23:04And that was the end of that.
00:23:08Emily at 25, barely coming out of the gym as a gym climber and then being on Everest.
00:23:15I mean, that's a huge leap to make.
00:23:17I was a little like dark in those days.
00:23:21So I might have just totally written her off as a first impression.
00:23:27You know, just kind of like, whatever.
00:23:36It wasn't until I got there and realized that Conrad was like completely hands off with Emily.
00:23:41And he was like, well, you step in, you know, and I'm like, I don't even know her.
00:23:44I don't want to do this.
00:23:45I'm not a mentor.
00:23:47I was not very helpful.
00:23:49I definitely am not an incredibly sympathetic person.
00:23:58I'm ready to go up tomorrow.
00:24:00I'm a little nervous and scared to go through the icefall.
00:24:06That's knowledge.
00:24:08Happens like five times a day.
00:24:11It's really unnerving.
00:24:17I want to get through the icefall and then I'll feel okay.
00:24:28Conrad saw something in her and he was right.
00:24:35She just didn't give in.
00:24:42Emery, what's up?
00:24:44Nice job, Em.
00:24:48I came to care immensely for Emily over the time of that trip.
00:24:54We talked about my relationship.
00:24:56We talked about my climbing.
00:24:57We talked about her kids and how much she missed her kids and just life.
00:25:01And it gave me a peek into what my life could be like in the future.
00:25:28She passed me and she was by herself and I was like, Emily, why are you by yourself?
00:25:31Where's the Sherpa that you were climbing with?
00:25:34She was like, oh God, I feel so bad.
00:25:36He was slow.
00:25:37So I left him behind.
00:25:39Was that really bad?
00:25:40Should I go back and get him?
00:25:47She crushed it.
00:25:51It was so out of her main sport that it just was all the more of a huge achievement.
00:26:00As a climber, you're the sum total of all your ascents and expeditions.
00:26:04And each experience that you have builds into who you are as a climber.
00:26:10And Emily got that.
00:26:11I was a lot stronger than I thought I would be.
00:26:15Climbing on Everest has made me appreciate the style of climbing that I do.
00:26:20I do want to continue to be in the mountains and to learn from them.
00:26:43Good morning.
00:26:44Good morning.
00:26:45Here's your coffee.
00:26:50I stayed up late last night and did all these emails and like texts with China and Nepal and
00:26:54Tibet and I'm like scared to turn on their phone and see what everyone wrote.
00:26:59Come back to bed.
00:27:01No.
00:27:03I have an interview in 15 minutes.
00:27:06Okay, I'll make breakfast.
00:27:09Hi, this is Adrian.
00:27:12Doing some final prep for a big trip I'm leaving on early next week.
00:27:16You know, the average Everest expedition is two months long
00:27:20and I'm probably away, you know, seven to eight months a year,
00:27:24still traveling and climbing around the world.
00:27:28Adrian is a high altitude climber and a mountain guide who spends a lot of time in the Himalaya.
00:27:35We met at Camp 2 on Mount Everest.
00:27:41I just remember this charismatic guy.
00:27:44He was super nice and fun to talk to.
00:27:48The sad fact of high altitude climbing is there's just not many women.
00:27:53I certainly noticed Emily as an anomaly.
00:27:57But 21,000 feet is really miserable.
00:28:00So you kind of like have a crushing headache at the same time that you're trying to be like social
00:28:04and funny and interesting.
00:28:05It's not like a great flooding opportunity.
00:28:08It was this really powerful connection that we had.
00:28:11I'd never felt like that with anyone before.
00:28:14And we knew that we wanted to stay connected.
00:28:19Adrian is gone most of the year guiding in the Himalaya.
00:28:23And because I have this big project I'm working on, we are going to spend the next four months apart.
00:28:30I don't really look forward to this time of year as it is.
00:28:34Because Adrian is going to be gone for a really long time.
00:28:37And I have a lot of, like I put a lot of pressure on myself for my own projects.
00:28:42No.
00:28:46I've spent a lot of time with people who have lost their partner in the mountains.
00:28:51And every time he leaves, I have this part of me that is afraid he won't come back.
00:29:02The secret stash.
00:29:05Okay, I'm overwhelmed again.
00:29:07I'm going to go eat some toast.
00:29:08I'm really overwhelmed right now.
00:29:10Goodbye.
00:29:10I'm going to go eat some toast.
00:29:12Here we go.
00:29:15It kind of sucks.
00:29:20Cat stuff, I have food, coffee stuff.
00:29:25Music.
00:29:26Music.
00:29:27Bed.
00:29:39And she's off.
00:29:45It's always hard.
00:29:46This one especially.
00:29:58I'm going to Moab because I want to prepare for the upcoming Yosemite season.
00:30:04And Moab is a great place to do that.
00:30:08Last spring, I just wasn't ready.
00:30:11I hadn't put in the work.
00:30:18Look at these nails too.
00:30:20These are the gel nail.
00:30:21Gel nail magic.
00:30:22It's supposed to last for like three months.
00:30:28I did not grow up learning how to crack climb.
00:30:32And for climbing in Yosemite, it's a required skill.
00:30:46I wouldn't consider myself a super confident person when I'm standing on the ground.
00:30:50It's more when I'm like climbing that my confidence shines through.
00:31:04I think I did get better technique.
00:31:07It's nice to feel a little more confidence.
00:31:12I'm excited to go do something.
00:31:38I'm excited to go do something.
00:31:45I've been in Yosemite now for a few weeks training on Golden Gate.
00:31:49It's been long days hiking in and practicing the harder pitches.
00:31:54It's really the only way to know every pitch for that in a day attempt.
00:32:03There's five hard sections of the route for me.
00:32:07The first one that comes up is the monster.
00:32:10You have to kind of wedge your body into this crack.
00:32:14And this pitch is almost 200 feet long.
00:32:17The monster off-width is harder if your foot can't bridge the crack.
00:32:20My foot can span between one side of the crack and the other side,
00:32:23so I can easily wedge one foot and push upward.
00:32:25If you have a smaller foot, it's harder to make upward progress.
00:32:32So I don't want to die right now.
00:32:36The next pitch that's really hard for me is called the down climb.
00:32:41There's essentially no hold.
00:32:43You're kind of standing on a less than vertical, smooth surface,
00:32:49just pasting your feet on the wall and using the friction in order to stick.
00:32:54Come on.
00:32:55Your balance has to be pretty perfect in order to not get spit off.
00:33:01Oh, that was it.
00:33:05The next hard pitch is called the move.
00:33:08At the end of the pitch, there's a really hard boulder problem.
00:33:12So a series of really hard moves.
00:33:18For me, it's the most powerful section of the route.
00:33:21It has the hardest single moves.
00:33:26The next section is called the golden desert.
00:33:30It is a really long crack climb mixed with some funky traversing under a roof.
00:33:40And then the very next pitch after that is called the A5 traverse.
00:33:44And that's kind of the pitch that guards you from success.
00:33:49Imagine traversing this steep, sloping rail and trying to stand on feet that are the width of dimes.
00:33:58The A5 traverse is the spot where most people fail.
00:34:02By the time you've climbed almost 3,000 feet to get there,
00:34:04your arms are just incredibly tired and it's really hard to hang on them.
00:34:10I'm still a little nervous about the A5 traverse.
00:34:42Thankfully, Adrian came home from Everest.
00:34:45Everything was fine, but there was weeks there where I thought he might not.
00:34:51It's not really that safe, even if you make good decisions.
00:34:54Is it true?
00:34:56That I thought you might die?
00:34:57Yeah.
00:34:59I thought you might die.
00:35:00And I was trying to be...
00:35:00So you figured you'd start moving on right away?
00:35:03Yeah.
00:35:04Just going to be a bachelorette and like be just in my little world, independent.
00:35:10It could happen.
00:35:11It could be the other way around.
00:35:13Yeah.
00:35:13I think I think about it less, but I think about it sometimes as you start speed climbing more and
00:35:17more,
00:35:18cutting corners, rock fall.
00:35:22There's plenty of things that can kill you.
00:35:23It's a little bit of stretch.
00:35:25I'm not going to die.
00:35:26I'm not going to die rock climbing.
00:35:28But you got to think about it and acknowledge it's a possibility.
00:35:30It's true.
00:35:31I just think that I've finally like come to a place where I'm okay.
00:35:37I'm not okay, but more okay.
00:35:41More okay is good.
00:35:43Yeah.
00:35:43Yeah.
00:35:50Okay, questions.
00:35:52Okay, get married already.
00:35:53When are you getting married?
00:35:54Are you going to have babies?
00:35:55Babies.
00:35:55Get married already.
00:35:58Do you plan on having kids soon?
00:36:01Okay.
00:36:04I do plan on having kids eventually, I think.
00:36:07I want one kid, so I'm not really in like a huge rush.
00:36:12I, I say we, we, right?
00:36:15I think I've come around.
00:36:16We kind of settled on one because Adrian wanted like three.
00:36:20He wanted three.
00:36:21Um, but I just want one, so I'm not in a rush.
00:36:24And I have like, we both have things we want to do first.
00:36:27I've got a couple about asking me about LCAP and what happened.
00:36:30And if I'm going back, basically I, I failed and I also had terrible weather,
00:36:37but that's like a second part of it, um, that prevented me from succeeding.
00:36:41And then, yes, I'm going back in the fall.
00:37:00So we've got two liters of water.
00:37:01Okay.
00:37:02I have extra chalk.
00:37:04Okay, cool.
00:37:05I'm going to take the arrow.
00:37:06Wait, are you taking that much extra chalk?
00:37:08I'm very concerned about the hill.
00:37:10It weighs nothing.
00:37:11I guess.
00:37:13It just, it seems like a lot of chalk for, yeah, cool, cool.
00:37:15We don't have to bring it.
00:37:16No, no, no.
00:37:17No, but I actually really want.
00:37:18If you think it'll make you feel better, you definitely bring it.
00:37:20Okay, extra chalk.
00:37:21I'm bringing these.
00:37:22It's really hot.
00:37:23What are those?
00:37:25They're breakable ice packs for my hands and feet.
00:37:28Seems totally absurd.
00:37:30So if we want to climb by three, what time should we meet in the meadow?
00:37:33Well, like 2.30.
00:37:342.30.
00:37:35That's like pretty early though.
00:37:37Pretty early.
00:37:39I'll be back.
00:37:58Okay.
00:38:07That's y'all, man.
00:38:45Come on.
00:38:46Come on.
00:38:47Come on.
00:38:47Come on.
00:38:48Come on.
00:38:49Come on.
00:38:53Yeah, fuck yeah.
00:38:54Come on.
00:39:08If you do it today, in this style, just like you just did it, it'd be pretty sick.
00:39:16Think about how good that's going to feel.
00:39:17I can't yet.
00:39:19I've got to finish the rest of it.
00:39:28Yeah, we started 11 and a half hours ago, so it's a good time, actually.
00:39:34This is when you rely on your World Cup fitness.
00:39:49I'm pretty sure you can just climb one more pitch.
00:39:54I'm pretty sure there's like five more pitches.
00:40:04Good.
00:40:12Good.
00:40:14I'm falling.
00:40:14No, no, you're okay.
00:40:15Come on.
00:40:16Come on.
00:40:16No, it's too much.
00:40:17Stay with it.
00:40:19It just fucked everything up and like...
00:40:23That's all right.
00:40:24Oh my god.
00:40:25Oh my god.
00:40:26We just like, have like shit.
00:40:31Really good.
00:40:32Yeah, really good.
00:40:40Ellen.
00:40:42Ellen.
00:40:43Come on.
00:40:44There you come.
00:40:45Oh fuck.
00:40:47I don't have it you guys.
00:40:48I don't have it.
00:40:51I'm just too tired.
00:40:54I'm giving it everything I have.
00:40:56I just...
00:40:58I just couldn't do it.
00:41:00I couldn't keep climbing.
00:41:03I'm like super bummed, but it's like everything I could possibly do.
00:41:09I failed on the last hard pitch.
00:41:13Pretty heartbroken.
00:41:28I think you have to try things that you're afraid of, that you might suck at, that you're
00:41:34going to most likely fail at in order to actually really get to know yourself and know what you're capable
00:41:43of.
00:41:49When I was trying to figure out how to make a team to go on this seven week, totally unknown,
00:41:57jungle bashing, crazy Alpine, Myanmar expedition, I wanted Emily to go.
00:42:04Like, I wanted her to go more than anyone.
00:42:08Like, I wouldn't go if Emily didn't go.
00:42:11This is like an anti-Everest trip.
00:42:18Think of Everest from the minute you get off the plane to the summit of Everest.
00:42:22Every step of the way is mapped out.
00:42:25Hakaka Boratze was exactly the opposite.
00:42:29Wanting her on the team was met with a lot of resistance, but I put my foot down and she
00:42:35was stoked to do it.
00:42:45It was a month before we even got to base camp.
00:42:49We had to cut our gear by two thirds.
00:42:53Ran out of food.
00:43:04A lot of the things that I did today I've never done before.
00:43:22It's scary, the heavy pack.
00:43:24I feel off balance a little.
00:43:26Good job, ma'am.
00:43:31Way more rad.
00:43:33Way more gnarly than Everest.
00:43:38My favorite day on that whole climb was Emily and I were stuck on this ridge for 48 hours.
00:43:48Winds blowing 60 miles an hour nonstop.
00:43:53And at one point Emily looks at me and she's like, what do you think?
00:43:57Do you think we're going to be okay?
00:43:58I looked at her and I was like, I don't, I don't know.
00:44:01I hope so.
00:44:03And she was like, all right, cool.
00:44:06Okay.
00:44:10And five minutes later we're laughing and like doing what we can to like stay alive.
00:44:18Emily and I have talked a lot about how crazy it was and how strung out we were
00:44:23and how close to just like laying down on the trail and giving up we were.
00:44:28And we just didn't.
00:44:31She was everything I expected her to be on that trip.
00:44:35She was gritty.
00:44:36She was funny.
00:44:37She helped me when I was low.
00:44:39She tackled massive, scary things.
00:44:44She just bakın about the sun and the sun and somete.
00:44:583.30 in the morning, November 20 something.
00:45:09Dragged everyone in to help me climb El Cap in a day.
00:45:16massive snowstorm is approaching like tomorrow so day after last day of the season basically
00:45:23dragging everyone up here to support me one more character building down the mountain one more
00:45:29character building down the mountain it's like 4 a.m. it's way colder than it was last time so
00:45:35that's good if you're really pro you'd be racked onto the harness already pack your
00:45:39harness that way oh yeah I didn't do that 10 more feet today okay yeah exactly
00:45:52go em go here we go you're gonna crush it thanks sonny
00:46:04nice em
00:46:07you're crashing so such a still day up on the captain
00:46:30creaky old grandpa I'll sit down and tighten the shoes up
00:46:35nice em
00:46:37oh my god em
00:46:56should i lower you to the ledge
00:46:57emily you're okay
00:47:02lower
00:47:04em
00:47:05talk to us
00:47:07talk to us em
00:47:08are you okay are you right side up
00:47:13she's not right today
00:47:15fuck
00:47:16confirm your number is 404
00:47:18correct
00:47:19i'm gonna be on hold while i try to get a razor okay
00:47:21okay thank you
00:47:23hang on hold while i try to get a razor okay
00:47:30stable now
00:47:30hang in there um
00:47:31yeah i think we're
00:47:35you know i can tell that it's terrible it's all terrible like you can tell it's a giant fall
00:47:41the only thing i was thinking about was whether or not she'll walk again
00:48:12you're right i don't forget
00:48:13do you have to be fishing on it on the ledge
00:48:20i've climbed this pitch so many times i know it's slippery but i've never fallen
00:48:25i know my feet are cold but i need to be confident i wasn't scared i just
00:48:35now it's scary though think about
00:48:48oh i'm sorry guys
00:49:01yeah still have some stuff to learn i guess
00:49:33world-class climber emily harrington trying to make history falling from yosemite's el capitan
00:49:38rescued by one of the most famous climbers in the world falls are apparel of the sport
00:49:43no matter your skill level thank goodness she was with people like alex hunnell the climber at
00:49:48the center of that oscar-winning documentary free solo i was blind so i'm holding the rope but
00:49:52then uh when she fell so much rope fell into the system like so much rope pooled at my feet
00:49:57basically that uh i wound up actually uh grabbing the rope with my hands in an effort to catch her
00:50:02sooner i don't know if you guys had a chance to watch free solo oh he was i mean fantastic
00:50:06amazing what they do and boy you gotta have some nerves of steel yes you do you sure do full
00:50:12recovery
00:50:15how are you feeling about it all
00:50:18shitty shitty about it like sad yeah
00:50:24everyone is interested in lcap and everyone is interested in the fact that i was climbing
00:50:29with alex honnold so they want to write a story about the damsel in distress who was rescued by the
00:50:34free solo star oh adrenaline junkies like risking their lives falling off of sheer cliffs gets rescued
00:50:44like it's just stupid and not true and misunderstood i had a bad fall climbing because rock climbing is
00:50:51inherently dangerous but and alex did what exactly what any good partner would do yeah and that's the
00:50:58end of the story that goes to me i don't we were choosing to take a certain level of risk
00:51:06that day
00:51:07it was a hundred percent not his fault what happened
00:51:13so
00:51:22so
00:51:24so
00:51:43I was afraid of not being good enough, and now the entire world thinks that as well.
00:51:56She is no Alex Honnold.
00:51:58Do this without the security of a rope, and then you can pretend to have accomplished something.
00:52:05Woman, go back to kitchen, please.
00:52:07Let man's doing this stuff.
00:52:11She's too fat.
00:52:27I'm bruised, and have a rope burn on my neck, and a pretty intense concussion.
00:52:33I'm slowly recovering, but mentally I'm struggling.
00:52:41I just spiral into the negativity of, oh, I'm never going to be able to get anywhere
00:52:46with this.
00:52:50There's lots of doubt, and lots of questioning of, why am I doing this?
00:52:54Why am I even trying so hard?
00:52:57And just feel like giving up.
00:53:00There's just this really big fear, and it's all circling around the whole kid thing, and
00:53:04the clock is ticking idea, and I really do want to have fun and enjoy climbing.
00:53:12I do.
00:53:12I just don't know how right now.
00:53:15Yeah.
00:53:16It's hard to trust myself, I guess.
00:53:34It's Passover.
00:53:35Happy Passover, guys.
00:53:37Hogsamehack, John.
00:53:38Hogsamehack to you.
00:53:39And we can tell that it's Passover because we are in our houses, hiding from a plague,
00:53:44and because in our recent-
00:53:46Breakfast, podcast, very loud podcast.
00:53:49Very loud podcast.
00:53:49Blood on your door will stop coronavirus.
00:53:52Tell me that.
00:53:54We are one day short of a month since we've been home.
00:53:58April 12th, Easter Sunday, and it's Sunday, but it doesn't really matter that it's Sunday.
00:54:08Every day is pretty much very similar.
00:54:15Adrian and I have been physically together for longer than we have ever been.
00:54:21It's felt like this period of deep connection.
00:54:25What's your favorite color?
00:54:28This is like a rapid fire question.
00:54:30Oh, really?
00:54:31I actually-
00:54:32I actually-
00:54:32What's your favorite color?
00:54:35Gray.
00:54:36Gray?
00:54:38That's a terrible favorite color.
00:54:41Gray.
00:54:41My favorite color is green.
00:54:44Really?
00:54:44Yeah.
00:54:45I never knew that.
00:54:46Well, you learn something new every day, don't you?
00:54:48I don't think I've ever bought you anything green.
00:54:50You better start now.
00:54:55We've discussed starting a family in more serious ways, but I really have to finish this
00:55:01project before I can start thinking about taking that stuff.
00:55:06I don't want to take eight years to free climb Hello Cap in a day.
00:55:08Then I'll be 40 and then, you know, it might be too late.
00:55:25If I let something like fear, something like an accident stop me from doing something, then
00:55:33I'll never go back.
00:55:34I'll never try something hard again.
00:55:36This is no longer just a way to prove myself.
00:55:40It's a way for me to gain back trust and confidence in myself.
00:55:48I need to go back.
00:55:58I've been really gentle with myself, just accepting that I'm probably going to be a
00:56:03little more conservative this year.
00:56:05I think I need to talk to Alex about adjusting my method and just be like, dude, I don't want
00:56:09to like go so fast.
00:56:12I want to be able to stop and take a breather and I want to be able to place more
00:56:15gear and
00:56:16feel way more safe.
00:56:34And so it begins Emily's Yosemite season.
00:56:443 a.m.
00:56:46I'm out of bed in coffee.
00:56:50M's waiting for a coffee.
00:56:52The life of a superstar.
00:56:56How's it feeling?
00:56:57That's okay.
00:56:59Where I fell last year.
00:57:00Where you fell last year.
00:57:02Yeah.
00:57:05I'm back in Yosemite for the first time since the accident and Adrian's been helping
00:57:09me train on the hard pitches and build back that trust.
00:57:14Down to the move pitch.
00:57:18Dun, dun, dun.
00:57:24Yes.
00:57:25There was no like massive screaming whippers out of the move today.
00:57:30You just hit it every time.
00:57:32You're stronger.
00:57:33Big support today.
00:57:40Physically I feel better than I have probably ever in my life.
00:57:45I'm trying to figure out the best tactics for climbing the monster.
00:57:50And so I'm going to try putting on my climbing shoe and then I'm going to try putting on a
00:57:55size 42 TC pro over top of it to make my foot bigger.
00:58:08I'm so excited about this.
00:58:14And so what time are we thinking about starting?
00:58:17Let's say starting the monster at 6am, which means starting climbing at 1am.
00:58:23That's what I was hoping to do tonight, you know?
00:58:25I know.
00:58:25Get some.
00:58:26You signed up for it.
00:58:27Yeah, no, no.
00:58:28I'm into it.
00:58:29Knee pads and duct tape and elbow pads.
00:58:31At this point you're going to get to the top more fresh than when you left the ground.
00:58:34I think it would be tough to make this more comfortable.
00:58:37Yeah.
00:58:38That's the whole point.
00:58:39Yeah, exactly.
00:58:40We're ready for the long haul right now.
00:58:43I'm planning to have two partners.
00:58:45It is really valuable to have Alex as a partner because he is so fast.
00:58:50But up higher when the climbing gets slower, I really like having Adrian there.
00:58:55He's really good emotional support for me.
00:59:12I do feel ready.
00:59:15I don't think I'm going to be any more ready than I am right now.
00:59:19If I achieve this, I'll never not be a climber, but I can move on from being solely focused
00:59:27on climbing.
00:59:27I can move forward with my life.
00:59:29I could have a family.
00:59:30I could do all these things I've wanted to do that might not require so much pinpointed
00:59:36focus.
00:59:38It's that meaningful.
01:00:02I'm going to have to tie my shoes and put them on, but I'm sort of like, oh, I've got
01:00:21flashbacks
01:00:22of the last year.
01:00:23PTSD.
01:00:41I'm going to run around to the top and hopefully get to meet them like two thirds of the way
01:00:45up.
01:00:52Again.
01:00:58So...
01:01:10One time.
01:01:12A couple of our ways to get out of by the crazy confidence.
01:01:15I don't know what an I need to do.
01:01:15It might be starving the monster, but it should be right on track.
01:01:27It's so funny that you're wearing two pairs of shoes.
01:02:05Oh, so glad to have that bitch over with.
01:02:08I'm taking off all of my shoes, all four pairs of them that I was wearing.
01:02:15I was wearing Alex's shoes over my shoes so I could climb the monster easier and faster, and it works.
01:02:25I'll say it's not often that I encounter a completely new rock climbing technique on a big wall.
01:02:29This is one of those times you've styled the hard stuff.
01:02:34Next M is going to lead us to the summit of the mighty El Capitan.
01:02:38That's what's happening next.
01:02:48Nice.
01:02:51Good, huh? Really nice.
01:03:01Nice and relaxed.
01:03:10Trust the feet.
01:03:12Perfect. That's the one.
01:03:15Perfect.
01:03:17Really good.
01:03:31I'm not coming down off the mountain until I set this route.
01:03:36I'm never climbing that pitchy end.
01:03:42Nice and really smooth.
01:03:50I gotta say, you look really fit right now.
01:03:53Like, your arms are like muscular.
01:03:58Thanks Alex.
01:04:00Like, have you been like working out more?
01:04:03Yeah.
01:04:05I've been putting some effort in.
01:04:08Like, have you really?
01:04:08Because you look like freaking kind of jacks.
01:04:11Yeah.
01:04:12Yeah, dude.
01:04:12I have.
01:04:15Nice.
01:04:19Really good. Come on.
01:04:20So strong.
01:04:29Nice.
01:04:35Come on.
01:04:38Really good.
01:04:53I did dig really deep for that one I set the move pitch on my first try everything's going
01:05:01well waiting for the other shoe to drop
01:05:27so exciting up here so fresh you have dirt all over your face but otherwise looking good
01:05:33nice Alex yeah he was infinitely better than last time
01:06:06oh
01:06:06you got it
01:06:07you got it
01:06:16no!
01:06:17oh no
01:06:24it's bleeding
01:06:25yeah I see just a little
01:06:28we're gonna bring you down
01:06:29yeah
01:06:29you got it
01:06:31a little
01:06:31you're okay
01:06:38fuck
01:06:42see how bad it is
01:06:51like I just don't know anymore about this whole hole it just feels so too hard for me
01:07:00this stupid shit just keeps happening
01:07:02no
01:07:04you're getting better and better every time
01:07:06I know
01:07:06I know
01:07:14I just don't feel good enough right now
01:07:18I wanted it so badly and maybe I just wanted it too much
01:07:30this worked really hard
01:07:32yeah
01:07:33you're not done Em
01:07:36you're not done
01:07:40you're not done
01:07:41stupid why did that have to happen
01:07:42I didn't do anything wrong I wasn't running it out I wasn't doing anything wrong
01:07:49I'm just scared now
01:07:50I'm just scared now
01:07:51you just bumped your head
01:07:53you're fine
01:07:55you can't break anything
01:07:57I know
01:07:58I know
01:08:00someday I'll do it
01:08:02you're gonna do it today
01:08:10you're gonna do it today
01:08:11it's not hopeless
01:08:11I promise
01:08:12okay
01:08:13I'm trying
01:08:14I'm trying
01:08:15I'm trying
01:08:15I don't have that much confidence anymore
01:08:20I think you've got more try than you
01:08:23you know I'd tell your opinions
01:08:25I don't
01:08:26I don't
01:08:26I think you can do it
01:08:28you can try
01:09:20I think it's fun
01:09:24super good
01:09:26Do what you're going to do.
01:09:27Come on.
01:09:28Come on.
01:09:29Yeah.
01:09:30Come on.
01:09:31Get on that part.
01:09:56Come on.
01:10:26Come on.
01:10:36Thanks.
01:10:38No matter what happens, I'm proud of myself.
01:10:42I'm really proud of myself.
01:10:44Look at the stone's head.
01:10:49Oh.
01:10:54Gotta keep climbing.
01:10:57Trying to rest before the last hard pitch.
01:11:00The A5.
01:11:01Yeah.
01:11:02The site.
01:11:05Last time's failure.
01:11:07Last year's failure.
01:11:07Mm-hmm.
01:11:08Yeah.
01:11:09Pretty nervous for it.
01:11:12And we're out of water.
01:11:14Yeah, we are out of water.
01:11:15That sucks.
01:11:15Poor mountain guide planning.
01:11:17All right.
01:11:22You look great.
01:11:23So proud of you.
01:11:24Have fun on this.
01:11:26This is the pitch you earn.
01:11:35Come on.
01:11:40Come on.
01:11:44Come on.
01:11:46Come on.
01:12:02Come on.
01:12:04Come on.
01:12:12Come on.
01:12:14Come on.
01:12:17Come on.
01:12:18Come on.
01:12:22Come on.
01:12:27You know what to do.
01:12:46Come on.
01:12:53Come on.
01:13:04Mom!
01:13:09Oh my God!
01:13:19Oh my God!
01:13:22Oh my God!
01:13:25Holy shit, Evelyn!
01:13:34I can't believe I did that.
01:13:36Okay, I gotta keep it together.
01:13:38We gotta find more pitches.
01:13:47I've always dreamed of being able to do this.
01:13:49And now it's happening and it's just...
01:13:52I've always dreamed of being able to do this.
01:13:52Crazy how it's happening.
01:13:54It was so close so many times to falling just now.
01:13:57So close.
01:13:59But I just didn't fucking let go.
01:14:11No!
01:14:14No!
01:14:23No!
01:14:40Fuck you!
01:15:01I'm really, really happy and exhausted.
01:15:05My head kinda hurts.
01:15:07I'm thirsty.
01:15:09And everything is perfect.
01:15:16I love you so much!
01:15:19Fuck yeah!
01:15:22You did it!
01:15:23You did it!
01:15:27I'm so proud of you.
01:15:28You worked so hard.
01:15:33And you believed!
01:15:35You did it!
01:15:3721-12.
01:15:3921-13.
01:15:4021-13!
01:15:4324-14!
01:15:4325-15!
01:15:5725-15!
01:15:5925-15!
01:16:03Ahhhh!!!
01:16:04You heard that!
01:16:07Mm-hmm.
01:16:30Can I go say hi to everyone?
01:16:31Nice work.
01:16:32Thanks.
01:16:33Well done.
01:16:34You look worse.
01:16:37Actually, you look pretty good.
01:16:38He's went downhill a little bit after he left.
01:16:41I know.
01:16:41You have to make an effort, dude.
01:16:43Why'd you leave us?
01:16:45Oh, my God.
01:16:46That is so good.
01:16:50Dude.
01:16:52There you go.
01:16:54Oh, my God.
01:16:55That is so good.
01:16:55That's what I also did for you.
01:17:11Oh, my God.
01:17:13Oh, my God.
01:17:14Oh, God.
01:17:20Oh.
01:17:25Oh.
01:17:43I can still hear her voice in my head and I think about whenever something's hard
01:17:54or something comes up that feels tricky or feels complicated especially as like a woman
01:18:02and a mother I try to think about how Hillary would handle it climbing is dangerous and it entails
01:18:21a level of risk but climbing has given me so much and I'm just not willing to give it up
01:18:33I'm excited for what's next
01:18:57I know the rise and I know the fall cause the voice inside knows me best of all
01:19:08If I can't run I'll walk or crawl I'll restart, restart
01:19:18I'll give my all To find my place My place on the wall
01:19:44I'll follow the path into the sky To kiss the heavens before I die
01:19:58Amidst the clouds The world seems small
01:20:04This tired heart Still wants it all
01:20:10I'll find my place My place on the wall
01:20:17I'll find my place My place on the wall
01:20:52I'll find my place My place on the wall
01:21:00I'll find my place My place on the wall
01:21:20I'll find my place My place on the wall
01:21:20Thisund's wall
01:21:21The wildçčć„ Please hide past the sky
01:21:22Oh
01:21:22I'll find my place My place on the wall
01:21:25This vintage at the tertiary
01:21:25Drready
01:21:25That the encáșp
01:21:26I'll find my place
01:21:26You find my place
01:21:26I think my last inch
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