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The Alpha’S Regret She Never Looked Back
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00:01i discovered my alpha cheating in our own bedroom with his stepmother and i pretended not to know
00:07i found out my alpha was cheating on me and i caught them right inside our shared chamber
00:12thinking i was asleep i did not move i did not speak i kept my eyes closed my breathing steady
00:19and pretended to rest even as my heart shattered i lay still in the furs every muscle coiled tight
00:25forcing calm i was wide awake every sense heightened then i heard it the soft shift of
00:31bodies ragged breath and her voice quiet and hesitant laced with thrill should we really do
00:37this here it's okay she fell asleep my blood turned to ice but i did not flinch i forced my
00:48eyelids shut
00:49imagining them no uh my mate the alpha i built pressing lydia against our bedroom stone wall
00:55his hands in her hair his mouth on hers starved she was his stepmother the late alpha's mate betraying
01:02me right beside my bed they thought i slept thought they were quiet but i heard every kiss every
01:08possessive growl every shameless sigh his hands roamed her like she was his she clung to him like
01:13she belonged in my place i swallowed down bile keeping my breathing even my face impassive i lay
01:20silent chest aching as if clawed open but gave no sign i did not scream did not confront them i
01:26just
01:27listened letting cold resolve settle the blood moon was coming and i would leave forever for now i would
01:33pretend pretend ignorance pretend the betrayal did not cut deep i would bide my time then vanish without a trace
01:44this was the man i gave up everything for but he cheated on me with his stepmother behind my back
01:50i am aria i left my entire world behind to stay in this cursed frozen wolf territory a world of
01:56frost
01:57and tradition where strength was worshipped and softness was a weakness i tilt the barren earth that
02:02had never grown crops before turning rock and snow into soil that could feed the pack i healed the sick
02:07with wild herbs i'd learned to recognize stitching wounds and calming fevers when the pack's old ways
02:13only brought suffering i built stable shelters that blocked the biting winter wind keeping their children
02:19alive through the coldest nights most of all i built noah i turned him from a reckless hot-headed warrior
02:26into a respected alpha teaching him patience wisdom and how to lead with kindness not just strength
02:32i gave him my loyalty my effort my heart and my future i thought love could outrun tradition
02:38i thought he would choose me now i knew better but i would not let him see how much he
02:43had broken me
02:45but the moment his father died everything changed the old alpha's funeral fire had barely turned to ash
02:51when noah brought lydia back to our den under the pack's ancient twisted law the son inherits his father's
02:57mate a tradition he'd once sworn to break for me he did not fight it he did not hesitate he
03:03did not even apologize
03:05he just brought her home and betrayed me where i slept that night in our chamber was not the first
03:10time
03:11and it would not be the last and every night i lay there pretending to sleep pretending not to hear
03:18the sounds
03:18of their betrayal through the thin stone walls lydia was given the chamber beside ours close enough to touch
03:24close enough to taunt every night the whispers the moans the proof that he had forgotten every vow
03:31he'd made to me drifted through the walls i did not scream i did not confront him i only carved
03:36tiny marks
03:37into the stone wall and dried beast blood counting down the days until the blood moon my silent countdown
03:42to freedom hidden from his sight the next morning i went to my seedling beds the fields i'd nurtured with
03:50my own two hands the future i'd built for the pack that owed me everything when i arrived my heart
03:55sank
03:56completely every plant was drowned flooded destroyed beyond any hope of saving lydia stood beside the
04:03wreckage holding a wooden bucket tears streaming down her face before i could speak noah appeared he
04:10shoved me backward with brutal unthinking force my knee crashed hard into a sharp stone and white hot pain
04:17exploded through my leg lydia lifted her cheerful face whispering softly i only wanted to help
04:25can you not even tolerate her what was the point of explaining he had already chosen chosen the woman
04:32who destroyed my work chosen to believe her lies over my pain he had chosen to break me one cruelty
04:38at a
04:39time i pushed myself up slowly from the mud and dirt my leg throbbing violently blood dripping steadily
04:46down my calf i lifted my head and looked noah directly in the eyes my voice soft but final no
04:52hint of the
04:52rage i felt i'm hurt too noah for a single heartbeat i saw hesitation a flicker of guilt a moment
05:00of regret
05:01but then lydia whimpered and pressed a hand to her stomach her voice trembling i'm bleeding a single red drop
05:08appeared on her thigh noah's face turned white he did not hesitate he lifted her in his arms and ran
05:14leaving me alone in the wreckage of the life i had built in that moment the very last thread of
05:20hope
05:20inside me snapped clean and final i no longer loved him i no longer hated him i simply did not
05:27care
05:27and i let that indifference show my face calm as i tended to my wound alone one more part of
05:34the act
05:34one more step toward freedom we gathered in the healer's small quiet stone chamber later that day
05:41the healer's voice suddenly rang out with bright joy lydia was with child with the deepest lunar mark
05:48in generations a sign of great power for the pack noah's face lit up with a wild overwhelming joy i
05:55had
05:55never seen a joy he had never shown me not even on the day he became alpha then he turned
06:01to me
06:01his expression cold and calm as if he were giving a simple order not a knife to the heart you
06:07will
06:07care for her this is your duty i laughed bitterly the sound echoing in the small chamber this is not
06:14my child it's your choice i refuse the room fell silent noah's eyes turned cold enough to freeze the
06:21air and i knew in that moment that my fate was sealed for the first time i dropped the act
06:27not out of
06:27anger but out of acceptance the pretense was no longer needed my escape was near
06:34noah's face hardened instantly into cold unyielding stone he gave me an ultimatum sharp and final
06:41you must serve lydia tend to her every need or leave the alpha den forever
06:49where am i supposed to go this territory this pack this life i had built it all with my own
06:56two hands
06:56it was as much my home as his he hesitated for a long then spoke the words that felt like
07:02a death
07:02sentence the old mountain dens the place where wolves go to die the healer gasped and tried to
07:10protest it was a death sentence that no one survived the mountain dens alone but noah silenced her with a
07:17single icy look i agreed without hesitation i was not surrendering i was waiting waiting for the blood
07:26moon i'm gonna leave him with nothing just like he started out once noah had knelt before me in firelight
07:36his large hands trembling as he placed a rough wolf tooth pendant around my neck it was unpolished
07:42uneven but to me it was the most precious thing in the entire territory he swore i was his only
07:48mate
07:49his only equal he said he cared nothing for pack laws nothing for heirs nothing for the marks that
07:55defined other wolves he said i was enough i wore that pendant like a crown i believed him even when
08:02the
08:02pack whispered that a human like me could never be a true luna now it felt like a chain but
08:08i kept it
08:08around my neck one more part of the act one more way to pretend i was still the naive loving
08:14mate he
08:15once knew but after lydia arrived every gentle memory turned to poison the pendant around my neck felt like
08:22a weight a reminder of every lie he'd told every promise he'd broken i was no longer begging for his
08:28love i was waiting for my escape and the blood moon would be my ticket out and until then i
08:34would
08:35keep pretending keep hiding the rage and heartbreak that threatened to consume me
08:42one night long after he'd been with lydia noah finally came to me his skin reeked of her thick and
08:49cloying mixed with a cold impatient guilt he sat on the edge of my fur bed and reached to touch
08:55my hair
08:55as if he still had the right to comfort me as if nothing had broken between us i flinched away
09:01as
09:01if burned not out of anger but to keep up the pretense of a sleepy don't touch me unknowing mate
09:08startled by his touch avoiding his eyes so he would not see the pain there his jaw tightened his eyes
09:14hardening this is just duty aria for the pack for an air
09:22i would send her away once she gave birth that the pup would call you mother
09:26that you were still my only luna
09:29i said nothing i closed my eyes again pretending to drift back to sleep letting him think his lies
09:36had lulled me into complacency i did not look at him i did not believe a single syllable
09:42every word was a knife twisting deeper into a wound he would never let heal
09:46duty was just an excuse an excuse to betray me without guilt and i let him believe i did not
09:52see
09:52through it
09:57that night after he left i tore the wolf tooth pendant from my neck with a single sharp movement
10:03i held it in my palm staring at the rough bone that once meant forever that had once been my
10:09most
10:09cherished treasure it was no longer a gift it was a lie i walked slowly to the hearth where the
10:15fire
10:16still glowed low and warm casting faint shadows across the stone walls i opened my fingers and let
10:22the necklace fall into the flames i watched it char black crumble into small pieces and fade silently
10:28into the ash below when it was completely gone i felt no sorrow only a quiet heavy liberating relief
10:35on my wrist i wore a smooth ancient bone ring something i had kept close and hidden since the
10:42very first day i arrived in this strange land the blood moon would rise soon i would be ready and
10:48until
10:48then the act would go on i was moved to the mountain den before sunset it was cold damp and
10:56completely
10:56empty with no fire no soft furs no warmth nothing but rough stone and howling wind that cut straight
11:03through my bones the air smelled of decay and neglect a reminder that this was where the pack left
11:09those they no longer wanted noah came once on the first day bearing a small basket of simple rations
11:15bread and dried meat barely enough to survive i shut the door in his face without a single word
11:21after that he never came back i assumed lydia needed him the unborn child needed him the pack needed him
11:30i was nothing to him now and that was fine it made my way easier my resolve stronger days passed
11:37slowly
11:37painfully the food ran out no one refilled it no one checked on me no one cared
11:44i curled up on the hard stone bed shivering uncontrollably as a dull heavy cramping began
11:51deep in my stomach for years i had used wild herbs to avoid carrying a child i did not want
11:57to be tied
11:57to this world to this pack to noah by blood but fate had other crueler plans
12:05the pain grew sharper more unbearable tearing through my body like shards of ice i realized slowly
12:12coldly what was happening against all odds i was carrying his child and in this cold abandoned den
12:20with no food no care no love no warmth the small fragile life inside me could not survive warm blood
12:28spread slowly beneath me dark and sticky soaking into the thin furs i've been given i stared up at the
12:34dark stone ceiling tears falling silently down my cheeks but i did not grieve i felt only quiet
12:41profound relief that baby deserved a father who would choose it a pack that would value it a life
12:47that would cherish it the last living link between noah and me was gone forever my bone ring slipped
12:53from my finger and clattered loudly onto the stone floor outside the sky glowed silver the blood moon
12:58had come my chance to escape was here
13:04the sky blazed silver above the mountain the blood moon hung full and bright casting an otherworldly light
13:10over the entire land turning the snow to liquid silver and the rocks to shadow my bone ring glowed
13:16softly on the stone floor humming with a quiet old power i had long kept to myself this ring was
13:22my only
13:22connection to the life i once had a life far away from wolves and packs and blood moons i was
13:27not born to
13:28this world i was pulled here unexpectedly torn away from everything i knew and loved from a modern life
13:35of warmth and safety and family from a home that never asked me to sacrifice myself for love this ring
13:41was my only way back i left the blood stained furs spread wide on the stone bed making it clear
13:46and
13:46obvious for anyone who found me that i had perished here in the cold i took one last long final
13:52look at
13:52the territory that had broken me then stepped calmly into the glowing light of the blood moon the portal
13:57closed softly behind me i was free noah woke suddenly in the dead of night his wolf screaming
14:05inside him with a blind uncontrollable panic that made his whole body shake he did not know why he
14:11only knew something was unspeakably terribly wrong he threw off lydia without a second thought and ran
14:17rushing wildly up the mountain path his feet bleeding on the sharp stones his lungs burning with every breath
14:24the den door hung open creaking weakly in the wind he stumbled inside it was empty then he saw it
14:31the
14:31massive dark wet blood stain on the furs so large it made his breath catch the healer was summoned
14:37immediately she knelt and trembled violently pressing her fingers to the blood then looked up at him with
14:43tears streaming down her face it was the blood of a miscarriage it's hers the mighty feared alpha of
14:52the shadow pine pack collapsed helplessly to his knees he clutched the blood stained furs to his chest
14:57and let out a broken animal-like sob that echoed through the empty den he had lost me he had
15:03lost our
15:03child and he knew with every fiber of his being that it was all his fault no one never recovered
15:11from that
15:11day he drove lydia and their newborn pup far away from the pack refusing to even look at the air
15:16he
15:17had once craved so desperately the pup was a reminder of his betrayal of the child he had lost of
15:23the
15:23woman he had destroyed he wanted nothing to do with the pack the land the title the life he had
15:29fought so
15:29hard to gain he only wanted me the pack turned against him completely calling him you're not worthy of
15:36being our alpha they stripped him of his alpha temple and locked him away in isolation fearing his
15:42grief would destroy them all he stayed in that bloody mountain den for days four weeks staring
15:47blankly at the stone walls whispering my name over and over again like a prayer he was not crazy he
15:54was
15:54repenting repenting for me for the child he never got to hold for every choice that had broken the one
16:00person who had ever loved him truly unconditionally i opened my eyes to the soft white light of a
16:07hospital room the steady beep of machines the warm familiar scent of antiseptic and home that i had missed
16:13so deeply i was back in my own world the world i had been torn away from three years ago
16:18my parents
16:19were beside me their faces lined with years of grief and overwhelming relief their hair streaked with gray
16:24from worry and searching they had searched for me every single day for three long years selling
16:30everything they owned never giving up even when the police had stopped looking even when everyone
16:35else had said i was gone forever i held them tightly and wept for the years i had lost for
16:41the pain i
16:42had put them through for the fool i had been to abandon the people who loved me unconditionally for a
16:47man who had only loved me when it was convenient i promised them i would never leave again i promised
16:53myself i would never let anyone break me like that again i lived quietly for a full year healing
16:59slowly but steadily rebuilding my life one small step at a time i stayed close to my family got a
17:06job
17:06decorated a small apartment that felt like home and learned to feel safe and calm again i put the
17:12wolf territory the blood moons the pain and noah firmly behind me i thought i was free that i would
17:19never see him again never be haunted by the past then i saw him he stood in the middle of
17:25the busy modern
17:26street surrounded by cars and neon lights and crowds of people his long hair wild and unkempt his
17:32clothes strange and out of place his eyes fixed on me like i was a ghost he could not believe
17:36was real
17:37he had used my bone ring the ring i had left behind in the mountain den he had crossed worlds
17:43he had found me my chest tightened with a mix of fear and anger the old wounds aching as if
17:48they had
17:49never truly closed i thought i had escaped him but he had followed me home my blood turned to ice
17:56in my
17:57veins i grabbed his arm roughly and pulled him into a dark quiet alley away from the crowds my heart
18:03racing with fear and anger and cold disgust how did you find me leave now go back to your world
18:11and
18:11never bother me again his eyes filled with hot helpless tears a sight i had never seen from the
18:17proud alpha get out of here he begged me desperately his voice cracking please don't send me away i know
18:25i don't deserve forgiveness i just want to make it up to you let me stay let me protect you
18:33and love
18:34you the way i should then the proud powerful alpha dropped to his knees before me in the dirt and
18:40shadow
18:40of the alley humbling himself completely hit me hate me hurt me just don't leave me again i felt
18:49nothing but cold empty revulsion his apologies meant nothing his regret meant nothing he had broken me and
18:57i would never let him fix me just then i saw my cousin walking toward the alley coming to check
19:03on me
19:04after i disappeared into the crowd a sharp quiet idea flashed into my mind a way to make him leave
19:10darling i had taught him long ago that darling was for the person you loved more than anything in the
19:16world i hid behind my cousin pretending to be afraid noah's face shattered completely he knew what that word
19:23meant who are you let's go home back to our home to our son he realized i had moved on
19:35that i had built
19:36a new life a new love a new family without him he stood frozen as if the breath had been
19:42stolen from
19:43his lungs and i could see every bit of hope he had carried die in his eyes i was truly
19:48completely gone
19:49and nothing he could do would ever bring me back noah did not leave he refused to go back to
19:56his world
19:56even after i had shattered his hope he found a job near my apartment working long tiring days just to
20:03be close just to catch a single glimpse of me as i passed by he watched me from a distance
20:08silent and
20:09broken never daring to approach he learned to adapt to my world fumbling with strange tools and heavy work
20:16struggling to understand cars and phones and the busy pace of modern life all to stay within reach
20:22of the woman he had destroyed one day he stepped shakily in front of me and pulled out a small
20:28simple ring a human symbol of aria and love he had so sorry my world i want to give you
20:35forever
20:37i'll spend the rest of my life making up for every mistake i made i took the ring from his
20:43hand calmly i
20:44held it up for a long moment then threw it hard into the grass i told him his regret was
20:49pathetic
20:50your regret is pathetic your apology worthless and your presence disgusting if you ever come near me
20:56again i'll disappear forever and you'll never find me i turned and walked away never looking back
21:05a few days later a small plain package arrived quietly at my door there was no return address
21:12but i knew who it was from inside was my bone ring the key to the wolf world the key
21:18that had brought me
21:19safely home the key he had used to cross worlds and find me and there was a letter written in
21:24shaky
21:25childish but painfully careful handwriting it was from noah he wrote that he would never bother me again
21:32that he was returning the ring in case i ever wanted to go back though he knew deep in his
21:37heart i
21:37never would he wished me happiness peace a life free from pain and regret i will spend the rest of
21:44my
21:44days making up for what i've done even if you never forgive me i don't ask for your pity i
21:52don't ask for a
21:53second chance all i ask is that you be happy when i finished reading i folded the letter and set
22:00it aside
22:00he was gone truly finally gone and this time i did not feel a thing i put the bone ring
22:08away in a quiet
22:09hidden drawer closing the final chapter on wolves blood moons broken promises and the love that had
22:16destroyed me completely i did not feel anger i did not feel sadness i felt light as if a weight
22:23i had
22:23carried for years had finally been lifted i went back to my family to my quiet warm safe life to
22:30the
22:30world that had always been mine that had always loved me i learned the hardest and most important
22:36lesson of all real love should never ask you to lose yourself it should never make you small or silent
22:42or broken it should never require you to give up your home your heart or your worth i had once
22:48believed
22:49that love meant sacrifice but i now knew that true love means respect respect for who you are respect for
22:56your choices respect for your heart i chose to save myself i chose to go home i chose to live
23:02for the
23:03people who loved me and that was the bravest kindest most necessary choice i ever made i walked forward
23:10into my life open and unafraid leaving the wolf the pack and the pain far behind me i would never
23:17again
23:17give up my world for someone who would not fight for me
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