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00:00:06Oh
00:00:30Let's go.
00:01:10Rito, open that up.
00:01:12Come on.
00:01:13Get it open.
00:01:16I totally knew it.
00:01:18I totally knew it.
00:01:21What is it?
00:01:23It's a rope.
00:01:24Get rid of that box.
00:01:26Another 12 year old would love a rope for Christmas.
00:01:29Yeah.
00:01:31Yeah.
00:01:31Come on, Em.
00:01:33Yeah.
00:01:34Woo!
00:01:35Yeah!
00:01:37Yeah!
00:01:38Yeah!
00:01:39Yeah!
00:01:39Yeah!
00:01:45Emily.
00:01:46Emily.
00:01:47Emily, where are we?
00:01:48I don't know.
00:01:50I don't know.
00:01:51We're at El Capitan.
00:01:57From Colorado, Emily Harrington.
00:02:02She's certainly a force to be reckoned with.
00:02:06Emily, make it look easy.
00:02:12Five-time national champion.
00:02:22But Emily is certainly one of the most well-rounded American female climbers.
00:02:27Part of your brain knows that this is slightly illogical.
00:02:32It is dangerous.
00:02:33But life's boring if you don't have that little element of spice, right?
00:02:38We should try to get a little bit more comfortable with being afraid.
00:02:46I love exploring my perceived limit and trying to push past it.
00:03:20Yeah, I don't know.
00:03:21Yeah, I'm not.
00:03:21Good luck.
00:03:30I think this is my pee bottle.
00:03:51Nope, it's just a normal water bottle.
00:03:59A little flare in the van.
00:04:15I'm really proud of my career so far, but if you want to call yourself a successful
00:04:21all-around climber, you've got to be up on El Cap.
00:04:26There it is, in all its glory.
00:04:31El Capitan.
00:04:47It's always surprising how big it is.
00:04:50I never think, oh, it doesn't look that bad, or it doesn't look that big.
00:04:54It's always fucking so big.
00:04:58I don't know why no one talks about how scary it is.
00:05:04I wish I could not feel afraid anymore.
00:05:12El Capitan is a 3,200-foot granite face.
00:05:19Doesn't get much bigger, doesn't get much more difficult, doesn't get much more high-quality
00:05:25than El Cap.
00:05:28It's just the most impressive, most beautiful stone in the world.
00:05:32And it's so hard to free climb.
00:05:38When you look at El Cap, it looks impossible.
00:05:41It looks smooth, and you can't imagine what there would be to climb it.
00:05:44It always attracted people that are curious to push themselves to the highest level.
00:05:52For decades, climbers have been testing themselves up there.
00:05:58Climbing El Capitan is the most badass thing that you can do as a human.
00:06:04With the exception of Lynn Hill and a few other women, it's very much like a boys club.
00:06:13When I started climbing, the first person I learned about was Lynn Hill.
00:06:18She was the first to free climb a route on El Capitan called the Nose.
00:06:24And then the following year, she went back and free climbed it in a day, which was the
00:06:30most groundbreaking, astonishing achievement.
00:06:34I didn't feel like I needed to prove anything after that, because I was at the age where
00:06:39I wanted to have a kid, I wanted to have a family, and having the freedom to just go
00:06:44rock climbing was not going to happen forever.
00:06:47At a certain point, you have to be happy with what you've done.
00:06:56What's your ring?
00:06:57You want to hear my alarm?
00:06:58Yeah.
00:06:59This is mine.
00:06:59Yeah.
00:07:00What's yours?
00:07:01Mine's more the other end of the spectrum.
00:07:03Of course.
00:07:03I was in Yosemite looking for a project, some sort of inspiration.
00:07:08I was working on my personal quest to free solo El Cap on the free rider, and she was willing
00:07:13to go up the wall to support me for a day of climbing.
00:07:15I got really excited because climbing with Alex on El Cap is like playing basketball with
00:07:20Michael Jordan.
00:07:21It's like you're with the best of the best.
00:07:25First time I met Emily was at a cliff called Jail House.
00:07:28She was already a very established, very successful climber.
00:07:32She was a lot better than me.
00:07:34And the thing that really made an impression was that she was all kind of done up and she
00:07:37had earrings and things, and I was like, man, how can someone climb that hard with earrings?
00:07:42She was just so well put together and going to college and doing the hardest thing at the
00:07:46cliff.
00:07:46You know, everything about it was just different than what I was living.
00:07:49I was like, whoa, that's a different level.
00:07:53You could tell he just didn't really care about anything but climbing.
00:07:57And he is very famous for free soloing, which is rock climbing without a rope.
00:08:04No person does what he does at his level.
00:08:11I was incredibly inspired by the way he moved.
00:08:16He was so perfect.
00:08:19He seems so at ease.
00:08:21And I've always envied that.
00:08:23With the green ground, you can climb up to the spire and re-flake the rope and manage.
00:08:28I'm just trying to nurture you into a simul-climbing machine.
00:08:35Sick.
00:08:36Good work.
00:08:37Way hard.
00:08:37Yeah, good work.
00:08:39Good work.
00:08:40That was good.
00:08:41There's no way.
00:08:41There's no way I would have done any of that without you.
00:08:44Isn't that pretty rad?
00:08:45That was pretty rad.
00:08:46That was a life experience.
00:08:47Yeah.
00:08:49I don't think you could do that in a day.
00:08:51You do?
00:08:52Yeah.
00:08:53I don't think it'd be that bad for you because you just have the base fitness that you need,
00:08:56you know?
00:08:56Yeah.
00:08:57It'd definitely be a dream.
00:08:59Yeah, it'd be sick.
00:09:00It's gotta start somewhere.
00:09:01Yeah.
00:09:03I mean, you know.
00:09:05That's when I first thought of trying to free climb El Cap in less than 24 hours.
00:09:12Climbing it in a day is the epitome of hard rock climbing.
00:09:16And there's a desire to prove myself.
00:09:18Like, I do deserve to be here.
00:09:20I do deserve to be climbing with all of these people that I've looked up to and idolized
00:09:25for a long time.
00:09:27That's awesome.
00:09:28That's pretty good.
00:09:29I like a dagger too.
00:09:31It's the sense of belonging that I want.
00:09:48I see some big wet streaks, but I also see dry rock, so it's kind of a mixed bag up
00:09:55there.
00:09:57It is not going to change a single thing.
00:10:03Most people free climb El Cap over five days or so.
00:10:06It's so much harder to free climb El Cap in a day.
00:10:10The difference between doing a multi-day ascent and doing a one-day ascent is huge.
00:10:16To climb that thing in a day, it's outrageous.
00:10:19It's an audacious undertaking.
00:10:23I'm left wondering whether she can pull it off.
00:10:28Most people who free climb El Cap in a day have done it via the free rider because it's
00:10:33the easiest route.
00:10:34I wanted to do a more challenging route, and that's why I chose Golden Gate.
00:10:41There are very few climbers who have free climbed any route on El Cap in a day other
00:10:46than the free rider.
00:10:47Golden Gate is quite a bit harder.
00:10:50Golden Gate has only been free climbed in a day by three people.
00:10:53Three of the best El Cap climbers in the world.
00:11:00These guys are heroes of mine, and I want to be a part of that group.
00:11:11Golden Gate has 34 pitches.
00:11:14My goal is to climb from the beginning of each pitch to the end without falling.
00:11:19That will be a free ascent.
00:11:21If I fall, I have to go back to the beginning of that pitch and try again.
00:11:26And I need to do this in under 24 hours.
00:11:36That's going to be really hard for her.
00:11:38I give her a 20% chance of sending, honestly.
00:11:42She just hasn't paid her dues like Honnold has.
00:11:52It's hard to put yourself out there and say you're going to try to do the hardest thing you've ever
00:11:57done.
00:11:58Just because I'm trying to protect myself from people finding out that I'm afraid or that I fail or that
00:12:04I'm just like everyone else.
00:12:08I mean, I don't want to say it's mansplaining, but primarily there's men that have accomplished this goal.
00:12:13And so it's like I get a lot of advice and it's a lot of like, oh, you need to
00:12:18be committed to this and you need to go here for this amount of time and you need to do
00:12:21it this way.
00:12:22And you should be doing this and you should be doing that.
00:12:24I've been climbing for 22 years.
00:12:27Like I know how to approach a goal.
00:12:31I don't need someone to tell me how to do it.
00:12:35But obviously that's a hard, that's a hard thing to convince yourself of as well.
00:12:40It's hard for me to convince myself that I know what I'm doing.
00:12:44Do you think I need more than one three?
00:12:45I wouldn't even take the three.
00:12:46Oh my God.
00:12:48Maybe I don't need this and two purples.
00:12:51I always had it in my mind ever since he asked me to support him that he would probably be
00:12:56willing to support me on Golden Gate.
00:12:59I'd like to think I may be the best supporter in the world for El Cap just because I know
00:13:04the roots really well.
00:13:05I've worked on them a long time.
00:13:06I don't think anyone has climbed any of those parts of the wall faster.
00:13:09Are you climbing the monster with just one six?
00:13:11Yeah.
00:13:12Awesome.
00:13:12And I wanted to help Emily achieve this big dream of hers.
00:13:16Alex is very comfortable, very confident, but I also trust him.
00:13:20Having someone up there who you can tell is right at home makes me feel that much more comfortable.
00:13:27I'll give you that.
00:13:28Go up and try your best and...
00:13:30That's all I'm doing.
00:13:30I'm just going to go try.
00:13:31Move by move, you just do your best and see how it plays out.
00:13:34I'm allowed to fall.
00:13:36Yeah, I mean, that's the beautiful thing you ever rope.
00:13:38It's like a good shit.
00:13:40I'm really happy that I have a rope.
00:13:41So, here's the heroine.
00:13:48Away.
00:13:58Water.
00:14:16Remember, climbing mountain is fun.
00:14:34the way that I climb the bottom 2,000 feet of the route with Alex is something called simul
00:14:40climbing so I'm leading placing gear and Alex is following climbing at the same time as me
00:14:45so we're moving up the wall together and it enables you to move a lot faster but it cuts
00:14:53some corners because you're placing less safety equipment between yourself and your partner so
00:14:58if either of us falls we can get severely injured or we could die but this is really the only
00:15:05way to
00:15:05climb it in a day I was kind of proud of myself honestly yeah that was good thank you I
00:15:12just
00:15:12hand over hand on the roof I was like what's that
00:15:34that was the easiest that the monster has ever felt but it's still really hard that was way faster than
00:15:41ever before oh yeah yeah like 45 minutes
00:15:48you find 2,000 feet already you may as well climb one more picture I'm gonna try I don't know
00:15:52if I can
00:15:53though of course you can just get in there and engage all right you need someone to like punch in
00:16:00the nuts
00:16:15you're doing great thank you I really appreciate it I'm really digging deep here you know this is uh this
00:16:20is my
00:16:20first effort yeah do you think it's worth giving it one to the death effort I mean
00:16:26I've been trying to give it to the death yeah what is that to the death it seems a
00:16:29little like worky if we decide to go down let's fully debrief like what are you
00:16:35going to do differently what do you do better where can you save energy I mean
00:16:39obviously there's a ton of room for improvement today a lot of room for improvement
00:16:47yeah that's crazy
00:16:52it just went from perfectly okay to perfectly not okay
00:16:58oh oh my god it hurts so bad
00:17:06hey give me a hug you needed a hug from you all day thank you these bruises are just all
00:17:12from one
00:17:13pitch I was secretly happy that we got rained off because everything just felt so hard I
00:17:24don't really foresee me trying again this spring I'm kind of worked over from the season
00:17:31I didn't feel ready and I haven't put in the work in order to be successful
00:17:55oh that was her first wetsuit
00:17:58look at how tiny that little thing is here you go here's a bunch of trophies
00:18:05climbing stuff first place
00:18:10junior nationals oh when she was 12 years old I don't remember what that one was
00:18:19what's that one from
00:18:22zero shovel oh yeah this is the world cup she won
00:18:28no there's a little mohawk look at that mohawk
00:18:35I would say I had like a very normal childhood
00:18:40my dad was really into any activity that was in the mountains
00:18:51growing up I had this idea that girls were inferior in some way
00:18:58desperately wanted to prove that I wasn't like that
00:19:05I grew up with my two cousins who were boys and we were super competitive with each other
00:19:11all I wanted to do was be better than them I wanted to do well in everything and I tried
00:19:19really hard
00:19:23when I found climbing
00:19:25this switch went off
00:19:28it was like instantly that's what I wanted to do
00:19:34the feeling of lightness and strength and invincibility was pretty profound
00:19:46I liked the feeling of success
00:19:52and if I didn't measure up to that
00:19:57I was so upset and disappointed
00:20:05competitions being the best winning to me that was what climbing was
00:20:15I definitely started putting more pressure on myself
00:20:19my self-worth was so tied to my success in climbing
00:20:24and then my success in climbing was tied to my weight
00:20:29the less mass you have the easier it's going to be to stay on the wall
00:20:35it just became this cycle of punishment
00:20:38I remember being completely exhausted all the time
00:20:43she was so thin
00:20:46and I didn't know what to do
00:20:47and I remember her hands were orange
00:20:50because all she was eating was carrots
00:20:53and I wasn't sleeping well
00:20:55and I was dizzy sometimes
00:21:00and then climbing wasn't very fun
00:21:04I feel like I barely laughed
00:21:08I started realizing that this isn't how I want to live my life
00:21:13and is climbing going to be a positive force in my life
00:21:18or is it always going to be this negative thing?
00:21:24I guess now is the best time
00:21:26and here is the best place to say this
00:21:28I have an eating disorder
00:21:30I can't admit it to anybody else
00:21:32but at least I can admit it to myself
00:21:35I feel out of control when I indulge in food
00:21:38and my all-or-nothing behavior makes me depressed and unhappy
00:21:43I don't ever give myself a break
00:21:45I want to be perfect all the time
00:21:47I must run fast, climb strong
00:21:51and eat as little as possible
00:22:01eventually my body and my brain
00:22:03just couldn't really handle
00:22:04all the stress and the pressures
00:22:06I realized that competing wasn't something
00:22:09that I really wanted to do anymore
00:22:16the pivotal thing that happened
00:22:18was I joined the North Face athlete team
00:22:21and got invited on an expedition to Mount Everest
00:22:28I had no idea what it would do for me in my life
00:22:34She was keen to try out mountain climbing
00:22:38so it's like, oh, first mountain climbing trip
00:22:40how about Everest?
00:22:42a little bit crazy, but why not?
00:22:46it's the tallest and most precipitous mountain range on our planet
00:22:50if you want to test your mettle, that's where you go
00:22:53I remember just saying, Emily, no
00:22:57I do not want you going to Everest
00:22:59Tim said to her, you're not going
00:23:01and she said, Dad, I'm not 16
00:23:04and that was the end of that
00:23:08Emily at 25, barely coming out of the gym
00:23:11as a gym climber
00:23:13and then being on Everest
00:23:15I mean, that's a huge leap to make
00:23:17I was a little, like, dark in those days
00:23:21so I might have just totally written her off
00:23:25as a first impression, you know
00:23:27just kind of like, ugh, whatever
00:23:36it wasn't until I got there and realized
00:23:38that Conrad was, like, completely hands-off with Emily
00:23:41and he was like, well, you step in
00:23:42you know, and I'm like, I don't even know her
00:23:44I don't want to do this
00:23:45I'm not a mentor
00:23:47I was not very helpful
00:23:48I definitely am not an incredibly sympathetic person
00:23:58I'm ready to go up tomorrow
00:23:59I'm a little nervous and scared
00:24:03to go through the ice fall
00:24:06that's knowledge
00:24:09happens, like, five times a day
00:24:11it's really unnerving
00:24:17I want to get through the ice fall
00:24:18and then I'll feel okay
00:24:28Conrad saw something in her
00:24:30and he was right
00:24:35she just didn't give in
00:24:42Emery, what's up?
00:24:44Nice job, Em
00:24:46I came to care
00:24:50immensely for Emily
00:24:51over the time of that trip
00:24:54We talked about my relationship
00:24:56we talked about my climbing
00:24:57we talked about her kids
00:24:58and how much she missed her kids
00:24:59and just life
00:25:01and it gave me a peek
00:25:03into what my life could be like
00:25:04in the future
00:25:11Hey
00:25:13I'm at the South Coast
00:25:16getting ready to go up for the summit
00:25:24Just stuck behind a line of people
00:25:28She passed me
00:25:29and she was by herself
00:25:30and I was like
00:25:30Emily, why are you by yourself?
00:25:32Where's the Sherpa
00:25:33that you were climbing with?
00:25:34She was like
00:25:34Oh God, I feel so bad
00:25:36He was slow
00:25:37so I left him behind
00:25:39Was that really bad?
00:25:40Should I go back and get him?
00:25:48She crushed it
00:25:51It was so out of her main sport
00:25:54that it just was
00:25:56all the more of a huge achievement
00:26:00As a climber
00:26:00you're the sum total
00:26:02of all your ascents
00:26:03and expeditions
00:26:04and each experience
00:26:06that you have
00:26:07builds into who you are
00:26:08as a climber
00:26:09and Emily got that
00:26:11I was a lot stronger
00:26:13than I thought I would be
00:26:14Climbing on Everest
00:26:15has made me appreciate
00:26:17the style of climbing
00:26:19that I do
00:26:20I do want to continue
00:26:22to be in the mountains
00:26:24and to learn from them
00:26:42Good morning
00:26:43Good morning
00:26:45Here's your coffee
00:26:50I stayed up late last night
00:26:51and got all these emails
00:26:52and texts with China
00:26:54and Nepal and Tibet
00:26:54and I'm like scared
00:26:55to turn on their phone
00:26:56and see what everyone wrote
00:26:59Come back to bed
00:27:00No
00:27:03I have an interview
00:27:04in 15 minutes
00:27:06Okay, I'll make breakfast
00:27:09Hi, this is Adrian
00:27:12Doing some final prep
00:27:14for a big trip
00:27:14I'm leaving on early next week
00:27:16You know, the average
00:27:17Everest expedition
00:27:18is two months long
00:27:20and I'm probably away
00:27:22you know, seven to eight
00:27:23months a year
00:27:24and you're still traveling
00:27:25and climbing around the world
00:27:26I should have my time
00:27:28Adrian is a high altitude climber
00:27:31and a mountain guide
00:27:32who spends a lot of time
00:27:34in the Himalaya
00:27:35We met at Camp 2
00:27:36on Mount Everest
00:27:41I just remember this charismatic guy
00:27:44He was super nice
00:27:45and fun to talk to
00:27:48The sad fact of high altitude climbing
00:27:51is there's just not many women
00:27:53I certainly noticed Emily
00:27:55as an anomaly
00:27:57But 21,000 feet is really miserable
00:28:00So you kind of like have a crushing headache
00:28:02at the same time
00:28:03that you're trying to be like social
00:28:04and funny and interesting
00:28:05It's not like a great flirting opportunity
00:28:08It was this really powerful connection
00:28:10that we had
00:28:11I'd never felt like that
00:28:12with anyone before
00:28:14And we knew that we wanted to stay connected
00:28:19Adrian is gone most of the year
00:28:21guiding in the Himalaya
00:28:23And because I have this big project
00:28:25I'm working on
00:28:26we are going to spend the next four months apart
00:28:30I don't really look forward to this time of year
00:28:32as it is
00:28:34because Adrian's going to be gone
00:28:35for a really long time
00:28:36and I have a lot of
00:28:39like I put a lot of pressure on myself
00:28:41for my own projects
00:28:42No
00:28:46I've spent a lot of time with people
00:28:48who have lost their partner
00:28:49in the mountains
00:28:50and every time he leaves
00:28:53I have this part of me
00:28:55that is afraid he won't come back
00:29:00Yes
00:29:02The secret stash
00:29:05Okay, I'm overwhelmed again
00:29:06I'm going to go eat some toast
00:29:08I'm really overwhelmed right now
00:29:09Good night
00:29:11Here we go
00:29:15It kind of sucks
00:29:20Cat stuff
00:29:21I have food
00:29:23Coffee stuff
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00:29:38And
00:29:39She's off
00:29:44It's always hard
00:29:46This one especially
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00:29:58I'm going to Moab
00:30:00because
00:30:00I want to prepare
00:30:02for the upcoming Yosemite season
00:30:04and Moab is a great place to do that
00:30:08Last spring
00:30:09I just wasn't ready
00:30:10I hadn't put in the work
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00:30:18Look at these nails too
00:30:19These are the gel nail
00:30:21Gel nail magic
00:30:22It's supposed to last for like three months
00:30:28I did not grow up
00:30:30learning how to crack climb
00:30:32and for climbing in Yosemite
00:30:34it's a required skill
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00:30:46I wouldn't consider myself a super confident person
00:30:49when I'm standing on the ground
00:30:51It's more why I'm like climbing
00:30:53that my confidence shines through
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00:31:04I think I did get better technique
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00:31:07It's nice to feel a little more confidence
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00:31:12I'm excited to go do something
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00:31:45I've been in Yosemite now for a few weeks training on Golden Gate.
00:31:48It's been long days hiking in and practicing the harder pitches.
00:31:54It's really the only way to know every pitch for that in a day attempt.
00:32:02There's five hard sections of the route for me.
00:32:07The first one that comes up is the monster.
00:32:10You have to kind of wedge your body into this crack.
00:32:14And this pitch is almost 200 feet long.
00:32:17The monster off with is harder if your foot can't bridge the crack.
00:32:20My foot can span between one side of the crack and the other side,
00:32:23so I can easily wedge one foot and push upward.
00:32:26If you have a smaller foot, it's harder to make upward progress.
00:32:32I sort of want to die right now.
00:32:36The next pitch that's really hard for me is called the down climb.
00:32:41There's essentially no hold.
00:32:43You're kind of standing on a less than vertical, smooth surface,
00:32:49just pasting your feet on the wall and using the friction in order to stick.
00:32:54Come on.
00:32:55Your balance has to be pretty perfect in order to not get spit off.
00:33:01Oh, that was it.
00:33:05The next hard pitch is called the move.
00:33:08At the end of the pitch, there's a really hard boulder problem,
00:33:12so a series of really hard moves.
00:33:18For me, it's the most powerful section of the route.
00:33:21It has the hardest single moves.
00:33:26The next section is called the Golden Desert.
00:33:30It is a really long crack climb mixed with some funky traversing under a roof.
00:33:40And then the very next pitch after that is called the A5 Traverse.
00:33:45And that's kind of the pitch that guards you from success.
00:33:50Imagine traversing this steep, sloping rail and trying to stand on feet that are the width of dimes.
00:33:58The A5 Traverse is the spot where most people fail.
00:34:02By the time you've climbed almost 3,000 feet to get there,
00:34:04your arms are just incredibly tired and it's really hard to hang on them.
00:34:10I'm still a little nervous about the A5 Traverse.
00:34:39A6 Traverse
00:34:42Thankfully, Adrian came home from Everest.
00:34:45everything was fine but there was weeks there where I thought he might not it's
00:34:51not really that safe even if you make good decisions. Is it true? That I thought you might die?
00:34:57Yeah. I thought you might die. So you figured you'd stop moving on right away?
00:35:03Yeah. Just gonna be a bachelorette and like be just in my little world
00:35:08independent. It could happen. It could be the other way around. Yeah. I think I'd
00:35:14think about it less but I think about it sometimes as you start speed climbing
00:35:17more and more, cutting corners, rockfall. There's plenty of things that can kill you.
00:35:23It's a little bit of a stretch but I'm not gonna die. I'm not gonna die rock climbing.
00:35:28But you gotta think about it and acknowledge it's a possibility.
00:35:30It's true. I just think that I've finally like come to a place where I'm okay. I'm not
00:35:38okay but more okay. Okay questions. Okay get married already when you're getting married.
00:35:54Are you gonna have babies? Babies. Get married already. Do you plan on having kids soon? Okay.
00:36:03Um I I do plan on having kids eventually I think. I want one kid so I'm not really in
00:36:09like a huge rush.
00:36:12I I say we we right? I think I've come around. We kind of settled on one because Adrian wanted
00:36:18like
00:36:19three. Seven. He wanted three. Um but I just want one so I'm not in a rush and I have
00:36:25like we both have
00:36:26things we want to do first. I've got a couple about asking me about LCAP and what happened and if
00:36:31I'm
00:36:31going back basically I I failed and I also had terrible weather but that's like a second part of
00:36:38it um that prevented me from succeeding and yes I'm going back in the fall.
00:37:00So we got two liters of water. Okay. I have extra shock. Okay cool. Are you taking that much extra
00:37:08shock? I'm very concerned about the heat. It weighs nothing. I guess it just it seems like a lot of
00:37:14shock for yeah cool. We don't have to bring it. No no. No but I actually really want it. If
00:37:18you think it'll
00:37:18make you feel better it's definitely better. Okay extra shock. I'm bringing these. It's really hot. What are
00:37:24those? They're breakable ice packs for my hands and feet. Seems totally absurd. So if we want to climb by
00:37:31three what time should we meet in the meadow? Well like 2 30. 2 30. That's like pretty early though.
00:37:37Pretty early.
00:37:58Okay.
00:37:59okay.
00:38:07Nice job.
00:38:08Nice job, huh?
00:38:08.
00:38:13.
00:38:45Come on, come on.
00:38:47Come on, come on.
00:38:49Come on, come on, come on.
00:38:51Come on, come on.
00:38:52Yeah, yeah.
00:38:54Come on.
00:38:56Very good.
00:38:57Come on now.
00:39:02Nice.
00:39:03Good job.
00:39:08If you do it today, in this style, just like you just did it,
00:39:13it'd be pretty sick.
00:39:16Think about how good that's going to feel.
00:39:17I can't yet.
00:39:19I've got to finish the rest of it.
00:39:28Yeah, we started 11 and a half hours ago, so...
00:39:31It's a good time, actually.
00:39:34This is when you rely on your World Cup fitness.
00:39:43Come on.
00:39:46Yeah.
00:39:46Yeah.
00:39:50Pretty sure you can just climb one more pitch.
00:39:54Pretty sure there's like five more pitches.
00:40:03Good.
00:40:06That's it.
00:40:10Good.
00:40:12Good.
00:40:13I'm falling.
00:40:14No, no, no, you're okay.
00:40:15Come on.
00:40:16Come on.
00:40:16No, it's too much.
00:40:17Stay with it.
00:40:19It just fucked everything up and like...
00:40:23That's all right.
00:40:24Oh my God.
00:40:25It just like...
00:40:26It's like...
00:40:27It's like shit.
00:40:31Really good.
00:40:32Yeah, really good.
00:40:40Oh.
00:40:42Ellen.
00:40:43Come on.
00:40:44There you come.
00:40:46Oh, fuck.
00:40:47I don't have it, you guys.
00:40:48I don't have it.
00:40:51I'm just too tired.
00:40:54I'm giving it everything I have.
00:40:56I just...
00:40:59I just couldn't do it.
00:41:00I couldn't keep climbing.
00:41:03I'm, like, super bummed that it's, like, everything I could possibly do.
00:41:09I failed on the last hard pitch.
00:41:13Pretty heartbroken.
00:41:28I think you have to try things that you're afraid of,
00:41:31that you might suck at,
00:41:34that you're going to most likely fail at in order to actually really
00:41:39get to know yourself and know what you're capable of.
00:41:49When I was trying to figure out how to make a team to go on this seven week,
00:41:56totally unknown, jungle bashing,
00:41:59crazy, alpine, Myanmar expedition,
00:42:02I wanted Emily to go.
00:42:04Like, I wanted her to go more than anyone.
00:42:08Like, I wouldn't go if Emily didn't go.
00:42:11This is, like, an anti-Everest trip.
00:42:18Think of Everest from the minute you get off the plane to the summit of Everest.
00:42:22Just every step of the way is mapped out.
00:42:25Pakakoborazi was exactly the opposite.
00:42:29Wanting her on the team was met with a lot of resistance,
00:42:33but I put my foot down and she was stoked to do it.
00:42:45It was a month before we even got to base camp.
00:42:49We had to cut our gear by two-thirds,
00:42:53ran out of food.
00:43:04A lot of the things that I did today, I've never done before.
00:43:22It's scary, the heavy pack.
00:43:24I feel it off that one's a little.
00:43:26Good job, ma'am.
00:43:31Way more rad,
00:43:34way more gnarly than Everest.
00:43:38My favorite day on that whole climb was
00:43:41Emily and I were stuck on this ridge for 48 hours.
00:43:49Winds blowing 60 miles an hour nonstop.
00:43:53And at one point, Emily looks at me and she's like,
00:43:56what do you think?
00:43:57Do you think we're going to be okay?
00:43:58I looked at her and I was like, I don't, I don't know.
00:44:01I hope so.
00:44:03And she was like, all right, cool, okay.
00:44:10And five minutes later, we're laughing and like doing what we can to like stay alive.
00:44:19Emily and I have talked a lot about how crazy it was and how strung out we were
00:44:23and how close to just like laying down on the trail and giving up we were.
00:44:28And we just didn't.
00:44:31She was everything I expected her to be on that trip.
00:44:35She was gritty.
00:44:36She was funny.
00:44:37She helped me when I was low.
00:44:39She tackled massive, scary things.
00:44:43She had to spend more time doing things.
00:44:583.30 in the morning, November 20-something.
00:45:09Dragged everyone into helping me climb El Cap in a day.
00:45:16Massive snowstorm is approaching, like tomorrow, so.
00:45:20Day after tomorrow.
00:45:21Last day of the season basically.
00:45:23Dragging everyone up here to support me one more time.
00:45:26One more character building day on the mountain.
00:45:28One more character building day on the mountain.
00:45:31It's like 4 a.m.
00:45:34It's way colder than it was last time, so that's good.
00:45:36If you were really pro, you'd be racked onto the harness already.
00:45:38Pack your harness that way.
00:45:41Oh yeah, I didn't do that.
00:45:43You guys heated it last time.
00:45:45Ten more feet today, okay?
00:45:47Yeah, exactly.
00:45:48Ten more feet today.
00:45:53Go Em, go.
00:45:54Here we go.
00:45:55You're gonna crush it.
00:45:57Thanks, Sonny.
00:46:04Hi, Sam.
00:46:06Hi.
00:46:07You're crushing.
00:46:09It's such a still day up on the captain.
00:46:30Creaky old grandpa, I'll sit down and tighten the shoes up.
00:46:36Nice, Em.
00:46:38Oh my God.
00:46:44Are you okay, Em?
00:46:46Emily, are you okay?
00:46:49Em?
00:46:50Holy shit.
00:46:52Oh my God, Em.
00:46:56Should I lower you to the ledge?
00:46:57Emily, you're okay.
00:47:02Lower.
00:47:03Em.
00:47:04Wee.
00:47:05Wee.
00:47:05Talk to us.
00:47:07Talk to us, Em.
00:47:08Are you okay, are you right side up?
00:47:11Wee.
00:47:13Wee.
00:47:13She's not right side.
00:47:14Wee.
00:47:17Wee.
00:47:19I'm going to be on hold while I try to get a racer, okay?
00:47:22Okay, thank you.
00:47:23He's stable now, huh?
00:47:31Hang in there, Ab.
00:47:36You know, I can tell that it's terrible.
00:47:37It's all terrible.
00:47:38Like, you can tell it's a giant fall.
00:47:41The only thing I was thinking about was whether or not she'll walk again.
00:48:12You all right?
00:48:13I don't know the cricket.
00:48:14It might have missed me fishing on and on the lead.
00:48:21I've climbed this pitch so many times.
00:48:23I know it's slippery, but I've never fallen.
00:48:25I know my feet are cold, but I need to be confident.
00:48:31I wasn't scared.
00:48:32I just...
00:48:35Now it's scary, though.
00:48:37Think about it.
00:48:49Oh, I'm sorry, guys.
00:49:01Yeah, still have some stuff to learn, I guess.
00:49:04Nice.
00:49:21Please.
00:49:33world-class climber emily harrington trying to make history falling from yosemite's el capitan
00:49:38rescued by one of the most famous climbers in the world falls are apparel of the sport
00:49:43no matter your skill level thank goodness she was with people like alex hunnell the climber at the
00:49:48center of that oscar-winning documentary free solo i was blanks i'm holding the rope but then
00:49:53when she fell so much rope fell into the system like so much rope pooled at my feet basically that
00:49:58i wound up actually uh grabbing the rope with my hands in an effort to catch her sooner i don't
00:50:03know if you guys had a chance to watch free solo oh he was i mean it's amazing what they
00:50:08do and boy
00:50:09you gotta have some nerves of steel yes you do you sure do full recovery
00:50:15how are you feeling about it all shitty shitty about it like sad yeah
00:50:24everyone is interested in el cap and everyone is interested in the fact that i was climbing
00:50:29with alex honnold so they want to write a story about the damsel in distress who was rescued by
00:50:34the free solo star oh adrenaline junkies like risking their lives falling off of sheer cliffs
00:50:43and gets rescued like it's just stupid and not true and it's misunderstood i had a bad fall climbing
00:50:49because rock climbing is inherently dangerous but and alex did what exactly what any good partner would do
00:50:57yeah and that's the end of the story we were choosing to take a certain level of risk that day
00:51:07it was a hundred percent not his fault what happened
00:51:14so
00:51:23so
00:51:24so
00:51:24so
00:51:25so
00:51:43I was afraid of not being good enough, and now the entire world thinks that as well.
00:51:56She is no Alex Honnold. Do this without the security of a rope, and then you can pretend to have
00:52:02accomplished something.
00:52:05Woman, go back to kitchen, please. Let man's doing this stuff. She's too fat.
00:52:27I'm bruised and have a rope burn on my neck and a pretty intense concussion. I'm slowly recovering, but mentally
00:52:36I'm struggling.
00:52:41I just spiral into the negativity of, oh, I'm never going to be able to get anywhere with this.
00:52:50Lots of doubt and lots of questioning of, like, why am I doing this? Why am I even trying so
00:52:56hard?
00:52:57And just feel like giving up.
00:53:00There's just this really big fear, and it's all circling around the whole kid thing and the clock is ticking
00:53:07idea.
00:53:08And I really do want to have fun and enjoy climbing. I do. I just don't know how right now.
00:53:15Yeah.
00:53:16It's hard to trust myself, I guess.
00:53:34It's Passover. Happy Passover, guys.
00:53:37Hogsamehack, John.
00:53:38Hogsamehack to you. And we can tell that it's Passover because we are in our houses,
00:53:43hiding from a plague, and because in our recent-
00:53:46Breakfast, podcast, very loud podcast.
00:53:48Very loud podcast.
00:53:49Blood on your door will stop coronavirus.
00:53:54We are one day short of a month since we've been home.
00:53:58April 12th, Easter Sunday, and it's Sunday, but it doesn't really matter that it's Sunday.
00:54:07Every day is pretty much very similar.
00:54:15Adrian and I have been physically together for longer than we have ever been.
00:54:21It's felt like this period of deep connection.
00:54:26What's your favorite color?
00:54:28This is like a rapid-fire question.
00:54:31Oh, really? I actually-
00:54:33What's your favorite color?
00:54:35Gray.
00:54:36Gray?
00:54:38That's a terrible favorite color.
00:54:40It's supposed to be a game of mine.
00:54:41My favorite color is green.
00:54:44Really?
00:54:45Yeah.
00:54:45I never knew that.
00:54:46Well, you learn something new every day, don't you?
00:54:48I don't think I've ever bought you anything green.
00:54:50Better start now.
00:54:55We've discussed starting a family in more serious ways,
00:54:59but I really have to finish this project before I can start thinking about taking that step.
00:55:06I don't want to take eight years to free-climb Millocap in a day.
00:55:09Then I'll be 40, and then, you know, it might be too late.
00:55:25If I let something like fear, something like an accident, stop me from doing something,
00:55:32then I'll never go back.
00:55:34I'll never try something hard again.
00:55:37This is no longer just a way to prove myself.
00:55:40It's a way for me to gain back trust and confidence in myself.
00:55:48I need to go back.
00:55:58I've been really gentle with myself.
00:56:01Just accepting that I'm probably going to be a little more conservative this year.
00:56:05I think I need to talk to Alex about adjusting my method and just be like,
00:56:09dude, I don't want to, like, go so fast.
00:56:12I want to be able to stop and take a breather,
00:56:14and I want to be able to place more gear and feel way more safe.
00:56:35And so it begins, Emily's Yosemite season.
00:56:453 AM, I'm out of bed, in coffee.
00:56:50M's waiting for a coffee.
00:56:52The life of a superstar.
00:56:56How's it feeling?
00:56:58It's okay.
00:56:59Where I fell last year.
00:57:00Where you fell last year.
00:57:01Yeah.
00:57:05I'm back in Yosemite for the first time since the accident,
00:57:08and Adrian's been helping me train on the hard pitches
00:57:11and build back that trust.
00:57:14Down to the move pitch.
00:57:19Dun, dun, dun!
00:57:21Oh.
00:57:24Yes.
00:57:25There was no, like, massive screaming whippers out of the move today.
00:57:30No.
00:57:30You just hit it every time.
00:57:32You're stronger.
00:57:33Big support today.
00:57:36You're welcome.
00:57:40Physically, I feel better than I have probably ever in my life.
00:57:45I'm trying to figure out the best tactics for climbing the monster.
00:57:50And, um, so I'm going to try putting on my climbing shoe,
00:57:53and then I'm going to try putting on a size 42 TC Pro over top of it to make my
00:58:00foot bigger.
00:58:08I'm so excited about this.
00:58:15And so what time are we thinking about starting?
00:58:17Let's say starting the monster at 6 AM, which means starting climbing at 1 AM.
00:58:22That's what I was hoping to do tonight, you know?
00:58:25I know.
00:58:25Get some.
00:58:26Signed up for it.
00:58:27Yeah, no, no.
00:58:28I'm into it.
00:58:29Knee pads and duct tape and elbow pads.
00:58:31At this point you're going to get to the top more fresh than when you left the ground.
00:58:35I think it would be tough to make this more comfortable.
00:58:37Yeah.
00:58:38That's the whole point.
00:58:39Yeah, exactly.
00:58:40We're ready for the long haul right now.
00:58:43I'm planning to have two partners.
00:58:45It is really valuable to have Alex as a partner because he is so fast.
00:58:50But up higher when the climbing gets slower, I really like having Adrian there.
00:58:55He's really good emotional support for me.
00:59:05Go get her.
00:59:07Go get her.
00:59:08Move slowly and then, like, see how I feel when I get to that.
00:59:11Yeah, cool.
00:59:12It's the same time as tomorrow as today, basically.
00:59:14I do feel ready.
00:59:15I don't think I'm going to be any more ready than I am right now.
00:59:19If I achieve this, I'll never not be a climber, but I can, like, move on.
00:59:25From being, like, solely focused on climbing.
00:59:27Like, I can move forward with my life.
00:59:29I could have a family.
00:59:30Like, I could do all these things I've wanted to do that might not require so much, like, pinpointed focus.
00:59:38It's that meaningful.
01:00:02I'm going to have to tie my shoes and put them on, but I'm sort of like, oh, I've got
01:00:21flashbacks of the last year.
01:00:22PTSD.
01:00:23I'm sorry.
01:00:25Oh my god, jeez.
01:00:41I'm going to run around to the top and hopefully get to meet them, like, two-thirds of the way
01:00:45up.
01:00:48All right, Sam, really smooth.
01:00:53Hey, Sam, she's done the free blast.
01:00:57Yes.
01:00:58Great job, Deidre.
01:00:59Thank you, John.
01:01:00How do you feel?
01:01:00Okay.
01:01:27It's so funny that you're wearing two pairs of shoes.
01:01:30You're wearing two pairs of shoes.
01:02:05I'm so glad to have that pitch over with.
01:02:08I'm taking off all of my shoes, all four pairs of them that I was wearing.
01:02:15I was wearing Alex's shoes over my shoes so I could climb the monster easier and faster,
01:02:20and it works.
01:02:25I will say it's not often that I encounter a completely new rock climbing technique on
01:02:29a big wall.
01:02:29This is one of those times you've styled the hard stuff.
01:02:34Next, Em is going to lead us to the summit of the mighty El Capitan.
01:02:38That's what's happening next.
01:02:51Good, Em.
01:02:52Really nice.
01:03:01Nice and relaxed.
01:03:10Trust the feet.
01:03:12Perfect.
01:03:13That's the one.
01:03:15Perfect.
01:03:17Really good.
01:03:30Nice work.
01:03:31I'm not coming down off the mountain until I set this route.
01:03:36I'm never climbing that pitch again.
01:03:42Nice, Em.
01:03:43Really smooth.
01:03:50I gotta say, you look really fit right now.
01:03:53Like your arms are like muscular.
01:03:58Thanks Alex.
01:04:00Like have you been like working out more?
01:04:03Yeah.
01:04:05Been putting some effort in.
01:04:07Like have you really?
01:04:08Cause you look like freaking kind of jacks.
01:04:11Yeah.
01:04:11Yeah dude.
01:04:12I have.
01:04:15Nice.
01:04:17Come on.
01:04:19Really good.
01:04:19Come on.
01:04:20So strong.
01:04:22Come on.
01:04:23Come on.
01:04:23Come on.
01:04:30Come on.
01:04:37That's it.
01:04:38Come on.
01:04:39Come on.
01:04:39Really good.
01:04:44Like heel.
01:04:45There you go.
01:04:45There you go.
01:04:46What the hell is that?
01:04:46Grow great.
01:04:47Go.
01:04:51All with that.
01:04:52No way.
01:04:53There you go.
01:04:53Yeah.å¸ing사iem
01:04:53왜 all the hell.
01:04:53I had to dig really deep for that one.
01:04:57I set the move pitch on my first try.
01:05:00Everything's going well.
01:05:03Waiting for the other shoe to drop.
01:05:23Yeah, buddy.
01:05:27So exciting.
01:05:28Up here, it's so fresh.
01:05:31You could jerk all over your face, but otherwise, looking good.
01:05:34Thanks, Alex.
01:05:35Yeah.
01:05:36I feel good.
01:05:37Dude, infinitely better than last time.
01:06:06No!
01:06:07You got it, Alex.
01:06:14No!
01:06:19Oh no.
01:06:24It's bleeding.
01:06:25Yeah, I see, just a little.
01:06:28Want me to bring you down?
01:06:29Yeah.
01:06:30Okay, just a little.
01:06:32You're okay.
01:06:43See how bad it is.
01:06:51I just don't know anymore about this whole hole.
01:06:56It just feels so too hard for me.
01:07:00Stupid shit just keeps happening.
01:07:03No.
01:07:04You're getting better and better every time.
01:07:06I know.
01:07:14I just don't feel good enough right now.
01:07:18I wanted it so badly and maybe I just wanted it too much.
01:07:33It's just so stupid.
01:07:41Why did that have to happen?
01:07:43I didn't do anything wrong.
01:07:45I wasn't running it out.
01:07:46I wasn't doing anything wrong.
01:07:49I'm just scared now.
01:07:50I don't know.
01:07:51You just bumped your head.
01:07:53You're fine.
01:07:55You didn't break anything.
01:07:57I know.
01:08:00I know.
01:08:01I'll do it.
01:08:02You're going to do it today.
01:08:10It's not hopeless.
01:08:12I promise.
01:08:13Okay.
01:08:14I'll try.
01:08:15I'll keep trying.
01:08:16I don't have that much confidence anymore.
01:08:20I think you've got more try than you.
01:08:23You know I'd tell you if I didn't.
01:08:25I don't.
01:08:26I don't.
01:08:26I think you can do it.
01:08:28You can try.
01:08:37I don't.
01:08:47I don't.
01:08:48I don't.
01:09:11You can trust me.
01:09:24Super good.
01:09:26Do it super good.
01:09:28Come on.
01:09:28Come on.
01:09:29Yeah.
01:09:30Come on.
01:09:31Come on.
01:09:31I'm out for it.
01:09:55Come on.
01:10:38No matter what happens I'm proud of myself, I'm really proud of myself.
01:10:44Look at the sunset.
01:10:53Gotta keep climbing.
01:10:57Trying to rest before the last heart pitch.
01:11:00The A5.
01:11:02The sight of...
01:11:05Last time's failure, last year's failure.
01:11:08Yeah.
01:11:09Pretty nervous for it.
01:11:12And we're out of water.
01:11:14Yeah, we are out of water.
01:11:15That sucks.
01:11:15Poor mountain guide planning.
01:11:22You look great.
01:11:23So proud of you.
01:11:24Have fun on this.
01:11:26This is the pitch you earn.
01:11:35Come on.
01:11:40Come on.
01:11:44Come on.
01:11:46Come on.
01:12:02Come on.
01:12:04Come on.
01:12:12Come on.
01:12:14Come on.
01:12:17There we go.
01:12:19Come on.
01:12:22Come on.
01:12:25Come on.
01:12:27You know what to do.
01:12:47Come on.
01:12:53Come on.
01:12:59Come on.
01:13:01Come on.
01:13:04Come on.
01:13:04No!
01:13:10Evelyn!
01:13:15Oh!
01:13:17Oh!
01:13:20Oh, my God!
01:13:23Holy shit, Evelyn!
01:13:34I can't believe I did that.
01:13:36Okay, I got to keep it together.
01:13:38We got five more pitches.
01:13:41Oh, my God.
01:13:47I've always dreamed of being able to do this.
01:13:49And now it's happening, and it's just crazy how it's happening.
01:13:54It was so close so many times to falling just now.
01:13:57I know.
01:13:57So close.
01:13:59But I just didn't fucking let go.
01:14:14Oh!
01:14:14Oh!
01:14:14Oh!
01:14:28Oh!
01:14:29Oh!
01:14:29Oh!
01:14:40Oh!
01:14:41Oh!
01:14:41Yeah!
01:14:44Yeah!
01:14:53Oh!
01:14:56Oh!
01:15:02I'm really, really happy and exhausted.
01:15:05My head kind of hurts and I'm thirsty
01:15:09and everything is perfect.
01:15:17I love you so much.
01:15:22You did.
01:15:27I'm so proud of you.
01:15:28You worked so hard.
01:15:34And you believed.
01:15:35Yeah.
01:15:382112, 2113.
01:16:05You earned that.
01:16:08Mm-hmm.
01:16:10Mm-hmm.
01:16:25Mm-hmm.
01:16:30Nice work! Well done. You look worse. Actually you look pretty good.
01:16:40You have to make an effort dude. Why'd you leave us?
01:16:46That is so good.
01:16:51Oh my gosh.
01:17:43I can still hear her voice in my head.
01:17:49And I think about whenever something's hard or something comes up that feels tricky
01:17:57or feels complicated, especially as like a woman and a mother, I try to think about
01:18:05how Hillary would handle it.
01:18:19Climbing is dangerous and it entails a level of risk, but climbing has given me so much
01:18:25and I'm just not willing to give it up.
01:18:33I'm excited for what's next.
01:18:35Bye-bye.
01:18:41Oh.
01:18:57I know the rise and I know the fall. Cause the voice inside knows me best of all.
01:19:08If I can't run, I'll walk or crawl. I'll restart, restart. I'll give my all to find my place, my
01:19:28place on the wall.
01:19:44I'll follow the path into the sky to kiss the heavens before I die.
01:19:58Amidst the clouds, the world seems small.
01:20:03Amidst the clouds, the world seems small.
01:20:04His tired heart still wants it all.
01:20:10I'll find my place, my place on the wall. I'll find my place, my place on the wall.
01:20:27I've been through the path, in the path, in the path. I'm giving my all, in the path.
01:21:01My face
01:21:04My place
01:21:08On the wall
01:21:42My place
01:21:43Next
01:21:43My place
01:22:04This
01:22:04Film
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