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00:00:06Oh
00:00:30Let's go.
00:01:10Rito, open that up.
00:01:12Come on.
00:01:13Get it open.
00:01:16I totally knew it.
00:01:18I totally knew it.
00:01:21What is it?
00:01:23It's a rope.
00:01:24Get rid of that box.
00:01:26Another 12 year old would love a rope for Christmas.
00:01:29Yeah.
00:01:31Yeah.
00:01:31Come on, Em.
00:01:33Yeah.
00:01:34Woo!
00:01:35Yeah!
00:01:37Yeah!
00:01:38Yeah!
00:01:39Yeah!
00:01:39Yeah!
00:01:45Emily.
00:01:46Emily.
00:01:47Emily, where are we?
00:01:48I don't know.
00:01:50I don't know.
00:01:51We're at El Capitan.
00:01:57From Colorado, Emily Harrington.
00:02:02She's certainly a force to be reckoned with.
00:02:06Emily, make it look easy.
00:02:12Five-time national champion.
00:02:22But Emily is certainly one of the most well-rounded American female climbers.
00:02:27Part of your brain knows that this is slightly illogical.
00:02:32It is dangerous.
00:02:33But life's boring if you don't have that little element of spice, right?
00:02:38We should try to get a little bit more comfortable with being afraid.
00:02:46I love exploring my perceived limit and trying to push past it.
00:03:20Yeah.
00:03:20Yeah.
00:03:20I can't get this.
00:03:22I'm trying to get this.
00:03:23You can also get this.
00:03:23I will see you later.
00:03:23I'll see you later.
00:03:28Are you biting my nose?
00:03:45We got fire.
00:03:47I think this is my pee bottle.
00:03:51Nope, it's just a normal water bottle.
00:03:59A little flare in the van.
00:04:15I'm really proud of my career so far, but if you want to call yourself a successful all-around
00:04:21climber, you've got to be up on El Cap.
00:04:26There it is, in all its glory.
00:04:31El Capitan.
00:04:47It's always surprising how big it is.
00:04:50I never think, oh, like, it doesn't look that bad, or it doesn't look that big.
00:04:54It's always fucking so big.
00:04:58I don't know why no one talks about how scary it is.
00:05:04I wish I could not feel afraid anymore.
00:05:11El Capitan is a 3,200-foot granite face.
00:05:18It doesn't get much bigger, doesn't get much more difficult, doesn't get much more high
00:05:24quality than El Cap.
00:05:28It's just the most impressive, most beautiful stone in the world, and it's so hard to free
00:05:35climb.
00:05:38When you look at El Cap, it looks impossible, it looks smooth, and you can't imagine what
00:05:43there would be to climb it.
00:05:45It always attracted people that are curious to push themselves to the highest level.
00:05:52For decades, climbers have been testing themselves up there.
00:05:58Climbing El Capitan is the most badass thing that you can do, as a human.
00:06:04With the exception of Lynn Hill, and a few other women, it's very much like a boys club.
00:06:13When I started climbing, the first person I learned about was Lynn Hill.
00:06:18She was the first to free climb a route on El Capitan called the Nose.
00:06:23And then the following year, she went back and free climbed it in a day, which was the
00:06:30most groundbreaking, astonishing achievement.
00:06:34I didn't feel like I needed to prove anything after that, because I was at the age where I
00:06:39wanted to have a kid, I wanted to have a family, and having the freedom to just go rock climbing
00:06:45was not going to happen forever.
00:06:47At a certain point, you have to be happy with what you've done.
00:07:02I was in Yosemite looking for a project, some sort of inspiration.
00:07:08I was working on my personal quest to free solo El Cap on the Freerider, and she was willing
00:07:13to go up the wall to support me for a day of climbing.
00:07:15I got really excited, because climbing with Alex on El Cap is like playing basketball with
00:07:20Michael Jordan.
00:07:21It's like you're with the best of the best.
00:07:25First time I met Emily was at a cliff called Jail House.
00:07:28She was already a very established, very successful climber.
00:07:32She was a lot better than me.
00:07:34And the thing that really made an impression was that she was all kind of done up, and she
00:07:37had earrings and things.
00:07:38And I was like, man, how can someone climb that hard with earrings?
00:07:42She was just so well put together, and going to college, and doing the hardest thing at
00:07:46the cliff.
00:07:46Everything about it was just different than what I was living.
00:07:49I was like, whoa, that's a different level.
00:07:53You could tell he just didn't really care about anything but climbing.
00:07:57And he is very famous for free soloing, which is rock climbing without a rope.
00:08:04No person does what he does at his level.
00:08:11I was incredibly inspired by the way he moved.
00:08:16He was so perfect.
00:08:19He seems so at ease, and I've always envied that.
00:08:23With the green ground, you can climb up to the spire and like reflake the rope and manage.
00:08:28I'm just trying to nurture you into a simul-climbing machine.
00:08:35Good work.
00:08:37Yeah, good work.
00:08:39Good work.
00:08:40That was good.
00:08:41There's no way I would have done any of that without you.
00:08:44Isn't that pretty rad?
00:08:45That was pretty rad.
00:08:46That was a life experience.
00:08:48Yeah.
00:08:49I don't think you can do that in a day.
00:08:51You do?
00:08:52Yeah.
00:08:53I don't think it'd be that bad for you, because you just have the base fitness that you need,
00:08:56you know?
00:08:56Yeah.
00:08:57It'd definitely be a dream.
00:08:59Yeah, it'd be sick.
00:09:00It's got to start somewhere.
00:09:01Yeah.
00:09:03I mean, you know.
00:09:05That's when I first thought of trying to free climb El Cap in less than 24 hours.
00:09:12Climbing it in a day is the epitome of hard rock climbing.
00:09:16And there's a desire to prove myself.
00:09:18Like, I do deserve to be here.
00:09:20I do deserve to be climbing with all of these people that I've looked up to and idolized
00:09:25for a long time.
00:09:27That's awesome.
00:09:28That's pretty good.
00:09:29I was staggered too.
00:09:31It's the sense of belonging that I want.
00:09:48I see some big wet streaks, but I also see dry rock, so it's kind of a mixed bag up
00:09:55there.
00:09:57It is not going to change a single thing.
00:10:03Most people free climb El Cap over five days or so.
00:10:06It's so much harder to free climb El Cap in a day.
00:10:11The difference between doing a multi-day ascent and doing a one-day ascent is huge.
00:10:16To climb that thing in a day, it's outrageous.
00:10:19It's an audacious undertaking.
00:10:23I'm left wondering whether she can pull it off.
00:10:28Most people who free climb El Cap in a day have done it via the free rider because it's the
00:10:33easiest route.
00:10:34I wanted to do a more challenging route, and that's why I chose Golden Gate.
00:10:41There are very few climbers who have free climbed any route on El Cap in a day other than the
00:10:46free rider.
00:10:47Golden Gate is quite a bit harder.
00:10:50Golden Gate has only been free climbed in a day by three people.
00:10:53Three of the best El Cap climbers in the world.
00:11:00These guys are heroes of mine, and I want to be a part of that group.
00:11:11Golden Gate has 34 pitches.
00:11:14My goal is to climb from the beginning of each pitch to the end without falling.
00:11:19That will be a free ascent.
00:11:21If I fall, I have to go back to the beginning of that pitch and try again.
00:11:26And I need to do this in under 24 hours.
00:11:36That's going to be really hard for her.
00:11:38I give her a 20% chance of sending, honestly.
00:11:42She just hasn't paid her dues like Honnold has.
00:11:52It's hard to put yourself out there and say you're going to try to do the hardest thing you've ever
00:11:57done.
00:11:58Just because I'm trying to protect myself from people finding out that I'm afraid or that I fail or that
00:12:04I'm just like everyone else.
00:12:08I mean, I don't want to say it's mansplaining, but primarily there's men that have accomplished this goal.
00:12:13And so it's like I get a lot of advice and it's a lot of like, oh, you need to
00:12:18be committed to this and you need to go here for this amount of time and you need to do
00:12:21it this way.
00:12:22And you should be doing this and you should be doing that.
00:12:24I've been climbing for 22 years.
00:12:27Like I know how to approach a goal.
00:12:31I don't need someone to tell me how to do it.
00:12:35But obviously that's a hard, that's a hard thing to convince yourself of as well.
00:12:40It's hard for me to convince myself that I know what I'm doing.
00:12:44Do you think I need more than one three?
00:12:45I wouldn't even take the three.
00:12:46Oh my God.
00:12:48Maybe I don't need this and two purples.
00:12:51I always had it in my mind ever since he asked me to support him that he would probably be
00:12:56willing to support me on Golden Gate.
00:12:59I'd like to think I may be the best supporter in the world for El Cap just because I know
00:13:04the roots really well.
00:13:05I've worked on them a long time.
00:13:06I don't think anyone has climbed any of those parts of the wall faster.
00:13:09Are you climbing the monster with just one six?
00:13:11Yeah.
00:13:12Awesome.
00:13:12And I wanted to help Emily achieve this big dream of hers.
00:13:16Alex is very comfortable, very confident, but I also trust him.
00:13:20Having someone up there who you can tell is right at home makes me feel that much more comfortable.
00:13:27I'll give you that.
00:13:28Go up and try your best and...
00:13:30That's all I'm doing.
00:13:30I'm just going to go try.
00:13:31Move by move, you just do your best and see how it plays out.
00:13:34I'm allowed to fall.
00:13:36Yeah, I mean, that's the beautiful thing you ever rope.
00:13:38It's like a good shit.
00:13:40I'm really happy that I have a rope.
00:13:45It's like aaja bunny.
00:13:46I'm already out.
00:13:47I'm ready for a moment.
00:13:54I have to chill out his resto.
00:13:58I'm forced to fall to sleep.
00:13:59I'm ready for a ride.
00:13:59I'm ready for a ride.
00:14:00I'm ready for a ride.
00:14:01I'm ready for a ride.
00:14:04I'm ready for a ride.
00:14:11I'm going to take a time, enjoy.
00:14:16Remember, climbing mountain is fun.
00:14:35The way that I climb the bottom 2,000 feet of the route with Alex is something called simul climbing.
00:14:40So I'm leading, placing gear, and Alex is following, climbing at the same time as me.
00:14:46So we're moving up the wall together, and it enables you to move a lot faster,
00:14:52but it cuts some corners because you're placing less safety equipment between yourself and your partner.
00:14:58So if either of us falls, we can get severely injured or we could die.
00:15:03But this is really the only way to climb it in a day.
00:15:08I was kind of proud of myself, honestly.
00:15:10Yeah, that was good.
00:15:11I just hand-over-handed the rope. I was like, fuck that.
00:15:34That was the easiest that the monster has ever felt, but it's still really hard.
00:15:40That was way faster than ever before.
00:15:43Oh, yeah?
00:15:43Yeah, like 45 minutes.
00:15:48You've found 2,000 feet already. You may as well climb one more picture.
00:15:51I'm going to try. I don't know if I can, though.
00:15:53Yeah, of course you can. Just get in there and engage.
00:15:59Alright, you need someone to, like, punch in the nuts.
00:16:02Overeys.
00:16:15You're doing great.
00:16:16Thank you. I really appreciate it. I'm really digging deep here.
00:16:18You know, this is a...
00:16:20This is my first effort.
00:16:21Yeah, do you think it's worth giving it one to-the-death effort?
00:16:25I mean, I've been trying to give it to the death.
00:16:27yeah what is that to the death it seems a little like worky if we decide to go down
00:16:33let's fully debrief like what are you going to do differently what are you going to do better
00:16:36where can you save energy yeah because i mean obviously there's a ton of room for improvement
00:16:40today a lot of room for improvement
00:16:47yeah that's crazy
00:16:53it just went from perfectly okay to perfectly not okay
00:16:58oh oh my god it hurts so bad
00:17:06hi give me a hug i needed a hug from you all day thank you these bridges are just all
00:17:12from one pitch
00:17:14i was secretly happy that we got rained off because everything just felt so hard
00:17:24i don't really foresee me trying again this spring i'm kind of worked over from the season
00:17:31i didn't feel ready and i haven't put in the work in order to be successful
00:17:54oh that was her first wetsuit look at how tiny that little thing is here you go here's a bunch
00:18:02of trophies climbing stuff first place
00:18:10junior nationals oh when she was 12 years old i don't remember what that one was
00:18:19what's that one from serious shovel oh yeah this is the world cup she won
00:18:28no there's the little mohawk look at that mohawk
00:18:35i would say i had like a very normal childhood my dad was really into any activity that was in
00:18:44the
00:18:44mountains ski
00:18:50turns growing up i had this idea that girls were inferior in some way
00:18:57i desperately wanted to prove that i wasn't like that
00:19:05i grew up with my two cousins who were boys and we were super competitive with each other
00:19:11all i wanted to do was be better than them
00:19:15i wanted to do well in everything and i tried really hard
00:19:23when i found climbing this switch went off it was like instantly that's what i wanted to do
00:19:34the feeling of lightness and strength and invincibility was pretty profound
00:19:46i liked the feeling of success
00:19:52and if i didn't measure up to that
00:19:57i was so upset and disappointed
00:20:05competitions being the best winning to me that was what climbing was
00:20:15i definitely started putting more pressure on myself
00:20:19my self-worth was so tied to my success in climbing
00:20:24and then my success in climbing was tied to my weight
00:20:29the less mass you have the easier it's going to be to stay on the wall
00:20:35it just became this cycle of punishment
00:20:38i remember being completely exhausted all the time
00:20:43she was so thin
00:20:46and i didn't know what to do
00:20:48and i remember her hands were orange because all she was eating was carrots
00:20:53and i wasn't sleeping well and i was dizzy sometimes
00:21:00and then climbing wasn't very fun
00:21:04i feel like i barely laughed
00:21:08i started realizing that this isn't how i want to live my life and is climbing
00:21:16going to be a positive force in my life or is it always going to be this negative thing
00:21:24i guess now is the best time and here is the best place to say this
00:21:28i have an eating disorder i can't admit it to anybody else but at least i can admit it to
00:21:34myself
00:21:35i feel out of control when i indulge in food
00:21:39and my all-or-nothing behavior makes me depressed and unhappy
00:21:42i don't ever give myself a break i want to be perfect all the time
00:21:48i must run fast climb strong and eat as little as possible
00:22:01eventually my body and my brain just couldn't really handle all the stress and the pressures
00:22:06i realized that competing wasn't something that i really wanted to do anymore
00:22:16the pivotal thing that happened was i joined the north face athlete team and got invited on an
00:22:25expedition to mount everest i had no idea what it would do for me in my life
00:22:34she was keen to try out mountain climbing so it's like oh first mountain climbing trip how about everest
00:22:42a little bit crazy but why not it's the tallest and most precipitous mountain range on our planet
00:22:50if you want to test your mettle that's where you go i remember just saying emily no
00:22:57i do not want you going to everest tim said to her you're not going and she said dad i'm
00:23:02not 16
00:23:04and that was the end of that
00:23:08emily at 25 barely coming out of the gym as a gym climber and then being on everest i mean
00:23:15that's a
00:23:16huge leap to me i was a little like dark in those days so um i might have
00:23:23just totally written her off as a first impression you know just kind of like whatever
00:23:36it wasn't until i got there and realized that conrad was like completely hands-off with emily and he
00:23:41was like well you step in you know i'm like i don't even know her i don't want to do
00:23:45this i'm not a
00:23:46mentor i was not very helpful i i definitely am not an incredibly sympathetic person
00:23:58i'm ready to go up tomorrow i'm a little nervous and scared uh to go through the ice fall
00:24:06that's knowledge happens like five times a day it's really unnerving
00:24:17i want to get through the ice fall and then i'll feel okay
00:24:28conrad saw something in her and he was right
00:24:35she just didn't give in
00:24:48i came to care immensely for emily over the time of that trip we talked about my relationship we
00:24:56talked about my climbing we talked about her kids and how much she missed her kids and just life and
00:25:02it gave me a peek into what my life could be like in the future
00:25:12hey i'm at the south coal getting ready to go up for the summit
00:25:24just stuck behind a line of people
00:25:28she passed me and she was by herself and i was like emily why are you by yourself where's the
00:25:32sherpa that you were climbing with she's like oh god i feel so bad i he was slow so i
00:25:38left him
00:25:38behind was that really bad should i go back and get him
00:25:48she crushed it she crushed it it was so out of her main sport that it just was all the
00:25:57more of a huge
00:25:57achievement as a climber you're the sum total of all your ascents and expeditions and each experience
00:26:06that you have builds into who you are as a climber and emily got that i was a lot stronger
00:26:13than i
00:26:14thought i would be climbing on evers has made me appreciate the style of climbing that i do
00:26:19i do want to continue to be in the mountains and to learn from them
00:26:43morning morning here's your coffee
00:26:50they stayed up late last night and get all these emails and like texts with china and nepal and
00:26:54tibet and i'm like scared to turn on their phone and see what everyone wrote
00:26:59come back to bed no
00:27:03i have an interview in 15 minutes
00:27:06okay i'll make breakfast hi this is adrian
00:27:12doing some final prep for a big trip i'm leaving on early next week
00:27:16you know the average everest expedition is two months long and i'm probably away you know seven
00:27:23to eight months a year still traveling and climbing around the world
00:27:28adrian is a high altitude climber and a mountain guide who spends a lot of time in the himalaya
00:27:35we met at camp two on mount evers
00:27:41i just remember this charismatic guy he was super nice and fun to talk to
00:27:48the sad fact of high altitude climbing is just not many women i certainly noticed emily as an anomaly
00:27:57but 21 000 feet is really miserable so you kind of like have a crushing headache at the same time
00:28:03you're trying to be like social and funny and interesting it's not like a great flirting opportunity
00:28:08it was this really powerful connection that we had i'd never felt like that with anyone before
00:28:14and we knew that we wanted to stay connected
00:28:20adrian is gone most of the year guiding in the himalaya
00:28:23and because i have this big project i'm working on we are going to spend the next four months apart
00:28:30i don't really look forward to this time of year as it is
00:28:34because adrian's gonna be gone for a really long time and i have a lot of like i put a
00:28:40lot of pressure
00:28:40on myself for my own projects no i've spent a lot of time with people who have lost their partner
00:28:49in the mountains and every time he leaves i have this part of me that is afraid he won't come
00:28:56back
00:29:02the secret stash okay i'm overwhelmed again i'm gonna go eat some toast i'm really overwhelmed right now
00:29:09goodbye here we go
00:29:12i don't know it kind of sucks
00:29:20cat stuff i have food coffee stuff music music bed
00:29:39and she's off
00:29:45it's always hard this one especially
00:29:58i'm going to moab because i want to prepare for the upcoming yosemite season and moab is a great
00:30:05place to do that
00:30:08last spring i just wasn't ready i hadn't put in the work
00:30:18look at these nails too these are the gel nail don't know magic supposed to last for like three months
00:30:28i did not grow up learning how to crack climb and for climbing in yosemite it's a required skill
00:30:46i wouldn't consider myself a super confident person when i'm standing on the ground
00:30:50it's more why i'm like climbing that my confidence shines through
00:31:03i think i did get better technique it's nice to feel a little more confidence
00:31:09it's i'm excited to go do something
00:31:13i think
00:31:39is
00:31:45I've been in Yosemite now for a few weeks training on Golden Gate.
00:31:49It's been long days hiking in and practicing the harder pitches.
00:31:54It's really the only way to know every pitch for that in a day attempt.
00:32:02There's five hard sections of the route for me.
00:32:07The first one that comes up is the monster.
00:32:10You have to kind of wedge your body into this crack.
00:32:14And this pitch is almost 200 feet long.
00:32:17The monster off foot is harder if your foot can't bridge the crack.
00:32:20My foot can span between one side of the crack and the other side, so I can easily wedge one
00:32:24foot and push upward.
00:32:26If you have a smaller foot, it's harder to make upward progress.
00:32:36The next pitch that's really hard for me is called the down climb.
00:32:41There's essentially no hold.
00:32:43You're kind of standing on a less than vertical, smooth surface, just pasting your feet on the
00:32:51wall and using the friction in order to stick.
00:32:55Your balance has to be pretty perfect in order to not get spit off.
00:33:01Oh, that was it.
00:33:05The next hard pitch is called the move.
00:33:08At the end of the pitch, there's a really hard boulder problem, so a series of really
00:33:13hard moves.
00:33:18For me, it's the most powerful section of the route.
00:33:21It has the hardest single moves.
00:33:26The next section is called the Golden Desert.
00:33:30It is a really long crack climb mixed with some funky traversing under a roof.
00:33:40And then the very next pitch after that is called the A5 Traverse.
00:33:45And that's kind of the pitch that guards you from success.
00:33:50Imagine traversing this steep, sloping rail and trying to stand on feet that are the width
00:33:56of dimes.
00:33:58The A5 Traverse is the spot where most people fail.
00:34:01By the time you've climbed almost 3,000 feet to get there, your arms are just incredibly
00:34:05tired and it's really hard to hang on them.
00:34:10I'm still a little nervous about the A5 Traverse.
00:34:13In the fall.
00:34:38It's so exciting.
00:34:41It's so exciting.
00:34:43Thankfully, Adrian came home from Everest.
00:34:45Everything was fine, but there was weeks there
00:34:48where I thought he might not.
00:34:51It's not really that safe, even if you make good decisions.
00:34:54Is it true?
00:34:56That I thought you might die?
00:34:57Yeah.
00:34:59I thought you might die.
00:35:00So you figured you'd start moving on right away?
00:35:03Yeah.
00:35:03I'm just going to be a bachelorette
00:35:06and be just in my little world, independent.
00:35:10It could happen.
00:35:11And it could be the other way around.
00:35:13Yeah.
00:35:13I think I think about it less, but I think about it sometimes
00:35:16as you start speed climbing more and more, cutting corners, rock fall.
00:35:22There's plenty of things that can kill you.
00:35:23It's a little bit of a stretch, but I'm not going to die.
00:35:26I'm not going to die rock climbing.
00:35:28But you've got to think about it and acknowledge it's a possibility.
00:35:30It's true.
00:35:31I just think that I've finally, like, come to a place where I'm OK.
00:35:37OK.
00:35:37Not OK, but more OK.
00:35:41More OK is good.
00:35:43Yeah.
00:35:50OK.
00:35:51OK.
00:35:52OK.
00:35:52Get married already.
00:35:53When are you getting married?
00:35:54Are you going to have babies?
00:35:55Babies.
00:35:56Get married already.
00:35:58Do you plan on having kids soon?
00:36:01OK.
00:36:04I do plan on having kids eventually, I think.
00:36:07I want one kid, so I'm not really in, like, a huge rush.
00:36:12I.
00:36:12I say we.
00:36:13We.
00:36:13We.
00:36:15I think I've come around.
00:36:16We kind of settled on one because Adrian wanted, like, three.
00:36:20Teen.
00:36:20He wanted three.
00:36:22But I just want one, so I'm not in a rush.
00:36:25And I have, like, we both have things we want to do first.
00:36:27I've got a couple about asking me about LCAP and what happened.
00:36:31And if I'm going back, basically, I, I failed.
00:36:34And I also had terrible weather, but that's, like, a second part of it that prevented me
00:36:40from succeeding.
00:36:41And yes, I'm going back in the fall.
00:37:00So we got two liters of water.
00:37:01OK.
00:37:02I have extra chalk.
00:37:04OK.
00:37:05Cool.
00:37:05I'm going to put the air on it.
00:37:06Wait, are you taking that much extra chalk?
00:37:08I'm very concerned about the heat.
00:37:09For a one-hook average?
00:37:10It weighs nothing.
00:37:12I guess.
00:37:12It just, it seems like a lot of chalk for, yeah, cool.
00:37:15But we don't have to bring it.
00:37:16No, no, you.
00:37:17No, but I actually really want to.
00:37:18If you think it'll make you feel better, it definitely makes me feel better.
00:37:20OK.
00:37:21Extra chalk.
00:37:21I'm bringing these.
00:37:22It's really hot.
00:37:23What are those?
00:37:25They're breakable ice packs.
00:37:27For my hands and feet.
00:37:28That seems totally absurd.
00:37:30So if we want to climb by three, what time should we meet in the meadow?
00:37:32Well, like 2.30.
00:37:342.30.
00:37:35That's like pretty early though.
00:37:37Pretty early.
00:37:58OK.
00:38:07Good early according to the к Artigue 1.
00:38:07That's aBoat.
00:38:07Nice job, a grown man.
00:38:09Nice.
00:38:12Let's go.
00:38:39Let's go.
00:38:45Come on babe, come on.
00:38:47Come on.
00:38:49Come on.
00:38:49Come on.
00:38:50Come on.
00:38:53Come on, Owen.
00:38:53Yeah, fuck yeah.
00:38:54Come on.
00:38:56Come on, Owen.
00:38:57Very good.
00:38:57Come on.
00:39:02Alright, I'll do it.
00:39:03Good job.
00:39:08if you do it today in this style just like you just did it be pretty sick
00:39:16think about how good that's gonna feel i can't yet i gotta finish the rest of it
00:39:28yeah we started 11 and a half hours ago so
00:39:32it's a good time actually this is when you rely on your your world cup fitness
00:39:50pretty sure you can just climb one more pitch pretty sure there's like five more pitches
00:40:11good good i'm falling no no you're okay come on come on no it's too much stay with it
00:40:19it just fucked everything up and like that's all right oh my god
00:40:25it's like really good yeah really good
00:40:41ellen ellen come on there you go
00:40:46oh i don't have it you guys i don't have it
00:40:51i'm just too tired i'm giving it everything i have i just
00:40:59just couldn't do it i couldn't keep climbing i'm like super bummed but it's like everything i could
00:41:06possibly do i failed on the last hard pitch pretty heartbroken
00:41:28i think you have to try things that you're afraid of that you might suck at
00:41:34that you're gonna most likely fail at in order to actually really
00:41:39get to know yourself and and know what you're capable of
00:41:49when i was trying to figure out how to make a team to go on this seven week totally unknown
00:41:58jungle bashing crazy alpine myanmar expedition i wanted emily to go
00:42:04like i wanted her to go more than anyone like i wouldn't go if emily didn't go
00:42:11this is like an anti-everest trip
00:42:18think of everest from the minute you get off the plane to the summit of everest every step of the
00:42:23way is
00:42:23mapped out pakakaburatsi was exactly the opposite wanting her on the team was met with a lot of
00:42:31resistance but i put my foot down and she was stoked to do it
00:42:45it was a month before we even got to be scanned we had to cut our gear by two-thirds
00:42:53and ran out of food a lot of the things that i did today i've never done before
00:43:22it's scary the heavy pack peel off that ones a little good job am thank you
00:43:31way more rad way more gnarly than everest
00:43:38my favorite day on that whole climb was emily and i were stuck on this ridge for 48 hours
00:43:48winds blowing 60 miles an hour non-stop
00:43:53and at one point emily looks at me and she's like what do you think you think we're going to
00:43:57be
00:43:57okay i looked at her and i was like i don't i don't know i hope so and she was
00:44:03like all right cool okay
00:44:10and five minutes later we're laughing and like doing what we can to like stay alive
00:44:18emily and i have talked a lot about how crazy it was and how strung out we were and how
00:44:24close to just like laying down on the trail and giving up we were and we just didn't
00:44:31she was everything i expected her to be on that trip she was gritty she was funny she helped me
00:44:38when i
00:44:38was low she tackled massive scary things
00:44:583 30 in the morning november 20 something
00:45:09dragged everyone into helping me climb el cap in a day
00:45:16massive snowstorm is approaching like tomorrow so day after the last day of the season basically
00:45:23dragging everyone up here to support me one more character building day on the mountain one more
00:45:29character building down the mountain it's like 4 a.m it's way colder than it was last time so that's
00:45:35good if you're a really pro you'd be racked onto the harness already and pack your
00:45:39pack your harness that way oh yeah i didn't do that
00:45:45ten more feet today okay yeah exactly exactly
00:45:48ten more feet today go em go here we go you're gonna crush it thanks sonny
00:46:07you're crushing it it's so such a still day up on the captain
00:46:30creaky old grandpa i'll sit down and tighten the shoes up
00:46:35it's so nice
00:46:36nice em
00:46:38oh my god
00:46:56Should I lower you to the ledge?
00:46:57Emily, you're okay.
00:47:02Lower?
00:47:03Em?
00:47:05Talk to us.
00:47:07Talk to us, Em.
00:47:08Are you okay? Are you right side up?
00:47:13She's not right side up.
00:47:15Fuck.
00:47:16Your number is 0461?
00:47:18Correct.
00:47:19I'm going to be on hold while I try to get a ranger, okay?
00:47:22Okay, thank you.
00:47:30You're stable now, huh?
00:47:31Hang in there, Em.
00:47:36You know, I can tell that it's terrible.
00:47:37It's all terrible.
00:47:38Like, you can tell it's a giant fall.
00:47:41The only thing I was thinking about was whether or not she'll walk again.
00:48:13It might have been fishing on it on the ledge.
00:48:21I've found this pitch so many times.
00:48:23I know it's slippery, but I've never fallen.
00:48:25I know my feet are cold, but I need to be confident.
00:48:30I wasn't scared.
00:48:32I wasn't scared.
00:48:32I just...
00:48:35Now it's scary, though.
00:48:37Think about it.
00:48:49Oh, I'm sorry, guys.
00:49:00Yeah.
00:49:01Still have some stuff to learn, I guess.
00:49:10Not even if I can make it happen.
00:49:11That'd be the one we got.
00:49:12It makes my best, because you're the one that's all, right?
00:49:17How is it?
00:49:18You're the one you're right.
00:49:32You're the one you're right.
00:49:33You're the one you're right.
00:49:33It's very solid.
00:49:33World-class climber Emily Harrington trying to make history, falling from Yosemite's El Capitan,
00:49:38rescued by one of the most famous climbers in the world.
00:49:41Falls are apparel of the sport, no matter your skill level.
00:49:45Thank goodness she was with people like Alex Hunnell.
00:49:48The climber at the center of that Oscar-winning documentary, Free Solo.
00:49:51I was blank, so I'm holding the rope.
00:49:52But then when she fell, so much rope fell into the system, like so much rope pooled at my feet,
00:49:57basically, that I wound up actually grabbing the rope with my hands in an effort to catch her sooner.
00:50:02I don't know if you guys had a chance to watch Free Solo.
00:50:05Oh, he was...
00:50:06I mean, it's amazing what they do, and boy, you're going to have some nerves of steel.
00:50:10Yes, you do.
00:50:11You sure do.
00:50:11Hope you have a full recovery.
00:50:15How are you feeling about it all?
00:50:18Shitty.
00:50:19Shitty?
00:50:19Shitty about it.
00:50:20Like sad?
00:50:21Yeah.
00:50:24Everyone is interested in El Cap, and everyone is interested in the fact that I was climbing with Alex Hunnell,
00:50:30so they'd want to write a story about the damsel in distress who was rescued by the Free Solo star.
00:50:37Oh, adrenaline junkies, like, risking their lives and falling off of sheer cliffs and gets rescued.
00:50:44Like, it's just stupid and not true and it's misunderstood.
00:50:48I had a bad fall climbing because rock climbing is inherently dangerous.
00:50:53And Alex did exactly what any good partner would do.
00:50:57Yeah, and that's the end of the story.
00:50:59That goes to me, I don't...
00:51:02We were choosing to take a certain level of risk that day.
00:51:07It was 100% not his fault what happened.
00:51:10It was 100% not his fault.
00:51:43I was afraid of not being good enough, and now the entire world thinks that as well.
00:51:56She is no Alex Honnold.
00:51:58Do this without the security of a rope, and then you can pretend to have accomplished something.
00:52:05Woman, go back to kitchen, please.
00:52:08Let man's doing this stuff.
00:52:10She's too fat.
00:52:27I'm bruised and have a rope burn on my neck and a pretty intense concussion.
00:52:33I'm slowly recovering, but mentally I'm struggling.
00:52:41I just spiral into the negativity of, oh, I'm never going to be able to get anywhere with
00:52:47this.
00:52:50Lots of doubt and lots of kind of like questioning of like, why am I doing this?
00:52:54Why am I even like trying so hard?
00:52:57And just feel like giving up.
00:53:00There's just this really big fear, and it's all circling around like the whole kid thing,
00:53:04and the clock is ticking idea, and I really do want to have fun and enjoy climbing.
00:53:12I do.
00:53:12I just don't know how right now.
00:53:15Yeah.
00:53:16It's hard to trust myself, I guess.
00:53:34It's Passover.
00:53:35Happy Passover, guys.
00:53:37Hogsamehack, John.
00:53:38Hogsamehack to you.
00:53:39And we can tell that it's Passover because we are in our houses, hiding from a plague, and
00:53:53we are one day short of a month since we've been home.
00:53:58April 12th, Easter Sunday, and it's Sunday, but it doesn't really matter that it's Sunday.
00:54:07Every day is pretty much very similar.
00:54:15Adrian and I have been physically together for longer than we have ever been.
00:54:21It's felt like this period of deep connection.
00:54:25What's your favorite color?
00:54:28This is like a rapid fire question.
00:54:31Oh, really?
00:54:33What's your favorite color?
00:54:35Gray.
00:54:36Gray?
00:54:38That's a terrible favorite color.
00:54:40It came to mind.
00:54:41My favorite color is green.
00:54:44Really?
00:54:45Yeah.
00:54:45I never knew that.
00:54:46Well, you learn something new every day, don't you?
00:54:48I don't think I've ever bought you anything green.
00:54:50Better start now.
00:54:55We've discussed starting a family in more serious ways, but I really have to finish this
00:55:01project before I can start thinking about taking that stuff.
00:55:06I don't want to take eight years to free climb LLKAP in a day.
00:55:09Then I'll be 40, and then, you know, it might be too late.
00:55:25If I let something like fear, something like an accident stop me from doing something, then
00:55:33I'll never go back.
00:55:34I'll never try something hard again.
00:55:36This is no longer just a way to prove myself.
00:55:40It's a way for me to gain back trust and confidence in myself.
00:55:48I need to go back.
00:55:58I've been really gentle with myself, just accepting that I'm probably going to be a little more
00:56:04conservative this year.
00:56:05I think I need to talk to Alex about adjusting my method and just be like, dude, I don't want
00:56:09to like go so fast.
00:56:12I want to be able to stop and take a breather, and I want to be able to place more
00:56:15gear and
00:56:16feel way more safe.
00:56:34And so it begins, Emily's Yosemite season.
00:57:00I'm back in Yosemite for the first time since the accident, and Adrian's been
00:57:09helping me train on the hard pitches and build back that trust.
00:57:14Down to the move pitch.
00:57:18Da-da-da!
00:57:24Yes.
00:57:25There was no like massive screaming whippers out of the move today.
00:57:30You just hit it every time.
00:57:32You're stronger.
00:57:33Big support today.
00:57:40Physically, I feel better than I have probably ever in my life.
00:57:45I'm trying to figure out the best tactics for climbing the monster.
00:57:50And so I'm going to try putting on my climbing shoe, and then I'm going to try putting on a
00:57:55size 42 TC Pro over top of it to make my foot bigger.
00:58:08I'm so excited about this.
00:58:15And so what time are we thinking about starting?
00:58:17Let's say starting the monster at 6 a.m., which means starting climbing at 1 a.m.
00:58:23That's what I was hoping to do tonight, you know?
00:58:25I know.
00:58:25Get some.
00:58:26You signed up for it.
00:58:27Yeah, no, no.
00:58:28I'm into it.
00:58:29We got knee pads and duct tape and elbow pads.
00:58:31At this point, you're going to get to the top more fresh than when you left the ground.
00:58:35I think it'd be tough to make this more comfortable.
00:58:37Yeah, that's the whole point.
00:58:39I think it's, yeah, exactly.
00:58:40We're ready for the long haul right now.
00:58:43I'm planning to have two partners.
00:58:45It is really valuable to have Alex as a partner because he is so fast.
00:58:50But up higher when the climbing gets slower, I really like having Adrian there.
00:58:55He's really good emotional support for me.
00:59:05Go get her.
00:59:07Go get her.
00:59:08Move slowly and then, like, see how I feel when I get to that.
00:59:11Yeah, cool.
00:59:12It's the same time tomorrow as today, basically.
00:59:14I do feel ready.
00:59:15I don't think I'm going to be any more ready than I am right now.
00:59:19If I achieve this, I'll never not be a climber, but I can, like, move on from being, like, solely
00:59:26focused on climbing.
00:59:27Like, I can move forward with my life.
00:59:29I can have a family.
00:59:30Like, I can do all these things I've wanted to do that might not require so much, like, pinpointed focus.
00:59:38It's that meaningful.
00:59:57Nice.
00:59:59It's that next.
01:00:07Hi, Sam.
01:00:09We are getting back to you.
01:00:17At some point in here, I'm going to have to tie my shoes and put them on, but I'm sort
01:00:20of like, oh, I've got flashbacks of the last year.
01:00:23PTSD.
01:00:23Exactly.
01:00:25Oh my God, jeez.
01:00:41I'm going to run around to the top and hopefully get to meet them like two-thirds of the way
01:00:45up.
01:00:48All right, Sam.
01:00:49Really smooth.
01:00:53Hey, Sam.
01:00:54She's done the free blast.
01:00:57Yes.
01:00:58Great job, Deidre.
01:01:00How do you feel?
01:01:01Okay.
01:01:12I heard a call from the film team.
01:01:15Deidre might be starting the monster, but you should be right on track.
01:01:27It's so funny that you're wearing two pairs of shoes.
01:01:32Yeah.
01:01:41Have a good day.
01:01:42We can turn this.
01:01:42No please.
01:01:42We can't do anything, please.
01:01:43We can't do anything.
01:01:43To be honest.
01:01:50Let's do nothing, please.
01:01:53You know, I'll see it next week.
01:02:05oh so glad to have that bitch over with I'm taking off all of my shoes all four
01:02:10pairs of them that I was wearing I was wearing Alex's shoes over my shoes so I
01:02:18could climb the monster easier and faster and it works
01:02:25let's say it's not often that I encounter a completely new rock climbing technique on a
01:02:29big wall this is one of those times you've styled the hard stuff next M is going to lead us
01:02:36to the
01:02:36summit of the mighty El Capitan that's what's happening next
01:02:51good um really nice nice and relaxed
01:03:09trust the feet
01:03:12perfect that's the one
01:03:15perfect
01:03:16really good
01:03:31I'm not coming down off the mountain until I set this route I'm never climbing that bitchy end
01:03:42nice and really smooth
01:03:50I gotta say you look really fit right now like your arms are like muscular
01:03:58thanks Alex
01:04:00like have you been like working out more
01:04:04yeah I've been putting some effort in
01:04:08like have you really because you look like freaking kind of jack
01:04:11yeah yeah dude I have
01:04:15nice
01:04:18really good come on
01:04:20so strong
01:04:21come on
01:04:37that's it come on
01:04:38really good
01:04:53I had to dig really deep for that one
01:04:57I set the move pitch on my first try
01:05:00everything's going well
01:05:03waiting for the other shoe to drop
01:05:26so exciting
01:05:28up here so fresh
01:05:30get dirt all over your face but otherwise looking good
01:05:33thanks Alex
01:05:35yeah
01:05:35I feel good
01:05:36he was infinitely better than last time
01:06:05he's getting there
01:06:14no
01:06:15mmm
01:06:16No!
01:06:17Oh!
01:06:19Oh!
01:06:19Oh!
01:06:22Oh no!
01:06:24It's bleeding!
01:06:25Yeah, I see.
01:06:26Just a little.
01:06:28Want me to bring you down?
01:06:29Yeah.
01:06:30Okay.
01:06:31A little.
01:06:32You're okay.
01:06:38Okay.
01:06:43See how bad it is.
01:06:51Like, I just don't know anymore about this whole hole.
01:06:55It just feels so too hard for me.
01:07:01Stupid shit just keeps happening.
01:07:03No.
01:07:04You're getting better and better every time.
01:07:06I know.
01:07:07I know.
01:07:14I just don't feel good enough right now.
01:07:18I wanted it so badly.
01:07:21Maybe I just wanted it too much.
01:07:30This worked really hard.
01:07:32I know.
01:07:33You're not done, Em.
01:07:36You're not done.
01:07:40You're so stupid.
01:07:41Why did that have to happen?
01:07:43I didn't do anything wrong.
01:07:45I wasn't running it out.
01:07:46I wasn't doing anything wrong.
01:07:49I'm just scared now.
01:07:51You just bumped your head.
01:07:53You're fine.
01:07:55You didn't break anything.
01:07:57I know.
01:08:00You know.
01:08:01I hope that I'll do it.
01:08:02You're gonna do it today.
01:08:10It's not hopeless.
01:08:12Promise.
01:08:13Okay.
01:08:14I try.
01:08:15I keep trying.
01:08:16I don't have too much confidence anymore.
01:08:20I think you've got more try on you, you know I'd tell you if I didn't.
01:08:25I don't.
01:08:26I think you can do it.
01:08:28You can try.
01:08:48Okay.
01:09:24Super good.
01:09:26Do some real good.
01:09:28Come on.
01:09:29Yeah.
01:09:30Come on.
01:09:31Come on.
01:09:32Don't ask for it.
01:09:55Come on.
01:09:58Come on.
01:10:18Come on.
01:10:26Woo!
01:10:36Thanks.
01:10:38No matter what happens, I'm proud of myself.
01:10:42I'm really proud of myself.
01:10:44Look at the sunset.
01:10:50Oh.
01:10:54Gotta keep climbing.
01:10:57Trying to rest before the last hard pitch.
01:11:00The A5.
01:11:01Yeah.
01:11:02The sight of...
01:11:05Last time's failure.
01:11:06Last year's failure.
01:11:07Mm-hmm.
01:11:08Yeah.
01:11:09Pretty nervous for it.
01:11:12And we're out of water.
01:11:14Yeah, we are out of water.
01:11:15That sucks.
01:11:15Poor mountain guy planning.
01:11:22You look great.
01:11:23So proud of you.
01:11:24Have fun on this.
01:11:26This is the pitch you earn.
01:11:35Come on.
01:11:41Come on.
01:11:44Come on.
01:11:47Nice.
01:12:02Come on.
01:12:04Come on.
01:12:10There we are.
01:12:12Come on.
01:12:17Come on.
01:12:18Come on.
01:12:20Come on.
01:12:22Come on.
01:12:25Come on.
01:12:27You know what to do.
01:12:46Come on.
01:12:52Come on.
01:12:55Come on.
01:12:59Come on.
01:13:04No!
01:13:05Come on.
01:13:10Holy shit.
01:13:11Evelyn.
01:13:19Oh my god.
01:13:23Holy shit.
01:13:25Evelyn.
01:13:26Oh my god.
01:13:26Holy shit.
01:13:26Holy shit.
01:13:27Evelyn.
01:13:34I can't believe I did that.
01:13:36Okay.
01:13:36I got to keep it together.
01:13:38We got five more pitches.
01:13:41Oh my god.
01:13:47I've always dreamed of being able to do this.
01:13:49And now it's happening and it's just crazy how it's happening.
01:13:54It was so close so many times to falling just now.
01:13:57So close.
01:13:59But I just didn't fucking let go.
01:14:01No.
01:14:38Oh my god.
01:14:41Fuck you!
01:15:02I'm really, really happy and exhausted.
01:15:05My head kind of hurts.
01:15:07And I'm thirsty.
01:15:09And everything is perfect.
01:15:16I love you so much.
01:15:22You did it.
01:15:27I'm so proud of you.
01:15:28You worked so hard.
01:15:34And you believed.
01:15:35Yeah.
01:15:3821-12.
01:15:3921-13.
01:16:05You heard that.
01:16:08Mm-hmm.
01:16:20I love you.
01:16:23I love you.
01:16:30Can I go say hi to everyone?
01:16:31Nice work.
01:16:32Thanks.
01:16:33Well done.
01:16:34You look worse.
01:16:37Actually, you look pretty good.
01:16:38He's went downhill a little bit after he left.
01:16:41You have to make an effort, Dave.
01:16:43Why'd you leave us?
01:16:46That is so cool.
01:16:50Dude.
01:16:51Come down.
01:16:52There you go.
01:16:53Oh my gosh.
01:16:54That is so nice.
01:17:43I can still hear her voice in my head, and I think about whenever something's hard, I'm
01:17:54like, if something comes up that feels tricky or feels complicated, especially as, like,
01:18:01a woman and a mother, I try to think about how Hillary would handle it.
01:18:19Climbing is dangerous and it entails a level of risk, but climbing has given me so much
01:18:25and I'm just not willing to give it up.
01:18:33I'm excited for what's next.
01:18:37Bye-bye.
01:18:38Bye.
01:18:41Bye.
01:18:42Bye.
01:18:42Bye.
01:18:43Bye.
01:18:43Bye.
01:18:44Bye.
01:18:45Bye.
01:18:48Bye.
01:19:05Bye.
01:19:09Bye.
01:19:25My place, my place on the wall
01:19:32I follow the path into the sky
01:19:48To kiss the heavens before I die
01:19:58Amidst the clouds the world seems small
01:20:03His tired heart still wants it all
01:20:10I'll find my place, my place on the wall
01:20:18I'll find my place, my place on the wall
01:20:27I'll get through the fall, I'll give it my all
01:20:42Oh
01:21:02My place
01:21:03My place
01:21:07On the wall
01:21:42On the wall
01:21:43On the wall
01:21:47On the wall
01:21:48On the wall
01:21:49On the wall
01:21:49On the wall
01:21:49On the wall
01:21:50On the wall
01:21:50On the wall
01:21:51On the wall
01:21:51On the wall
01:21:51On the wall
01:21:51On the wall
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