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00:00To let my husband focus on his career, I stayed at Ancestral Home to care for my ailing mother-in
00:04-law.
00:04Ten years went by like that.
00:06Charles came home once a year, but he never touched me.
00:08He said if I got pregnant with him away, I'd have no one to care for me, and that would
00:11break his heart.
00:12Every time he left, he'd curse himself for being useless, and swear that once he made it, he'd take me
00:16to the capital.
00:16In the winter of our eleventh year, snow blocked the roads.
00:18Charles wrote he'd be a few days late.
00:20I went to tell mother the news, but overheard her talking with my sister-in-law.
00:23Mother, you've faked being sick for ten years. How much longer will you keep this up?
00:27Mother sighed.
00:27What else can I do? Charles only has eyes for that adopted sister.
00:31They're married behind our backs. Now their kids aren't young.
00:34If I don't keep Diana here, and she makes a scene, how could Charles keep his position as minister?
00:39Forget it. We'll just keep hiding it.
00:41Charles said, once he's more established, he'll make it up to Diana.
00:45My eyes welled up. So, Charles wasn't useless. He'd made it.
00:49He was the minister of revenue, and he didn't avoid me out of love, but because he had someone else.
00:53My heart died. I tracked down that soldier who'd always liked me.
00:56Do you still want to marry me? His face lit up. He raised a trembling hand and swore.
01:01Diana, I promise I'll be good to you. But give me a month. I ship out tonight.
01:04I'll earn real merit this time, and marry you in style.
01:07I lowered his hand and said, I don't need style. Just stability. Keep yourself safe.
01:11Just come back to me.
01:12After watching him leave, I went home.
01:13The house, usually dark, was lit up. I thought Mother was waiting for me. Opening the gate, I chied her.
01:18Mother, it's so late. You should rest. Before I finished, the door slid open. A tall figure stood silhouetted by
01:23candlelight.
01:24A familiar voice, laced with snow, reached me.
01:26Diana, I'm home.
01:28A year away, and Charles seemed more commanding. Probably from being a high official, his tone carried authority.
01:32He opened his arms, waiting for me to run into them and tell him how much I'd missed him.
01:36But I didn't. I set down my basket and said calmly,
01:39You haven't eaten, have you? Let me make you something.
01:41Charles frowned slightly, awkwardly lowering his arms, forcing a light tone.
01:45What's wrong? You don't miss me after a year? Or are you angry at me?
01:48Before I knew the truth, I really did miss him. And I was a little upset too.
01:52No one wants to be apart from her husband so long, and so far away.
01:55But after learning everything, I stopped hoping.
01:57I made peace with it.
01:58Instead of fighting, better to part on good terms and leave quietly.
02:01I didn't answer. Instead, I changed the subject.
02:04Go talk with mother. I'll call you when dinner's ready.
02:06I said nothing more and went to the kitchen.
02:08But Charles followed. He pulled me into his arms and asked cautiously,
02:12Diana, what's wrong? Did you hear some rumor?
02:15I pushed him away calmly and smiled.
02:17This poor village rarely sees outsiders.
02:19What could I hear? Don't overthink it.
02:22Charles sighed with relief.
02:23He thought I was just moody and pulled me back in.
02:26Diana, I came back to take you all to the Capitol.
02:29But there's something I need to tell you first.
02:31My heart clenched. I knew what he'd say.
02:34After all these years, he was finally coming clean.
02:36Charles led me inside.
02:37I was surprised. Mother wasn't alone.
02:39There was a richly dressed woman and two children who looked just like Charles.
02:42Mother looked down guiltily, unable to meet my eyes.
02:45But the woman walked up boldly and extended her hand.
02:47You're Diana Jensen, right?
02:48I'm Esther Carter, Charles' adopted sister and his wife.
02:51When I didn't respond, she pushed the children forward.
02:54These are our son and daughter.
02:55Come on, call her Diana.
02:56Seeing my cold expression, Charles quickly stopped her.
02:59He took my hand guiltily.
03:00Diana, let me explain.
03:02He took my hand guiltily.
03:03Diana, let me explain.
03:04That year, bandits attacked me on my way to the Capitol exams.
03:07If Esther hadn't saved me, I would have died.
03:09I only meant to make her my sworn sister.
03:11Then I learned she was an orphan with nowhere to go.
03:14I wanted to give her a home.
03:15It was my way of repaying her.
03:17If it hurts, you can hit me, curse me.
03:19Just, when we get to the Capitol, I hope you two can get along.
03:21He grabbed my hand to make me him.
03:24I pulled it back and smiled calmly.
03:26Going to the Capitol is a good thing.
03:27It doesn't hurt.
03:28Mother's been unwell for years.
03:29Maybe the Capitol's doctors can cure her.
03:31Charles was overjoyed, barely able to contain himself.
03:33Really?
03:34You're not mad at me?
03:35My composure let Charles breathe easy.
03:37He urged me.
03:38Diana, pack your things.
03:39We'll leave the day after tomorrow.
03:41We can still make it back for New Year's Eve.
03:42I nodded and said,
03:44Mother doesn't have much.
03:45It won't take long.
03:46I'll pack the medicine she'll need on the road.
03:47You can all leave the day after tomorrow.
03:49Charles stiffened.
03:50He understood immediately.
03:51He frowned.
03:52Diana, what do you mean?
03:53You're not coming with us?
03:55I met his eyes, my voice calm.
03:57My lord, we probably won't come back after this.
03:59I need to sell the fields and the house.
04:00If they sit empty, we'd still owe taxes.
04:02It'd be a waste.
04:03If they sit empty, we'd still owe taxes.
04:05It'd be a waste.
04:06Take everyone back for the holiday.
04:07Once I've settled things here, I'll join you after the thaw.
04:10Charles relaxed a little.
04:11He knew what this house and land meant to me.
04:13When I first married in, the Shaw's had nothing.
04:15We rented a drafty shack.
04:17I worked myself to the bone, put him through school and exams, and saved for this house
04:21and two fields.
04:22That's how we stopped worrying about food.
04:24And Charles got a place to study in peace.
04:26Maybe remembering those days, his eyes softened with guilt.
04:29Diana, I'm the Minister of Revenue now.
04:31Money's not an issue.
04:32Just give the land away to some poor folks.
04:34Save yourself the trouble.
04:35I smiled and shook my head.
04:37They're my sweat and blood.
04:38I can't just give them away.
04:39Don't worry, my lord.
04:40I'll come find you once it's done.
04:41I won't delay.
04:41For a moment, Charles hesitated.
04:43Esther caught it and tugged his sleeve, annoyed.
04:46She warned him.
04:47My lord, don't go soft.
04:48The censorate has eyes on you.
04:50If you leave her here and they come asking and she slips up, how long do you think you'll
04:53keep your post?
04:53I'm not stupid.
04:54I understood Esther immediately.
04:55So, Charles wasn't having a change of heart.
04:58Someone had found out about his first wife.
05:00If they confirmed it, the censorate would have a field day.
05:03The emperor is a devoted man.
05:04He despises men who abandon their wives.
05:06The emperor is a devoted man.
05:08He despises men who abandon their wives.
05:10If Charles wants to keep his post, he needs to keep me happy and make sure I keep my mouth
05:14shut.
05:14Thinking about it, I'd be lying if I said it didn't sting.
05:16I married Charles 13 years ago.
05:17I gave him everything I had.
05:19Charles was a scholar.
05:20Couldn't do real work.
05:21His mother was old.
05:22No help either.
05:23His brother was a lazy good-for-nothing.
05:25I was the one keeping the family afloat.
05:27But I never complained.
05:28I cared for mother and even saved up to find his brother, a wife, so they could live decently.
05:31I thought doing all that would earn me his loyalty forever.
05:34But I overestimated my worth.
05:36I finally understood why they say scholars are the most heartless.
05:38I fought back the sting in my eyes, refusing to let the tears fall.
05:41Then, steadying myself, I said,
05:43So that's what worries you, my lord.
05:44I can write you a pledge.
05:45No matter who asks, I'll swear I'm a Shaw family orphan.
05:48Your adopted sister.
05:48Will that do?
05:49All of them stared, stunned.
05:51After a long moment, Charles asked, half-doubtful,
05:53Diana, you'd really humble yourself for me?
05:56I smiled and nodded.
05:57For you, I'd do anything.
05:59But just to be safe, there's one thing you must destroy now.
06:02Charles tensed.
06:03What?
06:04I answered calmly.
06:05The marriage contract.
06:06Ours.
06:06I answered calmly.
06:07The marriage contract.
06:08Ours.
06:09We married in a poor village.
06:10No formalities.
06:11A written contract.
06:12A cup of wine.
06:13And it was done.
06:14We never registered it with the authorities.
06:15So, if we destroy the contract, I'm no longer Charles' wife.
06:18Then, I just wait for that soldier to return.
06:20And I can marry him.
06:21I thought Charles would be relieved.
06:22But for some reason, he hesitated.
06:24Diana, you once said this contract was your greatest treasure.
06:27After all these years, after everything you've done for me, if I destroy the one thing you
06:31treasure, how could you bear it?
06:33Maybe.
06:33We should keep it.
06:35So, he did see everything I gave.
06:37Remembered.
06:38But even so, he still left me here for 10 years.
06:41And built a family with someone else.
06:43If he could treat my devotion like dirt, why should I cling to a piece of paper?
06:46But I knew, with his cautious nature, he wouldn't just let me marry another man.
06:50But I knew, with his suspicious nature, he wouldn't just let me marry another man.
06:53So, I made up a reason.
06:55My lord, you know this contract is my life.
06:57But for your future, I have to let it go.
07:00Once you're in the capital, you can marry me again and give me a new one.
07:03That'll settle it.
07:03Mother nodded in agreement.
07:04Diana's right.
07:05With your position, you can't leave loose ends.
07:08Burn it.
07:09She's putting you first.
07:10You can make it up to her later.
07:12Charles still had doubts.
07:13But he knew I had a point.
07:15He pulled out the contract.
07:16Before lighting it, he said,
07:17Diana, hiding this from you was wrong.
07:19But trust me, I'll be good to you.
07:22Wait for me.
07:23I'll prepare the finest bride price and marry you again properly.
07:25The way he looked, you'd almost think he meant it.
07:28But I didn't believe him.
07:29I told myself it was just an illusion.
07:30I lit both copies myself.
07:32The flames turned that farce of a marriage to ash.
07:34And with it, my decade-long obsession.
07:36I lit both copies myself.
07:38The flames turned that farce of a marriage to ash.
07:40And with it, my decade-long obsession.
07:41For the first time, I felt a flicker of hope, wondering at the freedom that could be mine.
07:45After Charles took Esther to rest, Mother stopped me.
07:47She dropped the act and knelt right in front of me.
07:50Diana, I was wrong.
07:51I hid it from you all these years.
07:53You must hate me, don't you?
07:54Her hair was completely white.
07:56Seeing her face wet with tears, I couldn't be cruel.
07:58I helped her up and said calmly,
08:00Mother, you did it because you love your son.
08:02I don't blame you.
08:03Sure, your sickness was faked.
08:04But you've always had your aches and pains.
08:06When you get to the Capitol, listen to the doctors.
08:08Take care of yourself.
08:09Hearing that, she broke down completely.
08:11Diana, how can you be so kind?
08:13Without you, who'll ever treat me this well?
08:15Don't you worry.
08:16No matter how Charles treats you, I'll always see you as my own daughter.
08:20I won't let anyone hurt you.
08:22I'll always see you as my own daughter.
08:24No one will hurt you.
08:25I understood Mother's helplessness, so I never blamed her.
08:28But I wouldn't trust her again either.
08:30She's a mother.
08:31Words are sweet, but blood wins.
08:33If the day ever came when she had to choose between Charles and me,
08:36I knew she'd pick him without a second thought.
08:38I said calmly,
08:39Mother, it's fine.
08:40Whoever Charles marries becomes your daughter-in-law.
08:43You owe me nothing.
08:44As I left her room, Esther blocked my path in the yard.
08:47Diana, don't take Charles' words to heart.
08:49I never saved him.
08:51I thought being deceived by my beloved husband and his mother was the worst blow.
08:55But no, there was more they'd hidden from me.
08:57Esther wasn't his savior at all.
08:59The truth was, Charles fell for her at first sight,
09:02used the sworn sister story to get close,
09:03broke off her original engagement, and married her.
09:05Calling her his savior was just his way to soften me.
09:08He knows I'm kind, that I always repay a debt.
09:11So he and mother cooked up this story to force my hand,
09:13to make me accept it.
09:15Seeing me stunned, Esther thought her words had hit home.
09:17She smirked.
09:17So when he talks about marrying you in style, it's all lies.
09:20You'll be nothing but a concubine.
09:22Oh, and mother?
09:23Saying she'll treat you like a daughter?
09:24You believe that?
09:25When it's her own son, her own grandchildren?
09:27Do you think you stand a chance?
09:28I blinked back the wetness in my eyes and forced myself to ask,
09:30Why tell me this?
09:31You want me to leave quietly, don't you?
09:33Esther shook her head.
09:34Charles is loyal.
09:35You've done so much for this family.
09:36If I drove you away, he'd blame me, and regret it forever.
09:39I couldn't do that to him.
09:40I'm just making your place clear.
09:42In the capital, know your role as a concubine.
09:44Don't hope for more status, and definitely don't hope for children.
09:46Charles promised me I'd be the only one to bear his children.
09:49That's why he never touched you.
09:50If you try anything, don't expect mercy.
09:53But if you behave, I'll make sure you're fed and clothed.
09:56I had no energy for her games.
09:57I nodded just to end it.
09:58The day they left, I saw them to the village edge.
10:01I took my only hairpin, the jade one, and placed it in Esther's palm.
10:04Mother immediately objected.
10:05She took the pin and gave it back.
10:07Diana, I gave you this.
10:08You keep it.
10:10And gave it back.
10:10Diana, I gave you this.
10:12You keep it.
10:13I shook my head and fixed it back on Esther.
10:15This pin is Mother's heirloom.
10:17Everyone knows it's for the Shaw daughter-in-law.
10:19If I keep it, and someone investigates, it'll just raise questions.
10:22Safer with Esther.
10:24Esther blocked Mother, and said softly,
10:26Mother, Diana's right.
10:27When we're together again, I'll give it back to her.
10:29Mother wasn't happy.
10:30But since we both agreed, she just sighed and whispered to me,
10:33Diana, don't worry.
10:34What I gave you is yours.
10:36You're my only true daughter-in-law.
10:39Once you're in the capital, I'll get it back for you.
10:41I nodded, then pointed at the pouch on Charles's belt.
10:44Charles, it is all I have left from my grandma.
10:47She made it right before she passed.
10:49Can I have it back?
10:49Charles frowned slightly, and said quietly,
10:52Diana, this new way of addressing me feels strange.
10:54When we're alone, just call me my lord.
10:56When we're alone, just call me my lord.
10:59I shook my head.
11:00Better be cautious.
11:01Can't leave any loose ends.
11:02Charles couldn't convince me.
11:03He sighed.
11:04Fine.
11:04After I marry you again, we'll change it back.
11:06But keep the pouch with me.
11:08It was your gift.
11:09A token of our love.
11:10I didn't understand.
11:11He used to hate this pouch, said men wearing pouches was embarrassing.
11:15Now that I wanted to grant his old wish, why was he refusing?
11:18Charles, it's almost New Year's Eve.
11:19I'll be lonely here alone.
11:21Keeping the pouch gives me something to hold on to.
11:23If you want it back, I'll give it to you when I get to the capital.
11:25Charles reluctantly handed it to me, along with a stack of banknotes.
11:29Just as they were leaving, he turned back.
11:31Hidden by his wide sleeve, he squeezed my hand tight.
11:33He said,
11:34Wait for me.
11:35I'll come for you myself after the thaw.
11:37There's one last thing I need to tell you then.
11:39I didn't ask.
11:40I just nodded.
11:41Okay.
11:41After watching them leave, I went back inside and grabbed my bag from the top cabinet.
11:45And grabbed my bag from the top cabinet.
11:47I left Charles' money on the table and headed north without looking back.
11:51That's where the man I'll marry is waiting.
11:52I have to marry him before Charles comes for me.
11:54Once that's done, I'll be free of him.
11:56Free of this humiliation.
11:58Winter roads were hard, and I had little money.
12:00I couldn't afford a cart, so I stopped when I had to.
12:02When funds ran low, I worked in towns.
12:04Earned enough, then moved on.
12:05Spring was near, and I was getting closer to the border.
12:07One day, while wiping tables at an inn, the owner rushed in, excited.
12:11Diana, the border forces won.
12:12After they process the prisoners, they return any day now.
12:15You'll see your fiancé soon.
12:16He paid me what I'd earned.
12:18And added a bonus.
12:20Your fiancé is a hero of Dinah.
12:21Call this my wedding gift.
12:23Hire a cart and go to him.
12:25I thanked him, hired a cart, and reached the border.
12:28The army wasn't back yet.
12:29I slipped my last coins to the guard.
12:31Sir, my fiancé is Lance Watson.
12:33When he arrives, please tell him I've rented a place east of the city, waiting.
12:36Sir, my fiancé is Lance Watson.
12:38Waiting.
12:38The guard heard this, handed the coins back, smiling apologetically.
12:42So you're Lance's fiancé?
12:43No need for this.
12:44Just put in a good word for me sometime.
12:46I was confused.
12:47Lance was just a nobody soldier.
12:49What good would my words do?
12:50Probably mistook me for someone else.
12:51But saving money wasn't bad.
12:53The waiting made me nervous.
12:55Lance and I were from the same village.
12:56And yes, he'd admired me for years, but I'd been married.
12:59I didn't know if his proposal was real or just impulse.
13:02Then I thought it through.
13:04If he'd changed his mind, I'd manage on my own.
13:06I have my hands.
13:07I won't starve.
13:08That settled, I felt better.
13:10I started sewing my wedding gown.
13:12If he wants me, good.
13:13If not, at least it's for me.
13:14When I married Charles, I never wore one.
13:17Back then, the shawls had nothing.
13:19Empty walls, no gown, and the wedding line was borrowed from a neighbor.
13:22No gown, and the wedding line was borrowed from a neighbor.
13:26Later, when I had money, I repaid her with two big jars.
13:29She grabbed my hand, choked up, and said,
13:31Diana, you're such a good girl.
13:33Why stay with the shawls?
13:35All that hardship, look at you.
13:37Pretty hardworking.
13:38You could marry a rich man and not be settling.
13:41Why cling to that bookworm, Charles?
13:43Wasting your youth.
13:45Back then, I loved Charles.
13:46I believed in our future.
13:47I thought she was out of line.
13:49I even argued with her.
13:51Ma'am, you're unfair to him.
13:53I believe in him.
13:54When he makes it, he won't let me down.
13:55She couldn't convince me.
13:56Just kept calling me foolish.
13:58Now I see.
13:58She was the one who saw clearly.
14:00The day I slipped away, I almost ran straight into Charles' sister-in-law.
14:03The day I slipped away, I nearly ran straight into Charles' sister-in-law, but my neighbor
14:08distracted her, then sent her husband to pass the word.
14:10Go now, she told me.
14:12Diana, the shawls aren't good enough for you.
14:14Go.
14:15Live free.
14:16Don't let them trap you anymore.
14:18I'll handle your sister-in-law.
14:20I'll make sure they don't find out you're gone.
14:23I don't know how she held her off, but it worked.
14:26For a month, no one came looking for me, but you just had to say it.
14:30The third day, a carriage stopped outside my door.
14:32I thought Lance was back.
14:34I ran out, excited, and came face to face with someone familiar.
14:37Charles, hair disheveled, face worn.
14:38His voice was hoarse.
14:39Diana, you were so hard to find.
14:41He dismounted, strode over in a few steps, and grabbed my wrist, squeezing so hard my
14:45bones might crack.
14:46And grabbed my wrist, squeezing so hard my bones might crack.
14:50Diana, you promised me.
14:51Why did you run away?
14:53All the way to this border town.
14:55I spent half a month preparing, went to Greenhaven myself to get you, and found the house empty.
14:59Do you know how worried I was?
15:01I couldn't break free, so I stopped trying, and said coldly,
15:04Why trouble yourself for me, Lord Shaw?
15:06Our contract is destroyed.
15:07I'm no longer a Shaw.
15:08Where I go, whether I live or die, is none of your business.
15:11My cold words stung him.
15:12He got angrier.
15:13Diana, I know you're upset, but this is reckless.
15:17You agreed to come to the capital.
15:19How could you break your word?
15:20It struck me as almost funny.
15:21I dropped the act.
15:23On our wedding day, didn't you promise me to be true to me forever?
15:26To never take another wife?
15:27Didn't you break your word?
15:28So, call it even.
15:30Didn't you break your word?
15:31So, call it even.
15:33Lord Shaw, we're done.
15:35Done?
15:35Seeing my resolve, Charles' eyes reddened.
15:37He pulled me close, almost nose to nose.
15:39We've been married over ten years.
15:41You can't just end it like that.
15:43Diana, I know you're hurt.
15:44I'm sorry.
15:44When we go back, I'll make you an equal wife.
15:47You won't be beneath Esther.
15:48All right?
15:49I snorted.
15:50He thought I wanted more.
15:52He frowned.
15:53Diana, it's not that I won't make you equal, but Esther saved my life.
15:58Saved your life?
15:59I cut him off and scoffed.
16:01After all this, you still hide behind that lie?
16:03Charles, you're not even trying.
16:05He froze, panic flashing in his eyes.
16:08Diana, what do you mean?
16:10Diana, what do you mean?
16:11Seeing his face change, I tore through his lies, word by word.
16:15Esther told me everything.
16:16Here were no bandits.
16:17No one saved you.
16:18You fell for her at first sight, forced your way in, and destroyed her engagement.
16:22Your debt of gratitude was just an excuse for your betrayal.
16:25Charles went pale.
16:27He opened his mouth, but shame choked his words.
16:30I was done.
16:31I was about to send him away when he snapped out of it.
16:33And weakly pleaded.
16:34Diana, let me explain.
16:35Esther's jealous.
16:37She's trying to drive us apart.
16:39You know, no woman wants to share her husband.
16:42I cut him off.
16:44Too numb to feel a thing.
16:45You understand that too.
16:47That's why you stayed away ten years.
16:48Left me alone.
16:49Even had your mother pretend to be sick for ten years to trap me in the village, right?
16:52Even had your mother pretend to be sick for ten years to trap me in the village, right?
16:56Charles, since you care for her so much, stop chasing after me.
16:59It'll only hurt us both.
17:00I yanked my hand back, stepped away.
17:03And said coldly.
17:04The old Diana Jensen is dead.
17:06She learned the truth.
17:07The woman standing here now has nothing to do with you or the Shaw family.
17:10For what we had, I won't speak against you.
17:14Just leave.
17:15My fiancé's coming back with the army soon.
17:17I don't want him to misunderstand.
17:18Charles stiffened.
17:19His head snapping up.
17:20Eyes blazing with shock and fury.
17:22Fiancé?
17:22What fiancé?
17:24Who is he?
17:24I answered calmly.
17:26Just a nobody soldier.
17:27You wouldn't know him, Lord Shaw.
17:28Now go.
17:29But Charles refused to accept it.
17:30He fumed.
17:31Diana, have you lost your mind?
17:32You'd refuse a minister for some lowly soldier?
17:35Have you lost your mind?
17:36You'd refuse a minister for some lowly soldier?
17:39He could die any day.
17:40And his pay?
17:41You'd barely afford a meal.
17:43You're not getting any younger.
17:44You want to live like that again?
17:46I glared at him and said calmly.
17:48I don't fear hardship.
17:50If I did, I'd never have married you.
17:52Lord Shaw, stop insulting my fiancé.
17:54He lacks your wealth and status.
17:55But he gives me his whole heart.
17:57Unlike you, always chasing shiny anew.
17:58Aye.
17:59Charles faltered.
18:00It took him a moment to recover.
18:01He said.
18:02Diana, you've got it wrong.
18:03I don't love the new and forget the old.
18:05All these years, even with Esther, you've always been in my heart.
18:08Words weren't enough.
18:09So he stopped.
18:10He said.
18:11Fine.
18:11When you come back with me, I'll prove it.
18:14I didn't understand.
18:15But his next words answered my question.
18:18General Quinn is an old acquaintance.
18:20I'll go see him.
18:21Ask him to talk to your fiancé.
18:23He plays it right.
18:24I'll find him a nice girl.
18:25And cover the bride price, too.
18:27I'll find him a nice girl.
18:29And cover the bride price, too.
18:31I'm usually patient.
18:32But this time I snapped.
18:34Charles, have you lost your life?
18:35He didn't say it outright.
18:36But I understood.
18:37He was going to use his power to pressure Lance.
18:39Lance is just a soldier.
18:40How could he fight a minister?
18:42I grabbed Charles' sword and held it to my throat.
18:44I said.
18:45Charles, if you go near him, I'll kill myself right now.
18:48My life may be cheap.
18:49But you're the minister of revenue.
18:50If word gets out, you drove a woman to death.
18:52How would that look?
18:53He always saw me as gentle.
18:55He never thought I'd threaten to die.
18:57He panicked.
18:58Froze.
18:59And pleaded.
18:59Diana, put the sword down.
19:01Let's talk.
19:01But I was done talking.
19:03There's nothing to say.
19:03If you don't want me dead, write it down.
19:05If anything happens to me or my fiancé, you'll be held responsible.
19:09Charles had spent years climbing the ranks.
19:11He'd never sign his own ruin.
19:13Charles had spent years climbing the ranks.
19:15He'd never sign his own ruin.
19:16But he kept his cool and said flatly.
19:19Fine.
19:19I'll write it.
19:20But I came in a hurry.
19:21Empty-handed.
19:22You'll need to get me paper and ink.
19:24I hadn't thought that far.
19:25I turned to go inside for paper.
19:27But the bastard struck from behind.
19:29Grabbed the sword from my hand.
19:30And ordered his men.
19:31Watcher.
19:32I'm going to see General Quinn.
19:33They covered my mouth.
19:34I couldn't even curse.
19:35I was frantic when a rough, cheerful voice rang out.
19:39Minister Shaw, what brings you here?
19:40I just heard you were looking for me.
19:42Something important?
19:43The voice was unfamiliar.
19:44I didn't recognize it.
19:45Then I heard Charles.
19:45Respectful.
19:46General Quinn, what a coincidence.
19:48Nothing major, really.
19:49I just wanted to ask you to help find someone.
19:51So this was the border commander.
19:53He laughed.
19:54Find someone?
19:55Easy.
19:56He laughed.
19:57Find someone?
19:58Easy.
19:58Minister Shaw, mind if I finish something first?
20:01Charles stepped back to the door.
20:02He said.
20:03Of course.
20:04Take your time, General.
20:05But Silas dismounted.
20:06Pointed at my gate.
20:07And grinned.
20:07I've got business here, too.
20:08Seeing Charles confused, he explained.
20:11I'm here to propose.
20:12Charles froze, instinctively blocking the entrance.
20:15He asked carefully.
20:16General, you and your wife are devoted.
20:17Your children grow.
20:18This isn't right.
20:20Silas heard that and burst out laughing.
20:21When he'd had his fill, he explained.
20:23You misunderstood.
20:23Not for me.
20:25For my adopted son.
20:26He's wounded.
20:26Can't move.
20:27Charles wasn't the only one stunned.
20:28I was, too.
20:29I almost thought Silas had the wrong house.
20:31Silas couldn't find the right words.
20:32So he stepped past Charles into the yard.
20:34The guards, afraid of trouble, let me go.
20:36Silas was a soldier.
20:37Rough and straightforward.
20:38He noticed nothing wrong.
20:39Just stared at me and asked.
20:40Are you Diana Jensen?
20:41I nodded.
20:42Dazed.
20:43He clapped his hands.
20:44Then I'm in the right place.
20:45Lance Watson is my adopted son.
20:46Your fiancé.
20:47He clapped his hands.
20:48Then I'm in the right place.
20:49Lance Watson is my adopted son.
20:50Your fiancé.
20:51My mind was spinning.
20:52Lance is just a soldier.
20:54How is he General Quinn's adopted son?
20:55I scratched my head and said.
20:57General, are you sure you've got the right person?
20:58My fiancé's name is Lance.
20:59But he couldn't be your adopted son.
21:01Maybe it's a different Lance?
21:02Silas seemed less sure now, he said.
21:04My adopted son's from Greenhaven.
21:05Has a mole by his left eye.
21:07Does that match your fiancé?
21:08Never mind.
21:09Tell you what.
21:09I'll have him brought here.
21:11You can see for yourself.
21:12I stopped him quickly.
21:13General, no need.
21:14That sounds exactly like him.
21:16I believe you.
21:17You said he's wounded?
21:19Don't put him through that.
21:20I'll go to him.
21:21I hurried toward the door.
21:22But Charles, silent until now, grabbed me.
21:24He stepped in front of me and lied through his teeth.
21:26General Quinn, there's something we need to clear up.
21:29Diana is my adopted sister.
21:33She never mentioned Lance to the family.
21:35This must have been done behind our backs.
21:36It doesn't count.
21:38Then, he muttered, threatening me.
21:39Keep your mouth shut.
21:40Lance is the General's adopted son now.
21:42If he finds out you're divorced, you won't marry him, and Lance's reputation will be ruined.
21:48He had me there.
21:49He was right.
21:50Lance finally has someone backing him.
21:51If I cost him that, I'd never forgive myself.
21:54I was still thinking when Silas frowned and said,
21:56But Minister Shaw, your opinion doesn't matter anymore.
21:59You must have heard.
22:00Lance charged into battle like a madman, crippled the Prince of Stonehold's forces, and brought back his head.
22:05He earned the highest merit.
22:07He refused the Emperor's reward, used his honor to ask for Diana's hand instead.
22:10If your family objects, you'd be defying the Emperor's decree.
22:12I stood there, stunned.
22:14I never imagined Lance would fight so hard for me.
22:16I stood there, stunned.
22:17I never imagined Lance would fight so hard for me.
22:19Or, trade his honor for our vows.
22:22In that moment, all my doubts vanished.
22:25Tears welled up.
22:26But this time, from joy, from gratitude, Charles looked thunderstruck.
22:29His face went pale, he muttered, in disbelief.
22:32How could this be?
22:33How...
22:33Silas looked confused.
22:35He frowned.
22:35Minister Shaw, this is good news.
22:37Why do you seem upset?
22:38Charles snapped out of it.
22:39For the sake of his career, he forced a smile.
22:42Happy, I'm happy.
22:43Silas had brought the Imperial decree.
22:45When that silk unfurled at the Shaw Manor...
22:48Silas had brought the Imperial decree.
22:50When that silk unfurled at the Shaw Manor...
22:52It was like a blinding light.
22:53The emotions it cast etched in every face.
22:55Charles knelt at the front.
22:56His back a stone rod.
22:58Hands trembling as he received the decree.
22:59I stood to the side, watching him.
23:01And felt the last shred of pity slip away.
23:03Hadn't he brought this on himself?
23:05The Imperial words rang clear and stern.
23:07Fixing our wedding for three months hence.
23:09The eunuch's voice cut through.
23:10His Majesty, mindful of Lance's wounds, grants you a capital mansion.
23:15The ceremony overseen by the Ministry of Rites.
23:17The words twisted the knife already in Charles' chest.
23:19I was the bride he carried home in splendor.
23:22Now the crown itself would see me wed another in splendor.
23:25Charles, for all his rage, had no choice but to swallow it whole.
23:28Charles, for all his rage, had no choice but to swallow it whole.
23:30The moment the decree was received, he seemed to age ten years.
23:33The light in his eyes dying.
23:35With the word out, he had to play the foster brother and take me to the capital to wed.
23:38The day I left the village, Esther took my hand with feigned warmth, wishing me well with pretty words.
23:43Then rushed the maids to pack my things.
23:45Her eagerness was barely contained.
23:47The whole Shaw manor buzzed with false cheer, servants hanging red silk and happy charms, as if celebrating a grand
23:51occasion.
23:52Esther busied herself tirelessly.
23:54From picking my dowry to choosing my maids.
23:56Handling it all.
23:57Practically itching to see me out the door.
23:59Her smile was radiant.
24:01Nothing like the pitiful woman who once hid behind Charles, all meek and helpless.
24:05Only Charles and his mother stayed cold.
24:07Not a smile between them.
24:08Only Charles and his mother stayed cold.
24:10Not a smile between them.
24:11Charles would sit in his study all day.
24:13Papers spread out.
24:14Untouched.
24:15His mother stayed in the prayer room.
24:17Chanting more than ever.
24:18But the worry on her face only deepened.
24:20The gloom inside clashed with the festive facade.
24:24Servants tiptoed.
24:25Afraid to cross them.
24:26When Lance had healed enough, he came to propose again in person.
24:29That day, in his indigo robe, he was still pale, but stood tall as a pine, two guards helping him
24:34through the gate.
24:35I went to meet him and saw him stop in the yard, gazing up at the room I used to
24:39live in, his eyes tender and sure.
24:41I teased him for going to such trouble.
24:43The decree was already law.
24:44Why go through this again?
24:45He looked at me, his eyes soft.
24:47Diana, the decree is his majesty's will.
24:49He looked at me, his eyes soft.
24:51Diana, the decree is his majesty's will.
24:53This proposal is my wish.
24:55How much he mattered?
24:56That I shouldn't suffer any slight.
24:57The gifts he brought were even more lavish.
24:59Beyond the usual betrothal presence, there were chests of gems and furs, and a jade set his mother left behind.
25:05Lance explained she'd asked him to give it to his future bride.
25:08Then, facing Charles and his mother, he said,
25:10Asking my adoptive father to propose wasn't my choice.
25:13I was unconscious, afraid something might go wrong.
25:16He turned to me, his voice soft but clear.
25:18I was terrified that while I slept, someone might take you from me.
25:21So the moment I woke, I begged his majesty for the decree.
25:24Charles' face darkened.
25:25He clenched his cup, knuckles white.
25:27His mother's eyes welled up.
25:28She dabbed them with her handkerchief.
25:29Whether from sorrow or regret, I couldn't tell.
25:31His mother's eyes welled up.
25:32She dabbed them with her handkerchief.
25:33Whether from sorrow or regret, I couldn't tell.
25:35After Lance left, she scolded Charles.
25:37At that moment, I was coming to thank her, as custom required.
25:41We'd once been family, so I kept the ritual.
25:43Just outside the door, I heard a cup shatter.
25:46The shards piercing the quiet afternoon.
25:48Then came her choked sobs, her voice thick with grief and regret.
25:51I told you, Diana's a good woman.
25:54If you don't want her, someone else will.
25:56You wouldn't listen.
25:56Now look, she is about to marry into another family.
26:00Charles' voice was hoarse, but he still pushed back.
26:02Mother, what are you saying?
26:03Esther is your daughter-in-law.
26:05His mother's voice turned even more bitter.
26:07Years of resentment spilling out.
26:08Her? What kind of daughter-in-law is she?
26:10When I was sick, did she ever come see me?
26:11Ever ask how I was?
26:13When I was sick, did she ever come see me?
26:15Ever ask how I was?
26:16And you? You work late every night.
26:18Did she ever sit with you?
26:20Bring you a midnight meal?
26:21At that, she broke down completely.
26:23Charles, think.
26:25Back in the village, when you studied all night, who stayed up with you?
26:29Who made sure you never went hungry?
26:31In the dead of winter, Diana's hands were raw from cold.
26:34Yet, she still made you warm soup.
26:36Never mind, Diana.
26:37Even I think you abandoned her.
26:40Her words must have cut deep.
26:42A heavy thud came as his fist hit the pillar.
26:44So hard, I felt it from outside.
26:47His voice cracked, raw with pain.
26:49You think I don't know, Mother?
26:51Esther is different from Diana.
26:54Esther is different from Diana.
26:56But what can I do now?
26:58Diana and Lance have the Emperor's decree.
27:00Even if I wanted to fight, I can't.
27:02Mother, let's just live with it.
27:04Whatever Esther is, she gave the shawls an heir.
27:06We'll both have to make do.
27:08I don't want more trouble.
27:09I started to slip away, but heard quick steps behind me.
27:12Before I could react, Esther rushed past, stormed into the room, and slammed the door against the wall.
27:17Her face was twisted with rage.
27:19She jabbed a finger at Charles.
27:20Charles, make do, huh?
27:22Now, you two see how good Diana was, and I'm just what you settle for?
27:25Let me tell you, too late.
27:27Once Diana's married, this house still answers to me.
27:29Charles tried to speak, but she cut him off, voice shrill.
27:32Don't play the lord of the manor with me.
27:34I have the goods on you for dumping your wife.
27:36If you want peace, you'll serve me like a dog.
27:38Don't forget, I remember every ugly thing you've done.
27:41Then, she wheeled on his mother, eyes sharp as knives.
27:44And you, you old hag.
27:46This was your idea.
27:47You begged to trap Diana here by faking sickness.
27:50Now she's gone.
27:52What's with the tears?
27:53You begged to trap Diana here by faking sickness.
27:56Now she's gone.
27:58What's with the tears?
27:59This is your karma.
28:00If you want your son safe, keep your mouth shut.
28:02Don't lecture me about filial piety.
28:04From now on, I run this house.
28:05Through the crack in the door, I watched them squirm.
28:08Charles clenched his fists, but no words came.
28:11His mother clutched her chest, pale lips trembling in silence.
28:14I felt nothing.
28:15Just cold, quiet peace.
28:17Guess it's true.
28:18What goes around, comes around.
28:19Charles betrayed me for Esther, and now she's the one pulling his strings.
28:22His mother aided him, and now she reaps what she sewed.
28:24Their future, I thought, would be anything but easy.
28:27Esther's cruelty, Charles's weakness, and his mother's regret trapped them in an endless
28:32drama together.
28:33Poetic justice, I suppose.
28:34I turned and walked away, my skirt brushing the fallen leaves, silent, unnoticed.
28:38Sunlight fell through the eaves, spilling dappled shadows at my feet.
28:41At that moment, a weight lifted from my shoulders.
28:45A weight lifted from my shoulders.
28:48Three days later, I finally left the Shaw Manor.
28:50The sky was clear.
28:51Lance himself came for me on a fine horse.
28:52The grand sedan chair waited at the gate, draped in red silk, festive and bright.
28:56Neighbors gathered round, whispering, pointing.
28:58I wore my new gown, a real wedding dress.
29:01Crimson brocade, gold thread stitching, lotus blooms, a veil embroidered with mandarin
29:05ducks.
29:05Maids helped me through the gate.
29:07Before stepping in, I glanced back.
29:09Charles stood in the shadows, his face hidden.
29:12Esther stood in the light.
29:13A fake smile plastered on, her eyes cold as ice.
29:15His mother wasn't there.
29:16Sick again, they said.
29:17I smiled and stepped inside, marrying into the house the emperor gave Lance.
29:21It wasn't large, but warm and well-kept.
29:24The courtyard filled with crabapple trees in bloom, pink and white petals falling like
29:28snow.
29:28It was breathtaking.
29:29Lance spent all his reward on my bride price.
29:32So money was tight.
29:33The ceremony wasn't lavish, but nothing was missing.
29:35The bridal finery, the grand palanquin, the red dowry procession.
29:39Few guests attended, but everyone came with true hearts.
29:41Few guests attended, but everyone came with true hearts.
29:44General Quinn was there too, drinking and laughing.
29:46For that, Lance felt guilty.
29:48On our wedding night, he held my hand and said,
29:50Diana, I'm sorry, it's not more.
29:51I'll work harder.
29:52Give you a better life.
29:54But I was content.
29:55This time, unlike my wedding to Charles, I had a gown.
29:58Back then, a small sedan slipped me through the side door.
30:00Barely any guests.
30:01The whole affair a hollow joke.
30:02Now, I had the respect I deserved.
30:05The second year, I followed Lance to the border garrison.
30:08The day we left, Charles showed up, standing apart from the crowd.
30:11As if he wanted to speak, I didn't pause.
30:13I stepped into the carriage.
30:14The curtain fell, shutting out the capital's splendor and the past with it.
30:18Life at the border was simple but full.
30:19Lance tended his duties.
30:20I kept house, mended clothes for the soldiers, taught the local children their letters.
30:25Little by little, I let the Shaws go.
30:27Just a polite gift at holidays, expecting nothing back.
30:30Still, rumors reached us now and then.
30:31They said the Shaw manor was in chaos, Charles and his mother under Esther's thumb.
30:35If she said east, no one dared go west.
30:37Charles handed over his entire salary, had to ask permission just to buy a book.
30:41Charles handed over his entire salary, had to ask permission just to buy a book.
30:44His mother's rations were cut, her room often without coal.
30:47Charles withered, his work no longer careful.
30:51After a few mistakes, censors called for his head.
30:53Once, the treasury accounts were off.
30:55Once, he miswrote a decree.
30:56Once, he blanked out at court, failed to answer the emperor.
30:59Nothing fatal, but he'd go no further.
31:01His career was over.
31:02His mother's fake illness became real, bedridden for good.
31:05A sad end, she wrote, wanting to see me.
31:08I said the journey was too long.
31:10Some mistakes, once made, can't be unmade.
31:12Hearing all this, I felt nothing.
31:14The sun was good that day.
31:16I sat under the crabapple tree, quietly making Lance new boots.
31:19He trained hard, wore out seven or eight pairs a month.
31:22His feet always blistered.
31:23It broke my heart.
31:24I made the soles thick.
31:25The top sturdy.
31:27Every stitch tight and true.
31:29Lost in my work, hands touched my shoulders.
31:31Lance was home.
31:32He knelt to see what I was doing, and scolded me softly.
31:35Diana, the doctor says, twins are tough.
31:38Don't tire yourself from me.
31:39Let the servants do it.
31:40I looked up into his worried eyes, so full of care and love.
31:45Sunlight through the leaves lit his strong face.
31:48I smiled and took his hand, warm, calloused from the sword.
31:52I'm your wife.
31:53If I don't care, who will?
31:55Just then, the baby kicked, as if in answer.
31:58His eyes lit up.
32:00He pressed his palm to my belly.
32:02Feeling that small, quick life, a breeze stirred, crabapple blossoms falling.
32:06On our clasped hands, on the unfinished boots, on this quiet courtyard.
32:10Drills rang from the barracks.
32:13Steady, strong.
32:14My heart was full.
32:15No room left for the past.
32:17Smoke and shadows gone.
32:18The man before me was the one I loved.
32:20That was enough.
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