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Reality Check Inside Americas Next Top Model - Season 1 - Episode 02: Still in the Running
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00:25I was hammered I think I had two bottles of wine by myself
00:30I just remember like little bits and pieces
00:33I remember being in the shower and then just sitting in the shower and then we're in the bed
00:42I was blacked out for a lot of it I didn't even feel sex happening I just knew it was
00:50happening
00:50and then I've passed out
00:58the next day I woke up I was like holy shit what the fuck happened last night
01:10it all fucking hit me it just flooded over me
01:15I just sat there and cried
01:19I will die
01:20it's over
01:25it's over
01:27it's over
01:28you don't let this take away your spirit
01:34do you think that the production should have stopped it
01:40I think when like
01:46I think after getting out of the hot tub and like whatever happened after that
01:50I think they should have fucking like
01:53been like all right this has gone too far like we gotta
01:58we gotta pull her out of this
02:01you remember the story with Shandy
02:04um
02:06uh I do remember her story
02:08it's a little difficult for me to talk about production because I'm that's not my territory
02:13was there ever a sense of like hey we need to turn the cameras off
02:17you know
02:19we treated top model as a documentary
02:21and we told the girls that
02:23on day one when they would show up
02:25we would go over the rules with them
02:27there's gonna be cameras with you 24-7
02:30day in and day out
02:31and they're gonna cover everything
02:32the good the bad and everything in between
02:34no matter what happens
02:36while you're on camera
02:37we're going to document all of that
02:41I know the girls
02:42they were doing their evening hanging with the guys
02:46we were off
02:47and then we got word
02:49Shandy's having sex in the shower
02:51with a guy
02:52I was like wait what
02:53and the rule on top model was
02:55if you went into a bathroom alone
02:57a camera could not follow you in
02:59but of course when she went into the shower
03:01she was technically not alone
03:02so the cameras went in
03:04and they captured it
03:06I don't know who decision it was
03:08but as producers do
03:09this was a story point now
03:11and we're gonna see it all the way through
03:13here's what's coming up
03:14on America's next top model
03:17a visit from some local Italian men
03:19leads to a devastating crisis
03:21for Shandy
03:22I was about 12
03:23when I saw Cycle 2
03:27to see that level of drama
03:30on top model
03:31as a kid
03:32I was scandalized
03:34she just cheated her ass off
03:36on national television
03:37Shandy cheats on her boyfriend
03:39and she has to call
03:40I can't stand it
03:43why is this not a private moment
03:45why is this film
03:47this is wrong
03:48but while saying that
03:50let's continue watching
03:51looking back with an adult lens
03:53it's really disturbing
03:55how are you
03:57the next day
03:58Tyra has a girl's talk
04:01and
04:02it is not a coincidence
04:04that she starts talking about
04:06cheating
04:07I had one guy that
04:09cheated on me in Milano
04:10he was a male model child
04:13and that just hurt me so much
04:15but now
04:16I always tell my man
04:17like don't cheat
04:18flirt
04:19so much with the girl
04:20and then come home
04:21and do me
04:22of course she's gonna have
04:25producers in her ear
04:26she is gonna be
04:28kept aware of what
04:29the goings on
04:29in the house
04:30and she comes in
04:32and stokes the fire
04:33under the guise
04:34of concerned big sis
04:36or mentor
04:37like this is just a girl's talk
04:39you okay
04:43you cheated on me
04:45Taylor
04:46everybody's messed up Shandy
04:48I'm not judging you
04:50but I think that
04:51we have to fight against
04:52our carnal desires
04:53I understand that
04:55that people do
04:56become attracted to other people
04:57and it's all about
04:58your relationship
04:58and how open
05:00your relationship is
05:01and how honest
05:01you can be with one another
05:05after everything
05:06I just want to go home
05:09after that happened
05:10I kept demanding
05:11like I want to go home
05:12I don't want to be a part
05:13of this anymore
05:14and I demanded
05:15to like talk to Eric
05:16but they wouldn't
05:16give me a phone
05:17and that's when
05:18I really wanted to go home
05:20they tried to talk me
05:21out of it
05:22and I was like no
05:24and they're like well
05:26now we can get you a phone
05:29it was like things became convenient
05:30when they needed to be convenient
05:34because before I'd wanted a phone
05:36but now they don't want to do the show anymore
05:37now a phone is available for me to call Eric
05:40and they're like well we're gonna have to film it
05:42we're gonna have to film it
05:43and I was like no
05:44well fine
05:48I just want to let my boyfriend know
05:50what happened
05:50but I'm so scared
05:53just please tell me what you did
05:57just tell me
05:58I think of the worst possible thing I could do
06:01you had sex?
06:04yeah
06:04oh my god honey
06:06are you okay man?
06:08I can't be with someone that cheated on me
06:12what do you want me to do?
06:14what can I say to this?
06:16how can I hug you?
06:18you think about how we wanted to be together forever
06:22then he'd throw it away
06:23you stupid bitch
06:34it was just the sound guy
06:36and the guy filming
06:38and
06:40afterwards I'm just like
06:41laying on the floor
06:43in a fetal position
06:44just crying
06:45and they just
06:47like get up to leave
06:48and they both came up to me
06:49and they said
06:50we're really really sorry
06:52that we had to film that
06:58they just knew that like
06:59this isn't right
07:00like why are we filming this?
07:09after that
07:10I believe
07:11did they show it on camera?
07:12they took her to the doctor
07:13I mean production was responsible for her
07:16now
07:17could they have sent her to the doctor
07:19in privacy?
07:20but it's reality
07:21so now we're gonna cover it
07:23poor girl
07:25after I like talked to Eric again on the phone
07:28they actually filmed me
07:30talking to the guy
07:31and asking him myself
07:32did you wear any protection?
07:34do you have any STDs?
07:35like I felt like
07:38like why can't you just ask them yourself?
07:40why do you have to film this?
07:43like you already got me on the phone
07:45of Eric calling me a fucking bitch
07:47I will tell you this
07:53when I went into post
07:54and saw the footage
07:55we scaled back that scene
07:59in a significant way
08:01I'm not head of story
08:02that's Ken Mock
08:02but I did become a master editor
08:05it's important for people to know
08:07that we didn't put everything on TV
08:09do you know what happened?
08:11Super Bowl
08:12Janet Jackson
08:14Justin Timberlake
08:15when that happened
08:18regulations clamped down
08:20on what you could show
08:22so then they had to rush
08:25re-edit that scene
08:28that was
08:29for good or bad
08:30one of the most memorable moments
08:31in Top Model
08:32made for good TV
08:40everybody out here
08:41wants to be
08:42America's next top model
08:44love you Tyra
08:46another week
08:47another elimination
08:49on America's next top model
08:50America's next top model
08:52I ought to watch America's next top model
08:53we're just
08:55flabbergasted
08:55transfixed
08:56we now return to
08:58America's next top model
08:59I just don't think you're being fair Tyra
09:01the end of season two
09:02I knew
09:03this was it
09:04people's appetites
09:05were insatiable
09:07they couldn't get enough
09:08every week it was growing
09:10did you like it?
09:11well it was
09:12it's hard not to watch
09:13what happened
09:14really surprised me
09:16Dawn Ostrok said
09:17we want to do
09:18two cycles a season
09:20every year
09:20I'm like what?
09:22that was a moment
09:23where I realized
09:24that we had broken through
09:27Casey
09:27Halua
09:28Amber
09:29who will become
09:31America's
09:31next
09:33top
09:34month
09:37the show was really
09:38kind of gaining popularity
09:39but that didn't feel like
09:41it had reached
09:42you know
09:43kind of the masses
09:43right?
09:44but then
09:46randomly one evening
09:48Tyra, Jay and I
09:49went to dinner
09:49it was just the three of us
09:50nobody else
09:51but we were walking along
09:52and there were some kids
09:54on the street
09:54a girl
09:55she said to her friend
09:56oh my god look
09:57there's Beyonce
09:58the girl friend said
09:59no
10:00that's Tyra Banks
10:01because it's the J's
10:02and I said
10:03oh okay
10:05I looked over at Jay
10:06and Jay was like
10:07this is not gonna sit well
10:10it was just a bit of
10:11an awkward moment
10:13this is Tyra's show
10:14Jay Manuel
10:15and Jay Alexander
10:17get recognized
10:18more than me
10:19walking down the street
10:19in New York City
10:20it's crazy
10:21I'm like
10:21get back
10:21still in my shot
10:22things are different now
10:27at one point
10:28we had an audience
10:29of over 100 million people
10:31globally
10:31our American show
10:33in 180 countries
10:36it was massive
10:37and they were doing
10:38their own versions
10:39winner of Africa's
10:41next top model
10:43Germany's next top model
10:44Mexico's next top model
10:46Maureen
10:47Costa
10:48it was quite a behemoth
10:54to be a part of
10:55Miss Jay Alexander
10:57Tara always said
10:58you're gonna be famous
11:00and then boom
11:01it happened
11:03we had words that we said
11:05on America's next top model
11:06that are now in the dictionary
11:07smile
11:07smile
11:09smile with your eyes
11:10smile
11:12the world was smiling
11:16the show was at an all-time hard
11:17America just can't get enough
11:19love America's next top model
11:20I've done with anything to win
11:22we did a casting in New York City
11:23at Macy's
11:2510,000 would-be cover girls
11:26turned out for their shot
11:28at America's next top model
11:29we shot down two city blocks
11:31in the middle of New York City
11:33I remember looking at CNN
11:35and seeing this riot
11:36breaking out in the street
11:37pandemonium broke out
11:39girls were threatened
11:40to slash each other's faces
11:41all these girls
11:43were on the verge of passing out
11:44Laurel Mayhem breaks down
11:46on the street in New York City
11:47that was a moment
11:48where I realized
11:48oh my god
11:49I think they built a monster
11:52as the cycles
11:53went on
11:54there was a lot of pressure
11:55to figure out
11:56how to constantly
11:57reinvent
11:59how do you get that
12:01I can't believe
12:02they're doing that
12:03moment again
12:12you have to keep
12:13one-upping yourself
12:15now the pressure
12:16was high for the network
12:18how do we maintain
12:19this and grow this audience
12:21it was a time
12:22in the world
12:23where there was a show
12:24Fear Factor
12:25and Survivor
12:26and all of these things
12:27of like pushing the limits
12:29and all of that
12:29and so we kept pushing
12:31and we kept creating
12:31more and more and more
12:32you guys
12:33were demanding it
12:35the viewers wanted more
12:37and more
12:38and more
12:41reality TV is a bitch
12:43if it doesn't bleed
12:44and lead
12:44then it doesn't work
12:48we are going to suspend you
12:50from this ledge
12:52and shoot you guys
12:53hanging over this hole
12:55creatively now
12:55for the photo shoots
12:56there were so many cooks
12:58in the kitchen
12:59so things changed
13:00oh my god
13:04oh my god
13:05your wardrobe today
13:06yes
13:09J.Emanuel tells us
13:11that we're going to be
13:11wearing dead animal carcasses
13:13watching that is like
13:15mortifying
13:16on every level
13:18every level
13:19so I have to wear
13:20beef panties
13:23I don't even eat meat
13:24I'm a vegan
13:26this is terrible
13:30I do feel like
13:32I can feel
13:34and taste
13:34what people want to see
13:36hello
13:36hi
13:37I feel like
13:39I kind of know
13:39I'm so sorry you guys
13:41I don't mean to
13:42be all weak
13:43in front of you
13:43but I'm just so lightheaded
13:47take her home
13:52today you guys are going to worry about acting
13:56inappropriate and awkward and funny as hell
13:59I have a pigeon on my head
14:00yes you do baby
14:01but they're on a toilet tray
14:02no worries
14:03no worries
14:03pigeons are flying rats
14:05they eat rats
14:06they'd probably eat me
14:08if they could
14:08why are we doing that
14:10why are we doing that
14:12this has to be the funniest challenge ever
14:14with each passing season of A&TM
14:17the challenges got crazier and crazier
14:26pure chaos
14:27I just want to tell you that
14:29some people have war in their countries
14:33I feel like they would take the girls' spears
14:36and then turn it into a photo shoot
14:40they were posing with tarantulas
14:44cockroaches
14:44walking in 10 inch high stilettos
14:48they had to walk on water
14:50so they had to like pull off Jesus feet
14:54we cannot forget when they pretended to be homeless
14:57inspired by Tyra's stint
14:59as a homeless person for a day
15:03they had the girls pose
15:04with real unhoused people
15:07in the background
15:09I have to say
15:10I think this is one of my favorite pictures
15:11because I think your face is just
15:12so heartbreaking
15:14it looks stunning
15:16there were some ideas that were wrong
15:18and were not good to have
15:20and were silly
15:21you know quite frankly
15:22for some reason
15:23no one really seemed to see it
15:25yeah there's some dumb shit
15:27I mean it's dumb
15:28I'm like what the hell
15:30sometimes creative would come up
15:32where you're just like
15:33oof wow
15:34okay well
15:34you gotta work with this now
15:36today we're actually going to do
15:38a photo shoot
15:39about the horrible impacts
15:40of smoking
15:41this is hideous
15:46I don't know how we ended up there
15:48but
15:48it's crazy
15:50do you remember
15:51outrageous moments
15:53that you were thinking to yourself
15:55okay
15:55like can we air it
15:57no I never thought about
15:58you know
15:59can we air it
16:00can we air it
16:00good television
16:01is good television
16:02we're gonna bring you
16:03some little fish
16:04and some seaweed
16:06we have dead fish
16:07attached to us
16:08I'll just smell Danielle
16:09I just threw up in my mouth
16:11a little bit
16:12absurd
16:14absolutely absurd
16:18fish juice
16:19fish juice
16:19work with it girl
16:23this is not real modeling
16:25right
16:25and after that
16:26it was just a fucking free for all
16:34I grew up in Little Rock Arkansas
16:37we were in this little
16:38three bedroom home
16:39with black mold
16:41and roaches
16:43and all the things
16:44that I wanted
16:45seemed unattainable
16:47when I graduated high school
16:49I knew I wanted to model
16:50in New York
16:52my brother
16:53he was like
16:54you should do
16:54America's Next Top Model
16:56I was like
16:56I would fucking never
16:57he was like
16:58why
16:58I was like
16:59it's just fake modeling
17:00do they humiliate girls
17:01on that show
17:02and he was like
17:03girl this could be a ticket
17:04a free ticket out
17:05we don't have money
17:06to get you to New York
17:08Top Model
17:09was a one way ticket
17:10for me to get out
17:10of my hometown
17:12if I get on this show
17:13I'm out
17:19first name that I'm going to call
17:22Joanie
17:23when they called my name
17:24I was like
17:25oh my gosh
17:26yes I'm on this show
17:28like I can't believe it
17:29it's gonna happen
17:30I quit my job
17:32I worked at American Eagle
17:33in the mall
17:34and I went in
17:35and I told my boss
17:36I'm like
17:36I really can't tell you
17:37what's happening
17:38but I'm on a TV show
17:39and I have to quit
17:40it felt so good
17:41to be like
17:42I quit
17:42I'm moving on
17:44next name
17:45Danielle
17:49thank you so much
17:52this is the moment
17:53I've been waiting for
17:53my entire life
17:55it was that moment
17:56of like pinch me
17:57like girl you did it
17:59you got out
17:59you actually got out
18:01of Little Rock
18:01now you gotta keep going
18:03but I had no idea
18:05how hard it would be
18:09you are now standing
18:10in the building
18:10of one of the most
18:11influential ad agencies
18:12and you're gonna have
18:14the opportunity
18:14to meet the most
18:15sought after creative director
18:16in the world as well
18:18and I see you got a nice
18:19little gap right there
18:20between the teeth
18:20don't check you
18:21you know I said
18:22thank you
18:23I'm like
18:23I think she bad
18:25mouthing me
18:26as far as my gap
18:27she can hang down
18:28with her
18:28the gap is staying
18:30sucka
18:31the gap
18:32the infamous gap
18:33Lord Jesus
18:36today we're dealing
18:37with perfection
18:39and beauty
18:40so Tyra has an extra
18:41special treat
18:42for you guys
18:43that day
18:43after the challenge
18:45they put us in a group
18:46and they said
18:47that we were going
18:48to the dentist
18:49but that Joni and I
18:50were going first
18:50the dentist is gonna
18:51do something about
18:52that snaggle tube
18:53and for that gap tube
18:54and perfect your smile
18:57I was like
18:58whoa
18:58this is actually happening
19:00I'm happy right
19:01your tears are joy
19:04that's so cool
19:05I never afford
19:07anything like that
19:08I mean come on
19:09it was like winning
19:09the lottery
19:10I was like
19:10I'm down to do it
19:11because I was always
19:12really self-conscious
19:13about my teeth
19:14and I'm like
19:15okay let's go
19:16I feel like up
19:17until that point
19:17a lot of the makeovers
19:18were very based on hair
19:20that was the first time
19:22you see the girls
19:23going to a doctor's office
19:25to get a medical procedure
19:27as part of a makeover
19:32so we pull up
19:33to the dentist
19:34and the guy keeps asking me
19:36if I want to get anything
19:38done to my teeth
19:38so is there anything
19:40that you don't like
19:40about your smile
19:41my gums are receding
19:42up here
19:42like on my front tube
19:43what about the gap
19:44I love my gap
19:45the gap
19:46I love the gap
19:47the signature gap
19:48is staying in my mouth
19:49that's who I am
19:50I was like no
19:51I don't want to close my gap
19:52that's not your right
19:53to tell me
19:54what to do
19:55with my body
19:57and poor Joanie
19:58oh my god Joanie
20:00the shit that girl
20:01went through horrific
20:05we will remove these four
20:06today
20:07remove them today
20:08oh
20:10I was young
20:11and kind of just
20:12along for the ride
20:13but I had to sign
20:14a separate release
20:14right then and there too
20:15couldn't talk to my mom
20:17about it
20:17couldn't call a lawyer
20:18or anything like that
20:22I didn't know
20:23it would go all night
20:26that was really intense
20:28what Joanie went through
20:29oh lord
20:30insane
20:33I have them
20:34actually
20:35here they are
20:36this one used to be
20:38right here
20:41oh girl
20:42but yeah
20:43they pulled these
20:44all out of my mouth
20:45and then they shaved
20:46from here to here
20:49she was in the dentist's office
20:51for hours on end
20:53oh my god
20:54there were gobsmacked moments
20:56where you watch
20:57and you're like
20:57oof
21:00okay
21:01I'm going to go have
21:02all my front teeth
21:03grinded down to
21:04pencil point
21:05oh my god
21:07I still remember her
21:08looking for the camera
21:09and saying
21:10look at what they done
21:11look at my teeth
21:14it was insane
21:15bless her soul
21:17when it was over
21:18I said
21:19oh my god
21:21she turned out of the teeth
21:22it's
21:23it's fabulous
21:24the next photo shoot
21:27that we did
21:27was actually the one
21:28where we were crying
21:29I was like
21:30I am in pain
21:32this isn't hard
21:33I was so miserable
21:35sometimes you have to
21:36go through pain
21:37you know
21:37to be beautiful
21:38close your eyes
21:39in between
21:39and open
21:40nice
21:41nice
21:42just for beauty
21:43just for beauty
21:44they did not fix
21:45fix anything
21:46there were many
21:47orthodontic problems
21:48that were never fixed
21:49I've still got a crazy
21:51bite issue
21:52and those issues
21:54will never be resolved
21:55it was fucked up
21:56but at the end of the day
21:57I was a grown adult woman
21:59with teeth
22:00I thought I would never fix
22:01so I felt like
22:02I won the lottery
22:03really
22:04but
22:05Danny's work
22:05was pretty different
22:08so Danielle
22:09you went to the dentist
22:10but you refused
22:11to have your gap closed
22:13do you really think
22:13you can have a cover girl
22:14contract with a gap
22:15in your mouth
22:15yeah why not
22:16this is all people see
22:18it's easy
22:18with a beautiful cover girl
22:19it's not marketable
22:20I don't want to
22:22completely close it
22:23well I guess
22:24she just left a gap
22:25wide open
22:26for another girl baby
22:27I agree
22:28when I recall my name
22:29she was like
22:31so if I decide to keep you
22:33are you going to get
22:33your gap closed
22:35and then that's when
22:35I was like
22:36so what you're saying
22:37to me is
22:38if I don't get my gap
22:39closed you're going
22:40to send me home
22:41get them teeth done
22:43all the way
22:44I think all the way
22:47congratulations
22:49you're still on the running
22:49towards becoming
22:50America's next top model
22:52and when I went back
22:53to the house
22:53I called my mom
22:54immediately
22:55just because she was
22:56always my voice of reason
22:57always
22:58and I was like
22:59this is what's happening
23:01like what should I do
23:03she said to me
23:04I'll be here to
23:05welcome you home
23:05if you don't get
23:06your gap closed
23:07but you know
23:07you're going to come
23:07home if you don't
23:08get your gap closed
23:09like is it worth it
23:10basically
23:10that's what my mom
23:11was saying
23:13there is no ifs
23:14ands and buts about
23:15there is no going
23:16home for me
23:16I did not come all
23:17the way
23:17from little bitty
23:18little work Arkansas
23:19to get turned around
23:20and go home
23:21that's not an option
23:23and so I decided
23:23to play the game
23:26and I got my gap
23:27closed some
23:31it's my life
23:32and it was toyed
23:33with consciously
23:36and me saying no
23:39and them going
23:39against that
23:40it's invasive
23:43with Danielle
23:44and the gap
23:45between her teeth
23:46I myself
23:48was like
23:48I don't think
23:49that's a good idea
23:51I just thought
23:51she looked great
23:52with the gap
23:53between the teeth
23:53and that perfection
23:55is boring
23:55yet not my decision
23:57but it's the
23:58the decision
23:59you know
24:00I get suggesting it
24:01but forcing it
24:03that is an insane thing
24:04for them to essentially
24:05demand from her
24:06it just shows
24:07how out of touch
24:08Tyra is
24:08and the irony is
24:10that a few seasons later
24:11we love your teeth
24:12Tyra's like
24:13we're gonna widen
24:14that gap
24:15we'd love to
24:16exaggerate that
24:17and take you
24:18a little bit more
24:18to Lauren Hutton
24:19make it as big
24:20as you want it
24:21she already had
24:22a tooth gap
24:23and then they went in
24:24and surgically
24:24widened it
24:25permanently
24:26getting that done
24:27for a reality
24:28competition TV show
24:29is just insane
24:30people have told me
24:31one season
24:33that she got
24:33a gap created
24:35in a girl's night
24:35girl that is
24:36absolutely ridiculous
24:38what
24:40I've actually
24:41apologized for
24:41the issue
24:43with Dani
24:43and what happened
24:44that was
24:45between a rock
24:46and a hard place
24:47for me
24:47because there were
24:49agents
24:49that would
24:51tell me
24:51she will not
24:52work with those teeth
24:53it's just not
24:54gonna happen
24:54that's what they
24:55told me
24:56and again
24:57I could have
24:58just been quiet
24:58and let them
24:59handle it
25:00but that's
25:00hindsight is 20-20
25:01for all of us
25:02it just so happens
25:03that a lot of the
25:05things that are
25:0520-20 for me
25:06happened
25:07in front of the world
25:08bull fucking shit
25:10me getting my gap
25:11closed is not
25:12opening any doors
25:13for me
25:15you knew what
25:15you were doing
25:16for the show
25:16you were making
25:17good for TV
25:18at my expense
25:21it was great TV
25:22I honestly thought
25:24Bree was gonna
25:24fall flat
25:25but also like
25:26we're people
25:27and we're afraid
25:29and we're all
25:29too young
25:30to like
25:31to verbalize
25:32I'm scared
25:34the girls
25:35were rewarded
25:36and applauded
25:37for putting their
25:38health on the
25:38back burner
25:41it's a very
25:42dangerous situation
25:44and then a girl
25:45inevitably gets
25:46very sick
25:47and the show
25:48just milks it
25:48for TV drama
25:49we need a medic
25:51here guys
25:51tell them it's
25:52an emergency
25:53the cameras
25:53were always rolling
25:54it was really scary
25:59oh I might be dying
26:01the models
26:02are very underfed
26:04and they're overworked
26:05they're not hydrated
26:06enough
26:07when you're modeling
26:07you don't really
26:08want to eat too much
26:09because you don't
26:09want to be bloated
26:10I am so hungry
26:11I think I'm gonna
26:12pass out
26:21she looked dead
26:22like it was scary
26:24it was a crash course
26:25it was a crash course
26:27from now on
26:29as thin as you are
26:30you know
26:31and as hot as it is
26:32like tomorrow
26:33you have to eat
26:34I think I just
26:35pushed myself
26:36way past my limit
26:38the biggest disaster
26:40ever is always
26:40the best thing
26:41people have
26:42104 degree temperature
26:43they're throwing up
26:44they need IVs
26:45that's the best news
26:47I could ever have
26:48hypothermia
26:49in a pool
26:50how does that happen?
26:51they've accepted that
26:52okay
26:52my health
26:54is second
26:55to this competition
26:56I'm actually shocked
26:57that this was allowed to air
26:59can't get enough
26:59of the drama
27:00I can't
27:00no
27:01it's a TV show
27:02to you guys
27:02but this is my life
27:06we arrive at the Alexandria Hotel
27:09and we go upstairs
27:10to the 12th floor
27:11you girls
27:12are all gonna be
27:13crime scene
27:15victims
27:16can you make that
27:17right hand look a little more
27:19kind of broken
27:21there you go
27:21they created these
27:23wild back stories
27:24my crime scene
27:26is Whitney
27:27stole all of my organs
27:28and then stitched them back up
27:32one was strangled to death
27:33one was pushed off
27:34a high building
27:36Dion was posing as if
27:37someone had
27:38shot her in the head
27:44when I was a kid
27:45my mom was shot
27:46and she was paralyzed
27:48from the waist down
27:49when I was six years old
27:51my mom was shot
27:52by this guy
27:53he was jealous
27:53that she was getting married
27:55and she was actually
27:55trying to help him
27:56get off of drugs
27:57and he ended up
27:59shooting her
27:59that's why mom is
28:00paralyzed
28:01they knew about it
28:02from the application process
28:04but they still chose
28:05to have me
28:07do this particular
28:08photo shoot
28:09that involved
28:11gun violence
28:13I thought it was
28:14a coincidence
28:14at the time
28:15but I don't think it was
28:18Dion took a little while
28:19to warm up
28:19and she really didn't take
28:21much initiative
28:22to improvise
28:23I think they wanted
28:25to see some type
28:26of mental breakdown
28:27or you know
28:28to see me crumble
28:29I'm just glad
28:30that they didn't get
28:31the reaction
28:31that I feel like
28:32they were hoping to get
28:34it's a great picture
28:36the look in your face
28:37it's just extraordinary
28:38I mean
28:39very beautiful
28:40and dead
28:41was there ever a moment
28:42in which you were like
28:43wow this came out
28:45all wrong
28:45uh no
28:46funnily enough
28:47you know
28:48I mean I think
28:49now looking back
28:50yes I would say that
28:51but at the time
28:52I really didn't think that
28:55I love it
28:56because her ankle
28:56looks broken
28:58it looks like
28:58you're taking a nap
28:59you needed to look
29:00like you're brutally killed
29:01yeah
29:03I take full responsibility
29:05for that shoot
29:05that was a mistake
29:06I look back now
29:08and I think
29:08it was a celebration
29:10of like violence
29:11it was crazy
29:12that one
29:13I look back
29:14and I'm like
29:16you are an idiot
29:21the race is on
29:23be ready to show
29:24your true colors
29:26the shoot that I had
29:28the most difficult time
29:30with was
29:31this race swapping shoot
29:32this week we've learned
29:33all about makeup
29:35and the power
29:35that it has
29:36to transform people
29:37we are doing this shoot
29:39for Got Milk
29:40now there's a twist
29:42my parents are from
29:43South Africa
29:44they grew up
29:45during apartheid
29:46I'm very aware
29:47of that history
29:49and I just said
29:50like race swapping
29:51wow
29:52so I first asked
29:54to be excused
29:55from the photo shoot
29:56and Tyra said to me
29:57I will handle this
29:59on camera
30:00with the girls
30:00judging
30:01just go and do
30:03your job
30:04I recognized
30:05that my role
30:08was starting
30:09to have limitations
30:11that shoot
30:11was happening
30:12regardless
30:14we are actually
30:14going to switch
30:15your ethnicities
30:17the challenge here
30:19really is
30:20taking on
30:21the person
30:22if you really look
30:22for it
30:23you can see it
30:23on my face
30:24especially the setup
30:25for the day
30:26where I tell the girls
30:27what we're doing
30:28I could tell
30:29I was just like
30:29double swallowing
30:31and
30:32but I just had to do
30:33my job
30:34Tiffany
30:35you're going to be
30:36Native American
30:37Brittany
30:38an African American woman
30:40Kenya
30:41Korean
30:41and Noelle
30:43we're making you
30:44into a traditionally
30:45African woman
30:46with a head wrap
30:46and everything
30:47wow
30:48of course
30:49you know
30:49we can't always
30:50make it easy
30:51easy easy right
30:52all you girls
30:53are going to have
30:54a little three year old
30:55with you in your shop
30:57so they're like
30:58cradling these
30:59like
30:59heavy like
31:00three year olds
31:02he's fighting
31:02it's not about comfort
31:04it's about
31:04the look
31:05while they are
31:07essentially in black face
31:09and brown face
31:10I didn't think
31:11it was controversial
31:12I was in my own
31:13little bubble
31:14in my own little head
31:15if this was my way
31:17of showing the world
31:18that brown and black
31:19is beautiful
31:20sister
31:21you look like
31:22a black girl
31:23girl
31:23you're like my cousin
31:24I was feeling it
31:25ass
31:25oh I loved it
31:26but then we put it
31:27out there
31:28and the world was like
31:29are you crazy
31:30have you lost your mind
31:30what the fuck
31:32is that
31:33they dead assed
31:35black face
31:35what is the goal
31:37with this photo shoot
31:38what is it
31:39it's hard to wrap
31:39your head around
31:40how this actually
31:41managed to get
31:42on the air
31:43I'm calling my best friend
31:44at commercial break
31:45like girl
31:45did you see that
31:47what the hell
31:48is going on
31:49did the industry
31:51make them do this
31:51did the industry
31:53make them come up
31:53with this photo shoot
31:54what I don't hear
31:55a lot of people
31:56talking about
31:57really is the fact
31:58that they did it again
32:00Erin
32:01you're going to be
32:03Tibetan
32:04like the Dalai Lama
32:05and
32:07Egyptian
32:08Egyptian
32:10all of us girls
32:11have to be painted
32:13and plastered
32:14with different colors
32:15I feel like
32:17I really looked exotic
32:19Brittany
32:20you are going to be
32:22Native American
32:22and East Indian
32:24looking at the show
32:26now through the 2020 lens
32:29it's an issue
32:30and I understand
32:31100% why
32:32think about Egypt
32:34the people
32:35what they've been through
32:37Tyra wants to challenge
32:39the fashion industry's
32:40ideals around
32:41what is beauty
32:42but is also still
32:44upholding ideologies
32:46and attitudes
32:48that oppressed her
32:49much as
32:50I hate and preach about
32:52models not having to be
32:53stick skinny
32:54we have to face it
32:55that we are
32:56in the fashion industry
32:57well let's start
32:58from the beginning
32:59shall we
33:02someone here
33:03is
33:04America's next
33:05Tyra
33:06I'm looking for girls
33:08that are beautiful
33:08on the outside
33:09but I'm looking for
33:10the beauty
33:10on the inside
33:11I just felt
33:12like I could do this
33:14I can do this
33:15really can kind of
33:16do weights
33:17and measures
33:17Miss J is here
33:18to take our measurements
33:20oh shoot
33:21I had up until that point
33:24only been made fun of
33:26for being really thin
33:27see who is torn
33:29and who's considered
33:31sad who thinks he's sad
33:34in school
33:35I was bullied
33:35for being slim
33:37and tall
33:37and braces
33:38and glasses
33:39I wasn't curvy
33:40and all the things
33:41that a lot of the other
33:42girls were
33:43you almost shaped
33:44like a boy
33:44minus the breast
33:46thanks
33:47so to go
33:48into this world
33:49where now
33:50my weight
33:50is an issue
33:51was really confusing
33:53for me
33:56we've got lust
33:57sloth
33:58gluttony
33:59envy
33:59we did the seven deadly sins
34:01and they gave me gluttony
34:03it's just like gluttony
34:05like
34:05ah I'm greedy
34:06I'm hungry
34:07like
34:07I just thought
34:09okay seven deadly sins
34:10like how I'm gonna make
34:11this casket work
34:12I gotta make it work
34:13don't hold your tummy
34:14like you're pregnant
34:15I really didn't think
34:16anything of it
34:17I just wanted to go with it
34:18I knew that it was
34:18a quirky show
34:19and I just had to make it work
34:20and make it fabulous
34:23gluttony looks like dumpy
34:24it's like piggy chic
34:26I don't think you look
34:27like a model
34:28I would have liked to see
34:28the donut hanging out
34:29your mouth
34:31you know in hindsight
34:32it's just kind of like
34:33they had to find something
34:35as a part of
34:36the narrative
34:38and so by the time
34:39we got to Africa
34:40we had to
34:41model and be
34:43different animals
34:44so I'm gonna be
34:45a giraffe
34:46you're gonna be an ostrich
34:47oh god
34:48Virginia
34:50you get to be the elephant
34:52I don't know how
34:53one week it's gluttony
34:56next week it's an elephant
34:58that's when I knew
34:59okay this is
35:00intentional
35:03the stomach is exposed
35:05to the highest extent
35:07it's bloated
35:08and it doesn't look good
35:09at all
35:10I have to just try
35:11how to suck it in
35:12and work it
35:13this photo is really
35:14beautiful Kenya
35:15but I hate to say it
35:16they had to do
35:17a lot of body work
35:18on you in retouching
35:19if you're sporting a gut
35:20then you turn to the side
35:22and disguise it
35:23I would love to change
35:25the rules
35:25but until that happens
35:26I think it's all about
35:27choices Kenya
35:27you can get a burger
35:28and take the bread off
35:29I'll make it work
35:30when I have to
35:31thank you
35:31to see that that was
35:32gonna be my entire narrative
35:34it just felt unfair
35:36and just felt kind of dirty
35:38Kenya needs to lose weight
35:40Kenya needs to lose weight
35:41Kenya needs to lose weight
35:44Kenya she has gained
35:45about 10 pounds
35:47the girl can smack
35:49like no other
35:50I don't think Kenya
35:51is watching what she eats
35:52that's what the judges
35:53keep telling her
35:54that's what they keep
35:54complaining about
35:55and I really don't see
35:57that much progress
35:58it was a little bit
36:00damaging to see them
36:01editing me eating
36:03the same bagel
36:05for example
36:05showing me eating it
36:07as if I've eaten
36:08three different bagels
36:09but it really was
36:09the same one
36:12she's really gaining
36:13a little weight
36:14you can see that
36:14no?
36:15yeah
36:16she should be careful
36:17of that
36:17just try and pull it in
36:18a little more
36:24it was definitely
36:26hard to see
36:27that maybe when I was
36:28just enjoying myself
36:29having no idea
36:30that the cameras
36:31were really zooming in
36:32on certain areas
36:33it definitely was
36:34a little bit damaging
36:35to watch with all
36:36of America
36:36to see that narrative
36:38play out
36:41when it comes to weight
36:46back then
36:47the fashion industry's
36:48beauty standards
36:49were so narrow
36:52that's the world
36:53that we lived in
36:58Tyra has also been
36:59criticized
37:00for her body
37:02for her weight
37:03for her body type
37:03being curvy
37:04to all of you
37:06that have something
37:06nasty to say
37:07about me
37:08or other women
37:09that are built
37:09like me
37:10kiss my fat ass
37:14and yet
37:15she's perpetuating
37:16this same message
37:17onto these women
37:18and fat shaming them
37:20Kenya
37:21when we look at you
37:21we don't see a model
37:23and as much as
37:24I hate and preach about
37:26models not having
37:27to be stick skinny
37:27we have to face it
37:29that we are
37:29in the fashion industry
37:30if you don't fit
37:32the clothes
37:32you don't work
37:35she's just real thin
37:36I love it
37:37what are you eating
37:39I have gained
37:40a little bit of weight
37:40yeah
37:40you live as a model
37:42it's your job
37:43to maintain your size
37:44okay
37:44someone who's a size 6
37:46is a plus size
37:47it's like no
37:47come on
37:48she's not fat
37:50there was a lot of that
37:51there was a lot of
37:52body shaming
37:53but then again
37:53we have to remember
37:54this is 25 years ago
37:56like we were different
37:57back then
37:58I feel like her body type
37:59isn't plus size
38:01and it isn't model size
38:02I think that she should
38:03gain weight
38:04and become a plus size model
38:05were there eating disorders
38:06on the show
38:07yes
38:07yes they were
38:08you want to do
38:09anything you can
38:10to get to the next round
38:12anything you can
38:13she gained a lot of weight
38:16it just really shocked me today
38:18I'm seeing such a huge change
38:21physically
38:21I know people say
38:23it was irresponsible
38:24to have these discussions
38:26but they were very relevant
38:28to the time
38:29I think there was
38:30a very difficult balance
38:32to strike
38:32a lot of the girls
38:33developed some really
38:35unhealthy habits
38:36is that all your lunch
38:37that's how you're eating
38:37that's how you're eating
38:39I'm even sad ass
38:42you're gonna get sick
38:44if you eat like that
38:44it was very common
38:45to live on diet coke
38:47and cigarettes
38:47it was like the
38:48Karl Lagerfeld
38:49Chanel diet
38:49look at this waist
38:51you have the smallest waist
38:52in the world
38:53there's something about her
38:54that I like
38:55when the only people
38:56you saw
38:57didn't look like you
38:58plus size modeling
38:59did not exist
39:00I mean that wasn't
39:02even a thing
39:03my name is Whitney
39:05and I'm from
39:05Atlantic Beach, Florida
39:09I represent
39:10a healthy
39:11American woman
39:12which should be
39:14the ideal
39:15American woman
39:16when we started filming
39:17I was a size 6
39:18I was 5'10
39:20and weighed 115 pounds
39:21I thought
39:22that I looked good
39:23and then you go
39:24on TV
39:25and you're like
39:25oh shit
39:26uh
39:26maybe not
39:28okay
39:28okay I got it
39:29I know that's really good
39:31actually
39:31it's perfect
39:32I look skinny
39:32it was
39:33a big juxtaposition
39:35to go into this
39:36fashion world
39:37where people are like
39:38oh my god
39:39you're such a fat cow
39:40this is size 10
39:41a size 10
39:42we wouldn't use
39:43for the runway
39:43so usually runway
39:45is 2
39:47I completely
39:47yeah
39:48it's definitely
39:49frustrating
39:49because obviously
39:50I'm discriminated against
39:51because
39:52I'm not a size 2
39:53it's just sad to me
39:55that it's so like
39:56you can't be a size 2
40:02filming
40:02with a bunch of other
40:04size 00 models
40:06I suddenly
40:07felt a lot more
40:08self-conscious
40:09I want to get fat
40:10like you
40:11perhaps you meant
40:12P-H-A-T
40:13I would go to set
40:15and they would have
40:16nothing that would fit me
40:17and they would have
40:17to cut open the back
40:18and clamp it
40:20I don't know
40:21if they're really prepared
40:22for my size
40:23because these are sample sizes
40:24and sample sizes
40:25are size 2
40:27and I'm not size 2
40:28it just makes you feel
40:30like shit
40:30you know
40:31to not be the right size
40:32it was just demeaning
40:34but there was a model
40:36named Takara
40:36who was on previously
40:38and she went to set
40:39they didn't have clothes
40:40that fit her
40:40and she kind of
40:41you know
40:42let them know
40:43how she felt about that
40:44you can't find something
40:45in my size
40:46so I'm supposed to feel bad
40:47because
40:48you're taking everything
40:50as a negative
40:50I don't think
40:51that you realize
40:52how this whole modeling
40:52thing works
40:54and she got cut
40:55that week
40:56they could easily
40:57have gotten clothes
40:58that were my size
40:59but that was a choice
41:00that they made
41:01and I dealt with that
41:03as well as I could
41:04because if they see weakness
41:07they're gone
41:11I later found out
41:13that
41:13there were women
41:15who developed
41:15eating disorders
41:16from comparing themselves
41:18to what
41:19I was looking like
41:20and what the
41:21judges were saying
41:26Tara tells me
41:27you know what
41:27this picture is beautiful
41:28but we have to retouch
41:29the heck
41:30out of your stomach
41:31this one clip
41:32was enough to spiral
41:33my disordered eating
41:35into an ED
41:36for decades
41:37I remember when I was a kid
41:39back then
41:40and I would watch shows
41:42like America's Next Top Model
41:43and you would basically
41:45see Tara Banks
41:46telling women
41:46how their bodies
41:47are not acceptable
41:48and they were tiny as hell
41:50to like skinny petite girl
41:51it just blows my mind
41:52because look how petite
41:53this woman is
41:54I don't want to
41:55fat shame anybody
41:56but she looks like a wig
41:58you know the kind of
41:59psychological damage
42:00that does on a bench
42:01it showed me a lot
42:02of things that weren't
42:03I am beautiful
42:04when I was younger
42:05look at
42:05I think there's just
42:08some level of responsibility
42:09to the viewer
42:10knowing that there are
42:11so many young women
42:12watching this show
42:14there's an insensitivity
42:15towards what it would do
42:17for their self-confidence
42:19I wish I could say
42:21shaming my body
42:21was the end of it
42:23but the production
42:24didn't stop there
42:28I'm in South Africa
42:30we're down to the last girls
42:32I can feel
42:33that I could possibly
42:34win this show
42:35on today's show
42:37you're going to be dancing
42:39with three hot guys
42:41I remember getting on set
42:43and like
42:44one of the male models
42:45Bertini
42:47was
42:49very aggressively
42:50hitting on me
42:53Bertini is a very
42:54interesting person
42:55before we go on to the shoot
42:56like he's very very flirty
42:58she only gave me a number
42:59I don't have one
43:00it was very awkward
43:01you give me that massage
43:03he wants a massage from me
43:05sorry gotta go ride the wardrobe
43:07after that
43:08on set
43:09no one's really paying
43:10much attention to it
43:11at all
43:11I have to pretty much
43:13fin for myself
43:14it's space now
43:15I gotta
43:16I gotta break this out
43:18I need some space
43:19okay guys get close
43:21music
43:22the male models
43:23were supposed to dance
43:24around us
43:26mind you
43:26they all have just this
43:27teeny tiny little piece
43:29of loincloth
43:30covering their members
43:31and
43:32Bertini was like
43:34touching me
43:34grabbing me
43:36I really felt that he was
43:37just taking advantage
43:39of
43:39the moment
43:40to
43:41touch me
43:43I remember thinking to myself
43:45what would Tyra do
43:47in this situation
43:48Tyra would
43:49politely and professionally
43:51stop the shoot
43:52and just let everyone know
43:53that she feels a little
43:54uncomfortable
43:55and so that's exactly
43:56what I did
43:57what's the issue
43:58I know it's not about
43:59feeling comfortable
44:00but
44:02hearing moaning
44:03it just threw me off
44:04moaning where
44:05like on me
44:06like I'm sorry
44:07I just didn't feel comfortable
44:10I didn't get the response
44:11that I thought
44:11I was going to get
44:12the looks on their faces
44:13were just like
44:15how dare you
44:16stop our production
44:18we're here
44:19in a professional situation
44:20there are like
44:2150 of us
44:21sitting here on set
44:22right
44:22right
44:23we're going with flow
44:26to be on a TV set
44:28in front of so many people
44:30and still not be protected
44:34is some pretty dark stuff
44:38there is a line
44:39that I feel was crossed
44:41and I hope that doesn't
44:42come out in my picture
44:43when I go to the panel
44:53thank you
44:56welcome ladies
44:58hi
44:59now it's time to make
45:00our 11th cut
45:01which will bring us
45:03I recall that
45:04that judging panel
45:05there was a real discussion
45:07around what happened
45:08here is your best shot
45:12it's a good shot
45:13it's not a slamming shot
45:14I would have liked
45:14to see more neck
45:15yeah more neck
45:16more movement
45:17the thing is that
45:18this male model
45:20Bertini
45:20he was swinging with me
45:22he was grinding on me
45:23I feel like he
45:24wait can we stop it
45:27the fact
45:29that
45:30the photo that was chosen
45:32is a photo of Bertini
45:33literally grabbing my legs
45:36are we going to really
45:37choose the shot
45:37where he's grabbing her
45:38in the shot
45:40I mean the receipts
45:41are right there
45:43it's wild that
45:44that got passed
45:44however many people
45:45it got passed
45:47there has to be a way
45:49that you can handle it
45:49you know you have to be
45:50able to be in control
45:56some of those things
45:57are also kind of
45:58the reality of the world
45:59you know unfortunately
46:00in the fashion industry
46:01there's always been
46:02a lot of issues
46:03with you know
46:04sort of harassment
46:05in every sort of shape
46:07or way
46:07whether you're a male model
46:08or a female model
46:09actually
46:09you know not everyone
46:10is going to handle
46:11the same situation
46:12in the same way
46:12but you as an individual
46:14should be able to stand up
46:15for yourself
46:15and say hey no
46:16this isn't working
46:17or you know
46:18or figure it out
46:19and just get the job done
46:20I mean there's people
46:20and cameras everywhere
46:21like with your feminine wiles
46:23like boy you best to back up
46:24before I knock you
46:25inside the head
46:25but you do it in a fun way
46:27where he knows
46:28to back the heck up
46:29but it doesn't really
46:31put static in the air
46:31because then it makes
46:32you uncomfortable
46:33I was trying to empower her
46:35with the information
46:36that I had
46:37to say
46:38you tell him to back up
46:40and da da da
46:40don't we miss not much
46:41you know that's kind of
46:42what I was saying
46:43not verbatim
46:44because I felt like
46:45that was empowering her
46:47based on the information
46:48that I had
46:50I thought that was
46:51the best advice
46:52but it should have been
46:53stop down
46:55and that's what
46:56would happen today
46:57we now all understand
46:59the protections
47:00that women need
47:02and so I say to Kenya
47:04boo boo I am so sorry
47:05none of us knew
47:07network executives
47:09didn't know
47:09and I did the best
47:11that I could at that time
47:12but she deserved more
47:14she did
47:18I can see how someone
47:20watching the show
47:21would feel upset
47:23there was a time
47:25when the creative
47:27of the show
47:28started to shift
47:30we were supposed
47:31to be showing
47:32the behind the scenes
47:33of what the fashion world
47:34was
47:35helping change
47:37the industry
47:39but the show
47:40had evolved
47:41in a way
47:42way I'd never expected
47:44I really struggled
47:45over some of the things
47:47that happened
47:47I have never in my life
47:49be ordered a girl like this
47:50and that was something
47:51that was slowly
47:53depleting me
47:54chipping away
47:55at my soul
47:57I just don't think
47:58this is like great for me
47:59I don't want to do it
48:00I want to go home
48:00don't you think
48:01any job interview
48:04it was time to tell Tyra
48:06I wanted to leave the show
48:19I want to go home
48:20I want to go home
48:20and I want to go home
48:20to the show
48:20and I want to go home
48:22and I want to go home
48:22to the show
48:23left foot right foot
48:25never miss
48:25strike a pose
48:26blow a kiss
48:27left foot right foot
48:28let them know
48:29center stage
48:30steal the show
48:31flash flash
48:32can pop
48:33paparazzi
48:34on my block
48:35miss thing
48:35do your thing
48:36top model
48:37runway quote
49:00high heels
49:01high heels
49:02high stakes
49:02cover girl
49:03make no mistake
49:04high heels
49:05high stakes
49:06cover girl
49:07make no mistake
49:08night
49:13miss thing
49:16do your thing
49:17top model
49:18online
49:19laughing
49:26meme
49:36in
49:40You
50:36You
51:06You
51:19You
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