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00:01not because I actually lied but because of this thing on my wrist the Verity
00:06band mom was obsessed with science-based parenting so when my twin sister Emma and
00:13I were born she strapped these bands on us green light means truth red light
00:18means you're manipulating reality Emma's band always green she could literally
00:24cut up mom's designer dress and blame the cat and that little device would
00:28glow like a Christmas tree not me she'd say green light believed me I'd say mom
00:36I'm hungry and flash red light instant punishment and mom's punishment wasn't
00:43gentle no food locked in my room digital blackout no phone no Wi-Fi nothing she'd
00:52say the machine doesn't lie Stella starve now learn later I'm doing this for your
00:58own good after 10 years of this I started believing it too maybe I really was born
01:04wrong New Year's Eve everything changed my mom New Year's Eve everything changed mom
01:14was getting ready to take Emma to see the ball drop in Times Square and that's when
01:18the pain hit like a knife twisting in my gut I collapsed on the floor my skeletal frame curling
01:26into itself mom please it hurts the band flashed red she looked down at me disgust in her eyes nice
01:35try Stella faking sick to crash our night pathological she grabbed Emma's hand and headed for the door I wanted
01:43to scream
01:44but part of me thought maybe she's right the band is red so I must be lying I must not
01:52actually be in pain
01:53sorry mom I won't lie anymore but the pain got worse way worse New Year's the door handle turned
02:06for one second I thought she's coming back she's a doctor she'll know something's wrong
02:12hurry up the fireworks are starting Emma's waiting please something's really wrong I feel like I'm dying
02:20she glanced at my wrist red light flashing like crazy she crouched down grabbed my chin forced me
02:28Stella how long are you going to keep this up can't you just be honest stay here and think about
02:34what you've done
02:35honey should we at least leave her some food mom stood up food she has a stash of snacks she
02:43bought
02:43with stolen money she won't starve brushing off her hands like I was dirt lock the door when that band
02:49turns green we'll talk but but what soft parenting is why she's like this look at Emma her band is
02:57always
02:58green Stella's just a compulsive liar she needs discipline but my closet was empty Emma stole that
03:06money Emma ate those snacks I tried to defend myself once I didn't take it either red light three days
03:16locked up with nothing but bread and water the Emma peeked through the door made a face at me that's
03:24us we're
03:24gonna see the pretty fireworks the door locked the house went silent just me alone the pain was
03:34unbearable but I kept thinking mom's right the machine doesn't lie the band is red so I must be lying
03:44I'm not in pain I'm not in pain I'm not in pain I'm not in pain I crawled to my
03:52desk I had to write
03:54that was the rule if the band glowed red I had to pen a thousand word apology essay or mom
04:01would
04:01never let me out I am a liar I opened my journal pages and pages of apologies I'd written over
04:09the
04:09years but this time I wanted to write the truth my vision blurred I could barely see my hand shook
04:18as I
04:19wrote mom I really love you it really hurts why won't you believe me please believe me just once the
04:30moment I
04:31finished the last word the pain vanished just gone I felt light weightless I looked down I was floating and
04:42there
04:43slumped over the desk was my body motionless the Verity band still flashing red on a dead girl's wrist oh
04:52I'm dead
04:54Emma I heard laughter mom dad Emma coming through the front door tonight's fireworks were amazing especially
05:04that smiley face one just like our Emma mom's voice was so warm I'd never heard her sound like that
05:12when
05:12she talked about me I wanted to help them take off their coats that's what I always did mom I
05:20reached out
05:20to hug her my arms passed right through her body like wind she shivered why is it so cold in
05:28here is the heat
05:29off I stood there staring at my transparent hands right dead people can't hug the living should we check
05:38on Stella dad said casually she hasn't eaten if she finds me dead will she be sad will she regret
05:46it
05:56still putting on an act think I'll carry you to bed Stella you're 10 years old not five I screamed
06:04at
06:05her only two feet away mom I'm not playing I'm dead look at me touch me I'm freezing Emma squeezed
06:15past her held up her wrist with that smug little grin look my band's green Stella's is still red she's
06:24lying even in her dreams mom patted Emma's head that's my good girl ignore the liar let her stay
06:31there maybe she'll learn how to be honest dad peeked in should we at least put her in bed it's
06:38freezing
06:38put her in bed the parenting expert says cold treatment is the answer look at that red light
06:44she's still in full defiance mode come on we have to visit grandma tomorrow the door locked again I
06:51floated next to my corpse staring at that single point of red light in the darkness mom if you just
06:58stepped closer if you just touched my hand you'd know I was ice cold but you didn't still that night
07:07a
07:07rat crawled out of my empty closet I used to scream whenever I saw rats but now I just floated
07:14by the
07:14ceiling watching it scurry across my dead body it bit into my toe it's okay you can't feel it anymore
07:21it'll be over soon the next morning sunlight streamed through the window no warmth reached my body in the
07:30kitchen I could hear mom making breakfast the smell of bacon and eggs crept under my door my favorite
07:37but mom always said liars don't deserve meat so I only ever got steamed broccoli she was claying the
07:45pans extra loud on purpose trying to tempt me out trying to make me give in and apologize for things
07:52I
07:52never did in the old days I might have caved but I don't need food anymore Stella still hasn't come
08:02out that night Stella still hasn't come out dad asked reading his paper she is so stubborn she can
08:10eat or not I don't care Emma walked to my door and made a big show of sniffing the air
08:16then she screamed
08:18dramatically mom mom stormed over pounding on the door Stella are you an animal the bathroom is right
08:30there did you seriously go on the floor just to spite me I remembered being six I had food poisoning
08:37couldn't make it to the bathroom in time soiled my pants mom didn't help me clean up she made me
08:44stand
08:44in the yard pointed at me and told the neighbors look at this she's such a mess she can't even
08:50use
08:50the toilet by herself now she thought I was dirty again leave her mom said waving her hand like she
08:58was swatting a fly let her sit in her own stink but dad stood up frowning that smells really bad
09:05I
09:06should check could be a dead mouse or something dad please open the door I'm right here I waved my
09:13transparent arms frantically dad's hand touched the doorknob still his phone was ringing dad's face
09:21went pale what the server crashed okay okay I'm on my way honey there's an emergency at work I'll be
09:29gone for a few days wait what about Stella he was already out the door if that call had come
09:36one second
09:37later I would have been found maybe then I wouldn't have rotted alone that afternoon mom took Emma
09:44shopping the house was empty except for my corpse when they came back that night loaded down with fancy
09:50lobster and gifts the smell had gotten worse mom gagged the second she walked in Stella are you trying to
09:58turn this place into a dump she didn't even open my door she grabbed duct tape and sealed the gap
10:04at
10:04the bottom you want to be disgusting fine stew in it don't stink up my house she patted her hands
10:12together
10:12satisfied then went to steam the lobster I stared at that sealed door my last shred of hope suffocated
10:21under that tape his phone was ringing by day three even the duct tape couldn't contain the smell mom was
10:28arranging fresh flowers trying to cover it up but the stench of death is unmistakable sweet rotten oily
10:38she cut a rose stem too hard a thorn pierced her hand she snapped Stella she grabbed a rolling pin
10:46from the kitchen storm toward my room I'm done with you you disgusting little brat time you learned what
10:53real pain feels like don't come in mom please I'm decomposed you'll be scared even though she never
11:02loved me I didn't want her to see me like that but she ripped the tape off jammed the spare
11:09key in the
11:10lock bang the door flew open the smell hit her like a wall she stumbled back dry heaving Stella what
11:21are you
11:21doing by day three she saw me still slumped over the desk back turned not moving
11:29to her this was the ultimate rebellion I'm talking to you she marched over raised the rolling pin
11:38but stopped she wanted to see my face first wanted to see my defiant expression get up the moment she
11:48touched me she froze through the thin fabric her hand didn't feel warm flesh what but momentum carried her
11:58forward she yanked my body stiff as a board toppled backward taking the chair with it and there
12:06was my face on my blackened wrist the Verity band hung lifeless my journal slid off the desk fell open
12:16at
12:16mom's feet the last page stared up at her mom my stomach really hurts the band is broken I'm not
12:24lying
12:25please don't punish me she saw me mom screamed not a human sound a raw guttural shriek that tore through
12:35her throat she stumbled backward slammed into the bookshelf a vase shattered but she didn't seem to feel
12:43the pain she just stared at me eyes wide unblinking no no no no this is makeup special effects Stella
12:52get up
12:52i'm not mad anymore stop scaring me her hand reached out trembling to touch my arm the second her skin
13:00made contact with my corpse she recoiled like she'd been burned that cold was too real mrs lisa from
13:08next door nine one one i heard a scream she'd heard the screaming when she saw what was in my
13:13room she
13:13collapsed within minutes sirens police a medical examiner they pulled up the crime scene tape cameras
13:22flashed over my body mom sat on the couch a female officer's hand on her shoulder she was babbling she
13:29was faking she always lies the band was red machines don't lie i was just teaching her i was doing
13:38it for
13:38her own good no one responded they all looked at her like she was a monster the medical examiner crouched
13:45next to my body he muttered under his breath severe malnutrition organ failure this kid was starved for
13:53at least a month he carefully tried to remove the verity band but it had fused damn he cursed he
14:02had to
14:02use tools to pry it off even dead my soul flinched
14:13mom a cop picked up my journal put on gloves started reading mom's eyes locked onto that book
14:21suddenly she lunged for it that's her confession she admits she lied look she wrote it herself
14:28the officer pushed her back slid the journal into an evidence bag we'll determine what's true
14:34that's when dad got home he saw the black body bag being wheeled out on a stretcher
14:40saw the long zipper that sealed away my entire life his legs gave out he collapsed wet himself
14:49emma stood nearby sobbing in confusion she pointed at the blood-stained verity band on the evidence table
14:57why is stella's band black mine's still green see she held up her wrist the green light blinked
15:05cheerfully it was grotesque the cops started questioning mom in the living room she grabbed
15:13the verity band off the table like it was a life raft test it that band proved she was lying
15:19red light
15:20means lie i never abused her the machine told me i was just educating her the officer looked at her
15:27like she'd lost her mind ma'am the victim shows signs of extreme malnutrition that's discipline that's
15:35teaching her to be honest mom was shrieking now then she did something insane you don't believe me
15:43fine i'll wear it i'm not lying watch it'll be green she snatched the band still stained with my
15:51blood and bits of skin and jammed it onto her own wrist click locked the rubber pressed against her skin
16:00sticky cold she took a deep breath and tried to calm herself she needed to prove she was innocent
16:09needed to prove her parenting was right she held up her wrist eyes wild watch i'm rachel i'm stella's
16:19mother that's a fact absolute truth the red light exploded bright violent like a fresh wound tearing open
16:29mom's confident expression shattered she slapped the band like it was a broken tv what no i said the truth
16:39i am rachel she started talking faster panic rising in her voice it's broken the examiner broke it let
16:47me try again i never abused her i did it for her own good i love her the red light
16:54flashed faster and
16:56suddenly she remembered me 10 years old getting the maximum punishment curled on the floor biting my lip so i
17:05wouldn't scream is this what it felt like mom lost it completely she started screaming at the band spit
17:14flying why is it red i'm telling the truth turn green you piece of junk you're framing me but the
17:22red light
17:23kept flashing like it was mocking her you're a liar you're a liar you're a liar
17:31the dad couldn't take it anymore this man who'd been invisible for 10 years who always stayed out of
17:39it he snapped he lunged at mom and slapped her across the face you monster what did you do that
17:48was your
17:48daughter you treated her like an animal mom fell to the floor blood at the corner of her mouth but
17:56she
17:56didn't fight back didn't cry she just stared into space muttering not my fault not my fault then her
18:05eyes landed on emma cowering in the corner it's her it's emma emma's band was always green emma was
18:13the good one if it wasn't for that green light making me trust her i wouldn't have believed the red
18:18light so much this is emma's fault all eyes turned to emma that little princess we'd all protected the
18:26cop walked over gently removed the green verity band from her wrist took out a screwdriver pried it open
18:33right there crack the plastic shell split inside no sensors no chips no heart rate monitor just two
18:44cheap led lights and a watch battery the circuit was hardwired power on green light that's it this is
18:52a two dollar toy your younger daughter's band was factory set to always be green no matter what she
18:59said did or lied about it would glow green your so-called science-based parenting was a joke
19:08a sick biased joke dad couldn't take it anymore no mom suddenly screamed she clawed at the band
19:16get it off get it off it's red i'm not a liar i'm not but the clasp was jammed from
19:23her violent struggle
19:24wouldn't budge i can't get it off stella take it back i'm sorry it's all my fault this little bit
19:32of pain
19:32and she was breaking mom i suffered for 10 years the cops needed evidence for charges and you better
19:40so they opened my journal in front of my parents february 14th sunny mom put celery on my plate i'm
19:49allergic my throat swells i can't breathe i said i can't eat it but because i was scared of making
19:55her
19:55angry my heart raced red light mom said i was picky lying made me eat the whole plate that night
20:04i threw up blood my throat felt like it was on fire mom saw it and said i'd snuck tomato
20:10juice that i was
20:11faking she punished me for 10 more minutes mom's hand flew to her mouth she was shaking violently
20:19she remembered that night the officer turned the page june 1st children's day emma cut up mom's dress
20:27emma's heart rate is always slow green light i tried to explain but i was scared of getting beaten
20:34so my heart raced red light dad couldn't take it anymore this man who'd been invisible for 10 years
20:42who always stayed out of it he snapped dad couldn't take it anymore this man who'd been invisible for 10
20:51years who always stayed out of it he snapped he lunged at mom and slapped her across the face
20:59you monster what did you do that was your daughter you treated her like an animal mom fell to the
21:07floor
21:08blood at the corner of her mouth but she didn't fight back didn't cry she just stared into space
21:15muttering not my fault not my fault then her eyes landed on emma cowering in the corner it's her it's
21:24emma
21:25emma's band was always green emma was the good one if it wasn't for that green light making me trust
21:31her i wouldn't have believed the red light so much this is emma's fault all eyes turned to emma that
21:38little princess we'd all protected the cop walked over gently removed the green verity band from her wrist
21:45took out a screwdriver pried it open right there crack the plastic shell split inside no sensors
21:55no chips no heart rate monitor just two cheap led lights and a watch battery the circuit was hard
22:03wired power on green light that's it this is a two dollar toy your younger daughter's band was factory
22:11set to always be green no matter what she said did or lied about it would glow green your so
22:19-called
22:19science-based parenting was a joke a sick biased joke dad could i laughed laughed until i cried turns
22:31out ghosts can cry too the officer turned to the last page of the journal her voice broke the handwriting
22:40was a mess clearly written while dying mom if i die will the band stop glowing red or if it
22:49turns green
22:50will you hug me then i'm not lying my stomach hurts so much like knives next life please don't make
23:01me
23:01wear the band please mom stared at the shattered pieces of plastic on the table
23:07that green light she trusted without question a cheap piece of junk mom started laughing her voice
23:17cracking with every sound but it was the laugh of someone breaking worse than crying fake all fake
23:26i killed my honest daughter and i worshipped a liar she'd lost her mind for real this time
23:35i left my death became front page news mrs lisa the neighborhood gossip posted everything online
23:43title girls starved to death by fake science band she described my corpse in detail the band fused to rotting
23:54flesh the internet exploded monster murderer she doesn't deserve to be a mother
24:02comments poured in like an avalanche someone doxxed mom our address got leaked people threw red paint
24:10on our door wrote death in huge letters dad got arrested too neglect failure to protect he wasn't there when
24:21i died so he got off light but his company fired him immediately to avoid the pr nightmare
24:27our family went bankrupt sold the house the car everything to pay legal fees dad couldn't stand
24:36living with that psycho anymore he took what little money was left and emma and disappeared emma was a
24:45bad seed sure but she was still his blood before they left emma tried to take her green band
24:52dad stomped on it why the hell would you want that piece of trash emma cried as he dragged her
24:58away
25:00mom got out on bail the psych eval said she had severe ptsd and psychosis they left her alone in
25:08that rental
25:08apartment the one that still smelled like death her mental state deteriorated fast she started talking to
25:16me like i was still there and she refused to take off the red light band to punish herself she'd
25:23added a
25:23shock device to it one that delivered a jolt the second the light flashed red she said the small
25:30shocks were the only thing that eased her guilt she'd cook a whole table of food then talk to the
25:37empty
25:37air she'd pick up a piece of meat her hands shook the band flashed red she was anxious she smiled
25:46but her
25:47eyes were empty mom's heart is racing mom's lying liars don't deserve food picked up a remote one she'd
25:56rewired to trigger the shock on her wristband and shocked herself it hurts it hurts is this what stella
26:05felt i'm sorry mom got out mom started reenacting my diary entries i couldn't eat celery because of my
26:14allergy so she forced herself to eat spoiled food until she vomited blood then swallowed it back down
26:22i was locked in isolation so she locked herself in my old room lights off and bowed to my photo
26:29until
26:29her forehead bled over and over blood on the floor late at night she'd see the red glow of the
26:39band
26:39reflected on the wall to her it looked like my bloody eyes watching she scribbled in red pen on the
26:47back
26:47of my journal i'm sorry i was wrong red light means pain red light means love please come back and
26:55say it
26:56hurts one more time i'll save you i promise too bad i'm dead dead people can't cry for help
27:05eventually the state intervened mom's self-harm got so extreme she nearly killed herself that they
27:13committed her she ended up in a psychiatric facility she was the strangest patient there
27:20she'd found a red plastic ring somewhere and wore it around her neck like a collar her homemade band
27:28if anyone tried to remove it she'd bite them like a rabid dog don't touch my light stella's watching
27:35she'll be mad if you take it she developed a pavlovian response rachel time to eat mom would touch her
27:44neck then start convulsing screaming red light red light don't punish me i'll eat i'll eat even if the
27:52food was scalding hot she'd gulp it down burning her esophagus wouldn't spit it out she was reenacting
28:00my final moments living my hell on repeat mom started reenacting my diet years later emma grew up
28:08without proper guidance and with a trail of infamy behind her she ended up at the bottom of society
28:15when she ran out of money she remembered mom's still in that facility she showed up one day
28:21not for love for cash
28:31hey crazy lady dad's dead give me your hidden stash disgusting just like your dead daughter if you
28:40don't give me money i'll pull your tubes and send you to join her for a moment mom's cloudy eyes
28:47cleared
28:47she looked at emma and suddenly remembered that band that always green toy that decade of deception
28:58it was you mom's voice was gravel you lied you're the fake green light you killed stella give
29:07her back give her back the last shred of maternal love twisted into vengeance mom lunged grabbed emma
29:17by the throat die you should have died not her you help emma thrashed but couldn't break free from a
29:26mad woman's grip orderlies rushed in sedated mom pulled her off emma stumbled out of the room terrified
29:35they're all insane
29:37she bolted for the exit a truck plowed into her she survived barely both legs shattered beyond repair
29:48wheelchair for life a total wreck meanwhile mom was strapped to a bed staring at the ceiling tears
29:56streaming in her dreams she finally saw me i was 10 again no band white dress smiling mom
30:07she reached for me crying with joy stella but her hands sparked with electricity the second she
30:16touched me i burst into flames turned to ash no she woke up screaming heart rate through the roof
30:25if she'd been wearing that band it would have been blood red eternal torment
30:31years later i stood in the void watching it all mom in the facility emma in a wheelchair begging on
30:40the streets
30:41dad drunk and dead in some gutter i felt nothing no satisfaction just a flat dead calm
30:53next to me was an old dog buddy my childhood pet mom threw him out years ago
31:00he'd been waiting for me at the boundary buddy nuzzled my leg barked twice as if to say let's go
31:08don't look back yeah time to leave this life was too bitter nothing worth holding on to
31:18i floated to mom's hospital room one final time she looked ancient hair completely white frail as paper
31:28she sensed something her cloudy eyes focused on a point in the air right where i stood stella is that
31:37you her trembling hand reached into the emptiness mom destroyed the band i don't believe in it anymore
31:44come back please i'll cook for you no celery i'll buy you new dresses not emma tears rolled down her
31:52face
31:53i looked at the red marks on her neck from the homemade band i sighed reached out
32:01my cold ghostly finger touched her forehead sleep mom in sleep there's no pain
32:09a breeze blew through the room the old journal on her nightstand flipped open
32:14the last page my dying words stared up at the ceiling but below it in shaky handwriting were new lines
32:24written by mom during a lucid moment next life let me wear the band let me be the liar punish
32:31me
32:31however you want just don't leave me i stared at those words felt nothing too late repentance means
32:42nothing to the dead mom i don't hate you anymore but i don't love you either let's not meet again
32:52i turned away buddy wagged his tail in the distance a door of light appeared the gateway to the next
33:01cycle
33:01i looked at my wrist the phantom verity band still there even in spirit form i grabbed it
33:11it shattered into stardust i felt weightless free no red light no hunger no lies just freedom
33:23i flew morning came a nurse pushed open the door rachel time for your meds no response she walked
33:31closer rachel's hand clutched the torn journal a single tear crystallized at the corner of her eye
33:38on the heart monitor the wavy line had gone flat passing through the light wasn't violent no spinning
33:45no chaos just warmth like sinking into a spring stream even the lingering ache in my soul the phantom
33:53pains started to fade buddy pressed into my palm his fur wasn't translucent anymore it was soft warm
34:02real this was the living breathing connection i'd craved as a kid come on boy i held his paw and
34:08walked
34:09toward the brightness behind me the old life faded like a worn photograph mom's final tear the red glow
34:16of the band blood on the diary pages all of it blurred dissolved i didn't look back that 10-year
34:23nightmare was finally truly over passing when i opened my eyes again i was tiny wrapped in soft blankets
34:34someone was humming a woman's voice gentle off key but full of love her fingers brushed my cheek
34:43the scent of gardenias not the sterile hospital smell of my old mom not the cold clinical distance
34:50i blinked up at her she had kind eyes a soft smile she cradled me like i was made of
34:58glass
34:59grace is awake she murmured honey come quick our daughter just blinked a man appeared tall a little
35:07awkward but his face lit up when he saw me he touched my tiny hand with one finger his voice
35:14was deep warm
35:16hey grace i'm your dad grace not stella no weight no chains no lies just grace sterling
35:25a name that meant something light something cherished when i opened this house was small
35:34but clean cozy cartoon stickers on the walls plants on the balcony sunlight pouring through the windows
35:42warm on the floor i realized fast this family was nothing like the last one they never forced
35:50me to do anything there were no verity bands i grew learned to crawl to talk and when i was
35:59three
36:00mom made sauteed celery the green stalks on the plate triggered me i flashed back to choking throat
36:08swelling vomiting blood i stumbled backward shaking tears came without permission mom immediately put down
36:17the spatula crouched pulled me into a hug grace what's wrong you don't like celery i couldn't speak
36:25just shook my head sobbing dad knelt too rubbed my back hey it's okay you don't have to eat it
36:36can you
36:36tell us why their eyes were patient gentle finally i choked out it hurts my throat makes me bleed
36:46they didn't say the machine doesn't lie they didn't accuse me of faking they took me to the doctor
36:54immediately turns out i really do have a celery allergy mild but it can flare up with stress
37:02after that celery never appeared in the house again mom even added it to her phone notes grace's
37:09allergies celery mango she checked every time she shopped i lay in her arms that night smelling gardenias
37:17and realized this is what it feels like to be believed love isn't measured by a machine it's listening
37:25even when the story sounds impossible this house was small when i was four preschool had a health screening
37:31blood draw i saw the needle and lost it flashes of the band burning my wrist flashes of starvation
37:40i screamed clung to dad's leg the teacher sighed grace it's just a little poke all the other
37:48kids were brave i couldn't stop shaking don't punish me i'm not lying dad immediately scooped me up
37:56shielding me from the nurse sorry he said firmly she's got trauma we'll skip this for now and take
38:04her to a pediatric psychologist on the drive home dad didn't scold me for being weak he just asked gently
38:13grace did someone hurt you before i buried my face in his shoulder tears soaking his shirt
38:21mom band red light i couldn't explain it clearly but he listened nodded you've been through hell
38:32haven't you it's okay dad's here now no one's ever hurting you again from then on they took me to
38:41a
38:41child therapist regularly severe ptsd the doctor said my parents never complained never made me feel like a
38:51burden they played honesty games with me where i could say anything true or false and they'd just
38:58listen guide me gently toward the truth they bought me colorful bracelets but never forced me to wear them
39:06these are just accessories grace wear them if you want take them off if you don't we'll love you either
39:11way
39:12slowly i started to heal i could say i don't like this without fear
39:18i could say i'm scared i'm scared i could say i want that i didn't have to worry about my
39:26heart racing
39:27being evidence of a lie i started sharing my preschool stories with them i cried when i didn't get a
39:34toy
39:35i laughed when i got praise i was finally just a kid a normal loved kid
39:42when i was when i turned seven i started elementary school there was a girl in my class annie sullivan
39:51she looked exactly like emma same eyes but her hair was shorter and she was timid scared the first
40:01time i saw her my heart clenched flashbacks emma's smug grin the green light mocking me
40:09i stepped back instinctively annie noticed she looked down voice barely a whisper
40:16i'm annie do you want to be friends her tone was so careful so desperate to please just like i
40:25used
40:25to be i glanced at her wrist she wore a cheap green cartoon bracelet my stomach turned
40:32later i found out annie's mom was strict too demanded honesty locked her in her room without
40:40food when she made mistakes one day annie accidentally broke the teacher's mug she was trembling too
40:47scared to admit it i saw her face red rimmed eyes barely holding back tears i remembered myself at that
40:56desk writing i'm a liar a thousand times i walked over took her hand annie it's okay accidents happen
41:06let's tell the teacher together she won't be mad annie looked at me shocked but mom says liars are bad
41:14kids
41:16being honest isn't about never making mistakes it's about owning up when you do and even if you tell
41:22the truth you shouldn't be punished for it if the teacher yells i'll protect you if your mom yells
41:28come to my house my parents will help i gave her the courage i never had she confessed the teacher
41:36forgave her told her to be more careful next time from that day on we were best friends when i
41:43i brought
41:44annie home to meet my parents she saw how warm they were how they didn't yell didn't punish over little
41:52things i told her you don't have to make everyone happy you're allowed to feel things say things
42:03one day annie's mom came to pick her up from school she saw us together and her face twisted
42:10she grabbed annie's hand did you mess up again is grace covering for you annie immediately looked down
42:19i stepped in front of her ma'am annie didn't do anything wrong she's a good kid you shouldn't always
42:28assume the worst she's scared of you the mom froze looked at me then at annie's tear-filled eyes
42:38her expression softened that night she called my mom thanked her you're welcome said i'd opened her
42:47eyes over time annie's mom got gentler started listening instead of yelling and annie she blossomed
42:59confident we learned about happy i watched her laugh freely one day and felt this warmth in my chest
43:08i didn't get saved in my last life i suffered alone in the dark but this time i could save
43:16someone else
43:18i could stop another stella from happening maybe that's the gift my past life gave me
43:25the ability to see pain and to heal it
43:31when i was 10 my parents took me to visit grandma in the countryside there was an old tree in
43:37her yard
43:38just like the one at my old grandma's house i sat under it watching sunlight filter through the leaves
43:45buddy does next to me then i saw her an old woman white hair hunched over a cane
43:53wearing a faded blue shirt the second i saw her face i froze
43:58she looked exactly like rachel my old mom grandma noticed me too walked over slowly her eyes were hazy
44:09but there was something familiar in them what's your name child grace sterling she repeated it softly
44:17grace that's a beautiful name she reached out like she wanted to touch my hair then hesitated pulled
44:24back like she was afraid of disturbing something sacred my mom came over studied her mom this is our
44:32daughter grace so she was my grandma in this life over the next few days grandma watched me constantly
44:41her expression unreadable one day she brought me a bowl of steak burger
44:46grace eat up this used to be your favorite i stared at the bowl in my last life i wrote
44:52in my dying breath
44:54i want to eat mom's steak burger and here was grandma saying those exact words
45:01tears blurred my vision this wasn't some distant wish anymore it was real right in front of me
45:08i picked up a piece bit into it tender sweet perfect grandma smiled a tired guilty smile
45:20that night lying in bed with buddy curled at my feet i thought about rachel's last words next life
45:27let me be the one punished just don't leave me i thought about her final tear the torn journal honestly
45:36i didn't hate her anymore hating someone is like locking yourself in the past chewing on pain forever
45:44this life's happiness had already washed away the bitterness i just felt sad when grandma stayed for a
45:53month then went back home before she left she held my hand grace live well be happy her voice was
46:02soft
46:03but heavy with meaning i nodded you too grandma i watched her walk away and i felt nothing no anger
46:13no
46:14grief the grudges of my past life were like fallen leaves blown away by the wind i wasn't stella anymore
46:22the girl trapped by a red light i was grace sterling surrounded by love free grandma at 13 i graduated
46:33elementary
46:33school got into the best middle school in the city my parents took me to the beach to celebrate
46:39i stood at the edge of the ocean wind in my hair salt on my lips i stretched out my
46:45arms feeling the freedom
46:47for a moment i saw her my ghost self floating desperate to hug someone but passing right through
46:55grace what are you thinking dad handed me a soda i smiled just i'm grateful to be alive to be
47:07with
47:07you guys mom hugged me silly girl we're the lucky ones buddy chased the waves barking joyfully
47:16i looked at my parents my dog my future i finally understood the suffering of my past life taught me
47:25to treasure this one the pain taught me what love really means i didn't need to prove i wasn't a
47:32liar
47:32anymore i didn't need to fear red lights i could laugh cry speak freely i had parents who loved me
47:41a best friend a healthy body a bright future this was the life i died wishing for at third that
47:51night i
47:52wrote in my journal not the blood-stained confessions of my old life this one was full of happiness growth
48:00love i wrote today i saw the ocean it's huge blue free
48:11i thought about my past self that little girl locked in a room desperate to be loved she'd never
48:18believe that i could be this happy mom and dad love me they taught me honesty and bravery annie is
48:27my best
48:27friend now she's confident and bright grandma's healthy she calls me often buddy's still a goofball
48:36always nudging my hand i don't hate anyone anymore i don't cling to the past those painful memories are
48:45like footprints in the sand washed away by waves but they taught me to cherish every step forward i know
48:54my old mom sister and dad got what they deserved and i finally broke free i found real freedom
49:03i don't want to see them again i don't want to relive that life i just want to be grace
49:10sterling
49:12simple happy loved that the ocean was beautiful life was beautiful i closed my journal looked out the
49:24hotel window moonlight shimmered on the water like a thousand stars buddy's breathing was soft and steady
49:32beside me i smiled this life i finally became who i wanted to be no red lights no starvation no
49:44lies
49:45just love freedom happiness and those scars from my past they became badges of survival reminders that no
49:57matter how much darkness you face if you don't give up on the light you'll find your way to warmth
50:03to
50:04freedom the road ahead is long but i'll walk it with courage with joy towards something even brighter
50:14you
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