Beyond Chelsea Season 1 Episode 2 explores real-life challenges as Binky balances a demanding work schedule while managing solo parenting with Max away. Lucy faces body-confidence struggles as she steps in front of the camera for the first time since giving birth, sharing a relatable and emotional journey. Meanwhile, Rosie reflects on her future and considers whether she is ready to start a family.
Watch Beyond Chelsea S1E2 for honest moments, personal growth, and relatable experiences that highlight the realities of modern relationships, parenting, and self-confidence.
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Watch Beyond Chelsea S1E2 for honest moments, personal growth, and relatable experiences that highlight the realities of modern relationships, parenting, and self-confidence.
#BeyondChelsea #RealityTV #LucyWatson #Binky #MotherhoodJourney
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00:06Have you done underwear before?
00:08This is great.
00:10I'm going to have to go to New York next week, by the way.
00:12Back on Friday.
00:13OK, that's the rules.
00:14We had some wild times.
00:16Well, it's not over yet.
00:18She's stuck in a body that doesn't feel as hers,
00:20and it's affecting my relationship with her a little bit.
00:23Go!
00:24So you've got the eggs all ready to go?
00:26Yeah, they're on ice.
00:27You never know what the future will bring.
00:30Do you remember how much I was crying?
00:31Yeah, yeah.
00:31I was really...
00:32It wasn't the first positive pregnancy test.
00:51I want to talk about British fashion awards.
00:54When you're on the red carpets, they're hard.
00:57Has my boob just come out of my dress by mistake?
00:59I haven't even realised.
01:01Life is a little bit of a whirlwind.
01:03Max is abroad working.
01:04Our nanny's on holiday.
01:05I've got a load of meetings and campaigns to shoot,
01:09all whilst trying to do school runs, nursery runs,
01:12and making sure the boys don't kill each other.
01:15We can call Daddy later and say, Daddy, we miss you.
01:19You're OK.
01:21You're OK.
01:21You just fell over.
01:22It's OK.
01:23Up you get.
01:24Up you get.
01:32Things are really intense at the moment.
01:33I am launching a new business which involves a lot of work.
01:38I'm also preparing for my twin sister to move with her family
01:42to the other side of the world with my niece and nephew.
01:51How far do you want it, that way or this way?
01:53Should we clip it together and then decide where we want it?
01:55Yep.
01:56OK.
01:56How many people does it take to build a sofa?
01:58I'm trying to juggle everything.
02:00Not only am I project managing our house renovation,
02:03but I'm also preparing to model for the first time since having a baby.
02:06And I'm not feeling 100% confident.
02:10Hey, it's here now.
02:11We're going to have to make it work.
02:12Right?
02:12Yeah.
02:13And this week is mine and James' third wedding anniversary.
02:18Don't like that.
02:19I don't like that.
02:20Can you move that?
02:21I don't know why I'm being so indecisive about this.
02:32Last time I saw you,
02:34you were about to get your tights ripped by a certain someone.
02:39Oh, no, the tights went ripped.
02:40So on to the next.
02:42Yeah.
02:42You're good at dating.
02:43Like, you don't get nervous.
02:44I would be...
02:45I think I...
02:46Well, I don't go on loads of dates.
02:48So you don't go on Hinge?
02:50Uh, no.
02:51I'm not on apps.
02:51It gives me the ick.
02:52We never got to do the whole app thing.
02:54Do you regret it?
02:55Not having done the app thing?
02:57I think my anxiety would be going to meet a stranger.
03:00It'd be scary.
03:00Yeah, too scared.
03:01Because you could get killed.
03:03That wasn't the first thing that came to my mind.
03:05Oh, what were you scared about?
03:06Well, like, just meeting someone like you'd ever met before.
03:08Oh, that's not scary.
03:09The scary part is that they could be a mass murderer.
03:16What have you been up to this week?
03:17Yeah.
03:18What have I been up to?
03:19I had to do two campaigns at the house.
03:21Had to time it around, clicking up at nursery.
03:24Lunch.
03:24So I was chucking in chicken nuggets
03:25so I was trying to, like, do an interview for flowers.
03:27There was a lot going on.
03:29Yeah.
03:29I had, like, a hundred people in my house.
03:30Camera crew everywhere.
03:33Find me, baby.
03:36Take me home.
03:39You're going to unpack this, this, this, and your magazine.
03:42Oh, what's this?
03:43These little gingerbread houses.
03:44Yeah.
03:45How cute.
03:47I just set my alarm to pick up Wolfie from nursery.
03:49OK.
03:50So if we can break at 12.15, Binky's going to go pick him up.
03:53Absolutely.
03:53Ready?
03:54Yeah.
03:55OK.
03:56The work and the mummy juggle can be quite intense.
04:00But I make it work.
04:02My kids, of course, will always come first
04:04and I'll schedule work around them.
04:06OK.
04:07Open the app.
04:08I had to shoot two campaigns for Marks and Spencers
04:11and I had a house full of film crew and cameras and people.
04:14I had to, you know, say, sorry, guys, I've got to go and pick up Wolfie.
04:17OK.
04:18That, that, that.
04:20She's going to go on last minute.
04:21Done.
04:21Right.
04:21Guys, I'm going to try to pick him up early so we can get this.
04:24And just rush off with the camera mics.
04:27I had two mics stuck to my back.
04:28Ran down the road to pick up Wolfie.
04:30And that is just, like, how do I make it work?
04:33It's, it's not most organised at times, but I like it like that.
04:45I definitely don't have time to go to events these days,
04:47so I only go when they really mean something to me,
04:49like Tash's beautiful event, the launch of her rebrand.
04:59Hello.
05:00How are you?
05:02I'm good.
05:03This is just insane.
05:04I'm so excited for you.
05:07Tash is my best friend.
05:09I am godmother to her youngest daughter
05:11and she has a rail of samples in the office next door to me
05:15and I can borrow some beautiful coats whenever I want.
05:18So how's Bagged going?
05:20We've got the video campaign shoot this week.
05:23Amazing.
05:23Which is nerve-wracking,
05:24so I need to really finalise the schedule.
05:27You know how I am.
05:28I'm so anal.
05:29Militant.
05:30Militant.
05:30So I'm going to set up a schedule every 15 minutes
05:33for the four hours.
05:35I'm excited.
05:41So cute.
05:42I love this vibe.
05:45Sometimes I look back and I wish I had more of a backbone back in the day
05:48and I wish I'd really stood up for myself.
05:50In Made in Chelsea, Militant announced to everyone that I got with her boyfriend Hugo,
05:56which I didn't.
05:57And I feel my confidence has definitely grown as the years have gone by
06:01and everyone that I speak to and tell them about this new business,
06:05they're really, really excited about it.
06:07It's really made me feel alive.
06:10Wait, have I told you about my new business with my sister?
06:13Show me the inside of your handbag now.
06:15Is it the handbag inside?
06:17Yeah.
06:17No, but I bet hers is, like, fucked.
06:20Yeah.
06:20Babe, you cannot fuck your bag up like that.
06:22It's disgusting.
06:23It is disgusting, isn't it?
06:24It's disgusting.
06:26Unacceptable.
06:27No, that's unacceptable.
06:29I want one, please.
06:30I have actually had a lip gloss leak inside of my white Chanel bag.
06:34Yeah.
06:34It's a genius idea.
06:35Yeah.
06:35Oh, my God.
06:37It's very exciting.
06:49But it's a right nice day to get out of London, isn't it?
06:53Yeah.
06:54I guess it would be nice going there with Ben as well,
06:56because we can hopefully try and visualise things a bit more.
07:00Invisualise is not a word.
07:02Visualise or envisage?
07:03Visualise.
07:04Combine the two.
07:04Yeah.
07:06I'm a poet and I don't know it.
07:09Are you ready for this whole shoot?
07:10Like, it is going to be stressful.
07:12Exciting day for you, that, though.
07:14I'm quite stressed.
07:15Why?
07:16I'm stressed about getting my fucking kit off.
07:20Getting your kit off?
07:21I think I'm just going to have, like...
07:23You look great.
07:24Why are you stressed about that?
07:25High-waisted trousers or something.
07:26You had a baby six months ago.
07:28I'm not in shape.
07:28I haven't had a chance to go to the gym.
07:30I'm not comfortable getting my body out right now.
07:33You and I were special.
07:37We don't have to go slow.
07:41Oh, here we are.
07:43And you don't want...
07:45I got this fresh beat.
07:47Willoughby is growing up so fast
07:49and the dogs need more space.
07:51We've already been set back.
07:53By months with the planning being rejected,
07:55we can't have any more setbacks.
07:58I've got the VR headset here.
08:01Where am I?
08:03No, where am I?
08:05Oh, my God, okay.
08:06That's wolves.
08:07I'm going to get away.
08:08You might knock us out.
08:11There you go.
08:12This is...
08:12There's your hallway.
08:14Oh, my God.
08:17How nice.
08:18Okay, I'm just going to...
08:21You don't have to reach out.
08:22Like, you can just press the button.
08:25Honestly, it's like watching my grandma
08:26on a VR headset.
08:28I'm such a nerd for VR
08:30and having that headset on
08:32and actually seeing the spacing of our home
08:36and how it's all going to look
08:38was just amazing.
08:41It made me so much more excited about the project.
08:44So, what do you think of your office space?
08:46I love it.
08:46This office space is getting awfully bigged up.
08:48It's such a heater.
08:49You're going to sit on the sofa
08:50and you're going,
08:51I think we need an office space,
08:52and you're going to continue.
08:53Oh, are you scared
08:54that it's going to be like that?
08:56No way.
08:56Never.
08:57Never.
08:58Never in a million years.
09:00These are all my clothes.
09:02It's kind of stressful, actually.
09:03This is also your clothes.
09:05And half of that room.
09:06I know.
09:07I don't know where you're going to fit your clothes
09:08if you get rid of that wardrobe, James.
09:10I'll take some of your wardrobe.
09:11No.
09:12Why not?
09:14Because I need all of my wardrobe.
09:15Well, we won't be having another child then.
09:17Why?
09:18Well, I need a wardrobe.
09:21It's a big project.
09:22It's...
09:23It's huge.
09:24We're pretty much knocking a house down
09:26and rebuilding a house.
09:28But...
09:29We've got a great team.
09:31We do want to get gates
09:32and have it be, like, that kind of grand entrance,
09:35but also the security.
09:36Yeah.
09:37Like, I want CCTV.
09:38I want people dropping packages at the gates
09:41rather than coming to the door.
09:42This is a serious security freak.
09:45I am a freak.
09:45She wants a panic room.
09:46Really?
09:47Ooh!
09:48Now I do.
09:49It's not even a joke.
09:51Babe, is this actually a thing?
09:53That's one of my biggest fears about moving into the house.
09:55Security.
09:56I'm going to have, like, a whole room with cameras and everything.
09:59Screens.
10:00OK.
10:00Yeah.
10:01Slightly odd.
10:01Maybe you should go see someone about that.
10:03No, it's legit.
10:06Can I also say something?
10:08Every time it's really hot in the summer
10:10and I sleep in, like...
10:12just, like, pants or something...
10:13I'm not about sleeping papers.
10:14No, no, no.
10:15You can't.
10:16No, you can't.
10:17It's also because you can't.
10:18Because if you need to run out the house,
10:19you can't be running out naked.
10:21I'm so screwed.
10:23Why?
10:23I'm just naked starfish.
10:25Are you?
10:25Yeah.
10:43There's a few people here with cameras, because Mummy's doing a bit of work.
10:46Do you have a picnic in the garden?
10:48I love being busy.
10:50I love being a businesswoman.
10:51I think that's really important.
10:52My kids see how hard you have to work.
10:56Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry.
10:57It's OK.
10:58It's OK, really.
10:59It's OK.
11:00It's OK.
11:03It's OK.
11:03It's OK.
11:04But then, I can put you to bed.
11:05And then when you wake up, we can go swimming after picking up my wife from school.
11:08How about that?
11:09Good idea.
11:10Let's do this.
11:12Right, OK.
11:13Excited.
11:14So we're going to start with you basically talking about what are the right flowers for
11:17what occasion, how to keep my flowers blooming for longer.
11:21Okay, so Catherine I could kill a cactus so if there's any advice you could
11:26give me to keep my flowers being bloomed for longer that'd be great I'm brave
11:45that was good yeah yeah it was really good it went really well to be team to
11:50work with Danielle's basically is the person that stops me from ripping my
11:56hair out me so I can focus most of my time and you know energy on the children
12:00basically save my marriage because then I won't get so stressed so she's kind of
12:05integral in that it's been a busy week so far already I know it is and it's a
12:10tough one max is away like my mother sadly is unable to help Max's mum lives
12:15in Sweden so I really haven't got any family to kind of cool on for any
12:19child care Wolfie and Wilder are now at those ages they're very close in age but
12:23Wilder's now able to walk he's able to kind of be pesky to his big brother so
12:27he'll try and take his toys not even to play with him just to piss off Wolfie
12:31Wilder will pull his hair and Wolfie will scream and then Wilder gets upset
12:35because Wolfie's got him in a headlock and then I'm trying to sort out the boys
12:38from not killing each other and it's just quite a lot sorry before I forget have I
12:42got any laser appointments coming on I think you do I believe it's on the 25th
12:49great full body oh hairless binky I'm gonna be like a seal yeah wait no seals are
12:55hairy what they're fairy they're not that's how they slide how can you think
13:00seals have fur they do have fur what does it have fur otters have fur no they do
13:06they oh they do have that seals don't have fur anyway dense fur okay fine they
13:13have dense fur like you but you're going to be bold a bold and seal
13:18they'll be wilder
13:48Stop pissing me, baby!
13:50He's a little terror, isn't he?
13:52Yes, it is hectic.
13:54And yes, I had to take myself off to a bedroom
13:56and just shut the door to breathe for five seconds
13:58because it's all overwhelming.
14:00But, you know, that is parenthood and that's just life.
14:03Let's get your scooter.
14:07Hello, my love.
14:09How are you doing? I'm good. How are you doing?
14:12So, it's our anniversary.
14:14Do you want me to plan something?
14:16Because I'm happy to plan something.
14:17No, well, I planned to plan something,
14:20but the plan hasn't quite yet been planned.
14:23So you haven't planned anything?
14:25James, it's probably the best thing that ever came out of me
14:27in Chelsea for me.
14:28I had very, very nearly given up hope
14:31that there was the right person out there for me,
14:34which sounds ridiculous at the age of 24.
14:36And then James came along and turns out he was my person.
14:40Do I not always pull something out of the bag?
14:42You do. You do. Okay, I'll shut up now.
14:44Yep.
14:45What are you feeling? A little dinner? A little activity?
14:47A nice dinner would be nice.
14:49Like, I don't mind.
14:50Well, I wouldn't book a crap dinner, would I?
14:51Well, just like, yeah,
14:52sitting down and being able to be cooked for
14:54and just have, you know, undivided attention.
14:56Like, it would be nice, wouldn't it?
14:58We could just sit in silence, in peace.
15:09It's not going fast, Mummy.
15:12Come on, senor!
15:14Let's see if we can find Puss Puss.
15:16Puss Puss, where are you?
15:18Getting the three kids up and out of the house
15:21on time for school and nursery is chaos.
15:24But I do really cherish those mornings together.
15:27That time is really important to me.
15:29Come on, Wolfie.
15:30Watch where you're going, Wolfie.
15:33Right, it's a lovely sunny day.
15:34Look, there's no clouds in the sky.
15:36There are clouds.
15:37Yeah, OK, but we try to make it sound nicer.
15:49I actually spoke to Isabelle next to me at lunch.
15:52The inside of her handbag was a car crash.
15:54What are you up to today?
15:55Have you got your photo shoot tomorrow?
15:57Yeah, so I'm literally just about to leave the house now,
16:00get a manicure before the shoot,
16:02run to the office and then finalise everything
16:04and then finish styling it tonight.
16:07Launching Bagged is definitely one of the most important things
16:11in my life right now.
16:12And this photo shoot is so important
16:14because all of this content is what our customers
16:16are going to see and how we're going to launch our brand.
16:20I'm ready for it to be over and just be, like, happy
16:23and then, you know, full steam ahead.
16:26Send me some photos as well.
16:28I will do. Love you. Bye.
16:45So, obviously, Max is in New York. He's working for the week.
16:50So, I'm just going to take the reins and push it.
16:53Nolo is mine and Max's company.
16:56It's a cold brew coffee
16:58and it's actually really nice to be doing something together.
17:02I mean, already that packaging just looks so much sexier
17:05and cooler than...
17:06It's kind of cool, huh?
17:06Yes. It's just old school, kind of.
17:09I love the old...
17:10It's really retro and I love that.
17:12Job one is making it look like this really desirable drink
17:15that you want to drink regardless of whether it's night-time, day-time.
17:19The one that sticks out to me the most is Nolo. It's chill.
17:23I mean, I just think it's brilliant.
17:25It's really fun having a business with Max,
17:28but as his other company is expanding, it's growing,
17:31there's more left on my shoulders, which is great.
17:34It's fine. It's quite daunting,
17:36but being in front of the new branding, the team,
17:40trying the product,
17:41I'm way more excited now than I've been before.
17:51Hi, my love.
17:52Just had a really good meeting with the Nolo team.
17:56The branding looks epic, I think.
17:58How has everything else gone?
17:59Your littlest is being very naughty.
18:03He's so pesky.
18:05Quite enjoyable. I just feel sorry for Wolfie.
18:07Yeah, so do I.
18:08Wolfie is trying so hard to, like, kind of let it slide.
18:12I mean, every time Wilder's near Wolfie,
18:13he just pulls his hair or, like, takes his toys
18:15and Wolfie's just getting really pissed off,
18:17which is understandable.
18:19It's all part of growing up. It's fun.
18:20Well, there's a lovely little shop beginning with it.
18:22You would see at the airport,
18:24and they have lovely red boxes, jewellery come in.
18:27So if you want...
18:27Yeah, yeah. Costa. Costa.
18:29No!
18:30I'll bring you back up and see.
18:32Jewellery in red boxes.
18:38How have you found it this week with Max being away?
18:40Like, a week is fine.
18:41It's the weekends where we've got this rule
18:42that he has to be home for the weekend.
18:45You just get on with it.
18:47Yeah.
18:47You don't make it look easy,
18:48but you just embrace the chaos and...
18:51No, but in such an admirable...
18:53It's a lot of chaos.
18:54No, but in such an admirable way,
18:56you really do just...
18:58You're natural.
18:59You don't complain.
18:59You just...
19:00You just get on with it.
19:01Well, Max would beg to differ.
19:02I mean, when he comes home, I unleash.
19:04I'm like, do you know what?
19:06You can do the morning nappy in the bottles.
19:08You haven't done it all.
19:08Oh, for sure.
19:09I've just got off, like, a flight.
19:11I'm like, no, but you were on that flight on your own.
19:13Yeah.
19:13No children with flight.
19:15You slept through...
19:16You did.
19:16That's a holiday in itself?
19:18Yeah.
19:29Okay, so I want to get initials embroidered on the material.
19:34Yeah.
19:34I'm gonna actually rush downstairs and check materials
19:37so I can test how the stitching would work.
19:40I'll see you in a sec.
19:41See you later.
19:50Hello.
19:51So this is the material and I know that you are the queen of embroidery.
19:56I got the factory to basically send me the piece
19:59so that we can see if it would work on the material.
20:01See how it says it?
20:01Yeah.
20:02It should, but you never know till you try.
20:04Exactly.
20:09I'm so excited.
20:10Me too.
20:11See what happens.
20:12Let's pray.
20:24Is it not liking it?
20:27Not massively, no.
20:28What's happening?
20:29The bobbins coming through.
20:31Hmm.
20:33Let me change the needle and see if that does anything.
20:37Wow.
20:38You can look at other options, right?
20:39Nothing is easy when you're making something beautiful.
20:43Yeah.
20:43Okay.
20:47It's still coming through.
20:48No.
20:49It's not liking it.
20:50Sounds like it's not.
20:51Hmm.
20:53It's a shame.
20:53It's bubbling underneath.
20:56So it must be the tension of the needle because of this material is quite clingy.
21:01It may just be grabbing it as it goes through.
21:05The time's running out.
21:06Thank you, guys.
21:08It feels like I have been dreaming, but this heap's just lost my thread.
21:13Ooh.
21:15How did it go?
21:16It didn't work.
21:18Look, sadly, it didn't work.
21:19We tried two ways and it just really wasn't liking the material.
21:23So at least now we know that we can't do embroidery.
21:28I'm a hustler and, you know, that's part of launching a business.
21:32You learn along the way.
21:34You learn from mistakes and then you move forward.
21:37We've only got four hours for the shoot and we've got to create a huge amount of content.
21:42We've got intervals of 15 minutes and the photos that we need to take and every second counts.
21:48Yeah, for sure.
21:49So let's get super organized and schedule the four hours to an inch of its life.
22:03Hello.
22:05It's been two years since I last did a photo shoot and my body has changed a lot since having
22:12a baby.
22:13And I'm not feeling 100% secure in my body but the whole brand ethos with Renew is about embracing
22:20your body.
22:21So as the founder, I need to lead by example.
22:24I thought this would be good for the brown
22:26because it's a very similar tone to the brown.
22:28These are nice as well.
22:29What is on it, though?
22:30What is that?
22:31I feel like, oh, you know what that is?
22:34I was weaning my son, and this was right really close,
22:37and he flicked at one point, and I thought, where's that gone?
22:40And it's gone on here.
22:47Yeah, I think that looks nice.
22:50How's the shoot going?
22:51It's going really well.
22:53Good.
22:53I'm going to be very covered up
22:55and then just have, like, the bra showing, I think.
22:57You look great. Don't worry about it.
22:58Yeah, but, like, the girls, like, they're gorgeous, and they're models.
23:01You were just saying you're not gorgeous?
23:02No, I'm just...
23:03You look beautiful.
23:04I'm not a model.
23:05You are?
23:06I'm not a model.
23:06Are you signed with a modelling agency?
23:08Yeah, but not because I'm a model.
23:09But I'm feeling quite...
23:11Yeah, just a bit, like, about that, but I've just got to get over it.
23:14We had a model there who was breastfeeding her three-month-old baby.
23:19We had a pregnant model there.
23:20Like, I know how they're feeling,
23:21and to turn up to work and kill it,
23:26they... I'm just in awe of them.
23:29But I am by no means back to pre-baby body,
23:34and I don't even know if that exists, to be honest.
23:38Oh, you see your mummy.
23:41Doesn't she look beautiful?
23:42That's brilliant.
23:44Here he is, Renew's latest model, Mr. Wilbsies.
23:48Baby!
23:49Hello, my sweet angel.
23:52Do you want to come towards me a little?
23:53Oh!
23:55Oh!
23:56Who's that, baby?
23:57Who's that, baby?
23:58James is very supportive,
24:01because I actually do have social anxiety,
24:03and I'm quite shy.
24:05So when I'm just thrown into a situation
24:07with a lot of people that I don't know,
24:10I would probably come across really cold.
24:12But I think I've warmed up since being with James.
24:15He has helped me with my social skills,
24:17and that is one of the reasons why I love him.
24:20Ooh!
24:22Hello!
24:23We're kind of off-camera, like, outside.
24:25Yeah, that's really nice, that way.
24:27And head tilted again.
24:28Hee-hee!
24:29Yeah.
24:30Good boy!
24:31Aw!
24:36Oh, my goodness, look at that!
24:40I love that.
24:41Looks like he doesn't have fingers.
24:42Hi-ya!
24:43We're going to have to do baby grows, Willoughby.
24:45Yeah.
24:45Just for you.
24:47Oh, me and my angel!
24:49They're very cute photos.
24:51You haven't really got any photos like that, have you?
24:53No, none.
24:54Because you don't ever take any of those.
24:55Yeah.
24:56Look at his little face!
24:57Woo!
24:58Amazing.
24:59Well done.
24:59We're here, we've done it.
25:01Well done.
25:01I can't believe we've got everything we've done.
25:03It's a rat!
25:04Yay!
25:05Well done!
25:06Yay!
25:10I think my concerns about my body
25:12are probably quite shallow,
25:14but they are real for me.
25:16I haven't really taken care of my body
25:18because I've been taking care of my son.
25:20And I think, to me,
25:23my body feels and looks really different
25:25to what it looked like before I had a baby.
25:28And now that Willoughby's here,
25:29I feel like I can start trying to get back into that.
25:34And maybe the photo shoot is the first step.
25:36And we're twin love!
25:39Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
26:00you grab the cargo i'm just looking at alvira's phone and i'll grab this one two three
26:10love today's photo shoot is the result of a lot of hard work all year and it bloody better be
26:16a
26:16success we can do dark anastasia 111 skin chanel sunglasses we need to be quick we need to get
26:23seven shots in this this is one of seven so we've got like seconds to do it quick you go
26:29and change
26:29your trousers cute right yeah stop moving briefly just put your hands down alvira sorry i can see
26:38your hand thank you amazing thank you cute right done crossing legs handbags or lats both open so
26:45we want to see the inserts inside of the bags is this your good side just look down because
26:51that first picture frankly took was really cool the most important is that we're actually getting
26:55a picture for the website i need to put on if you just shut them a tiny bit more so
27:02like that
27:02okay perfect thank you three two one action that's perfect that was okay perfect and then what's next
27:11on the list please alvira cross the leg both with handbags on labs just lay back like lean back yeah
27:17it was absolutely manic it was four hours i don't think we had a sip of water we couldn't breathe
27:22how the hell did we do all of that that was insane a whirlwind the day was crazy but
27:32we got everything done that we needed to do and it was incredible
27:42hey hey you okay yeah are you yeah what are you doing i'm just on my way to get a
27:50postpartum scan
27:51i don't know what the scan's going to show if it's going to show like the follicles or like the
27:56uterine
27:57lining let me know what they say yeah i will i'm just like just imagine if they're like you've got
28:01no eggs
28:02left that's definitely not okay as a first-time mum there are so many different hurdles and
28:11i am just naturally a bit of an anxious person i always think about the worst case scenario
28:16i know if i always like to be prepared for the worst as you know
28:31hello hey babe would you like a cup of tea i'd love a cup of tea are you fed the
28:35dog yes
28:37how are you feeling a little bit knackered but good i've got i've got to go and see office this
28:42afternoon and then looking forward to this weekend is it someone's birthday chilling out
28:48well i'm glad to have you home wilder and wolfie wilder's more interested in pissing off wolfie than
28:54playing with his toys exactly that's that's that's the thing he's actually quite funny i mean it's
28:59funny he did it this morning as well he only wanted to sit on wolfie's chair yeah but he like
29:03does the
29:03side he goes yeah yeah and like glances and like turns i mean it's i had to hold in my
29:09laughter
29:10because it's just so funny max has got three companies and he's away an awful lot but you
29:16know he's doing this all for his family especially for his kids india's been a dream you know you said
29:22to her before you left make sure you look after mummy and and yeah yeah you know listen i know
29:26she
29:26takes that stuff seriously she took it way way way beyond seriously saying right wolfie give this toy
29:33to wilder and you know if he's gonna take if you're gonna take something yeah see that's how that will
29:37all
29:37get sorted out of it because we'll get india to highlight that she wants to be bossy boots she
29:42can say let's all play together and yeah but why doesn't understand why does it's too young to
29:47understand no no but they'll they'll pick it up northy is the golden child in max's eyes because
29:52he was his first and wolfie's just very very much like max so they kind of have a really special
29:57kind
29:57of bond wilder's more like me you know we're free spirits we're bloody nightmares realistically how
30:06often do you think you're going to be bouncing out for the week week after next i'll go to tokyo
30:11yeah
30:11oh my god for a week next weekend's meant to be san tropez then probably back to new york for
30:18a few
30:18days but yeah i hate being away from the kids it's shit and you
30:27i bet you're happy max is home i am i feel like absence does make the hearts grow fonder and
30:33obviously you appreciate your time with each other way more if they're not always home and actually
30:38like it has been the boys are now at the age where they're like there's less than two years between
30:45them wild is my naughty one and doesn't get what he wants to like grab wolfie's hair and
30:50wolfie's like my slightly calmer one but obviously quite certainly he's a little bit sensitive yeah
30:55so when max comes back he'll be like oh binks you know i don't know i feel like it's a
30:59lot when
31:00they've been away and they come back and then they try to kind of take control of the situation but
31:05they're getting it all wrong yeah you've got a system in place i've got a system in face over those
31:09few days that he's been gone you've actually like formed a system that he comes back tries to do
31:13and the sister's completely blown and the chair in our bedroom was clear and now clothes absolutely
31:19heaving
31:32today we look at the uterus the lining of the uterus we'll look out the ovaries look at the follicles
31:37so eggs on the ovaries as well will you be able to see that yeah okay and i'll show you
31:41in the screen
31:42so we'll explain everything as we go through okay going into this scan i am quite nervous i
31:50had years of fertility tests scans treatments and it's all a bit triggering for me but i'm trying my
31:59best to be open-minded are you okay yeah so i'll just focus for a moment let me just show
32:06you on the
32:07screen here let's look at the right over as well so back to the uterus i'm just going to angle
32:14out to
32:14the right please let me know if it gets uncomfortable obviously because i've had the c-section is there
32:20anything specific to check for in terms of things going back to normal like the structure of the uterus
32:27everything like that that's what i'm doing with the 3d views so i'm looking at the structure of the uterus
32:34oh we will save this image here
32:39oh my god
32:46this is is that normal it's got one more 3d view of the uterus
32:54the little dark structures with follicles so eggs
33:00fighting with the feelings i get lots of them on this oh my god there's actually way more than i
33:06had before yeah i mean you've got lots of follicles on this leftover that is crazy i hold it in
33:13i push
33:14it out i breathe again i'm love and shock if i'm honest yes you know going through the process of
33:22trying to get pregnant that's all you want is loads of follicles and i didn't have that so
33:27i don't know i'm just a bit just a bit surprised yeah it's such a nice surprise yeah
33:34so tough with that i can't wait to tell james
33:38seeing black circles on the screen it was just the best news ever i could never have expected to see
33:45that there's all these eggs
34:07think twice if you think i'm gonna give it i'm sharper than a knife the shower is a lemon i
34:12think twice if
34:13think i'm not a natural
34:20hi hello so nice to see you are you good good you're so sweet of course my niece and nephew
34:29are
34:29moving abroad and i wanted to just make something for them that was super sentimental something that
34:34they can keep forever one of my really good friends tally is an incredible writer and she knows my twin
34:41sister and i knew she would be the perfect person to help me put my words together that i can
34:45read
34:45to them when i go and visit them for the first time so i just really want to write this
34:50super
34:50special poem with you because obviously louis and albert are moving abroad yeah so i think we need to
34:56get across how important they are to you yeah how they've bettered your life they make my heart melt
35:04honestly i never grew up with like younger siblings or anything like that and i never grew up with kids
35:09like lily having children was the first time i'd really been around babies from being an aunt it's
35:15really made me love children i just never really knew a love like it it just blows my mind how
35:22much i love
35:23them they love me so much and i love them so much and that's why i'm just so devastated that
35:29they're
35:29moving but then also thinking of ways that we can do nice things for them yeah i just think it's
35:35just
35:35something lovely that i can take to them i'm gonna be a mess like i'm even oh bless you you're
35:46so sweet
35:49i'm so emotional about the thought of them leaving
35:55i don't think i'm gonna be able to read it to them
36:01i just really hope that they remember how much i love them
36:07i think losing my niece and nephew i think it might almost make me
36:16really consider having my own my niece and nephew have made me really maternal and in the last year
36:26i've even considered having children myself i can definitely see children in my future hopefully
36:32not the too distant future you're maybe more ready than you realize you are yeah let's see
36:44every time i think about it i cry we just have this bond now that is just crazy i also
36:50think
36:50because lily and i are twins there is something about her children that i just feel like
36:56yours they're mine but they kind of they're half mine do you know what all of my friends from
37:02boarding school they say to me how much i look like her children oh really yeah i love it when
37:09someone says that to me and someone says oh my god you look like alba i'm like so cute you
37:14can see
37:14how much you love them oh obsessed with them they're my best friends my little besties
37:19i really need to start making my weekends really busy for when they've gone because i'm really going
37:24to feel i think then that loss i think weirdly it'll be a blessing in disguise in some small way
37:31it's going to open up more time and open up my self yeah to something else to come in sort
37:39of thing
37:40maybe a man yeah by this time next year you could have literally met your person yeah which is so
37:44exciting that you don't know when that's going to happen at some point you just don't know when
37:48you never know i don't know i might have met him already
38:04let's go over here and we can feed the swans
38:09max did you do any shopping no i had no time for shopping that's what a shame isn't i always
38:15think
38:15that's pay off for being away for so long yeah mummy is max's biggest fan they are very close and
38:23he's just very caring and he's the one that's making sure that she's okay it's nice to have him
38:29back of course it is little brothers can get quite pesky as wolfie is finding out currently because wilder
38:35is obsessed with anything wolfie does he wants whatever wolfie's playing with yeah it would just
38:41torment you and you used to get angry which turned into a game it used to do disgusting things you
38:48know when he taught you to spit and you got on so well because he taught you to ride a
38:54bike yeah and
38:56he taught you to skim stones yeah all those sort of things you know and that's what that's what i'm
39:01looking forward to these two doing because they will i think probably the hardest thing to see is
39:08mommy not being able to do things she once was able to do we haven't really had too many deep
39:15big
39:15conversations about the illness and if i do try to bring it up it sometimes isn't that well received
39:23binks and i did our one of our like date nights at home and we're cooking yeah we're talking about
39:28you
39:28as we always do in a lovely way binks started to try why did you get emotional baby um i
39:37feel like
39:38just because it's just a lot isn't it what you're going through and i feel everything's changed quite
39:45quickly and got worse a lot quicker than it i assumed it was going to i agree i think about
39:50you and i think
39:50about that an awful lot because you you and i have always been so incredibly close i've always been
39:58the fun silly kind of i'm her baby so for me to try and be serious with her does feel
40:02sometimes quite
40:03uncomfortable for both of us i think and i feel like i need to protect try and protect myself from
40:08getting upset in front of her and i think maybe she's trying to do the same for me as well
40:14shall we head back to ours then yeah let's go home let's do it chickens
40:26no he's not crying goodbye this is mine and james's third wedding anniversary and this will be the
40:33second time that we've ever both left him one of the reasons why we don't do a lot together just
40:39the
40:40two of us is because i don't really like leaving willoughby he actually probably is tired now i'm
40:44angry he was the milk's there should i just put him in the bathroom yeah earlier maybe yeah i will
40:51do
40:51because that'll keep him amused should i run it i'll run it no no go out let me just run
40:54it no let me
40:55just run no lucy i i can run a bath okay don't worry we are lucky that we have family
41:01like james's
41:02mum for instance to look after him but it does feel weird when one of us isn't there i love
41:07you i love you
41:08i love you yes i know james and i had eight years where it was just the two of us
41:14but going and
41:16doing things together was just so easy we would just go on holidays we'd go for meals we'd go to
41:20events and now it's like months will go by and we haven't done anything on our own it feels a
41:26bit
41:26weird without willoughby in the car yeah i'm not gonna lie it's quite nice without the old happy cow
41:33singing though oh and the happy song i can't believe it's the first time in five and a half
41:42months that we've gone for dinner since my birthday and all you're going to be doing is thinking about
41:48wilbs it feels wrong like i'm missing an arm or something when he's not there
41:58do you want a poem yeah yeah what are you like as a couple what are we like we're quite
42:09sarcastic
42:09okay my nickname for him is from okay james is not actually overly romantic he
42:20picks his moments well you got some flowers
42:23i love you too when he does make a romantic gesture it means so much more
42:32you should read the poet so have you got a
42:37i don't know where's the poem they must have took it with the menus
42:45i got it i got it i got it oh my god
42:55by a forest clearing princess liked to perch she was waiting for her frog the one that got her
43:02stillness jumping the princess frog and their turtle that's cute isn't it
43:08i had a scan today
43:23thank you amazing thank you
43:27um you're not pregnant no i'm not pregnant i know that much
43:31no but i had loads more problems more like loads yeah the thought of having more children i
43:43as a form of self-preservation have almost shut down the idea because i just
43:49don't want to get my hopes up but seeing lots more follicles i suddenly thought oh
43:55maybe it wouldn't be as difficult as i first thought to have more kids and it did make me
44:02excited and made me think this could really be a possibility it gave me a little bit of hope that
44:07maybe we can have more children one day i'm very happy with willoughby but it gave me a bit of
44:12hope
44:13it's nice to have a signal came to play with
44:17significantly start barking and rolling in a fox ship
44:19and i know that he trusts his mum as do i but for me
44:48as soon as i have an inkling that willoughby is unsettled in any way i just want to get back
44:53to
44:53him what are you thinking dessert or no
45:03going for a meal just the two of us it really ignites that feeling of love and why you're together
45:10and
45:11it's so important to do and there's just still so much to come for us
45:18that was so nice it's very nice isn't it this way
45:25you ever get preggo wow don't say well like that what what not doing that again
45:33what no i'm not pregnant guys come on that was a wow let me just get my uh pregnancy out
45:42oh no but quite seriously what we could all kind of plan it together yeah it could happen
45:49that'd be quite fun yes you're like kind of just you're in it together exactly and like how cute
45:54would it be if our kids were in the same year at school or something like so cute well if
46:01you don't
46:02act too fast binky then maybe there's a chance
46:16you
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