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03:08and she loves me
03:09this is the biggest moment of my life
03:28wow
03:29you're beautiful
03:40it's a pleasure to meet you
03:41it's a pleasure to meet you
03:48wow
03:59you'll probably see my heart
04:00you'll probably see my heart
04:00probably out of my chest
04:04I love your eyes
04:06I love your lips
04:07you're a nice mom
04:08a lot much longer than I was expecting
04:13I love you on the inside
04:15I know you do
04:16I'm glad you signed up for this
04:18I feel like the luckiest man on earth
04:20me too
04:21yeah
04:21yeah I want to ask you again
04:25I want to ask you again
04:29Louise Hamilton
04:33will you make the happiest man on earth
04:34and be my wife
04:35I will
04:37I think I'm lost for words
05:02my lady
05:03my lady
05:04my fiancée
05:05my fiancée
05:06it's crazy
05:07I just met my fiancée
05:10and
05:11I could not
05:12be happier
05:23it's so strange
05:24putting a voice to a face
05:25this is just a cherry on top
05:27to be honest
05:27I think so
05:28yeah
05:29how he thinks it
05:30yeah
05:31I was going to love whoever comes to those doors
05:34doesn't matter
05:34what you look like
05:36that's the magnificent woman in front of me
05:39with the biggest heart ever
05:41yeah
05:43that's so nice
05:44thank you
05:46thank you
05:47you look nicer
05:52mm-hmm
05:54I think other people
05:55feel like this too
05:57I think it just says
05:58that it looks like you
06:01who loves
06:03I love you
06:04I love you too
06:09Christine is
06:09one of the sweetest
06:10kindest
06:11most gentlest
06:12woman I've ever met
06:14and I can't wait
06:15to marry her
06:16I think we fit good by each other
06:18we do
06:21it feels right
06:22mm-hmm
06:23yeah
06:24yeah
06:25I'd spend 10,000 hours
06:2710,000 more
06:29oh if that's what it takes
06:32to learn
06:33that sweet heart of yours
06:57I feel like the luckiest person in the world
06:59that's been 10,000 hours
07:02and 10,000 more
07:05oh
07:08I'm gonna love you
07:13I don't know what to do
07:15I just feel so gaslight
07:17and now I'm like rethinking
07:19I'm like
07:19no no no no no
07:20this is not a reflection of you
07:22this is a reflection of them
07:23Emma you didn't do anything wrong
07:24what I really wanted from Steven
07:26was like that empathy
07:27and that emotion
07:28and that support
07:29I felt invalidated
07:31I was like
07:32what the fuck is going on
07:35wait so did you say
07:35the first guy
07:36was your number one
07:37no
07:38like all three of them
07:40like within the past couple days
07:41have been like
07:42one two three
07:42two one three
07:43I want to focus on my relationships
07:44with Mike and Connor
07:45I'm just hoping that they
07:47can accept me for who I am
07:51hi
07:52how are you
07:53I want to talk about
07:55where our heads are at
07:57because like
07:57I really like talking to you
07:59but like
08:00is there anything
08:01that like stands out about me
08:03I like your laugh
08:05I think we have the same values
08:07on a lot of
08:09a lot of things
08:11I can see a future with you
08:13yeah
08:15the only thing that scares me a little
08:17was the
08:18the conversation that we had
08:20with the kid thing
08:22oh god
08:23okay
08:24oh my god
08:26take your time
08:29I
08:29was actually adopted
08:32okay
08:32um
08:33I'm not going to
08:35disclose where
08:36because I don't want to give
08:37yeah
08:38away my appearance
08:40but
08:40you don't have to do that
08:41I do not know
08:43my family's medical history
08:45I do not know
08:46who my birth family is
08:47to bring a child
08:49into this world
08:50I
08:52am afraid
08:53of not knowing
08:55what that means
08:56for my child
08:57in terms of
08:59health issues
09:09I was
09:10I was
09:13born with
09:16birthmarks all over my body
09:18that had a very high chance
09:19of melanoma
09:20okay
09:21so I
09:22underwent
09:23ten surgeries
09:25before the age
09:26of
09:27seven
09:28to get them removed
09:30wow
09:31and so I am left with
09:33physical scarring
09:35and
09:36I think
09:37bringing in a child
09:38like I don't know
09:39what I'm passing down
09:40and like
09:41that's really scary
09:42yeah
09:43I will never judge you
09:46for
09:46any type of
09:48physical appearance
09:50based on like
09:51what
09:52what you went through
09:52I really do appreciate
09:55you sharing that with me
09:55and about the reasoning
09:57why
09:57you know
09:58you're having that struggle
09:59with
10:00having children
10:01or not having children
10:03yeah
10:03but I mean
10:04just from you telling me that
10:06I think you'd be
10:08a great mother
10:08if you were to choose to
10:10I mean
10:13to go through
10:14so much
10:15and have those uncertainties
10:17you should be proud
10:18of who you are
10:19and where you came from
10:19you're put on this earth
10:21for a reason
10:21like things happen
10:22for a reason
10:23I haven't told anybody
10:24this here actually
10:25so I was a premature baby
10:27mhm
10:27um
10:28when I was born
10:31um
10:31I
10:32I had trouble
10:34like breathing
10:34mhm
10:35I stopped breathing
10:37and
10:37and I flatlined
10:39wow
10:40um
10:41and they had to bring me
10:42back to life
10:42my grandma
10:43my grandma calls me
10:44like a little miracle
10:45baby
10:46I like to consider myself
10:47a fighter
10:49and I like to thank you
10:50are too now
10:51for sharing me
10:51sharing with me that
10:52like you know
10:53we're fighters
10:54yeah
10:55to go through
10:57something so
10:58um
10:58hard
10:59and to be able
11:00to be
11:01um
11:02still an amazing person
11:03I appreciate you
11:04sharing that with me
11:10you okay
11:12yeah
11:13I'm fine
11:16no thank you
11:17thanks for sharing
11:19your story too
11:20that's
11:20that's really beautiful
11:21and like I completely
11:22under like agree
11:23like I believe
11:24everyone's here
11:25for a reason
11:25I'm like
11:26I'm glad you made it
11:28yeah thank you
11:30falling into you
11:38I was adopted
11:40I was left at a train station
11:43is what my parents told me
11:44I was born with birthmarks
11:48all over my body
11:49okay
11:50I had about 10 surgeries
11:52to remove
11:52the birthmarks
11:53that were high risk
11:54yeah
11:55spent a lot of time
11:55in the hospital
11:56I do have like visible scars
11:58like on my arm
11:58and on my legs
11:59I felt so different
12:01from everyone
12:02and I think
12:03paired with
12:04not knowing my roots
12:05it really like
12:07messed with my head
12:08as a kid
12:08and I think
12:09I've started
12:11understanding
12:11of why do I not
12:13want kids
12:13and I don't know
12:15if I selfishly like
12:18want them to go
12:19through the things
12:19I went through
12:20it's like
12:21I felt like
12:23alone
12:25yeah
12:26wow
12:27thank you
12:28for sharing that
12:29I know that's
12:29fucking tough
12:30I think
12:31I think it's valid
12:31for sure
12:32your hesitations
12:33but I also think
12:34that because of
12:35what you went through
12:36you'd be a fantastic mom
12:38you've got a great heart
12:40you're obviously awesome
12:42so fun
12:45yeah
12:46so
12:50thank you
12:51thank you for like
12:52giving me the space
12:53and letting me
12:53letting me share that
12:55I know that
12:56I
12:57was not the easiest
12:58to
12:59open up
13:00and
13:03you
13:04instead of
13:06abandoning
13:06you let me open up
13:08on my time
13:10and
13:11I feel like
13:12especially after today
13:14it's like
13:15a new
13:16chapter for us
13:18yeah
13:19you know me
13:20it's like weird
13:21well you want to know
13:22my favorite part
13:23about our relationship
13:24so far
13:25what's your favorite part
13:26when like
13:27shit got kind of real
13:29we didn't run away
13:30from each other
13:31that was
13:31yeah
13:32absolutely massive
13:33I can picture
13:34I can picture our life
13:35so vividly
13:36in the weirdest way
13:37I could picture us
13:39in Mexico
13:39I could picture us
13:41in our living room
13:42I can see that
13:45so can I
13:50six days
13:52that's all it took
13:53for you to start
13:53getting visuals
13:54of sitting next to me
13:55on the couch
13:56yeah
13:58six days
13:59and we might be
14:01engaged by the end
14:02of next week
14:03holy shit
14:03am I in your top two
14:06what do you think
14:07if you say no
14:09I'm like
14:09I'm running through
14:10that orange door
14:12yes Connor
14:13you are top two
14:18am I in your top two
14:20you are
14:23we just got to talk
14:24about married life
14:25let's talk about
14:26married life baby boy
14:27because like
14:28as you know
14:28in here
14:29like one night
14:30is like a month
14:31it can change everything
14:32yeah I like you
14:34I like you too
14:40Mike is an amazing person
14:42but I have a gut feeling
14:44that Connor
14:45would be the one
14:45at the end of this
14:53since I'm down to one
14:55there's something about it
14:56I'll talk through
14:57with you guys
14:57I'm like
14:58super nervous about
14:59is that
15:00it's Amber
15:01she has a kid
15:02which is like
15:03so much pressure
15:03can't even imagine
15:04she said
15:05her last boyfriend
15:06was three years
15:07and she never introduced
15:08her daughter to that guy
15:10dude I wouldn't worry
15:11about past shit
15:12there's a reason
15:13she's chosen you
15:14yeah
15:14there's a reason
15:15she's comfortable
15:16bringing your kid there
15:16you're worth it
15:17and if you just show
15:19who you are
15:19to what you've shown Amber
15:21yeah
15:21dude her kid's gonna love you
15:23she would never
15:25ever ever
15:25bring you
15:27home to like
15:28her kid
15:28if she didn't trust you
15:29bingo
15:29true
15:30bingo
15:31that should be one
15:31of like the highest
15:32like honors
15:33like the most
15:33that's how she knows
15:35she really loves you
15:36yeah
15:36you're gonna add so much
15:37value to this kid's life
15:38exactly
15:38dude you're such
15:39a good guy
15:41that's so fair
15:42like none of us
15:43are in the position
15:43you're in
15:43but like dude
15:44I do like kids
15:45though they're pretty
15:45hilarious
15:46dude this kid is only
15:47going to have
15:47a better time with you
15:49and I think Amber
15:49does that
15:50you still have to think
15:50about
15:51absolutely
15:51when I was first
15:54interviewing for
15:55Love is Blind
15:56they asked me
15:56about deal breakers
15:57and I said
15:58having a kid
15:59was a deal breaker
16:02now here we are
16:03so like this has been
16:04something I've been
16:04thinking a lot about
16:05it's probably why
16:06I'm not getting
16:06much sleep at night
16:07but she's been
16:08telling me so much
16:09about Emma
16:10and I'm like
16:10now it's kind of exciting
16:11I think that I'm
16:12a very lucky guy
16:14to be in this position
16:15at all
16:15and I hope that
16:16she feels the same
16:17like I love my career
16:18I love my job
16:19even if it is hard
16:21you know
16:21I have Emma
16:22I love that
16:22but it must be
16:24really nice
16:25to have somebody
16:25that's like
16:26there for you
16:26at the end
16:27of every day
16:27for sure
16:28absolutely
16:29I just like
16:30that we have
16:30a lot of similarities
16:31as far as
16:32I don't know
16:33being more open
16:33and honest
16:34like when we were
16:35talking about finances
16:35and everything
16:36we're like
16:36yeah we both
16:37fucked up
16:37at one point
16:37you know what I mean
16:38so we're both
16:39shitty with money
16:41it's like
16:42nice to not have
16:44that judgmental
16:44attitude with everything
16:46and I think
16:46you're a very
16:47like understanding
16:48and caring person
16:49and that is
16:50like different
16:51for me
16:52what type of guys
16:53do you usually go for
16:53like I do have a type
16:55are you talking
16:56personality wise
16:57or like looks wise
16:57or
16:58um
16:58I don't know
16:59I didn't really
17:00I didn't have
17:00anything too specific
17:01in mind
17:02I just wasn't sure
17:02if there's like a
17:03I guess either
17:04like if there's
17:04um
17:05I'd be
17:05yeah I guess
17:06I'd be
17:07curious if there's
17:08a type that you're
17:08more attracted to
17:09usually
17:09looks wise
17:10it doesn't really
17:11matter
17:11I think I've
17:12dated a different
17:13type of guy
17:13every time I've
17:14had a relationship
17:15okay
17:16and I haven't had
17:17like that many
17:18relationships
17:20if that makes
17:20sense
17:21yeah me neither
17:22what about you
17:22I mean and you
17:23could be more
17:23on the shower
17:24too I don't care
17:25the personality
17:25makes a huge
17:26difference
17:26but yeah would
17:27you say that
17:28do you usually
17:28go for more
17:29brunettes
17:30do you like
17:30blondes or
17:31redheads at all
17:32um yeah
17:33you're like
17:33ah basically
17:34anything
17:34yeah
17:36I just don't
17:36know that
17:37many redheads
17:38um
17:39so actually
17:40I'm not a redhead
17:40right now
17:41but I am
17:42naturally kind
17:42of a redhead
17:43and I used
17:43to be a
17:44like deep redhead
17:45a little strawberry
17:46I'm like
17:47strawberry
17:48and for this
17:48time around
17:48I kind of
17:49changed it up
17:50a little bit
17:50but it's funny
17:51growing up I was
17:52not attractive
17:53like whatsoever
17:53I was like
17:54really skinny
17:55and had this
17:55like frizzy red
17:56hair at that
17:57time
17:57you know
17:58and I was a
17:59dork like
17:59I love planets
18:00I had the
18:00planet shirt
18:00so I actually
18:01got fake assed
18:03out like in
18:03sixth grade
18:04in front of
18:05the entire
18:05school
18:06you know
18:06oh that's sad
18:07which was like
18:08humiliating
18:08but I didn't
18:09cuss at that
18:09guy but I
18:10basically told
18:10him the fuck
18:11off
18:11I was made
18:12fun of heavily
18:13like in school
18:14but I was
18:14one of the
18:15poorest kids
18:16and having a
18:16kid like
18:17out of wedlock
18:18and not even
18:19being in a
18:19relationship
18:20and like
18:20going through
18:21that
18:21like there
18:21was a lot
18:22of judgment
18:22at that
18:22time period
18:23but then
18:23I just
18:24kind of
18:24learned I
18:24had to
18:25own it
18:25I just
18:25don't give
18:26a shit
18:26now
18:26you know
18:27I think
18:27it's something
18:28I feel a little
18:28bit insecure
18:29about is like
18:30growing up
18:31I had a hard
18:31time with
18:33with learning
18:33like I had
18:34a teacher
18:34call me
18:35like a stupid
18:36kid once
18:36yeah
18:38I had an
18:39ex-girlfriend
18:39that kind
18:40of reaffirmed
18:42that insecurity
18:43as well
18:43which
18:44that sucked
18:45well tell her
18:45she's stupid
18:46yeah she is
18:48anyway when
18:49I did get
18:49my degree
18:50that felt
18:50pretty good
18:51good
18:51good for you
18:52I don't know
18:53that I've
18:54found my
18:54path
18:55professionally
18:55and I
18:57haven't been
18:57exercising
18:58like I haven't
18:58been utilizing
18:59my time wisely
19:00for things
19:00that matter
19:02finding something
19:02that truly
19:03fulfills me
19:04in life
19:04honestly
19:05you're like
19:05I've told you
19:06a million times
19:06I love to cook
19:07it's like an art
19:08form in a way
19:09like the way
19:09that I talk
19:09about it
19:10it's like
19:10oh dude
19:10it makes me
19:11feel really good
19:11so I think
19:12I'll figure
19:13things out
19:14but I you know
19:14gotta make money
19:15so gotta keep
19:16but gotta keep
19:17doing the damn
19:17thing for a while
19:18I totally get that
19:19I mean I love
19:20my job
19:21don't get me wrong
19:21and helping people
19:22is pretty amazing
19:23but I'm kind of
19:24like you were
19:25I'm a little bit
19:26more artsy
19:26a little bit more
19:27do-it-yourself
19:27type of thing
19:28and not to be like
19:29I'm not like
19:29everybody else
19:30I'm not like
19:30everybody else
19:31like yeah
19:32I just think
19:32I am weird
19:33so like
19:34and I'm okay
19:35with that
19:35yeah
19:36I would
19:36I mean it'd be
19:37really nice
19:37to have somebody
19:38to be weird with
19:39yeah
19:39I wonder if
19:40everybody thinks
19:40that they're weird
19:41yeah I think
19:42I like
19:42I guess I'd probably
19:43just wear my
19:44weirdness on my
19:44sleeve a little bit more
19:46everybody probably
19:47can be
19:47honestly prior to
19:49like having Emma
19:49during those
19:50insecurities I felt
19:51like this overwhelming
19:53pressure to be like
19:54this perfect girl
19:55but it's interesting
19:56like you go through
19:58shit and you're like
19:59I don't really care
19:59about being perfect
20:00anymore
20:00yeah
20:01I like listening
20:02to you talk
20:03I like your voice
20:04see when people
20:05say that I don't
20:06get that because
20:07I feel like I have
20:07this brash
20:08there's so many
20:09girls in this group
20:10that have like
20:11these soft loving
20:12voices I'm like
20:12why can't I have
20:13that soft loving
20:14voice
20:14no you have
20:15your voice is
20:15like charming
20:16really I don't
20:18think so
20:19yeah I like it
20:20it's just gonna be
20:21strange to like
20:21match a voice
20:22with a face
20:23only thing that
20:23I could possibly
20:24say and it's
20:25almost impossible
20:26to know until
20:27you meet is like
20:28what if we don't
20:29have any natural
20:29chemistry
20:30as long as it's
20:31not like some
20:31six-year-old man
20:32that's like
20:33fat and like
20:34nasty
20:36no yeah
20:37I mean
20:38I'm really
20:39really really
20:39trying to just
20:40focus on the
20:40personal connection
20:41and like I've
20:43felt really good
20:44about ours
20:45isn't it crazy
20:45we could have
20:46just like swiped
20:47each other on
20:47tinder and
20:49that you live
20:49out in Mount
20:50Vernon
20:50I don't think
20:51I have my range
20:52that high
20:53to Mount
20:54Vernon
20:54yeah
20:56well see
20:56there was
20:57your problem
20:58yeah
20:59yeah
21:00I'm just
21:00kidding
21:01I haven't
21:01been on
21:01tinder in
21:02years
21:03that's funny
21:04today's been
21:05great
21:06that's been
21:06really nice
21:07just to let
21:08you know
21:08I'm a 61
21:08year old
21:09man
21:09god damn
21:10it
21:22my date
21:22better not
21:23be falling
21:23in love
21:23with nobody
21:23right now
21:24tomorrow
21:25I'm standing
21:25on the stairs
21:26like if anybody
21:27is dating
21:27in my man
21:28come forward
21:29raise your hand
21:30I love you
21:31bitch
21:32put your date
21:33in my man
21:35no seriously
21:36oh shit's
21:37getting so real
21:38my main
21:39question right
21:40now is
21:42I know it
21:42shouldn't be
21:43but it's like
21:43am I your
21:44number one
21:44or am I
21:45your backup
21:46you had
21:49the audacity
21:52trying to
21:52connect with
21:54me
21:54after all
21:55you put me
21:56through
21:59leave me
22:00go and
22:00lead me
22:01on
22:02make me
22:03feel like
22:04I'm the one
22:05how we
22:06feeling
22:07good
22:08how do you
22:09feel about us
22:09I feel good
22:11I really love
22:12where you know
22:13we've you know
22:14been able to
22:14develop and
22:15really just you
22:16know learn
22:16but I gotta
22:17figure out
22:18what the future
22:19could look like
22:19yeah I get that
22:20I get that
22:21like this is your
22:22you know career
22:23I have a great job
22:24but if you are my
22:25husband I will
22:26make whatever
22:27work
22:27I think
22:29the biggest
22:29thing is
22:31guilt
22:32like I don't
22:32want to feel
22:33like it's
22:33like I was
22:34taking away
22:35you know
22:36like it's just
22:37so
22:38if we were
22:39to be married
22:40right
22:40like what I
22:41just said
22:42I meant it
22:42like that's
22:43not a hard
22:44decision for me
22:45okay
22:45we both
22:46talk about
22:47wanting kids
22:47someday
22:47but for whatever
22:48reason it doesn't
22:49happen how would
22:49that make you
22:50feel
22:50I think it
22:51would be
22:51really really
22:52hard
22:52but one of
22:53my favorite
22:53mottos is
22:54cry river
22:54build a bridge
22:55and get over
22:55it
22:55and so I
22:56would definitely
22:57cry river
22:57I'd probably
22:57cry ocean
22:58but then it's
22:59like okay
23:00well why is
23:00this my
23:01life's
23:02journey
23:03maybe
23:03God wants
23:04me to go
23:05a different
23:05path
23:05but I feel
23:06like I'm
23:06called to be
23:07a mother
23:07like my
23:09kids would
23:09love me
23:10they would
23:10probably have
23:11to go to
23:11therapy for
23:11some reason
23:12because of
23:12me
23:14you can't
23:14have the best
23:15parents
23:15you can't
23:15have to go
23:15to therapy
23:15for some
23:16reason
23:16but I'm
23:16hoping it's
23:17like oh
23:18my god my
23:18mom loved
23:18me too
23:19much
23:20like help
23:21you know
23:21like hopefully
23:22it is because
23:22I'm doing
23:23something overly
23:23motherly but I
23:25a great mom
23:26I think so
23:27too
23:28yeah
23:28is there
23:29anything that
23:30your kids
23:30could do
23:30where you
23:32would maybe
23:33distance yourself
23:33from them
23:36what about
23:37like their
23:37sexuality
23:37no I
23:39would be
23:39welcoming
23:40you know
23:40you are
23:41who you are
23:42of course
23:43I would have
23:43this idea
23:44in my head
23:45of like
23:45what I want
23:46from like
23:46my son
23:47so that
23:48it would be
23:48hard but
23:49I mean
23:49I'm still
23:50going to be
23:50accepting though
23:51yeah
23:52I love that
23:53answer
23:53every man
23:54I've dated
23:54in the past
23:55answer
23:55has been
23:56like
23:56my son
23:57will never
23:58be gay
23:58yeah
23:58and like
23:59if he's
24:00gay
24:00like I'm
24:01going to
24:01take him
24:01to the
24:02strip club
24:02and I'm
24:02like
24:03that's
24:03a little
24:04strange
24:04like
24:04but I
24:06also
24:06understand
24:07the idea
24:07of like
24:07dang
24:08I have
24:08this vision
24:08for what
24:09your life
24:09would be
24:09like
24:09and it's
24:10a little
24:10different
24:11so I
24:11gotta go
24:11handle
24:12my
24:12shit
24:12while I
24:13also
24:13try to
24:13love you
24:14through
24:14your
24:14shit
24:14and figure
24:15out how
24:15to support
24:15you
24:16exactly
24:16yeah
24:17I don't
24:17think
24:18I've
24:18like
24:18really
24:18talked
24:19about
24:19my mom
24:20too
24:20too much
24:21yeah
24:21you have
24:21it
24:21when I
24:23was
24:23when I
24:24was 18
24:24my mom
24:25she
24:27almost
24:27passed
24:28away
24:29it was
24:30it was
24:30insane
24:31and it
24:32really
24:32changed
24:33the whole
24:33dynamic
24:35of like
24:35the household
24:36and you
24:37know
24:37everything
24:38are you
24:39okay
24:39saying
24:39how
24:40it's
24:40actually
24:40crazy
24:41because
24:41I
24:41was
24:41suspended
24:42from
24:42school
24:42what
24:43you
24:43do
24:43I
24:44went
24:45to
24:45gym
24:46class
24:47like
24:47four
24:47straight
24:47periods
24:48because
24:48it was
24:49a substitute
24:49teacher
24:52oh my god
24:54I finally
24:55got caught
24:59the last
25:00period of
25:00the day
25:01yeah
25:01and so
25:02I
25:03you know
25:03was at
25:04home
25:04my mom
25:04was upstairs
25:05you know
25:06she was
25:06passed
25:06I'm like
25:07my mom
25:07was out
25:07of it
25:07like
25:08what the
25:08heck
25:08what's
25:08going on
25:09they'll
25:09call 911
25:10you know
25:10we go
25:11to the
25:11hospital
25:11turns out
25:12she had
25:12a rare
25:13blood
25:14infection
25:15that was
25:15like
25:16affecting
25:16her leg
25:17and
25:18literally
25:19like
25:19the doctor
25:19told me
25:20like
25:20hey
25:20if you
25:20weren't
25:20suspended
25:21and didn't
25:21do that
25:22like
25:22you would
25:22have
25:22came
25:22home
25:22and your
25:23mom
25:23you know
25:23would have
25:24been
25:24gone
25:25you know
25:26and so
25:26you know
25:27had
25:27her foot
25:28amputated
25:29and it
25:30was just
25:30like
25:30wow
25:31like
25:31for all
25:31this
25:32to happen
25:32to me
25:32at 18
25:33it made
25:34me
25:34have to
25:35really
25:36like
25:36grow up
25:36and just
25:38be
25:38the man
25:39of the house
25:40care for her
25:41you know
25:41help her
25:42and you know
25:42really
25:43make sure
25:43she's good
25:44yeah
25:45first of all
25:46thank you
25:46for sharing
25:46that with me
25:47because I know
25:48you're not
25:48a person that likes
25:49to harp on
25:50like the tough
25:50parts of life
25:51no
25:51I'm not
25:52so I know
25:53like you're
25:53sharing this
25:53with me
25:54because
25:54it's important
25:55so thank you
25:56your mom
25:57sounds like
25:57a soldier
25:57so
25:59love her
26:00you sound
26:00like a phenomenal
26:01son
26:01which I love
26:02and I'm not
26:03surprised about
26:04at all
26:04thank you
26:05the shit
26:06that we've
26:07talked about
26:07in the past
26:08what is it
26:09six days
26:09yeah
26:10probably haven't
26:11talked about
26:11in like
26:12years
26:13yeah
26:13but
26:14just like
26:15wow
26:16like these
26:16emotions
26:17are
26:18so
26:18strong
26:19like it's
26:22wow
26:22like this is
26:24this is actually
26:24crazy
26:25do you feel like
26:26you have
26:27strong emotions
26:28for more than
26:28one person
26:31no
26:32actually I
26:33don't
26:34I can feel it
26:35we're made
26:36for something
26:38yeah we're
26:39here to
26:40conquer it
26:41all
26:41conquer it
26:42all
26:43conquer it
26:44all
26:47uh Jess
26:48huh
26:49are you dating
26:49Kevin
26:50no
26:50are you dating
26:50Kevin
26:51you don't give
26:51me Kevin
26:51vibes
26:53sorry to
26:53say but
26:56definitely
26:56getting engaged
27:02Tyler
27:03she's my
27:03number one
27:04and I think
27:05I am Tyler's
27:06number one
27:06I definitely
27:07think Tyler
27:08would be happy
27:09with me
27:09and we would
27:09be happy
27:10with each
27:10other
27:10we just
27:11get each
27:12other
27:12and it
27:13feels good
27:14Kevin you
27:15done to one
27:15as well
27:15you think
27:16two
27:17you got two
27:17yeah
27:18going into
27:19this date
27:19with Kia
27:20it's
27:22important
27:22for me
27:23to let her
27:24know that
27:25these feelings
27:26I have for
27:26Tyler
27:27we're stronger
27:28after you
27:29me lady
27:29it scares
27:30scares the
27:31shit out of me
27:32to have to
27:33initiate those
27:34conversations
27:35because everything's
27:37been so flowing
27:38so easy
27:39I want her
27:39to be happy
27:40and if that
27:42conversation
27:43comes up
27:43I definitely
27:45could see
27:46breakups
27:46happening
27:47this is
27:48something that
27:49I just wasn't
27:50expecting to have
27:51to you know
27:52do today
27:52hi
27:53how we feeling
27:54oh my
27:55oh my goodness
27:56I'm so excited
27:57to hear your voice
27:58oh my god
27:59you don't even
28:00understand
28:00I was low-key
28:01I didn't
28:02it's a long story
28:03talk to me
28:04what's up
28:04there's just so much
28:05going on today
28:06and I was like
28:08if I open this pod
28:10door
28:10and he's not
28:12on the other side
28:12I'm gonna be
28:13so annoyed
28:14yeah
28:15it's hard to
28:16not be invested
28:17in everyone else's
28:18shit
28:18but also like
28:19focusing on
28:19what you have
28:20going on
28:21so
28:23um
28:24yeah
28:26what are
28:26you know
28:27what's kind
28:27of your thoughts
28:28on you know
28:28kind of us
28:29I feel like
28:30I'm enjoying
28:30the timeline
28:32okay
28:33you
28:35stick out
28:35for me
28:36okay
28:36and I do
28:38want to get
28:38to know you
28:38some more
28:39what are your
28:40thoughts
28:40I don't want
28:41to play
28:42with anyone's
28:43heart
28:43you know
28:43yeah
28:43and that's
28:45what's been
28:46messing with me
28:48I really
28:49you know
28:50just kind of
28:50been you know
28:50thinking more
28:53about like
28:53how I should
28:55go about
28:56explaining those
28:58feelings
28:58and being open
28:59and you know
29:00letting Kia know
29:02like where
29:03you know
29:03I'm coming from
29:04with you know
29:04the connections
29:05that we're making
29:06here
29:06well I mean
29:07I think you're
29:07doing what you're
29:07supposed to be
29:08doing
29:08yeah
29:09the experiment
29:10is for you
29:11to like
29:12have other
29:12connections
29:13and get to
29:13know people
29:14and figure out
29:15where that
29:16lies
29:18I'm a big
29:19girl so
29:20let me know
29:21what's up
29:21yeah
29:22don't have me
29:23out here
29:23you know
29:24wondering
29:25thinking
29:25and I
29:26would do
29:26the same
29:27thing
29:27with you
29:27thank you
29:28if you're
29:29saying you
29:29have other
29:29connections
29:30and yes
29:30I think
29:31you should
29:32have other
29:32connections
29:33yeah
29:33yeah
29:33exactly
29:35I think
29:36that a lot
29:37of times
29:38people
29:39here probably
29:40make knee
29:41jerk
29:41decisions
29:42and it
29:43wasn't even
29:44something that
29:45needed to be
29:46decided so
29:47soon
29:47but I think
29:48you also do
29:49need to be
29:49intentional about
29:50okay are you
29:51saying you have
29:51other connections
29:52and you still
29:52want to get
29:53to know me
29:54as well
29:54or what
29:55are you
29:55saying
29:57I think
29:59I do want
30:00to still
30:02learn more
30:03about you
30:03but also
30:05I know
30:06that I
30:07have
30:08maybe
30:09stronger
30:10connections
30:10out there
30:11too
30:11yeah
30:12and that's
30:12what's been
30:13kind of
30:14fucking me
30:14up
30:14yeah
30:16that's a
30:17toughie
30:17I know
30:18this is
30:19crazy
30:20we're on
30:20day six
30:21yeah
30:21I can't
30:23believe
30:24yeah I
30:25can't
30:25believe
30:25this
30:26so
30:28but
30:28I will
30:29say this
30:30it was
30:30very nice
30:31like open
30:31the door
30:32and just
30:32hear Kia's
30:33voice
30:33you know
30:34just like
30:34wow
30:35yay
30:38yay
30:39yeah
30:40yeah
30:40so where
30:41do we go
30:42from here
30:42I would
30:43like to
30:44just
30:44talk a
30:45little more
30:46then I can
30:47really just
30:47think
30:50with my
30:50heart of
30:51like kind
30:51of what
30:52that look
30:53like because
30:53you deserve
30:55to know
30:56so let's
30:56dive into
30:57just a few
30:58things of
30:58like more
30:59about you
31:00can we do
31:00that
31:00yeah
31:01okay
31:01let's do
31:02it
31:02I'm an
31:03open book
31:03one of the
31:04questions that
31:04I wanted to
31:05ask is
31:05what does
31:06love look
31:07like for
31:07you
31:07for me
31:08it looks
31:08like
31:08honesty
31:10it looks
31:11like
31:12fun
31:12it looks
31:14like
31:14gross
31:16love
31:17feels
31:18like
31:19home
31:19I remember
31:20my aunt
31:21being like
31:23that
31:23back in the
31:24day
31:25with my
31:25uncle
31:26her husband
31:27her
31:27she said
31:28that her
31:28favorite
31:29sound
31:29were the
31:30keys
31:30his keys
31:31opening up
31:32the door
31:33you know
31:33she could have
31:33easily been
31:34like love
31:35is when I
31:35see his face
31:36or when I
31:37you know
31:37when he
31:37holds me
31:38but she
31:38said
31:39hearing
31:39just the
31:40thought of
31:40hearing his
31:41keys
31:42was the
31:43highlight for
31:43her
31:44and made
31:44her giddy
31:44excited
31:46and
31:46I think
31:47after she
31:48said that
31:48it kind
31:48of changed
31:49my
31:51perception
31:51of love
31:52and made
31:52me want
31:53more
31:53I don't
31:54want to
31:54say like
31:54people have
31:55superficial
31:55meanings of
31:56love
31:57but I
31:57think that
31:58the sound
31:59of his
31:59keys
31:59jingling
32:00coming in
32:00the door
32:01I've never
32:01heard that
32:02like that's
32:04so specific
32:05and romantic
32:06and impactful
32:09so
32:10I'm looking
32:11for that
32:11I love
32:12that
32:13you mentioned
32:14that you're
32:14looking for
32:15a best
32:15friend
32:16a partner
32:17as opposed
32:18to just
32:19like having
32:19a wife
32:20you want
32:20to have
32:20your partner
32:21in crime
32:21you're robbing
32:22some batman
32:22you're you know
32:23all those
32:24cliches
32:26you think
32:26you're ready
32:27for marriage
32:27i definitely
32:29do think
32:30i'm ready
32:30for marriage
32:31you think
32:32love is
32:32blind
32:33oh
32:34it could
32:35be
32:37could be
32:38okay
32:39i definitely
32:40have had
32:41a dope
32:42connection
32:43with you
32:43it's been
32:44very
32:45just easy
32:46i came
32:47in here
32:47you know
32:48with you
32:49like for
32:50this date
32:51really
32:52you know
32:52fired up
32:53about my
32:53previous date
32:54it was almost
32:55like i wasn't
32:56coming in
32:56with an open
32:56mind
32:57and i didn't
32:58know coming
32:58in if that
32:59was the right
33:00thing to do
33:00at first
33:02what do you
33:02mean
33:03am i doing
33:04something i'm not
33:05supposed to be
33:06doing you know
33:08by keeping your
33:09options open
33:09no
33:10well yes
33:11but
33:13yes but
33:14no like
33:15um
33:16more so
33:17just
33:17i get that
33:18you're
33:18you're an
33:19empath
33:19you definitely
33:20don't want to
33:20hurt anyone's
33:21feelings
33:22and i really
33:23do respect
33:23that
33:24yeah
33:24um
33:25maybe if
33:26this was
33:26not an
33:28experiment
33:28where we
33:29were getting
33:29to know
33:30so many
33:30people so
33:31fast
33:31then i
33:32would be
33:32a little
33:32more
33:33jarred
33:34but it's
33:35day six
33:36so
33:37it makes
33:38sense
33:38definitely
33:39definitely
33:40does
33:40i don't
33:41feel like
33:41i know
33:41everything
33:42that's
33:42to come
33:43yeah
33:43which
33:44is
33:45scary
33:46yes
33:46but also
33:47exciting
33:47i didn't
33:48realize how
33:48easy
33:48is just
33:49to talk
33:49to you
33:50about
33:50feelings
33:51like
33:51it's
33:52refreshing
33:52you know
33:54do you
33:54think i
33:54was gonna
33:55be like
33:55you got
33:56me
33:56fucked up
34:00choose up
34:01right now
34:02oh my god
34:03hell no are you
34:05kidding me i'm
34:05realistic
34:06you should probably
34:07have some fun
34:08with it
34:09yeah let's do
34:10that let's have
34:11some fun
34:12remember that the
34:12best is yet to
34:13come
34:13the best is
34:15yet to
34:15come
34:34master's at work
34:35yes sir
34:36can i lick the spoon
34:45i always watch
34:46my mom and my
34:47grandma cooking
34:47growing up
34:48and i've learned
34:48a lot from my
34:49mom i still do
34:50learn cooking
34:50stuff from her
34:51so i'm gonna
34:52make some mom's
34:53chocolate chip
34:53cookies
34:54she let me have
34:55the recipe which
34:55she doesn't just
34:56freely give out
34:57but she let baby
34:58boy have it
34:59i think we've
35:00got it into a
35:00dough here
35:01oh yeah
35:02we got dough
35:03baby
35:04cooking that's
35:05my love language
35:05that's how i show
35:06you that i care
35:06about you
35:07is that
35:07can give you
35:07something good
35:08so i'm excited
35:09to share those
35:09with amber
35:13those are massive
35:17oh my gosh
35:19these are so good
35:20my guy made cookies
35:21if y'all want
35:22cookies
35:22you made cookies
35:23no my guy did
35:26stop
35:26that is the cutest
35:28thing ever
35:29i know
35:30i'm totally
35:30stealing one
35:31i feel so
35:32incredibly special
35:33that he made me
35:34cookies
35:34no one's done
35:36that for me
35:36before
35:37what kind
35:38are they
35:38chocolate chip
35:38yes
35:39they're so
35:39good
35:39they're amazing
35:40have one
35:41jordan
35:42he feels like
35:43home to me
35:45all the girls
35:46love the cookies
35:46yeah
35:47yes
35:48all right
35:49let's go
35:49i've just been
35:51reflecting on
35:52this crazy
35:52journey
35:53and it's
35:55been
35:56so wild
35:57so many
35:58emotions
35:58so worth it
36:00to be sitting
36:01here right now
36:02with you
36:03in this pod
36:04the amount
36:05of ground
36:07that we've
36:07covered
36:07really is
36:08um
36:09it's pretty
36:10spectacular
36:11to think about
36:11it really is
36:12and i know
36:13we've talked
36:14about it a lot
36:15for sure
36:15but i mean
36:17are you feeling
36:18like nervous
36:18or anxious
36:19or anything
36:20like that
36:20about bringing
36:21like two people
36:21into your life
36:24so am i
36:25nervous
36:25yeah
36:25i've never
36:27i've never
36:28like helped
36:29with a
36:29with a kid
36:30before
36:30um
36:31you know
36:32but just
36:32from getting
36:33to know you
36:33and like
36:34hearing about
36:35her personality
36:36it's really
36:37put me at ease
36:37about that
36:39um
36:41something that
36:41helps is
36:42knowing that
36:42she has a
36:43strong relationship
36:43with her dad
36:44like you've
36:45got a good
36:46support system
36:47and it's like
36:47it doesn't make
36:49me feel like
36:49there's a
36:50like a
36:50like a
36:51you know
36:51amount of
36:52pressure on me
36:52sure
36:53it feels like
36:53more of like
36:54a privilege
36:55that i get to do
36:56and that's a good
36:56perspective to have
36:57i mean she does
36:58have a great dad
36:59you know it's not
37:00like you're having
37:00to step in and
37:01take this like
37:02placeholder position
37:03or anything like
37:04that like it's
37:04more i think it
37:06could be more
37:06fun for sure
37:07i feel good
37:08about that
37:09and trust me
37:10when i say
37:11coming in at
37:12the age of
37:12seven is
37:13much easier
37:14yeah
37:15than any other
37:16age
37:16she's potty
37:17trained she can
37:18wipe her own butt
37:20yeah
37:21yeah that part
37:23oh my gosh
37:24i was thinking
37:24about you all night
37:25i was thinking
37:26about you too
37:28i meant to like
37:29write you kind of
37:30like a letter
37:31in my notebook
37:31but i actually
37:32just drew
37:34random pictures
37:35that were
37:36expressive to me
37:37and like we did
37:37do a theme
37:38on like one of
37:39them which was
37:40like what does
37:40love mean to
37:41you
37:43and it was
37:44really nice
37:44it really made
37:45me realize a
37:45lot
37:47i've got some
37:48stuff written
37:48for you too
37:50i'm gonna
37:50read you
37:51this little
37:51thing that
37:51i wrote
37:51here
37:53to the
37:53most beautiful
37:54person that
37:54i've never
37:55seen
37:56um
37:57you are
37:58strong
37:59charming
38:00confident
38:00you're a
38:01fighter
38:01a caretaker
38:03and you're a
38:03role model
38:05and i want
38:06to thank you
38:06for taking
38:07this chance
38:08and for
38:08showing me
38:09who you
38:09really are
38:10and accepting
38:10me for
38:11who i am
38:11so to
38:12the queen
38:13of my
38:13double y
38:14trailer
38:15amber
38:16catherine
38:16morrison
38:17i love you
38:19i'm on one
38:19knee now
38:21and i would
38:22love to know
38:22if you do
38:23the honor
38:23of being
38:23my wife
38:27oh my
38:28goodness
38:31i would
38:32love to
38:35amazing
38:40i'm like
38:41about to
38:42cry
38:44oh my
38:45goodness
38:46that was
38:46the most
38:46beautiful
38:47thing that
38:48anyone who
38:49has never
38:49saw me
38:50has ever
38:51wrote
38:52i love you
38:53i love you
38:54too
38:55who would have
38:55thought this
38:56girl that you
38:57would have
38:57swiped
38:57left on tinder
38:58because she
38:59lived in
38:59mount vernon
39:00i'm about to
39:01put a ring on
39:02her tomorrow
39:03are you nervous
39:04that i'm gonna
39:05come out there
39:06and be like
39:07a one-legged
39:08i'm not i'm not
39:09worried about it
39:09at all
39:10here's to love
39:11here's to love
39:12go celebrate
39:13with your boy
39:14all right
39:14love you
39:15love you too
39:33let's go
39:37oh your
39:38cheese is so
39:39hard
39:39i know
39:48oh
39:51yeah
39:53and then there
39:54were 11
39:55i'm telling you
39:56day one i was
39:57in the shower
39:57praying and i
39:58was like
39:59put on my
40:00heart why i'm
40:01here god
40:01dream big and
40:02take risks
40:03baby
40:04i woke up this
40:05morning having
40:06extreme clarity
40:06i'm like in a
40:08really really great
40:08place about the
40:09relationship itself
40:10like i'm very
40:11clear
40:11i love that
40:12oh
40:13we're talking
40:14about cave on
40:14yeah
40:15yeah
40:16cave on
40:16cave on
40:17kevan
40:18i liked him
40:19he was nice
40:19in like the
40:20best way
40:21yeah
40:21i now am so
40:22freaking clear
40:23on what i want
40:24which i thought
40:25i knew coming
40:25in here
40:26i know i have
40:27these strong
40:27feelings
40:28in my head
40:29i'm like
40:29husband
40:30all right
40:30this is serious
40:32business
40:32i can see
40:33kevin
40:33like oh my
40:34god
40:34i think you're
40:35my wife
40:35and then we
40:36live happily ever
40:36after
40:36it's like
40:37and my answer
40:38is yes
40:40i'm happy for you
40:40i'm happy that
40:41you're in a good
40:42place
40:42i'm in a great
40:43place
40:43when you fall
40:44in love
40:45you look just
40:46a little bit
40:46different
40:47yeah
40:48good luck
40:48ladies
40:54i wish i could be
40:55nosy in somebody
40:56else's pod
40:56right now
40:57yeah
41:00have you talked
41:01to the other guys
41:02about how you're
41:02feeling
41:03not really
41:04um just because
41:06i'm just trying
41:07to be
41:07protective
41:09of you know
41:10other people's
41:11feelings
41:11house talking
41:12with the women
41:13man
41:13pretty much
41:13the same
41:14i definitely
41:15don't want
41:15anyone to
41:16hear something
41:17that i say
41:18and then that
41:18kind of like
41:19gets in their
41:20head about
41:20what they've
41:20got going
41:21on
41:22at the end
41:23of the day
41:23i'm rooting
41:23for everyone
41:24you know
41:25including myself
41:26yeah
41:26i really don't
41:28want to you
41:28know mess
41:29with anybody's
41:30time and play
41:31with my
41:31hearts and
41:32it just
41:32fucks
41:33it fucks
41:34with me
41:34i feel like
41:35you keep
41:35saying that
41:35and maybe
41:36like you're
41:36ignoring the
41:37fact that
41:37we kind
41:38of all
41:38signed up
41:38for this
41:40that's true
41:41that's very
41:42true
41:42you're maybe
41:43overthinking
41:44just a little
41:44bit
41:44you're right
41:45i am
41:45overthinking
41:50were you
41:50excited to
41:51have this
41:51date
41:52no yeah
41:53i definitely
41:54was excited
41:55thinking about
41:56your mom
41:56do you think
41:57she'd be proud
41:58of the decisions
41:58that you're
41:59making and
41:59the conversations
42:00you're having
42:00i think she
42:01would
42:01just off the
42:02simple fact
42:03that i'm
42:05being vulnerable
42:05and my mom
42:06she's she's so
42:07awesome man
42:08i
42:09yeah i've
42:09definitely been
42:10missing her
42:10so my mother
42:11you know had
42:12suffered kind
42:13of a pretty
42:14serious injury
42:16back when i
42:16was 18
42:17she you know
42:19had to um
42:20you know have
42:21her leg amputated
42:22sometimes you
42:24know i have to
42:25make sure you know
42:26my mom's good
42:26that's a big hurdle
42:28i'll be like
42:29why like her
42:30you know like
42:31why was something
42:32so whack
42:34happen to someone
42:35so dope
42:36it's
42:37like fuck
42:39that fucking
42:40sucks
42:40like you know
42:42like that's
42:42really shitty
42:43but i think
42:44that she's still
42:45so dope
42:46and so cool
42:47don't forget
42:48that she's still
42:48your mom
42:49don't forget
42:50that part
42:50you know
42:51you're making
42:53a shitty situation
42:54as beautiful
42:54as possible
42:55thank you
42:56that i felt
42:57really good to hear
42:58you know my dad
42:59passed away
43:00when i was 15
43:01yeah
43:01and our mom
43:04has always
43:05like battled
43:06with addiction
43:06yeah
43:07so my grandmother
43:08you raised you
43:10yep she raised us
43:11and um
43:12my dad was super
43:14into watches
43:15back in the day
43:15oh really
43:16yeah
43:17and he would
43:18always just be
43:19like
43:19you know
43:20watches remind
43:21you of the
43:22time you have
43:23and so then
43:24when he passed
43:25up until
43:27well really like
43:28forever
43:28i like never
43:29had a watch
43:30and before i
43:32entered into
43:32this experiment
43:33i finally got
43:35my first watch
43:36oh wow
43:37all of these years
43:38i've gone
43:39without this watch
43:41because i was like
43:42trying to find
43:42the perfect one
43:43when in reality
43:46i think the timing
43:48of it
43:48just aligned
43:50with me being
43:50ready to
43:52be open
43:53to
43:55letting go
43:56of
43:58um
43:59the perfect
44:00time
44:01you know
44:01right
44:02this watch
44:03is a reminder
44:03for me
44:04to be present
44:05and to
44:05show up
44:06for myself
44:07and i think
44:08showing up
44:08for myself
44:08is
44:09having tough
44:10conversations
44:11and
44:13being me
44:14and keeping
44:15it real
44:15and
44:17and it
44:18reminds me
44:18of my dad
44:19no i love
44:20that
44:20and i think
44:21it's cute
44:21i think he
44:22would say
44:22it was cute
44:23too
44:24you definitely
44:25would
44:26yeah
44:31i think
44:32you
44:33truly
44:34are
44:35a conqueror
44:37you know
44:38for the things
44:38that you've
44:39overcome
44:39for the things
44:40that you've
44:40accomplished
44:41like it's
44:41truly
44:43something special
44:44it's truly
44:45something special
44:50man
44:51this was nice
44:53kia
44:53and i think
44:54the timing
44:55was honestly
44:55perfect
44:56like you
44:57had other
44:58dates
44:58and
45:00everybody's
45:01saying like
45:01throwing out
45:03phrases
45:03strong connection
45:04this and
45:05i know
45:06strong connection
45:07that
45:07but i feel
45:09like
45:11authentic
45:12you feel me
45:13like i
45:14i think a marriage
45:15has to be rooted
45:16in love
45:17and being in love
45:19this has to be rooted
45:20in my marriage
45:21when i say love
45:22i mean it
45:23because i've seen
45:24so many marriages
45:25i feel like settling
45:28and i'm not settling
45:30i don't want to settle
45:31it's giving me a lot
45:32to think about
45:33same
45:35i'll talk to you
45:36tonight
45:36thanks for today
45:37oh
45:38no thank you
45:39honestly
45:39it meant a lot
45:41to just be able
45:42to just kind of
45:43share and open up
45:44a little bit
45:45yeah
45:46it did for me too
45:58i'll try to figure out
45:59who is someone
46:00that doesn't
46:00who has like
46:01a number two
46:02who has a number two
46:03they've been stringing
46:03long
46:04well we don't know
46:05who any of us is
46:06we don't know
46:07who any of us
46:07that's what i'm saying
46:08i'm dating kevin
46:09i know i'm in the way
46:10kia
46:11oh it's kia
46:12damn i didn't think
46:13that never mind
46:13i thought it was breezy
46:16oh
46:17no i had a feeling
46:18but that confirmed
46:19yesterday
46:20interesting
46:20if they've been dating
46:21for this long
46:22she could be my man
46:23side
46:23i feel like if it was him
46:25though he would have
46:25ended his date right now
46:26okay
46:28okay
46:29okay
46:30like he was gushing
46:31about how great i am
46:32like thank you
46:32i appreciate it
46:33i appreciate the validation
46:34but i know that
46:35so what are you gonna
46:36do about it
46:37yeah
46:39yep
46:40what you gonna do baby
46:42oh
46:46i'm like shaky
46:50how was gg
46:51it was good
46:53it was really good
46:54being like very honest
46:55and open
46:56and we're getting
46:57vulnerable
46:57so good
46:59this is the rest of your life
47:00true
47:01so
47:02true
47:02there's really
47:03very true
47:04yeah
47:04i mean what's the worst that can happen
47:08you're my number one-ish
47:11why do you mind
47:12break up with me
47:13will you tell me
47:15it's just what we're making
47:20oh while you're trying to
47:23what you doing
47:25nartin
47:26nartin
47:27come sit on the couch with me
47:29who are you dating
47:29who am i dating
47:31now he can tell me
47:32dating this guy named kevin
47:33no
47:35you're the kevin
47:36yeah
47:37oh my gosh
47:43hello hello
47:45hello hello
47:46how we feeling
47:47i feel good looking at this in and out
47:49yeah same
47:51yeah
47:51this looks good
47:52it does
47:53how are you
47:54i'm with that
47:56okay
47:56i'm just okay today
48:01let's see if we can get to good
48:03okay
48:07i'm going to
48:09eat me some in and out
48:11okay so
48:14i'm feeling all the energy
48:17i am curious as to where
48:20where you are
48:23you were the first person that i really gravitated towards right
48:27it was easy
48:29but now it's just like
48:32i don't know
48:33like it's stupid
48:34this is fucking crazy
48:36but i feel like i still don't really understand how you feel
48:39i feel like i understand
48:40how you feel like i feel and i would feel
48:44but i don't know that i understand how you feel
48:47you know
48:47yeah
48:49i feel it would be hard
48:50that's how i feel
48:51so you're not open to
48:54either long distance
48:56or somebody moving to you
48:59no i i do feel good about
49:03someone you know moving to columbus
49:05what i don't feel good about
49:06is
49:07it
49:08being
49:09for just because i'm there
49:12like i feel like i should be able to meet
49:14in the middle
49:15so can you
49:16my mom
49:17i think i could
49:20potentially
49:21um
49:22i'm just trying to figure out what it looks like
49:23that's all
49:24fuck
49:25this is
49:26this is so hard
49:27i'm sorry
49:36i feel like you're struggling
49:42no i i get that
49:44i get that
49:47oh my god man
49:48this guy out of the left field
49:52um
49:55i wasn't expecting
49:58um
50:00from my like first date
50:02i don't know
50:04like i
50:05shit is just weird
50:07it's all over the place
50:08bro
50:09like was your first date good
50:11yeah
50:15we haven't said names
50:17but i'm very sure i know who your first date was
50:19the fact that you had a great first date
50:21might be confirmation that
50:23both of us need
50:25like we can live in the what ifs all day
50:27but for me
50:29i know that i want a man
50:31who is going to choose me unapologetically
50:34and at this moment
50:38i gotta choose myself
50:39you know
50:48this whole shit has been crazy
50:52i know you're ready to go to battle
50:54and i am too
50:56but also i don't want to
50:59one get in the way
51:00and then two i have to understand
51:02you know where
51:04where my heart
51:05has been taking me
51:08okay
51:10thank you
51:14no you're welcome
51:16like i
51:19tyler
51:20like you have your
51:21your heart
51:22your energy
51:23of like just like
51:24being bubbly
51:25just being
51:26and able just to have
51:28just the
51:29best of times
51:30it's just
51:31remarkable
51:32you know
51:32like it's
51:34it's so
51:35fucking fire
51:36it's true
51:38but like heaven i have to stop you
51:39like i cannot listen to another speech
51:41on how great i am
51:42like i just can't
51:44i walk on roads
51:46that turn to time
51:47thank you
51:47i appreciate it
51:51and i
51:52who you're selecting
51:54is an incredible woman
51:56phenomenal
51:56like i'm so happy for y'all
51:59but i'm not doing this shit
52:14i'm not
52:15picking anybody
52:16i'm not selecting anybody
52:17i'm just talking about
52:19how i
52:20fucking feel
52:28it's crazy
52:32that's so
52:33fucking shit
52:42how does it get better than this
52:45coming into this
52:47i was like
52:47what about my dog
52:48i just really have a shitty personality
52:50no one loves me
52:51like that would have sucked
52:53but turns out
52:54somebody loves my personality
52:56okay
52:56we've got that
52:58i've chosen jordan to be my husband
53:00because
53:01he is
53:02genuine
53:03caring
53:03loving
53:04what i wanted
53:05in a man
53:06we are not the type of people
53:08we are not the type of people that are going to be walking down the street trying to pretend
53:10we're like this perfect couple like he's not going to take me to his country club and like sit me
53:14on this high porch and like be like okay i need to be this person like no having somebody say
53:19that i'm enough based on the human that i am it's incredible
53:29i've got to be my wife and i've got to be my wife and i've got to be my wife
53:32and i feel so good and so confident about this choice
53:34if i've ever been to shore or something maybe like when i make a chipotle order i'm just kidding
53:42she's super caring
53:43she's an amazing role model for her daughter
53:46i told her i wouldn't tell this
53:47she's got a little bit of a sweet side too
53:49but
53:50she's not going to show that to anybody else
53:57i'm not really nervous about meeting jordan
54:00because you know
54:00even if he did not think i was attractive
54:02or something like that
54:03i don't think he'd run away
54:04as far as meeting him itself
54:06for some reason i'm still at peace
54:12you know we have no clue what each other looks like
54:14my biggest fear is like what if she isn't attracted to me
54:17you know if she looks at me and she's like this dude is not my type
54:30all my life i've been searching
54:33for a love that is certain
54:37with you i know this love will break
54:41every breath
54:43every step i take
54:45all my life
54:47oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:00oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:06oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:06oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:06oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:06oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:06oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:06oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:06oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:07oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:10oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
55:15oh
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