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00:00I was born a liar. That's the label my mom gave me. It all started because my mom, a firm
00:06believer in scientific parenting, put honesty necklaces on me and my twin sister the day we were born. Whenever you
00:12lied, the pendant on the necklace would glow red, and mom would press a remote to send an electric current
00:17as punishment. My sister's necklace was always green, even when she cut mom's dress and blamed it on the cat.
00:24The necklace just blinked gently with a green light. But me? Just saying,
00:28Mom, I'm hungry, would make my necklace flash red instantly, followed by a jolt of electricity straight to my skin.
00:35At first, I tried to defend myself. But mom said,
00:39Machines don't lie. The pain will teach you a lesson. Mom's doing this for your own good.
00:45After thousands of electric shocks, I started to believe it too. Maybe I really was born a liar. On New
00:50Year's Eve, mom was taking my sister to see the fireworks. A sharp pain tore through my stomach.
00:56I curled up on the floor, begging. Mom, my stomach hurts so bad. Please help me.
01:03But my necklace flashed red like crazy. Mom looked down at me, drenched in sweat, and turned the current to
01:08Max.
01:09You're faking sick just to come with us to the fireworks? You're hopeless.
01:13She turned and walked out the door with my sister. I couldn't help but think, Mom must be right. The
01:18necklace is red, so I must not really be in pain.
01:21I'm just lying for attention again. I'm sorry, Mom. In my next life, I'll learn to be an honest kid.
01:28It hurts so much. It hurts so much.
01:35Mom was back. Mom's a doctor. She must have realized something was wrong. She came to save me.
01:41Are you done yet? The fireworks are about to start, and Jenny's getting impatient.
01:45Mom! Mom, it really hurts. It feels like my intestines are twisting.
01:51How long are you going to keep this up? You're such a liar. You can just stay home and reflect
01:59on yourself.
01:59Honey, come on. Hurry up. The fireworks show is about to start. If she don't want to go, fine. Should
02:05we save her some food?
02:06Save her food? She has a bunch of snacks in her closet, which she buy with the money she stole
02:10last time. She won't starve.
02:11Lock the door. We'll let her out. Only her necklace turns green.
02:14But what? Spare the rod and spoil the child. Look how honest Jenny is. Her necklace is always green.
02:23Stella's just a bad egg, and she needs to be corrected.
02:26But my closet was empty. That time, my sister took the money. She ate all the snacks, too.
02:32My sister just stood there, her necklace glowing soft green.
02:35I know one of you took the money. Who did it?
02:39It wasn't me.
02:40And Mom believed her.
02:42When I tried to say I didn't take it either, my necklace turned red, and I got another shock.
02:47No, Mommy! I did it!
02:55Bye-bye, sister. We're going to see the pretty fireworks.
03:17Tears streaming down my face. I hypnotized myself. I don't know how long passed. It didn't hurt quite as much
03:24anymore.
03:24With my last bit of strength, I crawled to my desk. I had to write a self-criticism. That was
03:30the rule.
03:31Whenever the red light came on, I had to write a thousand words of I am a liar.
03:35My hands shaking. I opened that crumpled, worn-out diary.
03:38It was filled with self-criticisms from before. But this time, I wanted to write the truth.
03:44Mom, I really love you. It really hurts so much. Why won't you believe me?
03:51Mom, please just believe me. Just once.
03:55Everything was getting blurry. Tears streaming. I used my last bit of strength to write.
03:59After I wrote the last word, the sharp pain in my stomach suddenly vanished.
04:04In its place was a lightness I'd never felt before. My body grew light.
04:08I floated up. I looked down and saw myself slumped over the desk.
04:12My hand hanging limply in the air. On my neck, the necklace was still blinking red like crazy.
04:17So this is what it's like to die? I still haven't learned to be an honest kid.
04:24I'm sorry, Mom.
04:25I was woken up by laughter. It was Mom, Dad, and my sister. Mom's voice held a tenderness I'd never
04:32heard before. I floated in the air, watching the front door open. Even though I was a soul now,
04:37I instinctively floated over to greet them, wanting to get their slippers like I always did.
04:42It was a habit carved into my bones, the need to please.
04:45Mom, I'm not in pain anymore. I'll be good. Please don't be mad.
04:53I opened my arms, wanting to hug the woman still carrying the winter chill. But my hands
04:57passed right through her, like wind through nothing.
05:00Why is it so cold in here? Is the heater off?
05:02I froze, staring at my own transparent hands.
05:06Yeah, I'm dead. Dead people can't hug the living.
05:11Go check on Stella. She hasn't come out to eat. Maybe she's really hungry.
05:16Good old dad. I looked hopefully at Mom. If she found out I was dead, would she be sad? Would
05:21she regret it? Mom snorted and walked toward my room.
05:26She pushed my door open. She didn't turn on the light. In the glow from the living room,
05:32she saw me slumped over the desk, not moving, like I was asleep.
05:36Oh, still lying there? You think lying that will make me carry you to bed?
05:43Stella, you're ten years old, not five.
05:46Mom! I'm not pretending to sleep! I'm dead! Look at me! Touch me! I'm cold!
05:57But she couldn't hear me. She only believed what she could see.
06:02Sister's a big sleepyhead. Look, my necklace is green, but Sister's is still red. Sister's
06:09always lying. She's even lying in her dreams.
06:15Our Jenny's such a good girl. Don't mind this liar. Let her lie there. See how long she can
06:22keep it up. Maybe we should put her in bed. It's cold out.
06:26Put her in bed? The experts in scientific parenting say you have to be cold in moments
06:30like this. She has to realize her own mistake. Look at that red light. It means her mental
06:36state is still extreme resistance. She hasn't repented at all.
06:40Alright, time for bed. We're going to Grandma's tomorrow for New Year's.
06:44Mom turned sharply and closed the door again. I floated beside my body, staring at that single
06:50point of red light in the darkness. The sadness in my heart was colder than death itself.
06:54Mom, if you had taken just one step closer. If you had just touched my hand you would have known
07:00I was dead. But you didn't. You only believed that cold, lifeless machine. Not the daughter you
07:06carried for ten months. Late at night, a mouse crept out of my empty closet. I used to be terrified
07:12of mice. I'd scream every time I saw one. But now, I could only float on the ceiling, watching it
07:19crawl
07:19all over my body. I whispered weakly. But no sound came out. The mouse spit through my toe.
07:24A little blackish purple blood oozed out. I couldn't feel it anymore. Good. It finally didn't
07:30hurt. I said to the pitiful shell below me. It's okay. You can't feel it anymore. It'll be over soon.
07:39The next morning, sunlight fell on my body. But it brought no warmth. From the kitchen came the
07:44clatter of pots and pans. Mom was making breakfast. The smell of fried eggs drifted through the crack
07:49in my door. Usually, that was the smell I craved most. But all I ever got was boiled vegetables.
07:56Because mom said,
07:57Liars didn't deserve meat.
07:59Today, she banged the spatula extra loud on purpose. I knew what she was doing. She was trying
08:05to tempt me. She wanted me to give in, come out, and admit I was wrong. If this were before,
08:11maybe I would have confessed to things I didn't do. Just for one fried egg. But now,
08:17I didn't need to eat anymore.
08:20Stella still hasn't come out?
08:23Nope. Stubborn as a mule. Spoiled brat. Fine. Don't eat. See if I care.
08:30My sister drank her milk, her eyes darting around. She ran up to my door on purpose and took a
08:36big
08:36sniff. Then, with a dramatic yell. Mom! What? Sister's room stinks! Did she poop in there?
08:45The heater was too strong. After just one night, I was starting to smell. Mom would hate me even more.
08:55Stella! The bathroom's right there! Did your legs break? You actually pooped in your room? You're
09:02hopeless! You'd rather lose all self-respect than admit you're wrong?
09:06I remembered once, when I was little. I had acute gastroenteritis. I couldn't make it to the
09:13bathroom and messed up my pants. Mom not only refused to wash me, she made me stand in the
09:18yard as a punishment. She pointed at me and told the neighbors I was as dirty as a pig.
09:23Now, she thought I was dirty again. Leave her alone! Let her sit in her own stink! Let it choke
09:29her!
09:29The smell's pretty strong. Let me check it out. Maybe there's a dead mouse or something.
09:33Dad stood up and walked toward my door. My heart leaped.
09:37Dad! Open the door! Look at me! I'm right here! Just turn the handle and you'll see I'm not moving!
09:46You'll see my face already turning black!
09:52What? The server crashed? Okay, okay, I'm coming right now. Honey, emergency at work. I gotta go.
09:59Might not be back for a few days. But what about Stella?
10:02Mom didn't even finish before Dad slammed the door shut behind him. I was stunned. So close. Just one
10:09second. If that call had come a moment later, I'd have been found. Maybe then I wouldn't have to rot
10:14any longer. That afternoon, Mom took my sister out shopping. The house was empty except for my body.
10:21At night, they came back loaded with fancy seafood and gifts. The smell hit them the second they walked
10:26in. Mom covered her nose, even gagging. Stella! Does this place have to look like a lamb stilt?
10:34She wouldn't even open the door to yell at me, like looking at that room would somehow dirty her eyes.
10:39She grabbed wide packing tape, crouched down, and viciously sealed the bottom crack of my door.
10:44You like the smell so much? Fine! Rot in there by yourself! Just don't let it stink up the rest
10:50of us!
10:57Ah, peace and quiet. I stared at that sealed door. The last bit of hope in my heart suffocated along
11:03with the tape. Turns out, in Mom's heart, my life or death mattered less than a fancy seafood dinner.
11:09She'd rather seal me and then look to see if I died in there.
11:12Mom, you win. I'll never bother you again.
11:23The third morning, winter sunlight streamed into the living room, but it couldn't dispel the gloom hanging over the house.
11:30The underfloor heating was cranked up. 26 degrees. The tape couldn't hold back the smell anymore.
11:35It was a nauseating, greasy stench of decay. Mom was trimming freshly bought flowers,
11:41but no amount of floral scent could cover the reek of death. Mom cut a rose viciously,
11:46the thorns piercing her hand. She'd finally had enough. In her mind, I hadn't bathed. I'd pooped
11:52in my room. I'd probably hidden a dead mouse in there, all just to spite her, to defy her authority.
11:57Stella, you've gone too far. If you don't repent, I won't let you off easily.
12:02It seems that gentle reminders don't work for you. I must use hard ARBAP to teach you Joaquin.
12:08I floated in front of Mom, watching her twisted face, waving my arms desperately.
12:13Even though she didn't love me, I didn't want her to see me like that. But she passed right through
12:18me.
12:19I'm ugly! I'm rotten! You'll be scared!
12:34Stella! What have you done?
12:38She looked up and saw me, still slumped over the desk just like three days ago, my back to her,
12:43not moving. To her, it was silent defiance. The ultimate disrespect.
12:48I'm talking to you! You hear me? Still playing dead?
12:52Blind with rage, Mom charged in, raising the rolling pin. But she didn't strike.
12:57She wanted to grab me first, to see my defiant face. Her hand grabbed the back of my collar,
13:02touched the skin of my neck. Then she froze. No warmth of life at all. She blinked. But
13:08inertia kept her pulling. My body fell backward. Chair and all crashed to the floor. The chair
13:14slammed against the ground. My body, stiff as a statue, toppled over. My face was finally visible.
13:22It wasn't the shy little girl she knew anymore. My face was purple-black, my eyes bulging. My
13:28features twisted from the death throes. Dried white foam and black-red blood caked at the
13:33corners of my mouth. And around my blackened neck, pressed against the rotting flesh.
13:38That honesty necklace Mom was so proud of. Hanging there, lifeless. The skin on my neck was burnt
13:44black by the constant current, fused with the metal pendant. No more red light. No more green
13:50light. Just dead silence. Thump. A soft sound. The diary that had been pinned under my arm slid
13:57out as my body fell. It landed at Mom's feet. Open. Facing her. On that page, crooked handwriting
14:05stabbed into her eyes like knives. Mom, my stuff really hurts. The necklace is broken.
14:11I'm not lying. Please don't shock me. Mom stumbled
14:17back, her lower back slamming into the bookshelf behind her. Faces shattered on the floor. But
14:23she didn't feel the pain. Her eyes were wide, fixed on me on the ground.
14:31No. It's a trick. Makeup. Special effects. Stella, get up! Mom's not mad anymore!
14:39Don't scare me. That feeling. It was too real. It was the temperature of death.
14:47Aunt Shelly called the police. She'd come running at Mom's screams and collapsed at the door when she
14:53saw the scene. Sirens soon filled the neighborhood. Police came. Forensics came. Yellow tape went up.
14:59I watched them come and go. Watched flashlights flicker over my body. Mom was pulled onto the
15:04living room sofa by a female officer. Officer, she was faking sick. She's lied since she was
15:11little. The necklace was red. Machines don't lie. I was just disciplining her. I did it for her own
15:17good. No one listened. Everyone looked at her like she was a monster. When the coroner moved my body,
15:23they ran into a problem. The necklace. Because of the prolonged high voltage current,
15:28the heat had fused the metal to my skin, like it had grown into my flesh. Damn it. He had
15:34to get
15:35tools. Force the necklace off. Rip. The sound of skin tearing. An officer picked up the diary from
15:42the floor. Wearing gloves, he flipped through it. His face grew darker and darker. Mom stared at that
15:49diary, eyes locked on it. Suddenly, she lunged like a madwoman, trying to grab it. That's her self-criticism!
15:55She admitted it! She admitted! She lied! Look! She wrote it! We'll find out if she lie.
16:00That's when dad arrived. He saw the black body bag being carried out. That long zipper,
16:06sealing my whole life shut. Dad's legs gave out. He collapsed on the spot, wetting himself.
16:12My little sister was crying, terrified. She didn't understand what was happening.
16:17She just pointed at the blood-stained necklace on the table and asked,
16:20Mom, why is sister's necklace black? Mine's still green. She held up the pendant on her neck.
16:27The green light blinked innocently. Like a giant, cruel joke, the police started a temporary inquiry in
16:34the living room. Mom clutched at her last straw. She pointed at the bloody necklace, her voice shrill.
16:40Now, officers, check that necklace! That necklace proved she was lying! Red means lying! I only
16:47shocked her when it was red. I didn't abuse her. The machine showed it. I was just disciplining her.
16:53The officer frowned at her like she was insane.
16:56Ma'am, the deceased has multiple old electrical burns.
16:59That was discipline! Education!
17:02Mom screamed, cutting him off. To prove she was innocent. To prove she wasn't a murderer.
17:08She made a crazy demand. She lunged for the table, grabbing the necklace still covered in my flesh
17:14and blood. Ignoring the gore. Hands shaking, she forced it onto her own neck.
17:20I'll prove it. I'm innocent. As long as it's green, it means I'm telling the truth.
17:26She clicked the necklace around her own neck. Click. It locked. The cold metal touched her skin,
17:33sticky with my blood. Mom took a deep breath, trying to calm herself.
17:37She held up the pendant for the officers to see, her eyes wild with certainty.
17:42Watch closely. I'm Clara. I'm Stella's mother.
17:45That was the truth. Absolutely true. But...
17:54A piercing shriek erupted. The dormant red light blazed to life. Red as blood. Red as evil.
18:00In the dim living room, it was like a bloodshot eye snapping open. Mom froze. The confident expression
18:06on her face locked in place. She slapped the pendant, like fixing a glitching TV.
18:12What's wrong? It's broken? I told the truth! I'm Clara!
18:17Panic crept into her voice, her words tumbling out faster.
18:21It must be broken. That coroner broke it. Let me try again. One more time.
18:25It didn't abuse my child. I did it for her own good. I love her.
18:30The red light flashed even faster. A continuous strobe of red.
18:34Sensing her extreme heart rate, the necklace automatically released the leaf current.
18:38Mom jolted. Her neck spasming. Hands flying to her throat as she doubled over.
18:43It hurt. Even that tiny current made her neck cramp. Goosebumps rising over her skin.
18:49And suddenly she remembered. Ten years old. Me. The current at maximum. Curled on the floor.
18:57Biting through my lip. Afraid to even cry out. So this is what it felt like.
19:01Mom completely lost it. She screamed at the necklace. Spittle flying.
19:07Why is it red? Why? I'm telling the truth! Why? I'm telling the truth! Turn green!
19:13No matter how she screamed, the red light kept flashing. Mocking her silently, you're a liar. You're a liar.
19:20Enough. Stopping doesn't detect lies.
19:24He grabbed the instruction manual found during the search and slammed it on the coffee table.
19:28It's just a simple galvanic skin response and heart rate monitor. It works like this.
19:32When you're nervous, anxious, scared, or in pain, your heart rate goes up, your galvanic skin response increases, and the
19:38light turns red.
19:39Right now, you're terrified, anxious, tachycardic. Of course it's all red.
19:43He stepped closer to mom.
19:45Your daughter had a perforated appendix. She was writhling on the floor in agony. The pain of internal perforation.
19:53How fast do you think her heart was beating? How terrified was she?
19:57In your eyes, the more it hurt, the faster her heart raced, the brighter the red light.
20:02And you thought that meant she was lying harder, so you cranked up the current.
20:07Your younger daughter, Liz, has been set to green since it left the factory.
20:11No matter what she says or does, even if she murders someone, it stays green.
20:17Your scientific parenting? It's a complete, biased joke.
20:21Mom's world collapsed.
20:23She sat there, staring blankly at the red light flashing on her neck.
20:27Finally understanding.
20:29For ten years.
20:30Every time my red light came on, it was because I was afraid.
20:35Afraid mom would be mad.
20:37Afraid of being misunderstood.
20:39Afraid of the food I hated on the table.
20:41I was in pain.
20:43Pain made my heart race.
20:45Made me sweat with fear.
20:46I was longing.
20:48Longing for her hug.
20:49Longing for her to hold me like she held my sister.
20:52Every signal of a beating heart, she'd read as evidence of a lie.
20:56A wail erupted from mom.
20:57She clawed at the necklace around her neck.
21:03But the necklace's clasp, damaged by her violent struggle earlier, was jammed.
21:08Stuck tight around her neck.
21:10She couldn't pry it off.
21:12Can't get it off.
21:13Can't get it off.
21:14Stella!
21:15Take the necklace.
21:17Mommy was wrong.
21:18It hurts.
21:19Can't handle this little bit of pain, mom?
21:22I took it for ten years.
21:24To confirm the details of the abuse and build the case.
21:27The police opened the diary, the key piece of evidence, in front of mom and dad.
21:32That diary I'd kept for ten years, filled with humiliation and blood and tears.
21:37The female officer's voice was soft, but every word cut deep.
21:40February 14th, Sunny.
21:42Mom gave me celery.
21:44I'm allergic to celery.
21:46It makes my throat swell up.
21:47I can't breathe.
21:48I said I didn't want it, that it would make me sick.
21:52Because I was scared of making mom mad.
21:54My heart was racing.
21:56The red light came on.
21:58Mom said I was a picky eater and a liar, and made me eat the whole plate.
22:02That night, I coughed up blood.
22:04My throat burned like fire.
22:06Mom saw it and said I drank tomato juice and was faking it.
22:09She shocked me for another ten minutes.
22:11Mom covered her mouth, her whole body shaking violently.
22:15That night, she really had thought it was tomato juice.
22:18She hadn't even looked closely at my vomit before turning away to tell my sister a story.
22:23It was blood.
22:24Blood from a throat swollen and torn.
22:26The officer turned the page and continued.
22:29June 1st, Children's Day.
22:31Sister cut mom's dress.
22:33Sister's heartbeat was slow.
22:35Her necklace was green.
22:36I tried to explain, because I was scared of getting hit.
22:39All red lights.
22:41Mom shocked me for ten minutes.
22:43Current at level five.
22:44It hurt so much, but I didn't dare cry.
22:47Because if I cried, my heart would race faster, and mom would think I was defiant, and shock me harder.
22:53I had to hold my breath.
22:55Pretend it didn't hurt.
22:56Mom said, see.
22:58She's not even screaming.
23:00That means it doesn't hurt.
23:02She's faking.
23:03Dad couldn't take it anymore.
23:05This man, invisible in this family for so long, who turned a blind eye to my suffering, who just wanted
23:11peace and quiet.
23:12He lunged forward.
23:14Slap.
23:15You monster!
23:18You monster!
23:20Look what you've done!
23:22That was your own daughter!
23:24You raised her like an animal!
23:26Mom's mouth bled.
23:27She fell to the floor, but she didn't fight back.
23:30She didn't cry.
23:32She just stared blankly, muttering.
23:35Not me.
23:36It wasn't my fault.
23:38Suddenly, she pointed at my sister, cowering in the corner.
23:42It was her!
23:43Jenny!
23:44Sister's necklace was always green!
23:47Sister was the honest one!
23:48She misled me!
23:50If it weren't for that green light, I wouldn't have trusted the red one so much!
23:55The little princess who'd always been cherished.
23:58An officer walked over.
24:00He unclasped the green necklace from my sister's neck.
24:03Got a screwdriver.
24:05Pryed open the pendant.
24:10There were no complex sensor chips.
24:12No heart rate monitor.
24:14Just two cheap LEDs and a few button batteries.
24:17The circuit was hardwired.
24:19Permanently set to green.
24:22This is a two-dollar plastic toy.
24:24The officer tossed the broken pieces onto the table with a clatter.
24:28Your younger daughter-less has been set to green since it left the factory.
24:31No matter what she says or does, even if she murders someone, it stays green.
24:37Your scientific parenting?
24:39It's a complete, biased joke.
24:42Mom stared at the plastic fragments.
24:44The truth she'd believed for ten years.
24:46The evidence that had sentenced me to death.
24:49Just a toy.
24:50A toy controlled my fate for ten years?
24:53A game where only I was in hell, and my sister in heaven?
24:56So I wasn't a liar.
24:58I wasn't a bad kid.
25:00What were all those years of suffering for?
25:03I laughed.
25:04And as I laughed, I cried.
25:06Turns out, souls can cry too.
25:09The last page of the diary was opened.
25:11The female officer's voice cracked.
25:13The handwriting is shaky.
25:15Probably written right before she died.
25:17Mom, if I die, will the necklace stop glowing?
25:20Will you hold me then?
25:22I wasn't lying.
25:23My stomach hurts so bad like a knife twisting inside.
25:27Ma, in my next life, please don't make me wear a necklace.
25:30I'm begging you.
25:31I just want to be a normal kid.
25:33I want to eat the braid pork you make.
25:35Mom stared at the pile of plastic junk.
25:38The honest green light she trusted so blindly.
25:41Just a cheap toy.
25:42Because of it, she doted on my sister for ten years.
25:46Because of that damned red light, she tortured me for ten years.
25:58My death became a city-wide sensation.
26:01Aunt Shelly, our neighbor, was a kind soul but a big mouth.
26:04She posted everything she'd seen online.
26:07The headline was shocking.
26:08Girl electrocuted by pseudoscience honesty necklace.
26:11The article detailed my corpse's condition, and the necklace fused into my flesh.
26:15It exploded.
26:16Online fury ignited instantly.
26:18Mom's personal information was doxxed.
26:21Electrocution demon.
26:22Murderer.
26:23She doesn't deserve to be a mom.
26:26Insults rained down like snow.
26:28Our front door was splashed with red paint, scrawled with the word death.
26:31Dad was also taken in for investigation, failure to prevent abuse, neglect of parental duties.
26:37Though he wasn't heavily sentenced due to lack of direct involvement, he lost his job.
26:41His reputation was ruined.
26:43His company fired him immediately to avoid association.
26:46The family went bankrupt.
26:48Pay compensation and legal fees.
26:50The house and car were sold.
26:52Dad couldn't handle the madwoman anymore.
26:55He took what little money was left and left with my sister.
26:58Even if my sister was a bad seed, she was still his only remaining child.
27:02Before leaving, my sister tried to take the green necklace.
27:06Dad crushed it under his foot.
27:08What the hell do you need that piece of junk for?
27:10My sister left, crying.
27:12Mom was released on bail-pounding trial.
27:15Psychological evaluation showed severe schizophrenia and PTSD.
27:19She was left in that rented room, filled with the memory of my stench.
27:25Completely isolated, her mental state deteriorated.
27:28She always felt I was still in the house.
27:31That red necklace, she refused to take it off.
27:34In fact, she became dependent on it.
27:36Because she found that wearing it, feeling that faint stain, eased her guilt just a little.
27:42It was her own self-inflicted punishment.
27:44I floated in the room, watching her daily descend into madness.
27:47She'd cook a whole table of food, calling out to empty air.
27:51Stella, dinner's ready.
27:52No celery today.
27:54All braised pork, your favorite.
27:56Then she'd pick up a piece of meat, hands shaking.
27:58From anxiety, the necklace turned red.
28:01She'd laugh, a nervous laugh.
28:03It is crazy.
28:05Mommy's lying.
28:08Mommy doesn't deserve to be.
28:11Liars must be punished.
28:13She'd put down her chopsticks, pick up the remote,
28:15pointed at her own neck.
28:18Even though the battery was nearly dead,
28:20she'd found new ones somewhere.
28:22The strong current made her convulse.
28:24Foam at the mouth,
28:25little look of blue blood across her face.
28:37It hurts.
28:38It hurts just like...
28:39Was this how much it hurt for Stella?
28:42I'm sorry, Mommy tasted now.
28:44She started punishing herself according to my diary entries.
28:47I was shocked for refusing celery, so she forced herself to eat rotten food.
28:51Until she vomited blood, she forced it down.
28:54I was locked in my room, so she locked herself in there without light.
28:59In the darkness, she cowed out to my memorial photo.
29:04Her forehead bled.
29:06Blood stains covered the floor.
29:08Late at night, she'd watch the red light from the necklace cast shadows on the wall.
29:12Like my bloody eyes staring at her.
29:15On the back page of my diary, she scribbled frantically in red pen.
29:29Too bad.
29:31I'm already dead.
29:32Dead people can't say it hurts.
29:34Mom was eventually committed to a psychiatric hospital.
29:38Her self-harm had gotten so bad, she nearly electrocuted herself at home.
29:41Community services intervened and sent her in.
29:44She was the strangest patient there.
29:46She found some red plastic ring somewhere and wore it around her neck.
29:49A homemade necklace.
29:51If anyone tried to take it off, she'd bite like a rabid dog.
29:55Don't touch my light!
29:57Stella's watching!
29:59If you take it off, she'll get mad!
30:01She developed a terrible conditioned reflex.
30:04Whenever a nurse asked,
30:05Clara, have you eaten?
30:07She'd touch her neck first, then convulse and scream.
30:11Red light!
30:11Don't shock me!
30:12I'll eat!
30:13I'll eat!
30:14Even if the porridge was scalding hot, she'd gulp it down, burning her esophagus.
30:18Too scared to spit it out.
30:20She was imitating me, right before I died.
30:23Reliving my hell, over and over.
30:26Years passed.
30:27My sister grew up.
30:28And she grew up twisted.
30:30With no discipline and that reputation hanging over her,
30:33she ended up at the bottom of society.
30:35Broke, she remembered the mom still in the psych ward.
30:38She went to visit.
30:40Not for family love.
30:42For money.
30:43Old crazy lady!
30:44Dad's dead!
30:45Give me the secret stash you hid!
30:47My sister wore heavy makeup, her face full of malice.
30:50She looked at mom's pathetic state and spat in disgust.
30:53Just like your dear Delda's daughter.
30:56If you don't give me money, I'll pull your plug and let you join her.
31:00At those words, mom, who'd been in a daze, suddenly looked up.
31:04Her clotted eyes focused on my sister for a moment, sharp and clear.
31:08She remembered the always green toy necklace.
31:11The green that had fooled her for ten years.
31:15You tricked me!
31:17Your green light was fake!
31:18You killed Stella!
31:20Give her back!
31:21Give her back!
31:24Die!
31:25You die!
31:27You're the one who should die!
31:30Help!
31:32Doctors rushed in, sedated mom, and pulled her off.
31:39My sister fled in panic.
31:43She ran blindly out of the hostile gate.
31:46Crazy!
31:47All of you are crazy!
31:48A speeding truck couldn't stop in time.
31:50My sister flew through the air.
31:52She survived.
31:54But her legs were crushed.
31:56She'd spend the rest of her life in a wheelchair.
31:58Completely broken.
31:59And mom, strapped to a restraint bed, stared at the ceiling with tears in her eyes.
32:05In her dreams, she finally saw me.
32:07I was still ten years old.
32:09No necklace.
32:10Wearing a white dress.
32:12Smiling, I ran to her.
32:14She opened her arms joyfully.
32:17Then she saw her own hands, crackling with electricity.
32:21The moment she touched me, my body burned up like paper.
32:25Turned to ashes.
32:27She woke screaming.
32:30No!
32:34Heart rate spiking.
32:38If she still wore that necklace, it would have been blazing red.
32:42The eternal pain.
32:43I stood in the void, watching it all.
32:45Watching mom suffer in the psych ward.
32:47Watching my sister begging with broken legs.
32:49Watching dad, broken, drunk, dying young.
32:52In my heart, there was no satisfaction in revenge.
32:55Just stillness, still as death.
32:57Beside me stood an old dog.
32:59Shao Bai.
33:00The dog I raised as a child, until mom threw him out.
33:03He'd been waiting for me in the spirit world.
33:06Shao Bai rubbed against my leg and barked softly.
33:08Like he was saying.
33:09Come on.
33:10Stop watching.
33:11Yeah.
33:11Time to go.
33:12This life was too bitter.
33:14Nothing worth holding onto.
33:15I floated to the window of mom's room.
33:18One last goodbye.
33:19Mom lay in bed, withered, hair completely white.
33:22She seemed to sense something.
33:23Stella?
33:24Is that you?
33:26Mom smashed the necklace.
33:28Mom doesn't believe in it anymore.
33:31Please come back.
33:32Mom will cook for you.
33:34No celery.
33:35Mom will buy you new dresses.
33:37Not for your sister.
33:38Tears slipped down her cheeks, falling on the pillow.
33:41Sighed softly.
33:42I reached out.
33:43My cold finger touched her forehead.
33:45The last mercy I could give her.
33:47Let her sleep.
33:48Sleep.
33:49And it won't hurt anymore.
33:51She calmed instantly.
33:52Her eyelids grew heavy.
33:54She fell into a deep sleep.
33:55A breeze blew through.
33:57The worn diary on her bedside table flipped open.
33:59The police had returned it to her as a personal effect.
34:02On the last page, below my dying words, were a few shaking new lines, written by mom in
34:08her lucid moments.
34:10In the next life, let mommy wear the necklace.
34:14Let mommy be the liar.
34:17You punish me.
34:20Just don't leave me.
34:22Mommy will do anything.
34:24I looked at those words.
34:26Felt nothing.
34:27Too late.
34:28All the regret in the world, in the face of death, is pale and meaningless.
34:32Mom, I don't hate you anymore.
34:35But I don't love you either.
34:37Mom, let's don't meet again the next life.
34:40I turned away.
34:41Took Shao Bai's leash.
34:42In the distance, a door of light appeared.
34:45The entrance to the next cycle.
34:46I raised my hand to my neck.
34:48The necklace that had always been there in spirit form.
34:51The nightmare that had bound me my whole life.
34:53I grabbed it.
34:54Pulled.
34:54Snap.
34:55It shattered.
34:56Dissolved into specks of light.
34:58Vanished into the air.
34:59I felt lighter than I'd ever felt.
35:01No red light.
35:02No electricity.
35:04No lies.
35:05Just freedom.
35:06I walked toward the door of light.
35:07Didn't look back.
35:09Morning sunlight streamed in.
35:10A nurse opened the door for rounds.
35:12Clara.
35:13Time for your meds.
35:15No answer.
35:15The figure on the bed didn't move.
35:17The nurse stepped closer.
35:19Clara clutched the tattered diary tightly in her hand.
35:22At the corner of her eye, one last crystalline tear.
35:25On the heart monitor beside her, the line that represented life had gone perfectly flat.
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