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00:00:30I am the breath of being, the primal urge of things.
00:00:41I am the whirl of stardust.
00:00:46I am the lift of wings.
00:00:51I am the splendid impulse that comes before the thought.
00:01:00The joy and exaltation wherein the life is called.
00:01:55How do you manage to be five seconds over?
00:01:57No, I just pulled with every — but everyone was like, okay.
00:01:59I was like, I'm not going to stay behind.
00:02:02But look at her, like, all of them are over, so.
00:02:05It's going to be a week of risk management, damage limitation kind of stuff.
00:02:24I'm Elena, Switzerland 130.
00:02:42Actually, I was originally a medical student, but I watched the Olympic windsurf class in the summer.
00:02:54My father bought himself the whole material, because he wanted to follow me.
00:02:59That's this new technology, the wind surfing, and I tried it.
00:03:03And I tried it.
00:03:04And I tried it.
00:03:07And I tried it.
00:03:10And I tried it.
00:03:11And then I said, after the first training, Papa, I want to go to Olympia.
00:03:15I think it's doable.
00:03:17I've got about eight months to come, but it's been hard.
00:03:22I'm still at the end of the game.
00:03:25I can't even pull it out of my personal training list.
00:03:42For me, there are huge differences between training and the rugby side,
00:03:46that is, in the training — I train with the people in the top 30.
00:03:50I can mishalls, I can't use them.
00:03:59I tend to think in general in my life to think
00:04:01and then I have too many sounds in my head and nothing happened.
00:04:09I had to rely on my body
00:04:11and on the feeling of working together with the wind, not against the wind.
00:04:17With the pressure on the sail, with the pressure on your feet,
00:04:22then it's the one second, when you lose yourself from the water.
00:04:26And the Pletschern is completely still.
00:04:35Then it feels like flying.
00:04:36You fall.
00:05:03What do you think?
00:05:15KING
00:05:33How are you girls?
00:05:35Shall we start with a little update before we get into today's episode about our dear friend Elena.
00:05:42I'm very excited for it.
00:05:43I just woke up half an hour ago and I was upside down in my bed.
00:05:47And I feel like that is the perfect description.
00:05:51Anyways, you wrestle yourself.
00:05:53You wrestle yourself.
00:05:54You wrestle yourself.
00:06:15You wrestle yourself.
00:06:18You wrestle yourself.
00:06:20You wrestle yourself.
00:06:21You wrestle yourself.
00:06:23You wrestle yourself.
00:06:24You wrestle yourself.
00:06:26You wrestle yourself.
00:06:28Life Girls is an Olympic Wind-Surf Team for women.
00:06:32First of all, I set Henry as Coach for the company
00:06:35and wanted to build a bit more of it,
00:06:39to inspire women, their own thing to do.
00:06:44Sometimes it's hard to break out of a structure,
00:06:47in which you've grown up,
00:06:49without realizing that I'm just following this way.
00:07:11Hello!
00:07:26When I can do something like that, I have to do something.
00:07:32What I have, I will have earned.
00:07:35But, like always, I've taken something that I love.
00:07:39And I've earned it again,
00:07:41so that I have to be the best.
00:07:44And I laugh,
00:07:45because I'm on the start line with women,
00:07:47who have been more than 15 years,
00:07:50who have been more than Olympia,
00:07:53and have a medal.
00:07:54And then I come here with five Wettkampf
00:07:57in my pocket,
00:07:58and then I have to move on,
00:07:59so that I'm not as fast as they are.
00:08:00I am not as fast as they are in a way.
00:08:16I have to move on.
00:08:17The wind wins.
00:08:19No one is stronger than the wind.
00:08:22There is no doubt about how the wind is.
00:08:26when you fight against it.
00:08:28The wind widerspiegels almost almost their own attitude.
00:08:32If I'm frustrated and frustrated,
00:08:36you feel like the wind makes more.
00:08:56.
00:09:11Von diesem totalen Nobody, von der Hobbysurferin,
00:09:16in vier Jahren das Ziel, sich zu setzen, nach Olympia zu gehen,
00:09:21eigentlich war es eine unmögliche Idee.
00:09:27Was ja das Tolle am Sport ist,
00:09:29dass die ganze Persönlichkeit da hineinspielt.
00:09:32Und dadurch musst du dich auch mit dieser ganzen mentalen Geschichte
00:09:37wirklich ganz aktiv befassen.
00:09:40Im Studium kannst du dich hinter die BĂĽcher setzen
00:09:42und das ein bisschen wahrscheinlich anders damit umgehen,
00:09:46aber beim Sport kommt es direkt raus.
00:09:55Wie sagen wir dem das Gewicht erst mal auf der Waage?
00:09:58Das oder?
00:09:59Ja, genau. Jetzt.
00:10:02Jetzt bist du ein Kilo leichter wie letztes Mal.
00:10:05Genau.
00:10:05Was hast du?
00:10:06Das war Zeit.
00:10:07Ich habe mehr gegessen, viel mehr gegessen.
00:10:09Nee, ich sag's dir.
00:10:11Also viel mehr FrĂĽhstĂĽck, oder?
00:10:13Einfach Kalorien, ich hab's gezählt.
00:10:17Ja.
00:10:19Jesus Christ.
00:10:21Hä, ich bin hier schon mega runter.
00:10:22Ja, das ist spannend jetzt.
00:10:24What the fuck?
00:10:24Das, was sie eigentlich schon immer besprochen haben, oder?
00:10:27Von der Menge vom Essen.
00:10:28Und ich glaube, das ist auch super wichtig jetzt sowieso fĂĽr deinen Kopf.
00:10:31FĂĽr mich zu wissen, dass je mehr ich esse, desto mehr Fett verliere ich.
00:10:34Ja.
00:10:48Ich glaube, die Statistiken sagen nämlich 20 Prozent der Frauen oder Männer mit Magersucht sterben dran.
00:10:56Ich wollte einfach irgendwie gesĂĽnder sein und mehr Sport machen.
00:11:01Und das ist eigentlich an sich kein schlechter Vorsatz.
00:11:05Nur ich war 14 und ich mach alles oder nix.
00:11:15Ich war noch nicht einfach ich, ohne dass ich was erreichen wollte, ohne ein Ziel.
00:11:20Ich glaube, es hat viel damit zu tun, dass ich meinen Wert ziemlich schnell mit Leistung verbunden hab.
00:11:27Ich wusste halt einfach, ich krieg Aufmerksamkeit, wenn ich gute Noten hab.
00:11:31Und auch als so Mittelkind wird man halt vielleicht oft vergessen.
00:11:39Ich war einfach zu jung, um das zu stoppen.
00:11:42Es ist eine Krankheit. Ich habe mich komplett verändert.
00:11:45Also ich hatte keine Freunde mehr. Ich konnte nicht mal mehr lachen.
00:11:48Ich hatte keine Energie zu lachen.
00:11:49Ich hatte keinotto.
00:11:59Ich hatte keine Chance mehr zu tun.
00:12:03Ich bin keinstes.
00:12:15what she wants.
00:12:17She played with the staff at the time.
00:12:24We decided to send her,
00:12:27in this situation,
00:12:28because she was really underweight,
00:12:31maximum,
00:12:32to Australia,
00:12:33in this Ausland.
00:12:35We decided to send her
00:12:37in this Ausland,
00:12:40with the most afraid,
00:12:41whether it will come back,
00:12:43whether it will come back.
00:12:47But she,
00:12:48and only she alone,
00:12:49can help her out.
00:12:52And I was afraid,
00:12:54she would not survive.
00:12:56But she would never have to come back
00:12:57A day,
00:12:59it will be time for a day.
00:13:17And then she goes
00:13:20and she turns home.
00:13:21And she goes to the hospital,
00:13:23And she goes to bed.
00:13:24And she goes to bed.
00:13:24And she goes to bed.
00:13:24The next one.
00:13:25Look up five.
00:13:26That's out of the way, maybe something I'd can see,
00:13:29but at the moment is it just incredibly hard.
00:13:31It's not much space for the moment.
00:13:33Come, come, come, come.
00:13:34Fasten up, compilation.
00:13:36Strengthening below, control,
00:13:37materials beginning,
00:13:38straight, until we stop going!
00:13:41Here we go!
00:13:44I feel like that's a little if it's a year,
00:13:47or two either too,
00:13:48before you can see it completely,
00:13:49yeah.
00:13:50Before you understand the body and the head
00:13:51finally, you want more food.
00:13:54Yeah.
00:13:56And this process requires just this time.
00:13:59Yeah.
00:14:01And that's okay, that we can give you that, we know?
00:14:04Mm-hmm.
00:14:04Like I said, if we make a bit more Fortschrits, 1% more every month,
00:14:08because after 12 months, it's 12%.
00:14:10Yes.
00:14:12Then come back to skin and bones.
00:14:13After four years?
00:14:15We know what I mean?
00:14:16Yeah.
00:14:17Four years I see like Simone Biles or so.
00:14:20Fettes Sixpack.
00:14:21Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
00:14:23Can't come fast.
00:14:42Ich weiĂź noch genau, es gab einen Tag, wo ich gemerkt habe,
00:14:45ich kann Farben wieder sehen.
00:14:47Und ich glaube, da habe ich gemerkt, wie fucking toll das Leben eigentlich ist,
00:14:52als ich so da rausgekommen bin.
00:14:54Ich habe eine zweite Chance gekriegt, die viele nicht kriegen.
00:14:57Und alles, was ich jetzt machen kann, will ich machen.
00:15:01Und habe mir einfach gesporen, dass ich es nutzen werde, das Leben.
00:15:07Das Windselfnetz, das ist meine absolute Passion.
00:15:10Und ich finde es unglaublich schön, dass ich mit Menschen an einem Ziel arbeiten kann,
00:15:14das sehr hoch gesteckt ist natürlich, aber dass es auch voll möglich ist, das jetzt zu erreichen.
00:15:19Das gibt einem natürlich ein gutes Gefühl und Bestätigung in dem Sinn.
00:15:23Es ist nicht nur eine Flucht, es ist auch einfach wirklich eine Passion.
00:15:48Also das ist der Segelclub Menedorf und hier habe ich mein ganz erstes Windself-Segel so aufgerollt.
00:15:56Und gestickert.
00:15:56Ich habe auch noch irgendwo ein Foto hier im Clubhaus, wo ich das gemacht habe.
00:15:59Und dann mein erstes Foto, wo ich so das Segel so aufgestellt habe und mich fotografiert habe.
00:16:03Und das war noch bevor ich es ĂĽberhaupt benutzt habe.
00:16:06Also bevor ich überhaupt Späulen gelernt habe.
00:16:16Ich weiĂź nicht, ob ich es nochmal machen wĂĽrde, aber es war auf jeden Fall keine bewusste Entscheidung.
00:16:20Also ich begreif es nicht, weil ich finde es wäre mehr als verständlich gewesen, hätte ich aufgehört.
00:16:43Die ersten zwei Jahre waren das so ein bisschen meine Ziele, dass ich meine Skills auf dem Brett aufbaue, weil
00:16:48ich konnte ja nichts.
00:16:49Ich kannte wirklich nicht mal den Kurs, also das ist das erste Mal gefahren bin, wusste ich nicht mal wo
00:16:53lang.
00:17:03Ich bin sehr mĂĽde, aber heute ist der Wind einfach gut und ich muss es ausnutzen.
00:17:10Obwohl ich gerade von anderen gehört, die draussen waren, dass es sehr wellig ist.
00:17:15Darum muss ich mal schauen.
00:17:19Ich muss ein neues kaufen, viel zu groĂź.
00:17:24Aber es muss es sein.
00:17:30Ich versuche jemanden, es waren diese groĂźe Waffe, und ich gehe, ich gehe und dann BOOM!
00:17:37Es ist einfach crazy.
00:17:38Ich gehe jetzt wieder.
00:17:39Ist es so schlecht?
00:17:40Oder ist es so schlecht?
00:17:41Es ist wavy outside.
00:17:45Ich gehe.
00:17:48Ich gehe.
00:17:49Ich gehe jetzt rein.
00:17:50Ich gehe jetzt rein.
00:18:04Ja.
00:18:06Du hast etwas traf.
00:18:08Ja.
00:18:08Yes, yes, it stresses me, very much.
00:18:19When I came back, I thought, oh my God,
00:18:23it's still more heftier than what I've ever imagined.
00:18:28And I thought, what do I do?
00:18:32What do I do? It doesn't bring anything.
00:18:55I don't know what I just had to do, just like,
00:18:57I don't know.
00:19:29Oh, better give the world surprise at great achieved from small than start so high that nothing lies before you
00:19:44but a fall.
00:20:02I'm here for the World Championships in IQ Foil.
00:20:07And they are quite important, because this is the first Olympic Qualifier.
00:20:11This is the first time we can qualify for the Olympic Games.
00:20:16And I have respect for it.
00:20:39I am stealing Max Beeman's spot, so...
00:20:42How are you doing?
00:20:42Yeah.
00:20:43Why?
00:20:43For measurement.
00:20:45Oh, right, okay.
00:20:46Mine's like tomorrow morning at the 10.
00:20:48Yeah.
00:20:49Yeah.
00:20:50Yeah.
00:20:53Where are we?
00:20:54Uh, well, I'm in the position for Max Beeman, because he is sick.
00:20:58Oh.
00:20:58I was just trying to find out if Max was sailing or not.
00:21:01He isn't, but he gave me his spot to measure.
00:21:04But he's not sailing?
00:21:05No.
00:21:06No, he's...
00:21:07Then why are we measuring his gear?
00:21:08No, no, it's my...
00:21:10But my spot would have been a lot later, and I came by yesterday to ask if I could take
00:21:13his spot.
00:21:14You have a spot.
00:21:16Right.
00:21:16And you take more spots.
00:21:18Right.
00:21:20We're not supervising the spot.
00:21:21Amazing.
00:21:22Thanks.
00:21:24How come I don't have you?
00:21:26I filled everything out online, as I was told.
00:21:29When did you fill it out?
00:21:31Are you sure you did hit the deadline?
00:21:31I have to come...
00:21:34They decided that I still have to go, like, with the Swiss tomorrow.
00:21:38They can't find any of my measurements.
00:21:41It happened to be for in Greece.
00:21:43Like, they deleted everything from me.
00:21:44They didn't have any, like, none of my details.
00:21:47So now I have to do it again, and they want to give me a penalty.
00:21:53I definitely got an email that said, thanks for registering, blah, blah, blah.
00:21:58Do you get a penalty?
00:21:59Yeah.
00:21:59How much?
00:22:00I don't know.
00:22:04I am currently coaching an international team of girls.
00:22:08It was put together by Elena.
00:22:12It's a massive, huge project on the take.
00:22:16It's crazy.
00:22:17It's ridiculous.
00:22:18I mean, you have...
00:22:19You have to certainly be determined.
00:22:23Should I do it again now, then?
00:22:25Uh...
00:22:25I think let's go in and just talk to them again and say...
00:22:31We'll say, what the fuck, man?
00:22:33You're late.
00:22:34There's a standard penalty without hearing.
00:22:37Oh, my God.
00:22:39Learn that lesson.
00:22:40Yeah, thanks.
00:22:41I have.
00:22:44Certainly the progress that we're making isn't slowing down.
00:22:47She's sailing the best she ever has.
00:22:49But you just have to have so much faith in the fact that, you know, there's a chance of achieving
00:22:58the impossible.
00:23:04Oh, I'm an idiot.
00:23:05I cry and I'm last.
00:23:07And then I cry because I'm last and I go last again.
00:23:11What's going on?
00:23:13Nothing.
00:23:13I'm just tired.
00:23:14I'm fucking annoyed that they...
00:23:15With the measurement thingy.
00:23:17So I got a penalty.
00:23:18Yeah.
00:23:19I don't know.
00:23:21I really don't feel like sailing anymore.
00:23:23Now what?
00:23:24I don't feel like sailing.
00:23:26Maybe.
00:23:27But it might be kind of a good thing.
00:23:28Like, pressures off a little bit more.
00:23:31You know?
00:23:31You already...
00:23:32What are you going to lose?
00:23:33I don't think I need it off anymore.
00:23:35It's already...
00:23:35The competition has already become a comeback.
00:23:43I don't know.
00:23:44I can't decide.
00:23:45Like, on one hand, I'm like, I just want to go back to bed.
00:23:47I'm really exhausted.
00:23:48On the other hand, I'm like, should I...
00:23:55Yeah, fuck it.
00:23:55I'm going to go.
00:24:19For now, I'm going to drown.
00:24:22I don't know.
00:24:23I won't go.
00:24:25Oh.
00:24:28Oh.
00:24:29Oh.
00:24:40Oh.
00:24:41Whoa!
00:24:41weed.
00:24:43We will.
00:24:47Oh.
00:24:47Oh, my God.
00:25:22Ich fand Rennfahren Horror.
00:25:24Nichts hat funktioniert und alles hat mir wehgetan.
00:25:27Also sobald es nicht gut klappt, werde ich wĂĽtend.
00:25:30Und dann gibt es so eine downward spiral, einfach so eine Spirale abwärts.
00:25:34Und ich kann die bis jetzt, konnte ich die nicht wirklich stoppen.
00:25:48Who has seen the wind?
00:25:52Neither I nor you.
00:25:57But when the leaves hang trembling, the wind is passing through.
00:26:06Who has seen the wind?
00:26:09Neither you nor I.
00:26:13But when the trees bow down their heads, the wind is passing by.
00:26:43The wind is passing by.
00:26:45Und ich glaube ich, darzustellen.
00:26:47Wir reisen viel, wir sind in schönen Orten.
00:26:50Aber es ist nicht alles Gold, was glänzt.
00:26:53Es ist, ich glaube, fĂĽr alle Athleten sehr schwer,
00:26:56weil es wird von uns erwartet, dass wir auf einem Level trainieren,
00:26:59leben und eigentlich alles geben, auch für die Verbände.
00:27:03Aber es werden gezahlt, dass es kaum ĂĽberhaupt reicht fĂĽr irgendwas.
00:27:11Ich probiere so oft, ich kann, mit dem Bus zu fahren und nicht zu fliegen,
00:27:15weil das Material zu fliegen ist ziemlich teuer.
00:27:18NatĂĽrlich Accommodation kommt auch noch dazu,
00:27:20darum gucke ich auch oft, mit dem Bus zu schlafen.
00:27:22Ich hatte die Illusion, dass es dann gĂĽnstiger ist.
00:27:30Ich weiĂź gerade, als ich meinen Bus gekriegt habe,
00:27:32ging gleich das GerĂĽcht rum, ja, ihr Vater hat es einfach gekauft.
00:27:35Das hat mich so wütend gemacht, weil ich erst mal muss ich mich nicht erklären,
00:27:39auch wenn mein Papa mir das gekauft hätte.
00:27:41So what?
00:27:42Und zweitens, ich habe es mir selbst erarbeitet.
00:27:48Ich finanziere mich mit Sponsoren.
00:27:50Und das ist eigentlich der einzige Weg, in dem ich mich finanzieren kann,
00:27:52weil arbeiten funktioniert einfach nicht momentan,
00:27:55weil du keine Zeit hast dafĂĽr.
00:27:57Aber ich bin auch wirklich im Verband.
00:28:01Viele Leute hören auch auf, weil es finanziell einfach nicht tragbar ist.
00:28:05Manchmal bin ich so, okay, kann ich heute essen
00:28:07oder muss ich ein neues Segel holen, weil ich es kaputt gemacht habe.
00:28:28Ich bin so, okay, ich bin so, okay, ich bin so, okay.
00:28:45marketing options it is really good for them to be able to say like oh yeah we support like
00:28:50women in sports or we suppose we support like youth and i don't know sometimes they were just
00:28:56not interested anymore yeah uh we need to join this meeting oh yeah feel free to get out of here
00:29:06see you
00:29:20she has worked so so hard to build up good relationships with sponsors
00:29:30this year i am around like 35 000 so i would like to really double that at least um in
00:29:45order to kind
00:29:46of finance everything on the other hand obviously depending on whether the qualification works out
00:29:51them whether i um have good results i'll get into the swiss sailing team
00:29:57mir fehlen 30 40.000 euro das ist viel geld andererseits sobald ich dann im schweizer
00:30:02elite team bin oder mal ein bisschen team kriegt man auch unterstĂĽtzung vom verband
00:30:22dann sind wir an den gardesee gefahren um dann wegkampf zu machen mein erstes internationales
00:30:29podium und ich war eigentlich fĂĽnfter also nach in der ganzen woche und dann im medal race konnte ich
00:30:35noch mal zwei plätze gut machen
00:30:44she's been racing phenomenally that day like really really well i felt her feelings that she
00:30:50really wanted to prove to herself that all the hard work she was putting it was paying off
00:30:54i'm quietly confident definitely we're in a good place
00:31:00that was a huge point for me i have more believe in myself that i can achieve it all the
00:31:07things that i gave up all the pain all the money that i put in the water all the hours
00:31:11on the water
00:31:12which were really not good also not nice that was then everything was worth it for me
00:31:21so
00:31:23I don't know.
00:31:53I don't know.
00:32:27I don't know.
00:32:29I don't know.
00:32:41I don't know.
00:32:43I don't know.
00:33:08I don't know.
00:33:13I don't know.
00:33:22I don't know.
00:33:43I don't know.
00:33:48What are you doing here?
00:34:14Yes, he is.
00:34:15He was first.
00:34:16No, he wasn't.
00:34:17The Liars.
00:34:18In the new reality, then come first the women.
00:34:21Oh, that's the wrong.
00:34:23New reality.
00:34:24That's the wrong thing to say.
00:34:39I think the men are quite quick to look at the women's fleet and see that there's less aggression
00:34:43and say, oh, I'd love to sell there, you know.
00:34:47But they don't take into account these equipment factors and all the rest, the sponsorship perhaps,
00:34:54and the contracts that they're able to sign.
00:34:56But the girls have drawn the short straw for sure.
00:34:59Hi, hello.
00:35:00How are you doing?
00:35:01Good.
00:35:01How are you?
00:35:02I'm fine.
00:35:29It's enough cutting lines for you.
00:35:31Yeah, put him in the back of the line.
00:35:35Yeah, exactly.
00:35:36Like I deserve it.
00:35:37Actually.
00:35:38Because today, we're going to go first.
00:35:41Exactly.
00:35:42Well, we'll let him have it one time.
00:35:44I think I'm a little too loved.
00:35:54But what you've experienced is,
00:35:55I remember that it's okay to say no.
00:35:58But I forget sometimes.
00:36:01I'm not sure why I'm not sure why.
00:36:05UrsprĂĽnglich ist die Medusa eigentlich ein Zeichen
00:36:07fĂĽr Frauen, die sexuelle Gewalt,
00:36:10nicht nur sexuell,
00:36:11aber im Allgemeinen Gewalt von Männern überlebt haben.
00:36:19Die Medusa wurde selbst misshandelt
00:36:21und von einer anderen Göttin wurde ihr das Geschenk gegeben,
00:36:25dass sie Männer eigentlich versteinern kann,
00:36:27wenn man ihr in die Augen blickt.
00:36:56So another topic that you are very open about besides your anorexic is, of course,
00:37:01your sexuality, why is it important for you to talk more about it?
00:37:06Oh, so many reasons.
00:37:08Oh, my God.
00:37:09But I think how come we're not allowed to talk about it?
00:37:12And then also women not talking about their sexuality leads a lot to us being sexualized
00:37:17and without us being able to defend ourselves in a way.
00:37:19It starts earlier.
00:37:21It starts by a woman walking through the crowd and a guy touching her ass on accident without
00:37:26her consent.
00:37:28Because I know that there's this huge issue that women don't report.
00:37:31I look back and I'm like, why didn't I say anything?
00:37:35I can't.
00:37:36I can't do it because, as I said, I haven't gone deep enough into my own story.
00:37:45The thing is, it doesn't work.
00:37:47I can't do it because, as I said, I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't
00:37:54do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't
00:37:54do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't
00:38:03do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't
00:38:06do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't
00:38:07do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't
00:38:07do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't
00:38:08do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't
00:38:10do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't do it because I can't
00:38:13do it because I can
00:41:53Welcome to the opening ceremony of this IQ Foil Awards.
00:41:59We know that many of you have been with us for several months.
00:42:02Good luck for everybody of you.
00:42:04We know this is a very important event.
00:42:06You have internal qualifications as well.
00:42:08One sport for the European nation.
00:42:10So all the best.
00:42:11Have a good week.
00:42:12Good wins.
00:42:43Thanks.
00:42:43I'm a little bit nervous.
00:42:43I'm a little nervous, but I know exactly what I'm doing.
00:42:45I'm a little nervous.
00:42:47I'm a little nervous.
00:42:49I'm a little nervous.
00:42:51I'm a little nervous.
00:42:52I'm a little nervous.
00:43:02What are you doing?
00:43:02I'm a little nervous.
00:43:03I'm going to go.
00:43:10I'm a little nervous.
00:43:42We haven't trained all winter at full speed to race
00:43:45the race at half speed you know like if you're gonna send it do it now do it
00:43:49now and you guys have all put in the work you're all on fucking great form
00:43:57good work over the past month or so then that our best to happen
00:44:24in the first race actually elena had a really great start and was winning winning the race
00:44:28first one to the reach mark lost a couple places when she went around the mark that was fine and
00:44:35then couldn't see her anywhere on the course then I saw some kit so I drove over to the kit
00:44:42and
00:44:43there was no one there at all
00:44:48it's the my instant reaction was complete panic like is she under the sail you know like is she
00:44:54crashed and been unconscious and you know all the worst case scenarios and then luckily kind
00:45:02of took one last scan around me she was wearing her shiny silver helmet and probably 50 meters away
00:45:09she was just there in the water with the foils around it's pretty dangerous as well
00:45:26midweek elena had two races where she finished 10th leveled 15th it would have been enough to put her
00:45:34into the gold flea and she was so happy and it's okay i think i have it in the gold
00:45:43fleet
00:45:44geschafft it's coming with the ceiling i have the feeling that henry is not so happy for me
00:45:49and they have me in the two races where i was so good at 10 and 15th as over early
00:45:54that has passed by the 90th
00:45:57which has brought me in the 90th at the site I passed on the 90th, so deep in the fleet
00:46:03I have fought for 2,5 years ago, i give everything but i'm back so far behind
00:46:13Mm-mm.
00:46:18Up there, it really went a bit backwards,
00:46:21and mentally, it was difficult for me.
00:46:29I think it's impossible to really understand
00:46:33how your subconscious as a person
00:46:36affects your conscious decisions.
00:46:40Once you put that into sport
00:46:42and you start to really have to be completely in control
00:46:45of really purposeful with all of your decisions
00:46:49and what's going on inside your head,
00:46:50100%, it can pull things out that you didn't know.
00:47:19If only the wind, if only, would make the oceans spit at me so it would wash out the burned
00:47:33flesh and drag me far away.
00:47:39If only the wind would have heard me.
00:47:44It would scream at me so loud
00:47:49that the air refuses to fill my lungs
00:47:54and in the deep awaits my unspoken chains.
00:48:03So, what if I can do it?
00:48:05So, what if I can do it?
00:48:27And then suddenly I had to cry for the whole day, I couldn't drive the car anymore, I couldn't sleep
00:48:33in the bed, I had terrible dreams.
00:48:37Four years ago, but it was just so broken, completely blacked out.
00:48:46In the podcast, it came up.
00:48:52Well, first things first, I've never talked about this to anyone.
00:48:56I went to Australia when I was 15.
00:49:00There would be these two guys, one of them was like such a clown and the other one I had
00:49:04kind of a crush on.
00:49:06And they texted me one evening to come and pick me up.
00:49:09They were friends.
00:49:12And we went into the house to just play cards and like we drank tea and it was so wholesome
00:49:17and so sweet.
00:49:19And the guy I had a crush on just went to his bed because it was his house.
00:49:23And then the other dude and I, this class clown dude, we were kind of forced to share a bed.
00:49:29You know, we're just chatting in bed.
00:49:31It was super fun.
00:49:33And then suddenly he was like, yeah, I've always wanted to have sex in school.
00:49:35And I was like, oh, okay, you know, 15.
00:49:37I had sex once.
00:49:39I was a bit intimidated still.
00:49:43And then I was like, okay, okay.
00:49:44And then he pushed it and he was like, how about we have sex right now?
00:49:49I said no for a really long time.
00:49:54He kept pushing.
00:49:55He kept pushing.
00:49:56At one point he just gets up and he, he's two meters tall and like super muscular.
00:50:01And at that point I'm 15, still anorexic, like super tiny.
00:50:05So he gets up, he takes a condom and he's like, okay, come on, let's do it.
00:50:08And at that point I just knew like I was in the middle of nowhere.
00:50:11I was afraid of this dude.
00:50:14I knew like, if I start defending myself, this is going to go down so much worse.
00:50:22Then at one point I just was quiet.
00:50:59I was afraid of this dude.
00:51:01I was afraid of that dude.
00:51:05And then I was afraid of that dude.
00:51:10I don't want to watch him.
00:51:10He's the way I did not even have to watch it.
00:51:18And then he needed to watch a comedy.
00:51:24He was so awesome.
00:51:24And he's like, he's going to do it.
00:51:24And now I want to watch a comedy scene.
00:51:24A comedy scene,
00:51:24I don't want to watch a comedy scene.
00:51:26He's like, I'm ready to watch the streets.
00:51:27I'm ready to watch the streets,
00:51:30But for a comedy scene,
00:51:30We decided to work for ourselves and we accepted it.
00:51:42I believe that every woman could have a moment in her life,
00:51:46in which she could be charged with sexual abuse.
00:51:50That we know in the moment,
00:51:51because of every woman.
00:51:54I've experienced my moment with 17 and I still know
00:51:58if it was yesterday.
00:52:00I've never told my parents.
00:52:02I've never told my parents.
00:52:02I've never told my parents.
00:52:03Except maybe my best friend.
00:52:08Elena does it differently and better than we did it.
00:52:12She takes it,
00:52:13it's something that makes you angry,
00:52:16it's something that makes you angry,
00:52:17it's something that makes you angry,
00:52:18it's something that makes you angry.
00:52:22And that can she.
00:52:23And I must say, that makes her great.
00:52:25She makes herself angry with her,
00:52:28but she lives with her.
00:52:29And that takes her into account.
00:52:36How many people told me,
00:52:39hey, I had a similar experience,
00:52:41or here or that.
00:52:42It's not just a normal way,
00:52:44but it's almost almost the norm.
00:52:46I want to normalize it.
00:52:47Because if all women are not to talk about it,
00:52:50and not to check that the shame is not to me,
00:52:53it's not to me, it's to him.
00:52:54I didn't do anything.
00:52:55He did it.
00:53:04But I did it.
00:53:05She did it.
00:53:05Sie hatte etwas,
00:53:06ein traumatisches Erlebnis
00:53:08und wandelte es
00:53:10in eine Aufgabe,
00:53:11in ein neues Ziel.
00:53:13Und das finde ich toll.
00:53:16Ich wäre auch gerne so gewesen.
00:53:45Now I have to go to E.A.,
00:53:46I have to strengthen myself,
00:53:49I have to have a success.
00:53:52I have to believe it.
00:53:53I have to believe it.
00:53:54I have to believe it.
00:54:43There were really some days where I was questioning myself as a coach.
00:54:47You know, she wasn't taking steps forward and we'd put everything into it.
00:54:51There was so much negativity coming from Elena
00:54:54that if I was to then start feeling that way or appearing that way,
00:54:59then all hope was lost.
00:55:04They seemed to think it was going to be a pretty difficult day for the race officers,
00:55:07but, you know...
00:55:10She kind of quite happily resigned to the fact
00:55:13that she was way off the level of sailing
00:55:16and that it wasn't going to happen,
00:55:18and actually I think that that was quite important
00:55:21that she felt that way in the end
00:55:23because it took a lot of pressure off.
00:55:32So let's just make sure that we have 100% confidence in the plan
00:55:37and then follow it.
00:55:40This is the forecast.
00:55:43We will do five days of racing
00:55:46to even get a shot at the qualification,
00:55:49and then it all comes down to one day.
00:55:51So if you go over the line in the first race of that day,
00:55:55that's it, then it's like, say goodbye.
00:56:00And I think the Olympics will feel less pressure than that day.
00:56:07Picturing her coming back onto the boat,
00:56:11having qualified for a spot
00:56:13and really trying to feel that feeling
00:56:15really keeps me going and keeps me fighting.
00:56:18It's going to be crazy.
00:56:20There's going to be tears, whether we do it or not.
00:56:34The weather will feel like we pull into the wind
00:56:36and you can't see it in one moment.
00:56:39You can't see it in the waves.
00:56:40But if it works properly,
00:56:42you're completely connected.
00:56:44And you get a bit of understanding.
00:56:45And when I'm relaxed and just like it is, then the wind will relax.
00:56:58Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one, go!
00:57:15Go on, Alan, dig deep now. Work for it.
00:57:23What's wrong?
00:57:25It's fine, is it?
00:57:26It's fine, it's gusty, it's horrible in here.
00:57:43Let's control the controllable.
00:57:49Yeah?
00:57:51You know you have a few options right now, either wind yourself up or calm yourself down.
00:57:57It's totally in your hands.
00:57:59Yes, go.
00:58:01Go, go, go, go, go!
00:58:03Nice tack pump.
00:58:05Work, work, work, work, work, work, work.
00:58:07Nice!
00:58:11Turn around.
00:58:14Every now and then I fall apart.
00:58:18Guys, this weight is too high up in the rankings for me to know.
00:58:22Only two have got really consistent scores.
00:58:24What's the first thing?
00:58:26I know, I know, I know.
00:58:27Hey, I'm just being an optimist.
00:58:29Optimist, yeah.
00:58:31Well, I'm a one turbo, but...
00:58:48That last race on day one was really, really important for her entire regatta.
00:58:56Me, personally, I certainly never lost hope.
00:59:00You know, no matter how unrealistic that possibly became, to me it was never impossible.
00:59:06What?
00:59:09What?
00:59:12What?
00:59:24I've actually figured out, the day before yesterday that Elena's on a Developing Nations list.
00:59:31It's just seven spots.
00:59:32Yeah, not more though, because like...
00:59:35Depends on who goes in the top five, right?
00:59:37Yeah, exactly.
00:59:39But then also after that, like, you could have loads of nations that aren't developing nations.
00:59:43So it's probably going to come down to like top ten nations maybe, top nine.
00:59:49That's a massive chance.
00:59:51Yeah, massive, a lot bigger.
00:59:55Also, es gibt eine bestimmte Anzahl von Kundenplätzen.
00:59:58Und die werden so mehr oder weniger verteilt auf die Kontinente.
01:00:02Und dann gibt's so was wie Developing Nation.
01:00:05Und Developing Nation sind nicht Drittweltländer, sondern das sind Länder,
01:00:10die seit mindestens zwei Olympischen Spielen nicht dabei waren in dieser Segelklasse.
01:00:16Und bei der Schweiz gab's seit 20 Jahren keine Frau mehr.
01:00:20Das heiĂźt, uns stand so ein Developing Nation Platz zu.
01:00:22Da waren wir aber auch wieder nicht das einzige Land, das das in Anspruch nehmen durfte.
01:00:26Es waren ziemlich viele Länder, die Developing Nation waren.
01:00:30Das heißt, es war trotzdem wie ein bisschen ein Krieg um diese Plätze.
01:00:38We'll see.
01:00:39Like, I'm pretty confident we will race.
01:00:41I hope so.
01:00:46Look at my Amazon account.
01:00:48Wow.
01:00:49It's just books.
01:00:50I don't read.
01:00:51This is all because she got her hands on my Kindle.
01:00:55It's credit card.
01:00:56It's linked to the Kindle.
01:00:59I usually read like 400 pages a day.
01:01:01That's nice.
01:01:02No.
01:01:03That's what I used to.
01:01:05That's what I used to.
01:01:05I have to be good at something.
01:01:07If it's not winter, I think it has to be something else.
01:01:09Really, really.
01:01:09It's amazing.
01:01:24I have to be good at all.
01:01:26I have to be good at all.
01:01:28You are so good at all.
01:01:29I have to be good at all.
01:01:30Do you want to get something to eat or not?
01:01:35You can never turn off,
01:01:37because you have to always be ready to jump off and then run away.
01:01:53I absolutely hate sand, but I'm so tired that I'd rather be sandy.
01:02:00I'm not asleep.
01:02:06I feel like if a chiropractitioner would, like, press on my hips,
01:02:10they'd just fall apart.
01:02:30I'm not asleep.
01:02:33I'm not asleep.
01:02:36Maybe I'll not asleep.
01:02:38I'm not asleep.
01:02:42I'm not asleep.
01:02:48I don't know.
01:03:28Alright, you got this, work hard, you got this, we can do it again, just focus on staying
01:03:37in the pressure.
01:03:41Go, go, go, go, don't stop, don't stop, don't stop, don't stop, stop, no, you fuck.
01:03:48Nice.
01:03:52What are we doing, come on, fast mode.
01:03:58What's wrong?
01:04:01Okay, so let's go, we've got a job to do.
01:04:04Okay, just relax.
01:04:07Alan.
01:04:08Dig deep, come on, come on, come on, come on.
01:04:11Come on, please, please, please, please, please.
01:04:19Yes.
01:04:23Progress.
01:04:30I'm trying, I'm not doing anything.
01:04:32Elena, come on, it's not criticism.
01:04:36It's advice.
01:04:37I'm your coach, I'm allowed to give you advice.
01:04:44Don't take it out on me.
01:04:46You are.
01:04:50What the fuck for Elena?
01:04:54For the fuck's sake.
01:05:03Yeah, that was then. I was very relieved. I mean, it's a tension that you carry over three
01:05:11years. Underbewusst, it's three years of stress that I solved. Whether it worked or not,
01:05:19that's what I trained for three years. Of course, I wasn't top of the top, but it was
01:05:28still a huge success for me.
01:05:35Actually, at the moment, I didn't qualify, but when the Slovenian tomorrow
01:05:40is a medal race, and the Slovenian was also a developing nation, it
01:05:43was only two. And if they qualify as a normal country as top five, then
01:05:48it's a new spot for the developing nation, and it goes to me.
01:06:08And when your fondest hopes are dead, and fate has ceased to smile,
01:06:19tis then, it pays to lift your head, and just hold on a while.
01:07:00I can't believe the most important race of my life is the race where I'm not in.
01:07:08My Olympic trials is waiting for someone else to do well.
01:07:13They're waiting for me to do good.
01:07:18Socks.
01:07:19Sock my lucky socks. They did work yesterday. Sparkly socks in action.
01:07:27Okay, group hug before it starts.
01:07:31Love you guys.
01:07:37There she is!
01:07:40There's our girl, the legend, the myth.
01:07:43Woo! Slovenia!
01:07:45She's fucking flying.
01:07:53She's so nice.
01:07:54How cute is the dad?
01:07:55I'm sorry. How sweet is that?
01:07:57I told her.
01:08:00She knows that she has to do it.
01:08:03Guys, I'm going to actually throw up.
01:08:06You don't know how to fuck me?
01:08:07Yeah.
01:08:11I can't look. I can't look.
01:08:13I can't look.
01:08:20Oh, okay. That's a good start. That's a good start.
01:08:23Yes. Okay. Nice. She's rolling.
01:08:26She's leading. She's leading.
01:08:28Stop!
01:08:31Go! Go! Go!
01:08:34The other girl's...
01:08:35Oh, Jesus. She's going to split from the fucking flee.
01:08:39This way?
01:08:40Yeah, she's coming this way.
01:08:41Oh, my God. Fuck me. Go!
01:08:42Go!
01:08:45Oh, my God. Go! Please!
01:08:48Please!
01:08:50Come on.
01:08:51Good tack.
01:08:53Is she overlaying?
01:08:55Keep going.
01:08:57Nice!
01:08:57No!
01:09:01Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
01:09:10She was winning.
01:09:14I can't see.
01:09:15I can't see.
01:09:16Go! Go!
01:09:18Go!
01:09:19If she makes this, it's good.
01:09:21Go! Go!
01:09:24Go!
01:09:24Oh, my God.
01:09:25Go! Go!
01:09:30Oh, my God.
01:09:32Go!
01:09:36Oh, my God.
01:09:41Go!
01:09:41Go!
01:09:45That's it!
01:09:47Oh, my God.
01:09:50Oh, my God.
01:09:52Oh, my God.
01:09:54Oh, my God.
01:10:07Oh, my God.
01:10:09Thank you! Thank you so much!
01:10:16Thank you so much, I owe you!
01:10:18Guys, I qualified for the Olympics!
01:10:22What the fuck?
01:10:24We did it, I can't believe it.
01:10:29Can you imagine?
01:10:30You coached someone I couldn't jive to the games.
01:10:35I couldn't jive two years ago.
01:10:39I still can't jive!
01:10:43Mami!
01:10:44Wir haben es geschafft!
01:10:45Wir haben es geschafft!
01:10:46Doch, wir haben es geschafft!
01:10:53I'm a new big athlete!
01:10:57Oh my God!
01:10:59Ja, ich habe das Land qualifiziert.
01:11:02Ich weiss noch nicht, ob sie mich schicken,
01:11:03aber ich habe 100% das Land qualifiziert.
01:11:05Ich bin auf dieser Longlist.
01:11:06Und das heisst, ich glaube, sie schicken mich.
01:11:09Ich glaube, es ist all good.
01:11:11Also, ich glaube, es ist all good.
01:11:12Nach 20 Jahren, Mama!
01:11:14Eine Frau von der Schweiz.
01:11:16Genau nach 20 Jahren her,
01:11:18als die letzte schweizer Frau in Windsor war.
01:11:28Ich habe mir nie ĂĽberlegt, was nach ihr passiert.
01:11:32Ich habe auch nie überlegt, wie es dann eigentlich wäre,
01:11:34bei der Olympiade mit zu segeln.
01:11:37Aber auch emotional irgendwie.
01:11:40Ich habe mich nicht mehr ĂĽberlegt,
01:11:41wie es dann ist.
01:11:41Es fĂĽhlt sich nicht real.
01:11:51Ich fühle mich, wie ich eigentlich träume.
01:11:55Wie, eigentlich.
01:11:55Ja, ich bin jetzt fertig.
01:11:58Ja, du bist jetzt fertig.
01:11:59Du bist fertig.
01:12:00Du bist fertig.
01:12:01Ich weiĂź nicht, wie funktioniert es?
01:12:03Ich habe keine Ahnung.
01:12:04Ich habe gar nicht mehr eine Startwatch.
01:12:05Ich habe noch keine Ahnung.
01:12:08Ich habe noch einen Henrys.
01:12:10Ich habe dich genommen.
01:12:11Ich habe deine Ahnung, die Ahnung.
01:12:11Ja, danke.
01:12:14Harry, kann man das?
01:12:16Was?
01:12:18Ich muss einfach...
01:12:19Ich muss einen Drink.
01:12:25I'm going to cry so much.
01:12:28Come here, come here.
01:12:30Thank you so much.
01:12:32Both of your kids did it, right?
01:12:35No.
01:12:36Oh, really?
01:12:38He did fucking well.
01:12:40You can be so proud.
01:12:41And you're always here with your camper.
01:12:43And you have two amazing kids.
01:12:46I'll see you in Marseille.
01:12:50Olympics!
01:12:51Olympics!
01:12:54Now, I don't have to be ashamed of my van anymore.
01:12:58I'm not kidding, guys.
01:12:59I've been so ashamed.
01:13:00Not ashamed, but, like, it's a lot to put it out there
01:13:04when you can't fucking windsurf.
01:13:15Okay.
01:13:22Okay.
01:13:24And what's gonna happen to you?
01:13:25We then got a call from one of the guys in the evening saying,
01:13:31oh, you know, this is going to be a longer process than you think.
01:13:34We have to keep on training as if it's going to happen.
01:13:38And then it might not.
01:13:41A lot of these emotions, probably, that we were suppressing really hard and ignoring for the means of actually being
01:13:49able to compete,
01:13:50that we imagined would all be released at this point in time, being carried with us.
01:14:13The progression has been massive to be able to even beat some of these girls who have been around for
01:14:1715, 20 years.
01:14:19The potential towards 20-28 is huge.
01:14:24Can you imagine how compact that improvement has been so far with such little support?
01:14:33Can you untie it?
01:14:38Three, two, one.
01:14:40Come on.
01:14:41Come on.
01:14:42Come on.
01:14:56Come on.
01:15:03Come on.
01:15:04Come on.
01:15:04Come on.
01:15:05Come on.
01:15:05Come on.
01:15:05You get your included.
01:15:08How just the Kelly wants to be a while, please add a counselor that she couldn't even ask me.
01:15:09They threw up involving the Team ahead of every week, when they banned me.
01:15:20They introduced me to my it.
01:15:20When they didn't call me, I found a domain-��.
01:15:21They took an они, and were so close to me.
01:15:21Then they made something similar because they recognized me by choosing a decision.
01:15:22And they allowed me to send them not to send the phone.
01:15:27It gave them just a hearing.
01:15:31implied, it's made mantener so many questions.
01:15:58I just want to be here.
01:16:00Just being and living without any expectations.
01:16:02I just want to be here.
01:16:02I don't have anything to be here.
01:16:04Just to be here and exist without any expectations.
01:16:05Before I started the whole journey, I was never really aware of it.
01:16:10Because I realized that I'm never happy when I achieve something.
01:16:14And I don't want that anymore.
01:16:17But I think I'm ready when I hold gold in the hand.
01:16:23And at the same time, I think that Scheitern is so important personally,
01:16:28because you can learn from it and you learn so much more in the depths than in the depths.
01:16:49I can also say so often, that it wasn't my time.
01:16:53But if other people can do it, there's no reason why I shouldn't do it.
01:16:59I just believe that people have fear about it and feel that they could not.
01:17:04It can also be on a small level, but why not?
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