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00:02my mom called me a liar from the day i was born not because i actually lied but because of
00:07this
00:07thing around my neck the verity choker mom was luna of silver moon pack and she believed one
00:12thing above all lying was the mark of a weak wolf we were her daughters future alpha heirs
00:18weakness was not an option so when my twin sister emma and i were born mom clasped these chokers
00:24around our throats which had witch magic to detect lies green light means truth red light means you
00:30were lying emma's choker always green she could shred mom's ceremonial cloak and blame the cat
00:36and gem would glow a steady green not me green light believed me mom i'm hungry and flash red
00:46light the choker choked tight i shifted on instinct a small white wolf pawing desperately at the gem
00:52around my neck claws scraping against it unable to get it off i'm not lying not lying please but mom's
01:00eyes had already gone cold instant punishment mom's punishment wasn't gentle no food locked in my room
01:07no contact with anyone in the pack the truth necklace doesn't lie stella starve now study later
01:13i'm doing this for your own good after 10 years of this i started believing it too maybe i really
01:19was
01:20born wrong new year's eve everything changed mom was getting ready to take emma to the pack's bonfire
01:26celebration and that's when the pain hit like a knife twisting in my gut i collapsed on the floor
01:31my skeletal frame curling into itself mom please the choker flashed red and choked tight she looked down
01:40at me disgusted in her eyes in your dream stella faking an illness to ruin our night she grabbed emma's
01:48hand and headed for the door i wanted to howl but my wolf was too weak to answer i shifted
01:53anyway forced
01:55it a small white wolf trembling on the floor ribs heaving maybe in this form the pain would hurt less
02:01it didn't i couldn't even hold the shift i slipped back into myself without meaning to
02:06sorry mom i won't lie anymore but the pain got worse way worse the door handle turned for one second
02:14i
02:14thought mom's coming back she came back for me hurry up the bonfire is starting emma's waiting mom
02:21i reached out with a shaking hand please something's really wrong i feel like i'm dying
02:27she glanced at my neck the gem was flashing red over and over she crouched down grabbed my chin
02:34stella how long are you gonna keep this up can't you just be honest and stay here and think about
02:41what you've done dad appeared in the doorway honey should we at least leave her some food
02:48food she has a stash of snacks she bought with stolen money she won't starve lock the door
02:54when that gem turns green we'll talk but but what it's because you spoil her that she turned out this
03:03way look at emma her gem has always been green stella is a liar an alpha heiress who can't tell
03:10the
03:10truth she needs discipline but my cabinet was empty emma stole that money
03:16emma ate those snacks emma just stood there with her glowing green gem saying not me and mom
03:23believed her i tried to defend myself it wasn't me red light the choker choked tight i tried to shift
03:31nothing happened deep inside my wolf barely stirred mom locked me up for three days with nothing but
03:39water and stale bread mom turned to leave emma peeked through the door made a face at me bye sis
03:46we're
03:46gonna see the bonfire her gem glowed a steady green so pretty the door locked the house went silent i
03:55called my wolf nothing came back not even a whisper just me alone the pain was unbearable but i kept
04:04thinking mom's right the gem doesn't lie it's red so i must be lying i'm not in pain i'm not
04:13in pain i'm not
04:15in pain i kept repeating it like a prayer eventually i almost believed it the pain dulled or maybe i
04:25was
04:25just going numb i crawled to my desk i had to write that was the rule if the gem glowed
04:32red i had to pen
04:33a thousand word apology or mom would never let me out i am a liar write it down and maybe
04:41mom would
04:42forgive me maybe she'd even let me out i opened my journal pages and pages of apologies i'd written
04:49over the years sorry i lied i won't do it again but this time i wanted to write the truth
04:56my vision
04:57blurred my hand shook as i wrote mom i really love you it really hurts why won't you believe me
05:06please believe me just once the moment i finished the last word the pain vanished just gone i felt light
05:16weightless i looked down i was floating and there slumped over the desk was my body motionless
05:25the gem still flashing red around a dead girl's neck oh i'm dead and then she came out my wolf
05:34stepping out of my body like she'd been waiting all along small skinny barely holding together
05:41she looked up at me and once soft and low in the pack's old stories they say when a wolf
05:49dies young
05:49her spirit doesn't cross over alone her wolf walks beside her until they find the door together
05:56i knelt down she pressed her nose into my ghostly palm finally we were together now but i never learned
06:04how to be honest sorry mom i heard laughter mom dad emma coming through the front door tonight's bonfire
06:13was beautiful the best one yet just like our emma perfect in every way i'd never heard her sound like
06:22that when she talked about me i floated toward them my wolf patting silently at my side moving on instinct
06:29i wanted to help them take off their cloaks that's what i always did mom my arms passed right through
06:35her body like wind is it so cold here is the hearty out i stood there staring at my transparent
06:43hands
06:43my wolf pressed against my leg and looked up at me with sad eyes right dead wolves couldn't hug the
06:50living
06:50shall we go and see stella she hasn't eaten yet still the good cop i looked at mom hopefully
06:57if she found me dead would she be sad would she regret it she won't starve she is a werewolf
07:05not a human pup this whole fake sick for attention thing is out of control i laughed bitterly mom wasn't
07:13wrong werewolves heal but i hadn't been able to in a long time last winter the choker left bruises that
07:20stayed for days that hadn't happened before i reached for my wolf she was still there but the
07:26warmth never came she was too hungry just like me mom never noticed she only ever looked at my neck
07:35for
07:35one thing the gem and whether it was red or green mom pushed open my door didn't even turn on
07:42the light
07:42just for a second her eyes flashed gold her wolf might have known mom didn't listen in the dim glow
07:49from
07:50the hallway she saw me slumped over my desk i looked like a skeleton hadn't moved still putting
07:57on an act you're 10 years old not five grow up mom i'm not playing i'm dead look at me
08:06touch me i'm
08:07freezing she couldn't hear me she only believed what she wanted to see emma squeezed past her held up her
08:14choker with that smug little grin look my gem is green stella's is still red she's lying even in
08:22her sleep that's my good girl ignore the liar let her stay there maybe she'll learn how to be honest
08:30should we at least put her in bed it's freezing put her in bed look at that red gem still
08:36lying
08:37come on leave her we have to visit grandma tomorrow the door locked again i floated next to my corpse
08:45my wolf curled silently at my feet staring at that single point of red light in the darkness mom if
08:52you just stepped closer if you just touched my hand you'd know i was ice cold but you didn't you
08:58believed the choker not the daughter you carried for nine months that night a rat crawled out of my empty
09:05cabinet i used to scream whenever i saw rats but now i just floated by the ceiling watching it scurry
09:11across my dead body the rat bit into my toe i didn't feel anything my wolf charged at it anyway
09:18and
09:18passed right through landing on the other side she turned back to look at me confused lost i pulled her
09:26close and buried my face in the fur of her back it's okay you can't feel it anymore it'll be
09:32over soon
09:34she let out one low growl then went still against me finally no more pain for either of us the
09:41next
09:41morning sunlight streamed through the window no warmth reached my body in the kitchen i could hear mom
09:48making breakfast the smell of roasted meat crept under my door my favorite but mom always said liars don't
09:55deserve meat so i only ever got steamed vegetables she was clanging the pots extra loud on purpose
10:01trying to tempt me out trying to make me give in and apologize for things i never did in the
10:08old days
10:08i might have caved i might have confessed to anything for one bite of roasted meat but i don't need
10:14food
10:14anymore stella still hasn't come out yet dad asked reading the pack notices she is so stubborn she can
10:22eat or not i don't care emma walked to my door and made a big show of sniffing the air
10:30then she screamed
10:32dramatically mom stella's room smells like poop did she poop in there i floated by the door watching my
10:40sister with a bitter smile my wolf sat beside me ears flat eyes low the hearth was burning hot after
10:49just one night my body started to rot mom stormed over pounding on the door
11:01i remembered being six i had food poisoning couldn't make it to the toilet in time
11:08mom didn't help me clean up she made me stand outside pointed at me and told the neighbors look
11:14at this she's such a mess she can't even use the toilet herself now she thought i was dirty again
11:21leave her let her sit in her own stink but dad stood up frowning that smells really bad i should
11:29check could it be a dead rat or something my heart if i still had one leapt dad please open
11:37the door
11:38i'm right here just turn the handle and you'll see i'm not moving i waved my transparent arms frantically
11:46my wolf ran straight to my bedroom door willing dad to open it dad's hand touched the door handle
11:52his hand froze someone was pounding at the front door a pack elder urgent business dad's face went
11:58pale he grabbed his cloak the border there's an emergency he was already out the door i froze
12:05so close one second away if that knock had come one second later i would have been found maybe then
12:11i wouldn't have rotted alone that afternoon mom took emma to the pack market the house was empty
12:17except for my corpse when they came back that evening loaded down with food and gifts from the
12:21market the smell had gotten worse mom gagged the second she walked in stella are you trying to turn
12:28this place into a den of inequity she didn't even open my door just grabbed cloth strips and sealed the
12:33gap at the bottom if you want to stay in there and make disgusting stew zoos don't stink up my
12:38house
12:38she patted her hands together satisfied then went to prepare dinner i stared at that sealed door my
12:44wolf pressed her nose against it and whimpered once so that's it i'm worth less than a venison dinner by
12:50day three even the cloth strips couldn't contain the smell mom was arranging fresh wildflowers trying
12:55to cover it up but the stench of death is unmistakable sweet rotten oily she cut a rose stem too
13:02hard
13:02a thorn pierced her hand she snapped in her mind i was doing this on purpose not bathing poop on
13:09the
13:09floor hiding dead rats in my room all to piss her off all to defy her authority as luna stella
13:16she
13:16grabbed a rolling pin from the kitchen stormed toward my room i'm done with you you disgusting
13:22little brat time you learned what real pain feels like i floated in front of her waving my arms
13:28desperately don't come in mom please please even though she never loved me i didn't want her to see
13:37me like that but she walked right through me ripped the cloth strips off jammed the spare key into the
13:42lock the door flew open the smell hit her like a wall she stumbled back retching stella what are you
13:49doing she saw me still slumped over the desk back turned not moving to her this was the ultimate
13:56rebellion i'm talking to you she marched over raised the rolling pin but stopped she wanted to see my face
14:04first wanted to see my get up she grabbed the back of my shirt grabbed my skin the moment she
14:10touched me
14:10she froze through the thin fabric her hand didn't feel warm flesh she felt cold hard dead meat the kind
14:18of
14:18cold that seeps into your bones but momentum carried her forward she yanked crash my body stiff as a
14:26board toppled backward taking the chair with it and there was my face blue black eyes bulging features
14:32twisted in agony dried foam and blood crusted around my mouth around my blackened neck the verity choker
14:38hung lifeless the gem dark no red no green just silence my journal slid off the desk fell open at
14:47mom's feet
14:47the last page stared up at her mom my stomach really hurts the choker is wrong i'm not lying please
14:54don't punish me mom screamed not a wolf's howl a raw guttural shriek that tore through her throat
15:01she stumbled backward slammed into the bookshelf a clay pot shattered but she didn't seem to feel the pain
15:09she just stared at me eyes wide unblinking no no no no no this is not real stella get up
15:18stella
15:19get up get up i'm not mad anymore stop scaring me her hand reached out trembling to touch my arm
15:28the second her skin made contact with my corpse she recoiled like she'd been burned that cold was too real
15:35lisa from next door heard the screaming and went straight to the pack healer when she saw what was
15:41in my room she collapsed in the gate within the hour heavy boots on the floorboards the pack healer
15:47and a handful of pack warriors crowding the entrance mom sat on the floor a warrior's hand on her shoulder
15:54she's speaking it she's always lying
15:58it doesn't lie i'm just teaching her no one responded they all looked at her like she was a monster
16:05the pack healer crouched next to my body he muttered under his breath severe malnutrition organ failure
16:13this puppy has been starved for at least a month he carefully tried to remove the verity choker
16:18but it had fused years of tightening had pressed the leather deep into the skin of my neck damn it
16:25he
16:26had to use tools to pry it off even dead my soul flinched my wolf lifted her head and
16:34long raw desperate the kind of howl that should have shaken the walls no one heard it no one flinched
16:42we were already dead a warrior picked up my journal started reading his face went from neutral to
16:49horrified mom's eyes locked onto that book that's her confession she admits she lied look she wrote it
16:57herself the warrior pushed her back wrapped the journal in cloth and took it we'll report it to the council
17:06that's when dad got home he saw the pack healer and the pack warriors crowding the doorway
17:12saw the body wrap being carried out saw the long cord that sealed away my entire life his legs gave
17:20out
17:20he collapsed on the doorstep emma stood nearby sobbing in confusion she pointed at the discolored verity
17:28choker on the table why does stella have a black collar and i have a green one see she held
17:34up her neck
17:35the gem blinked its steady green it was grotesque the council elders arrived before dawn mom straightened
17:43when she saw them even now even with my body three days cold and rotting her luna instincts kicked in
17:51she lifted her chin squared her shoulders it didn't work today they started questioning mom in the living
17:58room mom grabbed the verity choker off the table like it was a lifeline test it that choker proved she
18:05was lying red gem means lie i never abused her the choker told me i was just educating her the
18:16council
18:16elders looked at her like she'd lost her mind the pup shows signs of extreme malnutrition months of
18:24starvation aphelion multiple old injuries consistent with prolonged that's just discipline that's teaching
18:32her to be honest then she did something insane you don't believe me fine i'll wear it
18:43watch it'll be green the leather pressed against her skin cold sticky that was my blood she took a
18:52deep breath tried to calm herself she needed to prove she was innocent needed to prove her way of
18:58raising and alpha air was right she held up the gem eyes wild listen i'm rachel i'm stella's mother
19:07this is the truth the absolute truth the gem flashed red mom's confident expression shattered
19:16i said truth i am rachel i never abused her i did it for her own good
19:26i love her and suddenly she remembered me 10 years old gasping as the choker tightened around
19:35my throat biting my lip so i wouldn't make a sound is this what it felt like why is it
19:41red i am telling
19:43the truth turn green you're broken you're setting me up but the gem kept flashing like it was mocking her
19:50you're a liar you're a liar you're a liar enough this is just a bloodstone i've seen it before it
20:00changes color with body heat fear pain anything that makes your heart race temperature rises it burns
20:09red that's all it does no witch magic never was think about your daughter ruptured appendix organ
20:18failure the pain must have been unbearable she was terrified and what did you see a red gem so you
20:27punished her more which made her more scared which made her temperature rise which made the stone turn
20:36redder you are luna you are supposed to protect every wolf in this pack you couldn't even protect your
20:45your own daughter you ignored her cries for help you starved your daughter to death mom's world collapsed
20:53she sat there staring at the flashing gem on her own net and finally understood for 10 years every red
21:01light wasn't because i was lying it was because i was scared scared of her anger scared of being
21:08misunderstood scared of eating food that made me sick i was in pain pain that made my heart race
21:15and cold sweat pour down my face i was desperate desperate for a hug for her to hold me the
21:23way she
21:23held emma every signal from my frightened heart she had interpreted as proof of my lies
21:30no get it off
21:35i'm not lying i'm not she tried to shift fur rippling across her skin bones cracking but the leather
21:43cinched harder around her throat the moment her neck began to change she snapped back into human form
21:49gasping i can't get it off stella take it back i'm sorry it's all my fault this little bit of
21:59choking
21:59and she was already breaking mom i suffered for 10 years the council elders needed evidence for judgment
22:08so they opened my journal in front of my parents february 14th sunny mom put celery on my plate i'm
22:17allergic my throat swells i can't breathe i said i can't eat it but because i was scared of making
22:24her angry my body ran hot the gem flashed red the choker tightened mom said i was picky lying made
22:34me
22:34eat the whole plate that night i threw up blood my throat felt like it was on fire i shifted
22:41to ease my
22:41pain mom saw it and said i'd snuck berry juice that i was faking the choker tightened for 10 more
22:50minutes mom's hand flew to her mouth she was shaking violently she remembered that she really did think
22:58it was berry juice she didn't even look closely just turned away to read emma a bedtime story that was
23:05blood from a swollen torn throat june 1st pup's day emma shredded mom's ceremonial cloak emma's heart
23:15is always calm her gem stays green i tried to explain but i was scared of being hit my body
23:22ran hot red
23:24gem choker tightened for 10 minutes it hurt so bad but i didn't cry because crying makes your body run
23:32even hotter and mom thinks that means you're not sorry so i held my breath pretended it didn't hurt
23:39mom said see she doesn't even blink she's definitely faking it dad couldn't take it anymore this man
23:48who had always put the pack before his own family chose duty over his daughter for 10 years
23:54you monster what did you do that was your daughter
24:00you treated her like a stray blood at the corner of her mouth not my fault not my fault it's
24:07her
24:07it's emma emma's gem was always green emma was the good one if it wasn't for that green light
24:14making me trust her i wouldn't have believed the red light so much this is emma's fault that little
24:20princess everyone had protected one of the council elders walked over gently removed the green
24:26verity choker from her neck took out a blade pried the gem loose right there it rolled onto the table
24:34still glowing green steady unchanged the elder picked up the stone a glowstone that is all your younger
24:43daughter's choker was always going to shine green no matter what she said did or lied about it would
24:51never change your so-called verity choker was a fraud that was her truth for 10 years that was the
25:00evidence she used to convict me a common glowstone that put me in hell while emma lived in paradise
25:07so i wasn't a liar i i laughed laughed until i cried turns out ghosts could cry too the elder
25:14turned to the
25:15last page of the journal his voice broke the handwriting was a mess clearly written while dying mom if i
25:23die
25:23will the choker stop glowing red or if it turns green will you hug me then i'm not lying i
25:29couldn't
25:30heal myself anymore my stomach hurts so much like knives next life please don't make me wear the choker
25:38please i just want to be a normal pup i want to eat mom's roasted meat mom stared at the
25:44broken glowstone
25:45on the table that truth magic she trusted without question a worthless stone because of that stone she
25:52spoiled emma for 10 years because of that cursed red light she tortured me for 10 years
26:02mom started laughing her voice cracking in every sound worse than crying fake all fake
26:13i killed my most honest pup and i worshipped a liar she'd lost her mind for real this time my
26:22death became
26:23the talk of the entire pack lisa the neighbor who had sent for the pack healer told everyone what she'd
26:29seen every wolf knew by morning luna had starved her own daughter to death monster murderer she doesn't
26:39deserve to be luna stones flew at our door the word killer carved into the wall the council convened within
26:47the day the verdict was swift dad lost his alpha title no wolf would follow him now my grandfather
26:55the former alpha read out the judgment himself he didn't look at his son once dad walked out of the
27:02council hall and never looked back he took emma and left the pack that same night emma was a bad
27:08seed sure
27:09but she was still his blood before they left emma tried to take her green choker dad stomped on it
27:16why the hell would you want that piece of trash emma cried as he dragged her away mom got out
27:22of the
27:22dungeon the healer said she had lost her mind the council locked her in the home instead the one
27:28that still smelled like death her mental state deteriorated fast she refused to take off the red
27:35choker she would tighten it herself whenever the guilt got too heavy she said choking was the only thing
27:41that eased it it was her self-imposed punishment i floated in the darkness my wolf curled beside me
27:48watching her unravel day after day she'd talk to the empty corner where i used to stand stella i brought
27:53you some food no celery today it's all roast just how you like it but there was no food there
28:02was
28:02nothing just her hands cupped around air she'd pretend to set a plate down her hands shook the gem
28:09flashed red she was anxious guilty falling apart she smiled but her eyes were empty the gem is red
28:18mom is lying liars don't deserve food she pulled the choker tight with her own hands
28:24let it choke her her body convulsed against the cold floor it hurts so much is this how stella felt
28:32i'm sorry mom started reenacting my diary entries i couldn't eat celery because of my allergy
28:41so she forced herself to eat spoiled food until she vomited blood then swallowed it back down i was
28:47locked in isolation so she locked herself in my old room lights off and bowed to my portrait
28:54until her forehead bled over and over blood on the floor late at night she'd see the red glow of
29:02the bloodstone reflected on the wall to her it looked like my bloody eyes were watching she kept
29:09punishing herself the wounds healed slower and slower her wolf exhausted by months of self-torture
29:16slowly fell into a deep sleep mom didn't care she scrawled on the back of my journal i'm sorry
29:24i was wrong red means pain red means love please come back and say it hurts hurts one more time
29:32i'll save you i promise too bad i'm dead dead wolves can't cry for help eventually the new alpha
29:39intervened mom's self-harm had gone too far she'd nearly choked herself to death with her own hands
29:46he ordered her to move to a small hut at the far edge of the village locked from the outside
29:51someone
29:52posted to watch her day and night she was the strangest woman they'd ever seen nobody knew where
29:58she'd found it a frayed red cord tied around her own neck her homemade choker if anyone tried to remove
30:06it she'd snap at them teeth bared snarling wild-eyed don't touch me stella's watching
30:14she'll be angry if you take it every time the guard called her name and brought her food mom would
30:21grab
30:21the red cord and pull it tight against her own throat convulsing screaming red light red light
30:29don't punish punish me i'll eat i'll eat even if the food was scalding hot she'd gulp it down burning
30:37her throat wouldn't spit it out she was reenacting my final moments living my hell on repeat years
30:45later emma grew up without guidance and with a trail of shame behind her she drifted from pack to pack
30:51stealing to survive no one would take her in when she ran out of options she remembered mom was still
30:59alive she slipped back into the silverman pack under the cover of night not for love for money hey crazy
31:07lady dad's dead give me whatever you've been hiding emma stood there face hard eyes full of
31:15contempt she looked at mom's hollow broken form and spat on the floor it's disgusting give me what i
31:23want or i'll send you to meet your daughter for a moment mom's cloudy eyes cleared she looked at emma
31:30and suddenly remembered that choker that always green glowstone that decade of deception it's you you lie
31:41you're the green light that wasn't there you killed stella give her back to me give her back to me
31:48the last shred of maternal love twisted into something feral mom lunged grabbed emma by the throat
31:56should have died not her you
32:02emma thrashed but couldn't break free from a mad woman's grip the guards rushed in pulled her off emma
32:09stumbled out of the hut terrified they're all insane she bolted into the forest she didn't get far
32:17rogues the kind that haunted the borderlands preying on anyone foolish enough to run through the trees
32:23alone at night emma never saw them coming by the time she did it was too late she survived barely
32:31both
32:32legs shattered beyond repair she'd never walk again meanwhile mom was strapped to her cot staring at the
32:39ceiling tears streaming in her dreams she finally saw me i was 10 again no choker white dress smiling
32:49mom she reached for me crying with joy
32:53stella but the moment her hands touched me i burst into ash no she woke up screaming if she'd been
33:01wearing that choker it would have been blood red eternal torment i stood in the void watching it all
33:08mom strapped to her bed emma in a wheelchair begging on the market dad drunk and dead in some gutter
33:15i felt
33:16nothing no satisfaction just a flat dead calm my wolf padded over quietly she didn't howl didn't nudge
33:25just pressed her head against my hand and held it there in the distance a door of light appeared soft
33:32steady waiting i looked at my wolf she looked at me yeah time to leave this life was too bitter
33:40nothing worth holding on to i floated to mom's hut one final time she looked ancient hair completely
33:47white frail as paper she sent something her cloudy eyes focused on a point in the air right where i
33:53stood stella is that you her trembling hand reached into the emptiness mom destroyed the choker i don't
34:00believe in it anymore come back please i'll cook for you no salary i'll buy you new dresses not emma
34:06tears rolled down her face i looked at the red marks on her neck from the frayed cord i i
34:12reached
34:12out my cold ghostly finger touched her forehead this was my final mercy sleep mom in sleep there's
34:20no pain her eyes fluttered shut she slumped into a deep dreamless rest a breeze blew through the hut the
34:27old journal on her cot flipped open the last page my dying words stared up at the ceiling but below
34:33it
34:34in shaky handwriting were new lines written by mom during a lucid moment next life let me wear the
34:40choker let me be the liar punish me however you want just don't leave me i stared at those words
34:46felt
34:46nothing too late repentance means nothing to the dead mom i don't hate you anymore but i don't love you
34:54either let's not meet again i turned away my wolf was waiting in the distance the door of light still
35:00glowed soft steady patient i looked at my neck the phantom verity choker still there even in spirit
35:07form the nightmare that had changed me for a lifetime i grabbed it it shattered into nothing
35:12i felt weightless free no red light no hunger no lies just freedom my wolf pressed against my side
35:20together we walked toward the light i didn't look back morning came a guard pushed open the door
35:26rachel time to eat no response she walked closer mom's hand clutched the torn journal a single tear
35:32crystallized at the corner of her eye she crouched beside her held two fingers beneath her nose
35:37she was nothing she was gone
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