00:28You
00:30I keep coming back to Paris to try and find a different ending to the past.
00:44How much of it do I remember?
00:47Um, not much. Sort of a bit of a fog.
01:08I don't even know if any of it's true anymore. If any of it really happened.
01:25We left. Not much I do know.
01:31Balbes, Plastiklinenko, Stalingrad.
01:34It's a petrol station. My dad had a bar next to it.
01:41So he came over from Alger to Paris in 68.
01:44He was at the door. All these different bars.
01:48A place like Moulin Rouge, you know?
01:51They changed his name to Joe. Blamey doesn't look like a Joe, but it worked for them.
02:01That's where I'd visit him. Watching him with his friends speak in Arabic.
02:05I know I wasn't taught to speak Arabic. I had to read and write French.
02:11Every time I come to Paris, I'm on the outside. It's like they all float in a bubble.
02:22I'm an observer.
02:34Yes, I'm a Londoner. I like being a Londoner, but it's complicated. Something is always going to be missing there.
02:43It's like pieces of me are scattered. It's just in London I can get caught in the noise of it
02:48all.
02:49I can pretend everything's fine. Over here it's rubbed in my face that something's missing.
02:55I can't see any French friends. It's something that I say.
03:03I can't see them in a small burgers.
03:04It's very good.
03:11It's a great place for it to see your family.
03:13I can't see my cell phone.
03:16I can't see my cell phone.
03:18I can't see the cell phone.
03:20I can't see my cell phone.
03:23I can't see my cell phone.
03:39They changed my name from Muneer, they thought that would make my life easier, so we left
03:47Muneer behind. I didn't know I was an Arab till later. I didn't understand what it meant to do that,
03:57to leave that, to leave that buried here in Paris.
04:34I come to Paris to see my dad, my Algerian family.
04:44But every time I come here, I think about my mother.
05:08Hello!
05:11Excuse me.
05:13How are you?
05:16I saw a little resemblance.
05:19Oh, really?
05:53So I keep coming back to Paris, trying to find a different ending.
06:05My mom came to Paris when she was 16. Pregnant by 19. Where is she now? She's in London. Nah,
06:13she's never gonna come back. She won't say why.
06:36But some, it's complicated. Nah, my mother's white. She's blonde actually. She left one of my brothers here, in Paris.
06:47There was originally three of us. Three different fathers, three different colours. She took two of us and left Paris.
06:54I brought them to London.
07:26I am closer to something when I'm in Paris. I keep coming back because behind Paris is Algiers.
07:35One of the students who was the only two of us and left the world.
07:37I work at Paris.
07:38I look bigger than me.
07:38I own the other one.
07:51I love it.
07:56Good luck.
08:01I love you.
08:02I love you.
08:02I know.
08:03I love you.
08:05And then I met you.
08:08Where?
08:10I'll meet you.
08:12You're...
08:13You're reverend.
08:15You're comfortable in your skin here.
08:18That's right.
08:19Being a Parisian.
08:21An Algerian.
08:24Show me around.
08:26Show me how to be a part of Paris.
08:29Our Paris, you know?
08:31Our Paris.
08:33You asked me to claim a piece of it for myself.
08:36I feel close to it.
08:38I can feel it.
08:41But...
08:41It's not mine.
08:44I can't claim it.
08:45I know why I can't fucking claim it.
08:47It just feels fake.
08:48I'm fucking fake.
08:49It's all fucking bullshit.
08:51I expect it to come crashing down.
08:54You're fucking fake.
08:58Intimity has surprised us.
09:01I don't know more than you what it is.
09:05Sometimes it hurts.
09:09You should approach us.
09:15The first half of the world.
09:15I'm losing my soul.
09:18I fell by my heart.
09:19Between you and me,
09:20I'm such a bridge and a bridge.
09:22I'm going to go to the village.
10:17I'm talking to you.
10:20I fucking feel sorry for you know that.
10:24You know that, right?
10:25I'm fucking talking to you.
10:28Yeah, I was forced.
10:42I'm fine with it.
10:43Stop!
10:44I'm not talking about that right now.
10:46Fuck off.
10:46What do you mean did anything happen?
10:47I said I'm fine with it.
10:52She taught us how to be alone.
11:00The what if's fucking exhausting.
11:03What if I had a tribe?
11:05What if I belonged?
11:07Of course I've connected before.
11:09It's just difficult.
11:10Stuck in a loop.
11:12What do you mean if I loved, I met two dogs?
11:41I think so, of course.
12:00You're scared.
12:01It's just your fucking fancy words.
12:03I fucking hate it.
12:05You're scared of hiding behind your education, being cultured.
12:11what if it keeps you safe.
12:23I see you're fucking tired as well.
12:25I see you.
12:28I see you.
12:29You're exhausted.
12:47What do you mean?
12:48I carry shame.
12:49What does that even mean?
12:51You throw around your fucking words so easily.
12:54You say, I'm the Arab that stayed.
12:55You're the Arab that left.
12:57Fuck off.
12:57I didn't have a choice.
13:08I can't say, shit doesn't eat.
13:15I was even afraid for your people.
13:15I can't stand on my table.
13:15You're not.
13:18It's different now.
13:19Maybe you're the Arab that leaves.
13:19That's right, isn't you?
13:19I was about to� Luego.
13:20Finally, we got overwhelmed.
13:20We found him.
13:20DEGEN PURCHIC européen,
13:20When are you?
13:20How do you find him?
13:21A Z�atch Treatment?
13:28You're the professor!
13:29Keep coming back to Paris.
14:06I don't want to lose.
14:52I don't want to lose.
14:53With you, I'm vulnerable.
14:58I don't want to lose.
15:03I don't want to lose.
15:04I don't want to lose.
15:05In Paris, there will always be Alger.
15:46I'll never find a different ending to the past.
15:49I want to hold on to something else.
15:52I want to be here.
15:53Now.
15:55With you.
15:56Yeah.
16:24That's a 100-day.
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