00:00it's really important you you have those moments where you take stock and the biggest example for
00:03me was that was when i um i was doing work with the air ambulance and i was a pilot
00:08flying with
00:08them and you know we had busy jobs and you had people in sadly very difficult situations that
00:15you were having to sort of um help them with and and work with and over time i noticed my
00:21mental
00:22health really deteriorating and i hadn't really clocked onto it because in that community you try
00:27and make light of some of the moments just to keep frankly sane and keep going and so it wasn't
00:33until i stepped away from it on a sort of longer break that i looked at myself and went my
00:37god i'm
00:38i'm carrying everyone's emotional baggage and so what i was doing was i was taking snippets from
00:42each job i'd been on each family member that had been distraught or whatever and i was carrying that
00:46in myself and it was really weighing me down and that's what i've done a lot of work with the
00:52blue
00:52light community because i think that happens to a lot of them is it's not until you step away from
00:56it either that you retire or you have a break which many don't get long enough breaks
01:00are you able to kind of process what kind of attritional mental emotional um experiences
01:06you're having each time and you can't you can't have time to deal with that it's just it's coming
01:11at you so fast and if you're carrying a bit of emotional um baggage you're like from each scene
01:16from someone else's experience it just weighs you down
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