00:00It has been the hardest year of my life, and I wanted to share something that I learned with y
00:06'all.
00:07When I was younger, I used to define myself as an actor, right?
00:13Which was never really all that fulfilling.
00:16And then I became a husband, and that was much better.
00:18And then I became a father, and that was the ultimate.
00:21I could define myself then as a loving, capable, strong, supportive husband, father, provider, steward of the land that we're
00:32so lucky to live on.
00:33And for a long time, that felt like a really good definition to the question, who am I?
00:38What am I?
00:40And then this year, I had to look my own mortality in the eye.
00:48I had to come nose to nose with death.
00:51And all of those definitions that I cared so deeply about were stripped from me.
00:56I was away for treatment, so I could no longer be a husband that was helpful to my wife.
01:01I could no longer be a father who could pick up his kids and put them to bed and be
01:05there for them.
01:06I could not be a provider because I wasn't working.
01:10I couldn't even be a steward of the land because at times I was too weak to prune all the
01:15trees during the window that you're supposed to prune them.
01:19And so I was faced with the question, if I am just a too skinny, weak guy alone in an
01:29apartment with cancer, what am I?
01:36And I meditated and the answer came through, I am worthy of God's love simply because I exist.
01:49And if I'm worthy of God's love, shouldn't I also be worthy of my own?
01:55And the same is true for you.
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