00:00My eldest brother Jim died in Saigon when I was five.
00:07I don't really remember him.
00:10I always thought Jim died in the war.
00:16In some ways the truth was hidden from me.
00:19There's always been a lot of mystery about what happened to Jim.
00:23Jim was so interested in the rising tide.
00:31North Vietnam cannot humiliate the United States.
00:36A few months after getting home from the Army,
00:38Jimmy was making plans to return to Vietnam as a civilian.
00:42And he talked about the sex and the drugs and the food and the music.
00:48We thought that he had fallen in love with some woman over there
00:51and wouldn't tell us about her.
00:53Because that's the way he acted.
00:54But Jimmy was very, shall we say, secretive.
00:58It was pretty clear even then that he was hurting about things.
01:03Hi.
01:04You the GM brother?
01:06Yes.
01:07Bonjour.
01:08Bonjour.
01:09Ça va?
01:10There's just so many unanswered questions.
01:14I remember one Frank talk we had and I said,
01:18well I just wondered, are you interested in girls or are you interested in boys?
01:22He doesn't, he didn't say anything.
01:25When I came out, I was like really suffering.
01:29To know that I might have had a gay brother,
01:31could be a really, really moving thing for me.
01:35I want to get down to every bit of truth.
01:41Then other people may be resistant.
01:44Wait, wait.
01:45I really want to know if Jim was gay, if he had a lover.
01:49No.
01:50They didn't know.
01:51If I can find this lover.
01:52No.
01:53No.
01:54I want to find out the real truth behind actually how he died.
01:57Who's that?
01:58Oh, my mother.
02:00My mother.
02:04I just feel like I'm on the tip of the iceberg.
02:30I can find out.
02:32I'm not in a head.
02:34I'm just feeling like I said,
02:36I'll be drinking.
02:38I'm not in a head.
02:40I'm hoping that in my head.
02:42I'm not in a head.
02:43No.
02:44I not in a head.
02:45I mean that it's all in a head.
02:46I'm so ready to pee.
02:47I'm so ready to leave.
02:48I'm super ready to go to sex.
02:49I'm so ready.
02:51I feel like I'm not in a cell phone.
02:53I'm so ready to go to sex.
02:55I helped to work with a child.
02:57I feel like I'm in a head.
